Mr. LANGHORN's MEMOIRES WITH SOME MEDITATIONS AND DEVOTIONS Of his During his Imprisonment AS ALSO HIS Petition to His Majesty AND HIS SPEECH AT HIS EXECUTION All which were Left by him and Written with his own Hand Printed in the Year M.DC.LXXIX BEing adjudged to dye by a Publick Judgment for the Crime of High-Treason Charged and Sworn against me at my Tryal by two Witnesses namely Mr. Oates and Mr. Bedloe And having both before my Tryal and after the Judgment given declared my Innocency to All with whom I have had the Liberty to converse since my first Imprisonment I take it to be my Duty to leave a Testimony under my Hand for the farther Justification of my Innocency and of the Truth against all those Calumnies which have been and may be laboured by ill Men to be cast upon me And the rather because I do not know whether it will be allowed me to speak with freedom at my death or if that should be permitted yet I well know that what I may then say may be misrepresented to the prejudice of Truth I am not in the mean time ignorant what prejudice I lie under and how difficult it is for me to express my self in such words as may gain Belief with the World But my design being only to satisfie good Men who accustom themselves to judge according to the Rules of right Reason And as they would have others judge of them I shall not much care for the Censure of the Multitude The Crime which I am Charged is the most heinous of all Crimes But whether I am in Truth Guilty can only lie within the knowledge of the Great God who is the Searcher of all Hearts my own Conscience and the Consciences of my before-named Accusers My God I am sure knows my Innocency and will acquit me at the great day of Judgment My Conscience with great Joy and Peace bears me witness that I am so perfectly innocent of the Treason for which I stand Condemned That it invokes Almighty God to witness that I was never in the whole course of my life guilty of so much as one Disloyal Thought against my Sovereign Lord King CHARLES the Second whom I here own in the presence of God to be my True and Lawful King and Sovereign taking the words in the same sense in which they are taken and intended in the Oath commonly called The Oath of Allegiance As to all other Persons who have judged or shall take upon them to judge of me whether I am Guilty or not Guilty of that Crime of which I here profess my self to be Innocent I am sure that according to Reason they must disclaim to make any Judgment upon science or strict knowledge And must own if that they can make no other Judgment than what must be grounded upon their Belief which can never have or pretend to have any greater or higher certainty than the Motives of the Credibility upon which it is built and grounded I do not nor would I be taken to arraign the Justice of the King of the Government of the Judges before whom I was Tryed or of the Jury who gave the Verdict upon which Judgment was given against me whilest I pretend to examine the motives of Credibility upon which a Judgment of Belief in this Case is to be grounded In the mean time I hope that neither His Majesty nor my Lords the Judges nor my Jury will take it ill if I presume to say That neither the Judges nor the Juries of England do or ever did claim to be guided in their Proceedings in Cases of this nature by any Spirit of Infallibility The Lord Coke in his Pleas of the Crown reports a sad but very true Case of a Person Condemned and Executed for the Murther of a Girl who after the Execution of the Party so Condemned was found to be living and in perfect health And I think it is well known to most Men of our Times that even since His now Majesties Happy Restauration to His Crown and Dignities there hapned a more sad Accident where three Persons viz. the Mother and two Sons were Condemned Executed and Hanged in Chains for the Murther of a Person who was afterwards found to be living and never to have been any wayes assaulted or hurt by those who were Executed for his Murther Here then there were innocent Persons Condemned and Executed by Publick Verdicts and Judgments And what hath happened may again happen and yet the Juries the Judges the Justice the King and Government no way blemished they proceed and must always be taken to proceed according to the Rules of Law and Justice But there was certainly great Faults somewhere in those two Notorious Cases before-mentioned as there is likewise in my Case supposing it to be true what I here affirm in the presence of God to be true in relation to my Innocency notwithstanding the Judgment given against me Having therefore disclaimed as I here again do all Intentions of Arraigning the Justice of my King my Judges or my Jury I will recommend to be considered the Motives of which a right Judgment grounded upon Belief is to be made by Men not byassed by Passion or Prejudice touching my being Guilty or Innocent of that horrid Crime of which by Judgment of Law I stand Condemned which Motives of Credibility can only be truly and clearly known and represented by a just true and sincere stating of my Case with all its Circumstances with as much brevity as it is capable of which I here give as followeth The first news which I had and the first mention which I ever heard of this Plot and Treason against His Majesty for which so many have been lately Executed and for which I stand Condemned was on the 