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often_o say_v we_o be_v sinner_n wicked_a wretched_a weak_a none_o more_o than_o we_o but_o it_o true_o grieve_v we_o to_o be_v so_o we_o will_v endeavour_v to_o remedy_v all_o sure_o we_o be_v our_o god_n be_v almighty_a all-mercy_n all-meekness_n he_o we_o will_v serve_v and_o in_o he_o we_o will_v trust_v in_o despite_n of_o nature_n and_o maugre_o the_o devil_n and_o for_o he_o all_o desolation_n and_o death_n itself_o be_v most_o welcome_a unto_o we_o the_o 2._o doubt_n if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n let_v we_o cast_v off_o servile_a fear_n and_o be_v confident_a that_o what_o be_v pass_v be_v pardon_v by_o god_n mercy_n and_o our_o humble_a confession_n &_o what_o be_v to_o come_v may_v be_v prevent_v by_o god_n grace_n and_o our_o diligence_n and_o endeavour_n the_o 3._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n let_v we_o have_v recourse_n to_o these_o four_o thing_n which_o will_v supply_v our_o defect_n and_o satisfy_v for_o our_o fault_n 1._o obedience_n 2._o resignation_n 3._o confidence_n 4._o good_a desire_n therefore_o in_o all_o our_o fear_n cross_n and_o trouble_n let_v we_o make_v use_n of_o these_o four_o point_n in_o this_o or_o practice_n the_o practice_n the_o like_a manner_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o deserve_v from_o i_o all_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o serve_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n behold_v i_o come_v out_o of_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n have_v no_o other_o end_n but_o only_o to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o wherefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o will_n beseech_v thou_o to_o turn_v all_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o good_a the_o 4._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o build_v upon_o these_o three_o foundation_n humility_n in_o acknowledge_v our_o own_o deformity_n sincerity_n in_o confess_v it_o and_o confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o it_o and_o so_o persevere_v constant_o and_o courageous_o in_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n according_a to_o direction_n and_o obedience_n we_o shall_v soon_o find_v ease_n rest_n and_o peace_n the_o 5._o doubt_n if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o apply_v these_o follow_a plaster_n and_o put_v these_o tent_n into_o our_o spiritual_a wound_n as_o deep_a as_o we_o can_v every_o day_n for_o a_o time_n till_o the_o cure_n be_v perfect_v 1._o let_v we_o be_v assure_v that_o we_o be_v conscience_n plaster_n for_o a_o trouble_a conscience_n now_o at_o this_o present_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n suppose_v we_o have_v already_o or_o be_v now_o resolve_v to_o do_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o expiation_n of_o our_o past_a sin_n and_o the_o avoid_v all_o sin_n for_o the_o future_a 2._o that_o have_v a_o will_v to_o please_v god_n and_o perform_v our_o duty_n our_o prayer_n be_v profitable_a to_o we_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v without_o presumption_n take_v courage_n and_o comfort_n though_o we_o be_v yet_o full_a of_o passion_n and_o â—mperfections_n 3._o that_o the_o feel_n of_o trouble_n fear_n temptation_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n in_o we_o nor_o sign_n of_o god_n anger_n against_o we_o 4._o that_o we_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o reflect_v continual_o whether_o we_o have_v consent_v to_o sin_n or_o not_o nor_o to_o judge_v whether_o this_o or_o that_o consent_n he_o mortal_a or_o venial_a nor_o to_o meddle_v with_o the_o sin_n of_o our_o
