with Filthiness outraged with Passions overcarried with Affections pining with Envy overcharged with Gluttony surfeited with Drunkenness boiling with Revenge transported with Rage and the glorious Image of God transformed into the ugly shape of the Devil so far as it once repented the Lord that he ever made Man From the former flows the other part of the Soul's Miseries called Cursedness whereof there are two degrees 1. In part 2. In fullness thereof 1. Cursedness in part is that which is inflicted upon the Soul in life and death and is common to her with the Body The Cursedness of the Soul in Life is the wrath of God which lieth upon such a Creature so far as that all things not only Calamities but also very Blessings and Graces turn to ruine Terror of Conscience drives him from God and his service that he dares not come to his Presence and Ordinances but is given up to the slavery of Satan and to his own Lusts and vile Affections This is the Cursedness of the Soul in life Now follows the Cursedness of the Soul and Body in Death Meditations of the Misery of the Body and Soul in Death AFter that the aged man hath conflicted with long sickness and having indured the brunt of pain should now expect some ease in comes Death nature's slaughter-man God's Curse and Hell's Purveyor and looks the Old Man grim and black in the face and neither pitying his age nor regarding his long endured dolours will not be hired to forbear either for silver or gold nay he will not take to spare his life Skin for Skin aud all that the old Man hath but batters all the principal parts of his Body and arrests him to appear before the terrible Judge And as thinking that the Old man will not dispatch to go with him fast enough Lord how many darts of Calamities doth he shoot through him Stiches Aches Cramps Fevers Obstructions Rheums Flegm Cholick Stone Wind c. O what a ghastly sight it is to see him then in his Bed when Death hath given him his mortal wound what a cold sweat over-runs all his body what a trembling possesseth all his Members the Head shooteth the Face waxeth pale the Nose black the nâ—ther Jaw-bone hangeth down the Eye-strings break the Tongue faltereth the Breath shortneth and smelleth earthly the Throâ—t â—aâ—tiâ—th and at every Gasp the Heart-strings are ready to break asunder Now the miserable Soul sensibly perceivâ—â— her Earthly Body to begin to die For â—owards the dissolution of the universal Frame of the great World the Sun 〈◊〉 be turned into Darkness the Moon into Blood and the Stars shall fall from Heaven the Air shall be full of Storms and flashing Meteors the Earth shall tremble and the Sea shall roar and mens hearts shall fail for fear expecting the end of such sorrowful beginnings So towards the dissolution of Man which is the little World his Eyes which are as the Sun and Moon lose their light and see nothing but blood-guiltiness of Sin The rest of the Senses as lesser Stars do one after another fail and fall his Mind Reason and Memory as heavenly powers of his Soul are shaken with fearful storms of Despair and fierce flashing of Hell-fire his earthly body beginneth to shake and tremble and the humours like an overflowing Sea roar and rattle in his Throat still expecting the woful End of these dreadful beginnings Whilst he is thus summoned to appear at the Great Assizes of God's Judgmentâ— behold a Quarter-Sessions and Gaol-Delivery is held within himself where Reason sits as Judge the Devil puts in a Bill of Indictment as large as that Book of Zechary wherein are alledged all thy evil deeds that ever thou hast committed and all the good deeds that ever thou hast omitted and all the Curses and Judgments that are due to every sin Thine own Conscience shall accuse thee and thy Memory shall give bitter Evidence and Death stands at the Bar ready as a cruel Executioner to dispatch thee If thou shalt thus condemn thy self how shalt thou escape the Just Condemnation of God who knows all thy misdeeds better than thy self Fain wouldst thou put out of thy mind the remembrance of the wicked deeds that trouble thee but they flow faster into thy remembrance and they will not be put away but cry unto thee We are thy works and we will follow thee and whilst thy soul is thus within out of peace and order thy Children Wife and Friends trouble thee as fast to have thee put thy goods in order some crying some craving some pitying some chearing all like Flesh-Flies helping to make thy sorrows more sorrowful Now the Devils who are come from Hell to fetch away thy Soul begin to appear to her and wait as soon as she cometh forth to take her and carry her away Stay she would within but that she feels the body begin by degrees to die and ready like a ruinous House to fall upon her head Fearful she is to come forth because of those Hell-hounds which wait for her coming O she that spent so many days and nights in vain and idle pastimes would now give the whole world if she had it for one hour delay that she might have space to repent and reconcile her self unto God But it cannot be because her body which joyned with her in the Action of sin is altogether now unfit to joyn with her in the exercise of repentance and repentance must be of the whole Man Now she seeth that all her pleasures are gone as if they had never been and that but only torments remain which never shall have an end of being Who can sufficiently express her remorse for her sins past her anguish for her present Misery and her terror for her torments to come In this Extremity she looketh every where for help and findeth her self every way helpless Thus in her greatest misery desirous to hear the least word of comfort she directs this or the like Speech unto her Eyes O Eyes who in times past were so quick-sighted can ye spy no Comfort nor any way how I might escape this dreadful danger But the Eye-strings are broken they cannot see the Candle that burneth before them nor discern whether it be Day or Night The Soul finding no comfort in the Eyes speaketh to the Ears O Ears who were wont to recreate your selves with hearing new pleasant Discourses and Musicks sweetest Harmony can you hear any news or tidings of the least Comfort for me The Ears are either so deaf that they cannot hear at all or the sense of hearing is grown so weak that it cannot endure to hear his dearest Friends to speak And why should those Ears hear any tidings of Joy in Death who could never abide to hear the glad tidings of the Gospel in this life The Ear can minister no comfort Then she intimates her grief unto the Tongue
