2 Cor. 1. 9. upon the pronouncing whereof the Law lays heavy fetters and chaines of darkenesse upon the soul that keep it shut up to the hope that afterwards by the Gospel is revealed 3. The proper impressions of this condition must needs be fearfull And thence is this Spirit said to be the Author of bondage to fear And is therefore called the Spirit of fear 2 Tim. 1. 7. This is that fear which the Author to the Hebrews 2. 15. tells us that men may be all their lives long enslaved unto til Christ deliver them A fear of Death i. e. of eternal death the wages of sinne A fear that gives a convinced sinner a tast of hell here it is the very anguish and smart of the arrows of God sticking fast in Job 6. 4. a mans spirit the very wales and furrowes which when the back of conscience is plowed up with the knotted whips of its own guilt do fester and stinke and corrupt as David Psal 38 5 expresseth it that is make the spirit of a man a burthen to it selfe and that intolerable This is the condition which the Apostle expresseth and I am to handle under the notion of the Spirit of bondage i. e. That Work of Gods Spirit whereby he convinceth and terrifieth sinners in order to conversion 4. And when he doth so in the fourth place we are said to receive him that is to be through free grace the patient and submissive subjects of this influence of his bearing the indignation of the Lord because we have sined Lam. 3. 29 against him and laying our mouth in the dust if so be there may be hope until God shall command deliverance for us and pull us out of the horrible pit and out of the deep mire and clay and break those chains of hell and snares of death wherein we are fettered and bring us forth into a large place 5. The Subjects of this Work of the Spirit the Apostle expresseth under the pronoun Ye including the generality of believers among the Romans and in them the generality of beleevers among all Nations in all times these works being of a common nature to all the people of God there being nothing in any one Saint which renders him a more incapable subject of this work then in another and nothing in the Word elsewhere to priviledge one above another herein 6. And lastly the time of the Saints being under this work the Apostle plainly expresseth not to be then when by faith they could call God Father the influence of the Spirit of Adoption enabling them so to do delivered them out of that fearful condition whence it follows that the experience they had of this work was before their Adoption and relation to God thereby as before I have declared And so much shall suffice for this first Chapter the clearing of our Subject And this done wee will proceed to the handling of it in the following Chapters CHAP. II. Wherein the first grand Thesis or Proposition concerning this state of Bondage is explained I Shall begin with this state as a work of the Spirit of God laying this Thesis or proposition for a foundation of our following discourse That those convictions shakings and terrours The first Proposition or Thesis of conscience under which unregenerate sinners suffer bondage when the Law chargeth them home with the guilt of sinne and apprehensions of wrath are ordinarily the works of Gods blessed Spirit I say ordinarily because sometimes Satan brings or at least keeps souls and those the souls of Gods Elect too under this bondage He promiseth liberty when he tempts to sinne but brings into bondage when he accuseth for sinne And therefore we must make a distinction between the bondage which the holy Spirit and the bondage which the wicked spirit brings into or keeps under First therefore There is a bondage which admits and is mitigated by the conjunction of hope of liberty and works towards a deliverance and there is a bondage that excludes all hope and possibility in the apprehension of a sinner of ever being removed A bondage in which the chains with which the conscience is held and fettered are of the same nature with the Devils bonds of death chains of darknesse and despaire Now such as these the holy Spirit knits not except the despair be partial and bear relation only to humane helps and means of escape and such a despair is in every soul that makes out after Christ those that we speak of now Satan lays on the conscience these must needs call him Father because they are black dismal apprehensions like him Such he wrought in Kain and Judas that made the former desperately blaspheme the mercy of God the other deâ—perately to lay violent hands on himselfe and to those despairing terrours is a soul given up when justly excommunicated and therefore is said to be delivered 1 Cor. 5. 5. to Satan for that censure binding sinne upon a man and God having promised to ratifie that sentence in Heaven the Devill the tormentor is at hand to load such a soul with Matth. 16. 