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my_o affection_n chap._n 5._o of_o tear_n in_o our_o prayer_n for_o and_o bewail_v of_o the_o thing_n belove_v 1._o and_o now_o lord_n be_v these_o thing_n well_o pass_v over_o and_o time_n have_v assuage_v the_o anguish_n of_o my_o wound_n may_v i_o learn_v this_o from_o theâ—_n who_o be_v truth_n and_o may_v i_o apply_v the_o ear_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o thy_o mouth_n that_o thou_o may_v tell_v i_o the_o reason_n why_o weep_v shall_v be_v so_o sweet_a to_o people_n in_o misery_n have_v thou_o notwithstanding_o thou_o be_v present_v every_o where_o cast_v away_o our_o misery_n far_o from_o thou_o and_o thou_o remain_v constant_a in_o thyself_o but_o we_o be_v tumble_v up_o and_o down_o in_o divers_a trial_n and_o yet_o unless_o we_o shall_v bewail_v ourselves_o in_o thy_o ear_n there_o shall_v no_o hope_n remain_v for_o we_o how_o come_v it_o then_o to_o pass_v that_o such_o sweet_a fruit_n be_v gather_v from_o the_o bitter_a tree_n of_o a_o miserable_a life_n namely_o to_o mourn_v and_o weep_v and_o sigh_v and_o complain_v be_v it_o this_o that_o sweeten_v it_o that_o we_o be_v in_o hope_n thou_o hear_v we_o this_o may_v be_v right_o think_v of_o our_o prayer_n because_o they_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o approach_v unto_o thou_o but_o may_v it_o be_v so_o say_v too_o concern_v that_o grief_n and_o mourning_n for_o the_o thing_n lose_v with_o which_o i_o be_v then_o whole_o overwhelm_v for_o i_o can_v not_o hope_v he_o shall_v now_o revive_v again_o nor_o do_v i_o desire_v this_o with_o all_o my_o tear_n but_o bemoan_v he_o only_o i_o do_v and_o weep_v for_o he_o see_v a_o wretch_n i_o be_v and_o have_v utter_o lose_v all_o my_o joy_n or_o be_v weep_v a_o bitter_a thing_n and_o yet_o out_o of_o a_o full-gorg'dnesse_a of_o what_o we_o before_o enjoy_v and_o in_o the_o very_a instant_n while_o we_o be_v a_o loathe_n of_o they_o can_v it_o be_v please_v to_o we_o chap._n 6._o he_o tell_v with_o what_o great_a affection_n he_o love_v his_o friend_n 1._o but_o what_o speak_v i_o of_o these_o thing_n for_o it_o be_v no_o time_n to_o ask_v question_n but_o to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o wretched_a i_o be_v and_o wretched_a be_v every_o soul_n that_o be_v engage_v in_o the_o friendship_n of_o mortal_a thing_n he_o become_v all_o to_o piece_n when_o he_o forego_v they_o and_o then_o first_o he_o become_v sensible_a of_o his_o misery_n by_o which_o he_o be_v already_o miserable_a even_o before_o he_o forego_v they_o this_o be_v my_o case_n at_o that_o time_n i_o weep_v full_a bitter_o and_o yet_o be_v best_a at_o quiet_a in_o that_o bitterness_n thus_o be_v i_o wretched_a enough_o and_o that_o wretched_a life_n i_o account_v more_o dear_a than_o my_o friend_n himself_o for_o though_o i_o will_v glad_o have_v exchange_v it_o yet_o as_o unwilling_a i_o be_v to_o forgo_v that_o as_o i_o have_v be_v to_o lose_v he_o yea_o i_o know_v not_o whether_o i_o will_v have_v forgo_v that_o even_o to_o have_v enjoy_v he_o sentence_n like_a as_o the_o tradition_n if_o it_o be_v not_o a_o fiction_n go_v of_o pylades_n and_o orestes_n who_o will_v glad_o have_v die_v one_o for_o another_o or_o else_o both_o together_o it_o be_v to_o they_o worse_o than_o death_n not_o to_o live_v together_o but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o kind_n of_o affection_n prevail_v with_o i_o which_o be_v too_o much_o contrary_n to_o they_o for_o both_o grievous_o tedious_a to_o i_o it_o be_v to_o live_v and_o yet_o fearful_a i_o be_v to_o die_v i_o suppose_v that_o how_o much_o the_o more_o affectionate_o i_o love_v he_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v i_o both_o hate_n and_o fear_n as_o my_o cruel_a enemy_n death_n which_o have_v bereave_v i_o of_o he_o and_o i_o imagine_v it_o will_v speedy_o make_v a_o end_n of_o all_o other_o man_n because_o it_o have_v the_o power_n to_o do_v of_o he_o even_o thus_o i_o well_o remember_v stand_v i_o then_o affect_v 2._o behold_v my_o heart_n o_o my_o god_n yea_o search_v it_o thorough_o search_v it_o because_o i_o remember_v it_o well_o o_o my_o hope_n who_o cleanse_v i_o from_o the_o impurity_n of_o such_o affection_n direct_v my_o eye_n towards_o thou_o and_o pluck_v my_o foot_n out_o of_o the_o snare_n for_o i_o much_o admire_v that_o other_o mortal_n do_v live_v since_o he_o who_o i_o so_o love_v as_o if_o he_o never_o shall_v have_v die_v be_v now_o dead_a yea_o i_o more_o admire_v that_o myself_o who_o be_v to_o he_o a_o second_o self_n shall_v be_v able_a to_o live_v after_o he_o well_o say_v he_o of_o his_o friend_n thou_o half_o of_o my_o soul_n for_o i_o still_o think_v my_o soul_n and_o his_o soul_n to_o have_v be_v but_o one_o soul_n in_o two_o body_n 6._o and_o therefore_o be_v my_o life_n a_o very_a horror_n to_o i_o because_o i_o will_v not_o live_v by_o half_n and_o even_o therefore_o perchance_o be_v i_o afraid_a to_o die_v lest_o he_o shall_v whole_o die_v who_o so_o passionate_o i_o have_v love_v chap._n 7._o the_o impatientnesse_n of_o grief_n constrain_v we_o to_o shift_v our_o dwelling_n 1_o o_o madness_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o love_v man_n as_o man_n shall_v be_v love_v o_o foolish_a man_n which_o so_o impatient_o endure_v the_o chance_n mortality_n be_v subject_a unto_o thus_o mad_a and_o foolish_a be_v i_o at_o that_o time_n therefore_o i_o storm_v and_o puâ—t_o and_o cry_v and_o tumble_v be_v capable_a neither_o of_o rest_n nor_o counsel_n for_o i_o be_v sayne_v to_o uphold_v my_o shatter_a and_o blood-blubbered_n animam_fw-la soul_n which_o yet_o have_v not_o patience_n enough_o to_o be_v support_v by_o i_o yet_o a_o place_n where_o to_o dispose_v of_o it_o i_o can_v not_o light_v upon_o not_o in_o the_o delightful_a grove_n not_o where_o mirth_n and_o music_n be_v nor_o in_o the_o odoriferous_a garden_n nor_o in_o curious_a banquet_n nor_o in_o the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o bed_n and_o chamber_a nor_o final_o in_o read_v over_o either_o verse_n or_o prose_n take_v it_o any_o contentment_n every_o thing_n be_v offensive_a yea_o the_o very_a light_n itself_o and_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o