whatever the sinner may plead for himself Certain it is a man may as easily bless God as take his name in vain To speak well of our neighbour is as soon done as to speak amiss A good word costs us no more pains than a bad one And what wretched sinners are we who chuse to do amiss when it is as easie for us to do well and certainly so it is in many cases 9. Another aggravation of our sin is when we have not only sinned our selves but caused others to sin too This brand was upon Jeroboam that he did not only sin himself but also caused Israel to sin Certainly our own scores will be great enough we shall not need have the sins of others to account for besides It will well become us to consider of this when we search into our hearts and lives whether we have not by our counsel or example by our neglect and unfaithfulness caused others to go astray who might have been preserved from the errour of their way had we been faithful to them in our reproofs and exhortations 10. Lastly another degree of our sin is when it is come to an habit or custom And this does still make our sin the greater for now our sin is grown up to a full measure and to the highest stature and pitch and then we may well reckon our selves to be not only sinners but workers of iniquity It is very advisable that we should consider of these Agrravations of our sins in order to the more full humiliation of our Souls before God It is very needful that those things which do greatly encrease our guilt should be particularly confessed and lamented in the sight of God Now it is very evident that the particular above-named do very much heighten and increase our guilt Indeed every sinner does transgress the Law of God that Law which is holy just and good for sin is the Transgression of the Law But then he that sins against the clear dictates of his own Conscience also contracts a double guilt he that sins after his solemn vows of obedience adds treachery to his other guilt and he that sins after many mercies adds ingratitude to his other sins every sin makes us obnoxious to Gods displeasure but yet are there many degrees in our sins which do greatly aggravate our fault and introduce a new and greater guilt upon us And certainly to abound in sin under the greatest means of grace to continue in our folly when the rod of God lies heavy upon us to commit the sin which it is so very easie to avoid to repeat our sin when we have confessed and bewailed it to sin and to cause others to sin also to contract habits and customs of evil doing these are things which are by no means to be forgotten in our search because they do import so much of guilt and so great a degree of wickedness But all that hath been said is but relative to something else we are not fit to receive the Sacrament as soon as we have found out our sins The Jews were not only obliged to search for their Leaven at the Passover but also to purge it out And their search was in order to their putting it away They might not leave it where they found it but were obliged to put it from them we must do so by our sins too and therefore we must now consider what we are obliged to do in the next place CHAP. VI. WHen we are gone thus far and have found out our sins we must then put them away by a true and hearty Repentance Unless we do this we shall eat and drink Damnation to our selves Now because though Repentance be very commonly pretended to yet we do often mistake our selves in it and take that for it which comes far short of it therefore it is very necessary we should examine our Repentance and very carefully try whether it be such as is never to be repented of For as it is very common with men to think they have not sinned when they have so it is very common with men to think they have not sinned when they have so it is also as usual a thing with them to conceit that they have repented when indeed they have not For we are too apt to think Repentance no more but a calling to God for mercy or a general confession that we are sinners or some sudden purposes of amendment of Life or at most the actual abstaining from our sin Therefore it will be worth our while that we examine our Repentance and that we may do by the following Rules 1. He that Repents is greatly sorrowful for his sin He is inwardly grieved that he should offend God by his sins and would rather chuse any loss or trouble than commit his sin again His sorrow is very hearty and unfained he is grieved in earnest and his grief is great according to the measure and proportion of his sin and folly He is vile and base in his own eyes and is greatly afflicted for his wickedness Indeed the sincerity of his sorrow is not altogether to be measured by his tears which he sheds For though tears be reputed the expression of our grief yet are they but the expression of it Grief does many times break out this way But yet a man may be greatly forrowful when the greatness of his grief cannot be gathered from the multitude of his tears Some there are who do easily weep a very trifling matter will draw forth plenty of tears But there are others who grieve more and yet weep less But then it is still an ill sign if when we have tears for every little trouble we have none for ouâ— sins We read of one Alexander Pheraeus that he was ready to weep at the acting a Tragedy Plutarch Pelopidas and that he left the Stage that the Spectators might not behold his tears But then we also read of the same man that he shed the blood of many Thessalian Nobles with dry cheeks Such false tears had that Tyrant at his command Certainly we may well suspect our selves when we can find none at all for our hainous offences against God For it may be reasonably thought that if our grief were hearty and pungent which we have for our sins it would break out at the same vent which it is wont to find upon all other occasions Certain it is however that the true Penitent is a very sorrowful man and though his temper may not give way to plenty of tears yet his real grief is not the less Though he do not weep so plentifully yet he grieves as heartily as he that doth He does afflict himself for his sin he judges and condemns himself and feels as much pain in his Soul and as cordial a sorrow as he that weeps bitterly 2. He that truly repents does confess his sins unto God And this he must do in order to his pardon If we confess our sins he is faithful
Majesty and us thy Creatures the work of thy hands Between thy infinite power and our weakness thy Wisdom and our Folly thy Eternal Being and our Mortal Frame But Lord we have set our selves at a greater distance from thee by our sin and wickedness We do humbly acknowledge the corruption of our nature and the many rebellions of our lives We have sinned against Heaven and before thee in thought word and deed We have been prophane Contemners of thy Majesty and of thy Holy Laws We have also sinned against our Brother and our own Souls by omitting what we ought to have done and committing what we ought not We have rebelled against light despised thy Mercies and thy Judgments broken our own vows and promises neglected thy means of grace and opportunities of becoming better Our iniquities are multiplyed and our sins are very great We confess them O Lord with shame and with sorrow with detestation and loathing We are vile in our own eyes as we have rendred our selves vile in thine We pray thee to be merciful unto us in the free pardon of our sins for the sake of thy Dear Son and our alone Saviour Jesus Christ who came not to call the righteous but sinners to Repentance And we pray thee to renew our natures and to write thy Laws upon our hearts Help us to live righteously soberly and Godly in this present World Make us humble and meek patient and contented and work in us all the graces of thy Holy Spirit Preserve in us a sense of our dependance upon thee and of our great Obligations to thee Help us that we may love thee with all our heart and that we may universally obey and cheerfully submit to thy holy will Save and defend us from all sin and danger from malice and ill will from covetousness and sensuality from pride and vanity and from all the deceits of the world the crafts of the Devil and lusts of the Flesh Direct us O Lord in all our difficulties supply our wants support us under our troubles enable us against our temptations prosper our honest endeavours and above all things purifie and cleanse our thoughts Prepare us for death and judgment and let the thoughts thereof awaken us to a great care and study to approve our selves unto thee in well doing Bless thy whole Church these Kingdoms to which we belong And bless with thy choicest Blessings our Sovereign Lord the King Defend him against all his enemies Let his dayes be many and his Reign prosperous Bless him in