19. terrors enough if he do not contemptuously go on adding sin to sin but be any way sensible of it he endeavors to drive him to despair whence the Church is bidden upon this knowledge of Satans devices to comfort such a man and confirm comfort to him by absolution lest he be swallowed up of sorrow 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 2 Cor. 2. 8. 11. These satanical terrours have sin in them and therâ—fore as such can no way be the effects of the Spirit of God Indeed the Spirit of God may cause them inchoativè by discovering to a man his sinne and misery but the improvement of these discoveries in such a measure and to such an issue is the work of Satan who in this as in things of other nature can counterfeit the very Spirit of God and so perswade a poor soul that 't is his duty to refuse comfort and despair of Salvation 2. I say these terrours when they are wrought by the Spirit of God are in unconverted sinners which makes a farther distinction between the worke of the Spirit of God and the spirit of Satan herein the Devil makes it most of his businesse to trouble converts As for unconverted wretches that are his fast enough he seldome disturbes them as a Souldier will not disturbe his own Quarters but his enemies a Magistrate will not if he be well advised harrasle his own dominions But the Spirit of God speakes terrour to the Consciences of unregenerate sinners to whom it belongs when he speaks Law he speaks to them that are under the Law Rom. 3. 19. 3. But therin is a difference also If the Spirit of God lay the conscience under terrours it is for conversion they are not penal only but medicinal also they are one sort of Gods â—ods by which he brings men within the bonds of the Covenant Ezek 20
of it If I have never so good an evidence and lay it out of the way or blot it the fault is not in my Evidence if the Title be questionable again which it confirms And the truth is very few of Gods people enjoy an un-interrupted actual Assurance Indeed 't is such a sparkle of glory that a soul cannot bear it And as a Testimony though never so full to a Cause so that in one Court it carries the judgment without farther ado may be upon review in another Court called into question again and be perplexed so by a cunning Lawyer that it may seem questionable again So the evidence of the Spirit that once gave full assurance in the conscience may by Satan be brought to the Court of sense and reason and made disputable again Yet as to habitual assurance it is true that it can never be quite extinguished by doubting It may be dipp'd but not drown'd It may be in a swoune but not dye A Saint may say to Satan when he tryumphs most over his assurance as the Church Mic. 7 8 9. Rejoyce not over me c. when I am in darkness c. God hath promised it Isa 57 15 16 17. Heaviness may endure for a night but joy cometh in the morning Psal 306. And indeed Assurance being Gods Seal and Earnest if this gift of God be not without repentance neither is his Covenant for eternal life and glory irrevocable If God recal his Earnest he recants his bargain as the taking an earnest back again among mâ—n makes the bargain void and the puâ—ling off a Seal cancels the Deed. Yet let me not herein be mistaken I would Caution not be conceived to affirm that a child of God always recover his Assurance again after loss in this life in as full a measure as he once had it A man may lose his Assurance for his ill managing of it and possibly such may be the hainousness of such a miscariage as may provoke God to let him lye long under broken bones and whenever by renewed repentance he recovers it he may justly withdraw from him some measures of that boldness and confidence in his presence which he had before Nay I know not why a true child of God may not after lost Assurance if lost in such a way of provocation on his part go mourning all his dayes and hardly ever be able to Isai 3â— 15. act it again directly and formally yet the habit of it may be stil firm and unmoveable and in it self stil capable to be reduced into act but that he is by reason of those obstructions which he hath laid in his own way incapable of reviving the Acts of it Now that even in such an one the habit of it remains still is evident from hence that he still produceth some visible fruits of it keeps up a contest though but a weak and faint one with doubting and doth not quite lay down the weapons to despair that though he apprehends his hopes exceeding smal yet he wil not be bought out of them by all Satans offers and even in this darkness many times chuseth affliction for righteousness sake as that holy Martyr that under those sad desertions was going to the stake and reâ—olved to dye though he had not received that actual assurance again which made him cry out He is come He is come But Glover all these acts are not the direct acts of Assurance but