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An exact and true relation of the behaviour of Edmund Kirk, John Bennet, Morgan Keading [i.e. Reading] and Andrew Hill, during their imprisonment, and at the place of execution on Friday the 11th of this instant July 1684 with their last dying words and speeches at Tyburn.
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left that place but hoping I should be more at ease consented to Marry her which I did within five or six days and then went to Mr. Hill at the Rose in Pye-Cornâr about eight days after I was Married she being then in Service at a Gentlemans house in Fish-street On Sunday the 25th of May I called upon her at her Masters house and desired her to go out and walk with me and when we came into a Field near Paddington I did that Bloody Act for which I new deservedly suffer I do confess to all the world it has been the great trouble and afflictioâ of my soul that I should be so Barbarous and Cruel to her and I cannot but praise the infinite Mercys of Almighty God who was been pleased to give me time to repent who had not so much Pitty or Consideration with me to allow her one Moments respit to say her prayers in I first gave her a knock with my Cane which beat her back and falling down I cut her throat with a small Knife I had in my pocket without giving her the liberty of speaking one word of Mercy It was the present instigation of the Devil that put it into my head at that instant nor had I when I call'd her out from her Masters house any thought of committing that horrid Murther upon her which I hope Almighty God will pardon me for VVHereas the all-searching Eye of God in whose presence Darkness is Light has by the sending of his Vengeance upon me meritoriously and the Terrors of the Lord which should perswade all men to true Repentance having seized my very Soul I think it equally My Obligation to man and man kind and my Duty to my Almighty God to give a âull account to the World to prevent the Fatal Entertainment of those Sins and the subtilty of that Prince of Darkness which has brought me to this untimely and shameful death in order that Virtue may have its full value and Vice be painted in its proper Colours I have been guilty of Innumerous heinous Offences and sins of the greatest Magnitude and those learned from the Evil Company that I constantly frequented and nourished by letting loose the Reigns to my own ruine the commands of God were always vile and cheap to me and my irregular life transcendently more eligible and preferable before the least thought of Eternity So that I confess before God and the World that the breaking of the Sabbath was the fatal bane to my prosperity and living Christianly here and may without the great mercy of God prove so hereafter nor was this the period of my wicked and unchristian life as I was naturally inclined to all manner of Lewdness that my Age and Stature was capable of so I added the Whip and Spur to my inordinate affections and was as industrious to find out suitable Companions as eager and ready to consent to their Wickedness hence it is that Drukenness Lust and Lying have had the sole Dominion and Rule over me and my Passion as frequently above my principles as my Pride was exalted above all that is called good so that now I have made a wooful experiment how fatal it is to live without God in the World to be destitute of regeneration a turning from Darkness unto Light and from the power of Satan unto the Kingdom of God As to the Crime I am accused of I never wanted so much grace as not to confess it and were I to gain a thousand Worlds to transact it I should rather refuse them than be perpetually haunted with an evil Conscience which inseperably attends such abominable and hellish crimes some may perhaps expect that I should mitigate and lesson my Sin by alledging some inductives that may be proper to that purpose but as the Fact was barbarous even to the highest degree so if I had the greatest provocation in the World it could never stand me in any stead or excuse either to God or Man and therefore it is as needless to apoligize me as Sinful to blame the Innocent though indeed my Wife had given me perpetual occasions to be passionate but not to that degree as to be guilty of Murder O Lord most Holy Good and Gracious Everlasting and Blessed Lord God how Glorious art thou Lord God thou art a great God and a merciful God and thou hast done for me a thousand times more then I have deserved I must confess I have been a great Sinner I have done those things which I ought not for to have done and I have left undone those things which I ought for to have done Lord help me and strengthen my Faith Every Minute more and more those few Minutes that I have for to live in this World that when my Soul and Body parts My Soul may ascend up to Heaven and he that shed his precious Blood for Sinners if it be his Blessed Well may make my peace with God Lord let my sins be covered forsake me not because of my Sins for I have been a great Sinner I have offended against all thy Holy Laws I have humbly confest them all Lord for Christ Jesus sake forgive me all my Sins I have confess'd them upon my bended Knees grant that I may be a warning to others that they may spend their Sabbath better walk uprightly and justly and do nothing contrary to Gods Law Lord receive my everlasting Soul Jesus keep me from the Torments of Hell One thing more I Beg Lord bless my poor Friends that I shall leave behind me and give them Grace to undergo this trouble and now I part in peace I have repented me of all my Sins and for Christ Jesus sake