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family_n and_o a_o ancient_a baronet_n and_o great_a estate_n bless_a lord_n thou_o have_v abundant_o enrich_v they_o with_o the_o blessing_n of_o the_o nether_a spring_n full_a stream_n in_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o this_o life_n let_v it_o not_o be_v their_o all_o but_o turn_v these_o water_n into_o wine_n give_v they_o the_o blessing_n of_o the_o upper_a spring_n the_o plentiful_a effusion_n of_o thy_o spirit_n flow_v into_o their_o heart_n and_o soul_n that_o they_o may_v build_v up_o each_o other_o in_o their_o most_o holy_a faith_n as_o heir_n together_o of_o the_o grace_n of_o life_n june_n 16._o 1674._o the_o honourable_a lady_n essex_n rich_a be_v marry_v to_o mr._n daniel_n finch_n elder_a son_n to_o his_o father_n then_z lord_z keeper_z of_o the_o great_a seal_n of_o england_n good_a lord_n give_v they_o the_o blessing_n of_o thy_o right-hand_n and_o continue_v to_o they_o the_o blessing_n of_o thy_o lefthand_n also_o but_o let_v not_o their_o portion_n be_v only_o in_o 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1675._o to_o mr._n john_n cox_n barrister_n of_o grays-inn_n his_o father_n live_v at_o coggshall_n his_o relation_n very_o honest_a good_a people_n and_o very_o well_o to_o live_v in_o the_o world_n god_n have_v gracious_o provide_v for_o she_o a_o love_a husband_n a_o sober_a person_n and_o i_o hope_v a_o good_a man._n god_n consummate_v their_o choice_n by_o mr._n gifford_n a_o worthy_a good_a man_n minister_n of_o st._n dunstan_n in_o the_o east_n in_o london_n whither_o she_o be_v accompany_v by_o the_o right_n honourable_a the_o countess_n of_o warwick_n with_o the_o chief_a of_o the_o family_n from_o warwick-house_n and_o with_o many_o other_o manifestation_n of_o kindness_n god_n shine_v upon_o she_o and_o in_o all_o respect_n give_v she_o a_o comfortable_a day_n i_o draw_v the_o curtain_n of_o a_o modest_a etc._n etc._n over_o the_o rest_n lest_o the_o thankfulness_n of_o she_o who_o be_v so_o true_o humble_a shall_v incur_v the_o unkind_a censure_n or_o suspicion_n of_o vanity_n and_o conclude_v what_o i_o have_v omit_v with_o these_o word_n and_o with_o many_o other_o favour_n god_n have_v honour_v they_o she_o proceed_v lord_n i_o desire_v to_o own_o thy_o goodness_n as_o the_o fountain_n head_n from_o whence_o flow_v all_o good_a to_o be_v enjoy_v in_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n and_o concern_v of_o a_o better_a and_o more_o endurable_a estate_n for_o their_o soul_n advantage_n for_o which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o give_v they_o a_o capacious_a heart_n to_o know_v love_n serve_v and_o enjoy_v thyself_o and_o vouchsafe_v they_o of_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o this_o world_n what_o thou_o see_v convenient_a for_o they_o and_o help_v they_o to_o be_v content_v to_o be_v without_o what_o in_o mercy_n thou_o deny_v they_o good_a lord_n keep_v both_o they_o and_o they_o inoffensive_a in_o this_o world_n and_o when_o they_o shall_v go_v hence_o and_o be_v no_o more_o in_o this_o life_n lord_n grant_v that_o where_o thou_o be_v they_o may_v be_v also_o in_o eternal_a glory_n amen_n amen_n thus_o far_o the_o pleasant_a and_o more_o lightsome_a part_n now_o follow_v what_o be_v more_o dark_a and_o doleful_a i_o have_v now_o a_o very_a smarty_n afflictive_a dispensation_n from_o god_n to_o record_v very_o press_v by_o his_o afflictive_a hand_n on_o we_o i_o acknowledge_v very_o deserve_o for_o my_o sin_n the_o lord_n have_v take_v