indirect and vertual acts such as suffice to keep the life and soul of Religion together as we use to express our selves but such as discover much of the vigour of a Saints spiritual constitution to be impaired Other Questions there are that might be prâ—mised here but I shall find time to take them up in the Application CHAP. XXII Popish Doctrine concerning doubting and uncertainty confuted Our own certainty and Assurance of Salvation examined Where several Cases concerning the distinction of the Spirits testimony from Satans or our own hearts THis affords us matter of Confutation of the Erroneous Doctrine of doubting Application and uncertainty which the Papists and persons among our selves un-experienced in the things of God take for truth viz. that a man cannot in this life be certainly assured of his own salvation These persons rob the Holy Spirit of one of his special Offices that of being the Comforter the Lord Jesus of one of the glorious fruits of his Ascension which is the sending the Holy Ghost to his people to that end God the Father of a great deal of glory and service at least of the most noble and generous part of it that that proceeds from love and thankfulnesse the Saints of their greatest encouragement to obedience support in tribulations comfort in sufferings and hope in death and lastly evacuate one main end of the very Scriptures themselves which were therefore at least a main part of them written that the Saints may know that they have eternal life 1 John 5 13. And if there were no other reason why we should abhor the Romish Synagogue yet were this sufficient that they professedly hold forth a Doctrine of despair that is such a Doctrine in which a man can neither comfortably live nor dye But 't is no wonder that those that preach up the merit of works should preach down certainty of Salvation for if God love me or hate me as I believe or not believe obey or not obey persevere or not persevere it s no wonder if from the sight of my own frequent failings I be in a perpetual hesitancy as to my estate No certainty in the conclusion can be gathered from uncertain premises Vse 2. This lets us know whether the perswasion that we have of our own good condition and the peace and joy that possibly we get therefrom be sound and certain or no. If the Spirit witnesse it it is sound if the Spirit witnesse it not it is suspicious and can afford no sufficient and satisfactory peace unto our spirits Quest But how shall I know whether the perswasion that I have that I am a child of God do proceed from the Testimony of the Spirit or no May not Satan be the Authour of such a perswasion and may not I reason my self into it and if so how shall I know the Spirits testimony from these Answ This is a very difficult Question And therefore I shall take up some time more then ordinary to sift the difficulty to the bottom and then take it away as God shall enable me Something 's I shal premise by way of Concession As 1 It is undoubtedly true that Satan may so transform himself into an Angel of light as to suggest to a man a certain perswasion of his own good condition He is a lying spirit in the mouth of false Prophets and inspires them with plausible Doctrines and comfortable dreames where with they pronounce peace to those to whom the Lord saith There is no peace And this he doth not
his discourse with the holywater of a few religious phrases this man without any sight or sense of his sinnes without any sorrow for them first gives himself the name of Saint and then is angry if any ever after deny it him O sirs 't is well if Christ will own you for such at the last day Hee will not Judge you then according to your assumed Titles but he will know how you came by them Believe it sirs the passage from death to life is a rocky and a stormy passage to the most that enter into it And you must give me leave to aske many of you seriously as they did our Saviour when they saw him on the other side of the lake of Tiberias contrary to their expection Sirs when came you hither You pretend to Saintship but when or how came you by it You think you are passed from death to life but when and how got you so quick a passage For my part I cannot believe that you were transported by miracle as 't is said Christ and the Disciples were immediately at the land whether they went If you were converted in an extraordinary way though not miraculous I expect eminent fruits of holinesse from such a change For God will not do extraordinary works but they shall quit his cost But when I see all that is extraordinary in such persons for the most part is pride covetousnesse injustice oppression censoriousnesse scorne and contempt of Ministers and ordinances fearfull and horrible blasphemies heresies O Sirs shall I tell you what I think of your extraordinary conversion Truly friends I fear t wil prove your extraordinary condemnation for Atrociùs sub nominis sancti professione peccat saith Salvian and the Hell of Hypocrites shall be the standard to that of all other sinners saith our Saviour Mat. 24. 