as_o he_o be_v be_v alike_o painful_a and_o hateful_a to_o i_o except_o groan_v and_o weep_v for_o only_o in_o those_o find_v i_o a_o little_a refreshment_n 2._o but_o so_o soon_o as_o i_o have_v retire_v my_o soul_n from_o they_o a_o huge_a weight_n of_o misery_n overload_v i_o which_o thou_o only_o can_v ease_v and_o lighten_v o_o lord_n i_o know_v thus_o much_o and_o yet_o indeed_o i_o will_v not_o nor_o be_v i_o able_a for_o thou_o be_v not_o any_o solid_a or_o substantial_a thing_n unto_o i_o when_o in_o those_o day_n i_o think_v upon_o thou_o for_o not_o thou_o thyself_o but_o my_o own_o idle_a fantasy_n and_o errouâ—_n be_v then_o my_o god_n if_o i_o offer_v to_o discharge_v my_o burden_n upon_o that_o to_o give_v it_o some_o easement_n fall_v as_o it_o be_v into_o the_o empty_a air_n and_o come_v tumble_v again_o upon_o i_o whereupon_o i_o remain_v so_o unfortunate_a a_o place_n to_o myself_o as_o there_o i_o can_v neither_o stay_v nor_o get_v away_o from_o it_o for_o whither_o shall_v my_o heart_n fly_v from_o my_o heart_n whither_o be_v it_o possible_a to_o fly_v from_o my_o own_o self_n whither_o shall_v i_o not_o have_v follow_v myself_o and_o yet_o after_o all_o this_o out_o of_o my_o country_n flee_v for_o so_o shall_v my_o eye_n less_o look_n for_o he_o there_o where_o they_o be_v not_o wont_a to_o see_v he_o and_o thus_o i_o leave_v tagaste_n and_o come_v to_o carthage_n chap._n 8._o time_n cure_v sorrow_n 1._o time_n lose_v no_o time_n not_o do_v they_o idle_o go_v and_o return_v
be_v i_o welcome_v with_o the_o rod_n of_o bodily_a sickness_n and_o i_o be_v even_o ready_a to_o go_v to_o hell_n carry_v with_o i_o all_o those_o sin_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v both_o against_o thou_o and_o myself_o yea_o many_o and_o grievous_a offence_n against_o other_o over_z and_o above_o that_o bond_n of_o original_a 16._o sin_n whereby_o we_o all_o die_v in_o adam_n for_o thou_o have_v not_o yet_o forgive_v i_o any_o thing_n in_o christ_n nor_o have_v he_o yet_o slay_v that_o enmity_n by_o his_o cross_n which_o by_o my_o sin_n i_o have_v incur_v and_o how_o indeed_o can_v he_o by_o a_o imaginary_a suffering_n upon_o it_o which_o be_v my_o only_o belief_n of_o it_o how_o false_a therefore_o the_o death_n of_o his_o flesh_n seem_v unto_o i_o so_o true_a be_v the_o death_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o how_o true_a the_o death_n of_o his_o body_n be_v so_o false_a be_v the_o life_n of_o my_o soul_n which_o do_v not_o believe_v the_o death_n of_o his_o body_n my_o feaâ—es_n now_o grow_a more_o violent_a upon_o i_o i_o be_v at_o the_o point_n of_o go_v and_o perish_v for_o whither_o shall_v i_o have_v go_v have_v i_o die_v at_o that_o time_n but_o into_o fire_n and_o torment_n such_o as_o my_o misdeed_n be_v worthy_a of_o in_o the_o truth_n of_o thy_o decree_n of_o all_o this_o nothing_o know_v my_o mother_n yet_o continue_v she_o to_o pray_v for_o i_o though_o in_o absence_n but_o thou_o who_o be_v present_v every_o where_o hear_v she_o where_o she_o be_v and_o have_v compassion_n upon_o i_o whereas_o i_o be_v for_o i_o recover_v health_n of_o body_n thereupon_o though_o sore_o craze_v as_o yet_o in_o my_o sacrilegious_a heart_n for_o i_o have_v not_o in_o all_o that_o danger_n desire_v thy_o baptism_n &_o i_o be_v better_o affect_v be_v but_o a_o youth_n when_o through_o my_o mother_n devotion_n in_o my_o sickness_n i_o have_v be_v very_o earnest_a to_o receive_v it_o as_o i_o have_v before_o recite_v and_o confess_v 2._o but_o i_o have_v from_o thenceforth_o grow_v worse_o and_o worse_o to_o my_o own_o shame_n and_o now_o stark_o mad_a i_o scoff_v at_o those_o prescript_n of_o that_o physic_n of_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v i_o to_o die_v journey_n two_o death_n at_o once_o with_o which_o wound_n shall_v my_o mother_n heart_n have_v be_v gore_v it_o can_v never_o have_v be_v cure_v for_o i_o want_v word_n to_o express_v the_o affection_n she_o bear_v towards_o i_o and_o with_o how_o much_o vehementeranguish_v she_o be_v now_o in_o labour_n of_o i_o in_o the_o spirit_n than_o she_o have_v be_v at_o her_o childbearing_n in_o the_o flesh_n i_o can_v possible_o see_v therefore_o how_o she_o shall_v have_v be_v cure_v have_v so_o unchristian_a a_o death_n of_o i_o once_o strike_v through_o the_o bowel_n of_o her_o love_n and_o what_o shall_v then_o have_v become_v of_o those_o passionate_a prayer_n of_o she_o so_o frequent_o and_o incessant_o in_o all_o place_n make_v te_fw-la unto_o thou_o but_o will_v thou_o o_o god_n of_o mercy_n have_v despise_v that_o contrite_a and_o humble_a heart_n of_o that_o chaste_a and_o sober_a widow_n so_o frequent_a in_o almesdeed_n so_o obsequious_a and_o serviceable_a to_o thy_o 10._o saint_n who_o pass_v no_o day_n without_o her_o inspiration_n oblation_n at_o thy_o altar_n never_o miss_v twice_o a_o day_n morning_n and_o evening_n to_o come_v to_o church_n not_o to_o listen_v after_o idle_a tale_n and_o old_a wife_n chat_v but_o that_o she_o may_v hear_v thou_o speak_v to_o she_o in_o thy_o sermon_n and_o thou_o she_o in_o her_o prayer_n 3._o can_v thou_o despise_v and_o reject_v without_o thy_o succour_n those_o tear_n of_o she_o with_o which_o she_o beg_v no_o gold_n or_o silver_n of_o thou_o nor_o any_o mutable_a or_o fade_a good_a but_o the_o salvation_n of_o her_o son_n soul_n only_o can_v thou_o do_v it_o by_o who_o grace_n she_o be_v inspire_v to_o do_v thus_o by_o no_o mean_n lord._n yea_o thou_o be_v still_o at_o hand_n and_o thou_o hear_v she_o and_o thou_o do_v all_o in_o the_o selfsame_o order_n thou_o have_v predestinate_v it_o shall_v be_v do_v in_o let_v it_o never_o be_v think_v thou_o shall_v deceive_v she_o in_o those_o vision_n and_o answer_n she_o have_v of_o thou_o both_o those_o which_o i_o have_v already_o remember_v and_o those_o which_o i_o have_v not_o remember_v all_o which_o she_o lay_v up_o in_o her_o faithful_a heart_n which_o in_o her_o prayer_n ever_o and_o anon_o she_o will_v press_v thou_o withal_o as_o with_o thy_o own_o handwriting_n for_o thou_o because_o they_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o vouchsafe_v unto_o those_o who_o debt_n thou_o forgive_v thorough_o even_o to_o become_v