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the_o place_n where_o thy_o konour_n dwell_v and_o one_o thing_n have_v i_o desire_v of_o the_o lord_n that_o will_v i_o seek_v after_o that_o i_o may_v dwell_v in_o the_o house_n of_o the_o lord_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n to_o bekold_n the_o beauty_n of_o the_o lord_n etc._n etc._n and_o how_o true_o may_v she_o call_v sabbath_n and_o ordinance_n her_o delight_n she_o have_v there_o see_v god_n and_o his_o face_n his_o power_n and_o glory_n his_o go_n in_o his_o sanctuary_n yea_o sabbath_n be_v to_o she_o as_o the_o suburb_n of_o heaven_n ordinance_n be_v not_o in_o heaven_n but_o heaven_n she_o have_v many_o a_o time_n meet_v with_o in_o ordinance_n and_o she_o drink_v but_o that_o wine_n new_a now_o in_o heaven_n which_o she_o begin_v to_o drink_v in_o ordinance_n here_o matt._n 26_o 29._o 13._o as_o concern_v some_o further_a evidence_n for_o heaven_n i_o have_v a_o great_a deal_n of_o comfort_n in_o this_o that_o i_o be_o as_o willing_a to_o take_v christ_n for_o my_o 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