O Tongue who wast wont to brag it out with the bravest where are now thy big and daring words now in my greatest need canst thou speak nothing in my defence Canst thou neither daunt these Enemies with threatning words nor entreat them with fair speeches Alas the Tongue two days ago lay speechless It cannot in his greatest extremity either call for a little drink or desire a Friend to take away with his finger the flegm that is ready to choak him Finding here no hope of help she speaks unto the Feet where are ye O Feet which sometime were so nimble in running can you carry me no where out of this dangerous place the Feet are stone-dead already if they be not stirred they cannot stir Then she directs her Speech unto her Hands O Hands who have been so often approved for Manhood in peace and war and wherewith I have so often defended my self and offended my Foes never had I more need than now Death looks me grim in the face and kills me Hellish Fiends wait about my Bed to devour me help now or I perish for ever Alas the Hands are so weak and do so tremble that they cannot reach to the Mouth a Spoonful of supping to relieve languishing Nature The wretched Soul seeing her self thus desolate and altogether destitute of friends help and comfort and knowing that within an Hour she must be in everlasting pains retires her self to the Heart which of all Members is primum vivens and ultimum moriens from whence she makes this doleful lamentation with her self O miserable Caitiff that I am How do the sorrows of Death compass me How do the floods of Belial make me afraid Now have indeed the snares both of the first and second death overtaken me at once O how suddenly hath Death stollen upon me with insensible degrees like the Sun which the Eye perceives not to move though it be most swift of motion How doth Death wreak on me his spite without pity The God of mercy hath utterly forsaken me and the Devil who knows no mercy waits for to take me How often have I been warned of this doleful Day by the faithful Preachers of God's Word and I made but a Jest thereat What profit have I now of all my Pride fine House and brave Apparel What 's become of the sweet Relish of all my delicious Fare all the worldly Goods which I so carefully gathered would I now give for a good Conscience which I so carelesly neglected and what Joy remains now of all my former fleshly Pleasures wherein I placed my chief delight those foolish Pleasures were but deceitful Dreams and now they are past like vanishing shadows but to think of those Eternal Pains which I must endure for those short Pleasures pains me as Hell before I enter into Hell Yet justly I confess as I have deserved I am served that being made after God's Image a reasonable Soul able to judge of mine own Estate and having Mercy so often offered and I intreated to receive it I neglected God's Grace and preferred the pleasures of sin before the religious care of pleasing God lewdly spending my short time without considering what Accounts I should make at my last end And now all the Pleasures of my Life being put together countervail not the least part of my present Pains My Joys were but moment any and gone before I could scarce enjoy them My Miseries are eternal and never shall know end O that I had spent the Hours that I consumed in carding diceing playing and other vile exercises in reading the Scriptures in hearing Sermons in receiving the Communion in weeping for my Sins in fasting watching praying and in preparing my Soul that I might have now departed in the assured hope of everlasting Salvation O that I were now to begin my Life again how would I contemn the world and the vanities thereof How religiously and purely would I lead my Life How would I frequent the Church and sanctifie the Lord's-Day If Satan should offer me all the treasures pleasures and promotions of this world he should never intice me to forget these Terrors of this last dreadful Hour But O corrupt Carkase and stinking Carrion How hath the Devil deluded us and how have we served and deceived each other and pulled swift Damnation upon us both Now is my case more miserable than the Beast that perisheth in a Ditch For I must go to answer before the Judgment-seat of the righteous Judge of Heaven and Eartâ—◠〈◊〉 I shall have none to speak for 〈◊〉 and these wicked Fiends who are privy 〈◊〉 my evil deeds will accuse me and I cannot excuse my self My own heart already condemns me I must needs therefore be dainâ—ed before his Judgment-seat and from thence be carried by these Infernal Fiends into that horrible Prison of endless torments and utter darkness where I shall never more see light that first most excellent thing that God made I who gloried heretofore in being a Libertine am now inclosed in the very Claws of Satan as the trembling Partridge is within the griping talons of the ravenous Faulcon Where shall I lodge to night and who shall be my Companions O horror to think O grief to consider O cursed be the day wherein I was born and let not the day wherein my Mother bare me be blessed Cursed be the Man that shewed my Father saying A Child is born unto thee and comforted him Cursed be that man because he slew me not O that my Mother might have been my Grave or her Womb a perpetual Conception How is it that I came forth of the Womb to endure these hellish sorrows and that my days should thus end with eternal shame Cursed be the day that I was first united to so lewd a body O that I had but so much favour as that I might never see thee more Our parting is bitter and doleful but our meeting again to receive at that dreadful Day the fulness of our deserved vengeance will be far more terrible and intolerable But what mean I thus by too late lamentation to seek to prolong time My last hour is come I hear the heart-strings break this filthy house of Clay falls on my Head here is neither hope help nor place of any longer abiding And must I needs be gone thou filthy Carcass O filthy Carcass with fare ill fare well I leave thee And so all trembling she cometh forth and forthwith is seized upon by Infernal Fiends who carry her with a violence torrenti simili to the bottomless Lake that burneth with fire and brimstone where she is kept as a Prisoner in torments till the general Judgment of the great Day The loathsome Carcass is afterwards laid in the Grave In which action for the most part the dead bury the dead that is they who are dead in sin bury them who are dead for sin And thus the godless and unregenerate worldling who made Earth his Paradise his