enable me with all things necessary this day concluding my imperfect Prayer as Christ himself hath taught me saying our Father which art in Heaven OH that men would consider this in time how sin will one day change their Countenance howeâer it cometh at first in a flattering form pretending nothing but Friendship but in the end will leave a Sting behind it even a guilty Conscience terror of mind and anguish of Spirit There one let us fly from Sin as from the biting of a Serpent that we be not stung therewith unto Eternal Death Knowing that the wages of Sin is Death O Most Merciful and ever Blessed Lord God I beseech thee O Lord look down upon me with an Eye of pitty if it be thy Blessed Will it is thy infinite Mercy that I am on this side the Grave and out of Hell O Lord I have deserved to be cast into Torments to all Eternity how have I offended thee and run into Sin and thought I could never do enough to abuse thy Mercy pardon the sins that I have commited wash that Blood from off my Soul Let not my Soul perish to Eternity It was an horrid Crime to shed Innocent Blood pardon that sin O Lord let not the Blood of that Creature cry for vengeance O Lord thou hast
been Merciful to me in giving me time to repent for ought I know her Soul is undone for ever Lord forgive me I new not what I did forgive my Sabbath breaking Lyiâg Cursing forgive my Drunkenness blot them out of thy Book of Remembrance turn them away behind thee O Lord I have repented of them from my Soul that ever I should offend a God so Good and so Merceiful and Gracious I do believe on thee and do wholy throw my self upon thee I acknowledge it would be just in thee to Damn my Soul but it would be infinite Mercy in thee to save me and what free Grace will it be in thee to pardon me it is dreadful to loose the Body but how dreadful will it be to loose the Soul to all Eternity Lord let it not be in vain that I have had so many instructions O let me not go down to Hell let my soul Bless and prrise thy Name for ever for what thou hast done for me thou hast been at work upon my heart and thou hast helped me to repent the Lord be praised Lord I desire to be more and more humble under the sene of my sins for they are dreadful There are many Souls that have not committed those sins that are now in Hell O what Mercy it is that I am not in those flames in those devouring Flames Lord as thou hast spared me here spare me to Eternity let not my Soul perish Lord reveal thy self unto me make known thy Love unto me tell me my sin are pardoned tell me that I have an intrest in Christ before I go hence and be seen no more that I might leave some Testimony behind me that I might tell thy Ministry what thou hast done for me and tell thy people what thou hast done for my Soul Lord this will not be only for my Satisfaction but for thy Glory Blessed Lord pardon the sins that I am Guilty of and take away this cursed base heart of mine Break this Rockie Stonie Heart in pieces the sins of Murther and Drunkenness were in my heart before I thought no Eyes did see me commit those sins but thou didst see me Lord turn my heart to thee and take away this heart of Stone and take away this cursed Nature that brought me to these sins and to this End and I was in danger of loosing my soul to all Eternity but Lord tha I am a great sinner Christ is a great Saviour he is able to free me from my sins tho they be never so great I do believe Lord I do speak freely from my heart so far as I know my heart I do believe it is my grief I can sorrow no more for my sins which have been the cause of my offending thee so long and so much One drop of thy Blood sprinkled upon my soul will pardon all my sins Lord cross the black line of my sins with the red line of my Blood I am not able to answer for one vain thought much less for all my horrid crimes Lord save my immortal soul that I may sing praise to thee to all Eternity thou hast pardoned Manasseth that was a great sinner and Mary Magdalen and âaul that were great sinners the Thief upon the Cross and thy Mercies are as great thy Mercies and thy Love to repenting sinners is not shortned though my sins are great yet thy mercies are greater than my sins Lord be with me in my Death then let me have some comfortable assurance of thy Love unto my soul of the pardon of my sins do thou be my God and my Guide now and to all Eternity Amen EDMUND KIRK July the 11th 1684. This Morning between Nine and Ten of the Clock they were put into two Carts at Newgate Kirk and Bennet into one Cart and Hill and Reading into the other the Cart that Hill and Reading was in went foremost Reading had a Book in his hand intituled Fryers for the Sick Hill appeared very Penitent calling uppon God Almighty for Mercy in these Ejaculations Lord hrve mercy upon me Christ have mercy upnn me c. Kirk had a Bible in his hand and seemed yery Penitent but with a chearful Countenance Bennet had no Book in his hand nor said any thing At the place of Execution they all four went into one Cart where Mr. Ordinary pray'd with them Reading declared he dyed a Roman Catholick Hill blam'd a former Companion of his own Richard Johnson who had brought him into those leud Courses and pray'd heartily but appeared a very ignorant person Kirk made no Confession but pray'd the same Prayer which he had penn'd in Prison and is mention'd before Viz. O Lord Most Holy c. He gave his Bible to his Uncle who was in the Cart with him for the use of his Daughter Elizabeth Kirk The Cart was drawn away and they suffered according to Law Entered according to Order LONDON Printed by Elizabeth Mallet in Blackhorse-Alley near Fleet-Briegd