51. If your conversion were in the ordinary way that is the way which I have before described by its several stages Try then hath the Spirit ever convinced thee of the holinesse perfection equity of the Law of God and thereby of thine own filthinesse imperfection unrighteousnesse of thine own wretched cursed damnable condition under it didst thou ever fear and tremble quake and quiver at the thoughts of the wrath and vengeance of a just and righteous Infinite Almighty and Eternâ—l God Didst thou ever break a nights sleepe or loath thy ordinary food or disrelish thy beloved pleasures out of the perplexity and anguish of thy spirit wa st thou ever at such a desperate losse in thy selfe as to make it thy main enquiry what thou shouldst do to be saved such a losse as thou sawest no way out of it but onely by an infinite unspeakable unconceivable mercy such a loss that thou accountedst it even a miracle of goodnesse if ever thou escapedst out of that condition that thou judgedst all that thou couldest do towards thine own recovery though thou couldst weep an Ocean of tears fast longer then Moses or our Saviour Christ himself and pray more devoutly and fervently then all the Saints on earth hear Sermons endited by a general assembly of all the Angells in heâ—ven so short of righteousness that not any or all of them could â—eâ—ieve thee or bring thee one step neâ—…er happinesse such a losse that thou sawest an absolute necessity of obtaining Jesus Christ and his righteousnesse whatever it cost thee to seek him at Gods hands importunately so as to be put off with nothing else so as to be contented to be denyed all other things but him onely so as to be willing to part with all thy lusts and all thy pleasures and all thy profits and all thy honors to be moulded perfectly into the image of the second Adam to entertain love delight in and professe holinesse though accompanied with poverty disgrace displeasure of friends hatred and persecution of enemies prisons racks exile death it self And Lastly after all this hast thou in an holy selfe condemnation and an humble acknowledgment of thy own deserts and Gods justice acquitted God though notwithstanding all this he should turn his back upon thee and shut his ear to the voice of thy roaring Couldst thou lay thy mouth in the dust impute thy destruction to thy selfe and charg the sole cause and occasion of thy ruine upon thy own sins and in that consideration sit down under thy present condition and say Let the Lord do with me as seemeth him good If he will damme me for ever t is my desert if he save me 't is his meere mercy if I goe to hell I will cary this acknowledgment thither in my mouth Lord thou art righteous when thou judgest and just when thou condemnest If I dye I must thank my selfe if I live I must thank thee and thee onely And in these sad and dolorous thoughts and workings of heart when thou hast been in thy own apprehensions in the very belly of Hell hast thou received a beam of light through a chink of a door of hope so that in this sinking condition thou hast espied a plank to keep thee above the waves a twig to lay hold on to preserve thee from drowning whereupon thou hast by a secret power from the Spirit been enabled to fasten some free promise which although thou canst not call thine yet thou art told it may bee thine and thine or not thou wast resolved to lay hold on it and if in so doing God should cut off one of thy hands thou wast resolved to lay hold on it as the Captain in the Historian on the ship with the other and when thou couldst hold no longer with that thou wast resolved to drown looking towards his holy Temple and in these acts of holy reliance hast thou received a whisper Jonah 2. 4. from Gods Spirit Well then seeing thou wilt take no denyal no repulse be it unto Mat. 9. 29. thee according to thy faith if thou wilt needs have Christ take him and Salvation with him Be of good cheer thy sinnes are forgiven thee Christ is thy peace and I am thy salvation Mat. 9. 2. Ephes 2. 14. Psal 35. 3. Hast thou felt these works more or lesse If thou hast not friend I doubt thou setst up a profession of Saint-ship without the Spirits leave I would advise all of you that are in this case to begin again draw your indentures a new intreat the Spirit to admit you into his house of bondage that the son may make you free indeed in his own time and way O be not ashamed to unravel all that clew of ungrounded confidence which thou hast deluded thy selfe by all this while and begin upon a new bottome A mistake here is recoverable hereafter 't is for ever irremediable O think how much better 't is to take the shame of an error upon thy selfe here whiles â—t may do thee good then to be shamed hereafter before God Angels and men to thine eternal destruction and confusion in hell fire I find it
