be pertaker of thy glory For albeit I doe not presume to demaunde by mine owne meritt to be admitted into thy woÌ„derfull beauty yett I doe not despaire to obtaine the same by the meritt of his sacred bloud who hath redeemed me Onely lett thy meritts helpe me lett thy most holy and pure prayers which cannot but be effectuall in the sight of God succoure my sinfulnes I haue gone astray I confesse as a lost sheep my aboad here hath ben too too long being cast farr from the face of my Lord God into the darknes of this exile Where remaining expelled from the ioyes of heauen I doe dayly bewaile with my selfe the calamities of this my captiuitie making great lementation and in mournefull manner sounding forth a dolefull ditty when I remember thee o mother Hierusalem whilst the feet of mine affections stand at the entrance of thy gates o holie and comely Syon not being yet admitted to behold thine inner partes wide open but I hope one day to be brought vnto thee on the shoulders of my shepheard who hath built thee that I may dance with thee through that vnspeakable pleasure wherewith they reioyce who are with thee in the presence of God and our Sauiour who in his flesh through the effusion of his bloud hath made peace and pacified all thinges in heauen and in earth For he is our peace vinting both in one who ioyning together two opposite walles hath promised to bestow vpon vs in the same manner and measure the fullnes of thy felicitie which consisteth in the fruition of himselfe for all eternitie saying They shal be equall to the Angells of God in heauen O Hierusalem the euer happy house of God next after the loue of Christ be thou my ioy and comforte lett the sweete remembrance of thy blessed name be a solace to the sorrowes and heauines of minde Of the manifolde mâ—series with which mans life is replenished CHAP. XXI VErilâ—e o Lord I am wonderfull werie of this life and paine full pilgrimage This life is a miserable life a fraile life an vncertaine life a laborious life an vncleane life a life mystres of miscreants queene of such 〈◊〉 are proude full of miserie and 〈◊〉 not worthy to be termed a life yea rather a death in which we dy by sondry soâ—â—es of death almost ech moment of time by the diuers defects of change and alteration The time therefore which we liue in this world how can we truly call it a life whom humoreâ— puffe vp whom paines pull downe whom heaâ—es doe parch whoÌ„ the aire maketh sick whom resting maketh fat and fasting maketh leane whom delightes make dissolute whom sorrowes doâ— consume whom pensiuenesse doth oppresse whom securitie maketh dull whom riches lift vp and make stately whoÌ„ pouerty doth abase and make lowly whoÌ„ youth maketh to be magnified old age to be crooked whom sicknes weakeneth sadnes afflicteth And close as it were at the heeles of all these euills doth furious death come after closing vp the end of all the delightes of this miserable life in that fashion as that being ended it is as if it had neuer been begun And albeit this liuing death and dying life be replenished with these and many more miseries â—et alas it entrappeth very many by her flattering alluâ—ements and noe lesse nomber by her false promises of preferments And although it be soe apparently false and bitter as that the blind louers thereof cannot but see and perceiue it yet by reason of the golden cup which it holdeth in her hand it causeth an infinite nomber of fooles to drinke and to be wholy drunke therwith They therefore are happy although not many who refuse her familiaritie who contemne her delightes transitorie who abandon her companie least at length they runne to ruine and perdition together with her that deceiued them Of the happines of that life which God hath prepared for those that loue him CHAPT XXII O Thou thrise happie life which God hath prepared for those that loue him a liuing life a blessed life a secure life a peaceable life a beautifull life a cleane life a chaste life a holy life a life voide of death free from sorrow a life without blemish without heauines without vexation without corruption without perturbation without variation and mutation a life full of all beautie and dignitie where there is noe aduersarie to impugne vs noe occasion of sinne to allure vs where charitie raigneth in perfection hauing noe feare of anie euil approaching where there is one onely day which is eternall and one onely minde and meaning of al where God face to face is seene apparently and with this bread of life the soule is satisfied aboundantlie O blessed life it pleaseth me much to thinke of thy brightnes and excellencie my hart is not a little delighted when I minde those good thinges which are in thee The more I thinke of thee the more I loue thee for that I am wonderfullie recreated through the vehement desire and sweete remembrance of thee It pleaseth me therefore to lift vp to thee the eyes of my hart to direct to thee the state of my mind to frame towardes thee the affectioÌ„ of a freinde Verilye it delighteth me to speake of thee to heare of thee to write of thee to conferre of thee to reade something daily of thy glorie and beatitude and often in my hart to thinke vpon what I haue reade that soe vnder the sweete shadowe of thy vitall ayre I may in some sorte be free from the heaâ—es dangers and sweates of this sraile and bricke life and being free may a little rest my weary head falling as it weare a sleepe in thy blessed bosome For this cause I am accustomed to enter into the pleasant feildes of the holie scriptures where I gather the most greene and wholsome hearbes of sacred sentences by writing them I eate them by reading I chewe them by frequent meditation and at lenght I doe swallowe them downe into the stomach of my memorie by recollection thaâ— by this meanes hauinge tasted of thy sweetnesse I may the lesse feele this most miserable lifes bitternes O life most happy o kingedome truly blessed voide of death neuer to haue ending where time without succession of ages is still the same where one continual day without interchange of night knoweth neither time past nor to come where the victorious souldier being vnited to those harmonious quires of Angels doth singe to God without intermission a Canticle of the Canticles of Syon Hauing his head adorn'd with an eternall croune By Christ th' eternall kinge in token of renoune O would to God my sinnes being pardonned and the burden of my fraile flesh being forth with laied aside I might enter into thy ioyes there to finde euerlastinge repose and might be admitted within the walles of thy Citty there from the handes of our Lord to receiue a crowne of glory to the end I might be placed to singe as one of that
where our forefathers did sit in darknes and hast returned from thence on the third day as a glorious conquerour resuming againe thy sacred bodie which for our sinnes had remained deade in the sepulcher and reuiuing it the third day accordinge to the scripture that thou mightest place it in glorie at the right hande of God the father For hauinge deliuered those from captiuitie whom the ancient foe and ennimie of mankind hath detained as prisoners in â—imbo Patrum thou the true sonne of God hast ascended aboue all the heauens with the substance of our flesh that is with a soule and humaine flesh taken of the glorious Virgin mounting aboue all the orders of Angells where thou sittest at the right hande of God the Father where there is the fountaine of life and that light vnto which noe creature can attaine where there is the peace of God which passeth all vnderstanding We adore thee Iesus Christ belieuing thee to be there confessinge God to be thy Father from whence we expect thee to come at the end of the worlde to iudge both the quicke and the deade and to render to all men whether good or euill a rewarde or punishment accordinge to theire actions donne in this life like as euery one shal be deemed worthy either of perpetuall peace or paine For all men that haue receiued a humaine soule shall arise at that day in the same fleshe which they had heere being by the voice of thy diuine power summoned to appeare to the end that euerie man his soule and body being reunited in one may according to his meritts receiue ether glorie or damnation Thou o Lord Iesus Christ art our life and our resurrection whom we expect as our Sauiour to come and saue vs who wilt reforme the bodie of our basenes making it conformable to the bodie of thy brightnes I haue knowen thee true God and one holy Spirit of the Father and the Sonne proceeding equallie from both of them consubstantiall and coeternall to the Father and the Sonne being our comforter and aduocate who in likenes of a doue hast descended vppon the same God our Lord Iesus Christ appearing likewise in tongues of fire vppon the Apostles Who alsoe by the guift of thy grace hast taught all the Saints and elect of God from the beginning openning in like manner the mouthes of the Prophetes to the end they might declare the wonderfull thinges of thy heauenly kingdome who together with the Father and the Sonne art adored and glorified of all the Saints of God Amongst whome I likewise the sonne of thy hande-maide doe with my whole hart glorify thy name because thou hast enlightned me For thou art the true light the light that telleth the truth the truth the fire of God and the maister and directour of our soules who by thy sacred vnction dost teache vs all truth Thou art the Spirit of truth without whose ayde it is impossible to please God because thou thy selfe art God of God light of light proceeding after an vnspeakable manner from the Father of lightes and from his sonne Iesus Christ our Lord with whom thou art glorified and dost raigne together with them superessentiallie being consubstantiall coequall and coeternal with them in the essence of one Trinitie I haue knowen thee one liuing and true God the Father the Sonne and the holy Ghost three indeede in personnes but one in essence whom I confesse adore and glorifie with my whole harte as the tâ—ue and onely God holy immortall inuisible immutable inaccessible vnsearcheable one light one sunne one breade one life one good one beginning and one end one creator of heauen and earthe by whom all thinges doe liue are preserued guided gouerned and reuiued in heauen in earthe and vnder the earth besides whom there is noe God either is heauen or earthe Thus o Lord God I haue knowen thee who knowest me thus I haue knowen thee I haue knowen thee o my light by thy faithe which thou hast inspired into me o Lord my God the light of â—â—ineeies the hope of the vniuersall worlde the ioy that maketh glad my young and tender yeares and the good that sustaineth my old age All my bones reioyce in thee o Lord saying O Lord who is like vnto thee Who is like vnto thee o Lord amongst the Gods For that the handes of men haue not made thee but contrariwise it is thou that hast made the handes of men The idolls of the Gentills are siluer and golde the workemanship of the handes of men but the maker of men is not such an one All the Gods of the Gentiles are diuells but our Lord hath made the heauens he therefore is the true God Let those Gods which haue not made heauen and earthe perishe and be cast forth of heauen and earthe and let heauen and earthe prayse that God which hath created heauen and earthe The acknowledging of our owne basenes CHAPT XXXIII WHo is like vnto thee o Lord euen amonge the Gods Who I say is like vnto thee Thou art greate in sanctiâ—ie terrible and worthy to be praised doing things that deserue to be admired Too too late haue I knowen thee o true light too too late haue I knowen thee And the cause was for that there was a great and darke cloude before mine eies that delighted in vanitie which hindred me from beholding the sunne of iustice and the light of all veritie I was wrapt in darknes being the child of darknes because I knewe not the light I was blindâ— and loued blindnes and walked through one darknes into an other Who hath deliuered me from thence where I remained as a blinde man sitting in darknes and in the shadowe of death Who hath taken me by the hande and lead me forthe of the same Who is he that hath thus enlightned me I sought him not and he sought me I called him not and he called me But who is he Thou art he o Lord my God being most mercifull and pittifull yea the Father of mercies and God of all comforte Thou o Lord my God most holy art he that hast donne the same whom I confesse with my whole harte rendring thanks to thy holy name I did not seeke thee thou hast sought me I did not call vpon thee thou hast called me yea thou hast called me by thine owne name Thou hast thundered from heauen with a greate voice into the internall eare of my harte saying Let light be made and light was made whereupon that greate and darke cloude which had couered mine eies departed and was dissolued whereby I haue seene thy light and knowen thy voice And I saied Trulieo Lord thou art my God who hast deliuered me out of darknes and from the shadowe of deathe calling me into thy admirable light soe that now I see Thanks be to thee o Lord who hast enlightned me And I looked backe and beheld the darknes wherein I had liued and the deepe darke dongeon wherein I had remained
of my vitious inclinations set open this pious place of refuge to which I may flie from the tumults of mine inordinate affections Graunt o Lord thou strength of my saluatioÌ„ that I be not of the number of those whoe for a â—ime beleiue and in time of temptation doe departe and leaue thee couer my heade in the day of battaile my hope in the day of affliction and my safegarde in time of tribulation Beholde o Lord my light and my life I haue asked those thinges which I want I haue made knowen those thinges which I feare neuerthelesse my conscience tormeÌ„teth me the secrets of my hart doe reprehende me and what loue affordeth feare disperseth zeale encourageth me dreade daunteth me mine actions cause me to feare but thy pittie giueth me cause of hope thy mercie emboldeneth me but my malice with-holdeth me And to speake the truth there occure to my memory many sinfull imaginations which reprehende the boldnes of my presuminge affections Mans complainte who for his disobedience is not heard of God CHAPT III. HE therefore which deserueth anger with what face can he demaunde fauoure he which meriteth to be punished howe can he be soe foole-hardie as to aske to be rewarded he incenseth the iudge whoe neglectinge to make satisfaction for his offence maketh meane to obtaine a recompence that malefactor mocketh and derideth his kinge and Lord that carnestly requiteth that price and honouâ—e which he nouer deserued That foolishe sonne likewise preuoketh to anger the sweete affection of his father whoe after reproaches offered bâ—fore repentance doth vsurpe and lay title to his inheritance What is this o Father thaâ— I recompt of myselfe I haue desâ—rued deathe yet begge for life I haue moued my kinge to anger whose aide not withstanding I impudentlie implore I hauâ— dâ—spiâ—ed my judge whome rashely I demaunde to be my helper I haue insolentlie refusâ—d to heaâ—e himâ—a a father whome nowe I presume to choose for my dâ— fender Woe is me for not comminge soe soone as I ought Alas alas howe little haâ—â— doe I make Woe is me for that I runne nowe after woundes be receiued disdatning to take heede of the dartes before I was wounded I neglected to beware of the weapons before hande yet nowe I am troubled throughe the apprehension of deathe at hande I haue inflâ—cted woundâ— vppon wounde for that I haue not feared to adde sinne vppon sinne I haue made my former scarrs to fester with newe sores for that I haue renewed my former faultes by newe iniquities and those whome the diuine salue had made sounde my phreneticall itching hath againe vnbound The skin which being growen ouer my woundes had hidden my maladie by reason of the corruption breakinge forthe hath growen to putrifie because mine iniquitie beinge reâ—â—eraâ—ed hath euacuated and bereaued me of mercie which before was graunted for that I knowe it is written In what hower soeuer a iust man shall sinne all his good deedes shal be forgotten If the righteousnesse of a good man is abolished when hâ—â—â—lleth into sinne by how much more is the pennance of a sinner defaced if he returne to the same O howe often haue I as a dogge returned to that which I had vomitted vpp before and as a sowe haue wallowed agains in the mire I confesse that it is impossible for me to remember howe manie simple and ignorant personnes by my meanes haue sinned howe manye that were desirous to cease from sinne I haue persuaded howe many that haue with-stoode me I haue constrained to howe many that were willing I haue consented to howe many that walked in the right way I haue prepared a ginne to how many that sought the right way I haue vncouered the pit that they might fall in and that I might not be deteried from committing still the like I easily put those past out of my minde But thou in the interim being a â—ust iudge markinge and sealinge vpp mine offenses as it were in a bagge hast considered all my waies and hast numbred all my foote stepps Thou hast all this while helde thy peace thou hast bene silent thou hast beene patient Woe is me for that thou wilt speake at length as a woman in her trauaile The dreade of the iudge comming to iudgement CHAPT IV. O God of Gods o Lord in mercy surmountinge the malice of men I knowe thou wilt not be alwaies silent then I meane when a flaminge fire shall burne before thee and a terrible tempest shall shoure downe rounde about thee when thou shalt call both heauen and earthe to iudge and discerne thy people And loe in the presence of soe many millions of people al mine iniquities shal be reuealed before soe many troupes of Angels al myne abominations shal be desplaied not onely of mine actions but likewise of my wordes and cogitations Ther shall I poore wretche stande to be iudged by so many as haue gone before me in doing good I shall by soe many accusers be thought worthy of hell as haue giuen me example of liuing well I shal be conuinced by soe many witnesses as haue admonished me by theire wholesome speeches and by their godly and pious conuersation haue caried themselues worthy of imitation O my Lord I knowe not what to say I knowe not what to answere And albeit I am as yet free from that terrible danger neuerthelesse my conscience doth afflict me the hidden secrets of my harte doe torment me couetousnes doth presse me pride doth accuse me enuie doth consume me concupiscence doth enflame me luste doth moleste me gluttonie doth disgrace me dronkennes doth conuince me detraction doth rent me ambition doth supplante me extorsion doth check me discorde doth distract me anger doth disturbe me leuitie doth vndoe me drousines doth oppresse me hyprocrisie doth deceiue me flattery doth subdue me fauoure doth eâ—toll me backbitinge doth disquiet me Beholde o my deliuerer whoe hast deliuered me out of the hands of cruell people Beholde with whome I haue liued from the day of my birthe with whome I haue studied and with whome I haue kept promise Those veâ—ie studies which here â—ofore I affâ—cted doe condemne me which in imeâ— paâ—t I praysed doe dispraise me These are the friends to whome I haue assenâ—ed the teachers whom I haue obeyed the maâ—sters whome I haue serued the consellers with whome I haue beleiued the cittizens with whome I haue inhabited the famâ—har acquaintance to whome I haue consented Woe is me o my kinge and my God for that my abode heare is prolonged Woe is me o my light for that I haue liued with those that liue in darknes And seeing holy Dauid saied soe muche howe muche more may I be able to say My soule hath dwelt too longe in a strange lande O my God my force and my fortresse noe man shal be iustified in thy sight My hope is not in the sonnes of men Whom wouldest thou find iustified if thou shouldest iudge seuerely setting mercie aside Neither is there any thinge
