and_o yet_o thy_o goodness_n compel_v i_o to_o enter_v o_o who_o will_v give_v i_o power_n and_o ability_n sufficient_o to_o extol_v thy_o most_o a_o boundant_a mercy_n which_o in_o this_o and_o all_o other_o thing_n thy_o sweet_a goodness_n have_v show_v towards_o i_o bless_a infinite_o be_v my_o lord_n by_o all_o his_o creature_n my_o only_a study_n shall_v be_v to_o praise_v thou_o and_o my_o only_a desir_n that_o i_o may_v be_v faithful_a in_o all_o cross_n and_o misery_n to_o thou_o my_o only_o belove_a let_v thy_o grace_n flow_v i_o beseech_v thou_o upon_o thy_o servant_n who_o with_o so_o much_o care_n pain_n and_o solicitud_n for_o thy_o sake_n endeavour_v to_o win_v my_o hart_n whole_o to_o thou_o remember_v he_o unto_o good_a according_a to_o all_o he_o have_v do_v for_o i_o baker_n he_o have_v true_o make_v i_o to_o see_v and_o feel_v though_o through_o my_o great_a fault_n and_o ignorance_n i_o before_o think_v otherwise_o that_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n which_o now_o i_o shall_v alâ—o_v be_v convince_v by_o experience_n acknowledge_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o thy_o honour_n and_o my_o confusion_n who_o dare_v presume_v to_o think_v otherwise_o pardon_v i_o beseech_v thou_o therefore_o for_o thinâ—_n own_o sake_n this_o my_o sin_n among_o the_o rest_n which_o be_v innumerable_a and_o let_v i_o hereafter_o be_v a_o true_a servant_n and_o child_n of_o thou_o â—ho_fw-mi be_v bless_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxxviii_o confession_n 17._o semper_fw-la gaudete_fw-la sine_fw-la intermissione_n orate_fw-la always_o rejoice_v pray_v without_o cease_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n they_o that_o true_o love_v thou_o may_v indeed_o just_o always_o rejoice_v and_o without_o intermission_n praise_v thou_o but_o i_o that_o daily_a and_o hour_o offend_v thy_o divino_fw-la majesty_n ought_v to_o weep_v and_o lament_v my_o sin_n bitter_o sit_v solitary_a and_o make_v my_o moan_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n who_o be_v only_a able_a to_o help_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o this_o misery_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o become_v true_o humble_a teach_v i_o humility_n obedience_n and_o patience_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscure_v by_o my_o pride_n and_o other_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thy_o law_n and_o humble_o embrace_v thy_o bless_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n o_o let_v i_o be_v true_o subject_a to_o thou_o as_o thou_o will_v have_v i_o and_o even_o to_o all_o other_o alsoâ—_n as_o it_o be_v exact_v by_o thou_o of_o i_o woe_n be_v to_o my_o soul_n if_o daily_o it_o become_v not_o more_o and_o more_o obedient_a ro_o tâ—ee_v and_o to_o other_o for_o thou_o give_v i_o true_a discretion_n for_o no_o virtue_n have_v more_o of_o virtue_n in_o it_o than_o it_o partake_v oâ—_n this_o divine_a virtue_n give_v i_o true_a wisdom_n which_o make_v soul_n so_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o which_o thou_o imparte_v to_o the_o humble_a and_o those_o that_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o that_o seek_v thou_o above_o all_o gift_n and_o create_a thing_n whatsoever_o o_o love_n love_n flow_v into_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o my_o god_n alone_o and_o praise_v this_o my_o belove_a for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o thirty-nine_o confession_n o_o deus_fw-la meus_fw-la quis_fw-la similis_fw-la tibi_fw-la o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v like_a to_o thou_o who_o will_v give_v mâ—_n that_o without_o ceasingâ—_n may_v adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o with_o a_o amorous_a aspect_n regard_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n not_o seek_v myself_n nor_o the_o please_a of_o any_o creature_n for_o itself_o in_o any_o thing_n i_o do_v or_o omit_v 11._o desolatione_n desolata_fw-la est_fw-la omnis_fw-la terra_fw-la quia_fw-la nullus_fw-la est_fw-la qui_fw-la recogiter_fw-la cord_n with_o desolation_n all_o the_o land_n be_v make_v desolate_a because_o there_o be_v none_o who_o consider_v in_o the_o hart_n o_o my_o god_n what_o wonder_n be_v it_o that_o we_o live_v in_o blindness_n if_o we_o come_v not_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a light_n what_o do_v we_o with_o soul_n and_o heart_n capable_a of_o love_n if_o we_o do_v not_o by_o they_o aspire_v to_o thou_o with_o all_o our_o strength_n and_o adhere_v to_o thou_o the_o only_a true_a and_o perfect_a good_a what_o be_v sweet_a what_o be_v to_o be_v desire_v but_o thou_o my_o lord_n who_o be_v beauty_n itself_o what_o can_v thou_o do_v more_o than_o make_v out_o soul_n to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n and_o able_a â—o_o be_v satisfy_v with_o nothing_o but_o thyself_o o_o misery_n of_o all_o misery_n the_o great_a that_o thou_o shall_v be_v offend_v and_o forget_v by_o we_o and_o that_o any_o thing_n shall_v possess_v our_o soul_n beside_o thy_o love_n which_o only_o can_v make_v we_o happy_a and_o please_v in_o thy_o eye_n woe_n be_v i_o who_o have_v stray_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n by_o which_o my_o â—oul_n be_v dry_v up_o and_o even_o wither_v away_o in_o thirst_n after_o transitory_a thing_n change_v this_o my_o thirst_n by_o thyâ—weet_a â—weet_z grace_n and_o mercy_n to_o a_o thirst_v after_o thou_o my_o god_n the_o glory_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o the_o peace_n and_o comfort_n of_o my_o soul._n o_o let_v i_o love_v or_o not_o live_v and_o let_v i_o in_o all_o by_o all_o and_o above_o all_o praise_n thou_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xl._o confession_n my_o soul_n bless_v thou_o our_o lord_n and_o all_o thing_n within_o i_o his_o holy_a name_n 1._o all_o spirit_n praise_v my_o god_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o magnify_v he_o i_o will_v declare_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n in_o all_o thing_n how_o it_o stand_v with_o i_o that_o i_o may_v hope_v and_o be_v strengthen_v in_o and_o by_o thou_o i_o will_v beg_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o i_o to_o please_v and_o serve_v thou_o for_o what_o can_v thou_o deny_v to_o they_o who_o have_v no_o hope_n or_o comfort_n but_o only_o in_o thou_o he_o who_o give_v himself_o give_v all_o and_o when_o thou_o deny_v what_o we_o ask_v it_o be_v that_o thou_o may_v give_v tâ—â—_n own_o self_n more_o full_o to_o we_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o that_o impediment_n may_v be_v the_o more_o true_o remove_v between_o our_o soul_n and_o thou_o simplify_v my_o soul_n that_o it_o may_v return_v to_o thou_o adorn_v i_o with_o â—â—ine_a own_o merit_n that_o i_o may_v not_o appear_v naked_a of_o good_a before_o thou_o and_o supply_v my_o defect_n in_o praise_v and_o louâ—ng_v thou_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n all_o my_o interior_a power_n shall_v aspire_v day_n and_o night_n without_o cease_v let_v i_o draw_v no_o breath_n but_o thereby_o to_o sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o thou_o the_o live_a fountain_n let_v all_o action_n which_o by_o obedience_n or_o necessity_n be_v impose_v on_o i_o be_v undertake_v and_o do_v by_o i_o with_o a_o inâ—erior_a regard_n of_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v true_o in_o they_o obey_v and_o seek_v thou_o the_o most_o amiable_a belove_v of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n let_v they_o be_v as_o a_o cessation_n or_o pause_v for_o the_o time_n that_o i_o may_v afterward_o with_o the_o more_o force_n and_o savour_n at_o time_n convenient_a attend_v to_o thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o therein_o praise_v thou_o amen_n the_o xli_o confession_n come_v all_o you_o that_o have_v vow_v your_o body_n and_o soul_n to_o our_o lord_n come_v let_v we_o love_n let_v we_o give_v all_o not_o only_o once_o but_o every_o moment_n to_o he_o that_o make_v we_o to_o bestow_v on_o we_o himself_o let_v we_o not_o only_a love_n but_o be_v whole_o transform_v into_o the_o divine_a love_n let_v we_o live_v to_o he_o â—lone_o leave_v all_o other_o for_o his_o sake_n only_o let_v we_o charitable_o interpret_v the_o word_n and_o deed_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o if_o any_o faâ—l_n in_o that_o which_o he_o ought_v to_o perform_v give_v we_o grace_n my_o god_n ☜_o to_o remember_v how_o weak_a human_a nature_n be_v for_o good_a and_o how_o great_a be_v our_o frailty_n as_o to_o a_o sin_n and_o how_o soon_o we_o also_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o protect_v we_o may_v fail_v in_o a_o more_o shameful_a manner_n o_o my_o god_n thou_o have_v command_v we_o to_o love_v our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o and_o behold_v we_o either_o love_v they_o inordinate_o to_o our_o impediment_n of_o love_v thou_o or_o else_o we_o be_v short_a towards_o they_o of_o â—rue_a charity_n from_o both_o these_o error_n deliver_v the_o soul_n of_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o grant_v i_o to_o love_v all_o as_o tâ—ou_v will_v have_v i_o let_v no_o difficulty_n they_o cause_n to_o i_o make_v i_o in_o they_o the_o less_o to_o behold_v and_o consider_v thou_o very_o if_o there_o be_v no_o other_o reward_n to_o be_v
give_v to_o those_o who_o for_o thy_o sake_n requite_v evil_a with_o good_a than_o the_o true_a peace_n which_o they_o find_v in_o their_o soul_n by_o it_o it_o be_v most_o worthy_a our_o labour_n but_o thou_o my_o lord_n reserve_v great_a reward_n in_o the_o next_o life_n for_o those_o who_o for_o bitterness_n cause_v to_o they_o by_o other_o do_v return_n sweetness_n unto_o â—hem_n yea_o nothing_o be_v more_o please_a and_o acceptable_a to_o thou_o then_o that_o we_o by_o humility_n and_o patience_n do_v pacify_v those_o who_o be_v offend_v with_o us._n but_o alas_o my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v and_o will_v not_o be_v silent_a in_o the_o ear_n of_o my_o lord_n and_o with_o tear_n in_o my_o eye_n will_v bewail_v my_o sin_n and_o offence_n i_o â—now_v there_o be_v no_o more_o true_a love_n in_o our_o soul_n to_o our_o neighbour_n than_o we_o be_v dead_a to_o ourselves_o and_o live_v unto_o thou_o what_o therefore_o can_v i_o think_v of_o my_o poor_a soul_n so_o barren_a of_o all_o 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my_o sinful_a soul_n be_v it_o possible_a after_o so_o many_o abominable_a offence_n that_o thou_o shall_v thus_o particular_o favour_v i_o if_o it_o be_v ever_o possible_a to_o be_v lawful_a for_o thy_o creature_n to_o exclaim_v against_o thou_o and_o tax_v thou_o oâ—_n injustice_n it_o may_v be_v admit_v they_o in_o this_o thou_o have_v do_v and_o do_v â—or_a i_o the_o most_o sinnful_a and_o most_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thy_o majesty_n creature_n if_o â—_o have_v ever_o donâ—_n any_o good_a they_o perhaps_o will_v not_o wonder_v at_o theâ—_n but_o as_o it_o be_v theâ—_n can_v but_o at_o least_o admire_v thy_o infinite_a sweetness_n and_o mercy_n for_o what_o sin_n be_v there_o i_o have_v not_o comit_v at_o least_o by_o my_o wil._n but_o the_o great_a thy_o mercâ—_n the_o more_o i_o hope_v the_o honour_n and_o praise_n will_v be_v which_o thy_o servant_n will_v yield_v to_o tâ—ee_v for_o itâ—_n and_o do_v thâ—â—_n thyself_o i_o beseech_v theâ—_n supply_v ouâ—_n defect_n in_o this_o and_o all_o other_o thing_n so_o that_o perfect_a praise_n may_v be_v yield_v to_o thou_o in_o all_o and_o by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xliii_o confession_n lord_n with_o great_a joy_n i_o desir_n to_o celebrat_v this_o divine_a solemnity_n of_o thy_o resurrection_n thou_o have_v show_v thy-self_n in_o all_o form_n so_o that_o the_o weak_a capacity_n may_v in_o some_o sort_n apprehend_v thou_o who_o be_v incomprehensible_a thou_o appear_v a_o child_n that_o thy_o little_a one_o may_v conceive_v more_o easy_o some_o thing_n that_o may_v move_v they_o to_o love_v thou_o and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v be_v astonish_v at_o tâ—y_a love_n towards_o we_o and_o at_o thy_o infinite_a humility_n we_o may_v thirst_v after_o thy_o example_n and_o love_v only_o thou_o for_o all_o thou_o have_v do_v or_o say_v be_v for_o our_o comfort_n and_o instruction_n what_o have_v thou_o leave_v undo_v which_o may_v any_o way_n further_o our_o good_a if_o we_o will_v but_o concur_v 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any_o in_o this_o world_n as_o there_o be_v between_o thy_o goodness_n and_o a_o humble_a soul_n that_o seek_v thou_o above_o all_o grace_n and_o gift_n whatsoever_o and_o transcend_v all_o create_a thing_n that_o she_o may_v adhere_v to_o thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o she_o soul._n very_o it_o be_v so_o strange_a that_o it_o put_v the_o heavent_o court_n into_o admiration_n that_o we_o that_o have_v dedicate_v our_o soul_n whole_o to_o thou_o shall_v love_v seek_v or_o desir_n any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o but_o alas_o human_a frailty_n as_o they_o well_o know_v be_v very_o great_a and_o therefore_o they_o also_o can_v choo_n but_o pity_n and_o pray_v for_o we_o and_o especial_o we_o woman_n silly_a to_o all_o thing_n that_o this_o â—orld_n admire_v and_o therefore_o most_o contemptible_a of_o all_o creature_n if_o we_o do_v not_o labour_v for_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o â—_o the_o which_o to_o do_v thou_o do_v as_o willing_o enable_v we_o as_o thou_o do_v the_o wise_a of_o the_o 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over_o i_o by_o â—hee_o it_o be_v true_a i_o see_v and_o hear_v daily_a â—hat_n scandal_n what_o discorder_n and_o â—hat_n confusion_n arise_v in_o community_n for_o want_v oâ—_n due_a submission_n in_o subject_n to_o their_o superior_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n certain_o a_o chief_a cause_n thereof_o be_v at_o least_o in_o many_o who_o have_v good_a will_n because_o thy_o be_v not_o teach_v to_o obey_v tâ—ee_v interior_o in_o their_o soul_n out_o of_o which_o it_o will_v prove_v easy_a to_o they_o to_o obey_v exterior_o whereas_o now_o it_o seem_v a_o burden_n intolerable_a and_o forsooth_o under_o pretence_n of_o great_a perfection_n ☜_o we_o often_o fall_v inâ—_n to_o open_a rebellion_n sure_o
