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to_o repent_v and_o to_o go_v on_o in_o their_o sin_n with_o confidence_n of_o impunity_n though_o hereby_o they_o make_v god_n unjust_a and_o rather_o the_o refuge_n and_o confident_a of_o their_o crime_n than_o the_o true_a protector_n of_o innocence_n and_o virtue_n now_o whilst_o thy_o thunder_n have_v awake_v i_o and_o thy_o rod_n correct_v i_o now_o whilst_o i_o be_o sensible_a of_o the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o life_n the_o dangerous_a condition_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o be_o convince_v that_o there_o be_v a_o heaven_n a_o hell_n and_o a_o eternity_n now_o whilst_o i_o be_o sensible_a that_o those_o thing_n which_o hitherto_o enchant_v i_o be_v but_o lie_a vanity_n whilst_o i_o be_o inflame_v more_o than_o ever_o with_o a_o ardent_a desire_n of_o be_v sincere_o convert_v unto_o thou_o teach_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o as_o thou_o be_v a_o god_n full_a of_o mercy_n and_o compassion_n to_o those_o sinner_n who_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n and_o return_v unto_o thou_o with_o all_o their_o 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ought_v to_o inquire_v after_o for_o the_o conduct_n of_o she_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v avoid_v all_o the_o flattery_n of_o self-love_n by_o which_o the_o devil_n take_v occasion_n to_o rob_v i_o of_o thy_o grace_n grant_v o_o my_o god_n that_o instead_o of_o search_v into_o my_o corruption_n for_o palliate_a remedy_n to_o skin_n over_o my_o sore_n i_o may_v place_v my_o self_n at_o the_o tribunal_n of_o thy_o justice_n and_o there_o apply_v those_o caustic_n which_o be_v necessary_a to_o consume_v gangrene_n and_o rottenness_n of_o my_o soul_n that_o be_v to_o say_v lord_n permit_v i_o not_o to_o be_v deceive_v or_o rather_o let_v i_o not_o take_v pleasure_n in_o deceive_a myself_o in_o fancy_v that_o i_o shall_v make_v amends_o for_o such_o a_o heathenish_a life_n as_o i_o have_v be_v such_o criminal_a and_o scandalous_a passion_n whilst_o i_o continue_v in_o the_o same_o sinful_a habit_n the_o same_o opportunity_n the_o same_o pleasure_n and_o perhaps_o the_o same_o crime_n too_o 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inform_v my_o judgement_n and_o understand_v when_o to_o absolve_v i_o and_o not_o a_o blind_a or_o a_o deceitful_a guide_n who_o corrupt_v thy_o holy_a word_n bend_v the_o rule_n to_o my_o lust_n rather_o than_o conform_v i_o to_o it_o and_o endeavour_n more_o to_o please_v than_o save_v i_o who_o by_o a_o too_o speedy_a administration_n of_o absolution_n lull_v i_o into_o a_o false_a peace_n become_v the_o partner_n of_o my_o sin_n the_o cause_n of_o my_o damnation_n and_o a_o instrument_n of_o the_o devil_n rather_o than_o the_o servant_n of_o jesus_n christ_n for_o o_o lord_n in_o that_o day_n when_o all_o the_o secret_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o all_o the_o evasion_n of_o self-love_n shall_v be_v lay_v open_a thou_o will_v not_o then_o judge_v i_o by_o the_o maxim_n of_o my_o ghostly_a guide_n but_o by_o thy_o holy_a gospel_n and_o that_o light_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o which_o i_o have_v so_o often_o reject_v not_o willing_a to_o have_v the_o darkness_n of_o my_o mind_n dispel_v by_o it_o thou_o will_v judge_v i_o by_o those_o truth_n which_o notwithstanding_o my_o corruption_n have_v pierce_v to_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n