vpon him the nature and essence of man not of Angells and glorifying the same with the stole of his sacred resuriection and immortalitie he hath caried it aboue all the heauens aboue all the quiers of Angells aboue the Cherubins and Seraphins placing the same at the right hand of thy maiestie the Angels praise it the Dominations adore it and all the Vertues of heauen stand trembling in beholdinge him that is placed aboue theÌ„ God and man This verily is my whole hope and confidence Because in him to witt in our Lord Iesus Christ each one of vs hath a part each one of vs hath flesh and bloud Where therfore a part of me doth raigne there I trust to raigne my selfe where my flesh is glorified there I assure my selfe to be likewise in glory where my flesh hath rule and dominion there I suppose to rule my self Although I am a sinner yet I do not despaire to be partaker of this grace and fauour And albert my sinnes doe hinder me yet my substance doth require the same although my faultes doe exclude me yet the participation of the same nature doth not repell me For God is not soe cruell as that he can forgett man and not remember him whom he carieth about him and whom for my sake he seeketh to bring to saluation Verily our Lord God is very milde and mercifull and loueth his flesh members and bowells That flesh of ours loueth vs which is in Iesus Christ our most sweet gratious and louing Lord God in whom we haue already risen and ascended into heauen and doe already sitt in glorie with the celestiall spirits In him we haue the prerogatiue of our bloud for that we are his members and flesh and he likewise is our head by whom our whole bodie is composed according as it is written Bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh two shal be in one flesh And noe man at any time hateth his owne flesh but cherisheth and loueth it This is a great mysterie but I saieth the Apostle speake it of Christ and of his Church Of the two folde nature of Christ who pittieth vs and prayeth for vs. CHAPT XVI I Rendre thankes therefore to thine infinite mercy o my Lord God with my mouth haâ—â—e al the force I haue for all thy benefits by which thou hast vouchsafed soe wonderfullie to releiue vs wheÌ„ we were vndone and this by meanes of thy sonne our Sauious and Redeemer who hath died for our sinnes and hath risen againe for our iustification and liuing now for euer sitteth at thy right hand and maketh intercession for vs and together with thee taketh pitty of vs for that he is God of thee God the Father being coeternall and consubstantiall to thee in all thinges whence it proceedeth that he is able to saue vs for euermore Howe be it as he is a man in which respect he is inferior to thee all power is giuen him in heauen and in earth that at the name of Iesus euery knee should bow of thinges in heauen on earth and vnder the earth and that euery tongue should acknowledge and confesse o God and Father almightie that our Lord Iesus Christ is sittinge with thee in thy glorie It is he indeed whom thou hast appointed to be the iudge of the quick and dead for thou thy selfe iudgest noe man but hast left all iudgement vnto thy sonne in whose bosome are enclosed all the treasures of wisedome and learning He himselfe is witnes and iudge iudge and witnes from whom noe sinnful conscience shal be able to escape because all thinges are open and euident to his eies He truly that was iudged vniustly wil iudge the world with equitie and the people with indifferencie I therfore euerlastinglie blesse thy holie name o almightie and mercifull Lord and with my whole hart glorifie the same in respect of that vnspeakeable and wounderfull coniunction of the diuine and humaine nature in one person to the end that God should not be one and man an other but one and the same God and man man and God And albeit the diuine Worde by reason of the wonderfull loue he had to man hath vouchsafed to become flesh yet neither of the two natures haue beene transformed into an other substance neither hath a fourth person beene added to the mysterie of the Trinitie Because the substance of the Word of God and of man hath beene vnited but not mingled together to the end that that which had beene taken from vs might attaine vnto God and that which had neuer beene before might remaine the same with that which had beene for euer O mysterie worthy of admiration o exchange past explication o maruailous benignity of the diuine bountie for euer to be admired and for euer to be beloued We were altogether vnworthy to be termed seruants and behold we are made the sonnes of God the heires truly of God and coheires of Christ From whom happeneth this unto vs and who hath raised vs to soe great a dignity Now therfore I beseeche thee o God most mercifull Father by this thine inestimable pitty bounty and charitie that thou wilt make vs worthy of the great and ample promises of thy same sonne Iesus Christ our Lord. Make knowen vnto vs thy sonne and confirme this which thou hast wrought in vs AccoÌ„plish that which thou hast begun to the end we may be founde worthy to attiue to the full and perfect grace of thy endlesse mercy Make vs by vertue of the holy Ghost to understand and discerne and with due honoure alwaies to reuerence this great mysterie of thy mercy which hath beene made manifest in flesh hath beene iustified in spiritt hath appeared to the Angells hath beene preached to the Gentiles hath bene beleiued in the world and lastly hath bene assumpted in glory Of the great thanks giuing which man ought to render to God for the benefitt of his Redemption CHAPT XVI O How much are we bounde vnto thee o Lord our God being redeemed with soe great a guift being succoured by soe glorious a benefitt O how much oughtest thou of vs wretches to be feared loued blessed praysed honoured and glorified who hast in this manner loued saued sanctified and exalted vs Verily we owe unto thee all our ability all our life all our learning But who hath any thing that is not thine Thou therfor o Lord our God from whom all good thinges doe proceede for thine owne and for thy holy names sake bestowe vpon vs thy graces and benefitts that by them we may worthily serue thee and in veritie please thee and may daily render due prayses vnto thee for soe many and soe great graces and fauoures proceeding froÌ„ thy mercie We truly haue noe other meane wherby to serue and please thee but onely the guifts which we receiue from thy libâ—ralitiâ—â— for euery good and perfect guift is from aboue descending downe from the Father of lights with whom there is noe variation or shadow of change
O Lord our God who art a mercifull and good God a God of all power a God of vnspeakable and incomprehensible nature God the instructor of all thinges and the Father of our Lord Iesus Christ who for our common good hast sent from thy bosome our most sweet Lord thy beloued sonne to take vpon him our life that he might giue vs his and might be perfecte God of thee his Father and perfect man by reason of his mother whole God and whole man one and the same Christ eternal and temporall immortall and mortal creator and created strong and enfeebled conquerour and conquered nourisher nourished sheepe and shepheard dying temporallie and liuing with thee eternallie who promising the liberties of euerlasting life to those that loued him vsed these wordes vnto his disciples Whatsoeuer you shall aske my Father in my name he will giue it you By this high Preist true Bishoppe and good shepheard who hath offered himselfe as a sacrifice vnto thee laying down his life for his flocke I beseech thee by him who sitteth at thy right hand and maketh intercession for vs being our Redeemer and aduocate yea by thine owne mercifulnesse and goodnesse I humblye craue of thee o God most merciful milde and benigne louer of mankind that thou together with thy same sonne and holie Ghost for that you all three beinge but of one the same nature are to be esteemed but one and the same giuer wilt giue me grace to praise and glorifie thee in all thinges with great contritioÌ„ of hart and manie teares with much feare and trembling But for that our corrupt body is as a clogg or burden to the soule prick forward I beseeche thee my lasines with thy spurres and make me promptly to perseuere day and night in fulfillinge thy commaundements and in soundinge forth thy praises Graunt that my hart may waxe hoate within my bosome and that I may be as it were sett on fire by meanes of my meditation And because thine onely begotten son God hath saied Noe man commeth to me vnlesse my Father who hath sent me drawe him and noe man commeth to the Father but by me I humbly pray and beseeche thee draw me vnto him continually that he at length may bring me thither to thee where he sittethe at thy right hand where there is euerlasting life enduring hapy for euer where there is perfect loue voide of all feare where there is one eternall day and one desire of all where there is most soueraigne and certaine assurednes and assured quietnes and quiet ioyfullnes and ioyfull happines and happy euerlastingnes and euerlasting blessednes and blessed seeing and praising of thee being likewise endlesse where thou with him and he with thee in communion of the holy Ghost liuest and raignest God eternally and euerlastingely throughout all ages times and generations Amen A most deuoute prayer to our Sauiour Iesus Christ. CHAPT XVIII O Christ my God and hope thou loue of mankind The light way life and praise of those to life assign'd Behould thy bondes and woundes thy crosse death and thy graue All which thou didst eudure vs sinners for to saue Three daies being past from death thou didst arise againe And thy sadd freindes mad'st gladd who doubtfull did remaine The fourth day to heauen thou ascendedst where before Thou did'st do'st shalt liue and raigne for euermore Thou art my liuing and true God my reuerend Father my louing Lord my great king my good shepheard my most holie helper my most faire beloued my bread of life my Preist for eternitie my guide to the heauenlie country my true light my most sacred sweetnes my direct way my cheife knowledge my pure simplicitie my peaceable amity my sure guatdian my best portion my perpetuall safetie my immense mercy my most strong patience my immaculate sacrifice my sacred redemption my firme hope my perfect charitie my true resurrection my life euerlasting my most happie vision and reioycing which shall neuer haue ending I humbly desire begge and beseech thee that I may walke by thee attaine to thee and repose in thee who art the way the truth and the life without which noe maÌ„ can come to the Father Thou truly art my desire my most sweete and gratious Lord. O brightnes of the heaueÌ„ly Fathers glory who sittest aboue the Cherubins and beholdest the bottomles pits being the true light the enlightning light the neuer failing light on whom the Angells desire to looke Behold my hart is in thy presence dissolue the darkenes thereof that it may be wholy replenished with the light of thy loue Bestow thy selfe vpon me o my God giue me thy selte Behold o Lord I doe loue thee and if it be to little make me to loue thee more I cannot guesse how much loue is sufficieÌ„t to loue thee withall that my life may runne forewarde in desire of being embraced of thee neuer staying vntill it attaine to remaine hidden in the secret fauour of thy diuine maiestie yet this I know o Lord that it goeth not well with me both within and without me as often as I am without thee for that I esteeme all manner of riches and aboundance besides thee to be meere want and pouertie Because thou onely art that good which cannot be changed into better or worse thou art he alone who simplie art alone to whom it is not one thing to liue and an other thing to liue happily for that thou art thine owne happines Howebeit we that are thy creatures to whom it is one thinge to liue another thing to liue happily ought to attribute both our whole life and liuing happily to thy onely grace and bountie We therfore haue alwaies neede of thee but thou neuer of vs for albeit we were not at all yet nothing woulde be wanting to that good which thou art We therfore haue neede o Lord our God at all times to adhere to thee that by thy countinuall ayde we may be able to liue soberly iustly and religiously True it is we are drawen downwarde by the burden of our humaine fâ—ailtie but by the guift of thy grace we are inflamed and are caried vpward we burne goe foward we mounte vpward and making ascents in our hartes we sing a graduall song we are sett on fire through the good fire of thy loue and goe foreward But what maketh me now to soare vpp to the peace of Hierusalem Because I reioyce at those thinges which are toulde me We shall goe into the house of our Lord. Our good desire getteth vs a place there to the end we affect nothing els but to remaine there for euer Seeing therfore we haue noe permaneÌ„t citty during the time of this life but expect one heere after because as long as we liue in this world we are as strangers and pilgrimes in a forraine countrie in respect of thee o Lord for that our citty and habitation is in heauen for this cause I am accustomed being guided by thy grace to
enter into the secrett closett of my hait where I sing sonnetts of chaste loue vnto thee my king and my God groaning forth most greuious sighes in the place of this my pilgrimage where the dittie of my soÌ„ges are thy iustifications And calling Hierusalem to minde I doe dilate the senses and affections of my hart in thinking thereof in thinking I say of Hierusalem my countrie of Hierusalem my mother and of thee the ruler the beautifier the father the defender the patroÌ„ the gouernour the pastor the chaste and durable delightes the constant ioy and all the good thereof yea farr more then can either be spoken or imagined because thou art the onely soueraigne and true good neither will I attende to any other thing vntill it shall please thee my God and my mercy to sett me at liberty from the deformitie of this my corrupt body being brought by thee in to the peace of this my most deare mother whither the first fruites of my souâ—e are sent already I may be conformed and confirmed in the same for all eternity The distinction and difference betweene that wisedome which is Gods house and that which is diuine CHAPT XIX THis o God is that house of thine which is not built of any earthly or heauenly substance that is corporall but is altogether spirituall and by participation eternall for that it shall neuer growe to ruine or decay in respect that thou hast erected it for all eternitie thou hast giuen a commaundement and it shall not passe away howbeit it is not coeternall to thee o God seing that by creation it hath taken â—s beginning The first thing therefore created is wisedome yett not that wisedome which is altogether coeternal and coequall to God the Father by which at first all thinges were made and in whom at the beginning heauen and earth were made but that wisedome which was created spirituall to witt Nature by contemplation of the light is become light For that wisedome likewise albeit created is termed wisedome Neuertheles there is as great difference betweene that supreme wisedome which is the creator and that which is created as is betweene the light which doth enlighten and that which is enlightned or as is betweene iustice iustifying which thou o God art and iustice which ariseth from our iustification For we likewise accordinge to the testimonie of the Apostle are termed the iustice of God the Father in thee his sonne our Lord. Sithence therefore a certaine kinde of wisedome was created before all other thinges to witt that of thy chaste cittie HierusaleÌ„ our mother which is aboue and is free and to endure for euer in the heauens for this reason it hath beene created a reasonable and vnderstandinge soule But in what heauens cuen in those which doe prayse thee which are the heauens of heauens because this is the heauen of heauen prepared for our Lord And albeit we doe not find any time before this wisedome which was before the creation of time being indeede the first of al other creatures yett thou o eternall God the creator of all thinges art before it from whom it hath taken its beginning though not beginning of time because as yet time was not begun yett of his condition and being whereupon it hath its being and beginning in that sorte froÌ„ thee o Lord our God as that it is plainely an other thinge and altogether different from thee albert we finde not any time either in it or before it Verilye it is able at all times to see and contemplate thy face neither doth it at anye time looke aside from the same Whence it proceedeth that it remaineth stedfast without either chaunce or change Neuerthelesse it is of it selfe subiect to mutabilitie by which it woulde become darke and colde were it not that beinge by greate loue vnited to thee it did shine and growe hote by thee as it were by the sunne at midde-day Finally it is conioyned to thee the true truly eternal God with that chaste loue as that albeit it be not coeternall with thee yett it cannot be seuered and seperated from thee by anie variation and mutation of time but doth rest in the most true contemplation of thee alone For that thou o Lord dost shew thy selfe to this thy house louing thee like as thou hast commaunded neither doth it neede any thing els Hence it is that it doth not swarue or goe aside either from thee or from it self but remaineth alwaies stable in the same state by perpetually seinge thee the true light by continually louing thee the chaste loue thereof O high and happy creature most happy of all others by being allwaies adherent to thy happines O happy and excessiuely happy house who hath thee for her euerlasting Lord and light Neither doe I finde any thing which I thinke I may more fitly call caelum caeli Domino the heauen of heauen prepared for our Lord then this thy coÌ„templatiue house being thy delight without defect and without affection of departing vnto any other thing being a pure minde most concordantly one the established peace of the blessed Spiritts But these celestiall thinges are aboue in heauen hence lett that soule whose pilgrimage seemeth ouer long in this life try and see if now it thirsteth or noe to come to thee if now her teares are her foode if now or noe shee demande and desire this one onely thing that shee may dwell in thine house all the daies of her life And who but thou o Lord art her life And what are her daies but thine eternitie Like as thy yeares which shall neuer haue end Heere therefore lett that soule which is able consider and comprehende how much thine eternitie doth exceede all times seeing thy house which hath neuer been estranged and seperated from thee albeit it be not coeternall to thee yett by adhering perpetuallie and continuallie to thee it is free from all mutation of time and being from time to time absorpt with the most chaste delight of thy loue it hath neuer made shew of mutabilitie by reasoÌ„ of thee whose presence it hath enioyed perpetuallie to whom it is conioyned in all affection and amity To conclude it is free from all variation and ampliation of time hauing neither time to come which it may expect nor time past which it can remember Heere man desireth that this house of God will pray for him CHAPT XX. O Bright and beautifull house of God I haue loued thy beauty and the place of the habitatioâ— of the glory of my Lord God the possessor and builder of thee Lett my pilgrimage day and night sigh after thee lett my hart long after thee lett my minde thinke of thee lett my soule desire to attaine to the blessed felowshipp of thy felicity I say to him that hath made thee that he vouchsafe to possesse me in thee because he hath made both me and thee Nay rather doe thou speake to him doe thou entreate him to make me worthy to
