have inclined unto wickedness with my heart but for the sake of thy well-beloved Son Cast not out my prayer nor turn Thy Mercy from me Miserable wretch that I am I have gone astray from the very womb I was shapen in wickedness and in sin did my Mother conceive me Who can bring a clean thing out of an unclean What is man then O God that he should be clean or he that is born of a woman that he should be righteous Thou Lord puttest no trust in Thy Saints and the Heavens are not clean in Thy sight and the very Angels Thou chargest with folly How much more abominable then and filthy am I who dayly drink iniquity like Water Lord pity and cleanse and forgive and save me for Thy Mercies sake I know O God that in my slesh dwelleth no good thing for when I would do good evil is present with me and I see a Law in my Members warring against the Law of my mind and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin Lord have mercy upon me and deliver me from this body of death from this Tyranny of sin Alas alas My whole Nature is Corrupt Infinitely prone to all evil and averse to all that is good my Understanding is full of Ignorance and Errour my Will is perverse my Memory tenacious of all things that may pollute me and forgetful of my duty my Passions are inordinate my Senses the inlets of all impurity and I have abused all my faculties I am Unclean Unclean Lord Pity and Cleanse and forgive and save me for Thy Mercies fake O Lord God How have I through my whole life violated the solemn Vow I made to Thee in my Baptism by eagerly pursuing the vanities of this wicked World by easily yielding to the temptations of the Devil by greedily indulging my own Carnal desires and lusts by a fruitless and dead faith and by disobedience to thy Holy Will and Commands Father I have sinned against Heaven and in Thy sight and am no more worthy to be called Thy Son I have sinned O Lord God I have sinned Against Thee by Here confess out of your Paper the sins which you have committed more immediately against God with those aggravations that accompany them For instance Lord I have committed this sin or these sins frequently against Checks of Conscience c. and then add Father I have sinned against Heaven and in Thy sight and am no more worthy to be called Thy Son O Pity and Cleanse and forgive and save me for Thy Mercies sake I have sinned O Lord God I have sinned Against Thee and against my own self by Here confess the sins you have committed more immediately against your self with their aggravations c. and say as before Father I have sinned against Heaven c. I have sinned O Lord God I have sinned Against Thee and against my Neighbour by Here confess the sins you have committed more immediately against your Neighbour with their aggravations c. and add as before Father I have sinned against Heaven c. O Lord God my wickedness is great and my iniquities are infinite they are more in number then the hairs of my head and my heart would fail me but that I well know Thy mercies are more Numberless then my sins Have mercy upon me therefore O Lord according to Thy great goodness according to the multitude of Thy mercies do away my offences Who alas can tell how oft he offendeth O cleanse Thou me from my secret faults from all my sins of Ignorance or Infirmity or Omission or which I have not observed or which I have forgot Lord lay none of them to my charge Father forgive me Lord Jesus have mercy on me O remember not the sins and offences of my youth but receive me O Heavenly Father into the arms of Thy Fatherly Compassion as Thou didst the returning Prodigal and forgive me all my transgressions for the merits of Jesus Thy only well-beloved Son and my Saviour Amen Amen When you have thus confest your sins good Phil. endeavour to be still more sensible of them and to bewail them with a true Penitential Hatred and Shame and Sorrow for them then make steady resolutions of forsaking them and cry earnestly to God for pardon and grace for you must as well put on the New man as put off the Old of all which acts of Repentance I give you the following instances and advise you to say them over as devoutly as possibly you can Acts of Shame O Lord God I am ashamed and blush to lift up my face to Thee for my iniquities are increased over my head and my trespasses are grown up unto the Heavens O my Soul what fruit have I reapt from all the pleasures of sin which flattered me but vanity and vexation of Spirit Lord I am ashamed of my own folly and madness and disingenuity when I call to mind how greedily I have sucked in my own Pollution How treacherously I have betrayed my own Soul to temptations and combined with the very Devils to hasten and increase my own damnation How obstinately I have fled from Thee when Thy Mercy pursued