Belly his God his Lust his Law as in his life he sowed vanity so he is now dead and reapeth misery In his prosperity he neglected to serve God in his adversity God refuseth to save him And the Devil whom he long served now at length pays him his wages Detestable was his life damnable his death The Devil hath his Soul the Grave hath his Carcass in which Pit of Corruption Den of Death and Dungeon of Sorrow let us leave the miserable Caitiff rotting with his Mouth full of Earth his Belly full of Worms and his Carcass full of Stench expecting a fearful Resurrection when it shall be re-united with the Soul that as they sinned together so they may be eternally tormented together Thus far of the miseries of the Soul and Body in Death which is but cursedness in part Now follows the fulness of cursedness which is the misery of the Soul and Body after Death Meditations of the misery of man after death which is the fulness of Cursedness THe fulness of cursedness when it falls upon a Creature not able to bear the brunt thereof presseth him down to that bottomless deep of the endless wrath of Almighty God which is called the damnation of Hell This fulness of cursedness is either particular or general Particular is that which in a less measure of fulness lighteth upon the Soul immediately as soon as she is separated from the Body For in the very instant of dissolution she is in the sight and presence of God For when she ceaseth to see with the organ of fleshly eyes she seeth after a spiritual manner like Stephen who saw the glory of God and Jesus standing at his right hand Or as a Man who being born blind and miraculously restored to his sight should see the Sun which he never saw before And thereby the testimony of her own Conscience Christ the righteous Judge who knoweth all things makes her by his omnipresent Power to understand the doom and judgment that is due unto her sins and what must be her eternal state And in this manner standing in the sight of Heaven not fit for her uncleanness to come into Heaven she is said to stand before the Throne of God And so forthwith she is carried by the evil angels how came to fetch her with violence into Hell where she is kept as in a Prison in everlasting pains and chains under darkness unto the Judgment of the great Day But not in that extremity of torments which she shall finally receive at the last Day The general fulness of cursedness is in a greater measure of fulness which shall be inflicted upon both thy soul and body when by the mighty power of Christ the supreme Judge of heaven and earth the one shall be brought out of Hell and the other out of the Grave as Prisoners to receive their dreadful doom according to their evil deeds How shall the reprobate by the roaring of the Sea the quaking of the earth the trembling of the Powers of heaven and terrours of heavenly signs be driven at the worlds end to their wits end Oh what a woful salutation will there be betwixt the damned Soul and Body at their re-uniting at that terrible Day O sink of Sin O lump of Filthiness will the Soul say unto her Body how am I compelled to re-enter into thee not as into an habitation to rest but as a Prison to be tormented together how dost thou appear in my sight like Jephthah's Daughter to my greater torment Would GOD thou hadst perpetually rotted in the grave that I might never have seen thee again How shall we be confounded together to hear before God Angels and Men laid open all those secret sins which we committed together Have I lost Heaven for the love of such a stinking Carrion Art thou the flesh for whose pleasures I have yielded to commit so many fornications O filthy Belly how became I such a Fool as to make thee my God! How mad was I for momentany joys to incur these torments of eternal pains Ye rocks and mountains why skip ye so like rams Psalm 144. 4. and will not fall upon me to hide me from the face of him that comes to sit on yonder throne for the great day of his wrath is come and who shall be able to stand Rev. 6. 16 17. Why tremblest thou thus Earth at the presence of the Lord and wilt not open thy Mouth and swallow me up as thou didst Korah that I be seen no more O damned furies I would ye might without delay tear me in pieces on condition that you would tear me into nothing But whilst thou art thus in vain bewailing thy misery the Angels hale thee violently away from the brink of the Grave to some place near the Tribunal Seat of Christ where being as a cursed Goat separated to stand beneath on Earth as on the left-hand of the Judge Christ shall rip up all the benefits he bestowed on thee and the torments he suffered for thee and all the good deeds which thou hast omitted and all the ungrateful villainies which thou didst commit against him and his holy Laws Within thee thine own Conscience more than a Thousand Witnesses shall accuse thee the Devils who tempted thee to all thy lewdness shall on the one side testifie with thy Conscience against thee and on the other side shall stand the holy Saints and Angels approving Christ's Justice and detesting so filthy a Creature behind thee an hideous noise of innumerable fellow-damned Reprobates tarrying for thy company Before thee all the World burning in flaming fire above thee an ireful Judge of deserved Vengeance ready to pronounce his Sentence upon thee beneath thee the fiery and sulphureous mouth of the bottomless pit gaping to receive thee In this woful estate to hide thy self will be impossible for on that condition thou wouldst wish that the greatest Rock might fall upon thee to appear will be intolerable and yet thou must stand forth to receive with other Reprobates this thy Sentence Depart from me ye cursed into everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels Depart from me There is a separation from all joy and happiness Ye cursed There is a black and direful Excommunication Into fire There is the cruelty of Fain Everlasting There is the perpetuity of punishment Prepared for the Devil and his Angels Here are thy infernal tormenting and tormented Companions O terrible Sentence from which the condemned cannot escape which being pronounced cannot possibly be withstood against which a Man cannot except and from which a Man can no where appeal so that to the damned nothing remains but hellish torments which know neither ease of pain nor end of time From this Judgment-seat thou must be thrust by Angels together with all the damned Devils and Reprobates into the bottomless lake of utter darkness that perpetually burneth with fire and brimstone