that my soule may onely thirst and growe drie through the loue of thee forgetting all worldlie vanitie and miserie Heare o my God heare o light of mine eies heare and graunt what I demaunde of thee O most meeke and mercifull Lord refuse not to heare me by reason of my sinnes but for thy goodnes sake receiue the prayers of me thy vnworthy seruant and graunt me the effect of my peticion and desire by the prayers and intercession of our blessed Lady the glorious Virgin Marie and of all the Saints of thy heauenlie Cittie Amen A Prayer greately stirring vp the minds to compunction if it be saied in silence with attention CHAPT XXXVII O Lord Iesu o mercifull Iesu o good Iesu who hast vouchsafed to die for our sinnes and hast risen againe for our iustification I beseech thee by thy glorious resurrâ—ction raise me vp from the sepulcher of sinne and graunt me daylie a parte in this first resurrection that in the last likewise I may be thought worthie to receiue a portion O most sweete most benigne most louing most deare most inestimable most desired most amiable and most beautifull Lord who hast ascended into heauen in glorious and triumphant manner and as a puissant Prince sittest at the right hande of God the Father drawe me vp vnto thee that I may runne after thee being allured by the sent of thy ointments soe sweetelie smelling that I may runne without ceasing thou drawing and conducting me running drawe the mouth of my thirstie soule I beseech thee to those riuers aboue of euerlasting satietie nay rather leade me to the fountaine of life my God and my life that there I may drinke according to my capacitie in suche sorte as that I may be able to liue eternallie For thou with thy sacred and blessed mouth hast affirmed If any one thirst lett him come to me and he shall drinke and be satisfied O fountaine of life graunt that my thirstie soule may alwaies drinke of thee that according to thy holie and true promisâ— waters of life may flowe from my bellie O fountaine of life fill my minde with the streame of thy delight make my hart drunke with the sober drunkennes of thy loue that I may forget all thinges that are vaine and worldly and may continuallie haue thee in my memorie euen as it is written I haue been mindfull of God and haue been delighted Giue me thy holie spiritt whom those waters did signifie which thou didst promise to bestowe vpoz those that doâ— thirst after thee Graunt I beseeche thee that I may tende and aspire thither with my whole desire and affection whither we beleiue thou didst ascende the foâ—â—th day after thy Resurrection that I may be detained iâ— this vale of miserie in body onely being in thought and desire continually with thee to the end my harte may remaine there where thou art my desired incomparable and most beloued treasure For in the greate deluge of this life where we are â—ossed to and from with continuall tempests finding â—oe firme standing or assured place where the doue may fixe her foote for neuer soe small a space heere I say in this wretched worlde noe certaine peace or assured rest is to be expected for that where soeuer we are warres and dissensioÌ„s doe molest vs our enimies on all sides doe assaulte vs out wardly are fightes inwardlye teares And for that we consist of a two-folde substance partly of earth partly of heauen our body which is subiect to corruption is a clogg to the soule not suffering it to soare vp to celestiall contemplation Wherefore my minde being my compagnion freinde cominge as one wearied on the way lieth sicke and diseased being rent maÌ„gled by those vanities throughe which it hath passed it is exceeding hungrie and thirsty and I haue nothing to sett before it because I am poore and needy Thou therefore o Lord my God who art riche in goodnes and giuest in aboundance the dainties and delicacies of celestiall fulnes giue meate to my minde being wearied recollect it beinge distracted restore it to healthe being rent and mangled Beholde o Lord how it standâ—th at thy dore knocking I beseech thee by the bowells of thy coÌ„passion in which thou hast vouchsafed to visit vs coming downe vnto vs from heauen open the hande of thy pitty to my afflicted minde knockinge and calling vnto thee commaunde likewise by thy accustomed courtesie that it may enter and be brought in vnto thee that it may rest and repose in thee and lastly by thee may be refreshed fedd who art the liuing and heauenly bread with which being filled and strength being recouered let it ascende to the thinges aboue it and being lifted vp with the winge of holy desire from this vale of teares and lamentation let it soare vp to the heauenly kingdome Let my soule I beseech thee o Lord take the winges of an Eagle and fly without failing let it fly without ceasing vntill it come to the beautie of thy house and vnto the place of thy glorious habitation that there in the place of thy pasture which is enuiroÌ„ned with pleasant riuers it may be fedd with the foode of thy internall consolation sitting at the same table on which those heauenly citizens are wonte to take theire refection Graunt that my hart may rest in thee o my God my hart I say which is as aspatious sea tossed too and froo with continuall floudes Thou therfore o Lord who hast commaunded the windes and sea after which a greate calme did ensue come and walke vpon the waues of my harte to the end that all thinges within me may be stil and quiet that soe I may embrace thee the onely good thinge which I desire to possesse and may contemplate thee the gratfull light of mine eies being freede from the darke mist of troublesome thoughtes Let my minde o Lord flie and retire it selfe vnder the shadowe of thy winges from the inordinate heate of worldly cogitations that sittinge there in the temperate ayre of thy refreshing it may ioyfullie sing saying I will sleepe and repose in the peace of this one thinge that is of God alone O Lord my God let my soule sleepe I beseech thee by abandonning whatsoeuer is amisse lett it sleepe by hating wickednes and by louinge iustice For what thinge is there that can or ought to be more pleasing and delightfull vnto vs then amidst the darknes and manifold bitternes of this present life to desire diuine sweetnes and to sighe after eternall happines there to fixe the minde where it is most certaine true ioyes are to be founde O most sweete most louinge most benigne most charitable most inestimable most desired most beloued and most beautifull Lord when shall I see thee WheÌ„ shall I be presented before thee When shall I be satisfied by beholding thy beautie When wilt thou deliueâ— me out of this obscure prison that I may freely confesse thy holy name that from hence forth I may be
free from all affliction When shall I be admitted into that admirable beautifull house of thine where the voice of ioy and exultation doth refounde in the tabernacles of iust men They o Lord that dwell in thy house are happie because they shall praise thee euerlastingly They are happie and trulie happie indeede whoÌ„ thou hast chosen and taken vp to be heires of that celestiall beatitude Behold o Lord thy Saints doe flourishe in thy sight as a lâ—llie for that they are filled with the plentie of thy house thou giuinge them to drinke of the riuer of thy dilightful sweetnesse because thou art the fountaine of life and in thy light they doe see light soe that they the illuminated light by meanes of thee the illuminating light doe shine like vnto the sunne in thy sight O Lord of all vertues how wonderfull how beautifull how gratefull are the lodgings of thy heauenly mansion my sinfull soule doth exceedingly couet to enter into them O Lord I haue loued the beauty of thy house and the place of the habitation of thy glorie I haue desired of our Lord one thinge and I will aske it of him againe and againe to witâ— that I may dwell in the house of our Lord all my life longe Like as the harte longeth for the fountaines of waters when he iâ— pursued soe doth my soule longe after thee my God When shall I come and appeare before thee When shall I see my God whom my soule doth soe much thirst to behold When shall I see him in the lande of the liuinge for in this lande of the dyinge it is impossible with mortal eies to beholde him What shall I therfore doe poore wretche that I am being subiect to death and corruption What course shall I take As longe as we are in this corruptible bodie we are in respect of thee as strangers and pilgrims in a forraine countrie not hauinge heere any citty or certaine dwellinge but doe seeke for one in time to come because ouâ— habitation is in heauen Alas I esteeme my selfe wretched by reason of my ouer longe slay in this worlde I haue dwelt with the inhabitants of Cedar too longe hath my soule remained heere Who will giue me winges like vnto a doue that I may flie and be at rest Nothing can be to me soe pleasant and good as to be with my Lord. It is good for me to adhere to my God Giue me grace therfore I beseech thee that as loÌ„ge as I liue I may adhere to thee as it is written He that adhereth to our Lord becommeth one spiritt with him Giue me I beseech thee the winges of contemplation by which I may be able to flie vp vnto thee into heauen And for that euery thinge that is euiâ—l doth drawe vs downewarde to sinne vp holde my mynde that it fall not downe to the bottome of the obscure valley of perdition vpholde my minde least by the interposition of the shadowe of earthly thinges it be separated from thee the sonne of iustice and by the darke cloude of secular conuersation it be hindered from looking and lifting vp it selfe to celestiall contemplation For this cause I doe endeuoure to ascende vp to those ioyes of peace and to the deligthfull and quiet state of true light Vpholde my harte with thy holy hande for that without thy help it cannot ascende I doe hasten thither where surpassing greate peace raigneth and where continuall quietnes shineth Guide and conduct my soule and according to thy holy will drawe it vnto thee to the end that vnder thy conducte it may ascende vnto that region of plentie where thou dost feede Israel euerlastingly with the foode of thy veritie that there be it but in thought onely and for neuer soe shorte a time it may touche thee the supreame wisedome remaininge aboue all thinges ouer-going all thinges and gouerninge all thinges But many thinges there be which trouble my soule and hinder it that it cannot soare vp vnto thee Cause them all o Lord by thy commaundement to cease and be silent Let my soule it selfe be silente let it passe beyonde all thinges all thinges I meane created let it mounte aboue it selfe and come to thee Let it fixe the eies of its saith on thee alone the creator of all thinges lett it aspire to thee lett it attende to thee lett it meditate on thee lâ—tt it contemplate on thee lett it sett thee before its eies and thinke vpon thee in its harte who art the true and soueraigne good thinge and that ioy which shall neuer haue end For albeit the contemplations are many wherwith a deuoute soule is by thee wonderfully fedd and refreshed yet is my soule in none of them all soe much delighted and conforted as in thee and as when it doth meditate and contemplate on thee onely O how greate o Lord is the aboundaÌ„ce of thy sweetned how marueilouslie dost thou inspire and visit the hartes of such as loue thee how wonderfull is the delight of thy loue which they feele and enioy who affect and seeke nothinge but thee who desire not soe much as to thinke of any other thing sauing onely thee Happie are they whose hope iâ— in thee alone who wholy addict themselues to prayer and contemplation Happie is he that passeth his life in solitarinesse and silence taking continuall heede night and day to the custodie of his senses that euen in this life during the time of his abode in this fraile fleshe he may be able in some sorte to taste of thy vnspeakeable sweetnes I beseech thee o Lord by those most pretious woundes of thine which on the crosse thou hast suffered for the redemption of mankinde froÌ„ which hath gushed forth that most pretious blood by which we are redeemed wounde my sinfull soule for whom likewise thou hast vouchsafed to dye wounde it with the fierie and forcible darte of thy surpassing greate charitie Because the worde of God is powerful and effectual and more peircing then a two edged sworde Thou therfore o Lord who as a chosen arrowe and most sharpe sworde art able to peirce and passe thoughe the harde target of mans harte pierce my harte with the darte of thy loue that my soule may say I am wounded with thy charitie soe that from the wounde of this thy charitie teares may trickle downe day and night in greate quantitie Strike o Lord strike I most humblie beseeche thee my hard hatred soule with the pious and powerfull speare of thy loue yea peirce it to the very bottome with thy omnâ—poteÌ„t vertue Cause likewise a floude of water to flowe from my heade and a fountainâ— of teares continually to trickle downe from mine eies throughe the exceeding greate affection and desire of beholdinge thy fairnesse in such sorte as that I may weepe continuallie receyuing noe comforte duringe this present life vntill I shall be thought worthie to beholde thee in thy heauâ—nlie house my beloued and most beautifull spouse my God and my Lord
nowe o Lord Iesu thine accustomed mercies Wilt thou be displeased with me alwaies Be appeased I beseeche thee and take pittie of me and turne not away thy louinge face from me who to redeeme me hast not turned away thy face from those that did â—â—ocke and spit vpon thee I confesse that I haue sinned and my conscience doth adiudge me worthy of damnation neither is my pennance sufficient to make satisfaction neuerthelesse it is a thinge infallible that thy mercie doth surmount all offence whatsoeuer be it neuer soe abominable Wherefore o most mercifull Lord I beseeche thee doe not write any malitious bitternes against me neither enter into iudgment with thy seruant but according to the multitude of thy mercies blot out mine iniquities Woe be to me at the day of iudgment when the bookes of our consciences shal be opened wherein our actions are registred when of me it shall openly be proclaimed See heere the man and his deedes committed What shall I doe o Lord my God at that dreadfull day when the heauens shall reueale mine iniquitie and the earthe shall beare witnes against me Verilie I shall be mute and able to say nothinge but holding downe mine head through shame and confusion I shall stande before thee shaking and blushing Alas what shall I say I will call and crie vnto thee o Lord my God Why am I consumed being silent Neuerthelesse if I speake my greife will not cease and if I holde my peace I shall inwardlie be tormented with vnspeakeable bitternes Weepe o my soule and make lamentation as a younge married woman for the deathe of her newe married husbande weepe and bewaile thy miserie for that thy bridegroome which is Christ hath forsaken thee O anger of the almightie rushe not vpon me because thou canst not be contained in me verily there is nothing in me that is able to sustaine thee Take pittie of me loast I despaire of thy mercie that by despairing of my selfe I may finde comforte in thee And albeit I haue donne that for which thou maiest iustly condemne me yet thou hast not lost thy accustomed propertie of shewing mercie and pittie Thou o Lord dost not desire the death of sinners neither dost thou take pleasure in the perdition of those that die nay rather that those that were deade might 〈◊〉 thou thy selfe hast died and thy death hath beene the death of that death that was due to sinners And if thou dying they haue â—iued graâ—nt o Lord I beseeche thee that thou living I may not die Let thy heauenly hande help me and deliuer me from the handes of those that hate me lâ—ast they insult reioyce ouer me saying we haue deuouted him Howe is it possible o good Iesu that euer any one can despaiâ—e of thy mercie who when we were thine enimies hast redeemed vs with thy pretious blood and hast reconciled vs to God Beholde o Lord protected with the shadowe of thy mercie I runne crauing pardon to the throne of thy glorie calling and knocking vntill thou take pittie of me For if thou hast called vs to pardon euen when we did not seeke it by how much more shall we obtaine pardon if we aske it Remember not thy iustice o most sweete Iesu towardes me a sinner but be mindeful of thy meeknes towards me thy creature Remember not thine anger towardes me guilty but be mindefull of thy mercie towardes me in miserie Forgett my pride prouoking thee to displeasure and weigh my wretchednes imploring thy fauoure For what doth thy sacred name Iesu signifie sauing onely a Sauiour Wherfore o Sauioure Iesu be thou my succoure and protection say vnto my soule I am thy saluation I doe presume very muche of thy diuine bountie because thou thy selfe dost teache vs to aske seeke and knocke at the dore of thy mercie Wherfore I doe aske seeke and knocke at thy dore as by thy wordes thou hast admonished me to doe Thou therfore o Lord that willest me to aske graunt that I may receiue Thou that dost couÌ„sell me to seeke graunt me likewise to finde Thou that dost teach me to knock open vnto me knockinge at the dore of thy mercie Recouer me being diseased repaire me being crased raise me being deade Vouchsafe likewise soe to direct and gouerne all my senses thoughtes and actions in that which is pleasing vnto thee that from hence forth I may faithfullie serue thee I may liue and giue my selfe wholy vnto thee I knowe o Lord that by reason thou hast made me I doe owe my selfe vnto thee and by reason thou hast redeemed me and hast been made man for me I doe owe if I had it to giue thee much more then my self vnto thee by how much greater then me thou art who hast giuen thy selfe for me Beholde I hau nothing els to giue thee neither can I giue thee this without thee take me therefore and drawe me vnto thee that I may be thine by imitation and affection like as I am by condition and creation Who liuest and raignest world without end Amen A profitable Prayer CHAPT XL. O Lord God almightie who art Trinitie in vnitie who art alwaies in al thinges and wert before all thinges and wilt be in all thinges euerlastingly one blessed God during all eternitie To thee this day and all the dayes of my life I coÌ„mende my soule my bodie my seeing hearing taste smelling and touchinge all my cogitations affections wordes and actions all thinges that I haue without within me my sense and vnderstanding my memorie faith and beleife and my constancie in well doinge all these I commende into the handes of thy powerfull protection to the end that all the nightes and daies howers and moments of my life thou wilt vouchsafe to preserue them Heare me o sacred Trinitie and preserue me from all euill from all scandall from all offence mortall from all the deceiptes and vexations of the diuell and of mine ennimies visible and inuisible by the prayers of the Patriarchs by the meritts of the Prophets by the suffrages of the Apostles by the constancie of Martyrs by the faith of CoÌ„fessors by the chastity of Virgins and by the intercession of al those Saints and holy men that haue pleased and faithfullie serued thee since the worlde began roote out of my hart all vaine glorious ostentation and increase in me the spiritt of compunction appease my pride and make perfect my humilitie Stirre me vp to teares and contrition and mollifie my hart being as harde as a stone Deliuer me o Lord and my soule from all the snares of my ghostlie enimie and preserue me in the performance of that which is most pleasing vnto thee Teache me to doe thy will o Lord because thou art my God Giue me o Lord a perfect sense and intelligence wherâ—by I may be able to knowe and acknowledge thy maruailous greate kindenesse Graunt that my petitions may be such as that they may be pleasing to thee and profitable to my selfe â—raunt