serious_o such_o remedy_n as_o be_v proper_a for_o the_o preservation_n of_o this_o jewel_n among_o which_o the_o chief_a be_v mortification_n of_o our_o rebellious_a flesh_n by_o austerity_n hence_o s._n thomas_n call_v chastity_n from_o chastise_v aquin._n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin._n it_o be_v better_a our_o stomach_n pain_n we_o than_o our_o conscience_n and_o that_o we_o lose_v health_n of_o body_n than_o purity_n of_o soul_n and_o salvation_n of_o both_o this_o remedy_n of_o mortification_n be_v absolute_o necessary_a when_o carnal_a motion_n arise_v first_o in_o the_o body_n and_o thence_o redound_v into_o the_o imagination_n but_o if_o from_o the_o fancy_n they_o descend_v to_o the_o body_n we_o be_v to_o apply_v these_o follow_a remedy_n 1._o let_v we_o avoid_v idleness_n 2._o let_v we_o negotium_fw-la amor_fw-la otiosorum_fw-mi negotium_fw-la change_v our_o employment_n if_o we_o be_v assault_v in_o company_n let_v we_o seek_v solitude_n if_o in_o solitude_n let_v we_o hasten_v into_o company_n etc._n etc._n 3._o silence_n temperance_n ephrem_fw-la s._n ephrem_fw-la and_o custody_n of_o sense_n be_v three_o powerful_a preserver_n of_o chastity_n 4._o let_v we_o make_v great_a account_n of_o little_a thing_n and_o shake_v off_o the_o first_o motion_n of_o this_o nature_n as_o we_o will_v a_o burn_a coal_n from_o off_o our_o new_a garment_n 5._o ler_n we_o humble_o but_o modest_o and_o discreet_o lie_v open_v their_o nature_n and_o manner_n to_o our_o spiritual_a guide_n 6._o let_v we_o careful_o avoid_v all_o suspect_a company_n familiarity_n meeting_n etc._n etc._n though_o our_o intention_n be_v never_o so_o spiritual_a 7._o let_v we_o strive_v rather_o to_o slight_v scorn_n and_o neglect_v these_o temptation_n than_o formal_o to_o resist_v they_o 5._o in_o vehement_a temptation_n 1._o make_v the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n upon_o your_o heart_n 2._o use_v some_o brief_a and_o burn_a aspiration_n as_o lord_n deliver_v i_o i_o suffer_v violence_n o_o my_o god_n answer_v for_o i_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o jesus_n body_n and_o soul_n help_v i_o 3._o defy_v the_o devil_n with_o st._n antony_n fie_o antony_n isay_n 38._o 14._o s._n antony_n beast_n thou_o be_v a_o angel_n i_o who_o be_o now_o a_o beast_n will_v aim_n to_o be_v a_o angel_n and_o get_v thy_o lose_a place_n be_v go_v the_o lodging_n be_v already_o take_v up_o jesus_n be_v here_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o love_n i_o be_o preingage_v in_o a_o former_a and_o pure_a affection_n 6._o let_v we_o prepare_v beforehand_o certain_a place_n of_o refuge_n for_o our_o shelter_n and_o succour_v till_o the_o storm_n be_v pass_v over_o 1._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o his_o angel_n say_v how_o be_v it_o possible_a god_n see_v i_o and_o shall_v i_o sin_v in_o his_o sight_n 2._o death_n and_o eternity_n the_o delight_n be_v momentary_a the_o punishment_n be_v eternâ—lâ—_n death_n be_v at_o my_o door_n and_o shall_v i_o adventure_v 3._o christ_n sacred_a wound_n let_v we_o there_o hide_v and_o secure_v ourselves_o and_o say_v my_o god_n hang_v on_o the_o cross_n and_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o take_v my_o pleasure_n 4._o the_o love_n of_o god_n o_o jesu_n my_o love_n and_o my_o life_n i_o will_v either_o love_v thou_o or_o love_v nothing_o at_o all_o let_v i_o rather_o lose_v my_o life_n than_o thy_o love_n 5._o humility_n thou_o be_v just_a o_o my_o lord_n god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v my_o pride_n be_v cause_n of_o this_o villainy_n which_o i_o feel_v etc._n etc._n and_o take_v chaste_a we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a this_o for_o a_o infallible_a truth_n we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a let_v