me with promises of Pardon How unworthily I have abused Thy Goodness and forbearance and long-suffering which should have led me to Repentance Surely after I was turned I repented and since I have considered my ways I am ashamed yea even confounded because I bear the Reproach of my youth Acts of Abâ—orrence I hate all evil ways O Lord but Thy Law will I love O Lord God nothing is more abominable in Thy sight or more Diabolical Nothing more defaces Thy Divine Image or makes me more odious in Thy Purest Eyes then Sin and therefore I hate and abhor it O Lord God I confess I have Nothing good in me Nothing that can any way move Thee to compaâ—ionate so loathsome a Sinner but Thy own free and Undeserved and Infinite Mercy and the merits of my Saviour O Lord God I cannot but admire the Riches of Thy Goodness who hast spared me so long and hast given me this opportunity of Repentance O do Thou yet Magnifie Thy mercy more in my forgiveness O Cleanse me from all that Filth my soul hath contracted which now renders me odious to my own self as well as to Thee Acts of Contrition Miserable Wretch that I am that I should begin so early to offend my Creatour and sin so much in so short a time Lord I fear I never yet throughly considered how evil and how bitter a thing it is to depart from Thee O make me every day more and more seusible of the errour of my ways and of my own Infinite vileness Miserable wretch that I am that ever I should commit those sins which expose me to all the vials of Thy wrath to all the Curses of Thy Law to all Thy Judgments temporal or spiritual in this life and to all the Horrors and despair
my Friends and Relations all my Superiours in this place and all my Fellow-Scholars O Lord vouchsafe us all those graces and blessings which Thou knowest to be most suitable for us Unto Thee O my God do I dedicate this day and my whole life O do Thou so bless and prosper me in my Studies that I may every day grow more fit for Thy service Hear me O Lord and pardon my failings for the merits of Thy Son Jesus in whose holy words I sum up all my wants Our Father which art in Heaven c. Directions for Reading Holy Scripture WHen you have said your Morning Prayer good Phil. you may then go cheerfully to your study and relie upon the Divine Goodness for a blessing But first if you have time I advise you to read before second Peal some short Psalm or piece of a Chapter out of the Gospels or Historical Books because they are the most easie to be understood Remembring the example of young Timothy who was bred up to know the Scripture from a Child But if you want time on ordinary days to read the Scripture be sure to read somewhat of it on Sundays and Holy-days and consider that you have it dayly read to you in the Hall before Dinner and Supper and at night when you are just going to Bed that you may close the day with holy thoughts and if you hearken diligently to it when it is read you do in effect read it your self Now to make your reading the more profitable to you begin with one or more of these Ejaculations Ejaculations before reading Holy Scripture WHerewithal Lord shall a young man cleanse his way even by ruling himself after Thy Word Lord open my eyes that I may see the wonderful things of Thy Law O heavenly Father I humbly beg Thy Holy Spirit so to help me at this time to read and understand and remember and practise Thy Word that it may make me wise to salvation When you are thus prepared good Phil. then begin to read and consider that it is Gods most holy Word you read and that all the while you are reading God is speaking to you and therefore read with attention and humility and endeavour as much as you can to suit your affections to the Subject you read For instance If you read any of Gods commands they should excite in you a zeal to keep them If you read any of Gods threatnings against sinners or his judgments on them they should excite in you a fear to provoke him When you read any of his gracious promises they should encourage and quicken your obedience When you read any of Gods mercies they should excite you to thanksgiving When you read any great mystery recorded in holy Writ you are to prostrate your Reason to Divine Revelation And to this purpose in the midst of your Reading say Lord give me grace to obey this command Or Lord deliver me from this sin or this judgment Or Lord I relie on this good promise Or Glory be to Thee O Lord for this mercy Or Lord I believe and adore this mystery Say any of these according as best agrees with the subject you read and when you have read as much as conveniently you can conclude with one of these Ejaculations Ejaculations after Reading BLessed be Thou O Lord O teach me Thy Statutes Lord make Thy Word a Lanthorn unto my feet and a