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death_n and_o incarnation_n be_v not_o to_o instate_v we_o in_o so_o delicate_a and_o effeminate_a a_o life_n as_o may_v gratify_v sense_n and_o indulge_v the_o flesh_n and_o that_o all_o moral_a virtue_n be_v but_o dead_a work_n unless_o enliven_v by_o the_o merit_n and_o virtue_n of_o jesus_n christ_n that_o unless_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v change_v it_o will_v nothing_o avail_v a_o sinner_n to_o reform_v his_o outward_a conversation_n to_o â—ate_z the_o world_n without_o love_n to_o god_n to_o do_v work_n of_o justice_n without_o sincere_a repentance_n and_o as_o the_o royal_a psalmist_n have_v it_o â—o_z cease_z from_o evil_a without_o do_v good_a at_o the_o same_o time_n o_o lord_n that_o thou_o destroy_v my_o sinful_a habit_n plant_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o grace_n as_o may_v be_v fruitful_a to_o good_a work_n grant_v that_o by_o a_o lively_a faith_n i_o may_v meditate_v on_o the_o mystery_n of_o thy_o life_n and_o passion_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v 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