we_o be_v obedient_a to_o our_o superior_n or_o let_v we_o not_o look_v to_o have_v our_o flesh_n obedient_a to_o our_o spirit_n 6._o devotion_n to_o saint_n excel_v in_o this_o virtue_n especial_o to_o the_o chaste_a virgin_n mary_n 7._o the_o last_o remedy_n be_v to_o make_v use_n of_o these_o antidote_n timely_a orderly_o and_o discreet_o without_o which_o no_o rule_n document_n or_o direction_n will_v aught_o avail_v we_o the_o 12._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v in_o extraordinary_a desolation_n and_o darkness_n we_o must_v live_v by_o faith_n in_o this_o case_n and_o know_v that_o a_o sensible_a choice_n of_o god_n and_o goodness_n be_v not_o now_o necessary_a but_o a_o rational_a adhere_n to_o he_o be_v sufficient_a our_o fidelity_n to_o god_n be_v show_v in_o the_o performance_n of_o our_o duty_n now_o as_o at_o other_o time_n without_o lose_v either_o our_o confidence_n in_o he_o or_o seek_v comfort_n in_o our_o suffering_n but_o aspire_v if_o not_o sweet_o yet_o sincere_o in_o this_o or_o the_o like_a manner_n lord_n i_o choose_v thou_o and_o accept_v of_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n and_o providence_n in_o all_o thing_n i_o reject_v whatsoever_o may_v possess_v that_o place_n and_o dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n which_o be_v due_a to_o thou_o alone_o dispose_v of_o i_o and_o i_o as_o shall_v be_v most_o for_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n let_v i_o be_v either_o all_o thou_o or_o nothing_o at_o all_o the_o 13._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n this_o grievous_a malady_n spring_v from_o three_o cause_n or_o error_n for_o they_o who_o be_v trouble_v in_o this_o point_n do_v not_o true_o weigh_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v 2._o what_o sin_n be_v 3._o what_o contrition_n and_o sorrow_n of_o heart_n be_v 1._o almighty_a god_n be_v a_o boundless_a be_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v and_o bottomless_a sea_n of_o mercy_n he_o be_v natural_a bounty_n itself_o he_o be_v ever_o ready_a to_o receive_v revive_v and_o relieve_v a_o penitent_a soul_n though_o she_o alone_o have_v commit_v a_o thousand_o time_n a_o day_n the_o sin_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n he_o consider_v not_o what_o she_o have_v be_v but_o what_o she_o desire_v and_o resolve_v now_o to_o be_v and_o who_o so_o deny_v his_o power_n or_o will_v to_o pardon_v sinner_n as_o often_o as_o there_o be_v moment_n in_o time_n go_v about_o to_o deprive_v he_o of_o his_o honour_n and_o divinity_n itself_o for_o he_o can_v not_o be_v god_n if_o he_o be_v not_o good_a and_o faithful_a in_o his_o promise_n o_o love_a lord_n god_n who_o be_v not_o only_o ready_a to_o receive_v a_o penitent_n petition_n but_o even_o woo_v he_o to_o present_v it_o who_o can_v true_o consider_v what_o thou_o be_v and_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n 2._o sin_n sin_n 2._o what_o sin_n be_v a_o voluntary_a and_o deliberate_a aversion_n from_o god_n and_o conversion_n to_o creature_n 3._o contrition_n be_v of_o that_o efficacy_n that_o it_o deliver_v from_o all_o sin_n contrition_n 3._o what_o contrition_n give_v confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o the_o past_a and_o courage_n to_o avoid_v it_o for_o the_o future_a let_v we_o apply_v this_o to_o our_o comfort_n the_o 14._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v perplex_v with_o great_a sadness_n this_o passion_n be_v a_o great_a hindrance_n to_o devotion_n and_o perfection_n it_o be_v the_o bait_n of_o the_o devil_n the_o bane_n of_o our_o spirit_n the_o root_n mother_n and_o nursery_n of_o infinite_a misery_n and_o mischief_n the_o chief_a cause_n of_o sadness_n nature_n the_o cause_n of_o sadness_n 