a_o kind_n of_o debtor_n by_o thy_o promise_n chap._n 10._o his_o error_n before_o his_o receive_n of_o the_o doctrine_n of_o the_o gospel_n 1._o thou_o recover_v i_o therefore_o of_o that_o sickness_n and_o heal_v the_o son_n of_o thy_o handmaid_n at_o that_o time_n in_o his_o body_n that_o thou_o may_v bestow_v upon_o he_o a_o health_n far_o better_o and_o more_o certain_a i_o consort_v myself_o in_o rome_n at_o that_o time_n with_o those_o deceive_a and_o deceive_v holy_a they_o one_o not_o only_o with_o their_o disciple_n of_o which_o my_o host_n be_v one_o in_o who_o house_n i_o fall_v sick_a and_o recover_v but_o also_o with_o those_o who_o they_o call_v the_o elect._n for_o i_o be_v hitherto_o of_o the_o opinion_n that_o it_o be_v not_o we_o ourselves_o that_o sin_v but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o other_o nature_n in_o we_o and_o it_o much_o delight_v my_o proud_a conceit_n to_o be_v set_v beyond_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n and_o when_o i_o have_v commit_v any_o sin_n not_o to_o confess_v i_o have_v do_v any_o that_o thou_o may_v heal_v my_o soul_n when_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o but_o i_o love_v to_o excuse_v it_o and_o to_o accuse_v i_o know_v not_o what_o other_o corruption_n that_o i_o bear_v about_o i_o and_o that_o it_o be_v not_o i_o that_o do_v it_o but_o very_o it_o be_v i_o myself_o altogether_o and_o my_o own_o impiety_n have_v make_v the_o division_n in_o i_o and_o that_o sin_n of_o i_o be_v the_o more_o incurable_a for_o that_o i_o do_v not_o judge_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o sinner_n and_o most_o execrable_a iniquity_n it_o be_v that_o i_o have_v rather_o have_v thou_o o_o god_n almighty_n even_o thou_o i_o say_v to_o be_v overcome_v by_o i_o to_o my_o own_o destruction_n than_o myself_o to_o be_v overcome_v of_o thou_o to_o my_o own_o salvation_n 2._o thou_o have_v not_o yet_o therefore_o 4._o set_v a_o watch_n before_o my_o mouth_n and_o keep_v the_o door_n of_o my_o lip_n that_o my_o heart_n may_v not_o incline_v to_o wicked_a speech_n to_o the_o excuse_v of_o these_o excuse_n of_o my_o sin_n with_o the_o man_n that_o work_v iniquity_n and_o even_o therefore_o continue_v i_o still_o combine_v with_o their_o elect_a one_o but_o yet_o now_o as_o it_o be_v despair_v much_o to_o profit_v myself_o in_o that_o false_a doctrine_n even_o those_o opinion_n of_o they_o 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which_o i_o call_v to_o mind_n with_o some_o desire_n although_o they_o perchance_o present_v not_o themselves_o and_o therefore_o again_o sad_a at_o it_o do_v i_o call_v to_o mind_v my_o former_a rejoice_v where_o therefore_o and_o when_o have_v i_o any_o feel_n of_o a_o bless_a life_n that_o i_o shall_v remember_v and_o love_n and_o desire_v it_o nor_o be_v it_o my_o desire_n alone_o or_o of_o some_o few_o beside_o but_o every_o man_n very_o will_v be_v happy_a which_o unless_o by_o some_o certain_a knowledge_n
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the_o sin_n of_o man_n yet_o when_o man_n say_v thus_o thou_o have_v mercy_n upon_o he_o because_o he_o thou_o have_v create_v but_o sin_n in_o he_o thou_o have_v not_o make_v who_o shall_v bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n the_o sin_n of_o my_o infancy_n for_o in_o thy_o sight_n can_v no_o man_n be_v 3._o clean_o from_o his_o sin_n no_o not_o a_o infant_n of_o a_o day_n old_a who_o will_v put_v i_o in_o mind_n of_o this_o any_o such_o a_o little_a one_o in_o who_o i_o now_o observe_v what_o of_o myself_o i_o remember_v not_o wherein_o do_v i_o then_o sin_n in_o that_o i_o cry_v too_o fierce_o after_o the_o pap_n for_o if_o i_o shall_v do_v so_o at_o these_o year_n cry_v though_o not_o to_o suck_v again_o but_o after_o such_o food_n as_o be_v convenient_a for_o my_o growth_n i_o shall_v most_o just_o be_v laugh_v at_o and_o reprehend_v for_o it_o even_o then_o therefore_o do_v i_o something_o worthy_a to_o be_v blame_v but_o for_o that_o i_o can_v not_o understand_v such_o as_o 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childish_a member_n i_o myself_o have_v see_v and_o observe_v a_o little_a baby_n to_o be_v already_o jealous_a and_o before_o it_o can_v speak_v what_o itself_o a_o angry_a and_o a_o bitter_a look_v it_o will_v cast_v at_o another_o child_n that_o suck_v away_o its_o milk_n from_o it_o 2._o who_o know_v not_o this_o that_o mother_n and_o nurse_n profess_v indeed_o to_o expiate_v these_o thing_n by_o i_o know_v not_o what_o remedy_n but_o may_v this_o pass_v for_o innocency_n that_o a_o baby_n full_o feed_v shall_v not_o endure_v a_o poor_a foster-childe_n to_o share_v with_o he_o in_o a_o fountain_n of_o milk_n plentiful_o and_o fresh_o flow_v though_o destitute_a of_o succour_n and_o have_v but_o that_o only_a nourishment_n to_o sustain_v its_o poor_a life_n withal_o but_o these_o childishness_n be_v with_o pleasure_n bear_v withal_o not_o because_o they_o be_v in_o themselves_o either_o none_o or_o small_a fault_n but_o for_o that_o they_o will_v vanish_v with_o age_n which_o though_o they_o may_v in_o this_o age_n be_v allow_v of_o yet_o be_v they_o with_o no_o patience_n to_o be_v endure_v in_o a_o elder_a body_n thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n who_o have_v give_v both_o life_n and_o body_n to_o the_o infant_n which_o as_o we_o see_v thou_o have_v furnish_v with_o sense_n compact_v with_o limb_n beautify_v with_o shape_n and_o for_o his_o general_a good_a and_o safety_n have_v arm_v all_o the_o endeavour_n of_o the_o whole_a creature_n even_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o praise_v thou_o for_o these_o thing_n and_o to_o confess_v and_o sing_v unto_o thy_o 1._o name_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a because_o thou_o be_v a_o god_n omnipotent_a and_o good_a although_o thou_o have_v do_v no_o more_o but_o these_o thing_n which_o none_o else_o can_v do_v but_o thou_o alone_o from_o who_o all_o proportion_n flow_v o_o thou_o most_o beautiful_a which_o fashion_v all_o and_o after_o thy_o own_o method_n dispose_v all_o 3._o this_o age_n therefore_o of_o my_o life_n o_o lord_n of_o which_o i_o remember_v not_o any_o passage_n concern_v which_o