have_v angel_n saint_n and_o god_n himself_o for_o thy_o companion_n and_o comforter_n final_o reflect_v upon_o the_o conflict_n which_o thou_o have_v undertake_v and_o consider_v how_o much_o thou_o have_v to_o do_v thou_o will_v find_v little_a leisure_n to_o spend_v in_o idle_a talk_n chap._n fourteen_o of_o the_o order_n to_o be_v observe_v in_o fight_v against_o our_o enemy_n in_o thy_o spiritual_a combat_n against_o thy_o disorder_a affection_n and_o passion_n follow_v this_o method_n first_o enter_v into_o the_o cabinet_n of_o thy_o enemy_n mark_v which_o be_v thy_o great_a enemy_n heart_n and_o let_v thy_o inquisitive_a thought_n search_v and_o examine_v with_o exact_a diligence_n which_o be_v the_o affection_n that_o there_o bear_v the_o great_a sway_n and_o with_o what_o thought_n and_o motion_n thou_o be_v most_o frequent_o tempt_v and_o trouble_v second_o and_o have_v find_v thy_o with_o and_o single_a out_o the_o fierce_a to_o fight_v with_o foe_n turn_v thy_o weapon_n 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