his Royal Relations in his Counsellors and his Counsels Bless all the Governours and Teachers of thy Church grant them such a measure of thy Grace and Divine Wisdom that they may by their Doctrine and by their examples gain many souls unto thee Help all that are in trouble sorrow need sickness or any other adversity Give them patience under their troubles a sanctified use of them and in thy good time a deliverance from them Be merciful to our Friends and forgive our Enemies and accept or our humble acknowledgment for thy preservations of us this last night and for all thy mercies to us And we pray thee to take us into thy protection this day and to keep us in perfect peace and all we beg for the sake of Jesus Christ who hath taught us to say Our Father c. An Evening Prayer for a Family MOst gratious and merciful Lord God from whom descendeth every good and perfect gift and our most merciful Father in Jesus Christ we offer up to thy Divine Majesty our unfeigned Praise and Thanksgiving for all thy mercies towards us Thou didst make us at first and hast ever since sustained the work of thine own hands Thou hast given us thy Son to dye for us and hast admitted us into thy Church and given us assurance of pardon upon our Repentance and sincere obedience of thy holy precepts Thou art pleased to lengthen out to us the time of Repentance and to move us to it by thy word and by thy Spirit by thy mercies and thy judgments Out of a deep sense of thy mercies and our own unworthiness we appear before thee at this time We are ashamed of our vile ingratitude We have sinned O Lord and done very wickedly Be merciful unto us O Lord and pardon us for Jesus Christ his sake Instruct us O Lord in all the particulars of our duty and give us true wisdom who hast promised to give wisdom and upbraidest not Be with us under every Tryal and temptation and suffer us not to be tempted above what we shall be able Take care we pray thee of our affairs and more and more direct us into thy truth Defend us against all our Enemies but especially against our spiritual ones Suffer us not to be drawn away from thee by the blandishments of the world by carnal desires the cunning of the Devil or the deceitfulness of sin Work in us thy good will and pleasure and discharge our minds of all things that are displeasing to thee of all ill will and discontent wrath and bitterness pride and vain conceits of our selves and render us charitable holy pure in heart patient and Heavenly minded Be with us at the hour of death dispose us for it and deliver us from the slavish fear of it and make us all willing and fit to dye when ever thou shalt call us hence Bless O Lord all the race of Mankind let the world be filled with the knowledge of thee and thy Son Christ as the waters cover the Sea Be gracious to thy whole Church and especially to that part of it planted in these Kingdoms Bless the Kings Majesty and let his Crown flourish upon his Head and let no weapon formed against him prosper Bless all his Relations and teach his Senators wisdom And bless all that are to govern and teach thy Church make them successful in their labours and grant they may consider the account they must one day give Pity the sick and weak the poor and needy the Widowes and Fatherless and all that mourn or are broken in heart Be merciful unto them according to their several necessities Bless our Friends and grant us Grace to forgive our enemies as heartily as we do desire forgiveness of thee our Heavenly Father We pray thee to defend us this night from every thing that is evil and do more for us than we can ask or think for Jesus Christ his sake in whose name and words we continue to Pray Our Father c. FINIS
so not vouchsafing to eat together hath been also taken for an argument of estrangedness and a great difference Thus we read that the Egyptians might not eat bread with the Hebrews for that is an abomination to the Egyptians Gen. 43.32 And the Apostle when he would have the sincere Christian not so much as to countenance the debaucht and lewd Professor of Religion he will not permit him so much as to eat with him 1 Cor. 5.11 By what hath been said it does appear that eating and drinking together hath been a mark of kindness and hath been used when Covenants and Agreements have been made between men Now when we partake of the Lords Supper we have fellowship with God himself 1 Cor. 10.20 21. We eat at his Table and do become his guests But because we can have no fellowship with him when we walk in darkness 1 Joh. 1.6 therefore we cannot partake aright of this Supper of our Lord unless we put away the evil of our doings unless we put on the Wedding-Garment and renew that Covenant which we did once make with God and which we have so greatly broken 2. That this Sacrament was ordained for a renewal of our Covenant with God appears from the words of our Saviour when he did first institute and appoint it When he gave his Disciples the Cup he adds This is my blood of the New Testament or Covenant as that word signifies which is shed for many for the remission of sins Mat. 26.28 For the better understanding of which words we may remember that it was an antient custom in the World Tacit. Annal. l. 12. when men entered into Covenant with one another that they did it by shedding of Blood they did slay a beast and pour out its Blood and thus they did ferire faeduâ— strike a Covenant with one another In token I suppose that he that should fail of performing his part of the Covenant which they entered into should perish as the beast did which was slain before them Nor was this a custom among the Gentiles only but also a custom that God made use of among the Jews his own people For so we read that when God gave his Law to that people and that Law had been read in the audience of the people and the people had promised obedience to that Law that they entered into Covenant by blood For it is added that Moses took the blood and sprinkled it on the people and said behold the Blood of the Covenant which the Lord hath made with you concerning all these words Exod. 24.8 This was the blood of that Covenant which God made with that people To these words our Saviour may be thought to allude when he was ready to lay down his Life and shed his Blood for our Remission he gives his Disciples the Cup and tells them This is my Blood of the New Covenant which is shed for many for the remission of sins That blood which Moses sprinkled was the blood of beasts but this is the blood of Jesus that was the blood of a Covenant but of the old but this is the blood of the new and better Covenant That was shed for the Jews only but this is shed for many for Jew and Gentile for all that believe The blood of the Law of Moses did not expiate for all sins but this blood is shed for the Remission of sins yea of those sins which could not be remitted by the Laws of Moses For by Jesus we have the forgiveness of sins and by him all that believe are justified from all things from which they could not be justified by the law of Moses Act. 13.39 So that as the Blood which Moses sprinkled was the blood of that Covenant which the Jews entered into so is the blood of Jesus which he shed for us the blood of the New Covenant and he that drinks of this blood renews his Covenant and doth most solemnly take upon himself the observation of the Lawes of Christ When Moses had read the Law to the people and they had promised Obedience then does he sprinkle them with the blood of the Covenant and by that federal rite they are received into Covenant with God And so when our Blessed Saviour had taught his Disciples the will of his Heavenly Father and was ready to shed his blood for our remission he ordains this Sacrament of his blood which when we do partake of as we should lays a strict obligation upon us to obedience of the Laws of God which are made known to us in the Gospel When we drink of this Cup we renew our Covenant with God and do most solemnly bind our selves to a faithful and sincere Obedience we do as it were take a Sacramental Oath of Allegiance and if we be treacherous and false we are perjured persons and make our selves guilty of the blood of Jesus II. Another end of this Sacrament is that we should remember the love of our Lord Jesus Christ in laying down his life for us This do in remembrance of me Luk. 22.19 As often as ye eat this bread and drink this cup ye do shew the Lords death till he come 1 Cor. 11.26 The Jewish Passover was appointed for a memorial of their deliverance out of Egypt Exod. 12.14 And this Christian Passover was instituted for a memorial but of a greater deliverance than from the bondage of Egypt of our Redemption from sin and death So great a mercy as the deliverance out of Egypt might not be forgotten much less may this