i_o must_v give_v credit_n to_o other_o relation_n which_o notwithstanding_o that_o i_o have_v pass_v as_o i_o conjecture_v by_o other_o infant_n although_o these_o token_n may_v very_o strong_o assure_v my_o conjecture_n it_o irk_v i_o to_o reckon_v unto_o the_o rest_n of_o that_o life_n which_o i_o lead_v in_o this_o world_n see_v that_o in_o regard_n of_o the_o darkness_n of_o my_o forgetfulness_n of_o it_o it_o be_v like_o that_o part_n which_o i_o pass_v in_o my_o mother_n womb_n now_o if_o i_o be_v shape_v in_o iniquity_n and_o in_o sin_n conceive_v 5._o by_o my_o mother_n where_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n in_o what_o place_n lord_n be_v i_o thy_o servant_n where_o or_o when_o be_v i_o innocent_a but_o behold_v i_o now_o pass_v by_o that_o age_n for_o what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o it_o whereof_o i_o can_v call_v nothing_o at_o all_o to_o memory_n chap._n 8._o a_o description_n of_o his_o childhood_n 1._o grow_v on_o from_o the_o state_n of_o infancy_n come_v i_o not_o into_o my_o childhood_n or_o rather_o come_v not_o that_o into_o i_o and_o succeed_v unto_o my_o infancy_n nor_o yet_o do_v my_o infancy_n depart_v for_o whither_o go_v it_o though_o now_o it_o be_v no_o more_o for_o a_o infant_n i_o be_v no_o long_o that_o can_v not_o speak_v see_v now_o i_o begin_v to_o prove_v a_o pretty_a prate_a boy_n and_o this_o i_o well_o remember_v and_o i_o afterward_o observe_v how_o i_o first_o learn_v to_o speak_v for_o my_o elder_n do_v not_o teach_v i_o this_o ability_n by_o give_v of_o i_o word_n in_o any_o certain_a order_n of_o teach_v as_o they_o do_v letter_n afterward_o but_o by_o that_o mind_n which_o thou_o my_o god_n give_v i_o i_o myself_o with_o grunting_n variety_n of_o voice_n and_o various_a motion_n of_o my_o body_n strive_v to_o express_v the_o conceit_n of_o my_o own_o heart_n that_o my_o desire_n may_v be_v obey_v but_o can_v not_o bring_v it_o 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thy_o son_n my_o master_n who_o with_o voice_n and_o heart_n and_o pen_n i_o serve_v that_o so_o many_o of_o they_o as_o shall_v read_v these_o confession_n may_v at_o thy_o altar_n good_a remember_v monica_n thy_o handmaid_n together_o with_o patricius_n her_o sometime_o husband_n by_o who_o body_n thou_o bring_v i_o into_o this_o life_n though_o how_o i_o know_v not_o may_v they_o with_o devout_a affection_n be_v mindful_a of_o these_o parent_n of_o i_o in_o this_o transitory_a light_n and_o of_o my_o brethren_n that_o be_v under_o thou_o our_o father_n in_o our_o catholic_a mother_n and_o of_o those_o who_o be_v to_o be_v my_o fellow_n citizen_n in_o that_o eternal_a jerusalem_n which_o thy_o people_n here_o in_o their_o pilgrimage_n so_o sigh_v after_o even_o from_o their_o birth_n unto_o their_o return_n thither_o that_o so_o what_o my_o mother_n in_o her_o last_o word_n desire_v of_o i_o may_v the_o more_o plentiful_o be_v perform_v for_o she_o in_o the_o prayer_n of_o many_o as_o well_o by_o mean_n of_o my_o confession_n as_o of_o my_o prayer_n the_o end_n of_o the_o nine_o book_n saint_n agustines_n confession_n the_o ten_o book_n chap._n 1._o the_o confession_n of_o the_o heart_n 1_o let_v i_o know_v thou_o o_o lord_n who_o know_v i_o let_v i_o know_v thou_o 12_o as_o i_o be_o know_v of_o thou_o o_o thou_o the_o virtue_n of_o my_o soul_n make_v thy_o entrance_n into_o it_o and_o so_o fit_a it_o for_o thy_o self_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v and_o hold_v it_o without_o spot_n 27._o or_o wrinkle_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o therefore_o do_v i_o now_o speak_v and_o in_o this_o hope_n do_v i_o rejoice_v when_o at_o all_o i_o rejoice_v as_o for_o other_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n they_o deserve_v so_o much_o the_o less_o to_o be_v lament_v by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o we_o do_v lament_v they_o and_o again_o so_o much_o the_o more_o to_o be_v lament_v by_o how_o much_o the_o less_o we_o do_v lament_v they_o for_o behold_v thou_o have_v love_v truth_n and_o he_o that_o do_v so_o come_v to_o the_o light_n this_o will_v i_o publish_v before_o thou_o in_o the_o confession_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o in_o my_o writing_n before_o many_o witness_n chap._n 2._o secret_n thing_n be_v know_v to_o god_n 1._o and_o from_o thou_o o_o lord_n unto_o who_o eye_n the_o bottom_n of_o man_n conscience_n be_v lay_v bare_a what_o can_v be_v hide_v in_o i_o though_o i_o will_v not_o confess_v it_o for_o so_o shall_v i_o hide_v thou_o from_o i_o not_o myself_o from_o thou_o but_o now_o for_o that_o my_o groan_n be_v witness_n for_o i_o that_o i_o be_o displease_v with_o myself_o thou_o shine_v out_o unto_o i_o and_o be_v please_v to_o i_o yea_o desire_a and_o belove_v of_o i_o and_o i_o will_v be_v ashamed_a of_o myself_o yea_o i_o will_v renounce_v my_o own_o self_n and_o make_v choice_n of_o thou_o and_o never_o may_v i_o please_v thou_o nor_o myself_o but_o in_o thou_o 2._o unto_o thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n be_o i_o lay_v open_a what_o ever_o i_o be_o and_o with_o what_o fruit_n i_o may_v confess_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v before_o speak_v nor_o do_v i_o it_o with_o word_n and_o speech_n of_o the_o body_n but_o with_o the_o expression_n of_o my_o very_a soul_n and_o the_o cry_n of_o my_o thought_n which_o thy_o care_n only_o understand_v for_o when_o i_o be_o wicked_a then_o to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o be_v no_o other_o thing_n but_o to_o displease_v myself_o but_o when_o i_o be_o well_o give_v to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o be_v then_o no_o other_o thing_n but_o not_o to_o attribute_v this_o goodness_n unto_o myself_o because_o it_o be_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o bless_v the_o just_a but_o first_o thou_o iustifie_v he_o be_v wicked_a my_o confession_n therefore_o o_o my_o god_n in_o thy_o sight_n be_v make_v unto_o thou_o private_o and_o yet_o not_o private_o for_o in_o respect_n of_o noise_n it_o be_v silent_a but_o yet_o it_o cry_v aloud_o in_o respect_n of_o my_o affection_n for_o neither_o do_v i_o