Spiritual pride may undo a convinced soul It may make a man take that for the end which is but the way nay but the first step in the way Trouble of conscience for sin is a rare thing in the world and where it is wrought in the soul to any large measure especially it puts a great difference between man and man this difference a soul may apprehend too soon so as to be puffed up with the experience of such a work on his spirit Suppose of a crew of profane persons the conscience of one may bee troubled for his lewd courses and this trouble sticks close and drives him from his loose companions and to resolve upon a new course of life Now is Satan apt to strike in and blow up the heart with the thoughts of this work and the man by comparing himself with what he was and what his Associates still are is apt to think Sure now I am in a good condition for I have been troubled for my sins and forsaken my former wayes and therefore I am savingly converted and therefore I have ground to take comfort and apply Promises to my selfe and entertain no more doubts of my condition Here let me at least allude to Matth 12. 43 44 45. The unclean spirit may in some notorious lust or other be cast out and he is rest lesse till he have again recovered his possession and therefore waiteth a time till it be swept and garnished till a barren profession of Religion be taken up and pride make such persons carry it high this furnisheth a lodging for the Divel then he returnes but in another disguise such an unclean dirty spirit must never think to be harboured again in a garnished house therefore he may perhaps wipe his shooes at the door and under a pretence of holinesse or light may get a firmer possession An erroneous Divel in such a proud heart may get possession when a scandalous Divel cannot though afterwards he open the door to more scandalous and unclean then himself Neither doth such a frame of spirit only give advantage to Satan but it also puts a man into a condition incapable of further grace from God seeing he every where annexeth the Promises of grace to those whom he hath throughly humbled Psal 25. 9. Isai 4. 6 He giveth grace to the humble 7. Indiscreet handling by godly Ministers and friends As many a child that comes to the birth is spoiled by the indiscretion of the Midwife Now here are two miscarriages to be avoided A birth may be endangered by over-slacking or overhastning 1 An over-rigorous exacting of such and such 1. preparatory measures in all as in some or 2. such measures of preparation to grace as cannot be attained unto before grace 3. and of such dispositions to the least measure of grace as presuppose growth in grace So when I find a soul humbled and broken under the guilt of sin and the work by all likelihood is serious but failing in some formalities of what is ordinary and usual in others for here I must not think to fit every foot with one shooe if I should hide the Gospel which only converts as to the formal act of conversion from such a soul till I see conviction of sin bring a sinner to attempt self destruction c. because it brings some so far or till it shew it selfe in a floud of tears as in others or till it heighten his troubles into a kind of distraction as in others here I go besides the rule on this side Or should I require in that sorrow for sin a freedome from all self-respect a single aiming at Gods glory absolutely divided from a mans own good should I require that those breakings of heart which I discerne be derived from meer love to God and Christ c. tempers which must needs attend the discovery and enjoyment of Christ and that not only in truth and reality but in sense and evidence and such as all persons who are arrived to a great measure of the Spirit of Adoption do not find or at least very weakly in themselves here I should not only be indiscreet in expecting and requiring that from the Law which is not to be found but in the Gospel but occasion the damping and cooling if not utter quenching those blessed affections through despair of ever causing the stream to ascend so high and so furnish Satan and mans cowardly sloathful heart with matter enâ—ugh of temptation to Apostacy This is a great evil to detain a soul long in the passage from death to life Hos 13. 13. 2 An over hasty and inconsiderate application of comfort before the soul give evidence that it is truly and soundly humbled And this is overhastening the birth which occasions many distortions weaknesses and defects in the person so born into the new world and divers times exposeth the soul to eternal undoing seeing there are very few if any over early and abortive children but are still-born Here is to be considered that all Promises that concerne the Application of Comfort to us are conditional and we are not to administer it but only to capable Subjects So as I have shewed before Christ tyes his yoak and rest together and feeling and removing the weight of sin are in the same place conjoyned Mat. 11. 