for_o her_o humble_a soul_n think_v it-self_n too_o unworthy_a of_o such_o a_o favour_n when_o thou_o do_v put_v she_o in_o mind_n that_o she_o be_v to_o conver_n with_o thou_o in_o a_o more_o spiritual_a manner_n then_o before_o neither_o do_v she_o reflect_v on_o the_o labour_n pain_n and_o grief_n she_o have_v sustain_v for_o as_o thou_o know_v love_n feel_v no_o labour_n nor_o complain_v of_o any_o burden_n for_o only_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o alive_a again_o be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v she_o forget_v all_o former_a affliction_n for_o her_o sake_n and_o for_o all_o their_o sake_n that_o love_v thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o my_o sin_n and_o bring_v i_o by_o true_a love_n to_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o with_o they_o where_o for_o ever_o without_o cease_v i_o may_v praise_v thou_o my_o only_o belove_a amen_n the_o xlvii_o confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v to_o thou_o again_o and_o again_o i_o will_v call_v upon_o thou_o the_o entire_o belove_a of_o my_o hart_n i_o will_v melt_v away_o in_o thy_o praise_n and_o i_o will_v invite_v all_o thy_o spouse_n to_o to_o seek_v thou_o alone_o above_o all_o thy_o gift_n and_o above_o all_o creature_n for_o in_o thou_o alone_o be_v true_a peaee_n and_o comfort_n to_o be_v find_v and_o enjoy_v o_o how_o happy_a shall_v i_o esteem_v myself_o if_o i_o be_v able_a to_o praise_v thou_o without_o cease_v or_o be_v any_o cause_n that_o any_o shall_v more_v and_o more_o languish_v with_o thy_o love_n what_o shall_v i_o do_v be_v bear_v down_o with_o the_o weight_n of_o mortal_a flesh_n and_o diverse_a internal_a affliction_n so_o that_o i_o can_v many_o time_n scarce_o think_v on_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v i_o sayâ—_n but_o liâ—t_v up_o my_o hart_n with_o my_o hand_n as_o it_o be_v by_o main_a force_n sometime_o by_o word_n and_o sometime_o by_o write_v unto_o thou_o which_o i_o do_v not_o do_v as_o to_o one_o that_o be_v far_o of_o from_o i_o ☞_o but_o as_o to_o one_o who_o be_v more_o near_o to_o i_o then_o i_o be_o to_o myself_n and_o of_o who_o goodness_n who_o wisdom_n whose_o beauty_n who_o mercy_n and_o most_o absolute_a and_o incomparable_a greatness_n i_o be_o more_o assure_v of_o than_o i_o be_o of_o any_o thing_n i_o see_v with_o my_o corporal_a eye_n o_o who_o will_v not_o love_v this_o goâ—nes_n this_o majesty_n and_o submit_v themselves_o â—o_o this_o most_o amiable_a belove_a oâ—_n our_o soul_n if_o any_o comfort_n or_o happiness_n be_v to_o be_v find_v out_o of_o he_o we_o be_v something_o excusable_a in_o neglect_v and_o forget_v our_o chief_a good_a â—ut_fw-la see_v we_o can_v even_o in_o this_o mortal_a liâ—e_z find_v any_o content_n but_o by_o love_v praise_v and_o true_o seek_v and_o serve_v he_o we_o be_v too_o miserable_a and_o too_o blame_v for_o lose_v ourself_n by_o rest_v with_o love_n and_o inordinat_a affection_n in_o transitory_a and_o visible_a thing_n o_o far_o be_v it_o from_o thy_o spouse_n to_o set_v their_o affection_n upon_o any_o thing_n bâ—â—_n thou_o or_o to_o bereave_v thou_o of_o the_o affection_n which_o from_o all_o be_v to_o thou_o only_o due_a all_o that_o we_o be_v and_o have_v be_v too_o little_a for_o thou_o let_v we_o not_o therefore_o of_o that_o little_a we_o have_v take_v from_o thou_o o_o let_v we_o love_v thou_o above_o all_o and_o all_o other_o in_o and_o â—or_a thou_o i_o do_v bemoan_v this_o misery_n above_o all_o misery_n that_o those_o who_o have_v dedicate_v themselves_o to_o thou_o shall_v seek_v the_o love_n and_o favour_n of_o other_o to_o their_o own_o and_o the_o other_o impediment_n in_o thy_o love_n and_o service_n oftentimes_o we_o comply_v and_o correspond_v under_o pretence_n to_o get_v temporal_a mean_n the_o while_n neglect_v thou_o ☜_o who_o feed_v the_o bird_n and_o clothe_v the_o beast_n of_o the_o earth_n who_o neither_o sow_n not_o reap_v neither_o be_v they_o solicitous_a of_o any_o thing_n but_o depend_v of_o thy_o mere_a providence_n and_o yet_o thou_o provide_v for_o they_o can_v we_o 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and_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o not_o stray_v out_o of_o ourselves_o hinder_v both_o ourselves_o and_o other_o from_o adhere_v to_o thou_o to_o who_o we_o owe_v all_o we_o be_v and_o can_v do_v and_o and_o therefore_o be_v great_o to_o blame_v when_o we_o do_v not_o endeavour_v to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o soul_n with_o all_o our_o mind_n and_o all_o our_o strength_n which_o grant_v for_o thy_o own_o sake_n we_o may_v endeavour_v to_o do_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n who_o be_v praise_v love_a and_o adore_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xlviii_o confession_n shall_v not_o my_o soul_n be_v subject_a to_o god_n o_o my_o lord_n far_o be_v it_o from_o i_o to_o will_n or_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n which_o be_v only_o holy_a let_v i_o never_o resist_v thy_o will_n signify_v to_o i_o by_o any_o mean_n whatsoever_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v whole_o turn_v into_o a_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n that_o i_o may_v aspire_v and_o tend_v to_o nothing_o else_o but_o thy-self_n alone_o blot_v out_o my_o sin_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v return_v to_o thou_o by_o love_n from_o who_o by_o sin_n it_o have_v stray_v o_o let_v nothing_o but_o this_o desir_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n possess_v my_o hart_n let_v that_o be_v my_o solace_n in_o labour_n pain_n temptation_n desolation_n and_o all_o affliction_n of_o body_n or_o mind_n let_v not_o my_o hart_n draw_v by_o thou_o to_o seek_v after_o nothing_o but_o love_n be_v so_o base_a as_o to_o covet_v desir_n and_o rest_n in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o thou_o be_v my_o life_n my_o choice_n and_o my_o only_a belove_a when_o i_o hear_v theâ—_n but_o name_v my_o lord_n god_n it_o forcible_a draw_v i_o into_o myself_n that_o i_o may_v attend_v unto_o thou_o forget_v myself_n and_o whatsoever_o else_o beside_o thou_o for_o which_o benefit_n be_v thou_o infinite_o praise_v amen_n the_o xlix_o confession_n 150._o omnis_fw-la â—piritus_fw-la lâ—udet_fw-la dominum_fw-la bonedicite_fw-la omne_fw-la opera_fw-la domini_fw-la domino_fw-la 3.37_o laudate_fw-la &_o super_fw-la exaltate_fw-la eum_fw-la in_o saeoula_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v our_o lordâ—_n bless_v our_o lord_n all_o the_o work_n of_o oâ—â—_n lord_n praise_n and_o exalt_v he_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n that_o i_o be_v able_a with_o a_o pure_a soul_n and_o love_a hart_n to_o extol_v thy_o praise_n but_o alas_o 9_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o shall_v i_o for_o this_o hold_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o do_v yet_o permit_v i_o this_o comfort_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n that_o i_o may_v invite_v other_o more_o worthy_a to_o sing_v and_o set_v forth_o the_o praise_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n with_o who_o yet_o as_o the_o last_o and_o least_o my_o soul_n shall_v join_v in_o the_o praise_n of_o thou_o our_o dear_a creator_n and_o in_o that_o which_o be_v so_o worthy_o possess_v by_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n i_o will_v rejoice_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n o_o my_o holy_a and_o dear_a delight_n what_o a_o most_o harmonious_a melody_n will_v refound_v over_o all_o the_o earth_n if_o thy_o will_n and_o just_a disposition_n take_v place_n in_o all_o thing_n behold_v all_o thy_o work_n praise_v thou_o every_o one_o in_o their_o kind_n only_a man_n for_o who_o help_n and_o comfort_v all_o other_o thing_n on_o â—arth_n be_v create_v â—_o pervert_v the_o order_n of_o thy_o justice_n by_o miâ—uâ—ing_v that_o noble_a free_a will_n which_o thou_o give_v he_o to_o choose_v and_o love_v thou_o with_o o_o what_o can_v thou_o have_v do_v more_o then_o with_o such_o a_o noble_a gift_n to_o have_v endue_v we_o certain_o
able_a to_o resist_v thou_o in_o they_o then_o their_o judgement_n will_v be_v so_o clear_v that_o they_o will_v understand_v most_o hide_a mystery_n then_o a_o hour_n of_o prayer_n will_v instruct_v they_o more_o full_o than_o fifty_o year_n study_n can_v do_v they_o have_v by_o the_o mean_a of_o such_o prayer_n in_o all_o thing_n relation_n to_o thou_o the_o only_a true_a wisdom_n and_o in_o who_o light_n only_o be_v true_a light_n to_o be_v see_v by_o love_v thou_o and_o die_v to_o themselves_o in_o all_o thing_n they_o will_v become_v master_n of_o themselves_o and_o all_o the_o world_n will_v than_o nothing_o move_v they_o nor_o will_v any_o thing_n affright_v they_o because_o thou_o will_v be_v their_o stay_n and_o comfort_n in_o all_o thing_n if_o we_o will_v do_v as_o we_o ought_v and_o as_o be_v best_a for_o we_o we_o must_v be_v subject_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o all_o thing_n without_o exception_n and_o this_o be_v the_o benefit_n of_o a_o internal_a life_n that_o it_o make_v one_o capable_a of_o see_v and_o know_v god_n will_v and_o also_o most_o ready_a to_o perform_v it_o which_o way_n soever_o he_o signify_v it_o to_o they_o which_o make_v they_o obey_v as_o ready_o and_o willing_o mere_o for_o god_n sake_n and_o out_o of_o obedience_n to_o he_o a_o simple_a or_o imperfect_a superior_n as_o they_o will_v a_o angel_n or_o the_o wise_a creature_n in_o the_o world_n yea_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a that_o a_o worm_n or_o any_o other_o creature_n be_v ordain_v by_o god_n to_o rule_v over_o they_o â—hey_n will_v with_o all_o their_o heart_n embrace_v his_o will_n by_o they_o for_o without_o this_o total_a subjection_n to_o god_n it_o be_v impossible_a to_o become_v true_o spiritual_a for_o if_o we_o resist_v his_o will_n in_o our_o superior_n in_o vain_a do_v we_o pretend_v to_o please_v he_o this_o virtue_n therefore_o of_o obedience_n we_o must_v learn_v of_o he_o the_o which_o must_v be_v ground_v upon_o true_a '_o humility_n that_o must_v be_v our_o stay_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o those_o two_o virtue_n of_o humility_n and_o obedience_n together_o with_o the_o divine_a virtue_n of_o discretion_n he_o will_v teach_v we_o if_o we_o do_v our_o part_n in_o seek_v to_o become_v more_o &_o more_o humble_a and_o subject_a to_o he_o for_o see_v it_o be_v his_o will_n we_o shall_v obey_v and_o become_v true_o humble_a how_o can_v we_o doubt_v but_o he_o will_v give_v we_o the_o grace_n if_o we_o humble_o and_o perseverant_o beg_v it_o of_o he_o and_o practice_v those_o virtue_n upon_o occasion_n as_o well_o as_o we_o can_v for_o he_o himself_o have_v saâ—d_v 11.12_o whâ—n_o we_o ask_v our_o father_n bread_n he_o do_v not_o give_v a_o stone_n nor_o if_o we_o ask_v he_o fish_n will_v he_o give_v a_o serpent_n much_o less_o will_v he_o deny_v we_o what_o be_v necessary_a to_o make_v we_o please_v to_o he_o and_o we_o seek_v or_o desire_v nothing_o but_o by_o true_a love_n to_o be_v faithful_a to_o he_o o_o prayer_n prayer_n able_a to_o 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the_o most_o part_n in_o this_o world_n of_o true_a reason_n surely_n never_o be_v the_o world_n reform_v of_o its_o sin_n and_o error_n but_o it_o must_v be_v by_o the_o wisdom_n which_o come_v from_o god_n and_o be_v far_o different_a from_o that_o which_o be_v account_v wisdom_n by_o the_o world_n which_o as_o s._n paul_n say_v 3.19_o be_v folly_n before_o god_n certain_z other_z devotion_n of_o the_o same_o devot_fw-la soul_n d._n gertrude_n more_o which_o she_o leave_v write_v in_o her_o breviary_n in_o the_o fore_a part_n of_o her_o breviary_n she_o have_v frame_v and_o write_v the_o ensue_a prayer_n for_o her_o due_a performance_n of_o the_o divine_a office_n viz_o all_o you_o that_o bless_v our_o lord_n exalt_v he_o all_o you_o can_v for_o he_o be_v great_a than_o all_o your_o praise_n omnis_fw-la spiritus_n laudet_fw-la dominum_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v the_o lord_n and_o i_o â—hy_a poor_a creature_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o good_a do_v here_o in_o the_o preâ—sence_n of_o all_o thy_o celestial_a court_n desire_v 〈◊〉_d perform_v this_o my_o office_n with_o all_o diligenâ—â—_n and_o with_o a_o amorous_a affection_n towards_o thou_o my_o â—oâ—_n who_o have_v impose_v this_o sweet_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v obligation_n upon_o i_o sinner_n who_o do_v not_o deserve_v any_o such_o honour_n or_o comfort_n from_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v admit_v to_o join_v my_o cold_a and_o freeze_a praise_n with_o all_o those_o who_o praise_v thou_o either_o on_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n where_o all_o to_o my_o comfort_n do_v without_o cease_v continual_o praise_v thou_o and_o for_o what_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o the_o performance_n thereof_o as_o i_o shall_v and_o ought_v to_o do_v supply_v it_o out_o of_o the_o superaboundance_n of_o thâ—_n merit_n and_o mercâ—_n i_o desire_v to_o say_v it_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n according_a to_o the_o intention_n of_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o catholic_n 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saint_n who_o hart_n do_v burn_v and_o flame_n with_o love_n divine_a remember_v i_o most_o sinful_a wretch_n who_o hunger_n starve_a do_v pine_v for_o want_v of_o that_o which_o thou_o enjoy_v in_o such_o abundant_a measure_n it_o be_v my_o god_n that_o i_o do_v mean_a my_o joy_n and_o all_o my_o treasure_n thy_o word_n o_o saint_n be_v true_o sweet_a because_o thou_o do_v address_v they_o unto_o he_o who_o be_v only_a meet_v our_o mis'ry_n to_o redress_v at_o who_o intorcession_n much_o have_v thou_o do_v for_o i_o honour_v they_o my_o lord_n for_o i_o who_o be_o so_o poor_a thate_o have_v nothing_o to_o present_v they_o or_o thou_o only_o a_o desire_n of_o be_v grateful_a to_o thou_o who_o be_v by_o all_o eternal_o prayâ—sed_v amen_n it_o be_v s._n augustine_n the_o doctor_n and_o amorous_a servant_n of_o god_n that_o she_o here_o mean_v the_o second_o confession_n omnis_fw-la ex_fw-la vobis_fw-la qui_fw-la non_fw-la renunti_fw-la at_o omnibus_fw-la quae_fw-la possident_fw-la 14._o 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to_o my_o true_o love_v thou_o what_o can_v i_o i_o say_v pretend_v see_v no_o peace_n or_o comfort_n can_v be_v find_v but_o only_o in_o thou_o what_o do_v we_o when_o we_o desire_v comfort_n of_o thou_o but_o deprive_v ourselves_o of_o a_o most_o happy_a liberty_n which_o they_o enjoy_v who_o desire_v nothing_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n ☞_o but_o without_o all_o regard_n of_o themselves_o to_o be_v perfect_o conformable_a to_o thou_o if_o we_o will_v live_v without_o all_o intention_n or_o wish_v but_o of_o enjoy_v thou_o which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o a_o true_o humble_a and_o faithful_a soul_n the_o devil_n can_v not_o overcome_v we_o by_o any_o wile_n we_o shall_v easy_o retain_v true_a peace_n with_o ourselves_o with_o all_o the_o world_n and_o above_o all_o with_o thou_o for_o when_o we_o adhere_v to_o any_o create_a thing_n we_o become_v a_o slave_n to_o our_o passion_n and_o be_v in_o eminent_a danger_n of_o sin_n no_o way_n be_v plain_a secure_a and_o easy_a and_o without_o