unto the Sabbath Christ at his Death rested in the Grave all the Jewish Sabbath day and by that rest fulfilled all those Ceremonial Accessaries Now as the ceasing of the Ceremonies annexed to the 1 5 and 6 Commandments and to Marriage did not abolish those Commandments and Marriage nor cause them to cease from being the perpetual Rules of God's worship and man's righteousness no more did the abrogating of the Ceremonies annexed to the Sabbath abolish the morality of the Commandment of the Sabbath so that though the Ceremonies be abolished by the access of the Substance and the Shadow over-shadowed by the Body which is Christ yet the holy rest which was commanded and kept before either the Jews were a people or those Ceremonies annexed to the Sabbath still continueth as God's perpetual Law whereby all the Posterity of Adam are bound to rest from their ordinary business that they may wholly spend every seventh day in the solemn Worship and only Service of GOD their Creator and Redeemer but in the substance of the fourth Commandment there is not found one word of any Ceremony The chief Objections against the Morality of the Sabbath are Three 1. That of Paul to the Galatians Ye observe days and months and times and years c. But there the Apostle condemns not the moral Sabbath which we call the Lord's day and which he himself ordained according to Christ's Commandment in the same Churches of Galatia and Corinth and kept himself in other Churches but he speaks of the Jewish days and times and years and the keeping of the Sabbath on the seventh day from the Creation which he termeth shadows of things to come abolished now by Christ the body and in the Law are called Sabbaths but distinguished from the moral Sabbaths 2. That of Paul to the Colossians Let no man therefore condemn you in meat or drink or in respect of an holy-day or of the new-moon or of the Sabbath-days But here the Apostle meaneth the Jewish ceremonial Sabbaths not the Christians Lord's day as before 3. That of the same Apostle to the Romans This man esteemeth one day above another day and another counteth every day alike c. But S. Paul makes no such account For the question there is not between Jews and Gentiles but between the stronger and weaker Christians The stronger esteemed one day above another as appears in that there was a day both commanded and received in the Church every where known and honoured by the name of the Lord's day And therefore Paul saith here that he that observeth this day observeth it unto the Lord. The observation whereof because of the change of the Jewish seventh day some weak Christians as many now adays thought not so necessary so that if men because the Jewish day is abrogated will not honour and keep holy the Lord's day but count it like other days it is an Argument saith the Apostle of their weakness whose infirmity must be born till they have time to be further instructed and perswaded Other objections are frivolous and not worth the answering The true manner of keeping holy the Lord's Day NOW the sanctifying of the Sabbath consists in two things First In resting from all servile and common business pertaining to our natural life Secondly In consecrating that rest wholly to the Service of God and the use of those holy means which belong to our spiritual life For the first 1. The servile and common works from which we are to cease are generally all civil works from the least to the greatest More particularly First from all the works of our Calling though it were reaping in the time of harvest Secondly from carrying burthens as Carriers do or riding abroad for profit or for pleasure God hath commanded that the beasts should rest on the Sabbath day because all occasions of travelling or labouring with them should be cut off from man God gives them that day a rest and he that without necessity deprives them of their rest on the Lord's day the groans of the poor tyr'd Beasts shall in the day of the Lord rise up in judgment against him Likewise such as spend the greatest part of this day in trimming painting and painpering of themselves like Jezabels doing the devil's work upon God's day Thirdly from keeping of Fairs or Markets which for the most part God punisheth with Pestilence Fire and strange Floods Fourthly from studying any Books of Science but the holy Scriptures and Divinity For our study must be to be ravished in spirit upon the Lord's day In a word thou must on that day cease in thy calling to do thy work that the Lord by his Calling may do his work in thee For whatsoever is gotten by common working on this day shall never be blessed of the Lord but it will prove like Achan's Gold which being got contrary to the Lord's Commandment brought the fire of God's curse upon all the rest which he had lawfully gotten And if Christ scourged them out as thieves who bought and sold in his Temple which was but a Ceremony shortly to be abrogated is it to be thought that he will ever suffer those to escape unpunished who contrary to his Commandment buy and sell on the Sabbath day which is his perpetual Law Christ calleth such sacrilegious Thieves and as well may they steal the Communion Cup from the Lord's Table as steal from God the chiefest part of the Lord's day to consume it in their own lusts Such shall one day find the judgments of God heavier than the opinions of Men. Fifthly from all recreations and sports which at other times are lawful for if lawful works be forbidden on this day much more lawful sports which do more steal away our affections from the contemplation of heavenly things than any bodily work or Labour Neither can there be unto a man that delighteth in the Lord any greater delight or recreation than the sanctifying of the Lord's day For can there be any greater joy for a person condemned than to come to his Prince his house to have his Pardon sealed for one that is deadly sick to come to a Physician that can cure him or for a prodigal child that fed on the husks of swine to be admitted to eat the bread of life at his father's table or for him who fears for sin the tidings of death to come to hear from God the assurance of eternal life If thou wilt allow thy self or thy servant recreation allow it in the six days which are thine not on the Lord's day which is neither thine nor theirs No bodily recreation therefore is to be used on this day but so far as it may help the soul to do more chearfully the service of God Sixthly from gross feeding liberal drinking of Wine or strong Drink which may make us either drowsie or unapt to serve God with our hearts and minds Seventhly From
