reflect upon my sinful life I tremble at deaths memory and approach But O dear Jesu when I consider thy infinit merits and mercies I am comforted I become confident and I remain content to dy whensoever it shall be thy good pleasure because thou being my God sufferedst Death to give me eternal Life 10. How long art thou content to ly languishing in Sickness and after death to remain punished in Purgatory Even as long as it shall please thee my Lord and Lover for in Sickness in Death and after death I wholly resign and abandon my self to thy sacred Will and Disposition 11. 1. Have I not been bountiful liberal and loving to thee 2. Hast thou well requited this my love and liberality 3. What thanks dost thou give me 4. At least what do I deserve from thee O my Lord Thy Liberality Mercy Goodness and Love to me thy most ungrateful Vassal hath been excessive immense unmeasurable and alas I have never requited the least of thy benefits by any faithful service fervent affection or sincere gratitude But now O my Royal Benefactor behold I here 1. render thee all the humble thanks benedictions and praises I am able 2. I heartily wish it were in my power to praise honour and love thee with that purity fervor and affection as thou deservest and I desire 3. Since I know my self to be altogether uncapable to pay what I owe thee therefore I beseech thee to pay thy self out of thy own infinit stock of mercy and thy Sons immense treasure of merits 4. Thy self O my Soverain Lord God! is thy own praises and this I offer up unto thy divin Majesty 12. How much did I suffer on the Cross 2. For whom 3. What moved me to it 4. What did I thirst after in dying and crying Sitio 5. Compare thy pains with mine is there any proportion 6. Will not all this move thee to suffer a little Sickness and Death for me O my dear Redeemer I am not able to conceive much less to express the dismal torments thou enduredst at thy Death 2. Yet I know it was all to Redeem Sinners and my self in particular 3. And the only motive was the great affection thou hadst to save my soul that I might Love Praise and Enjoy thee eternally 4. I believe thy Thirst was after my love and salvation 5. And I wish that mine may be after thy only Love and Honour 6. In thanksgiving for all which thy love favours and benefits and because thou art my God I absolutly resign my self to suffer and die when how and where it shall please thy divin Majesty 13. But what if thou art not of the number of my Elect and that out of my severe Justice I should send thee into Hell fires O my God! I remit my self wholly to thee and were I assured of that fearful Separation from thee yet I would still endeavour to love thee serve thee and adhere to thee during this my pilgrimage on earth with all possible diligence sincerity and fidelity 14. Dost thou not much desire in dying to have the fruit of the Sacraments and the presence and Prayers of thy Ghostly Father and of my holy Church This O my dear Lord is my most hearty desire but I prefer thy blessed Will before both I care not how suddenly Death may seize on me so it finds me not unprovided All this which is by me spoken and answer'd to my Lord and Savior with perfect use of Sence and Judgment I will by his divin Grace never revoke or deny where and howsoever I lead and end my life Of all which I take for witness my Lord God himself in whose presence I am and the whol Court of Heaven humbly offering up these my desires intentions and resolutions to the Throne of the divin mercy to be there ratifi'd confirm'd and perfected by the merits of my dear Redeemer Christ Jesus and by the intercessions of his and my blessed Mother Mary and heartily begging the assistance of the whol Church both Militant and Triumphant for the full and perfect performance thereof Blessed be my God for ever Amen Protestations to be made by the Sick Person either Vocally if he be able or els Mentally being distinctly read and suggested unto him ✚ In the Name of the Blessed Trinity Father Son and Holy Ghost I N. wretched and miserable sinner do Protest before Almighty God who sees the secrets and sincerity of my heart before you my good Angel and all the Court of Heaven and also before you my Ghostly Father and Friends here present 1. That I have a firm constant and setled will and desire to die in the true Catholick Faith and Church wherein all the Saints are departed understanding and believing all the Articles of my Faith in that sense and meaning which my holy Mother the Catholick Church the Spouse of Christ and Pillar of truth hath and doth propose them to be understood and believed 2. Also I protest that I do with all my heart and soul detest all the sins of my life past humbly beg pardon for all my Commissions against God my Neighbour my self in Thought Word and Deed and for all my Omissions in observing the precepts of God and his Church the Rule and Constitutions of my Profession the works of mercy either spiritual or corporal as also for having abus'd the Sacraments refus'd Gods grace rejected his inspirations neglected his