peril_n of_o all_o error_n but_o this_o that_o the_o soul_n seek_v nothing_o but_o thou_o her_o creator_n 8._o this_o be_v the_o way_n in_o which_o a_o fool_n can_v err_v this_o be_v the_o way_n without_o question_n in_o which_o a_o soul_n without_o all_o impediment_n adher_v to_o thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o all_o true_a wisdom_n who_o willing_o illuminate_v our_o needy_a soul_n if_o we_o will_v but_o give_v thou_o our_o hart_n and_o soul_n to_o thyself_o thou_o consider_v not_o our_o former_a sin_n after_o thou_o have_v once_o blot_v they_o out_o but_o do_v upon_o they_o who_o have_v have_v the_o manner_n of_o beast_n in_o time_n past_a most_o bountiful_o and_o abundant_o bestow_v and_o refresh_v they_o with_o the_o sweet_a dew_n of_o thy_o grace_n which_o have_v taste_v in_o their_o soul_n it_o make_v they_o loathe_v all_o that_o be_v less_o than_o thou_o neither_o can_v they_o take_v any_o content_n but_o in_o hear_v thy_o name_n speak_v to_o thou_o and_o long_v after_o 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discretion_n which_o can_v only_o be_v teach_v by_o thy_o majesty_n and_o yet_o be_v so_o necessary_a that_o no_o virtue_n have_v more_o virtue_n in_o it_o then_o partake_v of_o true_a discretion_n for_o without_o that_o we_o instead_o of_o true_a virtue_n practice_v absurd_a folly_n o_o my_o lord_n above_o all_o thing_n let_v i_o seek_v thy_o glory_n who_o be_v praise_v by_o all_o creature_n for_o all_o eternity_n amen_o the_o six_o confession_n be_v it_o any_o wonder_n my_o lord_n god_n that_o in_o all_o my_o doubt_n temptation_n pain_n and_o in_o this_o continual_a warrfare_n which_o i_o find_v upon_o earthâ—_n and_o in_o my_o grief_n of_o be_v separate_v by_o sin_n daily_o unwilling_o commit_v and_o live_v in_o flesh_n and_o blood_n from_o thou_o my_o only_o belove_a and_o my_o most_o infinite_a good_a i_o recurre_v to_o thou_o for_o succour_n &_o help_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v if_o i_o shall_v not_o in_o all_o thing_n speak_v unto_o thou_o consult_v with_o thou_o and_o have_v relation_n to_o thou_o what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o who_o frailty_n and_o weakness_n be_v above_o all_o that_o can_v be_v imagine_v much_o less_o express_v by_o i_o but_o by_o recur_v to_o thou_o i_o find_v and_o get_v light_a and_o a_o certain_a sweet_a and_o heavenly_a repast_n towards_o the_o sustain_n of_o all_o the_o misery_n this_o bannishment_n of_o we_o be_v subject_a unto_o alas_o thou_o know_v i_o have_v place_v all_o my_o peace_n and_o hope_n in_o thou_o all_o i_o desire_n be_v that_o may_v love_v thou_o and_o become_v total_o subject_a to_o thou_o do_v with_o i_o whatsoever_o thou_o please_v for_o i_o desire_v no_o more_o power_n to_o choose_v any_o thing_n any_o more_o then_o if_o i_o have_v never_o be_v only_a thy-self_n i_o long_o for_o and_o desire_n to_o possess_v and_o obtain_v yet_o in_o what_o manner_n &_o measure_n as_o thou_o do_v from_o all_o eternity_n will_v and_o ordain_v for_o in_o this_o desire_n my_o soul_n hart_n and_o will_v have_v no_o limit_n nor_o 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so_o cheerful_o as_o if_o in_o their_o suffering_n they_o behold_v thou_o for_o who_o they_o suffer_v with_o their_o corporal_a eye_n and_o they_o desyre_v no_o knowledge_n of_o thou_o but_o what_o they_o have_v by_o faith_n which_o be_v only_o secure_a ☞_o and_o void_a of_o all_o peril_n of_o error_n thou_o wonderful_o confirme_v they_o in_o the_o light_n of_o that_o which_o be_v in_o itself_o so_o secure_a what_o comfort_n can_v a_o soul_n take_v in_o any_o create_a thing_n who_o have_v place_v her_o joy_n in_o thou_o alone_o no_o angel_n can_v satisfy_v she_o or_o make_v she_o greiâ—e_v the_o lesser_a while_o she_o be_v banish_v from_o her_o god_n who_o be_v her_o glory_n and_o her_o crown_n yet_o one_o thing_n she_o have_v to_o be_v some_o comfort_n to_o her_o while_n thus_o it_o stand_v with_o she_o which_o none_o can_v take_v from_o she_o ☞_o and_o that_o be_v the_o have_v of_o relation_n upon_o all_o occurrent_n to_o thou_o immediate_o in_o her_o soul_n in_o such_o a_o manner_n that_o nothing_o can_v interpose_v itself_o between_o thou_o and_o she_o she_o indeed_o high_o esteem_v all_o that_o thou_o have_v make_v every_o thing_n as_o it_o be_v derive_v by_o partake_v of_o thy_o grace_n more_o in_o perfection_n of_o which_o degree_n be_v angel_n and_o the_o soul_n of_o man_n and_o she_o prefer_v the_o latter_a that_o be_v yet_o in_o this_o world_n before_o herself_o in_o all_o thing_n but_o yet_o as_o in_o comparison_n of_o thou_o they_o be_v to_o she_o as_o if_o they_o be_v mere_a nothing_o as_o for_o rest_v or_o place_v her_o felicity_n in_o they_o for_o well_o she_o know_v that_o if_o there_o be_v no_o soul_n yet_o create_v nor_o ever_o to_o be_v
for_o vain_a be_v the_o help_n of_o man_n 13._o i_o will_v therefore_o confide_v in_o thou_o my_o god_n my_o mercy_n who_o be_v adore_v praise_v and_o exalt_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n amen_n the_o nine_o confession_n lex_fw-la domini_fw-la immaculata_fw-la convertens_fw-la animas_fw-la 9_o testimonium_fw-la domini_fw-la fidele_fw-la sapientiam_fw-la praestans_fw-la paruulis_fw-la justitiae_fw-la domini_fw-la rectae_fw-la laerificantes_fw-la corda_fw-la praeceptum_fw-la domini_fw-la lucidum_fw-la illuminans_fw-la oculos_fw-la the_o law_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v immaculate_a correct_v soul_n the_o testimony_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v faithful_a give_v wisdom_n to_o little_a one_o the_o justice_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v right_a make_v heart_n joyful_a the_o precept_n of_o our_o lord_n light_v some_o illuminate_n the_o eye_n these_o my_o god_n be_v the_o word_n of_o thy_o royal_a prophet_n which_o be_v as_o it_o follow_v in_o the_o same_o psalm_n to_o be_v desire_v above_o gold_n and_o 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manner_n from_o this_o error_n therefore_o my_o god_n hereafter_o deliver_v thy_o poor_a contemptible_a servant_n that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o who_o be_v my_o only_a strength_n and_o hopeâ—_n lead_v i_o which_o way_n thou_o will_v soâ—â—_n may_v bless_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o rest_n in_o thou_o above_o all_o from_o thou_o the_o strong_a receive_v their_o strength_n and_o in_o thou_o sinner_n that_o have_v nothing_o of_o our_o own_o have_v wherewith_o to_o supply_v all_o our_o want_n thou_o fly_v up_o with_o they_o who_o by_o a_o ardent_a love_n have_v surmount_v all_o create_a thing_n and_o be_v firm_o unite_v to_o thou_o in_o spirit_n and_o thou_o also_o lend_v thy_o sweet_a hand_n to_o thy_o little_a and_o imperfect_a one_o who_o be_v of_o a_o good_a will_n to_o help_v they_o out_o of_o the_o mire_n and_o dirt_n of_o passion_n and_o inordinate_a affection_n in_o this_o mercy_n my_o soul_n do_v hope_n and_o rejoice_v and_o i_o do_v in_o my_o poverty_n congratulate_v the_o 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it_o pierce_v my_o very_a soul_n see_v they_o forsak_v he_o who_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a and_o a_o most_o amiable_a beauty_n remember_v o_o lord_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n our_o extreme_a frailty_n and_o give_v graâ—e_o that_o we_o may_v all_o convert_v and_o return_v by_o love_n to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n who_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n for_o which_o glory_n be_v ever_o to_o thou_o by_o all_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n amen_n the_o x._o confession_n accedite_fw-la ad_fw-la deum_fw-la &_o illuminamini_fw-la &_o facies_fw-la vestrae_fw-la non_fw-la confundentur_fw-la come_v to_o he_o and_o be_v illuminate_v and_o your_o face_n shall_v not_o be_v confound_v these_o word_n in_o our_o divine_a office_n be_v speak_v not_o only_o by_o he_o who_o by_o thy_o own_o testimony_n be_v a_o man_n
write_v by_o i_o which_o i_o read_v when_o i_o can_v for_o some_o indisposition_n in_o body_n or_o mind_n otherwise_o think_v upon_o thou_o and_o when_o i_o be_o overwhelm_v in_o any_o misery_n it_o become_v most_o tolerable_a by_o have_v thus_o conference_n with_o thou_o who_o never_o disdain_v i_o for_o which_o all_o glory_n be_v give_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n bless_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_o alleluia_n the_o xi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n to_o who_o i_o will_v speak_v and_o before_o who_o my_o hart_n shall_v not_o be_v silent_a while_o thus_o it_o stand_v with_o i_o lest_o the_o heavy_a weight_n of_o sin_n and_o my_o disorder_a passion_n do_v oppress_v my_o soul_n and_o separate_v it_o from_o thou_o the_o only_a desire_n and_o belove_v of_o my_o hart_n it_o behoove_v i_o indeed_o to_o be_v silent_a and_o that_o all_o create_a thing_n be_v likewise_o silent_a to_o i_o to_o the_o end_n â—_o may_v hear_v the_o sweet_a whisper_n of_o thy_o voiâ—â—_n and_o attend_v in_o most_o quiet_a repose_n of_o soul_n to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n speak_v to_o my_o hart_n but_o this_o must_v be_v when_o my_o soul_n be_v draw_v and_o sweet_o attract_v by_o thou_o to_o attend_v to_o what_o it_o shall_v please_v thou_o to_o work_v in_o i_o but_o now_o in_o these_o my_o sin_n which_o passion_n and_o inordinat_a affection_n cause_n in_o i_o my_o soul_n do_v cry_v out_o in_o the_o bottom_n thereof_o and_o call_v upon_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o refuge_n helper_n and_o deliverer_n in_o all_o these_o my_o affliction_n and_o misery_n and_o this_o my_o prayer_n be_v not_o reject_v by_o thou_o because_o thou_o be_v a_o bottom_n less_o sea_n of_o mercy_n o_o when_o shall_v my_o soul_n see_v all_o impediment_n remove_v that_o it_o may_v be_v unite_v to_o thou_o and_o retorn_a to_o thou_o from_o who_o it_o have_v she_o be_v to_o this_o end_n that_o it_o may_v by_o pure_a love_n become_v capable_a of_o enjoy_v thou_o for_o all_o eternity_n what_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o i_o without_o thou_o very_o nothing_o but_o a_o shadow_n neither_o can_v any_o of_o they_o no_o nor_o all_o of_o they_o together_o satisfy_v or_o comfort_v i_o by_o love_v please_a and_o praise_v thou_o as_o thou_o will_v have_v i_o shall_v i_o become_v true_o content_a and_o happy_a and_o by_o no_o gift_n or_o grace_n or_o favour_n beside_o how_o great_a soever_o they_o be_v return_v retâ—rn_v my_o soul_n to_o he_o that_o only_o can_v satiat_fw-la thou_o and_o without_o who_o all_o thing_n as_o thou_o see_v be_v most_o bitter_a and_o unpleasing_a to_o thou_o only_o by_o humility_n and_o obedience_n can_v this_o be_v accomplish_v in_o thou_o humble_a despise_v and_o subject_n thyself_o in_o all_o without_o exception_n that_o he_o may_v take_v pity_n on_o thou_o indeed_o my_o lord_n i_o desire_v thus_o to_o become_v for_o thou_o for_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o i_o be_v bring_v to_o nothing_o and_o i_o know_v it_o not_o and_o i_o be_o as_o a_o beast_n before_o thou_o and_o yet_o also_o i_o may_v say_v 72._o that_o i_o be_o always_o with_o thou_o and_o thou_o with_o i_o by_o thy_o prevent_a mercy_n it_o be_v a_o poor_a way_n â—o_o think_v to_o become_v honourable_a by_o stand_v upon_o our_o point_n and_o yet_o this_o be_v that_o which_o now_o be_v most_o in_o practice_n in_o these_o day_n o_o how_o far_o be_v this_o from_o the_o practice_n of_o thy_o saint_n and_o servant_n who_o think_v it_o their_o great_a honour_n to_o be_v despise_v neglect_a revile_v and_o contemn_v by_o all_o this_o world_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v become_v honourable_a in_o thy_o eye_n my_o lord_n who_o have_v say_v 11._o that_o bless_v be_v we_o when_o we_o be_v speak_v ill_o of_o by_o man_n and_o persecute_v by_o they_o give_v i_o this_o true_a humility_n i_o beseech_v thou_o which_o make_v soul_n capable_a of_o receive_v this_o thy_o blessing_n promise_v to_o the_o humbleâ—_n and_o those_o which_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n who_o joy_n thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o who_o follow_v thou_o by_o the_o way_n of_o the_o cross_n which_o seem_v indeed_o contemptible_a in_o their_o eye_n who_o do_v not_o discern_v nor_o discover_v the_o hide_a treasure_n that_o lie_v in_o the_o confusion_n receive_v and_o embrace_v with_o the_o arm_n of_o love_n by_o a_o faithful_a soul_n who_o seek_v nothing_o but_o to_o imitate_v her_o belove_a who_o die_v the_o ignominious_a death_n of_o the_o cross_n to_o purchase_v her_o love_n and_o to_o make_v she_o of_o a_o enemy_n to_o become_v a_o intimate_a and_o inward_a friend_n of_o this_o our_o heavenly_a bridegroom_n ☞_o this_o poverty_n and_o contempt_n i_o say_v which_o thy_o little_a one_o do_v undergo_v in_o this_o life_n my_o lord_n god_n seem_v to_o the_o lover_n of_o this_o world_n to_o be_v a_o intolerable_a burden_n but_o those_o that_o true_o walk_v this_o way_n of_o humility_n ☜_o do_v find_v that_o in_o it_o lie_v the_o great_a comfort_n and_o sweetness_n that_o can_v be_v find_v and_o enjoy_v in_o this_o world_n for_o thou_o bear_v thy-self_n the_o burden_n of_o the_o humble_a and_o what_o touch_v they_o touch_v the_o apple_n of_o thy_o eye_n nothing_o do_v thou_o think_v to_o dear_a for_o they_o see_v all_o thy_o gift_n grace_n favour_n and_o comfort_n which_o thy_o goodness_n impart_v to_o they_o they_o use_v only_o to_o thy_o praise_n and_o to_o the_o abase_v of_o themselves_o under_o the_o foot_n of_o all_o thy_o creature_n as_o most_o unworthy_a of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n of_o all_o of_o they_o o_o what_o power_n have_v a_o humble_a soul_n with_o thou_o while_o she_o become_v total_o subject_a to_o thou_o even_o as_o if_o no_o power_n of_o willing_a or_o choose_v be_v give_v she_o by_o thou_o which_o while_o she_o do_v well_o it_o go_v with_o she_o before_o thou_o and_o great_a be_v the_o liberty_n of_o such_o a_o one_o while_o she_o only_o desire_v and_o seek_v thou_o for_o in_o do_v so_o we_o do_v become_v capable_a in_o a_o extraordinary_a manner_n of_o enjoy_v thou_o who_o 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it_o make_v she_o for_o a_o time_n neither_o to_o see_v feel_v yea_o nor_o to_o think_v of_o any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o but_o this_o in_o this_o vale_n of_o tear_n be_v not_o of_o long_a continuance_n and_o have_v many_o interruption_n by_o â—eason_n of_o the_o strife_n between_o our_o spirit_n and_o our_o three_o enemy_n the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n but_o yet_o thy_o grace_n be_v in_o all_o occasion_n near_o to_o our_o soul_n and_o nothing_o shall_v blemish_v the_o purity_n thereof_o if_o we_o humble_o adhere_v unto_o thou_o and_o whole_o mistrust_v our_o own_o force_n as_o we_o well_o may_v and_o be_v confident_a in_o thou_o who_o be_v so_o merciful_a and_o pitiful_a to_o those_o who_o presume_v not_o to_o have_v any_o strength_n but_o thou_o this_o humble_a love_n be_v able_a to_o go_v through_o all_o difficulty_n and_o to_o bear_v all_o burden_n and_o to_o sustain_v all_o pain_n and_o disgrace_n because_o it_o seek_v only_o thou_o for_o her_o witness_n who_o 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know_v what_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n be_v it_o suffice_v thy_o poor_a servant_n give_v i_o grace_n to_o obey_v thou_o my_o god_n with_o all_o that_o love_v thou_o for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xv._n confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n what_o soul_n that_o true_o love_v thou_o can_v complain_v what_o difficulty_n soever_o she_o endure_v or_o how_o great_a a_o desolation_n soever_o obscure_v her_o soul_n or_o how_o great_a pain_n soever_o she_o sustain_v see_v thou_o who_o she_o love_v more_o than_o her_o life_n and_o self_n be_v always_o the_o same_o behold_v with_o a_o amorous_a and_o love_a eye_n the_o love_a soul_n afflict_v by_o thou_o or_o by_o thy_o permission_n rather_o to_o try_v her_o fidelity_n then_o to_o oppress_v she_o with_o such_o a_o burden_n that_o may_v separate_v she_o from_o she_o only_o belove_a for_o see_v nothing_o be_v dread_v by_o she_o but_o to_o be_v separate_v from_o her_o god_n she_o hold_v humility_n and_o confidence_n thou_o o_o lord_n will_v never_o permit_v she_o to_o be_v overcome_v for_o thou_o make_v the_o quarrel_n thy_o own_o thus_o fight_v by_o we_o and_o the_o victory_n we_o though_o indeed_o gain_v by_o thou_o not_o by_o our_o own_o self_n o_o how_o happy_a be_o i_o in_o thy_o power_n and_o glory_n very_o though_o i_o be_v to_o return_v to_o my_o own_o nothing_o yet_o i_o can_v not_o account_v myself_o void_a of_o a_o infinite_a happiness_n see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o i_o then_o â—_o be_o my_o own_o will_v remain_v and_o be_v the_o same_o in_o all_o wisdom_n and_o majesty_n thâ—s_o be_v the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n and_o the_o crown_n of_o my_o glory_n in_o which_o i_o will_v exult_v in_o my_o great_a