in the state of Corruption no man living can sanctifie a Sabbath in that spiritual manner that he should but that he commits many breaches thereof in his Thoughts Words and Deeds humbly crave pardon for thy defects and reconcile thy self unto God with this or the like Evening Sacrifice A Private Evening Prayer for the Lord's-day O Holy Holy Holy Lord God of Sabbath suffer me who am but dust and ashes to speak unto thy most glorious Majâ—sty I know that thou art a consuming â—ire I acknowledge that I am but withered stubble My sins are in thy sight and Satan stands at my right-hand to accuse me for them I come not to excuse but to judg my self worthy of all those judgments which thy Justice might most justly inflict upon me a wretched Creature for my sins and transgressions The Number of them is so great the Nature of them is so grievous that they make me seem vile in mine own eyes how much more loathsome in thy sight I confess they make me so far from being worthy to be called thy Son that I am altogether unworthy to have the Name of thy meanest Servant And if thou shouldest but recompence me according to my desert the Earth as weary of such a sinful burthen should open her mouth and swallow me up like one of Dathan's Family into the bettomless pit of Hell For if thou didst not spare the natural branches those Angels of glorious Excellency but hurldst them down from the heavenly Habitations into the pains of hellish darkness to be kept unto damnation when they sinned but once against thy Majesty and didst expel our first Parents out of Paradise when they did but transgress one of thy Laws alas what vengeance may I expect who have not offended in one sin only heaping daily un upon sin without any true repentance drinking iniquity as it were water ever pouring in but never pouring out any filthyness and have transgressed not one but all thy holy laws and commandments Yea this present day which thou hast straitly commanded me to keep holy to thy praise and worship I have not so religiously kept and observed nor prepared my soul in that holiness and chastity of heart as was fit to meeâ— thy blessed Majesty in the holy assembly of the Saints I have not attended to the preaching of thy Word nor to the administration of thy Sacraments with that humility reverence and devotion that I should For tho' I was present at those holy exercises in my body yet Lord I was overtaken with much drowsiness And when I was awake my mind was so distracted and carried away with vain and worldly thoughts that my â—oul seemed to be absent and oâ—â— of the Church I have not so duly as I should meditated with my self nor conferred with my Family upon those good instruâ—ctions which we have heard and received out of thy holy Word by the publick Ministry For default whereof Satan hath stoln the most part of those instructions out of my heart and I wretched creature have forgotten them as though they had never been heard And my family doth not thrive in knowledge and sanctification under my government as they should Though I know where many of my poor brethren live in want and necessity and some in pain and comfortless yet I have not remembred to relieve the one with my Alms nor the other with Consolations but I have feasted my self and satisfied mine own Lusts. I have spent the most part of the day in idle talk vain sports and exercises Yea Lord I have c. And for all these my sins my Conscience cries guilty thy Law condemns me and I am in thy hand to receive the sentence and curse that is due to the wilful breach of so holy a Commandment But what if I am by thy Law condemned Yet Lord thy Gospel assures me that thy mercy is above all thy works that thy grace transcends thy Law and thy goodness delighteth there to reign where sins do most abound In the multitude therefore of thy Mercies and for the Merits of Jesus Christ my Saviour I beseech thee O Lord who despiseth not the sighings of a contrite heart nor desirest the death of a penitent sinner to pardon and forgive me all those my sins and all the errors of this day and of my whole life and free my soul from that curse and Judgment which is due unto me for them Thou that didst justifie the contrite Publican for Four Words of confession and received'st the Prodigal Child when he had spent all the stock of thy grace into favour upon his repentance pardon my sins likewise O Lord and suffer me not to perish for my transgressions O spare me and receive me into thy favour again Wilâ— thou O Lord reject me who hast received all Publicans Harlots and Sinners that upon repentance sued to thee for grace Shall I alone be excluded from thy mercy Far be it from me to think so for thou art the same God of mercy unto me that thou wast unto them and thy compassions never fail Wherefore O Lord deal not with me after my merits but according to thy great mercy Execute â—ot thy severe Justice against me a sinner but exercise thy long-sufferance in forbearing thine own creature I have nothing to present unto thee for a satisfaction but only those Bloody Wounds bitter Death and Passion which thy blessed Son my only Saviour hath suffered for me Him in whom only thou art well pleased I offer unto thee for all my sins wherewith thou art displeased Him my Mediator the Request of whose Blood speaking better things than that of Abel thy mercy can never gain-say Illuminate my understanding and sanctifie my heart with thy holy Spirit that it may bring to my remembrance all those good and profitable lessons which this day and at other times have been taught me out of thy holy Word that I may remember thy Commandments to keep them thy Judgments to avoid them aâ—d thy sweet Promises to rely upon them in time of misery and distress And now O Lord I resign my self to thy most holy Will O receive me into thy favour and so draw me by thy grace unto thy self that I may as well be thine by love and imitation as by calling and creation and give me grace so to keep holy thy Sabbaths in this life as that when this life is ended I may with all thy Saints and Angels celebrate an eternal Sabbath of joys and praise to the honour of thy most glorious Name in thy heavenly Kingdom for evermore Amen And then calling thy Family together shut up the Sabbath with the Meditations and Prayers before prescribed for thy Family And the Lord will give thee 〈◊〉 Night a more sweet and quiet rest than ordinary and prosper thee the better in all the labours of the week following Thus far of the ordinary
