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thought_n at_o least_o of_o enter_v among_o the_o carthusianess_n but_o take_v not_o away_o her_o resolution_n of_o go_v to_o a_o strict_a order_n and_o tho'_o she_o can_v not_o resolve_v whether_o to_o go_v yet_o she_o have_v absolute_o fix_v her_o resolution_n of_o leave_v the_o monastery_n where_o she_o be_v to_o give_v more_o scope_n to_o mortification_n to_o which_o she_o find_v herself_o very_o effcacious_o move_v chap._n iii_o how_o she_o resolve_v to_o enter_v among_o the_o poor_a clares_z her_o departure_n and_o journey_n from_o liege_n and_o her_o arrival_n at_o gravel_v brother_n clare_n find_v she_o fix_v upon_o a_o removal_n and_o have_v acquaintance_n at_o the_o poor_a clares_z at_o gravel_v which_o be_v the_o first_o order_n that_o she_o have_v see_v in_o these_o country_n and_o then_o seem_v to_o like_v it_o very_o much_o hope_v the_o proposal_n of_o her_o go_v thither_o