Redemption which our Lord hath wrought And as the Passover was commanded that they might not forget their freedom from Egypt so is this Sacrament appointed that we might never forget a greater freedom which our Lord hath purchased for us from the tyranny of sin and the bitterness of death There was a mercy in that deliverance but in this a miracle of mercy God in that shewed his love to his people but in this there are all the dimensions of love here 's breadth and length and depth and height here 's a love which passeth knowledge Eph. 3.18 19. Greater love hath no man than this that a man lay down his life for his friends Joh. 15.13 But our Saviours love hath out-stript this and exceeded it greatly for he died for his enemies And God commendeth his love towards us in that while we were yet sinners Christ dyed for us Rom. 5.8 Our Books tell us many stories of the great love that one friend hath shewed another Lucian Toxarseu de Amicitia but none of them tell us of such a kindness to enemies as what our Saviour shewed in his Death Here 's a love that out-strips not only all the Laws but all the examples of friendship nay a love that surpasses the love of Women Our Saviour became poor that we might be rich he died that we might live he became a son of man that we might be made the sons of God and left his
sometimes be alone and set apart some portion of our time for our service of our God We have our Saviours example for this though he were much called upon and greatly employed and that always in doing good to Mankind yet he finds time to be alone And rather than neglect it he will defraud himself of his Rest Thus we are told that he rises a great while before day and departs into a solitary place and there prays Mark 1.35 He continues in prayer all night Luk. 6.12 And when his Disciples were asleep we find him praying upon his knees Luk. 22.41 and praying more earnestly ver 44. So that no man may now think himself excused through the multiplicity of his affairs from his holy solitudes and retirements Our Blessed Lord found time for these things though he were so much called upon to heal the sick and help the needy We must then separate our selves from the world and from all its cares and pleasures and devote our selves and our time to the service of God And as it is adviseable that we should do this often so is it more especially that we should do it before we approach to the Table of our Lord that we may be at leisure to fit our selves for so great and so excellent a service 2. It is very necessary that we should examine and try our selves Let a manexamine himself and so let him eat c. 1 Cor. 11.28 We must descend into our own souls and try what we are This is the duty of every man lest he bring destruction upon himself No man is to be too confident of himself he must bring himself to the rule and measure himself by that We are very apt to think too well of our selves For we are too forward to judge of our selves by an imperfect rule and measure to think our selves good because we are not so bad as the worst or to judge well of our selves because other men judge well of us or to acquit our selves because our Conscience does not condemn us or perhaps we judge our selves in a safe condition because we are innocent as to some things and give an hearty obedience to some of the Laws of God Or else it may be that we think our selves in a safe condition because we mean well though we do not always do as we should do We are ready to call our great sins little ones and our little ones none at all Or else we think our selves safe because we are as we think of an orthodox belief or of a more refined sect or party of men A great many ways there are by which we may deceive our selves and miscarry eternally And therefore we had need use a most severe scrutiny and search For our hearts are deceitful and desperately wicked and do easily impose upon us 'T was a wise speech of one of the Jews That a man should not put any trust in himself as long as he lives Hillel Avoth c. 2. S. 4. And King Solomon tells us that all the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes but the Lord weigheth the Spirits Prov. 16.2 We do easily absolve our selves for we are partial and greatly favourable to our own side We are often heard to say that indeed we are great Sinners but then we add that we repent That we do not keep the Law we do confess but then we profess to believe the Gospel We have done amiss we say but then we do declare that we will be more heedful for the time to come We have quarrell'd with our Neighbours indeed but yet we do give out that we forgive them We have not done as we should but yet we affirm that we desire to be better But all this while it is a great question whether our Repentance and Faith our Charity and purposes of amendment and desires of becoming better be sincere or not For all this while we are supposed not to have examined our selves for when we come to do that by the unalterable Law of God we may perhaps find our sins great and Repentance less than now we conceive it to be If we try our purposes of amendment our Charity and Faith and desires of becoming better we may not find them to be that which we would have them be thought to be It will be well for us therefore that we examine and prove our selves as the Apostle requires we should lest we deceive our selves for ever when we take up with that which is counterfeit and insincere We are easily perswaded to do this when our Estates or Lives are concerned In that case we love to take a sure course and to search into the bottom of the thing 'T were well for us we were as curious where our Souls are so nearly concerned We shall find it worth our while to examine and try our selves And I shall shew what things they are which we are to examine in order to the fitting our selves for the Supper of the Lord and the right understanding what will become us in so weighty an affair CHAP. V. THE first thing that we are to examine is what we have done amiss and what we have omitted We are obliged to consider our ways and to look back upon our lives and conversations and observe wherein we have transgressed the holy laws of God We must make a diligent search into our hearts and most carefully reflect upon our lives past And for the better success of this work we may take these following rules 1. We must be greatly careful that we be not remiss and careless in this search That we do not search for our sins as some negligent officers search for offenders whom they have no mind to find out But as the Jews were very curious in searching for leaven and as the Priest was obliged to be very exact in searching after the Leprosie that did arise in a man or house so must we be We must search narrowly as the faithful Physician does by his Patient whose health he does consult He does curiously observe the nature of his disease all the moments of its rise and growth its symptoms and its types that he may know how to help nature and counterwork the disease Or as a faithful and skilful workman that would uphold a decaying house he searches diligently into its several parts examines the foundation considers its sides and superstructures that he may obviate and prevent its fall So must we do we must descend into every corner of our hearts look very diligently over our lives and well consider our wayes that we may find out what is amiss in us The interest of our Souls is greatly concerned if we leave any sin which we might have found out our condition is full of danger A little leaven leavens the whole lump and therefore it concerns us highly to be very exact in our search 2. We must be careful that we make this search by the light of Gods Law The Jews require when men
