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experience_n discover_v it_o vulgar_a â—ob_v 8.1_o vulgar_a and_o no_o man_n may_v be_v secure_a in_o this_o life_n which_o be_v whole_o call_v a_o temptation_n that_o as_o he_o may_v have_v be_v make_v of_o worse_a better_a so_o he_o may_v not_o become_v from_o better_a worse_a the_o only_a hope_n the_o only_a confidence_n the_o only_a secure_a promise_n to_o rely_v on_o be_v thy_o mercy_n o_o lord_n chap._n xxxiii_o 4._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o ear_n have_v more_o strong_o ensnare_v and_o captive_v i_o but_o thou_o have_v dissolve_v these_o bond_n and_o have_v set_v i_o at_o liberty_n i_o confess_v i_o do_v now_o still_o a_o little_a repose_n and_o acquiesse_n in_o the_o melody_n of_o those_o sound_n which_o be_v animate_v with_o thy_o sacred_a hymn_n when_o these_o be_v sing_v with_o a_o sweet_a &_o skilful_a voice_n yet_o not_o so_o 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itself_o more_o move_v i_o than_o the_o matter_n sing_v i_o confess_v i_o sin_n penal_o and_o then_o have_v i_o rather_o hear_v no_o sing_n at_o all_o behold_v the_o present_a condition_n i_o be_o in_o weep_v you_o with_o i_o and_o for_o i_o weep_v you_o who_o within_o yourselves_o have_v the_o like_a good_a purpose_n with_o i_o from_o which_o purpose_v flow_v well-doing_n as_o for_o you_o who_o have_v none_o such_o thing_n as_o these_o trouble_v not_o you_o and_o thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n look_v back_o upon_o i_o and_o hear_v and_o see_v and_o pity_n and_o heal_v i_o in_o who_o sight_n i_o be_o thus_o become_v a_o question_n and_o a_o doubt_n unto_o myself_o &_o this_o be_v my_o present_a malady_n chap._n xxxiv_o 5._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well-proportioned_a object_n there_o remain_v yet_o the_o pleasure_n of_o these_o eye_n of_o my_o flesh_n of_o which_o i_o will_v now_o make_v my_o confession_n to_o 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innermost_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o *_o to_n i_o know_v not_o what_o sweetness_n which_o be_v it_o once_o perfect_v in_o i_o i_o know_v not_o what_o bliss_n that_o be_v which_o such_o a_o life_n will_v not_o enjoy_v but_o then_o with_o certain_a cumbersome_a weight_n hang_v upon_o i_o i_o present_o be_o press_v down_o again_o to_o these_o thing_n below_o and_o be_o re-ingulfed_n and_o detain_v by_o former_a custom_n and_o much_o i_o bewail_v myself_o and_o yet_o much_o still_o i_o be_o detain_v so_o great_o have_v the_o burden_n of_o a_o bad_a custom_n overload_v i_o and_o in_o this_o estate_n i_o can_v abide_v still_o but_o will_v not_o and_o in_o the_o other_o i_o will_v willing_o abide_v but_o can_v both_o way_n very_o miserable_a chap._n xli_o and_o in_o this_o condition_n i_o proceed_v to_o consider_v the_o remain_a languor_n of_o my_o sin_n in_o a_o threefold_a concupiscence_n and_o have_v invoke_v the_o help_n of_o thy_o right_a hand_n to_o deliver_v i_o for_o i_o behold_v 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