Light unto my paths Lord make Thy Word my delight and my Counsellour Directions for the Day time O Philotheus you cannot enough thank God for the order of the place you live in where there is so much care taken to make you a good Christian as well as a good Scholar where you go so frequently to Prayers every day in the Chappel and in the School and sing Hymns and Psalms to God so frequently in your Chamber and in the Chappel and in the Hall so that you are in a manner brought up in a perpetuity of prayer Be sure Phil. that you are accountable to God for all these opportunities He gives you of serving Him and think how many blessings for your self and for the Colledge you might obtain if you prayed and praised God rather out of a devout affection then meerly to comply with the custom of the place Prayer good Phil. is the very life of a Christian and therefore we are so frequently commanded to pray without ceasing Not that we can be always on our knees but that we should accustom our selves to frequent thoughts of God that where-ever we are He sees us and when we think on God we should have always an ejaculation ready to offer up to Him and by this means we may pray not only seven times a day with David but all the day long In your reading holy Scripture especially in the Psalms you may easily gather those short sentences which most affect you for they are most proper for this use and when you have learned them without Book say one of them now and then as they occur to your mind or as occasion requires or as your devotion prompts you But be not troubled if being otherwise lawfully imployed or if being indisposed you pass a whole day without saying any for to omit them is no sin nor be you scrupulous in what posture you say them for they being short breathings of the soul to God require not that solemnity as Set Prayer does Now to give you some instances of ejaculatory Prayer take these following At going out Lord bless my going out and my coming in from this time forth for evermore After a sin committed Lord be merciful to me miserable sinner and for the merits of my Saviour lay not this sin to my charge After any blessing or Deliverance Glory be to Thee O Lord for this Blessing or for this Deliverance Praise the Lord O my Soul and all that is within me praise His Holy name At giving Alms. O Lord who didst not despise the Widows mite Accept of this little I now give to relieve one of Thy poor members After having done any good Not unto me O Lord not unto me but unto Thy Name be the praise In Temptation Lord succour me with Thy Grace that I may overcome this Temptation Directions for the Evening COnsider good Phil. how many that have gone to Bed well over night have been found dead the next morning and therefore it highly concerns you to take care to make your peace with God before you go to sleep I advise you therefore towards night or when you go circum to call your self to an account how you have spent the day Examine your thoughts and discourses and actions and Recreations and Devotions and see what has been amiss in any of them Consider what Idleness or Unchastity what lying or stubbornness you have been guilty of or whether you have had a quarrel with any of your fellows and if you have be sure to be friends with
and torments of the Damned in the life to come Miserable wretch that I am that ever I should transgress that Law of Thine O God which is so Just and Holy and good and perfect and so condescending to my infirmitiâ—s and in keeping of which there are so great so Unconceivable Rewards O that with Mary Magdalene I could weep much and love much having so much to be forgiven O Gracious Lord look on me as Thou didst on Peter and let Thy Compassionote look so pierce my heart that I may weep bitterly for my sins O Lord God Break this hard heart for Thou only canst do it and melt it into tears of Contrition Miserable wretch that I am that I should sin so much and yet grieve so little Wo is me Miserable wretch wo is me that ever 〈◊〉 should offend so Indulgent so Liberal so tender a Father Wo is me that ever I should repay the infinite love and the intolerable Sufferings of my Saviour for me with Nothing but those sins which occasioned those very sufferings Wo is me that ever I should grieve the Holy Spirit by rejecting so many of His good Motions from whom only I derive Grace and Consolation O Lord God every slight worldly trouble is apt to draw plenty of tears from mine eyes but when I should weep for my sins which are the greatest calamities that can possibly befal me either my eyes are dry or my tears too few to bewail so many Provocations O Blessed Spirit instil true penitent sorrow into my soul Make my Head Waters and my Eyes Fountains of tears Or do Thou supply the