search for leaven against the Passover Pesach c. 1. S. 1. that they should do it by the light of a Candle We had not need be in the dark when we go about such a work as this is and we had need have a clearer light than that of our own Consciences is The Law of God is an unerring rule by this we must try and search our selves And therefore we had need know this Law or else we shall not be able to judge our selves by it and consequently very unfit to approach unto the Table of our Lord. By this Law we may find out what we have done amiss This glass will discover our spots And though we may think our selves very innocent yet upon our trial we shall find many things amiss For the Commandment is exceeding broad we are very apt to say with the man in the Gospel all these things have we kept from our youth up Matth. 19.20 But we consider not how far the Law of God extends and reaches We are commanded to have no other gods before the Lord our God We perhaps are ready to think that we do not break this Law till we fall down and worship some new Deity But we are much deceived in this For by this precept we are obliged to love God above all things to pray to him fear him trust in him give him thanks and in all things to prefer him above all the things of this present World And therefore if we find our selves devoid of the love of God or which is all one full of the love of this World and of our sins if we find we love or fear or trust in any thing more than in him that we do not give him hearty thanks for his mercies nor yet heartily pray for his grace and assistance we may certainly conclude that we are offenders against the Law of God We are commanded that we should not kill Now not only he that sheds his brothers blood but he that hates him and censures him is guilty of a breach of this Law He that hates his brother is a murderer 1 Joh. 3.15 Again when we are forbidden Adultery we are guilty when we look on a Woman to lust after her For the Law as was said afore is exceeding broad It does not only oblige the outward but the inward man It does not only forbid us to do but also to think any evil When it commands a duty it must be supposed to require all those things which are the means that lead us to it And when it forbids a sin it must be thought to forbid whatever would induce us to it We have reason to think our selves guilty not only when we do directly break the letter of the Law but when we transgress against the inward and spiritual meaning of it We are guilty not only when we commit a sin our selves but when we make others to sin nay when we do not reprove and hinder others when we can There are many wayes by which we become transgressors And there is no better way to find out our iniquity than by comparing our lives with the Law of God If those men did but carefully do this who now pride themselves as better than their neighbours they might find very foul spots where as now they think all their wayes clean This would shew them those faults which their pride and lust will not now let them see Our Conscience is many times but an imperfect light and is always so when 't is not enlightned from the Law of God 'T is that Rule by which we are to measure our selves And therefore if we would find our sin let us take this light to direct and guide us in our search 3. We must be very particular in this search That we are sinners we may easily find but we must not satisfie our selves in this but must find out our particular sins which we are guilty of For if in order to our pardon we must confess and forsake our sins we had need find them out if we do not do this it is not like we should confess them and forsake them For how can we be thought to confess and forsake those sins which we are ignorant of And if we do not this what hopes can we have of pardon Indeed where we cannot by our utmost search find out every sin we may yet hope for pardon if we humbly and penitently beg it with the Psalmist who prays to God to cleanse him from his secret faults Psal 19.12 But this we may hope when we cannot find out our particular sin when we can do that we must know it is our duty to do it in order to our confession and our parton In which the Reader may be assisted by the heads of self-examination at the close of the Book called the Whole duty of Man And a thing very advisable it is that we should have ready by us at such times as this a most particular Catalogue of our sins and that we do in our private prayers as particularly confess them to God It is very easie and common to confess our selves sinners to God but there is a great cheat in that general confession and if we would have pardon we must be more particular 4. We must not only make a particular search after our sins but we must also well consider of the degrees and aggravations of them For all sins are not alike There are many circumstances that do encrease our guilt and therefore if we would not hide our fault we must search after these things Now there are several things which do greatly enhance our guilt and make our sins more exceeding sinful that give them a deeper dye and stain Now every sin is a transgression against the Law of God but yet there are some sins which are more hainous than others 1. As for example when our sin is such as is not only against the Law of God but against our own Conscience also when we know the Law and our Conscience does make a faithful report of it and yet we will commit it He that knows his Masters will and doth it not shall be beaten with many stripes This is no small aggravation of our guilt when we rebel against the light This rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft We have no manner of excuse left us in this case and therefore ought to humble our selves greatly under such sins as these are 2. Again when we are vincibly and culpably ignorant and bribe or blind our Consciences our guilt is also greatly aggravated Perhaps we will not know our duty that we may not be though obliged to do it Or we have certain arts to bribe our Consciences or have found out ways to stop their sentence This is a most hainous aggravation of our guilt and comes up very near to that which was named last He is not only a very wicked servant that refuses to do what he hears his Master command him but he
is also very wicked that stops his ears and will give no heed to what he does command him The one rebells against the light and the other shuts it out The one will not admit the truth when the other will not obey it but detains it in unrighteousness There are no men so deplorably blind as they that will not see 'T is to be feared there is too much of this abroad in the World Men are afraid of the light and therefore they run away from it And are therefore like the old Turk we read of who being conscious that by his Law he ought not to drink any Wine was yet resolved to drink it and so he did but before he drank he gave some great shouts which he did as he said to give his Conscience warning that it might stand away Busbequii Legat. Turc Ep. 1. and not behold his wickedness nor be guilty of it Certainly too many men take this course or else they could never do what now they do They dismiss their Consciences when they would interpose And find out ways either to keep them from speaking or else from being heard But whoever hath used these arts hath contracted a great guilt 3. Another great aggravation of our guilt is that we have sinned after Vows of better obedience And there is something of this to be found in every sin we commit for it is committed against our Baptismal Vow when we did most solemnly devote our selves to the service of God in opposition to the Devil the World and the Flesh And many of us have made the same Vow again upon a bed of sickness in times of danger or when we did partake of the Supper of our Lord. And to relapse after all this does greatly increase our guilt We are very wretched sinners if we break these bands asunder and cast away these cords from us 4. But still our sins are again the greater when they are committed and continued in after the singular and eminent mercies of God towards us which lead us to Repentance Rom. 2.4 For now we add the greatest ingratitude to our other guilt and do by that fill up the measure of our iniquity And there is no man living but may easily find this aggravation in his sins For certain it is however we complain of our miseries and needs we are encompassed about with the mercies of Heaven And there is no man living so miserable or wretched but if he would but consider and reflect would easily find this to be a truth Certainly the hopes that we still have of Heaven and the means of grace are most unspeakable mercies But besides if we look back we may find many other singular mercies of God towards us which do upbraid us for our great unthankfulness He hath many times kept our Souls from death our eyes from tears and our feet from falling He hath long waited for our return who might long ago have placed us among the dead and damned which is a plain demonstration that God hath been greatly kind unto us and so far from desiring our death that he shewed himself when we did chuse the paths that lead to death desirous that we should turn and live 5. That our sins are committed under the means of grace is still a farther aggravation of our guilt The Gospel hath provided us sufficient help and assistance to do the will of God If we do amiss it is because we will not use the means which God hath offered us that we might become better There is a sufficient aid at hand if we will make use of it The Gospel does not only require our obedience but also enables us to obey If we do but humbly beg the holy Spirit of God and do it but as earnestly as the hungry child will beg bread of his Father we shall as certainly receive this