whole desire o Lord is in thy sight and whatsoeuer my conscience doth attempt to doe that is praise worthy I acknowledge that it proceedeth wholy from thee If that o Lord be good which thou dost inspire yea it is good indeede because it is to loue thee graunt that I may doe that which thou dost cause me to desire Graunt that I may loue thee asmuche as thou dost require Beholde I offer thee praises and thankes-giuing lett not this guift of thine be vnprofitable vnto me o Lord which thou hast begunne and graunt me that which thou hast caused me to desire by preuenting me with thy gratious inspiration Transforme most sweete Sauiour my repiditie into a most feruent loue of thee For the onely thingâ— that I desire to attaine vnto most louing Lord by this my prayer and memorie of thy passion is that I may be able to loue thee with a most ardent affection Thy goodnes o Lord hath created me thy mercy after my creation hath cleansed me from originall sinne thy patience after baptisme hath hitherto sustained nourished and expected me being defiled with many other sinnes Thou o good Lord dost expect when I will growe better and my soule that it may be able to doe pennance and to iiue well doth expect the inspiration of thy gratious fauoure O my God who hast created me who dost patientlie sustaine and louingly maintaine me I hunger and thirst after thee I desire sighe and couet to come to thee And as a poore distressed childe depriued of the presence of his tender harted father doth with sighes sobbes incessantlye embrace in his harte the image and semblance of his fauoure soe fareth it with me as often as I call to minde thy bitter Passion which albeit it be not as much as I ought yet it is as muche as I am able when I call to minde likewise the buffetts and whipps by thee sustained the greiuous woundes by thee endured wheÌ„ I remember in what cruell manner thou hast been crucified and killed in what manner thou hast by thy deare freindes beene embaulmed and buried as often likewise as thy glorious Resurrection and and admirable Ascension doe occure to mine imagination All these thinges I beleiue most firmely lamenting with teares the calamities of my exile in this vale of miserie my onely hope is the comforte of thy comminge my cheife desire is to beholde thee face to face in thy heauenly habitation I cannot but greiue for that I haue not scene the Lord of Angells debasing himselfe to conuerse and liue amongst men that by that meanes he might exalt men to Angelicall conuersation when God did die who was offended that man might liue who had offended I cannot but greiue for that I haue not deserued to be present and to be astonished through admiration of a worke of soe wonderfull and vnspeakeable compassion Howe is it o my soule that the sworde of most sharpe sorrowe doth not peirce thee to the harte seing thou could'st not be present to see the side of thy Sauiour wounded with a speare seing thou couldst not be present to see the feete and handes of thy maker to be fastned with nayles nor the blood of thy redeemer to be spilt on the grounde in that dreadefull manner Why art thou not drunke with the bitternes of teares seeing he was made to drinke of the bitternes of gall Why dost thou not take compassion of the most chaste Virgin Marie his most worthy mother and thy most worthy Ladie O my most merciful Lady what fountaines of teares may I affirme to haue flowed from thy most chast eies when thou beheldst thy onely sonne albeit free from all offence to be bounde whipt and slaine in thy presence In what mournefull manner may I imagin thy dolefull countenance at that time to be blubbered all ouer with weeping when thou beheldst this thy innocent sonne thy God and thy Lord to be stretched out vppon the crosse and that sacred fleshe framed of thy fleshe to be by those bloodie boucheâ—s soe cruellie rent in peices With what vnspeakeable greife may I well thinke thy poore harte at that time to be tormented when thou didst heare those wordes pronounced Woman behold thy sonne And the disciple Beholde thy mother When thou didst accept the disciple insteed of his maister and the seruant in lieue of his Lord O that I had beene worthy with S. Ioseph to haue taken my Lord downe from the Crosse to haue embaulmed and buried him to haue followed or accompanied him to his sepulcher that I might haue doÌ„ne some little seruice at soe greate a funeral O that I had with the three blessed Maries been striken into amazednes through the bright vision of the Angells and had heard newes of our Lords Resurrection newes of my consolation newes soe muche expected and desired O that I had hearde I say from the mouthe of the Angell doe you not feare you seeke Iesus that was crucified he is not heere O most courteous most sweete and most gratious Iesu when wilt thou cure me of my sorrowe and pensiuenes for that I haue not seene the incorruption of of thy blessed fleshe For that I haue not kissed the places where thou wert wounded the places which the naâ—les had peiâ—ced For that I haue not bedewed with teares of ioy the scarrs of thy true bodie O admirable inestimable and incomparable Lord and Sauiour when wilt thou comforte and cure me of the greife which I endure Because my sorrowe will neuer cease to afflict me as loÌ„g as I liuet o Lord seperated from thee Take pittie of me o Lord take pittie of my soule Thou hast departed o Lord without bidding me farewell Beginninge to mounte vp into heauen thou hast blessed thy freindes there assembled and I was not present to see it Lifting vp thy handes thou hast beene receiued by a cloude into heauen and I was not present to beholde it The Angells haue promised that thou wouldest returne and I did not heare it What shall I say What shall I doe Whither shall I goe Where shall I seeke him and when shall I finde him Of whom shall I aske for him Who will tell my beloued how muche I loue him The delight of my harte is changed into desolation my laughter in lameÌ„tation My fleshe and my harte haue failed me o God of my harte and mine inheritance euerlastinglie My soule hath refused all other comforte and consolation o God my sweete delight sauing that which proceedeth from thee alone For what haue I in heauen or what doe I desire vpon earth sauing thee alone I couet after thee my trust is in thee I seeke after thee My hart hath saied to thee I haue sought thy face thy face o Lord will I seeke turne not a way thy face from me O most gratious louer of men thou art the protector of the poore thou art a friende to suche as are depriued of father and mother O most assured Aduocate take pittie
in them contained Enlighten mine eies o incomprehensible light sende forth thy lightning and dazell theÌ„ that they may not beholde vanitie Encreâ—se thy lightning and dazell and trouble them in that manner as that fountaines of water may appeare and the foundations of the whole worlde may be discouered O light inuisible giue me that sight that may see thee O sauoure of life create in me a newe smell which may make me runne after thee in the odoure of thy oyntments Cure my taste that it may taste knowe and discerne how greaâ—e the multitude of thy sweetnes is o Lord which thou hast kept in store for theÌ„ that are replenished with thy loue Giue me a harte o Lord that may thinke on thee a minde that may loue thee a memorie that may muse on thee an vnderstanding that may knowe thee a will that may alwaies be strongly vnited to thee the cheifest and most delightfull good Graunt that I may alwaies wisely and discreetely loue thee O life to whom all thinges liue that life which giueth me life that life which is my life that life by which I liue without which I die that life by which I am raysed and reuiued without which I perishe and am consumed that life by which I am coÌ„forted without which I am afflicted O liuing life sweete and worthy to be beloued alwaies to be remembred tell me I pray thee where art thou Where may I finde thee to the end I may leaue my selfe and liue in thee Be neere vnto me in my minde neere in my harte neere iâ— my mouthe neere in my hearing neere to succoure me in time of affliction because I languishe through thy loue because I die whensoeuer I am without thee and am raysed againe to life by thinking on thee Thy smell recreateth me thy remembrance healeth me Then shall I be satisfied and neuer before when thy glorie o life of my soule shall appeare My soule greatelie desireth and almost fainteth throughe the remembrance of thee when shall I come o my delight and be presented before thee Why dost thou hide away thy face o my ioy by which I reioyce Where art thou hidden o beautifull Lord Whom I soe much desire I smell the sweete sauoure of thee I liue and am delighted in thee and yet I doe not see thee I heare thy voyce and am reuiued But why dost thou hide thy face from me Peraduenture thou wilt say Man cannot see me and liue Let me therefore die o Lord that I may see thee let me see thee that I may die to the worlde I doe not desire to liue but to die for that my desire is to be dissolued and to be with Christ I desire to die that I may see Christ I refuse to liuâ— to the end I may liue with Christ O Lord Iesu receiue my spirit o my life receiue my soule O my delight drawe my harte vnto thee O my delightfull foode let me feede on thee O my heade vouchsafe to direct me o light of mine eies enlighten me O my melodious musique tune and order me O my sweete smell reuiue me O diuine Worde recreate me O my praise make gladde the soule of thy seruant Enter into it o my ioy that it may reioyce in thee Enter into it o soueraigne sweetnes that it may taste and sauoure those thinges that are sweete O eternall light shine vppon it that it may vnderstande knowe and loue thee For this iâ— the cause why it doth not loue thee if it doth not loue thee because it doth not knowe thee and the cause why it doth not knowe thee is for that it doth not vnderstande thee And the cause why it doth not vnderstande thee is for that it doth not comprehende thy light and the light shineth in darknes and the darknâ—s comprehendeth it not O light of my mâ—nde o bright truthe o true charitie who enlightnest euery man comminge into this worâ—dâ—e comminge I say into the wor'd but not louinge the worlde because he that loueth the worlde becommeth the ennimy of God Expell the darkenes which couereth the face of the depth of my minde that by vnderstanding it may see thee that by seinge it may knowe thee and by knowing may loue thee For whosoeuer knoweth thee loueth thee and forgetteth himselfe he loueth thee more then himselfe he leaueth himselfe and commeth to thee that he may be delighted in thee Hence it proceedeth o Lord that I doe not loue thee soe much as I ought because I doe not perfectlie knowe thee but because I knowe thee but a little I loue thee but a little and because I loue thee but a little I am but a little delighted in thee Leauing thee therfore the true internall ioy by louing thinges externall aslong as I wante thee onely I seeke after false freindshipps in those thinges that are without me And by this meanes I haue applied my harte to thinges that are vaine which with all affection and loue I ought to haue bestowed on thee alone And soe by louing vanitie I my selfe am become vaine Hence it proceedeth likewise o Lord that I doe not reioyce in thee neither doe I adhere to thee Because I delight in thinges temporall thou in thinges spirituall my whole minde thoughtes and wordes are entangled in thinges transitorie but thou o Lord dwellest in thinges that endure for all eternitie thou thy selfe being eternitie Thy habitation is in heauen mine on the earthe Thou louest those thinges that are aboue I those that are heere beneathe Thou those that are heauenly I those that are earthly And when will these thinges agree together that are soe opposite one to an other Of the miserie and frailtie of man CHAPT II. WRetche that I am when will my crowkednes be made correspondent to thy righteousnes Thou o Lord louest solitarines I to be in the companie of others Thou louest silence and I talkinge and discourse Thou louest veritie and I vanitie Thou louest cleanlines and I followe mine owne filthines What neede I say more o Lord Thou art truly good I wicked Thou art righteous I vnrighteous thou art holy I wretched thou arti ust I vniust thou art light and I am blinde thou art life and I am deade Thou art phisique and I am sicke Thou art mirthe and I am melancholy Thou art the supreame veritie and I am altogether vanitie like as euerie man liuing What shall I then say o my Creator Heare me o Creator I am thy creature I haue beene forelorne and gone astray I am thy creature and am like to die I am of thy making and am come to nothinge I am a peece of earthe framed by thee Thy handes o Lord haue made me and fashioned me those handes I say which with nayles were fastned to the crosse for me Looke I beseeche thee o Lord vpon the woundes of thy handes and contemne not me the worke of thy handes Beholde o Lord my God thou hast writteÌ„ me in thy handes reade that
without whō is made nothing Woe is me poore wretche soe often blinded and depriued of sight for that I want thee being the true light Woe is me poore wretche soe often wounded for that I want thee the soueraigne salue by which we are cured Woe is me poore wretche soe often deceiued for that I want thee being the truthe by which we are directed Woe is me poore wretche soe often going astray for that I want thee who art the true way Woe is me poore wretche soe often deade for that I want thee who art the life by whō we are reuiued Woe is me poore wretche soe often brought to nothing because thou art the diuine Worde by whom all thinges are made I want thee without whom nothing is made O Lord God thou diuine Worde who art the light by whom light was made who art the way the truth and the life in whom there is nether darknes error vanitie nor death Thou art the light without which darknes blindeth vs thou art the way without which error deceiueth vs thou art the veritie without which vanitie allureth and deludeth vs thou art the life without which death vanquisheth vs. Say the worde o Lord let light be made that I may see the light and eschewe darkenes that I may see the way and shunne error that I may see the veritie and auoid◠vanitie that I may see life and escape deathe Enlighten me o Lord and my light my light and saluation whom I will feare my Lord whom I will prayse my God whom I will honor my Father whom I will loue my bridegroome to whom and for whom onely I will liue Enlighten me o Lord and my light enlighten me I say thy poore blinde seruant sitting in darknes and in the shadowe of deathe and guide my feete into the way of peace by which I may enter into the place of thy glorious tabernacle euen into the house of God with wordes of exultation and confession For true confession is the way by which we arriue vnto thee the true way by which we leaue wandering out of the true way and returne vnto thee the true way euen the true way of life What it is to become nothing CHAPT V. I will therfore make knowne and confesse my miserie vnto thee o father Lord of heauen and earthe Because I am become wretched and as one turned to nothing and I knewe it not because I wanted thee who art the truth My sinnes wounded me and I felt it not because I wanted thee that art my life They brought me to nothing because I wanted thee who art the Worde by whom all thinges are made without whom nothing is made Being therfore without thee I became nothing because that is nothing that bringeth vs to nothing All thinges that were made were made by thy Worde But how were they made God behelde all thinges he had made and they were exceeding good All thinges therfore that are made are made by the Worde and all thinges that are made by the Worde are exceeding good Whie are they good Because all thinges are made by the Worde and without it is made nothing for that there is nothing good which proceedeth not from God the supreame good Contrarie wise that is euill which containeth in it selfe noe good and this euill is a meere nothing for that euill is nothing els but the want of good euen as blindenes is nothing els but the want of sight Euill therefore is a meere nothing because it is made without the Worde without which there is made nothinge And that is to be accompted euill which wanteth that good by which all thinges whasoeuer are made But those thinges that are not are not made by him and consequentlie they are nothing This therfore is the cause why those thinges are euill which are not made because all thinges whatsoeuer are made are made by the Worde and all thinges that are made by the Worde are good And sithence all thinges that are made are made by the Worde those thinges that are euill are not made by him It remaineth therefore that all thinges that are not made are not good because all thinges that are made are good whēce it followeth that those thinges are euill which are not made and consequentlie are nothing because without the Worde there is made nothing Euill therfore is nothing because it is not made What is it then if it be not made Surelie nothing els but the priuation and want of that good by which good is made Wherfore to be without the Worde is euill which cannot properly be fared to be because without the Worde there is nothing But what is it to be separated from the Worde If you desire to knowe this heare first what the Worde is The diuine worde saieth of himselfe I am the way the truth and the life To be separated therfore frō the Worde is to be without the way the truth and the life therfore to be without him is to be nothing and consequentlye euill because it is separated from the Worde by which all thinges were made exceeding good To be separated therfore from the Worde by which all thinges were made is nothing els but to cease to be and returne to nothing because without the worde there is nothing wherfore as often as thou dost swarue from that which is good thou dost seperate thy selfe from the Worde which is the true good and soe thou becommest nothing because thou art without the Worde without which there is made nothing Beholde o Lord thou hast enlightned me to the end I might beholde thee by which meanes I haue seene and knowen my selfe being now assured that as often as I haue been seperated from thee I haue become nothing because I haue forgotten thee the onely true good and soe by that meanes haue become euill Poore wretche that I am how came it to passe that I did not knowe eare this time that forsaking thee I became nothing But why doe I demaunde that question For how coulde I desire to knowe thee if I was nothing We knowe full well that euill is nothing and that which is nothing hath noe being that likewise which is not good hath noe being because it is nothing If therfore I was nothing when I was without thee I was as nothing and like vnto an image or idoll which is nothing which hath cares and heareth not nostrills and smelleth not which hath eies and seeth not which hath a mouth and speaketh not which hath handes and handeleth not which hath feete and walketh not and finally hath the forme and shape of the members of a man without the vse and feeling of them Of the miserable estate of the soule being in sinne CHAPT VI. AS long therfore as I was without thee I was not for that I was nothing and therfore I was blinde deafe and vnsensible because I did neither discerne what was good not shunne that which was euill neither did I feele the