Because that God hath ever smitten with fearful Judgments those who have presumed to use his holy Ordinances without due fear and preparation God set a flaming Sword in a Cherubim's hand to smite our first Parents being defiled with Sin if they should attempt to go into Paradise to eat the Sacrament of the Tree of Life Fear thou therefore to be smitten with the Sword of God's vengeance if thou presumest to go to the Church with an impenitent heart to eat the Sacrament of the Lord of Life God smote fifty thousand of the Bethshemites for looking irreverently into his Ark and kill'd Vzza with sudden death for but rash touching of the Ark and smote Vzziah with a Leprosie for medling with the Priests Office which pertained not unto him The fear of such a stroke made Hezekiah so earnestly to pray unto God that he would not smite the People that wanted time to prepare themselves as they should to eat the Passover and it is said that the Lord heard Hezekiah and healed the people Intimating that had it not been for Hezekiah's Prayer the Lord had smitten the People for their want of due preparation And the man who came to the Marriage-Feast without his Wedding-garment or examining of himself was examined of another and thereupon bound hand and foot and cast into utter darkness Matth. 22. 12. And St. Paul tells the Corinthians that for want of this preparation in examining and judging themselves before they did eat the Lord's-Supper God had sent that fearful sickness among them whereof some were then sick others weak and many fallen asleep that is taken away by temporal death Insomuch that the Apostle saith that every unworthy receiver eats his own judgment temporal if he repents eternal if he repents not and that in so hainous a measure as if he were guilty of the very Body and Blood of the Lord whereof this Sacrament is a holy sign and seal And Princes punish the Indignity offered to their Great Seal in as deep a measure as that which is done to their own Persons whom it representeth And how hainous the guiltiness of Christ's Blood is may appear by the misery of the Jews ever since they wished His Blood to be on them and their Children But then thou wilt say It were safer to abstain from coming at all to the holy Communion Not so for God hath threatned to punish the wilful neglect of his Sacraments with eternal damnation both of Body and Soul And it is the Commandment of Christ Take eat do this in remembrance of me And he will have his Commandment under the penalty of his Curse obeyed And seeing that this Sacrament was the greatest Token of Christ's love which he left at his end to his friends whom he loved to the end therefore the neglect and contempt of this Sacrament must argue the contempt and neglect of his love and blood-shedding than which no sin in God's account can seem more hainous Nothing hinders why thou maist not come freely to the Lord's Table but because thou hadst rather want the love of God than leave thy filthy sins Oh come but come a Guest prepared for the Lord's Table seeing they are blessed who are called to the Lambs Supper O come but come prepared because the efficacy of this Sacrament is received according to the proportion of the Faith of the Receiver This preparation consists in the serious consideration of three things First of the worthiness of the Sacrament which is termed to discern the Lord's Body Secondly of thine own unworthiness which is to judge thy self Thirdly of the means whereby thou mayest become a worthy Receiver called Communication of the Lord's Body 1. Of the worthiness of the Sacrament THE worthiness of this Sacrament is considered three ways First by the Majesty of the Author ordaining Secondly by the preciousness of the Parts whereof it consisteth Thirdly by the excellency of the Ends for which it was ordained 1. Of the Author of the Sacrament The Author was not any Saint or Angel but our Lord Jesus the eternal Son of God For it pertaineth to Christ only under the New Testament to institute a Sacrament because he only can promise and perform the grace that it signifieth And we are charged to hear no voice but his in his Church How sacred should we esteem the Ordinance that proceedeth from so Divine an Author 2. Of the parts of the Sacrament The parts of this blessed Sacrament are three First the earthly signs signifying Secondly the Divine Word Sanctifying Thirdly the Heavenly Graces signified First the Earthly signs are * Bread and Wine in number two but one in use Secondly the Divine Word is the Word of Christ's Institution pronounced with prayers and blessings by a lawful Minister The Bread and Wine without the Word are nothing but as they were before but when the Word cometh to those Elements then they are made a Sacrament and God is present with his own ordinance and ready to perform whatsoever he doth promise The Divine Words of blessing do not change or annihilate the substance of the Bread and Wine for if their substance did not remain it could be no Sacrament but it changeth them in use and in name For that which was before but common Bread and Wine to nourish mens Bodies is after the blessing destinated to an holy use for the feeding of the Souls of Christians And where before they were called but Bread and Wine they are now called by the name of those holy things which they signifie The Body and Blood of Christ the better to draw our minds from those outward Elements to the Heavenly Graces which by the sight of our bodies they represent to the spiritual eyes of our Faith Neither did Christ direct these words This is my body This is my blood to the Bread and Wine but to his Disciples as appears by the words going before Take ye eat ye Neither is the Bread his Body but in the same sense that the Cup is the New Testament viz. by a Sacramental Metonymie And Mark notes plainly that the words This is my Blood c. were not pronounced by our Saviour till after that all his Disciples had drunk of the Cup. Mark 14. 23 24. And afterwards in respect of the natural substance thereof he calls that the fruit of the Vine which in respect of the spiritual signification thereof he had before termed his Blood verse 25. after the manner of terming all Sacraments And Christ bids us not to make him but to do this in remembrance of him and he bids us eat not simply his Body but his Body as it was then broken and his Blood shed Which S. Paul expounds to be but the Communion of Christ's Body and the Communion of his Blood that is an effectual Pledge that we are 〈…〉 of Christ and of all the Merits of his Body and