return_n for_o she_o have_v forsake_v all_o for_o thou_o and_o have_v taste_v of_o thy_o sweetness_n say_v with_o the_o prophet_n 8.37_o turn_v away_o my_o eye_n that_o they_o see_v not_o vanity_n lest_o like_o a_o dog_n she_o return_v to_o her_o vomit_n and_o after_o have_v have_v a_o glimmer_a of_o thy_o light_n she_o because_o she_o fear_v she_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o sustain_v thy_o chastisement_n and_o shall_v forget_v and_o loose_v herself_o by_o these_o tribulation_n and_o desirous_a that_o she_o may_v be_v happy_o enable_v to_o enâ—er_v the_o more_o full_o into_o thou_o and_o fear_v i_o say_v her_o own_o frailty_n she_o thus_o again_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o by_o these_o other_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n say_v 187.2_o domine_fw-la deus_fw-la salutis_fw-la meae_fw-la in_o die_v clamavi_fw-la &_o nocte_fw-la coram_fw-la te_fw-la o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n day_n and_o night_n have_v i_o cry_v after_o thou_o for_o who_o but_o thyself_o can_v comfort_v a_o soul_n that_o indeed_o neither_o seek_v nor_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o thou_o my_o god_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o spend_v all_o my_o strength_n and_o force_n in_o sing_v thy_o praise_n who_o will_v set_v their_o heart_n upon_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o see_v thou_o have_v make_v all_o other_o thing_n so_o hard_o to_o be_v obtain_v that_o we_o may_v seek_v only_o thou_o for_o who_o we_o be_v make_v and_o who_o love_n we_o may_v more_o easy_o obtain_v then_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o let_v i_o love_n thou_o who_o only_o for_o that_o end_n do_v create_v i_o we_o will_v have_v that_o which_o be_v worth_a nothing_o and_o many_o time_n grieve_v for_o the_o loss_n of_o that_o which_o will_v but_o cause_v we_o perplexity_n and_o trouble_v to_o have_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n neglect_v that_o which_o thou_o so_o infinite_o desire_v to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o to_o wit_n thy_o love_n than_o which_o nothing_o be_v so_o good_a or_o sweet_a or_o that_o bring_v such_o true_a peace_n to_o the_o soul._n the_o xx._n confession_n without_o pain_n it_o be_v impossible_a o_o my_o most_o amiable_a god_n to_o live_v in_o love_n but_o if_o the_o difficulty_n which_o thy_o true_a friend_n and_o servant_n feel_v be_v weigh_v with_o the_o misery_n of_o those_o who_o rather_o seek_v to_o please_v themselves_o and_o other_o then_o thou_o there_o will_v be_v find_v a_o infinite_a disâ—parity_n for_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n to_o the_o simple_a and_o humble_a and_o to_o those_o who_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o who_o joy_n thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o who_o nothing_o else_o but_o thou_o my_o god_n do_v seâ—k_n for_o in_o time_n or_o eternity_n these_o i_o say_v be_v despise_v contemn_a afflict_a pain_a tempt_v trouble_a and_o many_o time_n sit_v sorrowful_a with_o a_o heavy_a hart_n and_o sad_a countenance_n but_o thy_o will_n be_v their_o law_n and_o thy_o disposition_n their_o consolation_n i_o may_v bold_o affirm_v that_o in_o all_o this_o they_o suffer_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o the_o fondâ—_n lover_n of_o this_o world_n because_o thou_o be_v ever_o more_o present_a to_o they_o then_o tâ—ey_v to_o themselves_o do_v when_o thou_o see_v thy_o time_n refresh_v their_o soul_n with_o the_o light_n and_o comfort_n of_o thy_o grace_n yea_o seem_a to_o be_v even_o prodigal_a of_o thy_o sweetness_n to_o such_o as_o abide_v faithful_a to_o thou_o in_o their_o tribulation_n and_o hope_v confide_v and_o glory_n in_o thou_o and_o not_o in_o themselves_o and_o who_o take_v occasion_n in_o all_o they_o see_v hear_v suffer_v overcome_v to_o humble_v themselves_o under_o thy_o mighty_a hand_n and_o bless_v and_o praise_v thy_o justice_n and_o mercy_n in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o among_o which_o number_n admit_v i_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a sinner_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n for_o this_o thy_o mercy_n from_o all_o creature_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n remove_v all_o impediment_n between_o thy_o goodness_n and_o my_o poor_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o who_o only_o deserve_v all_o love_n and_o honour_n give_v i_o a_o humble_a and_o peaceful_a hart_n that_o thou_o may_v inhabit_v therein_o as_o thou_o desire_v suppress_v in_o i_o by_o thy_o sweet_a grace_n the_o sin_n of_o pride_n which_o make_v i_o as_o yet_o so_o odious_a to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o if_o we_o do_v but_o by_o true_a humility_n abase_v ourselves_o what_o beam_n of_o true_a light_n will_v shine_v in_o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n o_o what_o amity_n be_v there_o between_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o a_o humble_a soul_n nothing_o but_o humility_n can_v have_v draw_v thou_o down_o to_o the_o earth_n and_o only_o humility_n can_v make_v we_o capable_a of_o be_v draw_v by_o â—hee_o up_o to_o heaven_n the_o true_o humble_a conver_n familiar_o with_o thou_o and_o thy_o saint_n they_o presume_v nothing_o of_o themselves_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n in_o thou_o who_o strengthne_v they_o and_o thou_o be_v so_o chary_a and_o tender_a of_o the_o humble_a that_o what_o concern_v they_o thou_o esteem_v to_o concern_v thy_o own_o self_n and_o even_o thy_o own_o hart_n and_o they_o think_v they_o do_v nothing_o do_v by_o thou_o do_v all_o thing_n many_o unknown_a to_o the_o worldâ—_n and_o of_o no_o esteem_n wiâ—h_v it_o shall_v before_o thou_o have_v the_o honour_n and_o merâ—t_v in_o the_o next_o world_n of_o that_o which_o noâ—_n other_o man_n boast_v of_o and_o attribute_v to_o themselves_o for_o the_o humble_a live_n still_o in_o their_o own_o nothing_o give_v all_o glory_n to_o thou_o by_o who_o only_o all_o good_a be_v perform_v in_o the_o mean_a while_o thou_o enrich_v they_o of_o thy_o mere_a mercy_n with_o thy_o merit_n o_o happy_a exchange_n thinâ—_n for_o we_o dirt_n for_o the_o most_o pure_a gold_n what_o be_v all_o we_o can_v do_v very_o nothing_o enrich_v i_o therefore_o poor_a beggar_n with_o somewhat_o of_o thy_o at_o thâ—_n foot_n i_o lay_v whatsoever_o thou_o give_v oâ—_n have_v give_v i_o give_v or_o take_v away_o 〈◊〉_d thou_o please_v so_o thou_o do_v not_o blot_v mâ—_n out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o life_n open_v to_o i_o knock_v at_o the_o door_n of_o thy_o mercy_n i_o have_v be_v five_o and_o twenty_o year_n this_o signify_v her_o age_n at_o the_o write_v hereof_o as_o that_o she_o be_v then_o five_o and_o twenty_o year_n old_a in_o my_o infirmity_n of_o most_o loathsome_a sin_n behold_v my_o misery_n and_o take_v pity_n upon_o i_o son_n of_o david_n i_o defile_v that_o â—oul_n that_o be_v make_v to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n have_v compassion_n on_o she_o who_o have_v no_o other_o friend_n or_o comforter_n but_o thyself_o the_o only_o desire_v of_o my_o hart_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n be_v propitious_a to_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v much_o nothing_o that_o i_o have_v do_v can_v i_o alleadg_n to_o thou_o which_o have_v deserve_v any_o reward_n in_o thy_o eye_n only_a desire_n of_o which_o many_o bourn_n in_o hell_n they_o be_v little_a without_o good_a work_n give_v she_o to_o drink_v who_o wither_v away_o for_o want_n of_o thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o all_o sweetness_n i_o will_v pour_v out_o my_o soul_n before_o thou_o that_o at_o least_o i_o may_v comfort_v myself_o with_o relate_v to_o thou_o my_o sin_n and_o misery_n behold_v all_o my_o enemy_n triumph_v over_o i_o of_o who_o most_o easy_o in_o all_o temptation_n they_o get_v â—he_v victory_n fight_v for_o i_o or_o else_o i_o know_v not_o what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o give_v i_o true_a humility_n by_o which_o all_o thing_n be_v easy_o overcome_v and_o all_o thou_o exact_a most_o perfect_o accomplish_v by_o we_o thy_o majesty_n poor_a creature_n give_v thyself_o to_o meâ—_n who_o have_v nothing_o of_o her_o own_o to_o offer_v thou_o and_o if_o thou_o give_v i_o thyself_o i_o be_o as_o rich_a as_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v and_o if_o thou_o shall_v bestoâ—_n upon_o i_o all_o thou_o have_v or_o can_v create_v it_o will_v be_v little_a to_o i_o unless_o i_o possess_v thou_o by_o thy_o self_n i_o praise_v thou_o who_o name_n do_v not_o beseem_a the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n o_o let_v i_o love_n or_o not_o live_v i_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o who_o alone_o i_o wish_v for_o and_o desire_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul._n o_o my_o god_n how_o near_o thou_o be_v to_o we_o ready_a to_o hear_v and_o receive_v our_o prayer_n and_o petition_n behold_v thy_o sâ—eeâ—_n providence_n show_v itself_o in_o all_o thing_n o_o how_o long_o shall_v my_o god_n be_v thus_o forget_v by_o creature_n when_o will_v thou_o by_o love_n be_v by_o all_o seek_v after_o as_o thou_o ought_v to_o be_v by_o we_o the_o
xxii_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n let_v all_o thing_n praise_v thou_o let_v thy_o just_a will_v be_v our_o law_n let_v subject_n humble_o obey_v in_o and_o for_o thou_o for_o inferior_n contend_v and_o withstand_v their_o superior_n in_o that_o thou_o will_v have_v they_o obey_v in_o ☜_o be_v most_o odious_a in_o thy_o eye_n and_o nothing_o they_o can_v do_v will_v please_v thou_o unless_o they_o will_v hear_v thy_o voice_n as_o well_o by_o other_o as_o from_o thyself_o for_o it_o be_v not_o so_o much_o the_o greatness_n of_o the_o action_n that_o thou_o regard_v as_o the_o be_v do_v by_o we_o in_o that_o manner_n thou_o will_v have_v it_o do_v by_o we_o and_o in_o nothing_o can_v we_o obey_v thou_o as_o we_o ought_v to_o do_v unless_o we_o first_o regard_n and_o intend_v thou_o in_o that_o which_o by_o we_o be_v accomplish_v and_o a_o superior_a reflect_v on_o his_o own_o authority_n rather_o than_o on_o what_o in_o thy_o behalf_n he_o ought_v to_o exact_v in_o that_o case_n or_o case_n and_o rather_o on_o what_o by_o his_o power_n he_o can_v command_v then_o on_o what_o according_a to_o thy_o pleasure_n be_v best_a to_o be_v do_v rathâ—r_o govern_v in_o his_o own_o power_n then_o in_o thou_o and_o the_o effect_n unless_o it_o be_v very_o straight_o and_o right_o between_o his_o subiectâ—_n heart_n and_o thou_o will_v consequent_o be_v more_o human_a than_o divine_a and_o the_o superior_n while_o sensible_a of_o their_o honour_n abuse_v the_o power_n give_v by_o thou_o do_v yet_o loose_v what_o they_o will_v have_v for_o their_o subject_n often_o look_v upon_o rather_o what_o be_v defective_a in_o the_o superior_a then_o upon_o their_o own_o duty_n both_o of_o they_o fail_v in_o their_o duty_n to_o thy_o dishonour_n who_o so_o sweet_o have_v dispose_v of_o all_o thing_n if_o we_o do_v not_o pervert_v thy_o order_n with_o seek_v not_o thou_o and_o thy_o honour_n but_o our_o own_o and_o ourselves_o from_o which_o misery_n bless_v we_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o sake_n that_o thou_o maisâ—_n be_v glorify_v both_o in_o the_o commander_n and_o the_o obeyer_n the_o xxiii_o confession_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v those_o thou_o instructe_v in_o thy_o law_n and_o in_o who_o it_o go_v straight_o between_o their_o soul_n and_o thet_z for_o their_o only_a care_n be_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n these_o humble_o obey_v for_o thou_o and_o see_v how_o dangerous_a it_o be_v to_o resist_v thy_o will_n in_o any_o thing_n how_o little_a soever_o but_o very_o much_o must_v we_o strive_v to_o humble_v ourselves_o if_o we_o desire_v to_o know_v and_o stand_v unto_o the_o thing_n that_o be_v exact_v of_o we_o by_o thou_o for_o nothing_o be_v able_a to_o enlighten_v our_o blindness_n but_o thy_o grace_n shine_v in_o a_o humble_a soul._n if_o we_o know_v never_o so_o much_o and_o can_v do_v wonder_n if_o we_o have_v never_o so_o great_a guif_n of_o nature_n and_o grace_n ☜_o yet_o can_v we_o not_o thereby_o become_v please_v to_o thou_o unless_o withal_o we_o be_v diligent_a in_o the_o exercise_n of_o true_a humility_n o_o give_v i_o this_o gift_n for_o none_o of_o himsef_n be_v able_a to_o attain_v to_o it_o my_o god_n make_v i_o true_o humble_a that_o i_o may_v be_v whole_o thou_o let_v i_o by_o love_n adhere_v to_o thou_o that_o all_o impediment_n may_v be_v remove_v between_o my_o soul_n and_o thou_o let_v