boasting minde but possesse my harte that it may alwaies thinke of thee Enlighten the eies of mine vnderstanding that they may see thee not be exalted in thy presence o glorie euerlasting but let them thinke humbly not looking ouer curiously on those wonderfull thinges that are aboue them Let them looke vppon those thinges that are on the right hande and not vpon those on the left that are displeasing vnto thee Let thy eie-lidds likewise guide my footestepps for that thy eie-lidds looke into the actions and thoughtes of the sonnes of men Breake and bruise my vnlawefull luste with thy sweetenes which thou hast reserued for those that feare thee to the end I may with an eternall desire couet thee least my internall taste being through vanities entseed and deceaued esteeme bitter to be sweete and sweete to be bitter darkenes to be light and light to be darkenes that I may escape free from such a multitude of snares wherewith all the worlde is replenished which our ghostly ennimic hath placed in the way of this life that we are to walke in therby to ensnare the soules of such as sinne Which he that saw it omitted not to tell vs of saying Whatsoeuer is in the worlde is either the concupiscence of the eies concupiscence of the flesh or pride of life Beholde o Lord my God the whole worlde is full of the snares of concupiscences which my ghostly ennimies haue prepared to intrappe me in and who shall be able to auoide them Verily he from whom thou shalt take away the concupiscence of the eies least the concupiscence of the eies doe entrappe him from whom thou shalt take away the concupiscence of the flesh least the concupiscence of the fleshe entice him and from whom thou shalt take away a bolde and boasting minde least pride of life doe craftely deceaue him O how happie is he to whoÌ„ thou shalt afforde this â—auoure because such a one shall passe without danger Wherfore I beseeche thee for thine owne sake o my Redeemer that thou wilt helpe me that I may not fall in the sight of mine aduersaries being taken in the snares which they haue prepared to entrap my feete therby to ouerthrowe my soule but deliuer me o strength of my saluation least thine ennimies which hate thee haue me in derision Arise o Lord my God thou that art my fortitude and let thine ennimies be dispersed let those that hate thee fly before thee yea like as waxe melteth away before the face of the fire euen soe let sinners consume in thy sight But let me remaine safe being hidden in the secret place of thy presence where abounding with all good thinges I may reioyce in the companie of thy children Listen o Lord God vnto the crie of thy children who art a father to the fatherlesse and a mother to such as are in distresse and stretch for the thy winges that we may flie vnder them from the face of our aduersarie O tower of the fortresse of Israel who wilt neither slumber nor sleepe garding and defending Israel for that the ennimie doth neither slumber not sleepe that opposeth Israel Of the miseries of man and the manifolde benefits of almighty God CHAPT XIII O Light not seene by any other light o brightnes not behelde by any other brightnes That light that darkneth all other light that brightnes that maketh dimme all externall brightnes O light from which all light is deriued o brightnes from which all brightnes doth proceede that brightnes in comparison of which all brightnes is but dimnes all light but darknes That light in whose presence all dimnes is turned into brightnes all darknes into light O supreme light by noe cloude enclouded by noe mist diminished by noe darknes darkned by noe obstacle enclosed by noe shadowe seuered and deuided O light which enlightnest all thinges wholy together seuerally and for euer let me be absorpt by thee into the bottoÌ„lesse depth of thy brightnes that on euerie side I may see thee in thee and me in thee and all thinges vnder thee Forsake me not o Lord I beseeche thee least the darknes of my ignorance and sinne increase Verilie without thee all thinges are darknes and sinne vnto me because nothing is good without thee the true sole and soueraigne good I confesse and acknowledge o Lord my God that wheresoeuer I am without thee it fareth not well with me neither without nor within me because without thee o my God I esteeme plentie to be pouertie I shall then be content and not before to wit when thy glorie shall appeare Giue me grace likewise o Lord who art my onely felicitie that I may confesse my miserie vnto thee I confesse therefore that as longe as the multiplicitie of temporall affaires did disperse and deuide me following my sensualitie from one thinge into many to wit from the supreame and onely good that is froÌ„ the vnitie of thy goodnes soe longe I had painefull plentie and plentifull pouertie poursuing many thinges and finding content in none for that I founde not thee with in me the assured singular inseparable and sole good which hauing now gotten I am noe more subiect to neede which hauing obtained I am now no more payned and greiued which hauing now in possession my whole desire is satisfied This is a miserie me thinke aboue other miseries to be lamented to see how my miserable soule doth forsake and abandon thee in whose company shee is alwaies riche and gladde and adhereth to the worlde with whom shee is alwaies poore and fadde The worlde crieth vnto vs saying I fade and thou o Lord callest vnto vs saying I feede and yet notwithstanding such is my peruerse miserie that it maketh choice rather to followe him that fadeth then him that feedeth me This is my infirmitie and disease Cure the same o Phisition of our soules to the end I may with my whole harte acknowledge vnto thee o Sauiour of my soule the manifold benefits with which thou hast nourished me from my tender youth vntill these my ould and last decrepit yeares For thine owne sake o Lord I beseeche thee not to forsake me when I was nothing thou hast created me when I was consumed through sinne thou hast redeemed me when I was past recouerie and deade through mine iniquitie thou hast come downe from heauen vnto me taking vpon thee my mortalitie thou I say being a king and Lord soe puissant hast descended from heauen vnto thy slaue and seruant rendring thy selfe captiue to reserue him a liue yea thou thy selfe hast died and by dying hast ouercome deathe to the end thou mightest restore me to life exalting me to my former dignitie by debasing thy selfe to soe greate pouerty When I was vtterly vndonne being gone astray and solde to sinne thou hast come into the worlde for my redemption and hast loued me soe dearely as that thou hast giuen thine owne blood for a ransome for me thou hast loued me o Lord more then
mercy giue me yet greater light and vnderstanding I beseech thee that I may perceiue it more plainely For by the lesser benefits o holy Lord God our good Creator we growe to vnderstande thy greater and by those which we visibly see heer we come to the knowledg of those that are inuisible in heauen For if thou o God dost bestowe vpon our base and corruptible body soe greate and innumerable benefits from the firmament and ayre from the earthe sea from the light and darknes from heate and shadowe from dewe and raine from windes and shewers from foules fishes from beastes and trees from variety of hearbes and plantes and of al other of thy earthely creatures seruing vs successiuely in their turnes that by them thoâ— maiest solace the sorowes of this our wearisome life what manner of benefits are those I pray thee how greate I say and innumerable shall those comfortes and commodities be which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee in that heauenly country where apparantly face to face we shall see and beholde thee If thou dost soe much for vs now in this earthly prison what wilt thou doe for vs heerafter in the palace of thy heauenly habitation Greate certainely and innumerable are these thy workes o Lord and kinge of heauen For seing all these thinges are exceeding good and delightfull which thou hast imparted to good and bad men in common what manner of thinges wil those be which thou hast reserued for the good alone If the guifts which thou dost now giue vnto thy freindes and foes together be soe innumerable and many how greate innumerable how sweete and delightfull will those be which thou wilt bestowe heereafter vpon thy freinds onely If thou dost giue vs soe greate comfortes on this sorrowfull day of weepings how greate wilt thou giue vs on the festiuall day of the wedding If soe greate delightes are contained in this earthly prison how greate are contayned in the countrie of heauen There was neuer yet any eye o God without thee that hath seene the pleasures which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee Because the immensitie of thy sweetnes which thou hast reseruâ—â— for those that feare thee is answerable vnto the immensitie of thy magnificence Wherfore o Lord my God like as thou art greate and immense there being neither end of thy greatnes or number of thy wisedome or measure of thy bounteousnes soe likewise there is neither end or number nor measure of thy recompence but like as thou art greate soe is likewise thy rewarde and recompence because thou thy selfe art their rewarde and recompence that fight for thee according to thy holy ordinance That the sweetnes of God doth take away the present bitternes of the Worlde CHAPT XXII THâ—se o Lord God the sanctifier of thy Saincts are those greate benefits of thine with which thou hast aboundantly supplied and replenished the wantes of thy children because thou are the hope of those that are in desperation their comforte that are in affliction thou art a crowne of confidence adorned with glory prepared for those that ouercome Thou art the eternall foode and fullnes of thy hungry seruants to be distributed to those that hunger after righteousnes Thou art the euerlasting comforte who bestowest thy selfe on them only that despise all worldly comforte in hope of that endlesse comforte which they shall haue of thee Because those that are comforted eere are vnworthy to be comforted by thee heereafter But they are by thee comforted who are heere for thee afflicted and they that are partakers of thy passions are likewise partakers of thy consolations Certainely noe man can be comforted in both worldes or reioyce heere in this life and in the next likewise but of necessitie he must loose the one that will get the other When I consider these thinges o Lord my comforter my soule refuseth to be comforted in this life to the end it may be thought worthy of thy eternall comfortes because according to reason it seemeth that he is worthy to loose thee that taketh more delight in any other thing then in thee Wherfore o souueraigne truth by thine owne selfe I beseeche thee permitt me not to take pleasure in any vanitie But let all transitorie thinges seeme bitter vnto me that thou alone maiest seeme sweete vnto my soule who art that inestimable sweetnes that maketh bitter thinges to be sweete Thy sweetnes made the stones of the streame seeme sweete vnto Saint Stephan with which he was stoned Thy sweetnes made the burning gridiron seeme sweete vnto Saint Laurence on which he was broyled By meanes of thy sweetnes the Apostles went ioyfullie froÌ„ the sight of the councell for that they were thought worthy to suffer reproache for thy name Saint Andrewe went with ioy and alacritie towardes the Crosse because he went with hast towardes thy sweetnes The Princes of the Apostles likewise Saint Peter Saint Paule with this thy sweetnes were replenished so that to obtaine it the one of them made choice to be crucified the other without feare to loose his heade Saint Bartholomewe to buy it gaue his owne skinne and Sainte Iohn to taste of it without feare drunke vp a cuppe of poison Noe sooner had Saint Peter tasted of this sweetnes but forthwith forgetting all inferiour thinges he cried out as one inebriated and ouercome with ioy saying Lord it is good for vs to be heere let vs make heere three tabernacles let vs remaine heere in diuine contemplation because we want noe other thing It is sufficieÌ„t for vs saide he to see thee it is sufficient to be satisfied with soe greate sweetnes He had noe sooner tasted one onely droppe of that heauenly sweetenes but he immediatelye forgott all other sweetenes What woulde he haue saied thinke you if he had tasted of the immense sweetenes of thy diuinitie which thou hast kept in store for those that loue thee That Virgin likewise had tasted of this thy vnspeakeable sweetenes of whom we reade that shee went to the prison in that pleasant and merrie manner as if shee had been inuited to some banquet or supper He likewise I suppose had tasted of this sweetnes who saied How greate o Lord is the multitude of thy sweetnesse which thou hast laied vp in store for those that feare thee Who likewise did put vs in minde of it saying Taste and see because our Lord is sweete This o Lord God is that happines which we doe hope thou wilt bestowe vpon vs for which we fight for thee continuallie for which we mortifie our selues for theâ— dailie to the end we may liue with thee in that happy life of thine which shall last euerlastingly That our whole hope and the desire of our harte ought to be in God CHAPT XXIII Bvt thou o Lord the expectation of Israel the desire after which our hartâ— doth sighe euery day make hast and doe not stay Arise make hast and come and deliuer vs out
of this prison to confesse vnto thy name that we may glory and be delighted in thy light Open thine eares to the dolefull clamours of thy dristressed children who cry to thee saying O our Father giue vs this day our daily breade in the strength of which we may walke day and night vntill we attaine vnto thy holy mountaine Oreb O God my Father and force when shall I that am the least of all thy family come and appeare before thy face to the end that as I doe now praise thee during the time of this mortalitie I may from thence for the praise thee euerlastinglie O how greate shall I esteeme my happines if I shall at length be admitted to beholde thy brightnes Who will obtaine this fauoure for me that I may be admitted to beholde thee I knowe o Lord I knowe and confesse that I am vnworthy to enter into thy house neuerthelesse I beseech thee afforde me this fauour for thy glorie and confounde not thy seruant that trusteth in thee But who is able to enter into thy sanctuarie to consider thy power if thou o Lord doe not open vnto him the dore Or who can opeÌ„ it if thou shutt it Verily noe man is able to erect that which thou dost throwe downe neither is any one able to free him whom thou dost putt in prison If thou withholde the waters all thinges become dry and withered againe if thou lett them loose they will ouerwhelme the worlde If thou shouldest cause all thinges which thou hast created to returne to nothing who durst condradict thee Finallie there is noe end of the goodnes of thy mercy by which thou hast created all thinges that it hath pleased thee Thou o maker of the worlde hast made vs vouchsafe likewise to gouerne vs. Thou hast created vs despise vs not because we are thy workmanship Certainely o Lord our God we that are little wormes composed of durte and clay cannot enter into thy eternitie vnlesse thou leade vs in who hast created all thinges of nothing That our Saluation is from God CHAPT XXIV I therfore that am the worke of thy handes will confesse vnto thee in thy feare for that I will not put my confidence in my bowe neither is my sworde the thing that shall saue me but thy right hande and thy arme and the light of thy countenance Certainely I shoulde despaire were it not that thou art my hope that hast created me whose propertie is neuer to forsake those that hope in thee Because thou art our Lord God full of sweetnes and patience mercifullie disposing all thinges For whether we sinne or sinne not we are still thy creatures and thou dost still esteemeâ— and make accounte of vs Verily al of vs are as the leafe of a tree and euery man liuing is meerely vanitie soe that our life whilst we liue in this worlde is as a puffe of winde If we therefore thy poðre pupills chaÌ„ce to fall be not offened because thou o Lord our God knowest the brickle substance wherof we were made Wilt thou therfore o God of inestimable fortitude shewe thy power against a lease that with euerie pusse of winde is caried hither and thither or wilt thou persecute a little stuble or strawe Wilt thou o eternall king of Israel damne a dogge Wilt thou damne a flea Wee hauâ— heard o Lord of thy mercie that thou art neither the author of deathe neither dost thou reioyce at the damnation of those that die Wherfore I beseeâ—n thee o Lord that thou wilt not permit that which thou hast not made to haue the vpper hande of me thy creature whom thou hast made For if thou dost grieue at our damnation what doth hinder thee o Lord that canst doe any thinge from reioycing alwaies at our saluation Thou o Lord canst saue me if thou wilt but I of my self although I desire it cannot doe it The multitude of my miseries is â—oe greate that albeit I haue a will to doe well yet I want power to performe I cannot desire what is good vâ—lesse it be thy will likewise neither haue I power to performe what I doe desire vnlesse thy power strengthen me sometimes I am vnwilling to doe that good which I haue power to performe were it not that thy will must be donne in earthe as it is in heauen Moreouer I knowe not what I am willing or able to performe vnlesse thou illuminate me with thy wisedome Yea although I knowe what to doe and am willing and able to doe the same yet my wisedome for that it is imperfect and vaine doth leaue it vndonne if I be not ayded by thy true wisedome All thinges therfore doe depende of thy will neither is any man able to withstande the same who art Lord of all thinges and hast power ouer euery particular creature effecting both in heauen and earthe in the sea and in bottomelesse depthes whatsoeuer seemeth good to thy diuine pleasure Let thy sacred will therfore be fulfilled in vs who doe call vppon thy holy name to the end that this noble worke of thine which thou hast created for thy glorie doe not perishe euerlastinglie For what man is there borne of a woman that is able to liue and escape deathe and damnation if thou alone who art the liuing way of all life by whom all thinges liue and haue their being doe not deliuer him How without the assistance of Gods grace mans will is vnable to doe well CHAPT XXV I haue alreadie acknowledged vnto thee o Lord my God who art the prayse of my life and the force of my saluation that I did heeretofore trust in my owne vertue and strength which indeede was not strength but rather presumption For as long as I did runne on after that fashioÌ„ I alwaies founde my selfe there most fraile and subiect to fall where I thought my selfe most firme soe that by running thus I founde my selfe rather behinde then before for that the thinge was still further from me which I thought to ouertake by mine owne endeuoure And in this manner thou hast in diuers thinges made triall of my force Now I know o Lord because thou hast enlightned mine vnderstanding that whatsoeuer I thought my selfe best able to doe I haue alwaies been least able to performe I oftentimes saied I will doe this or that and yet in fine I did neither of them When I was willing to doe any thing I founde my selfe vnable and when I was able I founde my selfe vnwilling because I did presume of mine owne forces But nowe o Lord my God father of heauen and earthe I confesse vnto thee that noe man ought to vaunt in thy presence as if he weare strong through his owne puissance because the presumption of all fleshe is vaine and foolishe Verilie it lieth not in mans power to desire what he is able to doe or to be able to doe what he doth desire or to knowe what he ought to desire or is able to doe but rather the
footestepps of men are guided by thy diuine prouidence the footesteps I say of those who acknowledge that they are guided by thee and not of themselues Wherefore we humbly beseeche thee by the bowels of thy mercy o Lord that thou wilt saue what thou hast created because thou art able to saue vs if thou art willing on whose onely will doth depeÌ„de the merit of our saluation Of the ancient benefits of almighty God CHAPT XXVI REmember â— Lord I beseeche thee thy mercie shewed towardes vs of old time through which thou hast preuented vs with the blessings of thy sweetnes euen from the beginninge For thou o Lord and my hope from the verie time that I was a suckling yea before I was borne hast prouided and prepared the waies that I should walke in and by them attaine to the glorie of thy heauenly habitation Thou hast knowen me before thou didst forme me in my mothers bâ—llie and before I issued forthe of the wombe of my mother thou hast preordained of me whatsoeuer seemed good to thy diuine pleasure I knowe not o Lord what thinges are written of me in thy booke in the secret of thy consistorie which makeâ—h me to feare exceedingly but thou knowest them all particularlie because that which I expect by succession of daies and times a thousand yeares hence to be fulfilled in the sight of thy eternitie is already accomplished and that which is to come is alreadie donne But I for that I knowe not these thinges liuing heere as it were in a darke and obscure night cannot but feare and tremble whilst I see sondrie dangers on euerie side assaulting me troupes of ennimies poursuing me and the infinite miseries of this life enuironning me And were it not that the ayde of thy grace doth succoure me in these my manifolde tribulations I should soone fall into desperation But I haue a great hope and confidence o my God in thee who art a Prince of vnspeakeable pittie and the consideration of thy infinite mercies are noe small comforte vnto me in my miseries The former tokens likewise of thy loue and mercie shewed towardes me before my natiuitie but appearing now especiallie doe put me in hope for the time to come to receiue more ample and greater fauoures from the handes of thy bountifull libeâ—alitie which thou dost reserue for thy friendes and those that loue thee to the end that my hope may reioyce in thee o Lord my God with a sacred and liuelie cherefulnes with which thou dost continuallie comforte my younge and tender yeares Of the Angells appointed to be the guardians of man CHAPT XXVII Thou hast loued me o my onely loue before I loued thee and hast created me according to thine owne likenes making me Lord and ruler ouer all thy other creatures Which dignitie I then possesse when I know thee for whom thou hast made me Moreouer thou causest those heauenlie spirits for my sake to become messengers to whom thou hast giuen commaundement to protect and guarde me in all my actions that I hurte not my foote against a stone These are the watchmen that keepâ— continuall sentinell vpon the walls of thy cittie new Hierusalem guarding the mouÌ„taines likewise that are rounde about it keeping watch by night ouer thy flocke least that old serpent our