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unto_o thou_o be_v all_o good_a pleasure_n praise_n honour_n worship_n and_o glory_n in_o jesus_n christ_n now_o and_o for_o evermore_o amen_n amen_n ¶_o my_o noon_n psalm_n to_o a_o tune_n which_o in_o cambridge_n be_v call_v mr._n perkins_n tune_n o_o holy_a holy_a holy_a lord_n the_o pure_a of_o all_o thing_n the_o blessefull_a glorious_a majesty_n from_o whence_o all_o goodness_n spring_v look_v down_o from_o thy_o most_o holy_a place_n behold_v good_a lord_n and_o see_v a_o sinful_a woeful_a wretched_a man_n most_o loathsome_a unto_o thou_o most_o foul_a and_o filthy_a be_v my_o sin_n ah_o fie_o upon_o i_o fie_o o_o father_n of_o all_o holiness_n to_o thou_o for_o grace_n i_o cry_v for_o grace_v to_o wash_v and_o make_v i_o clean_o from_o
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and_o plentiful_o give_v i_o i_o humble_o praise_v thy_o holy_a name_n for_o that_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o to_o preserve_v i_o from_o many_o evil_n &_o to_o deliver_v i_o out_o of_o great_a danger_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o endue_v i_o with_o such_o a_o measure_n of_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v henceforth_o forevermore_o be_v acceptable_o thankful_a unto_o thou_o through_o jesus_n christ_n be_v merciful_a also_o i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o unto_o all_o those_o for_o who_o i_o ought_v to_o pray_v give_v they_o and_o unto_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o all_o the_o grace_n which_o thy_o only_a son_n have_v teach_v we_o to_o pray_v for_o in_o his_o name_n say_v o_o our_o father_n which_o art_n in_o heaaen_fw-la hallow_a be_v thy_o name_n etc._n etc._n when_o i_o lay_v i_o down_o in_o my_o bed_n i_o will_v say_v o_o bless_a lord_n god_n here_o i_o lie_v down_o not_o know_v what_o shall_v come_v unto_o i_o this_o night_n i_o humble_o betake_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n unto_o thou_o 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pray_v thus_o o_o most_o glorious_a lord_n god_n the_o father_n of_o light_n no_o darkness_n can_v hide_v i_o from_o thou_o for_o thou_o see_v so_o clear_o at_o midnight_n as_o at_o midday_n yea_o thou_o behold_v all_o my_o thought_n therefore_o i_o humble_o present_v myself_o before_o thy_o bless_a majesty_n beseech_v thou_o to_o look_v gracious_o upon_o i_o a_o most_o ungracious_a wretch_n and_o to_o save_v i_o from_o the_o work_n of_o darkness_n that_o i_o may_v have_v the_o low_a place_n within_o the_o kingdom_n of_o thy_o glory_n grant_v this_o most_o merciful_a father_n for_o thy_o only_a son_n sake_n in_o who_o name_n i_o pray_v further_o for_o myself_o and_o for_o all_o other_o folk_n as_o he_o have_v teach_v i_o say_v o_o our_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n hallow_v be_v thy_o name_n etc._n etc._n so_o often_o as_o i_o have_v have_v any_o sleep_n when_o i_o awake_v i_o will_v say_v thus_o o_o most_o merciful_a father_n god_n almighty_a i_o humble_o thank_v thou_o for_o the_o rest_n which_o thou_o have_v now_o give_v unto_o this_o naughty_a body_n i_o bequeath_v both_o it_o and_o my_o soul_n into_o thy_o hand_n to_o be_v dispose_v of_o according_a unto_o thy_o will_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o name_n through_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n when_o i_o arise_v in_o the_o morning_n i_o will_v say_v o_o good_a lord_n god_n with_o all_o my_o heart_n i_o thank_v thy_o bless_a majesty_n for_o that_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o merciful_o to_o keep_v i_o all_o this_o night_n now_o i_o arise_v out_o of_o this_o bed_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o father_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o jesus_n christ_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o holy_a ghost_n o_o most_o holy_a &_o undivided_a unseparable_a three_o person_n in_o one_o god_n one_o god_n in_o three_o person_n for_o thy_o glorious_a name_n sake_n vouchsafe_v to_o be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o a_o sinner_n amen_n this_o be_v my_o three_o rule_n my_o last_o rule_n four_o and_o last_o i_o must_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n conscionable_o detest_v and_o resist_v my_o sin_n faithful_o endeavour_v that_o i_o may_v in_o very_a truth_n saâ—_n with_o david_n psalm_n 18.23_o i_o be_v also_o upright_o before_o he_o and_o i_o keep_v myself_o from_o my_o iniquity_n first_o therefore_o be_v always_o mindful_a of_o god_n presence_n i_o must_v careful_o intend_v to_o know_v and_o to_o do_v his_o will_n second_o when_o any_o motion_n come_v unto_o my_o heart_n quiet_o unpartial_o &_o diligent_o consider_v whether_o it_o be_v good_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n yea_o or_o no_o if_o it_o be_v good_a i_o must_v willing_o yield_v unto_o it_o but_o if_o it_o be_v evil_a i_o must_v steadfast_o purpose_v to_o refuse_v it_o yea_o and_o remove_v myself_o so_o far_o as_o possible_a from_o all_o danger_n of_o be_v tempt_v unto_o it_o if_o i_o be_v strong_o tempt_v to_o yield_v unto_o any_o sin_n i_o must_v earnest_o pray_v unto_o god_n for_o deliverance_n thus_o o_o most_o holy_a and_o bless_a lord_n god_n i_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o sinner_n be_v now_o as_o thou_o see_v strong_o tempt_v to_o sin_n against_o thou_o and_o not_o able_a to_o resist_v the_o temptation_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o long_o settle_a wickedness_n of_o my_o heart_n do_v humble_o beseech_v thou_o to_o be_v so_o merciful_a unto_o i_o as_o to_o save_v i_o from_o this_o great_a danger_n through_o thy_o almighty_a grace_n in_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n have_v thus_o pray_v yea_o and_o pray_v again_o and_o again_o if_o need_v require_v i_o must_v with_o a_o good_a courage_n put_v on_o the_o mind_n that_o i_o will_v
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