heavenly aid Luk. 11.13 This Spirit will help our infirmities Rom. 8.26 And if he dwell in our hearts we shall find him that is in us greater than he that is in the world 1 Joh. 4.4 Now certainly we are very fond of our sins if we will not do our utmost to get rid of them The way is easie and plain before us we may be better if we will not make light of the aid and assistance of Heaven Our freedom from sin is purchased by our Lord and offered us in the Gospel if we accept it not upon such easie terms we deserve to be slaves for ever 'T will be but just we should be used as the servant under the Law who might have his liberty and refused it he was made a publick shame for his great folly in refusing to go free when his freedom was offered him For that is thought to be the meaning of what followed upon his refusal for his Master carried him away to the Judges and at the gate of the house or court of Justice he bored through his ear with an awl and he was at once marked and condemned to be a servant for ever Exod. 21.6 It is no little aggravation of our crime that we do amiss when we have such advantages of being and doing better 6. That we continue in our sins notwithstanding the very severe afflictions which God hath sent upon us to wean us from them is another consideration that does heighten our guilt Nay we many times commit our sin when Gods hand is striking us we little regard the discipline of Heaven when his judgements are upon us yet we will not learn Righteousness There is a mark set upon Ahaz for this In the time of his distress did he yet trespass more against the Lord. This is that King Ahaz 2 Chron. 28.22 This was a most hainous impiety and that which very greatly increased his crimes 7. Again another thing which adds a weight to our guilt is this when we relapse frequently into those very sins which we have formerly confessed to God and begged his pardon for When we do confess and sin again and keep in this black circle of the Devil In this we do mock Almighty God and may well be ashamed to lift up our eyes to Heaven if we well consider it In our dealings with one another we esteem that man void of all ingenuity that begs our pardon that he hath offended us and yet holds on to do us the same despites and injuries How horribly disingenuous are we then when we daily put affronts these upon God himself when we do often confess but never forsake our sins 8. Another aggravation of our guilt is when we continue in those sins which we have no temptation to commit and might most easily avoid Such are generally the sins of the tongue there is no natural desire that is gratified by swearing or by evil speaking and slandering one another These are indeed most hainous offences against Almighty God and their guilt is the greater because there is nothing of temptation to commit them and they are most easily avoided
and just to forgive us our sins c 1 Joh. 1.9 But then this confession alone does not bring us nearer our pardon we must confess them with shame and sorrow we must judge and condemn our selves and after the most humble manner debase our selves and beg pardon from God Our confession must be very humble and very full We must be particular in it and not content our selves that we confess our selves to be sinners in general but we must confess our particular sins unto God We must confess all the sins we can find all that we can remember And then for those which we cannot find or do not remember it will be needful that we should pray also for the pardon of them as the Psalmist does Cleanse thou me from secret faults Psal 19.12 And as we must confess our sins so we must also confess the degrees and the aggravations of them for these do greatly inhance our guilt and swell our sins into a very great measure But all this while we must be very greatly careful that our confession be the result of our real sorrow and trouble of heart God will not be put off with a parcel of good words If we do not abhor our sins it will not avail us that we do confess them God knows our sins already nor is he pleased to hear us repeat them to him unless we hate them and be really pressed with the burden of them 'T is the burdened sinner whom God hath a respect unto He that is full of his sorrow for his sin 't is he that confesses his sin as he ought such a man finds the advantage of an humble confession of his sin unto God For this gives a great ease to his Soul which would have been overcharged if he should have kept silence This the Psalmist tells us When I kept silence says he my bones waxed old and my mosture is turned into the drought of summer But then he adds I acknowledged my sin unto thee and mine iniquity have I not hid I said I will confess my transgressions unto the Lord and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin And then we find him greatly at ease and quiet Psal 32.3 4 5 6 7. 3. He that truly repents does forsake his sins and lead a new life He does not only purpose but he really does that good which he did intend to do He does not lead such a life as he did before He abstains from the sin which he formerly loved and followed Nor does he only abstain from it but he does abhor it and so he does every sin whatever and gives up himself to an universal obedience to all the Laws of God We have no reason to think we have repented till we lead a new and an holy Life 'T is this which compleats our Repentance and nothing short of this can give us any assurance that we have Repented and that we are in the state of Grace It is a vain thing to think that we are the better for purposes of amendment when we do not amend If we purpose never so much to do well and yet continue in our evil doing we shall be reputed amongst the workers of iniquity Repentance imports a change both of heart and life It requires a new life and conversation and where there is this grace there is this change to be found The Holy Scriptures annex our pardon to our Repentance but then they require such a Repentance as does import no less than a new life and conversation Thus we find in the Prophet how the Repentance of a Sinner is expressed If he turn from his sin and do that which is lawful and right if the wicked restore the pledg give again that he had robbed walk in the statutes of life without committing iniquity he shall surely live he shall not die Ezek. 33.14 15. Again If the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed and keep all my statutes and do that which is lawful and right he shall surely live and not die Chap. 18. ver 21. And when the sinner is called upon to repent we find it thus expressed Seek the Lord while he may be found call ye upon him while he is near let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts and let him return unto the Lord Isa 55.6 7. By which it is evident that Repentance implies a change of Life and so indeed it does That man that resolves to do well and does not do it does at once mock God and cheat his own Soul 4. He that truly repents his Repentance does arise from his love to God and an hatred to his sins because they are an offence to God This is the root from whence Repentance does spring The love of God constrains the Sinner to Repentance and his love to God it is that makes his Repentance of the right kind and stamp It is very possible that a man may be greatly sorrowful upon the account of his sins and that he may make a particular confession of them to God and when he hath done that he may forsake his sins too and yet not have the grace of true Repentance all this while And that because this change does not arise from a love to God and an hatred of his sin as it is an offence against God A man may be very sorrowful for his sins because they have brought a great misery upon him and do besides expose him to the justice of God Such a man is sorrowful for the ill consequence of his sin rather than for its obliquity and immorality And perhaps he forsakes his sin too and yet is no true Penitent For he may leave his sin for many reasons and yet not repent of it A bare abstaining from sin is no sufficient argument that he hath repented of it A man may forbear his sin and abstain from it because he cannot follow it or hath not the liberty to enjoy it any longer and yet his mind remains unchanged still or else perhaps he exchanges one sin for another and chuses a sin which he judges most expedient But the true Penitent abtains from his sin because he loves his God Nay he does not only abstain from his sin but he hates it also The reason why he leaves his sin is because he is himself changed in his mind and affections He now hates what he loved before and flies from that which before he did pursue He sees his folly as well as his misery and leaves his sin not only because God is just and will severely punish the wicked but because he is good and holy and cannot endure to behold iniquity He abstains from his sin not only because it is forbidden fruit but because it is contrary to his nature He that is not in the state of Grace may abstain from his sin as a sick man does from salt meats which yet he greatly loves because his Physician and his interest severely forbid him But