aduersarie the diuell as a Lion shoulde kill and destroy our soules if there were none to desende them who as a roaring Lion continuallie rangeth about seeking whom he may deuoure These are the cittizens of our mother aboue the blessed and celestiall cittie Hierusalem who art sent to serue and attende on those that are preordained by God to inherite the kingdome of heauen that they may deliuer them from theire ennimies and guarde them in all theire waies that they may comforte and admonishe them and in the presence of thy glorious Maiestie may offer vp the prayers of thy children Vndoubtedlie they doe loue their fellowe cittizens expecting by them the reparation of theire ruines Wherefore at all times and in all places with great caâ—e and diligence they are present and ready to assist vs succouâ—ing and supplying our necessities passing incessantly to and fro betwixt thee o Lord and vs relatinge our groanes and sighes vnto thee to the end they may obtaine for vs fauoure and courtesie and may bring to vs the desired blessing of thy grace and mercie In all our wayes they walke with vs entring in and going for the with vs considering with great attention how religiously and laudably we behaue our selues in the midst of a peruerse nation with what care and diligence wee seeke thy kingdome the iustice thereof with how greate feare and trembling we serue thee and with how greate ioy and mirthe of â—harte we sing vnto thee When we laboure they ayde vs when we rest they protect vs when we fight they encourage vs when we conquerre they crowne vs when we reioyce if our ioy be of thee they reioyce with vs when we suffer if our sufferings be for thee they suffer together with vs. Greate is the care which they haue of vs and greate is the effect of theire loue towardes vs All which respect and louâ— they shew vs in respect of the vnspeakable loue with which thou hast loued vs. Verilie they loue those that thou louest they preserue those that thou preseruest and forsake those that thou forsakest neither can they endure those that committ sinne because thou they self dost hate those that commit sinne and wilt destroy all those that delight in lying As often as we doe well the Angells are glad and the diuells are sad But when we doe ill we make the diuel merrie and depriue the holy Angells of theirâ— ioy Because they reioyce to see a sinner doe pennaÌ„ce when he hath sinned wheras contrarie wise the diuell reioyceth to see a iust man irrepentant when he hath offended Wherefore o father I beseeche thee affordâ— them this fauoure that they may alwaies reioyce in respect of vs to the end that both thou by them maiest perpetuallie be praysed in vs and we with them may be made one folde in the kingdome of heauen that soe we may together prayse thy holie name o creator of men and Angells When I call these thinges to memorie I confesse o Lord that I haue great cause to prayse and magnifie thee for that these thy benefits are verie greate with which thou hast honoured vs by causing thy Angells who are spirits to serue and attende vs. Verily thou hadst bestowed vpon vs before whatsoeuer is contained within the compasse of heauen and yet thou didst imagin all thinges that are vnder heauen to be a guift of small estimation if thou shouldest not likewise add those that are aboue the heauens Let all thy Angells o Lord for this thy goodnes prayse thee let al thy workes acknowledge and confesse the same vnto thee and let all thy Saints extoll thee euerlastinglie Thou hast honoured vs exceedingly o Lord God our honoure
in â—it I asked the sea and the bottomles depthes and all manne of creatures contained in them and they answered We are not thy God seeke him aboue vs. I asked the blowing aire who together with all the inhabitants thereof answered Anaximines is deceiued I am not thy God I asked the same question of the firmament of the sunne moone and starrs who gaue me the same answere I asked againe of all these aforesaid that stood round about me You haue tolde me that you are not my God at least say something of him and they all cried out with a loude voice It is he that hath made vs. After this I asked the wide and spatious worlde Tell me if thou be my God or not Who answered with a strong voice I am not thy God but a creature created by him he whom thou seekest in me hath created me seeke him aboue me who at this present doth gouerne me and heeretofore hath made me This demaunde and conference made with other creatures is a deepe consideration of them and theire answere is the testimonie which they giue of God for that they all affirme that God hath made them Because as the Apostle saieth the inuisible thinges of God are vnderstood and seene by those things that are donne of the creatures of the worlde After this I returned vnto my selfe and entring into my selfe I vsed with my selfe this discourse Who art thou And I answered vnto my selfe I am a mortal man endewed with reason And I begaÌ„ to examine what this was saying Whence o Lord my God hath this creature his beginning whence I say vnlesse from thee Thou hast made me and not I my selfe Who art thou then Who art thou by whom I and all other thinges doe liue and haue theire being Who art thou Thou o Lord my God art the true and onely God omnipotent and eternall infinite and incomprehensible who liuest euerlastingly and nothing dieth in thee because thou art immortall dwelling in a place that shall continue worlde without end admirable in the eies of the Angells vnspeakeable vnsearcheable and not to be named Thou art the liuing and true God terrible powerfull not knowing beginning or end the beginning and end of all thinges who art before the beginning and originall of all generations worldes ages and times Thou art my God the Lord of all thinges which thou hast created Thou knowest the causes of all thinges that are stable thou knowest the immutable beginnings of all thinges that are mutable thou knowest the eternall reasons of all thinges reasonnable vnreasonnable and teÌ„porall Tell me then o my God thy poore vnworthy seruant thou that art full of mercie tell me that am full of miserie for thy mercies sake tell me I beseeche thee Whence had man his beginning but froÌ„ thee Was there euer any man that coulde vaunt to haue been the author of his owne creation Is it not from thee alone that we haue our life and being Art not thou the chiefe being from whom eueâ—ie thing hath his beginning For whatsoeuer is is from thee because without thee there is nothing Art not thou the fountaine of life from whom floweth all life Because whaâ—soeuer liueth liueth by thee for that nothing liueth without thee Thou therfore o Lord hast made all thinges Shall I then demaund who made me Thou hast made me o Lord without whom nothing was made Thou art my Creator I am thy creature I giue thee thankes o Lord my God by Whom I and all other thinges doe liue for that thou hast created me I giue thee thankes o my maker for that thy handes haue made me and fashioned me I giue thee thankes o my light for that thou hast enlightned me by which meanes I haue found both thee and my selfe Wher I haue found my selfe there I haue knowen my selfe where I haue found thee there I haue knowen thee and where I haue knowen thee there thou hast enlightned me I giue thee thankes o my light for that thou hast enlightned me But what is that which I haue saied I haue knowen thee Art not thou an incomprehensible infinite God the King of Kings and Lord of Lords who dwellest alone in immortalitie and in that light which noe man can attaine vnto which noe man hath euer seene or can possiblie see Art not thou a hidden God and of vnsearcheable maiesty who â—onely art able to knowe and contemplate the greatnes and wonderfulnes of thine owne excellencie Who then hath knowen that which he hath neuer seene Because thou hast saied in thy truth Man shall not see me and liue Thy Apostle likewise hath saied by thy truthe Noe man hath euer seene God Who then hath knowen that which he hath not seene Thy truth in like manner hath affirmed Noe one hath knowen the sonne but the Father neither hath any one knowen the Father but the soÌ„ne Thy sole Trinitie therfore is wholy knowen to thy selfe alone which surpasseth all vnderstanding How durst I then that am a man like vnto vanitie affirme that I haue knowâ—â— thâ—e For who hath knowen thee besides thy selfe Because thou onely art God almightie most worthy to be praysed most glorious most highe and aboue all others to be exalted who in the sacred and diuine scriptures art saied to be superessentiall For that thou art knowen to be superessentially and superintelligibly aboue all essence intelligible intellectuall or sensible aboue euerie name that is named either in this worlde or in the next because by thy superessentiall and hidden diuinitie thou dost inaccessibly and vnsearcheably dwell in thy selfe aboue all reason vnderstanding and essence where there is inaccessible light and vnsearcheable incomprehensible and vnspeakeable brightnes vnto which no brightnes is able to arriue because it is thought to exceed the boundes of all humaine contemplation vnseene beyonde humaine reason vnderstanding and soe highe that noe man can attaine vnto it most free likewise from mutation and not to be imparted to any one Which neither was nor can possibly at any time be seene by either Angells or men This is thy heauen o Lord thy heauen that is carued and garnished that hidden and superessentiall brightnes surpassing â—ll vnderstanding and reason of whom it is saied The heauen of heauen belonging to our Lord. The heauen of heaueÌ„ in conparison of which all the other heauens are but as it were the earth for that it is exalaâ—d after a most admirable manner aboue all the other heauens Yea in respect of this the heauen called â—aelum Empyreum is but as it were the earthe for this is the heauen of heauen belonging to our Lord because it is knowen to noe other but to our Lord. Into which noe man hath euer ascended but he that hath descended from heauen for that noe man hath knowen the Father but the Sonne and the holy Ghost proceeding from both of them Neither hath any one knowen the Sonne but the Father and the holy Ghost proceeding from both of
them Certainely the Trinitie is wholy knoweÌ„ to thee onely o holy Trinitie o Trinitie most admirable most vnspeakeable most vnsearcheable most inaccessible most incomprehensible superintelligible and superessentiall superessentiallie surmounting all humaine sense all reason al vnderstanding all wisdome all essence or being euen of the very Saintes in heauen soe that it is impossible euen with Angells eies to expresse imagine vnderstande or knowe the same How then haue I knowen thee o Lord God most highe aboue all the earth and heauens who art not perfectlie knowen of the Cherubins and Seraphins theÌ„selues soe that theire face is couered with the winges of their coÌ„teÌ„platâ—oÌ„s whilst in praise of him that sitteth vpon the high and loftie throne they cry out with a loude voice saying Holy Holy Holy Lord God of hostes All the earth is full of thy glory The Prophet was afraied and saied Woe be to me for that I haue beene silent because I am a man of vncleane lipps My harte likewise hath beene affrayed and saied Woe be to me for that I haue not beene silent because I am a man of vncleane lipps I cannot denie but that I haue affirmed that I haue knowen thee Neuerthelesse woe be to those who speak not of thee because without thy ayde and assistance those that speake much would become speechelesse Wherfore o Lord my God I will not be silent because thou hast made me and enlightned me by which meanes I haue founde my selfe and knowen thee But how haue I knowen thee I haue knowen thee in thy selfe I haue knowen thee not as thou art to thy selfe but as thou art to me not without thee but in thee because thou art the light which hast enlightned me For euen as thou art onely knowen to thy selfe as thou art to thy selfe soe thou art knowen to me according as by thy grace thou art to me But what art thou to me Tell me o mercifull Lord thy poore and wretched seruant tell me for thy mercies sake I beseech thee what art thou to me Say vnto my soule I am thy saluation hide not away thy face from me least I dye Suffer me albeit I am but earthe ashes to speake vnto thy mercy suffer me I say to speake vnto thy mercy because thy mercy is greate towardes me I will therfore presume to speake vnto my Lord albeit I am but dust and ashes Tell me o mercifull Lord thy poore and wretched seruaunt tell me for thy mercies sake I beseeche thee what art thou to me Whervpon thou hast thundered with a greate voyce from aboue into the internall eare of my harte and hast cured my deafnes soe that I haue hearde thy voyce thou hast likewise enlightned my blindnes and I haue seene thy light and knowen thee to be my God For this cause I affirmed that I haue knowen thee I haue knowen thee to be my God I haue knowen thee to be the onely true God and Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent There was a time when I did not know thee Woe be to that time when I did not knowe thee woe be to that blindnes when I did not see thee woe be to that deafnes when I did not heare thee when I became blinde deae and deformed by ouermuch affectinge those faire things which thou hast framed Thou o Lord wert with me and I was not with thee because those thinges did keepe me away from thee which had noe being but in thee Thou hast enlightned me o light of the worlde and I haue seene thee and loued thee Because noe man loueth thee but he that seethe thee and noe man seethe thee but he that loueth thee Too late haue I loued thee o beautie most old and new to to late haue I loued thee Woe be to that time when I haue not loued thee A profession of the true faith CHAPT XXXII I Giue thee thankes o my light who hast enlightned me I haue knowen thee But how haue I knowen thee I haue knowen thee to be the onely liuing and true God and my creator I haue knowen thee to be the maker of heauen and earthe of all thinges visible and inuisible to be true God omnipotent immortall and inuisible hauing neither boundes nor limits eternall inaccessible incomprehensible vnsearcheable immutable vnspeakeably greate yea infinite the beginning of all visible and inuisible creatures by whom all thinges are made by whom all the elements are preserued and maintained Whose maiestie like as it had neuer beginning soe it shall neuer haue ending I haue knowen thee to be one onely true God the euerlasting Father Sonne and holy Ghost three personnes indeede yet but one onely simple essence and indiuisible nature the Father from none the Sonne from the Father alone the holy Ghost proceeding equallie from the Father and the Sonne being alwaies without beginning or ending one onely God in three personnes true God almighty the sole beginning of all thinges the creator of all thinges visible and inuisible spirituall and temporall Who by thy omnipotent power in the beginninge when time first beganne didst create of nothing both creatures at once the spirituall and corporall to wit Angells and creatures of the worlde and after that man consisting of a bodie and soule as one common to both of them I haue knowen thee and confesse thee to be true God the Father vnbegotten the sonne begotten of the Father the holie Ghost the comforter neither begotten neither vnbegotten the sacred and vnseparable Trinitie in three personnes coequall consubstantiall and coeternall Trinitie in vnitie and vnitie in Trinitie which I belieue in my harte for my iustification and confesse with my mouthe for the attaining of saluation I haue knowen thee Iesus Christ our Lord the onely begotten sonne of God to be true God the creator sauiour and redeemer of me and all mankinde whom I confesse to haue beene borne of the father before all worldes God of God light of light verie God of verie God not made but begotten consubstantiall and coeternall to the father the holy Ghost by whom all thinges were made from the beginning firmely belieuing and vnfainedly confessing thee Iesus Christ the only begotten sonne of the father to be true God by the coÌ„mon consent of the whole Trinitie taking fleshe vppon thee for the saluation of man and by the cooperation of the holy Ghost conceiued of thy blessed mother Marie euer a Virgin being made true man of a reasonnable soule and humaine fleshe subsisting Who al be it thou art the onely begotten sonne of God and consequently impassible and immortall according to thy diuinitie yet by reason of the vnspeakeable loue wherewith thou hast loued vs thou the same sonne of God hast become passible and mortall according to thy humanitie Thou I say o onely Sonne of God for mans saluation hast vouchsafed to endure a most bitter death passion to the end thou mightest deliuer vs from death euerlasting Thou likewise o author of light hast descended into hell
Trinitie and vnitie of Trinitie and deitie of vnity and the blessed sight of the deitie which is the ioy of thy Lord God O ioy surmounting all ioy o ioy exceeding all ioy besides which there is noe true ioy when shall I enter into thee that I may see my God that dwelleth in thee I will goe thither and see that greate sight What is it that doth detaine me Woe is me for that my abode in this life hath been ouer longe How long alas shall I heare it saied wher is thy God how longe shall I heare it saied stay a while expect yet a while Now therfore what doe I expect doe we not o Lord my God expect our Lord and Sauiour Iesus Christ who will reforme the body of our humilitie makinge it like to his bright and glorious body We expect our Lord when he will returne from the mariages that he may vouchsafe to admitt vs to his mariage Come o Lord and doe not stay Come o Lord Iesus Christ and â—â—sit vs in peace come and deliuer vs that lye fettered and bounde in the prison of this mortall body that with a perfect hart we may reioyce before thee Come o sweete Sauiour Thoâ— that of the Gentils art soe much desired come and shewe vs thy face and we shal be saued Come o my light my Redeemer deliuer my soule forthe of prison to praise and magnifie thy holy name How longe shall I poore wretched man be tossed to and fro in the floudes of this my mortalitie crying vnto thee o Lord and yet thou dost not heare me Heare me o Lord crying vnto thee out of this greate sea of miserie and bring me to the hauen of heauenlie felicitie happie are they who being deliuered from the danger of this tempestuous sea haue deserued to attaine vnto thee o God the porte of peace and securitie Those trulie are trulie happie who haue arriued from this sorrowfull sea to the shore of saftie from this place of banishment to the heauenly countrie from the prison of this mortalitie to the pallace of perpetuall felicitie who hauing obtained the rewarde of euerlasting glory by meanes of the manifolde miseries which heere they sustained doe now for euermore reioyce with must happy mirth being nowe blessed by enioyeing that rest which they soe much desired Without doubt they are blessed yea more then a thousand times blessed who being now fre froÌ„ al misery haue deserued to attaine to the kingdome of all brightnes and beauty being likewse secure of this theire neuer fading and neuer failing glory O eternall kingdome o kingdome as long to continue as eternitie it selfe where there is light euerlasting and the peace of God which passeth all vnderstanding in which kingdome the soules of the Sainâ—s doe repose theire heades being ouershadowed with perpetuall gladnes who shal be euelastinglie replenished with such excessiue ioy and mitth of minde as that neither griefe nor groanes shall eueâ— be hearde in those theire confines O how glorious is that kingdome in which all thy Saints raigne with thee o Lord being cloathed with light as with a garment eache one of them hauing on his heade a crowne adorned with pretious stones O kingdome of euerlasting blisse where thou o Lord being the hope of the Saints and the crowne of theire glory art apparantlie face to face seene of them making them on all parts to reioyce in thy peace which surpasseth all vnderstanding There there is infinite ioy mirthe without sadnes healthe without sicknes way without wearines light without darknes life without deathe all maÌ„ner of goodnes free from all maÌ„ner of wickednes Where youthe neuer groweth old where life knoweth noe end where beauty neuer fadeth where charity neuer faileth where healthe neuer decayeth where ioy neuer decreaseth where griefe is neuer felt where groaning is neuer hearde where sorrowe is neuer seene or perceiued where all manner of mirth is alwaies enioyed where noe euill is feared because the soueraigne supreame good is there possessed which is to contemplate the face of the Lord of all vertues world without end Happy therfore are they who being escaped from the shipwrack of this present life haue deserued to attaine to soe greate gladnes But vnhappie alas vnfortunate we who saile through the teÌ„pestuous stormes and dangerous gulfes of this greate sea being ignorant whether we shall euer be able to arriue at the happie hauen of heauenly felicitie Vnhappie I say are we whose life is in exile whose life is in peril and whose end is doubtfull not knowing what our end will be for that all thinges are helde in suspeÌ„ce vntill our last day We remaine as yet tossed to fro in â—he troublesome floudes of this tempestuous sea sighing and seeking to attaine to thee o Lord the hauen of this sea O our countrie o secure countrie albeit a farre of yet we see thee from this sorrowfull sea we salute thee from this vale of miserie we sighe after thee endeauouring euen with teares that by one meanes or an other we may attaine vnto thee O Christ the hope of all mankinde God of God our defence and safetie whose light like a beame of the starre of the sea doth enlighten our eies amidst the foggie mists of this tempestuous sea that therby we may be guided to thee the hauen of securitie Guide o Lord this our shipp with thy right hande with the sterne of thy crosse that we perish not in the floudes that the tempest of water doe not drowne vs that the deepe gulfes doe not deuour vs but with the crooke of thy crosse drawe vs out of this sea vnto thee our onely comfort and solace whom we beholde a farre off standing on the shore of that heauenly country with teares of tender loue ready to receiue vs shining as the morning starre and as the sunne of iustice Beholde o Christ we call and cry vnto thee from this place of exile as poore captiues by thee redeemed whom thou hast redeemed with thy pretious bloude Heare vs o God our Sauiour the hope of all those that dwell in the vttermost partes of the worlde or farre distant in in the sea where soeuer Beholde we saile in a troublesome and tempestuous sea thou o Lord who standest on the shore seest the manifold dangers in which we are for thy names sake saue vs we beseeche thee Graunt vs grace o Lord soe to saile and in sailing soe to keepe the mid-way betweene Scilla and Charybdis that both those perillous gulfes being auoided we may with safe ship and marchandise securely arriue at the hauen of heauenly happines A further discourse of the country and kingdome of heauen CHAPT XXXVI WHen therfore we shall attaine vnto thee the fountaine of heauenly wisedome to thee the light euerlasting to thee the brightnes which shall euer shine not seeing thee then as we doe now obscurely as it were in a mirroure or looking glasse but apparantly face to face then will our desire in thinges