utter_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v right_a unto_o man_n which_o thyself_o have_v not_o before_o hear_v from_o i_o nor_o cause_v thou_o hear_v any_o such_o thing_n from_o i_o which_o thyself_o have_v not_o first_o say_v unto_o i_o chap._n 3._o the_o confession_n of_o our_o ill_a deed_n what_o it_o help_v us._n 1._o what_o therefore_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o man_n that_o they_o shall_v hear_v my_o confession_n as_o if_o they_o can_v cure_v all_o my_o infirmity_n a_o curious_a people_n to_o pry_v into_o another_o man_n life_n but_o slothful_a enough_o to_o amend_v their_o own_o why_o do_v they_o desire_v to_o hear_v from_o i_o what_o i_o be_o who_o will_v not_o hear_v from_o thou_o what_o themselves_o be_v and_o how_o know_v they_o whenas_o they_o hear_v myself_o confess_v of_o myself_o whether_o i_o say_v true_a or_o no_o see_v none_o know_v what_o be_v in_o man_n but_o the_o spirit_n of_o man_n which_o be_v in_o 11_o he_o but_o if_o they_o hear_v from_o thou_o any_o thing_n concern_v themselves_o they_o can_v say_v the_o lord_n lie_v for_o what_o else_o be_v it_o from_o thou_o to_o hear_v of_o themselves_o but_o to_o know_v themselves_o and_o who_o be_v he_o that_o know_v himself_o can_v say_v it_o be_v false_a unless_o himself_o lie_v but_o because_o charity_n believe_v all_o thing_n that_o be_v to_o say_v among_o those_o who_o by_o knit_v unto_o itself_o it_o make_v one_o i_o therefore_o o_o lord_n do_v so_o also_o confess_v unto_o thou_o as_o that_o man_n may_v hear_v to_o who_o though_o i_o be_v not_o able_a to_o demonstrate_v whether_o i_o confess_v true_o yet_o give_v they_o credit_v unto_o i_o who_o ear_n charity_n have_v set_v
already_o pass_v beyond_o such_o part_n of_o it_o as_o be_v common_a to_o i_o with_o the_o beast_n while_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o mind_n for_o as_o much_o as_o i_o find_v not_o thou_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n &_o i_o proceed_v to_o these_o part_n of_o it_o whither_o i_o have_v recommend_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o mind_n nor_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o there_o yea_o i_o pass_v further_o into_o it_o even_o to_o the_o very_a seat_n of_o the_o mind_n itself_o which_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n as_o appear_v by_o the_o mind_n remember_v of_o itself_o neither_o be_v thou_o there_o for_o that_o as_o thou_o be_v not_o either_o any_o corporeal_a image_n no_o more_o be_v thou_o any_o affection_n of_o a_o live_a man_n like_v as_o when_o we_o rejoice_v condole_v desire_v fear_v remember_v forget_v or_o whatsoever_o else_o we_o do_v of_o the_o like_a kind_n no_o nor_o yet_o be_v thou_o the_o mind_n itself_o because_o thou_o be_v the_o lord_n god_n of_o the_o mind_n moreover_o all_o these_o be_v change_v whereas_o thou_o remayne_v unchangeable_a over_o all_o who_o yet_o vouchsafe_v to_o dwell_v in_o my_o memory_n even_o since_o that_o first_o time_n that_o i_o learn_v to_o know_v thou_o but_o why_o seek_v i_o now_o in_o what_o particular_a place_n of_o my_o memory_n thou_o dwell_v as_o if_o there_o be_v any_o place_n at_o all_o in_o it_o sure_o i_o be_o that_o in_o it_o thou_o dwell_v even_o for_o this_o reason_n that_o i_o have_v preserve_v the_o memory_n of_o thou_o since_o the_o time_n that_o i_o first_o learn_v thou_o and_o for_o that_o i_o find_v thou_o in_o my_o memory_n whensoever_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o remembrance_n chap._n 26._o whereabout_o god_n be_v to_o be_v find_v 1._o where_o then_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o for_o in_o my_o memory_n thou_o be_v not_o before_o i_o learn_v thou_o in_o what_o place_n therefore_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o so_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o but_o even_o in_o thy_o own_o self_n far_o above_o myself_o place_v there_o be_v none_o we_o go_v backward_o and_o forward_o but_o particular_a place_n there_o be_v none_o to_o contain_v thou_o every_o where_o o_o truth_n be_v thou_o precedent_n of_o the_o council_n to_o those_o that_o ask_v counsel_n of_o thou_o and_o at_o one_o dispatch_n do_v thou_o answer_v all_o yea_o though_o they_o ask_v thy_o counsel_n upon_o diverse_a matter_n clear_o do_v thou_o answer_v they_o though_o all_o do_v not_o clear_o understand_v thou_o all_o may_v advise_v with_o thou_o about_o what_o they_o will_v though_o they_o always_o hear_v not_o such_o answer_n as_o they_o desire_v he_o be_v thy_o best_a servant_n that_o look_v not_o so_o much_o to_o heart_n that_o from_o thou_o which_o himself_o desire_v as_o he_o that_o be_v willing_a with_o that_o rather_o which_o from_o thou_o he_o hear_v chap._n 27._o how_o god_n draw_v we_o to_o himself_o 1._o too_o late_o begin_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o o_o thou_o beatty_a both_o so_o ancient_a and_o so_o fresh_a yea_o too_o too_o late_o come_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o for_o behold_v thoâ—_n be_v within_o i_o and_o i_o out_o oâ—_n myself_o where_o i_o make_v search_v for_o thou_o deform_v i_o woo_v these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o thâ—_n workmanship_n thou_o indeed_o be_v with_o i_o but_o i_o be_v not_o with_o thou_o these_o beauty_n keep_v i_o far_o enough_o from_o thou_o even_o those_o which_o unless_o they_o have_v their_o be_v in_o thou_o shall_v not_o be_v at_o all_o thou_o call_v and_o cry_v unto_o i_o yea_o thou_o even_o brake_v open_v my_o deafness_n thou_o discover_v thy_o beam_n and_o shyne_v out_o unto_o i_o and_o do_v chase_v away_o my_o blindness_n thou_o do_v most_o fragrant_o blow_v upon_o i_o and_o i_o draw_v in_o my_o breath_n and_o pant_v after_o thou_o i_o taste_v thou_o and_o now_o do_v bunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o thou_o thou_o do_v touch_v i_o and_o i_o even_o burn_v again_o to_o enjoy_v peace_n thy_o chap._n 28._o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n 1._o when_o i_o shall_v once_o attain_v to_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o in_o every_o part_n of_o i_o then_o shall_v i_o no_o more_o feel_v either_o sorrow_n or_o labour_n yea_o then_o shall_v my_o life_n true_o be_v alive_a every_o way_n full_a of_o