29th of September last when I heard several Priests were taken and in Custody being Charged by one Mr. Oates for High Treason On Monday come seven-night after being the 7th of October I was my self seized on in my Chamber in the Temple by a Messenger of the Council by vertue of a Warrant under the hands of Four Privy Councillors issued out against John Langhorne Esq my name being Richard I told the Messenger that he could not seize me by vertue of that Warrant To which he answered That he believed me the Person intended and would run the hazard whereupon I submitted and went with him to Newgate And though upon my coming thither I told the chief Gaoler Captain Richardson that he could not justifie the detaining of my Person by vertue of that Warrant He not only told me that he would run the hazard of it but immediately made me a close Prisoner and continued me so with the utmost strictness for about eight Months From hence it must in all reason be agreed that there being a full Week passed from the time wherein I heard of Persons being Committed for the Plot to the time of my being seized I must be a perfect Mad-man to
appear publickly and not to slie or conceal my self if I were conscious of any the least imaginable Guilt And the same conclusion must necessarily follow upon my so quiet submitting my self upon a Warrant made against one of another name to one who had no Title by his Warrant to make me a Prisoner And it may reasonably also be conceived that Mr. Oates upon whose sole Information as I have since heard that Warrant was issued was not so well acquainted with me as at my Tryal he swore himself to be since he knew not my right Christian name of which scarce any Persons were ignorant who ever had any manner of Conversation or Business with me After Michaelmas Term having continued under the before-mentioned close Imprisonment for two Months without ever having been so much as Examined or told what I was Committed for I considered that too long a silence on my part might possibly be rather taken for a Sullenness than Patience And that there being a Sessions then very near it imported me to prevent as far as I could that I should not be surprized by a Tryal and hurried from my close imprisonment to a Bar without being permitted to speak with any of my Friends or to prepare for my Tryal Hereupon I addressed my self to the said Captain Richardson to procure leave to address a Petition to His Majesty and having leave I did about the 10th day of December deliver a Petition to my said Keeper to be Humbly presented by him to His Majesty there being no possibility for me to put the same into any other hand to be delivered Whether this Petition did ever come to His Majesty or not I could not know with certainty but I believe it did the substance of it was to represent the miseries of my close Imprisonment together with my Innocency and total Ignorance of all particular matters with which I could be Charged and to pray that I might be admitted to an Examination and confronted with my Accusers as I conceive the Law required to the End I might justifie my self before His Majesty and be discharged if there should appear no just Cause for my being longer detained or otherwise that by knowing what was Charged against me I might be enabled to make my just Defence at my Tryal and might for that purpose have the liberty of the Gaol and of speaking freely with my Friends and of sending for such Witnesses as I should have occasion to use for my just Defence and might not be surprized and hurried to a Tryal without any possibility of being able to make any Defence To this Petition I could never obtain any Answer but about the 16th day of December I was sent for down out of my Chamber into Captain Richardson's House where I found three Noble Lords of Parliament who professed to come to me in Charity as I believe they did These Noble Lords when I was brought into their presence were pleased to tell me That I stood Charged with High-Treason but of what in particular they did not say and that there was great and evident Proof against me which would most certainly take away my Life And that they had heard so good a Character of me in the World That they were moved in Charity and Compassion to come to me to advise me to make a free and full Confession of the Plot and Treason against His Majesty and the Government with which I stood Charged and thereby save my Life And they were pleased to offer me to become my Mediators for a Pardon for the saving of my Life and of my Estate in case I would make such Confession I was much amazed to hear of such a Charge against me when my Conscience cleared me from all Guilt of that nature so much as in thought I therefore asked their Lordships Whether from the Character they had received of me in the World they did believe me to be an Honest man To which it was answered by one of their Lordships That their Answer to that Question of mine was to be distinguishing viz. That I had so good and unblemished a Reputation in the World that if I were to give Evidence in any Concern of Ten or twenty thousand Pounds he should value my Evidence as highly as any Mans Evidence whatsoever But that in this present Case if I should swear my Innocency or that I knew nothing of the Plot or Treason with which I was Charged his Lordship would not believe one word that I should swear This Answer made me