that are good be fullie contented and satisfied for that there will be noe other externall thinge at that time that may be desired sauing thee o Lord the supreame and chiefest good Who wilt be the rewarde of the blessed the crowne or diademe of theire beautie and the euerlasting ioy which shall enuiron theire heades giuing them peace both without and within by meanes of thy peace which passeth all vnderstanding There we shall see thee loue thee and pray se thee We shall see light in thy light for that with thee is the fountaine of life and in thy light we shall see light But what light Surely surpassing greate light spirituall light inccorruptible and incomprehensible light infaileable and vnquencheable light a light vnto which noe man can approache or attaine light vncreated true and diuine which enlightneth the eies of the Angells which maketh the youth of the Saincts for to reioyce and be gladde which is the light of lights and fountaine of life euen thou thy selfe o Lord my God For thou art the light in whose light we shal see light that is to say we shall see thee in thy selfe in the brightnes of thy countenance when we shall beholde thee face to face Now what other thinge is it to beholde thee face to face but according as the Apostle sayeth to knowe thee euen as I am knowen to knowe thy truthe and thy glorie To knowe thy face therfore is nothinge else but to knowe the power of the Father the wisedome of the Sonne the mercie of the holie Ghost the essence of the most highe Trinitie being vndiuided and one onely Wherfore to beholde the face of the liuing God is the chiefest good the ioy of the Angells and of all the Saincts the recompence of eternall life the glorie of the blessed spirits the euerlastinge gladnes the crowne of comelines the rewarde of happines the richest rest the beautie of peace the internall and externall delectation the paradise of God the celestiall Hierusalem the happie life the fulnes of felicitie the delight of eternitie the peace of God which passeth all vnderstanding Mans whole blisse therefore and beatitude doth consist in beholding the face of his God to see him that hath made heauen and earthe to see him that hath made him that hath saued him that hath glorified him He shall see him by knowing him he shall loue him by affectinge him he shall prayse him by possessinge him For he shall be the inheritance of his people of his people the Saincts and blessed of his people whom he hath redeemed He shall be the possession of theire beatitude he shall be the rewarde and recompense of that which they haue soe longe expected Euen as he promised when he saied I will be thy surpassinge great rewarde For that it is meete that soe great a rewarde shoulde be giuen by soe great a Lord. Truly o Lord my God thou art surpassing great aboue all the Gods and thy rewarde likewise is surpassing great Neither art thou great and thy rewarde little but as thou art great soe in like manner is thy recompense for that betwixt thee and it there is noe difference Thou thy selfe art surpassing great indeade thou thy selfe art a rewarde surpassing great thou thy selfe art the crowner and the crowne the promisser and the promise the giuer and the guift the rewarder and the rewarde of eternall happines Thou therfore o my God art the crowner and the crowne the diademe of my hope which is adorned with glorie thou art the light that gladdeth the light that reneweth the brightnes that beautifieth thou art my great hope the internall loue and delight of the blessed euen he whom they haue still soe much desired Thy sight therfore o Lord is our whole rewarde our whole recompense and all the ioy which we expect For this is life euerlasting this I say is thy wisedome This is life euerlasting that we know thee â—â—â—onely true God Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent When therefore we shall beholde thee the onely God the true God the liuing God who art omnipotent simple inuisible infinite and incomprehensible when likewise we shal see our Lord Iesus Christ thy onely begotten sonne being consubstantiall and coeternall with thee whom in the vertue of the holy Ghost thou hast sent into the worlde for our saluation Finallie when we shall contemplate thee the God which art onely holy three in personnes and one in essence besides whom there is noe other then we shall obtaine that which we nowe seeke for to wit eternall life euerlastinge glorie which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee which thou hast reserued for those that feare thee which thou wilt bestowe vppon those that seeke thee vppon those I say which seeke thy face continuallie Wherfore o my Lord God who hast fashioned me within the wombe of my mother who hast recommended me to the protection of thy diuine power permit me not any more to be distracted froÌ„ one thing into many but drawe me from externall thinges vnto my selfe and from my selfe vnto thee to the end that my harte may alwayes say vnto thee My face hath sought thee thy face will I seeke o Lord thy face o Lord of all power and fortitude in whose onely sight doth consist the whole glory and euerlasting beatitude of the blessed Because to see the face of God is life euerlasting and the endlesse glory of the Saints in heauen Let my harte therfore reioyce that it may feare thy name let theire harte reioyce that seeke our Lord but mnch more theires that finde him For if it be a pleasure to seeke him what a ioy will it be to finde him Wherfore I will alwaies seeke thy face with affection and deuotion that by that meanes I may peraduenture at length deserue to haue the dore and gate of righteousnes opened vnto me that I may enter into the ioy of my Lord. This is the dore of our Lord the iust shall euter in thereat A Prayer to the holy Trinitie CHAPT XXXVII O You three coequall and coeternall personnes one onely true God the Father the Sonne and the holy Ghost who dwellest in eternitie alone in that light vnto which noe man can attaine Who by thy power hast layed the worldâ— foundation and by thy wisedome dost gouerne the same Holy Holy Holy Lord God of hosts Terrible and powerfuli iust and mercifull worthy to be admired praysed and beloued One God three personnes one essence one power our wisedome one goodnes one onely Trinitie voide of separation Open the dores of thy righteousnes vnto me o Lord crying vnto thee to the end that being entred in I may praise thee with wordes of thanksgiuing Beholde o supreame house-holder I stande knockinge at thy dore as a poore begger commaunde that thy dore may be opened vnto me who hast sayed Knock and it shal be opened vnto you The affections of my groaâ—ing harte and the crying of my weeping eies doe knock at thy dore
o Father of mercies Thou knowest my desire and my groaning is not hidden from thee Hide not then thy face from me any longer neither doe thou forsake me in thine anger O Father of mercies heare the lamentable complainte of me thy poore orphāt and stretche forth thy helping hande that it may drawe me out of the deepe waters out of the lake of misery and out of the duste and dreggs of iniquitie that I perish not before the eies of thy mercy and in presence of thy infinite patience but let me escape vnto thee o Lord my God that I may beholde the riches of thy kingedome and alwaies see thy face and singe praises vnto thy holy name Thou o Lord who dost thinges worthy of admiration who through the remembrance of thee makest my harte merry who hast enlightned my youthe despise not nowe my old age I beseech thee but cause my bones and gray haires to become ioyfull and youthfull like vnto the bones and hoary feathers of an Eagle The end of S. Augustins Soliloquies that is of the secret discourses and conferences of his soule with God OF THE SOLILOQVIES OF S. AVGVSTIN BISHOP OF HIPPON OF the vnspeakeable sweetnes of God Chapt. I. Of the misery frailtie of man Chapt. II. Of the admirable light of God Chapt. III. Of the mortalitie of mans nature Chapt. IV. What it is to become nothing Chapt. V. Of the miserable estate of the soule being in sinne Chapt. VI. Of the manifolde benefits of almightie God Chapt. VII Of the future dignity of man Chapt. VIII Of Gods omnipotent power Chapt. IX Of the incomprehensible prayse of God Chapt. X. Of the hope which we ought to haue in God Chapt. XI Of the snares of concupiscences Chapt. XII Of the miseries of man and the manifolde benefits of almightie God Chapt. XIII How God doth continuallie looke into the actions and intentions of men Chapt. XIV That man without the assistance of Gods grace is able to doe nothing of himselfe Chapt. XV. Of the diuell and his manifolde temptatations Chapt XVI That God is the light of the iust Chapt. XVII A further acknowledging of the benefits of God Chapt. XVIII Of the vehemencie of loue or charity Chapt. XIX How God hath made all thinges subiect to the seruice of man Chapt. XX. How by the consideration of benefits temporall we may gather the greatnes of those that are celestiall Chapt. XXI That the sweetnes of God doth take away the present bitternes of the world Chapt. XXII That our whole hope and the desire of our harte ought to be in God Chapt. XXIII That our saluation is from God Chapt. XXIV How without the assistance of Gods grace mans will is vnable to doe well Chapt. XXV Of the ancient benefits of almighty God Chapt. XXVI Of the Angells appointed to be the guardians of men Chapt. XXVII Of the profounde predestination and foreknowledg of almighty God Chapt. XXVIII Of those that at first are good and afterwardes become bad and contrariwise of those that at first are bad and afterwardes become good Chapt. XXIX That a faithfull soule is the sanctuarie of God Chapt. XXX That God cannot be founde either by the exteriour or interiour senses Chapt. XXXI A profession of the true faithe Chapt. XXXII The acknowledging of our owne basenes Chapt. XXXIII A consideration of Gods diuine Maiestie Chapt XXXIV Of the desire and thirst of the soule after God Chap. XXXV A further discouse of the country kingdome of heauen Chapt. XXXVI A Prayer to the holy Trinitie Chapt. XXXVII THE MANVEL OF S. AVGVSTIN BISHOPP OF HYPPON OTHERWISE TEARMED A litle booke treating of the comtemplation of Christ or the worde of God Stirring vpp our weake and drousi◠memorie to the desire of heauenlie felicitie AT S. OMERS For IOHN HEIGHAM Anno 1624. THE MANVEL OF S. AVGVSTIN BISHOPP OF HYPPON OTHERWISE TEARMED A litle booke treating of the contemplation of Christ or the worde of God Stirring vpp our weake and drousie memorie to the desire of heauenlie felicitie THE PREFACE SEing we liue amidst a multitude of snares and ginnes we easily growe colde in the loue of heauenly thinges Wherfore we stande in neede of continuall succoure and ayde that as often as we fall and faile in our dutie towardes God we may as men awakened haue recourse to him the soueraigne and supreame good For this cause I haue compiled and composed this little worke not throughe any presumptious opinion I haue of my selfe but through the great loue of my God and the desire I haue to aduance his praise to the end I might alwaies haue about me some small Manuel of shorte sentences concerning my God drawen out of the worthiest wordes and writinges of holy Fathers by the fire of reading whereof I might as often as I growe cold be inflamed with affection towardes him Now therfore assist me o my God whom I seeke and loue whom likewise with my harte and mouthe and with all my force I prayse and adore My soule which is wholy deuoted to thee and inflamed with thy loue sighing and searching earnestly after thee desiring to see thee onely taketh delight in nothing els but to speake heare write and conferre of thee and frequentlye to meditate of thy glorie to the end that the sweete remembrance of thee may be some mitigation amidst soe many stormes of affliction To thee therfore I call o most desired Lord to thee I crie with a loude voyce euen with my whole harte And when I call vpon thee I call vpon thee remaining within me for that I were meere nothing if thou were not in me neither were thou in me vnlesse I were in thee Doubtles thou art in me because thou remainest in my memorie by which I haue knowen thee and in which I doe finde thee as often as I ame mindfull of thee and ame delighted in thee or frō thee from whom by whom and in whom all thinges haue their beginning conseruation and being Of the wonderfull essence of God CHAPT I THou O Lord dost fill heauen and earthe carying all thinges without burden filling all thinges without inclusion Alwayes doing alwaies resting Gathering thinges together and yet not needie Seeking albeit nothing is wanting vnto thee louing without being afflicted iealous yet resting assured It repenteth thee and yet thou art not grieued thou art angrie and yet art appeased Thou dost alter what thou hast donne without altering thy determination Thou takest what thou dost finde hauinge neuer lost any thinge Thou reioycest in gaine althoughe thou wert neuer needie and albeit thou wert neuer couetous yet thou exactest vsurie Thou giuest more then is demaunded to him that thou act not indebted and yet to make thee indebted more continuallie is giuen thee then by thee is required And yet who is there that hath any thinge not thine Thou payest debtes being indebted to noe man and forgiuest debtes thereby loosing nothing Who art euerie where and wholie euerie where Who maiest be felt
comforte during the time of this my banishment Let my minde flie vnder the shadow of thy winges from the heate of worldly cogitations Let my harte pause and repose in thee my harte I say which is like vnto a spatious and tempestuous sea O God the most riche and bountifull giuer of the diuine daintie dishes of heauenlie plentie refreshe it being wearie recall it being gone astray deliuer it being in captiuitie and being by sinne as it were broken in peeces restore it to the estate of its former innocencie Beholde it standeth at thy dore knocking and calling vnto thee I beseech thee o Lord by the bowells of thy mercy in which thou hast visited vs comminge downe from heauen commaund thy gate to be opened vnto my poore wretched soule knocking at the same to the end it may freelie enter in and repose in thee and be fed by thee the breade of heauen for thou art the breade and fountaine of life thou art the light of euerlasting felicitie thou art all thinges by which the righteous doe liue that loue thee Of the desire of the soule CHAPT V. O God the light of those harts that see thee the life of those soules that loue thee the strength of those thoughtes that seeke thee graunt me grace that by loue I may alwaies adhere vnto thee Come I beseech thee into my harte and make it drunke with the plentie of thy pleasure to the end I may forget all temporall thinges whatsoeuer Verilie I am ashamed and grieued to endure such thinges as are donne in the worlde Whatsoeuer I see in this vale of miserie is displeasing vnto me whatsoeuer I heare of thinges transitorie is burdensome vnto me Helpe me o Lord my God and make my harte glad come vnto me that I may see thee But alas the house of my soule is ouer little to entertaine thee vntill thou enter into it and enlarge it It is ruinous and ready to fall wherfore I beseech thee to repaire it It hath many thinges I confesse and knowe contained in it which are displeasing in thy sight but who will cleanse it or to whom besides thee shall I crie to doe it Cleanse me o Lord from my secret sinnes and be mercifull vnto thy seruaunt in respect of other mens sinnes committed by my meanes Graunt me grace o sweete Christ o good Iesu graunt me grace I beseech thee to lay aside the burden of all carnall loue and worldly desires through the loue and desire of thee Let my soule haue dominion ouer my body reason ouer my soule thy grace ouer reason and make me in all thinges subiect to thy most holy will both without and within Afforde me this fauoure I beseech thee that my harte and tongue and all my bones may praise and magnifie thee Dilate my mind and lift vp the eies of my harte that albeit for neuer soe shorte a time my soule may attaine vnto thee the eternall wisedome abiding aboue all thinges Free me I beseech thee from the bandes with which I am bounde that forsaking all thinges transitorie I may adhere and attende vnto thee onely Of the soules felicitie being deliuered out of the prison of this earthly body CHAPT VI. HAppy is that soule which beinge freed from this earthlie prison doth freely mounte vp into heauen which beholdeth thee o sweete Lord apparantlie face to face being now noe more affraied of deathe or of any worldlie miserie but reioycinge throughe the immortalitie of euerlasting glory It liueth in repose and securitie fearing now neither deathe noâ— ennimie It enioyeth thee being a mercifull Lord whom it hath long sought and alwaies loued and being ioyned in felowship with the quires of Angells it singeth for euer mellifluous sonnets of perpetuall gladnes in praise and commendation of thy glory o Christ our King o good Iesu Verilie it becommeth as it were drunke throughe the aboundance of thy heauenlie habitation because thou dost cause it to drinke of the riuer of thy vnspeakeable delectation O howe happy is the heauenlie company of celestiall cittizens how glorious is the solemniâ—ie of all those that returne vnto thee o Lord from the toiles and trauailes of this our pilgrimage to the pleasantnes of all beauty to the beauty of all brightnes and to the dignitie of all excellencie where thy cittizens o Lord doe continuallie see thee Nothing at all is there hearde that may molest the minde What sacred Canticles what diuersitie of instruments what delightfull ditties what sweete sounds of heauenlie harmonie are there hearde incessantlie There the mellifluous organ there the most sweete melodie of Angels doe sounde forth Hymnes and admirable Canticles of Canticles euelastingly which are songe by the celestiall cittizens to thy praise and glory Noe spitefulnes or bitternes of affection is founde in that heauenly region for that neither malice nor malitious men haue there any abiding Noe aduersarie is there to impugne vs nor occasion of sinne to entice vs. There is noe want or pouertie in that place noe shame or disgrace noe brawling noe vp braiding noe blaming noe fearefullnes noe disquietnes noe paine noe doubtfullnes noe violence noe variance but contrariwise surpassing greate peace perfect charitie singing and praising of God euerlastinglie perpetuall repose ioined with securitie and ioy in the holy Ghost during all eternitie O how fortunate shall I be if after this life I shal be admitted to heare the most pleasant and sweete songes of those heauenlie cittizens if I shal be admitted I say to heare those mellifluous meeters of poetrie made to expresse the praises and honoure due to the most sacred Trinitie O how much more happy shall I be then I can imagine if I my selfe likewise shal be thought worthy to sing a songe to our Lord Iesus Christ euen one of the sweete songes of Syon Of the ioy of Paradise CHAPT VII O Liuing life o euerlasting life and euerlastinglie happie Where there is ioy without griefe rest without laboure dignitie without feare riches without sicknes plentie without want life without deathe eternitie without corruption felicitie without affliction where all good thinges are comprehended in perfect charitie where the Sainctes see God and one an other apparantlie where where there is perfect knowledge in all thinges and of all thinges where the supreame goodnes of God is behelde and the light that enlightneth all thinges is by the Saincts glorified where Gods maiestie is seene present and with this foode of life the minde of the beholders doth remaine satisfied and content They alwaies see God and by seeing long to see him they desire it without loathsomnes where the true sunne of iustice doth refreshe them all by the wonderfull light of his vnspeakeable beautie and doth in that manner enlighten all the câ—ttizens of that celestiall countrie as that they beinge but a light enlightned by God who is the light that enlightneth them doe shine more bright then the sunne and all the stars of heauen Who adhering vnto God who is