28 29 30. And the comfortable indwelling of the presence of God in any soul is conditioned with an humble contrite and trembling frame of spirit Isai 66. 2 And blessed are the Mourners for they shall be comforted Mat. 5. 4. Now certainly ere God will speak he will not onely find shewes of these tempers but realities and therefore a Minister who is Gods Deputy in dealing with such persons should labour to come neer him herein for how can Ministers keep to their commission if they loose where God binds 'T is true they are not bound to an infallibility of concluding that such a work is true but only to judg by the effects but when they have sufficient evidence to sway their judgement concerning the real conversion of any soul then to speak comfort is a duty Isai 40. 1. till then 't is a sin The way then how to deal with such persons is this We must search whether the trouble be real or counterfeit sleight or deep fowl or clean inflamed or not and accordingly either widen the wound more to make it capable of admitting a Tent or apply a lenitive plaister to allay the fire of it or a drawing one to fetch out the corruption or lastly an healing to close the Orifice And indeed whiles the trouble is meerly legal and from a Spirit of Bondage the main care and skil of a Minister or friend as to such a one ought to be to find out the mean between these two extremes the heightning the trouble so as to render the soul too superstitiously fearful to close with Christ and lightning or asswaging it so as to undo the soul by a lusory and unsound
10. 4 Assurance A soul having gone thus far the next question is But what if seeing there be many that come and claim an interest in Christ that shall at last be cast out because they do not indeed come and claim Christ as they should I say What if I be found among them and then I shal be ashamed of my hopes and my relyance at the last when I have expected so much from it Now to this the Scripture sayes There is no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus Rom. 8. 1. John 3. 16. Whoever believeth shall have everlasting life c. Hereby shall ye know that ye are passed from death to life c 1 John 3. 14. John 14. 21. Then shall I not be ashamed when I have respect c. Psal 119 6. The answer of the heart to this is Such an one am I therefore my faith is true therefore I am under this condition or state I know that I am passed from death to life I know that I am of God 1 John 5. 19. I need not bee ashamed Now the third of these Acts to wit Relyance is an act to be exercised perpetually in order to the getting the Testimony of the Spirit in the last viz. Assurance when Assurance as most ordinarily it comes to pass is not enjoyed at the same time together with it For 1 This is the advice Isai 50. 10. Let him trust in the Lord and stay himself upon his God Who is he that is thus advised One that walks in darknesse and sees no light and therefore is not assured that God is his God though he be so he must stay upon his God first he must lay claim to him as his God and then stay and depend and rest upon him I illustrate it thus Suppose such a friend as I before mentioned that offers the highest acts of real friendship to all that come to him accept of it upon such and such termes claim his favour and rely on his promise Which is the way for me to be assured that this man will be my friend in particular Is it not this to go to him and tell him Sir your publication of your good will encouraged me to accept your offer emboldned me to claim an interest in your friendship though neither your Proclamation nor offer nor Promise named me in particular And now Sir I rely upon your Promise to enterpose for me between me and Justice to pay such a debt for me if you faile me I am an undone man I have such an esteem of your word that I am resolved I will adventure my self upon it and all that I am though I know your mind no farther concerning me in particular yet I cannot withal but desire that if you think fit you will give me a particular assurance that I am accepted by you as one of those to whom you stand so engaged that by the knowledg of my particular obligations to you I may be encouraged the more cheerfully to serve you and to be the more heartily thankful I appeal to all men whether this bee not the likeliest way to get a particular engagement from this man Apply this to the case in hand and you will see reason in my Direction to act reliance in order to Assurance 2 Besides Reliance frequently exercised will yeild Arguments of Assurance especially being acted in particular cases as suppose temptation corruption straights As though a man have no particular obligation from a friend yet knowing his principles that he never fails those that depend on him and having relyed upon him often and found he hath not failed him at any time at last he becomes assured that he will not So seeing I know that God never faileth them that trust in him and I have found that he hath stood by me in many a sad plunge of spirit in pursuance of that and the like obligations I hence argue sure he will never fail me So the holy Prophet argues 1 Sam. 17. 