the true Penitent forbears his sin because he finds in his Soul an antipathy against it and not only because it is forbidden Such a Repentance as this must we find in our Souls before we can be fit to partake of these holy Mysteries And well it will become us to be greatly humbled for our sins and to abhor them when we do commemorate the death of our Lord and Saviour For he died for sin and endured the shame and sorrow of the Cross that he might no longer abide in us And if we come with our sins to this holy Table we do crucifie our Lord afresh we do trample upon his precious blood and count it a common and unholy thing 5. To what hath been said this must be added that when by our sin we have not only offended God but also injured and wronged our neighbour we are strictly and indispensably obliged to make him restitution as well as to beg the forgiveness of God We can expect no pardon from God if we do not make amends to our neighbour whom we have wronged If the wicked restore the pledge and give again that he had robbed c he shall surely live and not die Ezek. 33.15 But then if he do not this or sincerely resolve to do it assoon as he is able to do it he shall surely die and not live And his partaking of this holy Table shall be so far from saving him from the anger of God that it will encrease his guilt and add to his sin Let no man think that God will hear him if he do not make his brother amends for the wrong he hath done him Herodot Clio. We have a story in our Books of one Halyattes that his Soldiers did set on fire the Corn of the Milesians and that the fire by the violence of the wind caught hold of the Temple of Minerva and burnt it down It happened sometime after this that Halyattes falls sick and sends to the Oracle to know what would be the success of his disease but the Messengers were told by the Oracle that they must not expect any answer till the Temple which they had burnt were first repaired Most certain it is that we shall have no return of our prayers from Heaven when we confess and beg the pardon of our sin unless we do first make restitution where we have wronged our brother It cannot be thought we have repented if we do not restore There is no sacrifice will expiate our crime if we do not also make restitution Under the Law of Moses he that had wronged his brother was obliged indeed to bring a sacrifice for his atonement but then at the same time he was obliged to make a full restitution to his neighbour whom he had wrong'd and to add also a fifth part to the principal before he could be forgiven Levit. 6. He that wronged his neighbour was by that Law sometimes liable to restore double v. Maimon Hal. Shevuoth c. 8. Exod. 22.4.9 Sometimes times four and five fold ver 1. where the Trespasser was convicted But then where the offender became penitent and confessed his sin v. L' empereur in Bava Kam C. 7. S. 1. yet in this case he was obliged to make restitution to add a fifth part v. Jomd c. 8. Mishn 9. Shulchan Aruch H. Jom Kippu and to bring his offering Numb 5.7 His Repentance nor his offering would not serve his turn unless he also made amends to his neighbour whom he had wronged Nay the day of expiation as the Jews teach us would not avail to take away the guilt which we contracted by doing wrong to our brother And we must remember that we are obliged to make restitution not only where we have done an open and forcible injury As the robber and thief and violent oppressor are bound to restore what they have wrong'd their brother of by their violent injustice But we are also obliged to restore what we have by any means unjustly got the possession of And there are more ways than one by which we may become guilty of injustice He that overreaches and out-wits his brother in a bargain he that in his trading deals fraudulently and insincerely he that hides and conceals from his neighbour his just rights and dues such men as these are obliged to make restitution as well as open the robber and the thief There are indeed very many things which the Laws of the Land do not take notice of which yet we are obliged to in the Court of Conscience And we are before we do receive this Sacrament very severely to examine our own Consciences Whether in our dealings with men we have done as we would be done by and have not detained and with-held our neighbours due from him Indeed we are come to that pass that we are not afraid of doing an unjust action if we can but do it cautelously and slily Nay we are ready to rejoyce when we have cunningly circumvented our brother and men look upon it as but a little fault if any at all when they do craftily circumvent even him that attends upon holy things But certain it is whoever does wrong his brother and him that Ministers at Gods Altar he deceives himself most and must never look for pardon from God till he have repented of his sin and made restitution for the wrong he hath done And what hath been said hitherto of the necessity of making restitution must not only be understood of the wrong we have done to our neighbour as to his goods and estate but of all other wrongs whatsoever And particularly of that wrong we have done to his name and credit We ought to judge the best of all men and to make the most charitable construction of all the actions of our neighbour And therefore if we have done otherwise we are obliged to Repentance and to restitution for the wrong which we have done If we have openly slandered our brother or more closely and slily undermined his credit and good name we are obliged in this case to make as far as we are able a reparation That is we are obliged to unsay what we have said and by our words do him honour as we have endeavoured before to do him a discredit In a word we are bound to make him such an amends as we are able or such as may satisfie him to whom we have done the wrong And when we have done this we must humble our selves greatly in the sight of God for this sin and be very careful that we sin no more Thus must we cleanse and purge our Souls before we dare to come to this holy Table We must purge out our old leaven that we may be a new lump Otherwise we shall meet with death there where we might else have found Life And we ought therefore to be very careful and solicitous lest we should by our remisness and hypocrisie expose our selves to the greatest curse As we love our
his sorrowes He did not dye for sins that we might live in them but that we might dye to them His Death is a very forcible argument against the life of our lusts and a great motive to obedience We little regard our dying Lord if we at once remember his Death and break his Lawes 2. Again our Lord at his Death gave us a very great example of forgiveness of enemies and therefore when we remember his death we have very great reason to forgive our offending brother Our blessed Lord met with great enemies and such as had the greatest reason to be his friends He that eat of his bread lift up his heel against him He was betrayed by his own Disciple delivered to death by him that pronounced him innocent scourged and mocked by a rude and heady multitude He is numbred among Transgressors who had committed no sin He was hanged on the Tree who had never tasted the forbidden Fruit. He was put to death by those whom he came to seek and to save He had done them many kindnesses whilst he was among them He healed their sick fed their hungry restored their blind dispossessed their Daemoniacks and raised their dead He offended none of their Laws He paid Caesar his Tribute took care the Priest should have his Offering observed their customs went to their Festivals and was so far from profaning their Temple that he shewed a great zeal for defending it from common uses There could be nothing said against his Doctrine nothing against his Life His enemies that bare witness against him could not agree and it was infinitely plain that he was innocent And yet his Countrymen thirst after his blood and prefer a Murderer before him They want patience when our Lord wanted none They cry out Crucifie him crucifie him And what does our Lord do he cryes out too but not for Vengeance but for Mercy Father forgive them for they know not what they do Luk. 23.34 Certainly then we should be ashamed to remember these things with malice in our hearts well may we forgive our enemies when our Lord hath forgiven his We must not dare to