1._o nature_n be_v these_o 1._o nature_n when_o melancholy_a over-sways_a the_o sanguine_a humour_n this_o can_v neither_o merit_n nor_o demerit_n but_o the_o devil_n take_v thereby_o occasion_n to_o fill_v our_o spirit_n with_o unquietness_n these_o have_v need_v aswell_o of_o corporal_a as_o spiritual_a physic_n 2._o a_o tenderness_n of_o heart_n and_o self-love_n 2._o self-love_n passionate_a love_n of_o ourselves_o we_o can_v brook_v the_o least_o contradiction_n etc._n etc._n but_o we_o sigh_v and_o sob_v as_o if_o all_o the_o world_n be_v interest_v in_o our_o misfortune_n and_o shall_v bear_v a_o part_n in_o our_o doleful_a ditty_n the_o remedy_n be_v to_o bid_v such_o weep_v on_o for_o their_o penance_n or_o use_v some_o coporall_a austerity_n 3._o a_o immortification_n of_o our_o passion_n which_o when_o we_o seek_v in_o passion_n 3._o passion_n good_a earnest_n to_o root_v out_o assault_v we_o so_o strong_o that_o it_o seem_v impossible_a to_o cure_v they_o and_o hence_o we_o grow_v sad_a the_o remedy_n be_v to_o conquer_v this_o bad_a nature_n by_o counsel_n courage_n and_o diligence_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o pray_v hearty_o suffer_v willing_o stoop_v humble_o it_o be_v for_o heaven_n we_o fight_v and_o suffer_v 4._o a_o secret_a root_n of_o pride_n vain_a pride_n 4._o secret_a pride_n esteem_n and_o false_a opinion_n we_o have_v of_o ourselves_o when_o thing_n fall_v not_o out_o according_a to_o our_o like_n expectation_n or_o importunate_a desire_n whereupon_o we_o grow_v sad_a and_o trouble_a
inclination_n the_o three_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a will_n and_o purpose_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n entire_o in_o due_a time_n and_o place_n according_a to_o thy_o ordinance_n and_o that_o of_o thy_o holy_a church_n we_o may_v add_v to_o these_o the_o devout_a frequentation_n sign_n three_o other_o sign_n of_o the_o sacrament_n which_o give_v life_n and_o justify_v grace_n the_o warrant_n of_o a_o skilful_a guide_n and_o a_o lively_a confidence_n in_o the_o divine_a bounty_n the_o 26._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 1._o if_o when_o the_o thought_n be_v represent_v sin_n rule_v to_o know_v when_o we_o consent_v to_o sin_n we_o present_o fly_v to_o the_o crucifix_n expel_v it_o disdain_v it_o dislike_v it_o it_o be_v not_o sin_n but_o merit_n 2._o but_o if_o we_o careless_o linger_v in_o it_o when_o well_o perceive_v it_o be_v venial_a 3._o and_o if_o we_o consent_v to_o the_o thought_n and_o desire_v the_o action_n our_o sin_n be_v equal_a to_o the_o act_n if_o it_o be_v commit_v 4._o but_o if_o we_o intend_v not_o the_o act_n but_o linger_v delightful_o in_o the_o thought_n and_o the_o thing_n itself_o be_v mortal_a and_o deliberate_o entertain_v it_o be_v also_o mortal_a the_o 27._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 1._o what_o need_v we_o determine_v let_v we_o confess_v it_o as_o it_o be_v commit_v 2._o mortal_a sin_n can_v be_v commit_v without_o great_a corruption_n of_o he_o who_o commit_v it_o or_o great_a hurt_n to_o his_o neighbour_n or_o great_a contempt_n and_o neglect_n of_o god_n say_v richardas_n a_o s._n victore_fw-la and_o s._n thomas_n thomas_n rich._n à _fw-fr s._n victore_fw-la s._n thomas_n say_v he_o sin_v mortal_o who_o total_a intention_n of_o mind_n be_v withdraw_v from_o god_n who_o be_v our_o last_o end_n 3._o let_v we_o conclude_v with_o s._n augustin_n gerson_n s._n august_n gerson_n and_o gerson_n that_o it_o be_v dangerous_a even_o in_o prelate_n and_o confessor_n to_o define_v what_o be_v mortal_a sin_n or_o give_v rule_n therein_o the_o 28._o doubt_n if_o that_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v eligenda_fw-la faciens_fw-la contra_fw-la