all_o create_a thing_n be_v to_o i_o as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o as_o to_o their_o become_v any_o impediment_n between_o my_o poor_a soul_n and_o thy_o godnes_n that_o so_o i_o may_v not_o be_v hinder_v by_o any_o thing_n from_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o for_o this_o thou_o may_v our_o soul_n that_o by_o thy_o grace_n we_o may_v return_v to_o thou_o who_o by_o sin_n we_o have_v stray_v from_o and_o that_o humble_o seek_v to_o love_n thou_o and_o use_v all_o thing_n create_v only_o to_o this_o end_n that_o we_o may_v at_o last_o find_v and_o possess_v â—hee_o who_o only_o be_v able_a to_o satiate_v we_o and_o therefore_o miserable_a be_v we_o when_o we_o seek_v any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o from_o which_o do_v i_o beseech_v thou_o defend_v us._n amen_o the_o xxiv_o confession_n non_fw-fr in_o solo_fw-la pane_fw-la vivit_fw-la homo_fw-la sed_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la verbo_fw-la quod_fw-la procedit_fw-la de_fw-la ore_fw-la dei_fw-la 4._o these_o be_v thy_o oâ—â—_n word_n my_o lord_n â—hich_v i_o rehear_n beâ—ore_v thou_o to_o whom_o power_n out_o my_o hart_n and_o my_o soul_n â—ith_v unspeakable_a joy_n hope_v that_o â—hy_a word_n shall_v be_v a_o light_n unto_o my_o foot_n that_o i_o may_v avoid_v the_o gin_n and_o snare_n which_o the_o world_n the_o â—â—esh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v lay_v to_o catch_v â—nd_n entrap_v my_o sinful_a and_o weak_a â—oul_n thy_o word_n indeed_o be_v sweet_a because_o thou_o speak_v peace_n to_o the_o hart_n and_o give_v by_o they_o strength_n â—o_o the_o soul._n it_o be_v well_o know_v to_o thou_o why_o i_o do_v thus_o dilate_v myself_o in_o speak_v and_o write_v to_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n rehearse_v to_o thou_o to_o who_o all_o thing_n be_v manifest_a the_o desire_n intention_n and_o affliction_n or_o comfort_n of_o my_o hart_n for_o as_o thâ—uâ—ell_o â—ell_z know_v if_o i_o shall_v not_o when_o â—_o enjoy_v some_o more_o interior_a light_n set_v down_o in_o write_v some_o thiug_n which_o i_o may_v peruse_v at_o other_o time_n that_o â—re_n of_o obsurity_n i_o shall_v be_v apt_a to_o forget_v to_o praise_v thou_o ☞_o yea_o and_o eveâ—_o wither_v away_o with_o the_o grief_n and_o anguish_n which_o by_o thy_o sweet_a permission_n overwhelm_v my_o soul_n be_v thâ—â—_n bless_v for_o all_o who_o take_v away_o 〈◊〉_d beseech_v thou_o or_o give_v as_o it_o best_o pleaâ—seth_v thou_o from_o thy_o poor_a seruantâ—_n only_o deprive_v i_o not_o of_o graceâ—_n so_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o i_o care_v not_o whaâ—_n happen_v to_o i_o let_v thy_o will_n be_v do_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n rooâ—_n out_o of_o my_o soul_n that_o pride_n whicâ—_n make_v i_o so_o far_o from_o be_v thaâ—_n thou_o will_v have_v i_o to_o be_v my_o desire_n be_v great_a to_o praise_n love_n honour_n and_o true_o serve_v thou_o but_o my_o power_n be_v so_o little_a that_o none_o have_v be_v less_o faithful_a to_o thou_o than_o i_o but_o where_o do_v the_o liberality_n of_o thy_o infinite_a mercâ—_n extend_v itself_o more_o willing_o theâ—_n where_o there_o be_v great_a poverty_n anâ—_n misery_n though_o i_o be_v poor_a yet_o mâ—_n lord_n be_v rich_a though_o i_o be_v in_o all_o blindness_n as_o to_o the_o discern_a of_o trutâ—_n yet_o my_o lord_n be_v light_v itself_o to_o he_o therefore_o i_o will_v approach_v that_o in_o his_o light_n i_o may_v see_v light_a i_o will_v beg_v of_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v become_v capable_a of_o glori_v in_o thy_o riches_n and_o then_o nothing_o shall_v be_v want_v to_o i_o see_v my_o lord_n possess_v in_o himself_o all_o good_a thing_n be_v thou_o my_o lord_n what_o â—hou_n be_v and_o i_o a_o miserable_a sinner_n cast_v my_o eye_n upon_o the_o earth_n do_v cry_v to_o thou_o to_o be_v merciful_a to_o my_o sin_n i_o sit_v here_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n morn_n and_o lament_v that_o i_o have_v make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o conclude_v a_o everlasting_a â—eague_n and_o peace_n with_o my_o lord_n god_n to_o who_o now_o my_o soul_n do_v aspire_v day_n and_o night_n without_o cease_v o_o my_o lord_n when_o i_o remember_v what_o â—hou_n have_v do_v for_o i_o i_o faint_v and_o fail_v to_o see_v how_o ungrateful_a for_o it_o i_o have_v be_v and_o be_o to_o thou_o what_o do_v thou_o mean_v to_o help_v i_o and_o â—ecall_v i_o from_o my_o sin_n when_o i_o least_o think_v of_o thou_o and_o not_o content_a with_o that_o baker_n thou_o do_v also_o by_o mean_n of_o a_o faithful_a servant_n of_o thou_o make_v my_o state_n which_o be_v so_o heavy_a â—_o burden_n to_o i_o through_o my_o fault_n and_o ignorance_n to_o become_v so_o delightful_a to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v and_o do_v true_o acknowledge_v that_o thy_o yoke_n of_o religion_n be_v sweet_a above_o all_o the_o delight_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n and_o thy_o burden_n so_o light_a that_o cross_n pain_n affliction_n internal_a and_o exâ—ternal_a bear_v as_o thy_o burden_n be_v most_o light_a and_o easy_a and_o cause_n more_o true_a peace_n to_o my_o hart_n than_o i_o can_v express_v which_o be_v it_o say_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o grant_v i_o to_o humble_v myself_o in_o all_o that_o i_o may_v grow_v still_o more_o and_o more_o please_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o comfort_n of_o my_o soul._n ☞_o let_v his_o instruction_n of_o who_o
sake_n as_o also_o thy_o own_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxviii_o confession_n incina_n cor_fw-la meum_fw-la deus_fw-la in_o testimonia_fw-la tua_fw-la 118._o ecce_fw-la concupui_fw-la mandata_fw-la tua_fw-la in_fw-la aequitate_fw-la tua_fw-la vivifica_fw-la me-incline_a my_o god_n my_o hart_n to_o thy_o testimony_n and_o in_o thy_o truth_n quicken_v my_o soul._n for_o behold_v my_o soul_n do_v exceed_o covet_v to_o perform_v thy_o law_n for_o thy_o law_n be_v truth_n and_o the_o effect_n thereof_o be_v justice_n and_o peace_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n when_o i_o remember_v how_o i_o have_v stray_v from_o thou_o by_o sin_n i_o become_v ashamed_a before_o thâ—e_n but_o when_o i_o consider_v thy_o mercy_n i_o hope_v still_o notwithstanding_o what_o be_v pass_v to_o become_v through_o thy_o grace_n which_o so_o sweet_o prevent_v i_o please_v to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o lord_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscuredâ—_n by_o sin_n and_o ill_a custom_n enlighten_v it_o that_o i_o may_v walk_v the_o way_n of_o justice_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o way_n whereof_o thou_o speak_v by_o esaie_n the_o prophet_n 8._o in_o which_o a_o fool_n can_v err_v as_o he_o affirmethâ—_n o_o let_v i_o by_o true_a humility_n become_v a_o fool_n according_a to_o his_o meaning_n let_v i_o become_v as_o a_o bittle_a child_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n certain_o we_o ought_v to_o live_v so_o subject_a to_o thou_o that_o we_o have_v no_o election_n of_o any_o thing_n as_o pretend_v ourselves_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n and_o also_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o a_o relation_n to_o thou_o that_o in_o thy_o light_n in_o thy_o truth_n and_o whole_o according_a to_o thy_o will_n we_o perform_v all_o we_o do_v and_o out_o of_o that_o respect_n omit_v what_o we_o omit_v ☞_o o_o my_o god_n let_v i_o i_o say_v walk_v this_o way_n of_o love_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o sack_v it-self_n in_o any_o tâ—ing_n whatsoever_o let_v this_o love_n whole_o possess_v my_o soul_n and_o hart_n which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o may_v live_v and_o move_v only_o in_o and_o out_o of_o a_o pure_a and_o sincere_a love_n to_o thou_o who_o above_o all_o aught_o to_o be_v love_v and_o desire_v let_v this_o fire_n which_o thou_o come_v into_o this_o world_n to_o send_v and_o will_v it_o shall_v burn_v consume_v i_o whole_o into_o itself_o that_o forgetful_a of_o myself_o and_o all_o create_a thing_n i_o may_v be_v mindful_a of_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n it_o be_v thy_o promise_n that_o where_o sin_n â—ath_v abound_v graâ—e_o shall_v superbound_v that_o the_o riches_n of_o thy_o merâ—y_n may_v appear_v and_o show_v it-self_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o holy_a name_n which_o mercy_n i_o beseech_v thou_o extend_v itself_o â—o_o i_o that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o o_o that_o thy_o pure_a love_n be_v â—o_o ground_v and_o establish_v in_o my_o hart_n that_o i_o may_v sigh_v and_o pant_v without_o cease_v after_o thou_o and_o be_v â—ble_n in_o the_o strength_n of_o this_o thy_o love_n â—o_o live_v without_o alâ—_n comfort_n and_o conâ—olation_n human_a or_o divine_a thereby_o â—o_o become_v the_o more_o conformable_a to_o â—hee_o the_o belove_a of_o my_o soul_n o_o how_o â—appy_a be_v they_o that_o true_o love_n tâ—ee_v certain_o whatsoever_o they_o suffer_v it_o â—â—_o very_o tolerable_a to_o they_o because_o he_o or_o who_o love_n they_o suffer_v be_v thâ—ir_a helâ—er_n indeed_o my_o lord_n thou_o be_v a_o hiden_n god_n but_o yet_o not_o so_o hide_v from_o â—ur_n soul_n but_o that_o in_o some_o sort_n we_o â—ave_n therein_o according_a to_o our_o poor_a capacity_n not_o only_o a_o taste_n but_o also_o sight_n of_o thou_o for_o as_o even_o thou_o thy_o self_n have_v say_v 8._o bless_v be_v the_o clean_a of_o hart_n for_o they_o shall_v see_v god_n o_o sight_n to_o be_v wish_v desire_a and_o long_v forâ—_n because_o once_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o be_v to_o have_v learn_v all_o thing_n nothing_o can_v bring_v we_o to_o this_o sight_n but_o love_n but_o what_o love_n must_v it_o be_v not_o a_o sensible_a love_n only_o a_o childish_a love_n a_o love_n which_o seek_v it-self_n more_o than_o the_o belove_a no_o but_o it_o must_v bâ—_n a_o ardent_a love_n a_o pure_a love_n a_o couradgious_a love_n ☞_o a_o love_n of_o charity_n anâ—_n humble_a love_n and_o a_o constant_a love_n not_o wear_v out_o with_o labour_n noâ—_n daunt_v with_o any_o difficulty_n o_o lord_n give_v this_o love_n unto_o my_o soul_n that_o â—_o may_v never_o more_o live_v nor_o breath_n buâ—_n out_o of_o a_o most_o pure_a love_n of_o thou_o my_o all_o and_o only_o good_a let_v i_o love_v thou_o foâ—_n thyself_o and_o nothing_o else_o but_o in_o anâ—_n for_o thou_o let_v i_o love_v nothing_o in_o steeâ—_n of_o thou_o 8._o for_o to_o give_v all_o for_o love_n be_v â—â—_o most_o sweet_a bargain_n for_o love_n be_v as_o stronâ—_n as_o death_n o_o that_o this_o thy_o love_n may_v floâ—_n in_o such_o abundance_n into_o the_o harâ—_n of_o all_o capable_a thereof_o that_o the_o sonâ—_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o praise_n may_v contiâ—nually_o be_v hear_v through_o out_o all_o the_o earth_n o_o what_o do_v we_o do_v love_a vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z abuse_v the_o most_o noble_a capacity_n of_o our_o soul_n by_o desire_v that_o which_o pass_v away_o like_a smoke_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z love_v that_o which_o be_v more_o changeable_a than_o the_o moon_n can_v any_o â—hing_n satiate_v our_o heart_n but_o our_o god_n can_v we_o find_v true_a repose_n out_o of_o he_o â—s_v any_o thing_n worthy_a of_o our_o love_n but_o â—hat_n goodness_n which_o be_v love_n it-self_n and_o â—hom_n the_o more_o we_o love_v the_o more_o we_o â—re_n able_a to_o love_n because_o for_o love_n he_o make_v we_o capable_a of_o love_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o honour_n â—nd_v i_o know_v not_o it_o i_o be_v compare_v â—o_o beast_n and_o by_o sin_n become_v like_a to_o â—hem_o or_o worse_o than_o they_o be_v this_o my_o equital_n for_o all_o thy_o love_n be_v this_o excusable_a that_o my_o soul_n make_v by_o theeâ—o_o â—o_z be_v delight_v with_o the_o food_n of_o â—ngels_n which_o be_v love_n shall_v delight_v â—â—self_n with_o the_o bread_n of_o swine_n o_o be_v â—y_a hart_n able_a to_o rehear_n this_o before_o â—â—ee_v and_o not_o through_o excessive_a grief_n â—reak_v in_o sunder_o can_v i_o in_o my_o nature_n not_o abide_v to_o be_v disloyal_a to_o one_o who_o i_o find_v to_o be_v a_o faithful_a friend_n to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o endure_v to_o remember_v my_o disloyalty_n to_o my_o god_n can_v i_o with_o joy_n undergo_v for_o my_o friend_n ☞_o disgrace_n and_o difficulty_n and_o can_v i_o endure_v nothing_o for_o my_o god_n be_v the_o absence_n of_o a_o dear_a friend_n intolerable_a to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o abide_v to_o see_v myself_o cease_v at_o any_o time_n to_o sigh_v and_o long_o after_o my_o god_n o_o no_o my_o god_n let_v that_o be_v far_o from_o i_o i_o here_o renounce_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o creature_n place_n with_o thy_o own_o hand_n tâ—â—_n love_n in_o their_o roomâ—_n that_o it_o expel_v thence_o all_o â—hat_n now_o be_v therein_o displease_v to_o tâ—ine_a eye_n thou_o maâ—â—_n thy_o selâ—_n whole_o possess_v i_o give_v and_o distribute_v my_o affection_n and_o dispose_v the_o passion_n of_o my_o haâ—â—_n according_a to_o thy_o sweet_a will_n which_o only_o be_v just_a only_o holy_a and_o true_a iâ—_n it-self_n c_o how_o sincere_a then_o be_v oâ—_n affection_n when_o we_o love_v our_o neigâ—â—bour_n only_o in_o and_o for_o thou_o theâ—â—_n we_o pity_v not_o one_o and_o be_v hard_o heart_v to_o another_o according_a to_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o perverse_a nature_n but_o behold_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o consequent_o willing_o serve_v and_o assist_v all_o for_o thy_o love_n then_o we_o do_v not_o show_v our_o seve_v meek_a only_o to_o our_o friend_n but_o also_o to_o those_o by_o who_o we_o suffer_v most_o contradiction_n and_o glad_o upon_o all_o occasion_n extend_v our_o charity_n for_o there_o be_v no_o true_a friendship_n but_o that_o which_o be_v found_v upon_o thou_o and_o which_o be_v maintain_v without_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love_n ☜_o this_o be_v only_o the_o love_n of_o charity_n which_o charity_n know_v not_o how_o to_o repine_v to_o be_v angry_a to_o be_v exceptious_a to_o be_v inconstant_a to_o be_v troublesome_a to_o be_v suspicious_a or_o jealous_a for_o it_o regard_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o desire_v thou_o above_o all_o it_o take_v all_o in_o good_a part_n it_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v man_n exceed_v in_o word_n find_v it-self_n so_o often_o to_o offend_v in_o