vocations been careless in the custody of my heart and senses scandalous in my life and manners tepid in tending to perfection and generally for all my sins scandals disedifications and for whatsoever I have any way offended my Creators divin Majesty and goodness Humbly beseeching him by his own infinit Mercy by the Merits of my dear Saviour Christ Jesus by the Intercession of the powerful Virgin Mary and by the Prayers of all the Angels and Saints that he will be pleased to supply all the defects of my Sacramental Confessions and that now at last he will furnish me with grace and strength to produce this one Act of true and sincere Contrition O my God! be merciful unto me a Sinner In the pronunciation whereof I could be content my heart would break asunder with grief and sorrow for having offended so infinitly amiable a Lord and Lover 3. Also I protest that I do heartily forgive all such as have ever any way offended hurt or injur'd me and that I most humbly crave pardon of all them whom I have any way knowingly or ignorantly offended hurt injur'd in words in deeds or by my bad example offering my self ready to make them full and ample satisfaction to the utmost of my power 4. Also I protest that I am altogether uncapable to render worthy thanks to the divin Majesty for his infinit favours blessings and benefits from time to time in general and in particular bestow'd upon me his undeserving unworthy and ungrateful Servant wherefore I do beseech the blessed Virgin my
impossible for poor Man who is tossed too and fro like Autumn leaves with the Winds of Inconstancy to persever long in his Virtuous enterprises Pious purposes and holy Resolutions 16. And to descend now to the particulars of this Evening Exercise The First thing you are to do O devout Christian having recollected your self in some place of retirement Is to render humble and hearty Thanks to the Divine Majesty for all Favours Blessings and Benefits bestow'd on you generally in your whol life-time and particularly that present Day Benefits which his boundless Goodness dayly Renews by still continuing them And how particularly his Paternal Affection Compassion and Providence have appeared in your behalf even in the divers Occasions and Dangers of this now past Day your Eyes if they will only open cannot but admiringly behold Now since he looks for no other return for his Bounty than a bare Gratitude which will cost thee Nothing Wilt thou refuse O Creature to thy Creator Wilt thou deny O Christian to thy Redeemer one dayly Act of thy Memory one dayly Resentment of thy Heart one dayly Acknowledgment of thy Tongue for his dayly continued Love and Liberality In the next place you are to begg Light to discern and Ayd to correct such Crimes as you have that day committed For how can you Hope without the help of Heavenly Light to perceive the many faults excesses omissions which your Frailty your Rashness your Indiscretion your Proness to evil your Perverse customs have drawn upon your Thoughts your Desires your Discourses your Actions amongst so many Objects Occasions Assaults either expresly against his Divine Will and Precepts or at least contrary to his Love and Liking Thirdly proceed to the particular Discussion of your Conscience upon those four Points prescribed by St Bernard 1. How much have you advanced forwards or gon backwards in the way of Virtue and Perfection 2. What you are in your Manners what in your Affections 3. How like you are to your Saviour how unlike 4. How nearly you are united to him or how far distant you are from him Then reflect briefly upon the Companies Discourses Objects Affairs of the past Day Considering what Passions what Imperfections what Omissions what Commissions what expence of time c. And here the more Spiritual persons may fitly make use of St. Leo's method Let every Christian says he sift and sound his Conscience in this Manner 1. Whether the Peace profferr'd to all by our Saviour find's a Resting place in his Heart 2. Whether any Carnal Concupisence impugn's the pious purposes of his Soul 3. Whether he hates mean and humble things and fancies sublime and high matters 4. Whether the inordinate desire of Gain or a Greediness of encreasing his temporal means commodities honours worldly glory and esteem transports him 5. Finally whether hiâ— Neighbours Prosperity provokes him to Envy or his Enemies Calamity excites him to Joy and gladness If in your Examination you have taken notice of any Mortal Crime Be sure to confound your self presently in your Creators presence by an humble acknowledgment of your strange Malice Ingratitude Frailty Look upon the dismal inexplicable interminable torments of Hell which you have deserved even now at this very instant Then praise and magnify the Divine Mercy which permitted not the Earth to swallow you as Dathan and Abiron or the Waves to ingulph you as Pharao with his Egyptian Army or Fire to consume you as Sodom and Gomorra or his Sword to cut you off as the rebellious crew in the Wilderness or his Breath to blast you with sodain Death as Ananias and