see That it would be in vain for me to make any Asseverations to their Lordships of my Innocence and Ignorance of any Plot designed against His Majesty wherefore omitting that I humbly represented my condition to their Lordships as to my close Imprisonment and my never having been Examined so as to make me capable of making a just Defence by a fore knowledge of what was Charged against me And I told them That although it was supposed by the Law that in Criminal Cases the Affirmative was to be proved by the King's Witnesses and that a Negative could not be proved yet it was known by all that there might in many Cases such Affirmatives be proved by the Prisoner as to many circumstances as might clearly prove the Affirmative sworn by the King's Witnesses to be impossible to be true And that for this Reason if I should be surprized by a sudden Tryal without knowing what was Charged against me and the circumstances of the Charge and without having the liberty of the Gaol and of my Friends coming freely to me in order to my preparing for my Tryal and for my just Defence it would be the same thing as to murder me To all which one of the said Lords replied it was the Earl of Shaftsbury That he took this way of close Imprisonment to be Illegal and that to be so surprized by a Tryal would be the same thing as to cut my Throat and his Lordship did thereupon tell me That care should be taken that I should have a just liberty and freedom in the Gaol for my Friends to come to me and should not be surprized by a Tryal as I seared to be This Promise of this Noble Lord gave me great comfort but notwithstanding this my close Imprisonment continued My opinion was that I was forgotten and therefore I did several times send to Captain Richardson to put their Lordships in mind of it and when that was without effect I apprehended that Captain Richardson neglected me But I find since that those Lords must have been understood to have intended to move the House of Lords in relation to the making good of that Promise and that by the Dissolving of that Parliament which hapned shortly after though unknown then to me there was no possibility for the making of such motion My close Imprisonment continuing in January or February following my poor Wife procured leave from His Majesty to see me but not otherwise
this by him pretended Plot and for giving Evidence against such as had been Tryed thereupon and particularly whether he had not received the Sum of 500 l. and did not expect to receive a farther Gratification for his farther Services therein He boldly answered That he was so far from having received any such Sum or any Reward for his said Services that he was out of Purse 750 l. of his own Monies in the prosecution of the same Which how great an Untruth that is I refer to His Majesty and those who manage His Majesties Monies and Treasury and to all who knew the most extream Poverty of these two Persons Oates and Bedloe before they relieved their Wants and found the way to supply their Necessities by charging those Persons with Treason who have been Executed or remain still Prisoners upon their Accusations After Judgment was given against me upon the Verdict found upon the Evidence of these two Men there were two Persons came to me to the Gaol as sent by the Earl of Shaftesbury or his Order to propose something to me in Charity for the saving of my Life The first thing by them proposed to be done by me for that end was a Discovery to be made by me of the Plot and Treason for which I stood Condemned But when I had satisfied them so far as to my Solemn Protestations made in the Presence of God were of force to satisfie them touching my Innocency and my total Ignorance of any Plot or Treason ever at any time designâ—d against His Majesty other than the late Unparallel'd Treason and Rebellion which was before His Majesties Happy Restauration They were pleased to propose farther That it was well known that I had been made use of as a Councel for the Jesuits and in that Capacity could not but know what Estates they had in England or at least a very great part of those Estates and that if I would freely make a Discovery of such Estates of that nature as should be of a considerable value I should thereby obtain my Pardon the granting of which upon such Discovery might be well justified to the Parliament at their next Meeting Having well weighed this latter Proposal and considered That it would be a Sin against Truth to deny that I had knowledge of such Estates and that all the Scandal which could be taken by my Discovery of them could not be so great as my Denial would be offensive to God And having no Doubt but that my frank and sincere discovering and owning what was within my knowledge though to the Displeasure of those who were to be concerned therein would make it evident to all Honest and Judicious persons That in case I knew any of the Plot or of any Treason intended against His Majesty the concealment of which by me would be a Sin unto Damnation I would without Difficulty discover the same for the saving of my Soul as well as of my Life since I was ready to make a Discovery of such Estates the concealment of which could be no Sin against God or the King I freely engaged my self to Discover all that I knew touching such Estates for the Service of His Majesty and the Persons by whom the same was so proposed went from me