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thou_o be_v my_o god_n make_v my_o heart_n constant_a and_o ever_o keep_v it_o unblameable_a before_o thou_o in_o holiness_n that_o i_o may_v serve_v thou_o in_o all_o holy_a duty_n with_o a_o good_a conscience_n and_o may_v walk_v before_o thou_o in_o truth_n and_o with_o a_o perfect_a heart_n do_v that_o which_o be_v good_a in_o thy_o sight_n let_v thy_o peace_n which_o pass_v all_o understanding_n preserve_v my_o heart_n &_o mind_n in_o jesus_n christ_n even_o to_o the_o end_n and_o in_o the_o end_n yea_o even_o when_o the_o messenger_n and_o pang_n of_o death_n shall_v take_v hold_n on_o i_o even_o then_o support_v i_o that_o satan_n with_o his_o malicious_a suggestion_n and_o infernal_a temptation_n prevail_v not_o against_o i_o in_o lay_v before_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o guilty_a conscience_n the_o ugliness_n of_o my_o sin_n past_a or_o by_o draw_v my_o mind_n into_o any_o forbid_a thought_n or_o desire_n draw_v i_o out_o of_o the_o net_n that_o he_o privy_o lay_v to_o catch_v my_o 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redeemer_n in_o who_o i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o deliver_v my_o soul_n amen_n lord_n ever_o increase_v and_o confirm_v my_o faith_n meditat_fw-la ii_o now_o then_o i_o have_v by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n in_o some_o measure_n learned_a to_o live_v and_o to_o know_v i_o shall_v die_v what_o remain_v but_o that_o i_o 13._o look_v for_o the_o day_n and_o attend_v the_o hour_n not_o know_v when_o it_o will_v come_v and_o therefore_o to_o be_v always_o ready_a have_v also_o through_o christ_n receive_v 6._o the_o spirit_n of_o boldness_n to_o remove_v out_o of_o this_o body_n to_o be_v with_o the_o lord_n this_o boldness_n i_o confess_v i_o have_v not_o of_o myself_o it_o be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n who_o in_o the_o beginning_n make_v i_o to_o his_o image_n without_o spot_n but_o spot_v before_o i_o be_v bear_v by_o he_o that_o be_v once_o without_o spot_n who_o fault_n be_v now_o by_o imputation_n nay_o by_o action_n i_o whereby_o i_o bring_v sin_n and_o corruption_n into_o the_o world_n with_o i_o have_v deep_o defile_v myself_o by_o like_a actual_a disobedience_n and_o therefore_o may_v just_o fear_v the_o face_n of_o that_o severe_a and_o just_a judge_n especial_o have_v so_o many_o and_o so_o strong_a adversary_n satan_n with_o his_o principality_n 10._o and_o power_n and_o spiritual_a wickedness_n a_o million_o of_o sin_n and_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n beside_o the_o horror_n of_o death_n and_o the_o grave_n enough_o to_o cast_v my_o sinful_a soul_n into_o utter_a destruction_n be_v there_o not_o a_o power_n above_o his_o power_n and_o principality_n to_o subdue_v he_o i_o thank_v god_n in_o christ_n i_o have_v be_v teach_v and_o i_o know_v that_o the_o seed_n of_o the_o 15._o woman_n have_v subdue_v satan_n lead_v he_o &_o all_o his_o power_n principality_n and_o spiritual_a wickedness_n captive_a triumph_v over_o he_o and_o they_o upon_o the_o cross_n make_v a_o show_n of_o they_o open_o and_o this_o i_o be_o not_o only_o teach_v to_o know_v but_o i_o believe_v the_o same_o steadfast_o lord_n strengthen_v my_o belief_n as_o for_o my_o siune_n past_a i_o fear_v they_o not_o for_o christ_n suffer_v for_o they_o once_o the_o just_a for_o the_o unjust_a to_o bring_v i_o to_o god_n as_o touch_v death_n i_o know_v that_o my_o redeemer_n death_n live_v and_o he_o have_v take_v away_o the_o sting_n thereof_o and_o make_v a_o way_n for_o i_o through_o the_o grave_n to_o come_v unto_o glory_n through_o the_o valley_n of_o death_n to_o pass_v until_o i_o come_v to_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n in_o zion_n i_o can_v yet_o but_o confess_v that_o notwithstanding_o my_o boldness_n i_o feel_v many_o wavering_n i_o be_o not_o at_o all_o time_n alike_o bold_a but_o often_o tremble_v at_o the_o consideration_n of_o death_n because_o i_o have_v have_v no_o experience_n of_o the_o terror_n thereof_o and_o therefore_o though_o the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a my_o flesh_n be_v weak_a but_o i_o be_o so_o much_o the_o more_o strengthen_v by_o how_o much_o i_o do_v 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therefore_o will_v i_o make_v my_o prayer_n unto_o god_n in_o christ_n to_o give_v i_o strength_n and_o a_o holy_a resolution_n to_o embrace_v death_n when_o it_o shall_v come_v a_o prayer_n against_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n fit_a to_o be_v say_v at_o all_o time_n especial_o in_o sickness_n the_o prayer_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o gracious_a father_n in_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v form_v