37. And so the Apostle Paul 2 Cor. 1. 10. God hath delivered God doth deliver and God will deliver 3 Assurance is recovered the same way when it is lost wherein it is to be gotten when a man is utterly a stranger to it and this I evidence thus A soul in desertion looks upon himself as having no grace at all and therefore he doth act and if he can act no higher wee advise him to act as if he begun all anew This course were in vain if not the same in both CHAP. XV. Another Direction concerning seeking Gods face in Ordinances Such as the Word and Prayer Direct 2. II. SEek diligently in all Ordinances after the testimony of the Spirit The way for recovery of lost evidence is that as was said before which is most proper for getting it at first The Church in Cant. 3 1 2 3 4. had lost her Beloved 't was night a night of desertion and he had slipped away in the dark what doth she then She seeks him first upon her bed lay still its likely and sent some sleepy calls after him But Christ will not be found at that rate I sought him but I found him not What then See what followes I will rise now yea that is a more likely course shake off that sinful sloath and seek him in good earnest So she doth I will go about the City in the streets and in the broad wayes In the City that is in the Church set out by a City often in Scripture because of communion defence order like a City and often by the City of Jerusalem in particular In the streets and broad Apoc. 21. 2. wayes i. e. the places of concourse the Assemblies of the Saints there Wisdom uttereth her voice Prov. 1. 20 21. there shee meets with the Watch-men and she asks them c. and then when shee had advised with them and followed their Directions see what followes ver 4. It was but a little that I passed from them but I found him whom my soul loveth I found him that is in the evidences and refreshments of his Spirit 1 Seek in the Word If God give any soul peace in an ordinary way and who are we that we should put God to the charge of extraordinaries 't is the fruit of the lips Isai 57. 19. The fruit of whose lips even the lips of those whose lips are appointed to bee the Treasuries of saving knowledge for the Church The Priests Mal. 2. 7 lips shall preserve knowledg and the people shall seek it at his mouth But may the soul say what can he do towards that work 't is not in the power of man to ease me Man cannot heal the wounds that an Almighty God makes Yes such a man may do much ministerially and instrumentally for he is the Messenger of the Lord of Hosts Mal. 2. 7. Certainly God could have given Cornelius direction what to do without sending him to Peter it was as easie for him to have
3. My grief is heavier then the sand of the sea therefore my words are swallowed up Verba mea semesa sunt so some render the word 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 fract a sunt corrupta sunt therefore my words are broken mangled words Broken expressions are the very gobbets of a broken heart Others read it as we Verba mea absorbentur my words are devoured or swallowed up My sorrow feeds so upon my spirits that it devours my very words and doth not leave me so much as the slender ease of a complaint A metaphor taken from the quicksands in the sea that swallow up a ship hulk and masts and sayles and passengers and all at a morsel as it were to which he alludes as appears in that he compares his grief to the sands in the former part This heart-oppression like a known melancholy disease in the night with which some persons are troubled so oppresseth the brest that a man cannot speak This was Hemans disease an holy man too Psal 77. 4. I am so troubled that I cannot speak Nay farther a Saint may be so low under hatches in affliction especially in soul-troubles under the Spirit of Bondage or spiritual desertion that his very eyes are shut as well as his mouth Mine iniquities saith David have taken hold on me so that I cannot look up Psal 40. 