thou_o whereas_o now_o very_o for_o that_o who_o thou_o fille_v thou_o also_o raise_v be_o i_o a_o burden_n unto_o myself_o because_o i_o be_o not_o full_a of_o thou_o the_o joy_n of_o this_o my_o life_n which_o deserve_v to_o be_v lament_v be_v at_o strife_n with_o my_o sorrow_n which_o be_v to_o be_v rejoice_v in_o but_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o woe_n be_v i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o my_o sorrow_n that_o be_v bad_a be_v in_o contention_n with_o my_o joy_n that_o be_v good_a and_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o alas_o for_o i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o woe_n be_v i_o behold_v i_o hide_v not_o my_o woundâ—_n thou_o be_v the_o physician_n and_o i_o the_o patient_n thou_o merciful_a and_o i_o miserable_a be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n upon_o earth_n a_o very_a temptation_n 2._o who_o be_v he_o that_o will_v willing_o endure_v trouble_n and_o difficulty_n these_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v bear_v not_o to_o belove_a for_o no_o man_n be_v in_o love_n with_o the_o cross_n which_o he_o take_v up_o though_o he_o love_v well_o enough_o to_o take_v it_o up_o for_o notwithstanding_o that_o he_o rejoice_v to_o bear_v yea_o much_o rather_o have_v he_o that_o there_o be_v no_o cross_n for_o he_o to_o bear_v in_o adversity_n i_o desire_v prosperity_n and_o in_o prosperity_n be_o i_o afraid_a of_o adversity_n what_o middle_a place_n now_o be_v there_o betwixt_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n of_o man_n be_v free_a from_o temptation_n woe_n be_v threaten_v unto_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n again_o &_o again_o both_o for_o the_o fear_n of_o adversity_n and_o lest_o our_o joy_n shall_v be_v mar_v woe_n unto_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o word_n again_o and_o again_o yet_o woe_n the_o three_o time_n unto_o they_o and_o that_o because_o of_o the_o great_a desire_n man_n have_v unto_o prosperity_n adversity_n therefore_o be_v so_o hard_a a_o thing_n and_o which_o make_v naufragat_v shipwreck_n oft_o time_n of_o our_o patience_n be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n a_o very_a temptation_n upon_o earth_n and_o that_o without_o intermission_n chap._n 29._o cur_n hope_n be_v all_o in_o god_n 1._o now_o be_v all_o my_o hope_n no_o where_o but_o in_o thy_o very_a great_a mercy_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n give_v i_o patience_n to_o endure_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v thou_o impose_v continency_n upon_o i_o and_o when_o i_o perceive_v as_o one_o apocrypha_fw-la say_v that_o no_o man_n can_v be_v continent_n unless_o thou_o give_v it_o and_o that_o this_o be_v a_o point_n of_o wisdom_n to_o know_v who_o gift_n it_o be_v by_o continency_n very_o be_v we_o bind_v up_o and_o bring_v into_o unity_n with_o thou_o from_o who_o we_o be_v scatter_v abroad_o into_o many_o division_n for_o needs_o must_v he_o love_v thou_o less_o who_o love_v any_o thing_n together_o with_o thou_o which_o he_o love_v not_o for_o thou_o o_o thou_o love_v which_o be_v ever_o burn_a and_o never_o quench_v o_o charity_n my_o god_n kindle_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o thou_o enjoin_v i_o continency_n give_v i_o what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v chap._n 30._o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o dream_n 16._o 1._o very_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o contain_v myself_o from_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n and_o the_o ambition_n of_o this_o world_n thou_o command_v i_o also_o to_o abstain_v from_o carnal_a copulation_n and_o concern_v wedlock_n thou_o do_v burn_v now_o advise_v i_o to_o a_o better_a course_n then_o that_o be_v which_o thou_o leave_v i_o my_o free_a choice_n in_o and_o because_o thou_o give_v it_o â—t_z be_v obtain_v and_o that_o before_o i_o become_v a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n but_o yet_o still_o there_o live_v in_o my_o memory_n which_o i_o have_v now_o speak_v so_o much_o of_o the_o image_n of_o such_o thing_n as_o my_o ill_a custom_n have_v there_o fix_v and_o which_o rush_n into_o my_o thought_n though_o want_v strength_n even_o while_o i_o be_o broad_a wake_n but_o in_o sleep_n obey_v come_v upon_o i_o not_o to_o delight_v only_o but_o even_o so_o far_o as_o consent_v and_o most_o like_a to_o the_o deed_n do_v yea_o so_o far_o prevail_v the_o illusion_n of_o that_o image_n both_o in_o my_o soul_n and_o
in_o my_o flesh_n as_o that_o these_o false_a vision_n persuade_v i_o unto_o that_o when_o i_o be_o asleep_a which_o true_a vision_n can_v do_v when_o i_o be_o awake_a be_o i_o not_o myself_o at_o that_o time_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o be_v there_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n betwixt_o myself_o and_o myself_o in_o that_o moment_n wherein_o i_o pass_v from_o wake_v to_o sleep_v or_o return_v from_o sleep_v unto_o wake_v 2._o where_o be_v my_o reason_n at_o that_o time_n by_o which_o my_o mind_n when_o it_o be_v a_o wake_n resist_v such_o suggestion_n as_o these_o at_o which_o time_n shall_v the_o thing_n themselves_o press_v in_o upon_o i_o yet_o will_v my_o resolution_n re_fw-mi main_a unshake_a be_v my_o reason_n cloze_v up_o together_o with_o my_o eye_n or_o be_v it_o lull_v asleep_a with_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o body_n but_o whence_o then_o come_v it_o to_o posse_fw-mi that_o we_o so_o often_o even_o in_o our_o sleep_n make_v such_o resistance_n and_o be_v mindful_a of_o our_o purpose_n and_o remain_v most_o chaste_o in_o it_o we_o yield_v no_o assent_n unto_o such_o enticement_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n there_o be_v as_o that_o when_o any_o thing_n have_v otherwise_o happen_v in_o our_o sleep_n we_o upon_o our_o wake_a return_n to_o peace_n of_o conscience_n by_o the_o distance_n of_o time_n discover_v that_o it_o be_v not_o we_o that_o do_v it_o notwithstanding_o we_o be_v sorry_a that_o there_o be_v something_o someway_o or_o other_o do_v in_o us._n be_v not_o thy_o hand_n able_a o_o god_n almighty_a to_o cure_v all_o the_o