remember the Death of Christ and to remember our Neighbours unkindness together We may not think of revenge when our Lord shewed so much mercy We cannot rightly remember Christs Death when we do not imitate his example He taught us what we should do by what he did himself We shall look very unlike our Lord if we retain our malice and ill-will 3. If we consider that Christs Death was not only for sins but also for our sins we shall still find a greater obligation upon us to forgive one another God gave his Son to dye than which there cannot be a greater miracle of Love and if God so loved us we also ought to love one another 1 Joh. 4.11 It was for us our Saviour laid down his life and who are we Had we deserved this love were we his friends that he was at this pains and cost No surely but we were sinners and enemies and yet he laid down his life for us Rom. 5.8 10. If then Christ dyed for his enemies we ought to forgive ours and then especially we are obliged to do it when we pretend to remember the Death of Christ How can we now pull our brother by the throat for a few pence when our Lord hath forgiven us so many Talents We are very ungrateful for our Lords kindness if we are unkind to one another Did we but consider Gods mercies to us we should think our selves obliged to be merciful to one another And methinks it should be easie for us to forgive our Neighbour if we did but consider how very much we need Gods forgiveness and how far we are from deserving it If our Lords eye have been so good to us why should ours be evil to one another what miserable wretches should we be if Gods mercies to us had not been greater than ours is to one another He hath forgiven us our great scores let us not retain then our grudges to our brother For shame then let us purge out this leaven of malice when we keep this Feast Let us shew our selves kind to each other when we do remember the kindness of our Blessed Saviour Besides our brothers offences against us are small in respect to ours against God We offend against an infinite Majesty we transgress the Eternal Laws of Reason How coldly do we pray to him for the greatest Blessings How insensible are we of his many mercies How very stupid and incorrigible under his severest judgments How void of the love of him who hath loved us so much If he should mark iniquities how should we be able to stand We are not able to answer for one of a thousand But yet we hope for Mercy upon our Repentance and our Faith We expect pardon from God for all these amisses And had we not this hope we should be of all men the most miserable We have then very great reason to be reconciled to our brother when we stand in so great need that God should be reconciled unto us and when we hope for the pardon of our sins from God which we do from Christs death and at this time when we do commemorate it we have a sufficient motive to forgive our brother Especially our Saviour having said If you forgive men their trespasses your Heavenly Father will aso forgive you But if ye forgive not men their Trespasses neither will your Father forgive your trespasses Mat. 6.14 15. 2. Another great end of this Sacrament is that Christians may be knit together in the strictest bond of Love and Charity It is as I shewed you before a Feast of Love It was designed to bring us together and to make us all of one heart And a very effectual instrument it is were it rightly understood and used to that end and purpose It would soon make us one again It would bring together those who now are separated from one another When Communions were frequent in the Church Christians loved one another and kept together But when they became more seldom selemnized then the feuds among the professors of Christianity grew also For indeed this Sacrament was intended to maintain us in Love and Charity And therefore if we do not heartily forgive our brother we do destroy also this end of its Institution It is very indecent to see men at odds that eat and drink at the same common Table But it is a great wickedness to come to this Holy Table with malice and ill-will to our brother in our hearts We must not keep this feast of love with the leaven of malice VVe cannot partake of this Sacrament but we must profess a kindness to our brother and if we mean it not we are like Judas that gave his Master good words when he was ready to betray him and shall be miserable as he was into whom the Devil and the morsel entered at
pilgrimage towards Heaven This repast will give us new strength and vigor And we greatly need that our strength should be renewed This is a blessed opportunity of renewing our Covenant with God and reconciling our selves to one another and dressing up our disordered Souls for another World This puts us upon exciting all our Graces and strengthening all our good purposes and intentions This awakens our repentance inflames our charity augments our hope confirms our faith and puts us into a condition that makes us more fit to live and more prepared to dye We are like Clocks and Watches that frequently stand in need of winding up and setting right Or else like trees that are apt to be pulled back by suckers and burdened with luxuriant branches This blessed Sacrament puts us upon amending all our amisses it puts us upon cutting off and paring away our excrescencies and superfluities How glad should we be then of such an excellent opportunity that does oblige us upon pain of death to become new creatures and we are offered strength and grace to be so Who need perswade the hungry man to eat or the thirsty to drink If we understand our needs they will put us forward When our Souls grow disordered we should be glad of an opportunity of setting them right When our sins grow upon us and our Charity grows cold we should be glad of an occasion to renew our Repentance and enflame our Charity Here 's a blessed occasion that puts us upon all this This calls upon us to break off our wont of sin to kindle our dying charity to forget our quarrels and contentions and to put our selves in a posture for a better life than this Here is a great grace offered and conferred to them that come prepared So that we see what great necessity lies upon us to do this We have a plain and peremptory command to do it a great reason also to enforce the Precept and after all this our own interest and advantage does loudly require it of us So plain a Precept we may not neglect without open rebellion against our Lord. Nor can we resist the reason of it without being guilty of great ingratitude And after this if we are not perswaded to it by our own interest we are false to our own souls Methinks any of these are strong enough And it will be very strange if all of them together should not draw us If the command of Christ and the sense of his dear love and our own interest besides will not draw us certainly our hearts are very hard 4. To what hath been said I add this that the Jew was most strictly obliged to keep the Passover and he that did neglect it was liable to the severest penalty And we have therefore great reason to think the neglecter of this Precept of our Lords makes himself obnoxious to the wrath of God by reason of this neglect For the Passover we know that every Israelite was obliged to keep it Exod. 12.47 And because it might happen that some of them might be by reason of their legal defilement unfit or else by reason of some journey from home unable to keep it in that place where it was commanded to be kept therefore it was provided in the Law that the second Moneth should be observed and in it the second Passover kept for the sake of such men as these that were unavoidably hindred from keeping it in the first moneth But this Passover was only substituted in the case above-named For every Israelite was obliged to keep the first Passover if he were clean and not in a journey and made himself greatly obnoxious if he did not Thus we read the man that is clean and is not in a journey and forbeareth to keep the Passover even the same Soul shall be cut off from his people because he brought not the offering of the Lord in his appointed season That man shall bear his sin Numb 9.13 And in case he were in a journey or unclean yet did not this excuse him he was however obliged to keep the Passover unto the Lord v. 10. And that he might do so the second Passover was instituted Numb 9. The Israelites were severely obliged to keep the Passover and to keep it aright He that did not keep that Feast was to be cut off from Gods people and he that eat leavened bread during that Feast was likewise liable to the same penalty Exod. 12.15 So that it was commanded to be kept and to be kept as was appointed upon pain of the greatest curse The Israelite was tyed up very strait he must keep this Feast and he must keep it without leaven and according to all its ordinances and constitutions There was danger if he did not keep it as he should and danger if he did not keep it at all If he either keep it not or kept it amiss he rendred himself liable to the curse of the Law and that none of the smaller neither but he was liable to be cut off from among his people for it And though I shall not now examine the different opinions about what is meant by that expression of being cut off from their people yet I shall tell you that it does import a very great severity And therefore we find it annexed to such sins as the Law of Moses allowed no expiation for There was no Sacrifice admitted to make atonement for that offence to which this excision did belong The sin of ignorance might be expiated by a Sacrifice but there was no atoning such a sin as hath this penalty annexed to it The Soul that sinned presumptuously was to be cut off from among his people Numb 15. 