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mourn_v in_o the_o sense_n of_o god_n displeasure_n yet_o it_o rejoice_v in_o his_o fatherly_a care_n 6._o but_o patience_n and_o contentment_n be_v â—…o_o low_a a_o condition_n for_o the_o soul_n to_o rest_v 6._o 〈◊〉_d therefore_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n raise_v it_o up_o to_o a_o spiritual_a enlargement_n of_o joy_n so_o much_o joy_n so_o much_o light_n and_o so_o much_o hight_v so_o much_o scatter_v of_o darkness_n of_o â—…pirit_n we_o see_v in_o nature_n how_o a_o little_a light_n will_v prevail_v over_o the_o thick_a cloud_n of_o darkness_n a_o little_a fire_n waste_v a_o great_a â—…eale_n of_o dross_n the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n to_o be_v our_o god_n bring_v such_o a_o light_n of_o joy_n into_o the_o soul_n as_o drive_v outâ—…_n dark_a uncomfortable_a conceit_n this_o light_n make_v lightsome_a if_o the_o light_n of_o knowledge_n alone_o make_v bold_a much_o more_o the_o light_n of_o joy_n arise_v from_o our_o communion_n and_o interest_n in_o god_n how_o can_v we_o enjoy_v 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