with a resolution to report my ready compliance therein unto his said Lordship After this I did by some Friends prevail to have a Report made to His Majesty of what had passed between those two Persons and me with which His Majesty seemed as I was informed to be well satisfied and directed That I should send unto and intrust His Majesty with so much as I could remember without having resort to Writings of those Estates which I with all readiness did And I took that Command from His Majesty to be an evident implied promise of a Pardon for the securing of my Life This Engagement of mine to make this Discovery occasioned a Reprieve to be granted me for some dayes but after the said Reprieve granted my Lord of Shaftesbury was pleased to intimate unto me by one of the aforesaid Persons by whom it was first proposed unto me to make such Discovery That no Pardon should be granted to me without a full Discovery made by me of the Plot. And his Lordship was also pleased to come to Captain Richardson's house and sending for me thither to tell me to this effect viz. That as my Parts and Reputation in the World had made me fit for Employment so I might rest secure That in case I would make a full Discovery of the Plot I should be put into as good a Post both as to Honour as Estate as my own Heart could wish but if I failed to do that no Discovery of Estates could or should procure my Pardon I laboured what I could by Solemn Protestations to satisfie his Lordship of my Innocency and my total Ignorance of any Plot or Treason whatsoever and this I did so fully as I conceived That in case Almighty God should have so far withdrawn his Grace from me as to leave me to a Reprobate Sense and to permit against truth to have pretended a knowledge of a Plot to the prejudice of any person meerly for the saving of my own poor Life and the obtaining those advantages with which I was tempted I ought not in any measure to have been believed But blessed be my God who hath by his Grace so far strengthned as to enable me rather to choose and lose my Life in Innocency and save my Soul than by Falsities to lose my Soul and become Guilty of the Blood of others against whom I could not with Truth testifie any thing of any Crime After his said Lordship had given me the Temptation before mentioned I had several Persons applied to me with Discourses tending wholly to make me despair of Pardon unless I would discover a Plot and to persuade me that it was not Honourable nor Honest for me to discover any Estates which His Majesty might seize on in case I did not know That the Owners of the said Estates were Traytors But I took all these Discourses to signifie no more than a Repentance for having proposed to me to make a Discovery of Estates And therefore having sent such Discovery unto His Majesty as I was able to make upon my Memory I laboured by my Friends and did obtain a farther Reprieve together with an Order requiring to send into the Council by a day limited such Discovery as I could make and a Licence to have all my Writings and Papers in my Chamber perused by such as I nominated and according to such Direction as I should give for the better enabling me to perfect such Discovery This was conceived by me and my Friends to be intended by His Majesty as an Assurance of a Pardon it being to engage the whole Council as His Majesty was pleased to engage Himself before when He Commanded me to trust Him and it seemed evident that this
Discovery required must be a Discovery of Estates otherwise the perusal of Papers and Writings had been to no purpose In Obedience to the said last mentioned Command I applied with all Diligence to compleat my Discovery my Papers and Writings were examined by my Friends and my Discovery was perfected and delivered in unto the Council at the precise day for that purpose limited and it amounted to the value as I computed the same of between Twenty and thirty thousand Pounds Sterling and was annexed to a Petition wherein I declared my Innocency and Ignorance of any Treason or Plot and my sincere dealing as to my said Discovery and oftered to submit my self to be examined upon Interrogatories upon Oath or to undergo any Tryal of any Test for the giving satisfaction that the Discovery then by me made was complete and that I knew of no other Lands belonging in any wayes to the Jesuits other than what I had then and there Discovered and likewise for the purging of my self touching any other matter upon which it should be thought fit to Examine me And in my said Discovery I expressed every thing with such certainty as to the Names of the Estates and the Places where they lay and the Values so far as I was able to give the same and the Persons so far as I knew concerned therein that it was easie to seize the same immediately for the use of His Majesty So that I thereby did all that was in my power in order to my giving a perfect Obedience to the said Commands of His Majesty and to what was thereby required from me And my Friends as well as my self had no Doubt but that as Almighty God requires no more from us for the obtaining his pardon of our Sins and the salvation of our Souls than what His Divine Majesty knows to be possible for us to do on our parts so the King's Majesty and His Council would require no more from me for the saving of my poor Life and the obtaining of my Pardon than what was possible for me on