from_o we_o out_o of_o this_o life_n our_o only_a one_o the_o most_o dear_o belove_a daughter_n and_o child_n of_o my_o choice_a affection_n mrs._n margaret_n cox_n she_o be_v marry_v february_n the_o first_o 1675._o the_o 19_o 〈◊〉_d november_n follow_v she_o be_v deliver_v of_o a_o son_n lord_n day_n seven_o a_o clock_n in_o the_o morning_n she_o continue_v pretty_a well_o two_o or_o three_o day_n tuesday_n follow_v sicken_v of_o a_o fever_n and_o die_v december_n the_o 5_o 1675._o but_o god_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o his_o just_a judgement_n remember_v his_o mercy_n to_o we_o have_v spare_v the_o little_a one_o to_o we_o bless_a be_v god_n for_o it_o and_o receive_v the_o motherless_a babe_n into_o covenant_n with_o himself_o by_o baptism_n i_o bless_v god_n he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o good_a parent_n his_o father_n a_o very_a sober_a and_o a_o good_a man_n his_o dear_a decease_a mother_n be_v a_o fine_a lovely_a handsome_a well_o accomplish_v woman_n both_o in_o nature_n and_o grace_n to_o god_n praise_n i_o do_v make_v my_o acknowledgement_n let_v it_o have_v no_o other_o censure_n she_o be_v of_o a_o quick_a apprehension_n modest_a humble_a discreet_a and_o of_o a_o good_a judgement_n and_o well_o fit_v for_o family-government_n and_o employment_n she_o have_v a_o sweet_a amicable_a deportment_n and_o graceful_a behaviour_n these_o endowment_n through_o god_n kindness_n to_o she_o render_v she_o very_o desirable_a to_o all_o that_o know_v
unwritten_a paper_n which_o remain_v may_v seem_v to_o imply_v she_o design_v more_o this_o be_v just_a the_o forty_v part_n of_o what_o she_o have_v write_v for_o she_o child_n use_n be_v 6_o page_n in_o her_o book_n of_o twelve_o score_n so_o that_o i_o have_v enough_o if_o i_o will_v enlarge_v to_o tire_v myself_o and_o satisfy_v not_o to_o say_v clog_n my_o reader_n but_o i_o will_v consult_v my_o own_o ease_n and_o they_o in_o add_v little_a more_o of_o what_o a_o account_n be_v give_v sect._n 12._o under_o eleven_o or_o twelve_o distinct_a head_n i_o confess_v i_o be_o tempt_v to_o add_v the_o example_n to_o the_o rule_n i_o mean_v the_o large_a form_n of_o prayer_n and_o thanksgiving_n each_o contain_n 16_o page_n but_o i_o will_v forbear_v only_o as_o i_o touch_v a_o few_o line_n of_o the_o beginning_n and_o end_n of_o the_o thanksgiving_n before_o so_o i_o shall_v give_v a_o little_a taste_n of_o this_o prayer_n which_o she_o begin_v thus_o good_a lord_n give_v i_o to_o know_v thou_o who_o pass_v all_o knowledge_n and_o though_o i_o can_v comprehend_v thou_o in_o the_o perfection_n and_o fullness_n of_o thy_o glory_n yet_o vouchsafe_v to_o give_v i_o to_o apprehend_v thou_o in_o thy_o love_n and_o pardon_v mercy_n to_o i_o a_o poor_a miserable_a sinner_n who_o in_o my_o first_o be_v be_v invest_v with_o a_o happy_a and_o righteous_a estate_n from_o which_o o_o lord_n in_o my_o first_o original_a i_o soon_o decline_v etc._n etc._n and_o so_o proceed_v most_o humble_o to_o acknowledge_v the_o guilt_n and_o pollution_n of_o original_a sin_n as_o i_o think_v yea_o know_v most_o orthodox_o if_o our_o bibles_n our_o article_n our_o homily_n yea_o our_o liturgy_n be_v more_o orthodox_n than_o socinus_n and_o those_o ephramite_n who_o lisp_v his_o sibboleth_n because_o they_o can_v or_o will_v not_o pronounce_v aright_o the_o shibbole_v of_o the_o church_n of_o england_n good_a old_a doctrine_n then_o she_o proceed_v to_o a_o large_a confession_n of_o actual_a sin_n 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