discase_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o a_o more_o abundant_a measure_n of_o thy_o grace_n also_o to_o quench_v the_o lascivious_a motion_n of_o my_o sleep_n 3._o thou_o shall_v increase_v o_o lord_n thy_o grace_n more_o and_o more_o upon_o i_o that_o my_o soul_n may_v follow_v myself_o home_n to_o thou_o whole_o free_v of_o that_o birdâ—ly_n i_o of_o concupiscence_n that_o it_o may_v no_o long_o rebel_v against_o itself_o nor_o may_v in_o dream_n not_o only_o not_o commit_v these_o adult_n erous_a uncleanness_n by_o mean_n of_o these_o animal_fw-la sensual_a image_n procure_v pollution_n of_o the_o flesh_n but_o that_o it_o may_v not_o so_o much_o as_o once_o consent_v unto_o they_o for_o to_o hinder_v that_o no_o such_o fancy_n no_o not_o so_o much_o as_o shall_v need_v any_o check_n to_o restrain_v it_o do_v its_o pleasure_n in_o the_o chaste_a affection_n of_o those_o that_o sleep_n not_o in_o this_o life_n only_o but_o even_o in_o this_o age_n of_o youth_n be_v not_o hard_o for_o the_o almighty_a to_o do_v who_o be_v able_a to_o do_v above_o all_o that_o we_o ask_v or_o 20._o think_v and_o for_o this_o time_n in_o what_o case_n i_o yet_o be_o in_o this_o kind_n of_o naughtiness_n have_v i_o confess_v unto_o my_o good_a lord_n rejoice_v with_o tremble_v in_o that_o grace_n which_o thou_o have_v already_o give_v i_o and_o bemoan_v myself_o for_o that_o wherein_o i_o be_o still_o unperfect_a well_o hope_v that_o thou_o will_v one_o day_n perfect_a thy_o mercy_n in_o i_o even_o unto_o a_o fullness_n of_o peace_n which_o both_o my_o outward_a and_o inward_a man_n shall_v at_o that_o time_n enjoy_v with_o thou_o whenas_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n 54._o chap._n 31._o the_o temptation_n of_o eat_v and_o drink_v 1._o there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n which_o i_o wish_v 34_o be_v sufficient_a unto_o it_o that_o we_o be_v fain_o by_o eat_v and_o drink_v to_o repair_v the_o daily_a decay_n of_o our_o body_n until_o such_o time_n as_o thou_o destroy_v both_o 13_o belly_n and_o meat_n whenas_o thou_o shall_v kill_v this_o emptiness_n of_o i_o with_o a_o wonderful_a fullness_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o incorruptible_a 54._o with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n butin_n this_o life_n even_o necessity_n be_v sweet_a unto_o i_o against_o which_o swetnes_n do_v i_o fight_v lest_o i_o shall_v be_v beguile_v by_o it_o yea_o a_o daily_a war_n do_v i_o make_v bring_v my_o body_n into_o subjection_n by_o my_o fasting_n the_o pinch_n whereof_o be_v by_o the_o pleasure_n i_o take_v in_o it_o expel_v hunger_n &_o thirst_n very_o be_v painful_a they_o burn_v up_o and_o kill_v like_o a_o fever_n unless_o the_o physic_n of_o nourishment_n relieve_v us._n which_o for_o that_o it_o be_v ready_o to_o be_v have_v out_o of_o the_o comfort_n we_o receive_v by_o thy_o gift_n with_o which_o both_o land_n and_o water_n and_o air_n serve_v our_o necessity_n be_v our_o calamity_n term_v our_o delicacy_n thus_o much_o have_v thou_o teach_v i_o that_o i_o be_o to_o take_v my_o meat_n as_o spare_o as_o i_o will_v do_v my_o physic_n 2._o but_o in_o the_o while_n i_o be_o pass_v from_o the_o pinch_n of_o emptynesse_n unto_o the_o content_a of_o a_o competent_a replenish_n do_v that_o snare_n of_o lickorishnesse_n even_o in_o the_o very_a passage_n lie_v in_o ambush_n for_o i_o for_o that_o passage_n between_o be_v a_o kind_n of_o pleasure_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o other_o way_n to_o pass_v by_o but_o that_o which_o necessity_n constrain_v we_o to_o go_v by_o and_o whereas_o health_n be_v the_o cause_n of_o our_o eat_n and_o drink_v there_o will_v a_o dangerous_a lickorishnesse_n go_v along_o with_o health_n like_o a_o handmaid_n yea_o endeavour_n oftentimes_o so_o to_o go_v before_o it_o as_o that_o i_o eat_v that_o for_o my_o tooth_n sake_n which_o i_o either_o say_v i_o do_v or_o desire_v to_o do_v for_o my_o health_n sake_n nor_o be_v there_o the_o same_o moderation_n in_o both_o for_o that_o which_o be_v enough_o in_o respect_n of_o health_n be_v nothing_o near_o enough_o in_o respect_n of_o lickorishnesse_n yea_o very_a uncertain_a it_o be_v oftentimes_o whether_o the_o necessary_a care_n of_o my_o body_n still_o require_v sustenance_n or_o whether_o a_o voluptuous_a deceiveablenesse_n of_o epicurism_n supply_v lust_n with_o maintenance_n and_o for_o that_o this_o case_n be_v uncertain_a do_v my_o unhappy_a soul_n rejoice_v &_o provide_v it_o thereby_o of_o a_o protection_n of_o excuse_n rejoice_v for_o that_o it_o can_v now_o appear_v what_o may_v be_v sufficient_a for_o health_n that_o so_o under_o the_o cloak_n of_o health_n it_o may_v disguise_v the_o matter_n of_o epicurism_n 3._o these_o enticement_n do_v i_o endeavour_v to_o resist_v daily_o yea_o i_o call_v thy_o right_a hand_n to_o help_v i_o and_o to_o thou_o do_v i_o refer_v my_o perplexity_n for_o that_o i_o be_o resolve_v of_o no_o counsel_n as_o yet_o whereby_o to_o effect_v it_o i_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o my_o god_n command_v let_v not_o your_o heart_n be_v overcharge_v with_o 34._o surfeit_v and_o drunkenness_n as_o for_o drunkenness_n i_o be_o far_o enough_o from_o it_o and_o thou_o will_v have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o that_o it_o may_v never_o come_v near_o i_o but_o full-feeding_a have_v many_o a_o time_n steal_v upon_o thy_o servant_n but_o thou_o will_v have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o that_o it_o may_v hereafter_o be_v put_v far_o from_o i_o for_o no_o man_n can_v be_v temperate_a unless_o thou_o give_v it_o many_o thing_n thou_o vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o which_o we_o pray_v for_o and_o what_o good_a thing_n soever_o we_o have_v receive_v before_o we_o pray_v from_o thou_o have_v we_o receive_v it_o yea_o to_o this_o end_n have_v we_o already_o receive_v it_o that_o we_o may_v acknowledge_v so_o much_o afterward_o drunkard_n be_v i_o never_o but_o i_o have_v know_v many_o a_o drunkard_n make_v a_o sober_a man_n by_o thou_o thy_o do_v therefore_o it_o be_v that_o such_o shall_v be_v keep_v from_o be_v drunkard_n hereafter_o who_o have_v not_o be_v that_o way_n faulty_a