by_o that_o remorse_n which_o thou_o do_v mingle_v with_o my_o most_o criminal_a pleasure_n thereby_o to_o recall_v my_o heart_n but_o alas_o i_o always_o stifle_v they_o that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o free_o abandon_v myself_o to_o my_o passion_n those_o lie_a vanity_n and_o last_o o_o my_o god_n it_o be_v by_o the_o book_n of_o my_o own_o conscience_n and_o not_o that_o of_o my_o ghostly_a guide_n by_o which_o thou_o my_o sovereign_a judge_n will_v pronounce_v my_o sentence_n at_o that_o terrible_a day_n when_o thou_o will_v declare_v my_o â—ternal_a doom_n reflect_v ix_o â—he_n pray_v that_o out_o of_o his_o mercy_n he_o will_v be_v please_v to_o direct_v she_o continual_o in_o the_o straight_a way_n which_o lead_v unto_o he_o and_o not_o permit_v she_o ro_o flatter_v herself_o that_o she_o have_v repent_v when_o she_o be_v run_v on_o still_o in_o the_o broad_a way_n ah_o lord_n since_o i_o have_v no_o way_n leave_v to_o appease_v my_o judge_n and_o to_o avoid_v the_o sentence_n of_o death_n but_o to_o juge_fw-fr myself_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v examine_v myself_o before_o the_o tribunal_n of_o thy_o justice_n grant_v that_o by_o a_o sincere_a repentance_n and_o a_o hearty_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n i_o may_v appease_v thy_o vengeance_n and_o suffer_v i_o not_o so_o to_o deceive_v myself_o in_o my_o repentance_n and_o thereby_o oblige_v thou_o to_o judge_v i_o a_o second_o time_n &_o punish_v i_o in_o the_o day_n of_o thy_o fiery_a indignation_n o_o lord_n inflame_v my_o heart_n with_o that_o spark_n of_o thy_o grace_n which_o remain_v in_o my_o soul_n and_o which_o sometime_o make_v it_o sigh_v within_o itself_o change_v my_o pleasure_n into_o bitterness_n my_o prosperity_n into_o affliction_n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o be_v assure_v thou_o have_v change_v thy_o hatred_n into_o love_n and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o find_v in_o my_o sinful_a estate_n a_o more_o deadly_a tranquillity_n than_o in_o misery_n itself_o what_o can_v be_v more_o fatal_a to_o we_o than_o to_o be_v deceive_v in_o our_o conversion_n and_o in_o those_o maxim_n of_o corrupt_a morality_n which_o ruin_n more_o than_o debauchery_n itself_o for_o what_o more_o dangerous_a sickness_n can_v there_o be_v than_o that_o which_o make_v we_o refuse_v all_o remedy_n in_o fine_a what_o more_o destructive_a than_o a_o reformation_n in_o appearance_n only_o which_o entice_v we_o out_o of_o the_o straight_a way_n of_o eternal_a life_n into_o the_o broad_a road_n of_o sin_n lord_n once_o again_o i_o beseech_v thou_o chasten_v i_o not_o in_o thy_o displeasure_n as_o thou_o do_v those_o reprobate_n who_o thou_o punish_v with_o prosperity_n because_o they_o will_v not_o partake_v of_o thy_o holy_a suffering_n remember_v o_o my_o god_n that_o i_o be_o but_o dust_n and_o ash_n a_o fit_a object_n of_o thy_o compassion_n than_o thy_o fury_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n be_v proportionate_a to_o the_o heinousness_n of_o my_o offence_n and_o thy_o infinite_a lovingkindness_n which_o have_v no_o other_o object_n no_o other_o bound_n but_o thy_o mercy_n alone_o in_o fine_a give_v i_o a_o pardon_v which_o may_v blot_v out_o all_o my_o offence_n render_v i_o worthy_a of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n reflect_v x._o motive_n of_o trust_n in_o god_n and_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o jesus_n christ_n alone_o can_v confirm_v our_o faith_n and_o strengthen_v our_o hope_n correct_v i_o o_o lord_n but_o in_o mercy_n consider_v my_o frailty_n and_o the_o bias_n of_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n which_o incline_v i_o unto_o sin_n and_o rivet_n my_o affection_n to_o the_o thing_n of_o