28 30. Such a man was reserved to the punishment of God though he were exempt from the sword of the Magistrate It is said of him that would not obey the Messiah that God will require it of him Deut. 18.17 But when St. Peter cites this passage he expresseth it in other words viz. that such a man shall be destroyed from among the people Act. 3.23 Or cut off from the people for he uses the same Greek word by which this cutting off is expressed by the Septuagint Numb 15.30 By which it appears to be a very hainous offence which is thus denounced against and an offence of that nature that God reserves the punishment of it to himself and which he allowed no expiation for under the Law of Moses Thus it was with the Passover Every Jew was bound to keep it or else must be liable for his neglect to the greatest curse And this curse was unavoidable too for God took upon himself the execution of it who would not let him escape that might otherwise have avoided the severity of the Magistrate Can we then imagine that we shall escape if we neglect to eat of this Bread and drink of this Cup Let us not deceive ourselves we shall not escape God will require it of us Certainly the Passover
least spark of goodness you will find it shine and glow and spread it self to your infinite joy and contentment of heart Among all the various degrees and conditions of Christian people there will none be found that come hither with sincere affection to do this in remembrance of their Saviour but may go away rejoycing loaded with many Divine benefits Heads of Self-Examination by which we may be directed to find out what sins we are particularly to repent of either before the Sacrament or at any other time which we set apart for Repentance and Humiliation of our selves Wherein are laid before us the several duties we owe to God our Neighbour and our Selves To God FAith or belief of his Word A well grounded Hope in his Mercy Love and Fear of Him above all Trust in him Submission to Him Honour to His Holy Name Word Appointments Thankfulness Worship Repentance To our Neighbour in General Justice which requires a doing by him in all respects as we would be done by and forbids all injury whether it be by drawing him into Sin endangering his Life depriving him of his Peace invading his Bed his Goods or good Name and forbids all Envy and Malice and Covetous desires of what belongs to Him and Charity by which we wish well to him and are disposed to assist and help him In Particular To our Superiors Reverence and hearty Obdience and Submission to our Equals unfained Friendship and Kindness To our Inferiors Gentleness Mercy and a great care of their Souls To our Selves Humility Meekness Consideration Content Diligence and Watchfulness over our Selves Chastity or purity of Heart and Life Temperance in Eating and Drinking Moderation in our Sleep or Rest and Recreations and in our Garb and Expences Hy these Heads we may examine our selves And we must particularly confess wherein we have failed and we must not onl confess the sin but the circumstances of aggravation with which it was attended Of which see the first chapter of this Book And as we must confess with shame and sorrow so we must come to the Sacrament with express resolutions to forsake these sins for the time to come A Prayer before the Sacrament O Most Glorious and for ever Blessed Lord God Thou art and there is none like unto thee in Heaven or in Earth thy Wisdom is infinite thy Power irresistible and thou art of purer eyes than to behold the least iniquity with approbation It is of thy unspeakable Mercy that I am not long ago consumed I blush and am ashamed when I lift up my eyes unto thy Divine Majesty I do in all humble reverence prostrate my self before thee and implore thy gracious favour in the name and Mediation of Jesus Christ the Righteous who ever lives to make intercession for those who come unto God by him I do acknowledge thy many mercies towards me I received my being and my breath from thee I have ever since I came into being been sustained by thee Thou hast preserved mine eyes from tears my feet from falling and my Soul from death My Life and Health my Liberty and all the comforts of my life are intirely owing to thy gracious goodness and bounty But above all thou art to be acknowledged for thine inestimable Love in the Redemption of the World by our Lord Jesus Christ for the means of Grace and hope of Glory Thou hast given thy Son to dye for me revealed thy gentle and holy Laws to direct and guide me promised thy Spirit to assist me propounded Eternal Life to encourage my endeavours I have been received into thy Church by Baptism and promised and professed obedience to thy holy Laws But notwithstanding all these obligations to sincere and universal obedience I have many wayes offended against thy Divine Majesty I have not honoured thee as my Creator nor loved thee as my Father nor obeyed thee as my Soveraign Lord and Master And whereas I have been very sensible of the kindness shewed my by my fellow Creatures I have had but very little sense of the innumerable and underserved favours which thou hast heaped upon me from time to time I have sinned against thee in thought word and deed I have sinned greatly and deserve the death which by my wickedness I have pursued I am guilty after the clearest light and knowledge Here make a particular confession of sin after the most indearing mercies and favours after the most solemn Vows and promises of obedience and the most awakening Judgments I have sinned under sufficient means of Grace and after many experiences of the evil of departing from thee I have contemned and despised thy divine Majesty and suffered my self by an easie and small temptation to be drawn away from thee the fountain of my Life and Happiness and the great lover of Souls O Lord look down from heaven with an eye of pity and compassion upon me a wretched sinner I am less then the least of thy mercies and am vile in my own eyes I beg thy pardon and forgiveness for Christ his sake who came into the World to seek and save that which was lost In a deep sense of the wickedness of my former life and the hainous nature of my offences I approach unto thy Divine Majesty with full purpose of amendment of Life I trust in thy mercy O Lord through Christ Jesus and do with all possible thankfulness keep in memory his precious death And being very sensible how much I stand in need of thy mercy and forgiveness of all my sins and the circumstances of aggravation which have attended them I do declare that I do forgive all my Enemies and that I come before thee with sincere and universal Charity to all mankind Search me O Lord and try my heart and lead me into the way Everlasting I am coming to thy Holy Table to renew the Covenant with thee which I have broken I am unworthy of the Crumbs which fall from thence But most gracious Lord look upon me in Christ Jesus Help me that I may attend upon thee without distraction Work in me all those holy and heavenly dispositions which may render me fit for this service Grant that I may come before thee with lowly thoughts of my self and the most raised apprehensions of thy love in Christ Jesus strengthen my weak Faith perfect my Repentance confirm my resolutions of amendment and enlarge my Charity grant that I may receive Christ Jesus my Lord and that I may walk in him That I may partake of the benefits of his death and of the fruits of his intercession at thy right hand I most humbly beseech thee not only to pardon all my past sins and to speak peace to my Soul but that thou wouldest renew my nature and write thy laws upon my heart Englighten my dark mind rectifie my crooked will sanctifie my depraved affections and purifie all the thoughts and intentions of my Heart and grant that for the time to come I may forsake