my part to do I also looked upon the Publick Honour and Faith to be now firmly engaged for the security of my Life and the granting of a Pardon to me I having fully performed my part of that which was the Condition And it being clear that when once my Discovery was delivered in and read in Council it ceased to be a Secret and that nothing therein contained could afterwards remain as a thing undiscovered It was likewise evident that by this Act I had done as I believed more than any other single person now living who is meerly a Lay-man could do for the Service of His Majesty And that if there were any such Plot as is affirmed by Oates and Bedloe and that any person now charged therewith had knowledge thereof and should be required as I had been to discover what he knows for the saving of his Life he would hardly be induced to make such Discovery in case my Life should be taken away after my so free Discovery of all that was within my knowledge to be discovered was in obedience to so great a Command delilivered out of my hands However I rested satisfied That in case my Life should be taken away for the Crime for which I stand Condemned and after my Obedience given to His Majesties Commands in making the said Discovery I should dye with this great comfort That I should have a double Martyrdom First as dying perfectly Innocent of the Crime for which I should lose my Life And secondly as choosing rather to dye than to sin against my God and my Neighbor by charging others falsly and becoming guilty of their Blood and of the Ruine of their Families by accusing them of a Crime of which my own Conscience must bear me witness that I did never know them or any of them Guilty but on the contrary believe them to be perfectly Innocent Whereas if I had on the other side denied my self to have known any thing of those Estates which I was required to discover I must have sinned against the God of Truth by affirming a Lye And if Confessing That I had knowledge of such Estates I should rather have chosen to dye than to have made a Discovery of such my knowledge for the saving of my Life I should have appeared in some sort at least guilty of my own Blood through my obstinacy Upon the delivering of this Discovery and the reading of it in the Council the Lord Viscount Hallifax produced a Letter written to him as his Lordship affirmed from the Earl of Roscommon from Bruxels in which Letter the said Earl taking notice that he had heard of my being Reprieved affirmed himself to be much satisfied That my Life should be saved and gave this Reason That my Life might be useful to the Publick or to the like effect These words were taken to my great Disadvantage and to import as if the Earl of Roscommon did know That I was able to make a Discovery of the Plot. And though the words might well bear a more kind sense and did not without forcing so much as incline to that unkind Interpretation yet upon the reading of that Letter my Discovery was rejected after having been Publickly read and ordered to be sent unto me by a Clark of the Council and notice to be given to me That by an Order of Council I was Reprieved onely until the 14th day of July and that if before that day I did not make a Discovery of the Plot I was to expect no farther mercy My Friends were more astonished at this Order than my self was and being now in this condition I presumed yet once more to address a Petition in which I prayed That my Life might be saved though to be spent in Banishment and to the end that I might do all that in me lay to express and declare my Innocency I did to that Petition annex this following Declaration and Protestation viz. I Do Solemnly and Sincerely in the Presence of Almighty God Profess Testifie and Declare as followeth That is to say I. That I do believe and own my my Most Gracious Sovereign Lord the King's Majesty King CHARLES II. to be my True and Lawful Sovereign King in the same Sense and Latitude to all Intents and Purposes as in the Oath commonly called The Oath of Allegiance His said Majesty is expressed to be King of this Realm of England II. That I do in my Soul believe That neither the Pope nor any Prince Potentate or Foreign Authority nor the People of England nor any Authority out of this Kingdom or within the same hath or have any Right to dispossess His said Majesty of the Crown and Government of England or to Depose Him therefrom for any Cause or pretended Cause whatsoever Or to give Licence to me or to any other of His Majesties Subjects whatsoever to bear Arms against His Majesty or to take away His Life or to
also great Advantages as to Preferments and Estates offered unto me since this Judgment was against me in case I would have forsaken my Religion and owned my self Guilty of the Crime charged against me and charged the same Crimes upon others But blessed be my God who by his Grace hath preserved me from yielding to those Temptations and strengthened me rather to choose this Death than to stain my Soul with Sin and to charge others against Truth with Crimes of which I do not know that any Person is Guilty Having said what concerns me to say as to my Self I now humbly beseech God to bless the King's Majesty with all Temporal and Eternal Blessings and to preserve Him and his Government from all Treasons and Traytors whatsoever and that His Majesty may never fall into such hands as His Royal Father of Glorious