Saphira or some other Instrument of his severe Justice to revenge his Injury raze you from off the earths Surface and cast you headlong into the place which is only proper and therefore prepared to receive such ungrateful and perverse Wretches as divers Others who have been Death-struck in the very height of their sinful fact and hurried away to Hell before they had perfected their begun impiety And why is this favourable delay of the Divine Justice afforded you O undeserving Wretch but to give you time to call upon his Mercy Call therefore Poor and miserable Criminal Call instantly upon the Divine Clemency Petition him presently for a Pardon Purpose seriously to Correct speedily to Confess willingly to Satisfy for your Transgression And suffer not O Christian suffer not any Mortal Sin which is not absolutly Renounc'd Revok'd Abjur'd by a Retractation of your Will to harbour in your Heart to nestle in your Soul and to sleep one whol Night with you in your Bosom For since you dread to admit a Serpent for your Bedfellow how dare you sleep securely having this horrid Serpent not with you but within you not in your Bed but in your Breast to destroy your Soul by an eternal Death and Damnation if your sleeping Body should be surpriz'd by a temporal Death and Dissolution And have not many Sinners been so serv'd Ah! my Friend That which happens to One may happen to any One and may justly be dreaded by every One. In matters of such moment where the loss if it happens is irreparable Precaution is necessary to prevent the Danger But this Act of Contrition must not have the Fear of your own eternal Punishment and the Dread of Hell-fire for its only Object This is too mean a Motive for your Sorrow and unsufficient for your Salvation You are to take the rise of your Grief from a more glorious Origin the Consideration of the heavenly Felicity whereof this Sin of yours hath eternally depriv'd you unless your true and timely Repentance re-instates you The Kingdom of Heaven suffers Violence Your Sorrow O Sinner must force your passage thither and your Sighs and Tears must make a Breach for your entrance Neither must you yet stay here but soare higher than Heaven it self elevating your afflicted Spirit even to the Throne of the Divine Majesty offended Yes O penitent Soul The Divine Goodness offended is the only pure Motive and ought to be the prime Object of your Sorrow and Contrition O my Father said the Repentant Prodigal I have sinned against Heaven and in your presence He says not I am worthy of your Punishment unworthy of your Inheritance but I have offended you and injur'd your Goodness The consideration of having offended his loving Father more lively pierces his Soul than the fear of Punishment or the loss of his Portion To be sorry for our Sins by reason of the incurr'd Punishment is a Slaves property by reason of the lost reward is the part of a Mercenary by reason of Gods Goodness is a loving Child's Duty The Slave shunns Blows the Mercenary seeks for Gain the Child shews his Duty The first is an act of Constraint the next of Covetousness the last of Love The Punishment is indeed to be dreaded and the Reward is to be desired but Gods Love is chiefly to be regarded His Love should be mans only
I will employ my time and talent in studying thy essence excellency effects motives and what else concerns thee that I may sincerely affect thee seriously seek thee happily lay hold on thee and resolutely practice thee I will perseverantly fight against perverse nature quel concupiscence cut off curiosity repress vice and reiterate these acts till they induce the contrary habits of all Virtues into my conquering Soul O Jesu perfect exemplar of all sanctity who art graciously pleased to afford courage to weaklings to confound the strong 1. Give me a noble Generosity to set on Virtue that I may with vigour alacrity and promptitude vanquish all sloath and negligence 2. Give me a discreet Severity to set on my self that the caitiff pleasures of flesh and bloud make me not relent in my labours 3. Give me a meek Benigntty and sweetness of heart that I may peaceably patiently and joyfully pass over all difficulties remain always solaced and satisfied with thy good pleasure and permission and persevere constantly in these my pious practises and resolutions The Second Exercise Of the Theological Virtues and first of Faith 1. The Essence of Faith Faith is a Theological Virtue elevating and enabling our souls to an assured though obscure knowledg of all such things as are revealed by God PRostrate again and humbled even into the center of my own nothing I represent my self before thy supreme Majesty O dread Sovereign of heaven and earth I acknowledg O prime infallible and only essential verity that the Just man lives by Faith that by it only I can have access unto thy sacred Majesty and that without it it is not only vain to pretend but altogether impossible to please thee I believe O my Lord that Faith is the first step of my Pilgrimage towards heaven the necessary foundation whereupon I must raise the