deed_n it_o bear_v all_o thing_n it_o hope_v all_o thing_n and_o it_o confide_v in_o thou_o above_o all_o thing_n it_o wish_v only_o that_o thy_o will_n may_v be_v perform_v in_o all_o and_o by_o all_o creature_n by_o which_o mean_v it_o retain_v true_a peace_n in_o all_o that_o happen_v o_o give_v i_o this_o â—hy_a love_n which_o work_v such_o wonderful_a effect_n in_o a_o humble_a soul_n give_v it_o to_o i_o and_o i_o will_v ask_v thou_o no_o more_o let_v it_o possess_v my_o soul_n that_o nothing_o but_o thyself_o may_v be_v love_v or_o desire_v by_o i_o can_v thy_o goodness_n find_v in_o thy_o hart_n to_o see_v i_o thus_o languish_v for_o want_n of_o thy_o love_n seek_v myself_o in_o all_o thing_n and_o not_o be_v able_a out_o of_o true_a love_n to_o suffer_v any_o thing_n it_o be_v true_a thoâ—_n have_v make_v my_o soul_n to_o loathe_v all_o create_a thing_n and_o have_v show_v i_o most_o plain_o that_o all_o be_v vanity_n and_o affliction_n of_o spirit_n save_v to_o love_v thou_o and_o that_o nothing_o be_v permanent_a under_o the_o sun_n â—and_v that_o vain_a and_o inconstant_a be_v every_o creature_n live_v so_o that_o 〈◊〉_d can_v i_o think_v if_o i_o will_v so_o be_o i_o hold_v by_o thou_o desire_v the_o friendship_n or_o favour_n of_o any_o creature_n but_o this_o be_v not_o sufficient_a for_o i_o anâ—_n therefore_o take_v pity_n on_o i_o beg_v and_o beseech_v grace_n and_o mercy_n oâ—_n thou_o it_o suffice_v not_o i_o that_o my_o souâ—_n refuse_v to_o be_v comfort_v but_o i_o musâ—_n also_o remember_v my_o god_n that_o with_o his_o love_n my_o soul_n may_v be_v inflame_v be_v thou_o ignorant_a that_o my_o soul_n have_v have_v through_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n a_o taste_n of_o thou_o can_v find_v comfort_n in_o any_o thing_n but_o in_o enjoy_v of_o thou_o o_o no_o this_o be_v as_o all_o other_o thing_n be_v most_o manifest_a to_o thou_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v not_o have_v have_v i_o thus_o for_o love_n to_o importune_v thou_o thou_o will_v not_o have_v make_v i_o incapable_a of_o be_v satisfy_v without_o thou_o this_o which_o i_o say_v i_o do_v not_o speak_v of_o presumption_n but_o out_o of_o the_o urgent_a desir_n of_o my_o hart_n â—hich_v have_v resolve_v to_o convert_v itself_o whole_o to_o thou_o thou_o who_o do_v bid_v i_o to_o ask_v have_v promise_v i_o shall_v releave_v thou_o who_o do_v bid_v i_o knock_v â—ast_v promise_v it_o shall_v in_o time_n convenient_a be_v open_v to_o meâ—_n which_o â—owre_n o_o my_o lord_n when_o shall_v it_o be_v â—hat_n without_o cease_v i_o may_v praise_v â—hee_o and_o never_o any_o more_o offend_v thou_o still_o which_o be_v grant_v i_o i_o will_v sigh_v â—fter_o thou_o and_o in_o my_o hart_n in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o will_v call_v upon_o â—hee_o and_o sometime_o i_o will_v also_o be_v enable_v and_o invite_v thereunto_o by_o thou_o sing_v love_n song_n to_o my_o wellbeloved_n who_o be_v ever_o within_o the_o hear_n of_o meâ—_n for_o thou_o be_v not_o like_o the_o lover_n 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will_v have_v of_o thou_o because_o i_o woulâ—_n love_v thou_o beyond_o all_o that_o can_v be_v imaâ—gined_v or_o desire_v by_o i_o be_v thou_o in_o this_o as_o in_o all_o other_o thing_n my_o chooser_n for_o i_o who_o be_v my_o only_a choice_n most_o dear_a to_o i_o 3._o glorious_a thing_n be_v say_v of_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o god_n the_o most_o absolute_a and_o amiable_a beauty_n the_o more_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o the_o more_o will_v my_o soul_n desire_v thou_o and_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o let_v i_o love_v thou_o for_o thyself_o and_o not_o any_o thing_n instead_o of_o thou_o and_o let_v my_o whole_a substance_n by_o thy_o love_n and_o praise_v be_v consume_v in_o i_o that_o i_o may_v return_v pure_a unto_o thou_o who_o be_v by_o all_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n bless_v and_o love_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxix_o confession_n o_o my_o god_n my_o only_a belove_a i_o think_v i_o hear_v thou_o sweet_o check_v my_o soul_n with_o these_o word_n when_o under_o 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prepare_n of_o we_o for_o this_o end_n if_o we_o use_v theiâ—_n right_o with_o humility_n and_o according_a to_o the_o just_a will_n of_o almighty_a god_n let_v we_o extend_v our_o will_n to_o serve_v love_n praise_n please_v and_o magnify_v our_o lord_n to_o the_o uttermost_a we_o be_v able_a â—ea_o without_o all_o limit_n or_o bound_n leâ—_n we_o â—esire_v his_o honour_n till_o such_o time_n as_o we_o may_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o the_o bottomless_a ocean_n of_o all_o love_n and_o praise_n god_n in_o himself_o in_o who_o and_o by_o and_o in_o who_o only_o we_o can_v praise_v he_o as_o we_o ought_v let_v we_o love_v he_o as_o far_o as_o we_o arâ—_n possible_a able_a without_o regard_n of_o ourselves_o either_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n this_o be_v the_o humble_a love_n that_o feel_v no_o burden_n this_o be_v the_o love_n that_o know_v not_o how_o to_o attribute_v any_o thing_n it_o do_v or_o suffer_v to_o it-self_n it_o choose_v not_o wherein_o god_n shâ—l_v make_v use_n of_o she_o but_o accommodate_v herself_n in_o all_o thing_n to_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n if_o it_o be_v his_o will_n to_o hauâ—_n it_o so_o she_o will_v rather_o for_o ever_o be_v pick_v up_o chip_n or_o straw_n than_o out_o of_o her_o own_o election_n to_o be_v do_v that_o which_o be_v most_o admire_a or_o may_v seem_v to_o she_o to_o procure_v she_o the_o great_a reward_n o_o you_o soul_n that_o god_n bestow_v his_o love_n upon_o think_v it_o not_o much_o to_o bear_v the_o burden_n not_o only_o of_o yourselves_o but_o also_o of_o all_o that_o you_o live_v with_o for_o god_n bear_v you_o up_o in_o all_o more_o than_o you_o can_v conceive_v or_o imagine_v beware_v above_o all_o thing_n of_o pride_n for_o that_o cast_v even_o angel_n out_o of_o heaven_n a_o soul_n of_o prayer_n aslong_a as_o she_o keep_v humility_n ☜_o be_v in_o no_o peril_n of_o go_v out_o of_o her_o way_n it_o be_v certain_o true_a that_o god_n give_v himself_o to_o they_o who_o forsake_v all_o i_o say_v all_o and_o not_o by_o half_n ☜_o with_o reserve_v what_o we_o please_v to_o ourselves_o but_o to_o all_o that_o forsake_v all_o he_o give_v himself_o without_o exception_n of_o person_n and_o he_o that_o please_v our_o lord_n nee_v nor_o fear_v all_o the_o devil_n in_o hell_n it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a thing_n to_o see_v the_o variety_n of_o opinion_n that_o be_v or_o may_v be_v about_o the_o best_a use_n of_o those_o thing_n that_o of_o themselves_o be_v indifferent_a or_o at_o least_o be_v not_o evil_a one_o hold_v this_o aâ—d_v another_o that_o every_o man_n according_a to_o his_o fancy_n and_o as_o saint_n paul_n say_v abound_v in_o his_o â—wn_a sense_n 3._o no_o wonder_n then_o that_o those_o that_o liuâ—_n and_o converse_v with_o other_o and_o namely_o in_o a_o religious_a community_n do_v easy_o fall_v into_o occasion_n of_o jar_n and_o difference_n with_o other_o whilst_o every_o one_o pretend_v the_o truth_n and_o the_o best_a to_o be_v of_o her_o side_n howsoever_o it_o be_v indeed_o and_o therefore_o one_o nature_n will_v easy_o take_v occasion_n of_o jar_v with_o oâ—hers_n if_o it_o be_v not_o mortify_v by_o restraint_n from_o what_o it_o be_v incline_v to_o by_o such_o occasion_n it_o be_v only_o the_o diviâ—e_a virtue_n of_o true_a discretion_n that_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v and_o judge_n for_o one_o own_o practice_n what_o be_v good_a better_a or_o best_a of_o all_o in_o the_o use_n of_o those_o indifferent_a thing_n the_o more_o true_o mortify_v the_o â—oul_n be_v the_o clear_a be_v such_o light_n of_o discretion_n in_o she_o and_o will_v increase_v in_o she_o if_o she_o be_v still_o solicitous_a more_o and_o more_o to_o live_v to_o god_n in_o her_o interior_a and_o to_o die_v to_o herself_n and_o to_o all_o create_a thing_n by_o simple_o regard_v god_n in_o all_o she_o do_v oâ—_n omit_v &_o intend_v he_o alone_o in_o all_o â—â—â—ngs_n it_o be_v a_o true_a proverb_n that_o it_o be_v a_o easy_a matter_n to_o corrupt_v the_o mind_n of_o one_o then_o of_o a_o great_a many_o wherefore_o we_o must_v remember_v that_o it_o be_v a_o good_a and_o happy_a thing_n for_o brethren_n to_o dwell_v in_o one_o or_o rather_o by_o true_a love_n and_o charity_n in_o that_o one_o which_o be_v true_o necessary_a ☜_o to_o wit_n in_o god_n for_o no_o love_n be_v true_a but_o that_o which_o be_v in_o he_o and_o for_o he_o and_o without_o impediment_n to_o his_o love_n all_o other_o love_n be_v false_a slippery_a perverse_a and_o vain_a as_o not_o be_v found_v in_o god_n the_o ground_n of_o all_o true_a and_o happy_a love_n nor_o be_v refer_v to_o he_o and_o his_o love_n but_o the_o true_a love_n which_o be_v the_o divine_a will_v make_v all_o other_o dear_a unto_o we_o for_o his_o sake_n and_o none_o dear_a but_o in_o hâ—m_n and_o for_o he_o it_o will_v make_v we_o in_o capable_a of_o account_v any_o to_o be_v our_o enemy_n how_o hardly_o soever_o they_o treat_v we_o because_o in_o all_o thing_n we_o will_v regard_v god_n that_o permit_v such_o difficulty_n to_o happen_v to_o we_o to_o the_o end_n our_o fidelity_n to_o he_o may_v thereby_o be_v try_v and_o so_o not_o regaâ—d_v with_o any_o aversion_n the_o party_n who_o afflict_v we_o and_o it_o will_v be_v sufficient_a for_o we_o towards_o the_o pacification_n of_o our_o soul_n upon_o the_o hard_a or_o bitter_a usadge_n offer_v we_o that_o we_o remember_v that_o he_o have_v suffer_v it_o to_o happen_v to_o we_o for_o our_o good_a who_o only_o know_v what_o be_v best_a for_o the_o humble_v of_o we_o and_o the_o abate_n of_o our_o pride_n the_o which_o must_v be_v do_v if_o will_v be_v please_v to_o god_n to_o who_o now_o and_o ever_o i_o commit_v myself_n amen_n vnum_fw-la sit_fw-la mihi_fw-la â—oâ—um_fw-la id_fw-la est_fw-la omne_fw-la in_o omnibus_fw-la let_v one_o be_v all_o to_o to_o i_o that_o be_v all_o in_o al._n this_o be_v a_o poesy_n bestow_v on_o i_o and_o my_o partner_n by_o another_o the_o truth_n whereof_o i_o pray_v god_n may_v answerable_o be_v in_o the_o heart_n and_o love_v of_o we_o and_o of_o all_o other_o soul_n whatsoever_o the_o simple_a exâ—rcâ—se_n of_o the_o will_n be_v faithful_o and_o perseverant_a prosecute_v through_o god_n concur_v gâ—â—ce_n remove_v in_o time_n all_o impediment_n between_o our_o soul_n and_o god_n ☞_o and_o the_o soul_n by_o love_n come_v so_o to_o transcend_v all_o create_a thing_n yâ—a_o even_o her_o own_o self_n that_o all_o creature_n be_v to_o she_o as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o as_o to_o any_o hurtful_a distraction_n they_o cause_v to_o she_o or_o as_o to_o any_o other_o impediment_n between_o she_o and_o god_n the_o which_o can_v be_v only_o by_o inordinate_a adhere_n in_o affection_n to_o those_o creature_n a_o true_a spiritual_a internal_a life_n be_v so_o private_a and_o secret_a between_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n that_o other_o can_v easy_o disâ—erne_v it_o no_o not_o by_o by_o the_o external_a effect_n of_o it_o ☞_o for_o in_o her_o exterior_a carriage_n â—he_n be_v common_a and_o general_a as_o hate_v singularity_n by_o mean_n whereof_o she_o evoid_v much_o occasion_n of_o pride_n and_o walk_v the_o more_o seâ—urly_a between_o god_n and_o she_o those_o â—hat_n live_v a_o internal_a life_n do_v so_o withdraw_v all_o natural_a inordinate_a affection_n from_o creature_n that_o they_o often_o therefore_o be_v censure_v by_o superior_n &_o equal_v to_o neglect_v other_o out_o of_o pride_n but_o they_o abhor_v to_o have_v special_a interest_n in_o any_o do_v proceed_v so_o far_o as_o they_o can_v according_a to_o true_a charity_n and_o mind_v not_o what_o other_o judge_n of_o they_o they_o desire_v only_o in_o all_o to_o dischardg_v their_o duty_n to_o god_n â—hom_n they_o
unto_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o hope_n from_o my_o youth_n and_o be_o displease_v with_o myself_n for_o have_v be_v so_o ungrateful_a to_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n acknowledge_v before_o heaven_n aâ—d_v earth_n that_o nothing_o be_v just_a but_o that_o which_o thou_o dispose_v and_o nothing_o be_v well_o do_v save_v so_o far_o as_o it_o be_v do_v by_o thou_o so_o much_o as_o any_o thing_n i_o do_v or_o say_v be_v only_o of_o my_o own_o will_n and_o desire_n so_o far_o it_o just_o deserve_v punishment_n to_o thou_o be_v all_o glâ—ry_n in_o nothing_o be_v true_a peace_n but_o in_o seek_v after_o god_n aâ—one_v and_o in_o rest_v â—n_v he_o above_o all_o his_o gift_n o_o my_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a to_o say_v quis_fw-la i_o separabit_fw-la à _fw-la charitate_fw-la dei_fw-la who_o shall_v separate_v i_o from_o the_o charity_n of_o god_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o by_o true_a love_n become_v unite_v to_o thou_o the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n vsquequo_fw-la domine_fw-la oblivisceris_fw-la i_o in_fw-la finem_fw-la vsquequo_fw-la avertis_fw-la faciem_fw-la tuam_fw-la à _fw-la i_o how_o long_o will_v thou_o forget_v i_o unto_o the_o end_n hâ—w_o long_o do_v thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o face_n from_o i_o will_v thou_o for_o ever_o be_v angry_a with_o thy_o poor_a servant_n behold_v thou_o know_v i_o desire_v no_o other_o comfort_n upon_o earth_n then_o to_o be_v able_a without_o offend_v thou_o to_o live_v without_o all_o comfort_n human_a or_o divine_a o_o how_o little_a to_o be_v esteem_v be_v all_o the_o solace_n this_o world_n can_v afford_v the_o wicked_a have_v be_v tell_v i_o of_o their_o delight_n but_o they_o be_v not_o like_o those_o of_o thy_o law_n what_o comfort_n can_v any_o creature_n lâ—uing_v afford_v a_o soul_n that_o sigh_v and_o long_v after_o thou_o alone_o my_o god_n and_o be_v banish_v from_o the_o beloned_a of_o her_o soul_n very_o my_o god_n it_o be_v only_a thy-self_n that_o can_v rejoice_v and_o comfort_v such_o a_o soul_n thou_o only_o be_v sweet_a and_o all_o thing_n compare_v to_o thou_o be_v as_o nothing_o and_o less_o than_o nothing_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n tell_v i_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n in_o heaven_n or_o on_o earth_n that_o can_v satisfy_v my_o soul_n beside_o thou_o no_o certain_o why_o then_o do_v thou_o permit_v i_o thus_o to_o wander_v from_o thou_o who_o art_n only_o worthy_a to_o be_v desire_v and_o belove_v by_o my_o soul_n o_o my_o most_o dear_a god_n who_o can_v comprehend_v the_o misery_n that_o soul_n suffer_v that_o take_v comfort_n or_o desire_v any_o comfort_n from_o any_o creature_n o_o how_o long_o shall_v i_o be_v subject_a to_o this_o misery_n of_o inordinate_o love_v thy_o creature_n so_o that_o it_o be_v a_o impediment_n to_o the_o love_a of_o thou_o my_o creator_n who_o be_v the_o supreme_a good_a to_o thou_o alone_o be_v all_o love_n due_a and_o we_o do_v steal_v from_o thou_o when_o our_o affection_n be_v