i_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o by_o thy_o spirit_n make_v i_o a_o live_a soul_n in_o a_o mortal_a body_n give_v i_o grace_v continual_o to_o remember_v my_o mortality_n how_o i_o be_o bear_v to_o die_v and_o that_o after_o death_n i_o shall_v come_v to_o judgement_n yet_o have_v thou_o hide_v the_o time_n when_o the_o place_n where_o and_o the_o manner_n how_o i_o shall_v die_v from_o i_o all_o know_v to_o thou_o teach_v i_o therefore_o gracious_a father_n teach_v i_o so_o to_o number_v my_o day_n as_o to_o consider_v that_o the_o more_o they_o increase_v in_o number_n so_o 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in_o sickness_n the_o prayer_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o wait_v on_o thou_o my_o soul_n keep_v silence_n unto_o thou_o for_o of_o thou_o come_v my_o salvation_n therefore_o do_v i_o submit_v myself_o unto_o thy_o will_n give_v thou_o thanks_n for_o thy_o patience_n towards_o i_o in_o jesus_n christ_n nor_o thou_o have_v show_v thyself_o towards_o i_o slow_a to_o wrath_n and_o full_a of_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n increase_v ever_o more_o and_o more_o thy_o grace_n towards_o i_o that_o in_o this_o my_o pilgrimage_n towards_o my_o grave_n i_o may_v possess_v my_o soul_n in_o patience_n wait_v thy_o good_a time_n for_o my_o delivery_n for_o here_o where_o i_o now_o dwell_v i_o neither_o hear_v nor_o see_v taste_n nor_o touch_v any_o true_o comfortable_a thing_n only_o thy_o word_n be_v my_o spiritual_a consolation_n and_o the_o hope_n of_o future_a glory_n my_o joy_n and_o be_v i_o not_o feed_v with_o the_o hope_n of_o a_o better_a life_n by_o death_n i_o be_v of_o all_o man_n most_o 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and_o bless_v be_v they_o that_o wait_v for_o thou_o grant_v therefore_o lord_n that_o i_o may_v be_v find_v blameless_a in_o the_o day_n of_o my_o distation_n and_o that_o i_o may_v here_o walk_v worthy_a of_o thou_o through_o christ_n be_v strengthen_v with_o all_o might_n through_o thy_o glorious_a power_n to_o all_o patience_n and_o long_a suffering_n with_o joyfulness_n amen_n lord_n increase_v my_o faith_n medit._fw-la viii_o of_o repentance_n and_o merit_n no_o man_n be_v he_o never_o so_o holy_a be_v free_a from_o sin_n and_o therefore_o never_o free_a from_o occasion_n to_o move_v he_o to_o repentance_n and_o i_o acknowledge_v that_o repentance_n patience_n watchfulness_n attendance_n and_o attention_n be_v of_o no_o force_n unless_o faith_n be_v the_o ground_n of_o every_o of_o they_o for_o it_o suffice_v i_o not_o to_o be_v sorry_a for_o my_o sin_n as_o it_o seem_v judas_n and_o kain_n be_v un_o less_o by_o faith_n i_o can_v feel_v &_o assure_v myself_o that_o my_o sin_n be_v also_o pardon_v as_o neither_o of_o they_o do_v for_o it_o be_v the_o free_a gift_n of_o god_n which_o god_n vouchsafe_v not_o to_o they_o neither_o be_v it_o sufficient_a for_o i_o to_o watch_v with_o patience_n or_o to_o attend_v the_o bring_v forth_o of_o outward_a oftentive_a and_o vainglorious_a work_n but_o i_o must_v feel_v in_o myself_o the_o infallible_a token_n of_o my_o effectual_a call_n and_o engraft_v into_o christ_n through_o faith_n before_o i_o can_v bring_v forth_o work_v worthy_a amendment_n of_o life_n which_o be_v true_a repentance_n some_o token_n of_o my_o effectual_a call_n i_o feâ—le_v in_o myself_o for_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v good_a yet_o even_o then_o be_v evil_a present_a with_o i_o i_o delight_v in_o the_o law_n of_o god_n as_o concerue_v 23._o the_o inner_a man_n namely_o as_o i_o be_o regenerate_v but_o i_o see_v another_o law_n in_o my_o member_n rebel_a against_o the_o law_n of_o my_o mind_n and_o lend_v i_o captive_a unto_o the_o law_n of_o sin_n which_o be_v in_o my_o member_n so_o that_o i_o can_v 19_o do_v the_o good_a i_o will_v do_v but_o the_o evil_n which_o i_o will_v not_o do_v that_o i_o do_v shall_v i_o then_o think_v that_o because_o i_o feel_v not_o the_o sign_n of_o my_o call_n in_o perfection_n and_o because_o i_o be_o not_o free_a from_o all_o touch_n of_o infirmity_n and_o sin_n in_o thought_n word_n and_o deed_n that_o therefore_o i_o have_v no_o repentance_n god_n forbid_v for_o to_o persuade_v myself_o that_o i_o have_v no_o sin_n be_v to_o deify_v myself_o and_o to_o make_v i_o equal_a with_o christ_n as_o do_v those_o that_o be_v faith_v from_o yet_o by_o their_o work_n of_o merit_n and_o of_o supererogation_n presume_v to_o affirm_v that_o they_o can_v bring_v not_o only_a themselves_o but_o other_o to_o salvation_n blasphemy_n who_o arrogate_v merit_n stink_v before_o god_n make_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n of_o none_o effect_n the_o high_a blasphemy_n that_o mortal_a man_n can_v spew_v out_o against_o 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