this_o world_n have_v compassion_n on_o my_o indigence_n and_o inconstancy_n which_o divert_v i_o from_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v good_a and_o maugre_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n render_v tll_v my_o good_a work_n abortive_a o_o god_n who_o love_v we_o more_o than_o we_o can_v love_v ourselves_o and_o who_o out_o of_o thy_o infinite_a goodness_n have_v rescue_v i_o from_o a_o false_a hope_n by_o which_o i_o shall_v have_v be_v flatter_v into_o final_a impenitence_n and_o thus_o have_v save_v i_o contrary_n to_o my_o own_o inclination_n give_v i_o a_o solid_a hope_n in_o thy_o divine_a merit_n let_v i_o consider_v they_o as_o the_o only_a object_n of_o my_o trust_n and_o principal_o when_o the_o devil_n tempt_v i_o to_o despair_v and_o employ_v all_o his_o artifices_fw-la by_o the_o interposition_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o frailty_n to_o eclipse_v the_o contemplation_n of_o thy_o merit_n in_o this_o day_n of_o my_o affliction_n and_o distress_n o_o my_o god_n fix_v my_o eye_n upon_o my_o bless_a saviour_n die_v on_o the_o cross_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o miserable_o tear_v by_o those_o furrow_n which_o the_o scourge_v make_v upon_o his_o back_n let_v i_o consider_v that_o thou_o do_v endure_v all_o this_o to_o obtain_v pardon_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o encourage_v i_o to_o the_o take_v up_o of_o thy_o cross_n upon_o which_o depend_v all_o my_o hope_n of_o salvation_n let_v i_o contemplate_v in_o thy_o sacred_a wound_n the_o right_n i_o a_o notorious_a sinner_n have_v to_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n let_v the_o hope_n of_o a_o bless_a eternity_n and_o the_o immutability_n of_o thy_o promise_n take_v off_o my_o meditation_n from_o the_o vain_a and_o fleet_a enjoyment_n of_o this_o world_n which_o hinder_v my_o soul_n from_o aspire_v to_o eternal_a felicity_n for_o thou_o know_v o_o lord_n how_o little_a stability_n there_o be_v in_o my_o best_a desire_n and_o how_o speedy_o the_o impression_n of_o thy_o grace_n on_o my_o heart_n be_v deface_v by_o the_o vain_a idea_n of_o worldly_a pleasure_n how_o the_o hope_n of_o some_o trifle_n some_o vain_a lust_n puff_v up_o my_o soul_n how_o the_o honour_n and_o applause_n of_o this_o world_n make_v i_o giddy_a and_o drink_v with_o the_o fume_n of_o vainglory_n in_o fine_a lord_n thou_o know_v much_o better_a than_o i_o myself_o how_o pliable_a i_o be_o to_o receive_v any_o impression_n of_o evil_n how_o averse_a to_o any_o â—hing_n which_o be_v good_a and_o how_o unstable_a in_o the_o way_n of_o thy_o commandment_n this_o be_v the_o reason_n o_o lord_n â—hat_n i_o put_v no_o confidence_n in_o myself_o that_o my_o heart_n convert_v itself_o to_o thou_o in_o all_o its_o want_n and_o â—n_n the_o day_n of_o adversity_n to_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o enlightene_v the_o dark_a recess_n of_o my_o mind_n who_o possesse_v i_o with_o patience_n under_o the_o severe_a affliction_n and_o be_v the_o anchor_n of_o my_o soul_n here_o be_v lord_n my_o merit_n my_o riches_n and_o my_o refuge_n when_o the_o consideration_n