flowe as water out of my fleshe to the end I may finde rest in the day of aduersitie and ascende to those celestiall souldiers that haue obtained the victorie O how greate wil be the glorie and ioy of the iust and Saincts in heauen sithence the face of eache one of them shall shine as bright as the sunne at such time as our Lord shall beginne to number his chosen people in the kingdome of his Father eache one distinctly in his order and shall render to euerie one the rewardes which he promised according as by theyr actions in this life they haue deserued for â—arthly thinges giuing theÌ„ celestiall for transitory eternall for small and little most ample and immeasurable There shal be without all doubt store of happinesse and felicitie when our Lord shall leade his Saincts to the sight of his Fathers glorie making the to sit on seates celestiall to the end that God may be all in all By what meanes the kingdome of heauen may be purchased and gotten CHAPT XVI O Happie ioy and ioyfull happines to see the Saincts to be with the Saincts and to be a Sainct to see and enioy God worlde without end and longer to if longer coulde be imagined Let vs carefullie consider these thinges and feruently desire them to the end we may speedilie be ioyned to the company of the Saincts in heauen If thou demaunde how this may be donne by what merits or succoure hearken and thou shalt heare This thinge lieth in the power of the doer because the kingdome of heauen suffereth violence The kingdome of heauen o man asketh noe other price but thy selfe it is asmuch worthe as thou art Giue thy selfe therfore and thou shalt haue it Whie art thou troubled and discontent at the price Christ gaue himselfe that he might purchase thee as a kingdome vnto God the Father Giue thou thy selfe in the same manner to the end thou mightst be his kingdome and let not sinne raigne in this thy bodie which is subiect to corruption but rather let the spirit gouerne for the attaining of life euerlastinge What heauen is and what happines is contained therein CHAPT XVII LEt vs returne o my soule to the heauenlie cittie in which we are written and enrolled as cittizens of the same Let vs as cittizens of the sainctes and Gods house-holde seruants yea as Gods heires and coheires of Christ consider the felicitie of this our famous cittie to the vttermost of our possibilitie Let vs crie out with the Prophet O how glorious things are saied of thee o Cittie of God in thee is the dwellinge of all those that are trulie glad Because thou art built as a place to meete and make merrie for suche as God of his infinitie mercie dotâ—â— vouchsafe to take vnto himselfe out of this vale of miserie In thee there is noe old age nor miserie ensuing of the same in thee there is noe one lame or mamed crumpe shouldered or deformed seing all concurre into a perfect man into the measure of the age of the fulnes of Christ What can be imagined more happie then this life where there is noe feare of pouertie nor feeblenes of infirmitie where noe man is wronged noe man is displeased noe maÌ„ doth enuie at an others good Where there is noe greedines of gaine noe appetite of eating or drinking where there is noe inordinate desire of honoure or ambition noe dreade of diuel or of diuellishe temptation noe horroure of hell or of hellishe damnation Where there is noe deathe either of bodie or soule but a delightfull life endles and immortall Noe euill affections or dissentioÌ„s shal be founde there but all thinges shall accorde and agree together because all the Saincts of that heauenly region shal be of one minde and affection Where there is nothing but peace and gladnes repose and quietnes Where there is perpetual brightnes not that which now is but by soe much more bright by how much more blessed because that cittie euen as it is written shall neede neither sunne nor moone but God almighty shall enlighten the same and the lampe thereof is the lambe Where the Saincts shall shine as the starrs for all eternitie and those that teache many shall in brightnes resemble the clearenes of the skie Wherfore in that place there shal be noe night noe darknes noe concourse of cloudes noe austeritie of colde or heate but that temperature of all thinges which neither eie hath seene nor eare hath hearde neither hath it entred into the harte of any man sauing of those who are founde worthy to enioy the same whose names are written in the booke of life But a greater content then this will be to be ioyned in felowship with the quires of Angells and Archangells and of all the heauenlie vertues to beholde the Patriarches and Prophets to see the Apostles and all the other Saincts and amoÌ„ge the rest our parents kinsfolke and acquaintance These thinges without doubte are very glorious but yet it is more glorious to beholde the face of God there present and the brightnes proceeding from the same which is infinitely greate Finally to see God in himselfe to see him enioy him in our selues wil be a prerogatiue of glory surpassing all the rest in excelleÌ„cy because we shall see him euerlastingly How man can make noe other requitall vnto God for the benefits receiued from him but onely by louinge him CHAP. XVIII THe soule of man being famous and renowned by being created according to the image and likenes of God hath in it selfe meanes from God by which it is alwaies admonished either to remaine with him or to returne vnto him if at any time by sinnefull affections or defects it be sperated from him Neither hath it meanes onely by which it may be able to desire and hope for mercie and pardon when it hath offended but likewise by which it may presume to aspire to the mariage of the diuine Worde yea to enter into a league of friendship with God almighty and with the kinge of Angells to drawe the sweete yoke of charity Loue causeth all this if by the will the soule make it selfe like vnto God to whoÌ„ by nature it is alreadie likened that is by louing him like as it beloued For it is loue aloue of all the motions senses and affections of the soule in which a creature may be answearable and make requitall to his creator althoughe in a farre inferior degree and measure Where loue doth arriue it carrieth away with it all the other affections and as a conqueroure maketh them captiue Loue is sufficient of it selfe it is pleasing of it selfe and for it selfe It is the merit the rewarde the cause the fruite and the helpe of it selfe for by loue we are vnited to God Loue causeth two spirits to become one making the same will and the same nill in both of them Loue teacheth vs first of all how to behaue our selues secondly to esteeme of all thinges present as if they were
not thirdlie to contemplate celestiall and internall thinges with a pure and cleane harte By loue first of all honest thinges are laudably donne in the worlde afterwardes the honest thinges of the worlde growe to be contemned and lastly the very secrets of God are by it seene and considered How God requireth something in vs like vnto himselfe CHAPT XIX GOd the Father is charity soe is God the SoÌ„ne the holy Ghost is the loue that proceedeth from both of them This charity and loue requireth something in vs like vnto it to witt charity by which we may be ioyned and vnited vnto God as it were by affinitie of blood Loue maketh noe difference of personnes neither doth it know how to behaue it selfe with reuerence He that loueth goeth boldlie vnto God of himselfe alone and talketh familiarlie with him fearing and doubting nothing He that loueth not liueth but in vaine But he that loueth hath his eies alwaies fixed on God whom he loueth whom he desireth on whom he thinketh in whom he is delighted by whom he is fedd and refreshed Such a man that is endewed with such deuotion doth soe singe and reade and in all his actions doth carry himselfe with that care and circumspection as if God were present before his eies as indeede he is He prayeth with that feruoure and deuotion as if he were assumpted vp into heauen and presented before the Maiestie of God that sitteth on his throne where thousandes of thousandes doe serue him and ten hundred thousande doe attende vpon him Loue causeth the soule which it visiteth throughe loue to awaken when it sleepeth It admonisheth and mollifieth it wounding it as it were to the very harte Loue enlightneth those thinges that are darke it openeth those that are shut the thinges that are colde it maketh hotte it mitigateth the minde that is frowarde angry and impatient it chaseth away vice and iniquitie it represseth all desire of carnalitie it amendeth our manners and bad customes and reformeth the spiritt making it to change its fashions Finallie it bridleth the motions of our youthe and our light actions All this doth loue when it is present but assoone as it depatteth the soule beginneth forthwith in that manner to become fainte and feeble euen as if you should wriâ—hdrawe the fire from a boyling cauldron or kettle Of the greate confidence which the soule hath that loueth God CHAP. XX. Loue without doubte is a greater thinge then can be well expressed by which the soule goeth boldlie vnto God of it selfe alone and adhereth constantlie vnto him it quessioneth and consulteth with him vpon euery occasion The soule that loueth God can thinke or speake of nothing els beside because it doth contemne and in a manner abhorre all other thinges whatsoeuer The loue of God doth change it into himselfe in that wonderful fashion as that whatsoeuer it thinketh or speaketh of doth as it were tast and smell of affection He therfore that desireth to attaine to the knowledge of God let him loue In vaine he attempteth to reade or meditate to preache or pray that loueth not The loue of God begetteth the loue of the soule and maketh it to attend to it selfe God loueth vs to noe other end but that we should loue him againe When he loueth he desireth nothing els but to be beloued knowing that those that loue him are by loue made blessed The soule that loueth addicteth it selfe wholy to the loue of God all proper affections being layed aside to the end that by louing him againe it may make some requital for the loue receiued from him And yet when it hath powred forth it selfe wholy in affection what is it in respect of the fountaine of loue froÌ„ whence it had his beginning True it is that noe true comparison can be made betweene the louer and the beloued betweene the soule and God betweene the Creator and the thing created and yet if it loue God to the vttermost of its power there remaineth nothing that it can doe more Let not that soule which loueth be affraied let that soule feare that loueth not God The soule that loueth is led with promises drawen with desires it keepeth secret its owne merits it shutteth the eies to all worldlie honoure and openeth them to the diuine pleasure relying wholie in Christs protection and doing all things with a confidence in him Through loue the soule leaueth and estrangeth it selfe from the corporall senses to the end that feeling God it may not feele it selfe This hapneth when the soule being allured throughe Gods vnspeakeable sweetnes doth as it were stâ—ale it selfe from it selfe or rather is caried and slideth away from it selfe to the end it may enioy God with much gladnes Neither is there any thinge soe sweete were it not soe shorte Loue maketh vs familiar with God familiaritie causeth blodnes blodnes taste and taste hunger The soule which is touched with the loue of God is able to thinke or desire noe other thinge but crieth out incessantlie with sighes saying Euen as the harte or stagge desireth the fountaines of water when he is pursued euen soe my soule longeth after thee o God What God hath donne for man CHAPT XXI ALmightie God through his greate loue towardes man came vnto man yea he came into man and became a man Throughe loue almightie God being inuisible in himselfe became visible like vnto his seruants Through loue he was wounded for our sinnes In the woundes of my Sauiour is a safe and secure place of repose for those that are sicke and for sinners In them I dwell securely for that the bowells of his mercie are apparant by the woundes of his body Out of the bowells of my Lord I take vnto my selfe whatsoeuer on my parte is wantinge vnto me because they flowe with mercy neither are there holes wanting by which they gush forthe vnto me Through the holes of his body the secrets of his harte are seene by me The sacred misterie of his compassion and pitty doth appeare plainely vnto me The bowels of our Lords mercy are apparantly seene in which he hath visited vs comming downe from heauen The woundes of Christ Iesu are full of mercy full of pitty full of sweetnes and charitie It is they that peirced his handes and his feete and his side with a lance Through these holes and clefts may I tast how sweete my Lord God is for that indeede he is sweete and milde and of much mercy towardes all those that in the truth call vpon him towardes all those that seeke him but especiallie towardes those that loue him Briefly in the wounds of our Lord and Sauiour Christ Iesus an infinite ransome a multitude of sweetnes fulnes of grace and perfection of all vertues is bestowed vpon him Of the remembrance of the woundes of our Lord and Sauiour Iesus Christ CHAPT XXII WHen any vncleane cogitation doth aâ—saulte me I am wonte to haue recourse to the woundes of Christ as to a present remedy If at
testimony against it as against the author of them All its sinnes and iniquitie are laied as it were in heapes before its eies and those which it is vnwilling to see it is forced to beholde whither it will or noe Moreouer on the one side of it it beholdeth a terrible troupe of dreadfull diuells on the other side a multitude of heauenly Angells The soule that lieth in the middest quickly perceiueth to which of these companies it appertaineth For if there be seene in it the signes and tokens of goodnes it is conforted by the comfortable speeches of the Angells and by the sweetnes of their harmonious mellody it is allured to come forthe of the body Contrariwise if the darknes of its desâ—rts and the dâ— formity of its filthine doe adiudge it to the left hande it 〈◊〉 forthwith strooken with intolerable feare it is troubled through the force of the sodaine violence that is vsed it is throwne downe beadlonge and assaulted and poore soule is forciblie pluckt out of the prison of the flesh that it may be dâ— awne to eternall torments with vnspeakeable bitternes Now after it is departed out of the body who is able to eâ— presse how many armed troupes of wicked spirits doe ly in waiâ—e to entrappe it how many bandes of frouning fieÌ„des being ready with cruell tormeÌ„ts to afflict it doe beset the way to hinder its passage And to the end it may not be able to escape and passe through them whole legions of them being gathered together after the manner of souldiers doe assault the same Wherfore to consider these and such like thinges by frequent meditation is a soueraigne meane to contemne the enticing allurements of sinne to abandon the worlde and to subdue the vnlawfull motions of the flesh and finally doth cause and conserue in vs a continuall desire of attaining to perfection which God of his mercy grauâ—t vs. Amen A Table of the Manuel of S. Augustin Bishop of Hyppon OF the wonderfull essence of God Chapt. I. Of the vnspâ— akeable knowledge of God Chapt II. Of the desire of the soule thinking on God Chapt. III. Of the miserable estate of that soule that doth neither loue nor seeke our Lord Iesus Christ Chapt. IV. Of the desiâ—e of the soule Chapt. V. Of the soules fâ—licity being deliueâ—ed out of the prison of this earthly body Chapt. VI Of the ioy of Paradise Chapt. VII Of the kingdome of heauen Chapt. VIII How God visiteth and comforteth that soule which with sighes and teare lamenteth his absence Chapt IX Of the sweetnes of diuine loue Chapt. X. Of the preparation of our Redemption Chapt. XI Of the ioy which the soule receiueth by receiuing Christ Chapt. XII That the Worde incarnate is the cause of our hope Chapt. XIII How the more we are addicted to diuine contemplation the greater delight we take therein Chapt. XIV How for Christs sake we ought to wishe for tribulations in this life Chapt. XV. By what meanes the kingdome of heauen may be purchased and gotten Ch XVI What heauen is and what happines is contained therein Chapt XVII How man can make noe other requitall vnto God for the benefits receiued from him but onely by louing him Chapt. XVIII How he requireth something in vs like vnto himselfe Chapt. XIX Of the greaâ—e confidence which the soule hath that loueth God Chapt XX. What God hath donne for man Chapt XXI Of the remembrance of the woundes of our Lord and Sauiour lesus Christ Chapt. XXII How the remembrance of Christs woundes is an approued remedy against all afflictions Chapt. XXIII A deuoute Meditation of the soule stirring vs vp to the loue of Christ Chapt. XXIV How nothing can satisfie the soule besides God the supreame good Chapt XXV What the knowledge of verity is Chapt. XXVI What the sending of the holy Ghost doth effect in vs. Chapt XXVII After what manner he that loueth God carieth himselfe Chapt. XXVIII Of true quietnes of harte Chapt. XXIX How euery thing that hindereth the soule from the sight of God ought to be auoided and detested Chapt XXX How the sight of God hath been lost by meanes of our sinne and miserie hath succeeded in place of the same Chapt. XXXI Of the goodnes of God Chapt XXXII Of the pleasant fruition of almighty God Chapt. XXXIII That the chiefe good is to be desired Chapt XXXIV Of the mutuall charity of the Saints in heauen Chapt. XXXV Of the full and perfect ioy of life euerlasting Chapt. XXXVI FINIS