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he_o be_v satisfy_v that_o it_o be_v 〈◊〉_d real_a work_n of_o god_n and_o he_o do_v council_n i_o to_o walk_v humble_o and_o thankful_o and_o to_o take_v heed_n of_o grieve_v that_o spirit_n of_o god_n by_o which_o i_o be_v seal_v up_o to_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n and_o to_o walk_v humble_o towards_o those_o that_o god_n have_v not_o reveal_v so_o much_o of_o himself_o to_o as_o he_o have_v to_o i_o and_o then_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v by_o his_o providence_n to_o call_v my_o husband_n to_o come_v for_o england_n and_o he_o do_v tell_v i_o that_o he_o shall_v so_o order_v business_n that_o i_o shall_v have_v less_o of_o the_o world_n to_o trouble_v i_o i_o be_v glad_a to_o hear_v it_o from_o he_o and_o desire_v he_o to_o go_v and_o then_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o help_v i_o to_o consider_v whether_o i_o have_v not_o get_v a_o better_a husband_n and_o the_o lord_n do_v quiet_a my_o heart_n in_o himself_o my_o soul_n be_v espouse_v to_o he_o 2_o cor._n 11.2_o after_o he_o 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