thou hadst made before the Judgment-seat of Christ by this time if thou hadst died of this Sickness Spend therefore the time that remains so as that thou mayst be able to make a more chearful account of thy life when it must be expired indeed 4. Put not far off the day of Death thou knowest not for all this how near it is at hand and being so fairly warned be wiser For if thou be taken unprovided the next time thy excuse will be less and thy Judgment greater 5. Remember that thou hast vowed amendment and newness of life Thou hast vowed a vow unto God defer not to pay it for he delighteth not in fools pay therefore that thou hast vowed The unclean Spirit is cast out O let him not re-enter with seven worse than himself Thou hast sighed out the groans of Contrition thou hast wept the tears of Repentâ—nce thou are washed in the Pool of Bâ—thesda streaming with five bloody Wounds not of a troubling angel but of the Angel of God's presence troubled with the wrath due to thy sins who descended into Hell to restore thee to saving health and Heaven Return not now with the Dog to thine own vomit nor like the washed Sow to wallow again in the mire of thy former sins and uncleanness lest being intangled and overcome again with the filthiness of sin which now thou hast escaped thy latter end prove worse than thy first beginning Twice therefore doth our Saviour Christ give the same cautionary warning to healed Sinners First To the Man cured of his 38 years desease Behold thou art made whole sin no more lest a worse thing fall upon thee Secondly to the woman taken in adultery Neither do I condemn thee Go thy way and sin no more Teaching us how dangerous a thing it is to relapse and fall again into the former excess of Riot Take heed therefore unto thy ways and pray for grace that thou mayest apply thy heart unto wisdom during that small number of days which yet remain behind And for thy present mercy and health received imitate the thankful Leper and return unto God this or the like Thanksgiving A Thanksgiving to be said of one that is recovered from sickness O Gracious and merciful Father who art the Lord of Health and Sickness of Life and of Death who killest and makest alive who bringest down to the Grave and raisest up again who art the only preserver of all those that trust in thee I thy poor and unworthy Servant having now by experience of my painful sickness felt the grievousness of misery due unto sin and the greatness of thy mercy in forgiving sinners and perceiving with what a fatherly compassion thou hast heard my Prayers and restored me to my health and strength again do here upon the bended knees of my heart return with the thankful Leper to acknowledge thee alone to be the God of my health and salvation and to give thee the praise and glory for my strength and deliverance out of that grievous Disease and Malady and for thus turning my mourning into mirth my sickness into health and my death into life My sins deserved punishment and thou hast corrected me but hast not given me over unto death I looked from the day to the night when thou would'st make an end of me I did chatter like a Crane or a Swallow I mourned as a Dove when the bitterness of sickness oppressed me I lifted up mine eyes unto thee O Lord and thou didst comfort me for thou didst cast all my sins behind thy back and didst deliver my soul from the pit of corruption and when I found no help in my self nor in any other creature saying I am deprived of the residue of my years I shall see man no more among the Inhabitants of the World then didst thou restore me to health again and gavest life unto me I found thee O Lord ready to save me And now Lord I confess that I can never yield unto thee such a measure of thanks as thou hast for this benefit deserved at my hands And seeing that I can never be able to repay thy goodness with acceptable works O that I could with Mary Magdalen testifie the love and thankfulness of my heart with abounding tears O what shall I be able to render unto thee O Lord for all these benefits which thou bestowedst upon my Soul Surely as in my Sickness when I had nothing else to give unto thee I offered Christ and his merits unto thee as a Ransom for my sins so being now restored by thy Grace unto my health and strength and having no better thing to give behold O Lord I do here offer up my self unto thee beseeching thee so to assist me with thy Holy Spirit that the remainder of my life may be wholly spent in setting forth thy praise and glory O Lord forgive me my former follies and unthankfulness that I was no more careful to love thee according to thy goodness nor to serve thee according to thy Will nor to obey thee according to thy Commandments nor to thank thee according to thy Benefits And seeing thou knowest that of my self I am not sufficient so much as to think a good thought much less to do that which is good and acceptable in thy sight assist me with thy grace and holy Spirit that I may in my prosperity as devoutly spend my health in thy service as I was earnest in my sickness to beg it at thy hands And suffer me never to forget either this thy mercy in restoring me to my health or those Vows and Promises which I have made unto thee in my sickness With my new health renew in me O Lord a right Spirit which may free me from the slavery of sin and establish my heart in the service of grace Work in me a greater detestation of all sins which were the causes of thy anger and my sickness and increase my Faith in Jesus Christ who is the Author of my health and salvation Let thy good Spirit lead me in the way that I should walk and teach me to deny all ungodliness and worldly lusts and to live soberly righteously and godly in this world that others by my Example may think better of thy Truth And sith this time which I have yet to live is but a little respite and small remnant of days which cannot long continue Teach me O my God so to number my days that I may apply my heart to that spiritual wisdom which directeth to salvation And to this end make me more zealous than I have been in Religion more devout in Prayer more servent in Spirit more careful to hear and profit by the preaching of thy Gospel more helpful to my poor Brethren more watchful over my ways more faithful in my calling and every way more abundant in all good works Let me in the joyful time of prosperity fear the evil