willing_o carry_v to_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o my_o god_n my_o mercy_n let_v we_o love_v thou_o as_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n who_o be_v lord_n of_o all_o thing_n &_o in_o who_o power_n all_o thing_n do_v stand_v let_v i_o i_o say_v love_v thou_o as_o thou_o will_v be_v belove_v by_o i_o o_o my_o lord_n aslong_a as_o the_o peace_n of_o my_o soul_n depend_v of_o man_n i_o can_v never_o repose_v in_o thou_o or_o â—ind_v thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n what_o come_v i_o into_o religion_n â—or_a but_o to_o love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n my_o lord_n and_o all_o my_o good_a o_o when_o shall_v i_o as_o i_o desire_v love_v thou_o and_o please_v thou_o my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o desire_n o_o my_o god_n how_o come_v it_o to_o pass_v that_o thou_o who_o mercy_n be_v super_fw-la omne_fw-la opera_fw-la eius_fw-la above_o all_o his_o work_n shall_v be_v now_o term_v to_o be_v terrible_a and_o hard_o to_o be_v please_v very_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o the_o great_a of_o all_o sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o have_v find_v thou_o so_o good_a and_o easy_o please_v that_o nothing_o be_v more_o pleasant_a then_o to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o to_o bear_v thy_o yoke_n from_o our_o youth_n the_o yoke_n of_o sin_n be_v heavy_a but_o thou_o be_v sweet_a above_o a_o the_o contentment_n and_o pleasure_n of_o this_o world_n let_v those_o that_o seek_v not_o thou_o and_o that_o desire_v any_o thing_n willing_o but_o thou_o fear_n and_o return_v to_o theâ—_n but_o let_v the_o heart_n of_o they_o that_o love_v thou_o rejoice_v o_o lord_n but_o can_v i_o say_v i_o love_v very_o not_o i_o but_o shall_v i_o for_o this_o feareâ—_n no_o my_o god_n at_o least_o not_o so_o as_o to_o loose_a confidence_n which_o have_v in_o it_o a_o great_a remuneration_n for_o see_v by_o thy_o grace_n i_o desire_v to_o love_v and_o to_o leave_v all_o for_o love_n i_o will_v hopâ—_n in_o thy_o mercâ—_n let_v it_o assist_v my_o extreme_a frailty_n anâ—_n poverty_n of_o myself_n i_o be_o nothing_o but_o in_o thy_o power_n i_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o do_v all_o thing_n thou_o know_v that_o i_o desire_v to_o leave_v all_o for_o thy_o sake_n and_o that_o if_o i_o know_v any_o thing_n that_o i_o love_v to_o the_o impediment_n â—of_o my_o true_o serve_v thou_o it_o will_v be_v so_o greâ—t_a a_o grief_n to_o my_o soul_n that_o nothing_o in_o heaven_n or_o earth_n can_v comfort_v i_o till_o i_o see_v myself_n free_v from_o that_o miserable_a bondage_n by_o thy_o assi_a graceâ—_n which_o i_o implore_v from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n set_v i_o free_a i_o mosâ—_n humble_o beseech_v thou_o by_o the_o multitude_n oâ—_n thy_o mercy_n from_o the_o sin_n into_o which_o i_o daily_o fall_v through_o my_o frailty_n remove_v all_o impediment_n between_o my_o soul_n and_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o frail_a above_o all_o measure_n let_v i_o live_v to_o thou_o die_v to_o all_o other_o thing_n whatsoever_o let_v i_o find_v and_o possess_v thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n ☜_o let_v all_o creature_n be_v silent_a that_o thou_o alone_o may_v be_v hear_v by_o i_o and_o i_o will_v not_o trouble_v myself_n with_o they_o without_o who_o be_v puff_v and_o blow_v and_o thereby_o raise_v up_o the_o dust_n of_o multiplicity_n into_o their_o own_o and_o other_o eye_n let_v i_o enter_v into_o the_o most_o retire_a place_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o sing_v love_n song_n to_o thou_o my_o al_n and_o only_o good_a regard_v thou_o with_o the_o simple_a eye_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o sigh_v out_o certain_a unspeakabe_n groan_v in_o this_o pilgrimage_n of_o i_o into_o the_o ear_n oâ—_n the_o only_o belove_a of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o ever_o i_o offend_v such_o a_o god_n be_v propitious_a o_o lord_n unto_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v great_a o_o mercy_n which_o have_v neither_o end_n nor_o measure_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o and_o forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n amen_n god_n let_v thy_o truth_n and_o not_o the_o blindness_n of_o my_o own_o ignorance_n speak_v to_o i_o speak_v lord_n for_o thy_o servant_n hear_v or_o at_o least_o desire_v to_o hear_v thou_o behold_v i_o set_v open_v the_o ear_n of_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o mny_n hear_v my_o belove_a speak_v justice_n and_o peace_n to_o my_o hart_n for_o thy_o voice_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o face_n comely_a and_o there_o be_v none_o like_o unto_o thâ—e_n in_o beauty_n and_o wisdom_n thou_o my_o god_n the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n the_o joy_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o comfort_n of_o my_o hart_n be_v to_o i_o all_o in_o all_o and_o above_o all_o which_o can_v be_v enjoy_v ot_fw-mi desire_v let_v i_o o_o let_v i_o rest_n in_o thou_o and_o in_o no_o create_a thing_n whatsoever_o simplify_v my_o soul_n that_o it_o may_v be_v able_a to_o adhere_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n transcend_v all_o create_a thing_n o_o when_o shall_v my_o soul_n forget_v all_o and_o only_o be_v mindful_a of_o thou_o the_o most_o pure_a spirit_n rest_v in_o thou_o above_o all_o thy_o grace_n and_o gift_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v by_o profound_a humility_n reduce_v to_o the_o nothing_o ☞_o which_o only_o make_v a_o a_o soul_n capable_a of_o thou_o who_o be_v all_o good_a thing_n who_o be_v that_o simple_a good_a in_o which_o nothing_o be_v want_v how_o long_o shall_v i_o glory_v in_o any_o create_a thing_n and_o seek_v myself_n to_o the_o dishonour_n of_o he_o with_o out_o who_o i_o can_v neither_o have_v life_n nor_o be_v much_o lesseâ—_n to_o be_v able_a without_o he_o to_o do_v any_o thing_n merit_v grace_n and_o salvation_n o_o my_o god_n when_o will_v thou_o set_v i_o free_a that_o i_o may_v glory_v in_o thou_o alone_o and_o not_o by_o pride_n exalt_v
i_o in_o their_o holy_a prayer_n which_o be_v most_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o i_o also_o desire_v that_o some_o will_v out_o of_o their_o charity_n read_v these_o thing_n to_o i_o which_o hereafter_o follow_v when_o sick_a to_o death_n shall_v be_v becompass_v with_o those_o fear_n and_o terror_n which_o ordinary_o accompany_v that_o dreadful_a hour_n at_o which_o time_n as_o all_o oâ—her_n be_v thou_o my_o helper_n and_o protectorâ—_n and_o in_o the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o mercy_n good_a father_n remember_v i_o poor_a beggar_n and_o from_o heaven_n send_v i_o now_o and_o at_o my_o departure_n thy_o grace_n which_o may_v bring_v i_o to_o thou_o where_o i_o may_v with_o all_o thy_o elect_n praiseâ—_n adore_v and_o worship_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o a_o act_n of_o contrition_n partly_o take_v ouâ—_n of_o the_o word_n of_o bless_a s._n augustin_n 1._o o_o lord_n i_o confess_v i_o have_v sin_v above_o the_o sand_n of_o the_o sea_n in_o number_n yet_o such_o be_v the_o grief_n which_o i_o take_v thereat_o that_o i_o will_v not_o refuse_v to_o suffer_v any_o kind_n of_o punishment_n for_o thâ—_n same_o o_o jesus_n whatsoever_o thy_o will_n shall_v be_v that_o i_o shall_v do_v i_o desire_v to_o perform_v it_o according_a to_o thy_o holy_a wil._n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o offer_v unto_o thou_o but_o a_o hart_n willing_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o thouâ—ouldst_a â—ouldst_z have_v i_o 2._o hâ—er_o i_o offer_v myself_n bind_v both_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o i_o lie_v prostrate_a at_o thy_o foot_n crave_v pardon_n for_o my_o abominable_a sin_n and_o offence_n 3._o i_o fly_v not_o away_o i_o appeal_v not_o from_o thy_o sentence_n otherwise_o then_o from_o thy_o justice_n to_o thy_o mercy_n which_o we_o sinner_n do_v daily_a experience_n to_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n 4._o i_o do_v not_o plead_v to_o be_v release_v of_o any_o punishment_n but_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v judge_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o own_o bless_a will_n only_o let_v i_o not_o be_v 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to_o thou_o as_o thou_o deserve_v i_o shall_v or_o as_o another_o in_o my_o case_n vuto_n thy_o mercy_n will_v but_o thou_o while_o that_o thou_o live_v here_o by_o token_n plain_n do_v show_v that_o none_o shall_v be_v refuse_v by_o thou_o who_o do_v in_o mercy_n flow_v and_o that_o my_o wicked_a hart_n do_v prove_v who_o after_o â—ins_n so_o many_o have_v find_v much_o favour_n in_o thy_o eye_n without_o deserve_v any_o o_o bless_a ever_o be_v my_o god_n for_o this_o prevent_a grace_n which_o i_o unworthy_a have_v receive_v in_o this_o most_o happy_a place_n i_o flee_v from_o thou_o by_o many_o sin_n and_o thou_o do_v follow_v i_o as_o if_o my_o ruin_n will_v have_v cause_v some_o detriment_n to_o thou_o how_o can_v this_o choose_v but_o wound_v my_o hart_n when_o i_o remember_v it_o and_o ever_o serve_v to_o humble_v i_o while_o at_o thy_o foot_n i_o sit_v from_o whence_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o permit_v i_o not_o to_o rise_v till_o i_o do_v love_n thou_o as_o thou_o will_v the_o which_o do_v all_o comprise_v 5._o i_o know_v thou_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o rather_o that_o i_o be_v convert_v and_o live_v 6._o be_v pacify_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o saâ—e_v and_o receive_v i_o into_o thy_o favour_n look_v upon_o thy_o own_o wound_n and_o let_v they_o plead_v my_o pardon_n do_v not_o for_o ever_o blot_v i_o out_o of_o â—he_n book_n of_o life_n but_o rather_o give_v i_o grace_n faithful_o hereafter_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v thou_o 7._o i_o know_v it_o be_v reason_n that_o one_o who_o have_v be_v so_o ungrateful_a to_o thy_o supreme_a majesty_n as_o i_o have_v be_v shall_v humble_v despise_v and_o willing_o abase_v himself_o even_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o all_o creature_n which_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n grant_v i_o to_o do_v that_o i_o may_v hereafter_o find_v savour_n in_o thy_o eye_n who_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o amen_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n to_o who_o nothing_o be_v impossible_a but_o not_o to_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o miserable_a forgive_v i_o my_o offence_n i_o be_o sorry_a from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n that_o ever_o i_o offend_v thou_o or_o contradict_v thy_o holy_a will_n but_o i_o know_v thou_o can_v forgive_v more_o than_o i_o can_v offend_v which_o make_v i_o confident_a of_o be_v receive_v into_o thy_o favour_n though_o thy_o most_o abundant_a mercy_n to_o who_o my_o god_n be_v give_v all_o laud._n honour_n and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n in_o heaven_n and_o in_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o everâ—_n amen_o o_o amiable_a jesus_n behold_v all_o thy_o creature_n do_v invite_v and_o exhort_v i_o to_o yield_v thâ—e_n praise_n for_o all_o thy_o benefit_n which_o have_v be_v i_o must_v ackowledg_v without_o end_n or_o measure_n towards_o i_o thy_o unworthy_a creature_n every_o creature_n do_v in_o their_o kind_n sing_v and_o set_v forth_o thy_o great_a goodness_n invite_v i_o to_o love_v only_o thou_o and_o yet_o behold_v how_o cold_a and_o dull_a i_o be_o in_o love_v praise_v and_o exalt_v thou_o o_o what_o shall_v i_o say_v but_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o hope_n my_o help_n my_o love_n my_o life_n and_o all_o yea_o my_o father_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o god_n to_o grant_v thy_o grace_n may_v not_o be_v void_a in_o i_o after_o so_o many_o infinite_a benefit_n o_o be_v thou_o hereafter_o the_o only_a desire_n and_o joy_n of_o my_o soul._n let_v i_o look_v after_o nothing_o but_o thou_o love_v nothing_o but_o thou_o let_v i_o night_n and_o day_n sigh_v and_o long_o after_o thou_o my_o belove_a let_v it_o suffice_v i_o to_o have_v my_o inteution_n and_o proceed_n only_o approve_a by_o thou_o o_o let_v i_o honour_n and_o respect_v all_o for_o thy_o sake_n howsoever_o they_o treat_v i_o for_o my_o ingratitude_n have_v be_v so_o great_a to_o thou_o that_o all_o creature_n as_o well_o goâ—d_a as_o bad_a may_v just_o despise_v i_o and_o do_v thou_o great_a honour_n thereby_o i_o offer_v thou_o therefore_o thou_o own_o merit_n see_v i_o have_v none_o of_o i_o own_o for_o those_o that_o shall_v any_o way_n revenge_v thy_o quarrel_n by_o afflict_v she_o who_o deserve_v nothing_o but_o hell_n for_o have_v so_o often_o offend_v thou_o after_o something_o which_o she_o have_v collect_v out_o of_o the_o follow_v of_o christ_n concern_v prayer_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v o_o my_o lord_n god_n how_o much_o do_v thy_o saint_n praise_n and_o commend_v the_o holy_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v â—hose_v that_o have_v no_o other_o study_n or_o care_n then_o how_o to_o extol_v and_o praise_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o in_o humility_n of_o hart_n to_o make_v their_o necessity_n know_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o father_n of_o mercy_n &_o dius_n totius_fw-la consolationis_fw-la qui_fw-la consolatur_fw-la nos_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la tribulatione_fw-la nostra_fw-la and_o the_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n who_o comfort_v we_o in_o all_o our_o tribulation_n to_o who_o shall_v we_o sinner_n fly_v but_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n who_o do_v thou_o ever_o reject_v that_o lament_a and_o wâ—s_v sorry_a for_o their_o sin_n nay_o do_v not_o publican_n and_o harlot_n find_v thou_o more_o willing_a to_o forgive_v they_o they_o can_v be_v to_o ask_v for_o pardon_n thou_o who_o forgave_v s._n peter_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n augustin_n and_o infinite_a other_o their_o sin_n and_o offence_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o who_o groan_v in_o spirit_n against_o myself_n to_o see_v and_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o conclude_v a_o everlasting_a peace_n and_o league_n with_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n to_o thou_o now_o all_o the_o power_n of_o my_o scatter_a