Memory fell into I also humbly beseech thee O God to give true Repentance and Pardon to all my Enemies and most particularly to the said Mr. Oates and Mr. Bedloe and to all who have been any ways accessary to the taking away of my Life and the shedding of my innocent Blood or to the preventing the King's Mercy from being extended unto me and likewise to all those who rejoyced at the Judgment given against me or at the execution of the said Judgment and to all those who are or shall be so unchristianly uncharitable as to disbelieve and to refuse to give credit unto my now Protestations And I beseech thee O my God to bless this whole Nation and not to lay the Guilt of my Blood unto the Charge of this Nation or of any other particular Person or Persons of this Nation Unite all O my God unto thee and thy Church by true Faith Hope and Charity for thy mercies sake And for all those who have shewed Charity to me I humbly beg O my Jesus that thou wilt reward them with all Blessings both Temporal and Eternal 13 July 1679. R. Langhorne HAving given you now Reader the Speech at length which Mr. Langhorne had prepared for the Reason he mentions against his Execution it will not be perchance ungrateful to you to know that when he came down from his Chamber at Newgate to be put into the Sledge he had it with him but the Sheriff telling him that he must use no Papers at the Gallows took it away so that he repeated there so much of it only as he could remember therefore to satisfie the Curiosity of those also that would know what and how much that was I shall here give you the Particulars with some other things that occurr'd before he was turned over When the Hangman was putting the Rope over his Head he took it into his hands and kissed it Afterwards said I do not know whether you will allow me liberty of Speech or no and the Noise of the People being so great that I believe it is impossible to speak to be beard SILENCE was Commanded Mr. L. I would gladly speak to Mr. Sheriff HOW who coming up to him he addressed himself thus Mr. Sheriff I having some doubt whether I should be suffered to speak in relation to my Innocency and Loyalty I did for that Reason prepare what I had to say and what I intended to say in Writing and it is delivered into your hands Mr. Sheriff and therefore for the particular and precise Words and Expressions I do refer my self to that and I hope you will be so just to my Memory that you will permit it to be seen I shall therefore make only a short Preface and I do declare in the Presence of the Eternal God and as I hope to be saved by the Merits and Death of my dear Jesus That I am not Guilty directly or indirectly of any Crime that was sworn against me I do not speak this to Arraign the Court of Publick Justice either Judges or Jury but those Men that did swear it and the Jury had liberty to believe or not believe as they pleased And I do likewise say with the same Averrment That I did never in my Life see any Commissions or Patent or any Writing or any other Thing under the hand of Johannes Paulus de Oliva c. S. Nor under no other hand L. No nor under any other hand of any Commission or Patents for the Raising of an Army or any Thing else against the King S. What was the Patents for for Nothing L. I never saw any nor do I believe there was any And whereas I have read in a Narrative that I sent a Commission by my Son to the Lord Arundel of Warder and that I deliver'd another to the Lord Petre or Peters with my own hands I take God to Witness that I never saw him in my life or ever to my knowledge saw the face of that Lord nor did I send or know of any thing that was sent to my Lord Arundel of Warder of that nature S. Shorten your business you have Mr. Langhorne and your Party so many wayes to Equivocate and after Absolution you may say any thing L. I refer my self to that Paper I gave you Mr. Sheriff S. I think it is not fit to be Printed I will do you no wrong L I do not think you will S. You have already printed a Paper or some body for you L. Sir I did not Print it and it was done without any Direction or Permission of mine The Lord preserve His Majesty from all manner of Treason and preserve Him from falling into such Hands as His Royal Father of Glorious Memory fell under I pray God to forgive my Enemies as I freely do those that Accused me those that Witnessed against me and all others that either desired my Blood or rejoyce at the shedding of it and all Persons that have any wayes concern'd themselves with me I freely forgive them with all my Soul and beg my dear Jesus to forgive them and all others God Almighty bless you and bless the whole Nation and the Government and preserve it from all Evil and Mischief that I am afraid is coming on it for the shedding of Innocent Blood Sweet Jesus lay not my Innocent Blood to their Charge I shall say no more now Publickly Asked the Executioner Whether the Rope was right or no He said Yes and he asked him Whether he did forgive him To which Mr. Langhorne said I freely do I shall now recommend my self to God in Private S. You may have liberty The Writer The Lord have Mercy on your Soul L. The Lord in Heaven reward your Charity Crost himself pray'd again Blessed Jesus into thy Hands I recommend my Soul and Spirit now at this instant take me into Paradice I am desirous to be with my Jesus I am ready and you need stay no longer for me FINIS