heretofore_o as_o from_o thou_o it_o also_o come_v that_o those_o shall_v not_o continue_v faulty_a for_o ever_o who_o have_v be_v give_v to_o that_o vice_n heretofore_o yea_o from_o thou_o it_o likewise_o proceed_v that_o both_o these_o party_n shall_v take_v notice_n from_o who_o all_o this_o proceed_v 4._o i_o hear_v also_o another_o 18._o voice_n of_o thou_o go_v not_o after_o thy_o own_o lust_n and_o from_o thy_o own_o pleasure_n turn_v away_o thy_o face_n yea_o by_o thy_o favour_n have_v i_o hear_v this_o say_n likewise_o which_o i_o have_v much_o delight_v in_o neither_o if_o we_o eat_v 8_o be_v we_o the_o better_a neither_o if_o we_o eat_v not_o be_v we_o the_o worse_o which_o be_v to_o say_v that_o neythe_n shall_v this_o thing_n make_v i_o rich_a nor_o that_o miserable_a also_o another_o voice_n of_o thou_o have_v i_o hear_v for_o i_o have_v learn_v in_o whatsoever_o state_n i_o be_o therewith_o 12._o to_o be_v content_a and_o i_o know_v how_o to_o abound_v and_o how_o to_o suffer_v need_n i_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o christ_n that_o
this_o three_o kind_n of_o temptation_n give_v i_o over_o or_o can_v it_o altogether_o forbear_v i_o in_o this_o life_n this_o namely_o to_o desire_v to_o be_v fear_v and_o love_v of_o man_n and_o that_o for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o that_o we_o may_v receive_v a_o private_a rejoice_v in_o it_o which_o indeed_o be_v no_o true_a joy_n a_o miserable_a life_n this_o be_v and_o a_o dishonourable_a kind_n of_o brag_v for_o hence_o especial_o it_o come_v that_o man_n do_v neither_o 6_o pure_o love_n nor_o fear_v thou_o and_o even_o therefore_o too_o do_v then_o resist_v the_o proud_a and_o gonest_fw-we grace_n unto_o the_o humble_a yea_o thou_o thunder_v down_o upon_o the_o ambitious_a design_n of_o this_o world_n and_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o mountain_n tremble_v at_o it_o because_o now_o of_o perform_v certain_a effice_n among_o humane_a society_n it_o be_v necessary_a both_o to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n even_o therefore_o do_v the_o adversary_n of_o our_o true_a blessedness_n lie_v hard_o at_o we_o every_o where_o spread_v his_o snare_n of_o well-done_a well-done_a which_o while_o we_o too_o eager_o gather_v up_o we_o may_v be_v unaware_o take_v in_o they_o and_o bring_v to_o disjoint_v our_o rejoice_v from_o thy_o truth_n and_o to_o settle_v it_o iâ—_n the_o deceive_a opinion_n of_o man_n please_v ourselves_o with_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v not_o for_o thy_o sake_n but_o in_o thy_o stead_n by_o which_o device_n the_o adversary_n may_v make_v we_o his_o own_o we_o be_v so_o near_o conform_v unto_o he_o already_o not_o join_v with_o he_o in_o any_o concord_n of_o charity_n but_o into_o the_o fellowship_n of_o punishment_n even_o of_o he_o who_o aspire_v to_o advance_v his_o throne_n in_o the_o north_n that_o people_n follow_v 1â—_n he_o in_o his_o wry_a and_o crooked_a way_n and_o become_v all_o darken_a and_o befrozen_a may_v be_v make_v his_o vassal_n 3._o but_o we_o o_o lord_n behold_v we_o be_v thy_o little_a flock_n keep_v thou_o still_o the_o possession_n of_o we_o stretch_v thy_o wing_n over_o we_o and_o let_v we_o fly_v under_o they_o be_v thou_o our_o glory_v let_v we_o be_v belove_v for_o thy_o sake_n and_o let_v thy_o word_n be_v fear_v in_o us._n whoever_o be_v ambitious_a to_o becommend_v of_o man_n when_o thou_o discommende_v he_o let_v he_o not_o be_v defend_v of_o man_n when_o thou_o indge_v he_o nor_o deliver_v when_o thou_o condemne_v he_o when_o now_o a_o sinner_n miss_v of_o his_o so_o cordial_o desire_v commendation_n and_o the_o evil_a doer_n have_v not_o the_o good_a word_n of_o the_o people_n on_o the_o contrary_a when_o another_o man_n be_v well_o speak_v of_o for_o some_o good_a part_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v he_o yet_o please_v himself_o better_a in_o the_o hear_n of_o his_o own_o praise_n then_o in_o the_o good_a part_n for_o which_o he_o be_v commend_v this_o man_n also_o as_o well_o as_o the_o other_o be_v discommend_v by_o thou_o even_o while_o he_o be_v commend_v by_o man_n yea_o better_o be_v the_o commender_n than_o the_o commend_a see_v to_o the_o one_o the_o gift_n of_o god_n bestow_v on_o man_n be_v please_v but_o the_o other_o be_v better_o please_v with_o the_o gift_n of_o man_n then_o of_o god_n chap._n 37._o praise_v and_o dispraise_v how_o they_o move_v us._n 1._o assail_v daily_o we_o be_v by_o these_o temptation_n o_o lord_n yea_o we_o be_v assault_v incessant_o the_o furnace_n we_o be_v daily_o try_v in_o be_v the_o tongue_n of_o man_n and_o in_o this_o kind_n also_o thou_o command_v we_o to_o be_v continent_n give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v thou_o know_v what_o groan_v my_o heart_n and_o flood_n my_o eye_n â—end_n up_o unto_o thou_o for_o this_o for_o easy_o can_v i_o not_o discern_v how_o cleanse_v i_o be_o more_o or_o less_o from_o this_o pollution_n yea_o and_o do_v i_o much_o fear_v my_o secret_a sin_n which_o thy_o eye_n perceive_v well_o enough_o though_o i_o can_v for_o in_o other_o kind_n of_o 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i_o yea_o i_o will_v lay_v my_o ear_n unto_o his_o mouth_n but_o shall_v he_o speak_v in_o the_o hebrew_n hebrew_n tongue_n in_o vain_a shall_v he_o beat_v my_o ear_n for_o never_o shall_v he_o come_v near_o my_o understanding_n whenas_o if_o he_o speak_v latin_a i_o shall_v well_o enough_o know_v what_o he_o say_v 2._o but_o how_o shall_v i_o know_v whether_o he_o say_v true_a or_o no_o and_o if_o i_o can_v learn_v this_o too_o shall_v i_o know_v it_o by_o he_o for_o within_o i_o in_o that_o inward_a house_n of_o my_o thought_n neither_o the_o hebrew_n nor_o the_o greek_a nor_o the_o latin_a nor_o any_o other_o language_n but_o even_o truth_n itself_o and_o that_o without_o any_o help_n of_o the_o mouth_n &_o tongue_n without_o any_o sound_n of_o syllable_n shall_v tell_v i_o he_o say_v true_a and_o myself_o thereupon_o assure_v of_o it_o will_v confident_o say_v unto_o that_o servant_n of_o thou_o thou_o speak_v truth_n see_v i_o have_v not_o now_o the_o mean_n to_o confer_v with_o 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