defile_v and_o deform_a soul_n do_v aspire_v behold_v i_o do_v extol_v now_o thy_o dear_a service_n to_o the_o sky_n profess_v and_o protest_v that_o there_o be_v no_o liberty_n so_o sweet_a as_o to_o be_v bind_v and_o oblige_v by_o vow_n to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n thou_o true_a and_o most_o bless_a god_n how_o do_v thou_o with_o a_o most_o sweet_a and_o severe_a kind_n of_o mercy_n receive_v check_v and_o convince_v i_o stray_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o by_o shameful_o seek_v that_o in_o thy_o creature_n which_o be_v only_o to_o be_v find_v in_o thou_o to_o wit_n comfort_n and_o peace_n o_o lord_n i_o be_o thy_o servant_n say_v unto_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n and_o all_o that_o be_v within_o i_o shall_v say_v quis_fw-la similis_fw-la tibi_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o my_o lord_n god_n behold_v i_o have_v have_v a_o aversion_n from_o all_o that_o which_o thou_o love_v and_o a_o inclination_n to_o all_o which_o thou_o hate_v but_o thou_o have_v break_v my_o band_n and_o i_o will_v offer_v thou_o a_o sacrifice_n of_o praise_n submit_v henceforth_o my_o stifneck_n to_o thy_o easy_a yoke_n and_o my_o shoulder_n to_o thy_o light_n but_o then_o underneath_o a_o picture_n of_o b._n john_n de_fw-fr cruse_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v viz._n o_o bless_a and_o pure_a saint_n pray_v for_o i_o sinful_a wretch_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o call_v upon_o thou_o yet_o coafide_v in_o thy_o inflame_a charity_n i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o sweet_a protection_n now_o and_o at_o the_o dreadful_a hour_n of_o my_o death_n remember_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o amen_n to_o some_o collection_n which_o she_o draw_v out_o of_o s._n augustins_n confession_n she_o add_v as_o follow_v good_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o my_o iniquity_n for_o this_o dear_a saint_n sake_n of_o thou_o who_o humility_n do_v so_o astonish_v i_o that_o i_o can_v choose_v but_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n in_o my_o hart_n o_o how_o admirable_a be_v thou_o in_o thy_o saint_n what_o be_v his_o whole_a book_n of_o confession_n but_o a_o profound_a acknowledgement_n of_o his_o sin_n whieh_o he_o do_v not_o only_o confess_v to_o thou_o but_o to_o all_o the_o world_n to_o the_o end_n that_o all_o may_v perpetual_o praise_v thy_o mercy_n but_o o_o my_o god_n for_o this_o humility_n of_o he_o thou_o have_v high_o exalt_v he_o for_o which_o be_v thou_o eternal_o magnify_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n he_o be_v one_o of_o those_o sinner_n for_o who_o conversation_n there_o be_v more_o joy_n in_o heaven_n then_o upon_o ninty_a nine_o just_o and_o not_o without_o great_a cause_n see_v he_o be_v to_o be_v a_o chief_a pillar_n in_o thy_o church_n and_o one_o who_o might_n and_o do_v draw_v infinite_a sinner_n by_o his_o word_n and_o write_n out_o of_o the_o mire_n and_o dregs_n of_o sin_n and_o teach_v they_o to_o submit_v themselves_o to_o thive_v easy_a yoke_n and_o to_o seâ—ue_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o to_o glory_n in_o nothing_o but_o thou_o yea_o what_o be_v want_v in_o his_o word_n that_o may_v invite_v our_o soul_n to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o heart_n with_o all_o our_o strength_n and_o our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o who_o can_v speaâ—e_v in_o the_o word_n of_o thy_o own_o oracle_n more_o comfortable_o to_o sinner_n than_o he_o have_v do_v â—n_o fine_a hâ—s_n word_n be_v so_o amorous_o sweet_a in_o thy_o praise_n that_o even_o my_o freeze_a soul_n have_v be_v melt_v â—_z by_o into_o thy_o praise_n he_o for_o thy_o sake_n be_v a_o advocate_n and_o intercessor_n to_o thou_o for_o i_o the_o most_o sinful_a and_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thâ—_n servant_n he_o i_o say_v to_o who_o many_o sin_n wâ—re_v forgive_v because_o he_o love_v much_o who_o i_o desire_v together_o with_o all_o the_o celestial_a court_n to_o adore_v and_o praise_v thou_o for_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o who_o be_v ever_o bless_v amen_n in_o a_o collection_n which_o she_o be_v make_v out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o psalm_n she_o add_v to_o some_o verse_n as_o follow_v psal._n 23._o vers_fw-la 6._o this_o be_v the_o generation_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v hâ—m_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v the_o face_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n i_o pray_v god_n it_o may_v prove_v so_o with_o we_o to_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n â—sâ—l_n 31._o veâ—s_n â—0_n i_o will_v give_v thou_o understanding_n and_o will_v instruct_v thou_o in_o the_o way_n tâ—at_v thou_o shall_v go_v i_o wâ—l_v fasten_v my_o eye_n upon_o thou_o who_o be_v not_o whole_o inflame_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o to_o hear_v such_o a_o promise_n from_o his_o own_o mellifluous_a mouth_n psal._n 35._o vers_fw-la 10._o because_o with_o thou_o be_v the_o fountain_n of_o life_n and_o in_o thy_o light_n we_o shall_v see_v light_a i_o beseech_v all_o those_o devout_a soul_n that_o shall_v peruse_v this_o book_n to_o labour_v careful_o for_o that_o light_n which_o the_o prophet_n here_o speak_v of_o which_o proceed_v from_o love_n ☜_o and_o not_o from_o human_a wisdom_n this_o light_n by_o which_o we_o shall_v discern_v truth_n from_o falsehood_n be_v get_v by_o converâ—ing_v with_o almighty_a god_n and_o humble_v ourselves_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n this_o light_n have_v teach_v many_o their_o way_n to_o god_n that_o can_v neither_o write_v nor_o read_v sweet_a jesus_n make_v we_o of_o the_o number_n of_o these_o little_a one_o to_o who_o this_o light_n be_v reveal_v which_o be_v hide_v from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a which_o be_v bestow_v upon_o those_o that_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o god_n and_o not_o on_o those_o that_o glory_n rather_o in_o themselves_o they_o in_o he_o he_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n psal._n 86._o vers_fw-la 5._o reveal_v thy_o way_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o hope_n in_o he_o and_o he_o will_v do_v it_o a_o comfortable_a say_n for_o those_o that_o god_n permit_v still_o to_o remain_v do_v whâ—t_o they_o can_v in_o their_o imperfection_n v_o 7._o have_v no_o emulation_n in_o he_o that_o appear_v in_o his_o way_n v._n 6._o be_v subject_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o pray_v he_o note_v this_o well_o v_o 11._o the_o meek_a shall_v inherit_v the_o land_n and_o shall_v be_v delight_v in_o multitude_n of_o peace_n if_o we_o true_o labour_v for_o his_o peace_n which_o be_v in_o much_o patience_n the_o god_n of_o peace_n will_v be_v among_o us._n v_o 25._o when_o he_o shall_v fall_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v bruise_v because_o our_o lord_n put_v his_o hand_n under_o o_o what_o a_o incouradgment_n be_v this_o to_o a_o poor_a frail_a soul_n let_v we_o notwithstanding_o our_o imperfection_n confident_o and_o amorous_o when_o we_o fail_v hope_v in_o his_o mercy_n and_o then_o he_o will_v heal_v and_o help_v we_o who_o make_v we_o so_o many_o sweet_a promise_n who_o be_v bless_v by_o all_o creatute_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n v_o 26._o i_o have_v be_v young_a for_o i_o be_o old_a and_o i_o have_v not_o see_v the_o just_a forsake_v nor_o his_o seed_n seek_v bread_n why_o do_v we_o distrust_v then_o who_o have_v dedicate_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n fear_v ro_o depend_v only_o of_o his_o divine_a providence_n ☜_o which_o be_v the_o great_a happiness_n in_o this_o world_n and_o so_o much_o to_o be_v desire_v if_o we_o have_v so_o much_o love_n and_o couradge_n as_o we_o shall_v psal._n 38_o v_o 8._o doubtless_o all_o thing_n be_v vanity_n every_o man_n live_v o_o my_o poor_a soul_n take_v good_a notice_n of_o this_o verse_n adhere_v to_o our_o lord_n who_o year_n never_o fail_v and_o who_o help_n be_v always_o at_o hand_n give_v that_o to_o god_n that_o be_v god_n and_o that_o to_o caesar_n that_o be_v caesar_n mark_v what_o the_o prophet_n faith_n in_o the_o same_o psalm_n viz._n and_o now_o what_o be_v my_o expectation_n be_v it_o not_o our_o lord_n and_o my_o substance_n be_v with_o thou_o psal._n 39_o vers_fw-la 15._o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n make_v not_o thy_o consideration_n far_o from_o i_o thy_o mercy_n and_o thy_o truth_n have_v always_o receive_v i_o o_o be_v thou_o ever_o bless_v for_o it_o by_o all_o creature_n my_o god_n and_o al._n amen_o psal._n 40._o vers_fw-la 1._o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o understand_v concern_v the_o needy_a and_o the_o poor_a in_o the_o evil_a day_n our_o lord_n will_v deliver_v he_o o_o my_o poor_a soul_n though_o thou_o have_v not_o where_o with_o to_o relieve_v the_o poor_a in_o thâ—_n iâ—_n hunger_n &_o thirst_n yet_o despair_v not_o to_o gain_v this_o blessing_n that_o our_o lord_n will_v protect_v thou_o in_o the_o evil_a day_n which_o thou_o stand_v so_o much_o need_v off_o for_o to_o pray_v for_o
adhere_v to_o my_o god_n beside_o who_o what_o be_v to_o i_o in_o heaven_n or_o what_o desire_n i_o on_o earth_n only_o thyself_o my_o lord_n be_v desire_v by_o i_o and_o only_o thou_o can_v comfort_v and_o satisfy_v i_o it_o become_v i_o to_o become_v whole_o subject_a to_o thou_o so_o that_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n thou_o may_v dispose_v of_o i_o as_o it_o please_v thou_o which_o with_o my_o whole_a soul_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o do_v and_o then_o i_o â—hall_v be_v as_o happy_a as_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v thou_o know_v that_o since_o i_o be_v teach_v what_o it_o be_v to_o love_v thou_o i_o never_o dare_v wish_v or_o desire_v any_o thing_n for_o it_o appear_v plain_a to_o i_o that_o my_o blindness_n and_o ignorance_n be_v so_o great_a that_o even_o in_o the_o desire_n of_o that_o which_o in_o itself_o be_v good_a i_o may_v be_v extreme_o deceive_v only_o thyself_n know_v what_o be_v most_o to_o thy_o honour_n and_o best_a for_o i_o and_o therefore_o whatsoever_o thou_o do_v shall_v be_v best_o welcome_n to_o i_o i_o desire_v no_o liberty_n to_o choose_v any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o because_o it_o suffice_v i_o if_o thou_o will_v become_v all_o in_o all_o and_o above_o all_o to_o i_o which_o desire_n i_o know_v be_v please_v to_o thou_o and_o therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o inlardg_v my_o hart_n and_o soulin_a this_o longing_n and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o my_o only_o belove_a let_v my_o hart_n be_v free_a to_o thou_o for_o none_o deserve_v any_o part_n therein_o beside_o thou_o o_o how_o great_a a_o grief_n will_v it_o be_v to_o i_o if_o any_o câ—â—ated_a thing_n shall_v be_v a_o impediment_n to_o my_o be_v whole_o thine_a very_o if_o i_o shall_v find_v that_o my_o will_n be_v false_a to_o thou_o by_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o thou_o nothing_o in_o heaven_n or_o earth_n can_v comfort_v i_o while_o thus_o it_o stand_v between_o my_o hart_n and_o thou_o give_v i_o therefore_o grace_v to_o be_v faithful_a to_o thou_o who_o have_v show_v such_o a_o infinite_a mercy_n towards_o i_o as_o to_o let_v i_o know_v of_o the_o way_n of_o love_n whereby_o all_o cross_n become_v tolerable_a to_o i_o never_o shall_v i_o be_v satisfy_v with_o blessing_n thou_o and_o thank_v thou_o for_o this_o thy_o mercy_n all_o that_o love_v thou_o praise_v thou_o for_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o very_o if_o i_o be_v now_o ungratfull_a to_o thou_o it_o be_v pity_v thy_o earth_n shall_v bear_v i_o yet_o thou_o know_v my_o extreme_a frailty_n and_o therefore_o in_o all_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o in_o the_o end_n save_o i_o who_o put_v all_o my_o hope_n in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o render_v for_o this_o thy_o infinite_a benefit_n bestow_v on_o i_o very_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v despise_v by_o all_o the_o world_n as_o i_o just_o deserve_v to_o be_v and_o shall_v have_v and_o feel_v the_o pain_n of_o all_o that_o ever_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o and_o shall_v be_v shut_v up_o in_o a_o place_n which_o be_v only_o big_a enough_o to_o 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such_o and_o so_o much_o as_o will_v be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v uâ—_n become_v that_o thou_o will_v â—ave_n we_o to_o be_v and_o in_o those_o of_o thy_o send_v there_o be_v no_o danger_n if_o we_o will_v endeavour_v to_o be_v faithful_a to_o thou_o and_o in_o they_o call_v often_o upon_o thou_o but_o when_o we_o place_v such_o perfection_n in_o suffering_n that_o we_o think_v we_o do_v nothing_o unless_o we_o be_v in_o matter_n of_o suffer_v and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v loath_a to_o loose_v time_n as_o we_o think_v we_o do_v by_o be_v without_o occasion_n of_o suffering_n ☜_o we_o oftentimes_o fail_v in_o those_o cross_n which_o â—e_v in_o such_o a_o humour_n do_v lay_v upon_o ourselves_o or_o thrust_v ourselves_o into_o without_o thy_o leave_n and_o disable_v we_o from_o undergo_n and_o suffer_v those_o which_o then_o or_o afterward_o be_v by_o thou_o thought_n to_o be_v fit_a for_o we_o and_o we_o see_v ourselves_o to_o fail_v in_o these_o of_o our_o own_o undertake_v which_o we_o 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when_o he_o see_v it_o fit_a and_o when_o he_o do_v send_v it_o come_v it_o which_o way_n it_o will_v it_o will_v be_v no_o impediment_n to_o a_o faithful_a soul_n but_o her_o only_a way_n in_o this_o as_o well_o as_o all_o other_o thing_n for_o to_o live_v secure_a be_v to_o be_v as_o a_o little_a child_n by_o humble_a resignation_n ☞_o and_o let_v god_n do_v with_o we_o in_o all_o what_o he_o will_n for_o only_o by_o this_o mean_v we_o can_v live_v in_o peace_n &_o avoid_v the_o snare_n of_o self_n love_n and_o the_o devil_n for_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v apt_a to_o esteem_v great_o of_o a_o little_a suffering_n and_o think_v when_o she_o have_v in_o it_o a_o slight_a occasion_n that_o it_o lay_v open_v the_o way_n to_o great_a matter_n between_o god_n and_o her_o soul_n god_n use_v to_o lead_v she_o by_o another_o way_n till_o she_o see_v and_o acknowledge_v her_o error_n and_o many_o time_n she_o fall_v into_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n by_o her_o greediness_n to_o advance_v her_o soul_n by_o untimely_a suffering_n which_o at_o last_o make_v her_o cry_n out_o to_o thou_o o_o lord_n how_o great_a be_v my_o blindness_n and_o frailty_n help_v i_o therefore_o my_o god_n in_o all_o these_o misery_n which_o here_o thy_o sinful_a servant_n speak_v of_o as_o a_o guilty_a person_n to_o thou_o great_a great_a be_v my_o folly_n and_o frailty_n and_o therefore_o for_o help_v and_o strength_n i_o fly_v unto_o thou_o spare_v my_o soul_n sin_v before_o thou_o and_o let_v i_o now_o begin_v to_o love_v only_o thou_o help_v i_o in_o all_o my_o lord_n