want of them with sighs and groans Unutterable But alas I know all the tears I can possibly shed can never wash away the least of my sins 'T is Thy blood only Lord that can do it O Blessed Saviour how can I ever sufficiently lament the guilt of my sins which was so great that nothing but Thy own inestimable bloud could expiate O Heavenly Father in the defect of my own tears I offer Thee the bloud of Thy own well-beloved Son for His sake Have mercy upon me Amen Amen Resolution O Lord God with shame I confess that Other Lords besides Thee have hitherto had dominion over me I have been in the Snare of the Devil and have been led captive by Him and Sin hath reigned in my Mortal body and I have obeyed it in the lusts thereof But henceforth I resolve to serve none but Thee and from this very moment I utterly forsake all my sins and turn to Thee O my God I do from my heart Renew my Baptismal Vow which alas I have hitherto so often violated I do for ever Renounce the Devil and all His works and all His temptations I do for ever Renounce all the vanities of this wicked World which may pervert me from Thy Service and all the sinful lusts of the flesh O my God I do stedfastly believe all the Articles of the Christian Faith and I will keep Thy Holy Will and Commandments and walk in the same all the days of my life All this am I bound to do and believe and by Thy help so I will and I heartily thank Thee O Heavenly Father who hast called me to this state of salvation through Jesus Christ my Saviour and I humbly pray Thee for His sake to give me grace that I may continue in the same to my lives end Oblation Blessed be Thy Name O Lord God who hast set before me life and death and hast bid me chuse life Behold Lord I do with all my heart chuse life I chuse Thee O my God for Thou art my life Save Lord and Hear me O King of Heayen and accept my Sacrifice even the Sacrifice of my whole heart which I now give Thee O my God I offer Thee my Senses and passions and all my faculties I offer Thee all my desires All my designs all my studies all my endeavours all the Remainder of my life All that I have or am I offer up all entirely to Thy service Lord sanctifie me wholly that my whole Spirit Soul and Body may become Thy Temple O do Thou dwell in me and be Thou my God and I will be Thy Servant Amen Amen Acts of Charity O Lord God I do from henceforth Resolve to love my Neighbour as my self and to love him not in word only but in deed and in truth I do from my heart forgive all men their trespasses Do Thou Lord forgive them also Lord bless them that Hate me and do Good to them that have any way despitefully used me O Repay them Good for Evil O my God bless all those that I have any way wronged Have mercy on All those to whose sins I have been any way accessory and give them all grace to forgive me Amen Amen Petition for Pardoâ— O Thou Father of Mercies and God of all Consolation be merciful to me a miserable sinner Lord Remember all Thy Gracious calls of sinners to Repentance All Thy Protestations that Thou delightest not in the death of him that dies and that Thou wouldst have all to be saved Lord Remember all the exceeding great and pretious promises which Thou hast made to Penitent sinners Lord Remember that Thy mercy is over all Thy works that in mercy Thou delightest and that all the Holy Angels seeing Thee well pleased in the exercise of that Mercy Rejoice at the Conversion of a Sinner that the greater my sins are the more will that Mercy be magnified in my forgiveness Lord Remember that Thou didst so love the world as to give Thy only beloved Son a Ransome for it O Heavenly Father Thou that sparedst not Thy only Son but deliveredst Him up for us wilt thou not with Him also freely give us All things and if all things wilt Thou not also give us the pardon of our sins O my God I firmly believe Thou wilt on that ransome my Saviour hath paid for me and on all Thy gracious promises of pardon which for his sake Thou hast made to me I wholly rely Here only is the sure and stedfast anchor of my soul to which my Faith and Hope shall for ever adhere All this Lord do I plead to implore Thy forgiveness Behold Lord though my failings are many yet to the utmost of my power I have confest and bewailed and forsaken my transgressions Behold Lord I come at Thy Call and I come weary and heavy laden with the burthen of my sins Be it unto me according to Thy Word O Thou that art faithful and just forgive me my sins and cleanse me from all Unrighteousness Lord do Thou in no wise cast me from Thee but Heal my Backslidings and love me freely Ease me of my Burthen that I may find rest in Thee and say unto my Soul Be of good chear thy sins are forgiven thee O Heavenly Father for thine own Infinite Mercies sake for Thy truth