of_o my_o wicked_a life_n terrify_v i_o here_o be_v lord_n my_o comfort_n in_o this_o vale_n of_o tear_n and_o spiritual_a warfare_n wherein_o my_o soul_n be_v make_v the_o scene_n of_o all_o sort_n of_o passion_n in_o fine_a this_o make_v i_o hope_v more_o than_o fear_n and_o rely_v on_o thy_o mercy_n rather_o than_o dread_v of_o thy_o justice_n ah_o lord_n since_o i_o know_v by_o experience_n that_o thou_o be_v a_o sure_a help_n to_o those_o that_o trust_v in_o thou_o teach_v i_o to_o rely_v upon_o thou_o in_o my_o great_a extremity_n to_o rejoice_v in_o thy_o chastisement_n and_o to_o look_v upon_o they_o as_o mark_n of_o thy_o favour_n assist_v i_o patient_o to_o undergo_v they_o and_o assure_v i_o that_o thou_o will_v lay_v upon_o i_o no_o more_o than_o i_o be_o able_a to_o bear_v but_o will_v take_v thy_o rod_n from_o i_o when_o it_o shall_v be_v conveucent_a for_o the_o health_n of_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o be_v full_o assure_v that_o thy_o grace_n will_v in_o thy_o good_a time_n remove_v all_o obstacle_n which_o obstruct_v my_o salvation_n that_o my_o suffering_n and_o the_o malice_n of_o my_o enemy_n will_v have_v a_o end_n but_o that_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o that_o after_o i_o have_v fight_v the_o good_a fight_n here_o on_o earth_n i_o shall_v receive_v a_o crown_n of_o â—lory_n in_o heaven_n for_o thou_o maâ—est_v the_o ray_n of_o thy_o grace_n to_o â—hine_v upon_o the_o just_a and_o the_o unâ—ust_n which_o at_o the_o same_o time_n â—elt_v down_o the_o humbe_n soul_n into_o 〈◊〉_d sincere_a repentance_n and_o harden_v â—he_v habitual_a and_o obdurate_a sinâ—er_n to_o the_o end_n that_o the_o one_o â—hould_v not_o be_v tempt_v to_o presume_v or_o the_o other_o to_o dispair_n â—ut_v all_o remain_n in_o a_o continual_a dependence_n upon_o thy_o grace_n let_v i_o not_o then_o o_o my_o god_n be_v in_o the_o number_n of_o those_o who_o will_v be_v astonish_v and_o confound_v at_o the_o great_a day_n because_o they_o have_v reject_v thy_o grace_n for_o i_o cast_v myself_o whole_o upon_o thy_o mercy_n which_o be_v infinite_a and_o know_v no_o bound_n without_o any_o reserve_n or_o confidence_n in_o my_o own_o merit_n but_o o_o lord_n because_o faith_n and_o hope_n and_o all_o other_o virtue_n will_v avail_v i_o nothing_o without_o charity_n because_o though_o i_o can_v remove_v mountain_n and_o work_v all_o sort_n of_o miracle_n yet_o my_o work_n will_v be_v dead_a and_o sinful_a unless_o season_v by_o thy_o love_n give_v i_o therefore_o in_o the_o three_o place_n that_o charity_n which_o be_v the_o crown_n of_o all_o other_o virtue_n and_o the_o soul_n of_o our_o good_a work_n i_o will_v say_v lord_n give_v i_o a_o fervent_a and_o a_o faithful_a love_n to_o thou_o whereby_o i_o shall_v easy_o overcome_v all_o seem_a impossibility_n and_o satisfy_v the_o thirst_n of_o my_o pant_a soul_n after_o a_o sincere_a conversion_n unto_o thou_o reflect_v xi_o she_o pray_v to_o god_n for_o a_o new_a heart_n inflame_v with_o his_o love_n for_o a_o foundation_n of_o that_o miraculous_a work_n which_o one_o very_o true_o call_v the_o chief_a work_n of_o thy_o grace_n create_v in_o i_o o_o my_o god_n a_o new_a heart_n a_o humble_a yet_o a_o resolute_a steady_a and_o courageous_a heart_n estrange_v from_o the_o world_n and_o its_o vanity_n and_o in_o short_a a_o true_a christian_a heart_n which_o may_v possess_v i_o with_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o enable_v i_o to_o expose_v