12. If this be thy case then be sure God pities thee the more by how much the less thou art able to speak for thy self As we use to pity little children and persons that are dumb and are sensible of the injuries done to them more then to others Alas poor souls we use to say they cannot speak for themselves Nay we pity an horse and such other unreasonable creatures when misused upon the same account Alas poor dumb thing who would use a dumb creature so Sure then God must needs be more tenderly pitiful to a soul in such a condition And our Mediator our Advocate in heaven must needs be the more eloquent in pleading for the Saints his Clyents when they are under such a tongue-tyed condition Alas saith Christ poor soul Father hear me for him he cannot speak for himself His condition speaks aloud for him because it hinders him from speaking 2 Know there be secret wayes of acquainting God with thy straights and pressures when the more visible and sensible outlets and avenues of the soul are all blocked up They that are skilled in the Military Art have sometimes shot intelligence in a bullet in the head of an Arrow when the City or Castle hath been besieged on all parts so closely that no ordinary way of correspondence with their friends hath been left open And this intelligence though it bee short and small in bulk yet may be as pithy and as much in substance and use as a whole sheet of paper written all over We starve or We want Ammunition or men to man our works so A few dayes and without relief we can hold out no longer is as good intelligence as can be in such a case It may be thou canst not tell God a large story how 't is with thee nor limne out thy sad case in lively colours canst not paint thy present death to the life or give light enough by thine expressions to discover the darkness of thy afflictions as David Hezekiah have done when they recovered their tongues again but yet thou canst say Lord I want Lord I am sick Lord I faint Lord I dye c. Thou canst with the Publican say Lord be merciful to me a sinner Luke 18. 13. With David in his troubled condition But thou Lord how long Psal 6. 3. With Hezekiah under his fainting fit thou canst chatter Lord I am oppressed undertake for me or ease me Isai 38. 14. And if thou canst not do so much yet thou canst set thy selfe as in the presence of God and even out of the mouth of hell look towards his holy Temple cast a begging look as children do towards some Sweet meats they dare not ask for towards the Throne of Grace so Jonah did Jonah 2. 4. Thou canst sigh and groan Now this is sufficient intelligence to God whose blessed Spirit speaks in these groans and he understands 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the general bent inclination and affection of the Spirit and from it can pick out his meaning because he searcheth the heart Rom 8. 27. As a Nurse can make english of the stammering broken speech of the child nay the mother sometimes knowes by the looks of the child what its mouth waters for and a skilful Antiquary can write an History out of the broken Inscriptions of old coynes and Monuments of Antiquity because he is acquainted and useth to commune with those kind of fragments And take this for a certain rule a man may have much of the spirit of prayer who hath very little of the Gift of prayer and so may be streightned very much in this when his heart runs over with the abundance of that 3 Yet is not this condition to be rested in it being that that keeps the soul in a famishing estate but the Saints of God ought by all means to endeavour the recovery of their freedom and liberty of spirit and expression in duty as knowing that much of the comfort support and strength of their spirits is abated whiles they are thus tongue-tyed And therefore for recovery out of this spiritual distemper I would prescribe these Helps 1 Examine carefully what it is that streightens the spirit and shuts the mouth which may be 1 The greatness of your burthen as before And that you shal know by these two Marks 1 If it indispose you to all other imployments as well as to prayer Thus 't was with the Author of Ps 102 the Title of the Psalm tells you his condition he was one whose spirit was over-whelmed and how doth that appear My heart saith he is smitten like grass and withered a metaphor taken from frosts that nip the grasse and intercept the juice that should come from the root to the blades and so it becomes withered so saith he the extremity of my trouble withers and shrivels up my very heart so that I am like a dead saplesse thing But it may be he was only so in the matters of God and then it might possibly be his sin No he was so in all humane affaires too I forget saith he to eat my bread verse 4. No wonder saith hee if I bee withered in the affaires of my mind when I grow even carelesse of my very body I forget to eat my bread 2. If it shut up the heart in complaining to man as well as in complaints to God A troubled soul goes to a godly Minister it may be and thinks to utter to him all that is in the heart and fain would unloade it selfe in his ears but finds it selfe so straightened it can scarce say a word that it came for and that not meerly