together and addest unto those the sins of Cain and Judas and puttest unto them all the sins of all the Reprobates in the World doubtless it would be a huge heap yet compare this huge heap with the infinite mercy of God and there will be no more comparison betwixt them than betwixt the least Mole-hill the greatest Mountain in a Country The cry of the grievous est sins that ever we read of could never reach up higher than unto Heaven as the cry of the sins of Sodom but the mercy of God saith David reacheth up higher than the Heavens and so overtoppeth all our sins And if his Mercy be greater than all his works it must needs be greater that all thy sins And so long as his mercy is greater than the sins of the whole world do thou but repent there is do doubt of pardon If â—â—tan shall object that thou hast many times vowed to repent and hast made a shew of repentance for the time and yet didst fall to the same sins again and again and that all thy repentance was but feigned and a mocking of God And that seeing thou hast so often broken thy vow therefore God hath withdrawn his mercy and hath changed his love c. mediâ—ate 1. That though this were true which indeed is hainous yet it is no sufficient cause why thou shouldst despair seeing that this is the common case of all the Children of God in this life who vow so oft to forbear some sin till perceiving their weakness nor able to perform it they vow that they will vow no more Their Vows shew the desires of their spiritual Man their breaking the weakness of their corrupt flesh And our oft slips into the same sins Christ foresaw when he taught us to pray daily Our Father forgive us our trespasses And why doth Christ enjoyn thee who art but a sinful man to forgive thy brother seven times in a day if he shall return seven times in a day and say it repenteth me But to assure thee that he being the God of mercy and goodness it self will forgive unto thee thy seventy times seven-fold sins a day which thou hast committed against him if thou return unto him by truâ— Repentance The Israelites were cured by looking though with weak eyes on the Brazen Serpent as oft as they were stung by the fiery Serpent in the Wilderness to assure thee that upon thy tears of repentance thou shalt be recovered by â—aith in Christ as often as thou are wounded to death by sin 2. That thy salvation is grounded not upon the constancy of thine obedience but upon the firmness of God's Covenant Though thou variest with God and the Covenant be broken on thy behalf yet it is firm on God's part and therefore all is safe enough if thou wilt return for there is no variableness with him neither shadow of change He hath locked up thy salvation and made it sure in his own unchangeable purpose and hath delivered to thy keeping the keys which are Faith and repentance and whilst thou hast them thou mayst perswade thy self that thy salvation is suâ—e and safe For whom God loveth he loveth to the end and never repenteth of bestowing his love on them who repent and believe Lastly If Satan shall perswade thee that thou hast been doubting a long time and that it 's best for thee now to despair seeing thy sins increase and thy judgment draweth near meditate 1. That no sin though never so great should be a cause to move any Christian to despair so long as God's mercy by so many millions of degrees is greater and that every penitent and believing Sinner hath the pardon of all his sins confirmed by the Word and Oath of God two immutable things wherein it is impossible that God should lye His Word is that at what time soever a sinner whosoever doth repent of his sin whatsoever for both time and sins and sinners are indefinite from the bottom of his heart God will blot forth all his sins out of his remembrance that they shall be mentioned unto him no more If we will not take his word which God forbid we should doubt of he hath given us his Oath As I live I desire not the death of the wicked but that the wicked turn from his way and live As if he had said will ye not believe my Word I swear by my life that I delight not to damn any sinner for his sins but rather to save him upon his conversion and repentance The meditation hereof moved Tertullian to exclaim O how happy are we when God sweareth that he wills not our damnation O what miserable wretches are we if we will not believe God when he sweareth this truth unto us Listen O drooping Spirit whose soul is assailed with ways of faithless despair how happy were it to see many like thee and Hezekiah who mourn like Doves for the sense of sin and chatter like Cranes and Swallows for the fear of God's anger rather than to behold many who die like Beasts without any feeling of their own estate or any fear of God's wrath or Tribunal Seat before which they are to appear Comfort thy self O languishing soul for if this earth hath any for whom Christ spilt his blood on the Cross thou assuredly art one Chear up therefore thy self in the all-sufficient atonement of the blood of the Lamb which speaketh better things than that of Abel And pray for those who never yet obtained the grace to have such a sense and detestation of sin Thou art one indeed for whom Christ died and from whom a wounded spirit judging rather according to his feeling than his faith hath wrung that doleful voice of Christ My God my God why hast thou forsaken me And doubt not but ere long thou shalt as truly reign with him as now thou dost suffer with him for Yea and Amen hath spoken it No sin bars a man from salvation but only Incredulity and Impenitency nothing makes the sin against the Holy Ghost unpardonable but want of repentance Thy unfeigned desire to repent is as acceptable unto God as the perfectest repentance that thou couldest wish to pâ—râ—orm unto him Meditate upon these Evangelical comforts and thou shalt see that in the very agonâ— of death God will so assist thee with his spirit that when Satan looketh for the greatest victory he shall receive the foulest foil yea when thy eye-strings are broken that thou canst not see the light Jesus Christ will appear unto thee to comfort thy Soul and his Holy Angels will carry thee into his Heavenly Kingdom Then shall thy Friends behold thee like Manoah's Angel doing wonders indeed when they shall see a frail man in his greatest weakness by the mere assistance of God's Spirit overcoming the strength of sin the bitterness of death and all