dubium_fw-la incidit_fw-la in_o peccatum_fw-la in_o dubiis_fw-la securior_fw-la pars_fw-la est_fw-la eligenda_fw-la we_o he_o that_o do_v against_o his_o doubt_n sin_n and_o in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v choose_v we_o may_v in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a secure_o follow_v a_o probable_a opinion_n now_o scruple_n be_v not_o doubt_n but_o false_a apprehension_n and_o therefore_o on_o all_o side_n we_o may_v and_o sometime_o must_v go_v against_o our_o own_o erroneous_a conscience_n especial_o when_o obedience_n command_v it_o let_v we_o therefore_o with_o s._n augustin_n incertum_fw-la s._n augustin_n tene_fw-la certum_fw-la dimitte_n incertum_fw-la lay_v hold_v of_o that_o which_o be_v certain_a and_o let_v go_v the_o uncertain_a and_o what_o way_n be_v more_o sure_a and_o secure_a than_o obedience_n the_o 29._o and_o last_o doubt_n if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n let_v we_o excite_v our_o tepidity_n by_o the_o frequent_a perusal_n of_o this_o follow_a discourse_n and_o practice_v according_o the_o patriarch_n jacob_n in_o hope_n of_o obtain_v the_o beautiful_a rachel_n serve_v laban_n seven_o year_n with_o diligence_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v cozen_v by_o that_o disloyal_a worldling_n with_o ill_a favour_a lia_n what_o do_v he_o he_o neither_o lose_v courage_n nor_o confidence_n but_o with_o new_a constancy_n begin_v his_o other_o seven_o year_n service_n with_o such_o admirable_a alacrity_n and_o a_o heart_n so_o fix_v upon_o his_o desire_a reward_n that_o the_o time_n seem_v 29._o gen._n 29._o but_o a_o week_n to_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n thou_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o eternal_a beatitude_n consist_v essential_o in_o the_o bless_a vision_n and_o fruition_n of_o god_n signify_v by_o rachel_n according_a to_o s._n bernard_n for_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n this_o thou_o have_v bind_v thyself_o to_o serve_v god_n but_o alas_o the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v so_o often_o beguile_v &_o blind_v thou_o that_o thou_o take_v blear-eyed_a lia_n for_o beautiful_a rachel_n the_o world_n for_o heaven_n the_o flesh_n for_o the_o spirit_n and_o diabolical_a illusion_n for_o divine_a inspiration_n but_o what_o lose_v not_o courage_n nor_o confidence_n renew_v thy_o protestation_n of_o loyal_a service_n serve_v god_n one_o other_o seven_o year_n suffer_v another_o slavery_n to_o get_v heaven_n to_o die_v in_o final_a grace_n and_o to_o be_v eternal_o join_v to_o that_o bless_a beauty_n thou_o love_v follow_v jesus_n to_o mount_v calvary_n to_o consummatum_fw-la est_fw-la to_o thy_o last_o gasp_n if_o thou_o stumble_v fall_v not_o if_o thou_o fall_v up_o again_o and_o march_v stand_v not_o but_o go_v forward_o for_o he_o only_o that_o persevere_v till_o the_o end_n shall_v be_v save_v let_v neither_o frequent_a temptation_n nor_o fearful_a imagination_n nor_o strong_a passion_n nor_o bad_a inclination_n nor_o often_o fall_n nor_o ordinary_a frailty_n daunt_v or_o dismay_v thou_o god_n be_v good_a and_o gracious_a meek_a and_o merciful_a thy_o reward_n be_v infinite_a and_o eternal_a thy_o friend_n be_v more_o in_o heaven_n than_o on_o earth_n persevere_v then_o and_o go_v forward_o if_o thou_o can_v not_o run_v at_o least_o go_v fair_a and_o soft_o and_o secure_o after_o christ_n thy_o captain_n crying_z draw_v i_o unto_o thou_o o_o most_o dear_a lord_n for_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v thou_o and_o no_o other_o but_o i_o be_o weak_a and_o lame_a and_o therefore_o i_o make_v use_n of_o two_o crutch_n a_o strong_a resolution_n never_o to_o forsake_v thy_o 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