my_o life_n and_o fortune_n for_o the_o confession_n of_o thy_o name_n and_o render_v i_o obedient_a to_o the_o foolishness_n of_o the_o cross_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o a_o crooked_a and_o perverse_a generation_n among_o who_o it_o be_v esteem_v a_o scandal_n to_o be_v religious_a a_o heart_n which_o will_v love_v thou_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o severe_a trial_n resist_v the_o concupiscence_n of_o the_o flesh_n mortify_v its_o corrupt_a appetite_n and_o irregular_a desire_n a_o heart_n which_o will_v love_v thou_o when_o i_o be_o call_v upon_o to_o evidence_n that_o love_n by_o love_v my_o enemy_n and_o return_v they_o good_a for_o evil._n a_o heart_n which_o for_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o will_v deny_v itself_o when_o there_o be_v any_o competition_n between_o the_o creature_n and_o the_o creator_n which_o will_v silence_v all_o the_o importunity_n of_o nature_n that_o it_o may_v become_v more_o obedient_a to_o the_o voice_n of_o thy_o grace_n a_o heart_n which_o will_v love_v thou_o when_o it_o must_v suffer_v for_o it_o and_o will_v be_v content_a i_o shall_v sacrifice_v my_o reputation_n and_o honour_n to_o thy_o glory_n in_o imitation_n of_o thy_o humble_a life_n and_o opprobrious_a death_n upon_o the_o cross_n a_o heart_n which_o for_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o will_v relinquish_v the_o favour_n of_o the_o court_n prefer_v thy_o service_n before_o the_o splendour_n of_o my_o family_n or_o whatsoever_o be_v most_o dear_a to_o i_o demonstrate_v hereby_o that_o my_o love_n to_o thou_o surpass_v that_o of_o the_o world_n last_o grant_v o_o my_o god_n that_o 〈◊〉_d may_v love_v thou_o not_o only_o for_o thy_o benefit_n when_o thou_o bless_v i_o with_o prosperity_n and_o the_o abundance_n of_o good_a thing_n in_o this_o world_n but_o also_o when_o i_o be_o in_o disgrace_n poverty_n or_o any_o other_o affliction_n learn_v i_o then_o to_o submit_v to_o the_o dispensation_n of_o thy_o providence_n and_o become_v more_o conformable_a to_o thy_o divine_a will._n for_o o_o lord_n what_o testimony_n can_v i_o give_v thou_o of_o my_o love_n which_o will_v in_o the_o least_o answer_v thy_o love_n to_o i_o nay_o which_o be_v not_o infinite_o surpass_v by_o those_o favour_n thou_o have_v be_v please_v to_o confer_v upon_o i_o reflect_v xii_o if_o the_o soul_n find_v any_o thing_n in_o thâ—_n
vicissitude_n of_o these_o sublunary_a thing_n can_v deprive_v i_o of_o i_o mean_v the_o joy_n to_o see_v myself_o redeem_v from_o the_o slavery_n of_o sin_n in_o a_o state_n of_o salvation_n and_o lead_v by_o the_o hand_n of_o thy_o divine_a providence_n to_o my_o heavenly_a canaan_n season_n also_o my_o heart_n with_o thy_o grace_n that_o spirit_n and_o principle_n of_o action_n which_o having-washed_a we_o clean_o in_o the_o blood_n of_o our_o saviour_n furnish_v we_o with_o strength_n to_o persevere_v to_o the_o end_n in_o the_o way_n of_o his_o commandment_n for_o alas_o what_o will_v become_v of_o those_o vow_n which_o i_o make_v unto_o thou_o when_o i_o be_v surround_v with_o fear_n and_o in_o danger_n of_o lose_v my_o soul_n i_o say_v what_o will_v become_v of_o they_o unless_o thou_o o_o lord_n out_o of_o the_o abundance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n art-pleased_a to_o imprint_v they_o on_o my_o mind_n fix_v they_o in_o my_o thought_n and_o enable_v mâ—_n to_o conquer_v the_o 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