high edifice of my desired perfection and the very substance and support of all my hope of future happiness in thy blessed eternity I also most gratefully confess that Faith is a gratuite gift of thy meer mercy and gracious bounty which alone moved thee to infuse it into my undeserving soul in Baptism O love O liberality But ah my unfaithfulness how poorly have I performed my then made publick promise and profession Alas my disloyal Soul Thou hast not liv'd according to Faith's Laws thou hast little lov'd thy Lord less thy Neighbour and least of all thine own self Thou hast scarcely dreaded thy supreme Creator as thy severe Judg much less honour'd serv'd and obey'd him as thy sweet Father Thy Faith hath been hitherto dead and thy barren tree hath not yet budded forth into blossoms nor born any fruit of good works O pious and potent Lord Curse not presently this fruitless fig-tree lest it forthwith wither away into nothing O cut me not yet off nor cast me suddenly into the fire as I have most justly deserved for having thus long possess'd a place in thy Garden without any return of profit to thee my heavenly Planter O spare me one year longer Divine Husbandman digg about me and refresh my driness with the sweet streams of thy infinite mercy that I may spring forth into fruitfull works worthy my Faith and profession Quicken renew revive O bountifull Lord thine own gracious gift of Faith in my Soul which is dulled deaded and almost destroy'd and choak'd up with the venomous weeds of my wilfull sin and negligence O give me a fresh supply of celestial light and strength enable my poor Soul to pour forth her self here in thy Divine presence receive thy now repenting and returning child pardon mercifully his past disloyalties and graciously accept these hearty protestations of his most sincere fidelity for the future I believe O eternal Truth I believe all that thy self hast said in thy sacred Scripture and reveal'd to thy dear Spouse the Catholick Church as most sure and certain verities Yes Lord thy words are indubitable thy Church is infallible and I will sooner believe my self not to live than to suspect thy Prophets Apostles or their Successors in thy Church by whose mouths thou speakest to be Authors of the least falshood I will therefore expect no greater evidence in this life in these secret and sacred mysteries of Faith than thy Divine Revelation and thy holy Churches assertion Ah my soul how well is it for thee that thou art uncapable to Dive into the Counsels of the Divinity What were the merit of thy Faith if thine own reason could yield thee an infallible certainty To clear it alas were to ruine it to draw the curtain which obscures it were to bereave it of its most convenient cloathing to examine it too punctually were to distrust thy God too peremptorily wherefore my Soul doth humbly and heartily sacrifice to thee her Soveraign Creator the noblest faculty wherewith thou hast endowed her which is her Vnderstanding She willingly submits it by an absolute captivity and blind obedience to all thy Divine Decrees Laws and Ordinances without questioning how or why I receive all intirely universally singularly each sentence of Scripture each sanction of the Church without the least exception choice reserve or distinction I believe all O Lord help my unbelief 2. The Material Object of Faith God is the material object of our Faith who hath revealed all truths which are to be believed THou O Eternal Unity of Essence O ineffable Trinity of Persons O Father Son and Holy Ghost in whom all things live move and have their being art the prime object of my Faith to whom all truths are to be referred as the first and infallible rule of all verity Thou hast revealed thy self as an infinite independent eternal perfect and omnipotent Creator of all things Conserver of the whol Universe Governour of Heaven and Earth Glorifier of Angels Redeemer of Sinners Justifier of Saints first Author and final End of all Creatures I believe adore admire and melt away in the meditation of these thy marvellous greatnesses and glories Thou hast delivered unto me by thy Apostles the faithfull Interpreters of thy Word and Will a short Symbole as a compleat abridgment of the truths I am bound to believe of the good things I am to hope and of the blessed objects whereon I am to fix my affection O Divine Creed little in expressions but large in mysteries containing sweet milk for Children and solid meat for Men I firmly credit each tittle thou containest in the same sense and meaning it is to be believed I will frequently repeat and ruminate each one of thy sublime articles when I rise I will remember thee when I betake me to my rest I will recite thee Thou shalt be my Garment to adorn me my Glass to dress me my Corslet to defend me till I come to thy blessed Kingdom O Father Almighty and all Mercy where thy self in clear vision wilt be the revealed object of my Faith the final accomplisher of my Hope and the rich recompence of
my Love in thy life everlasting 3. The Formal Object of Faith Divine Revelation is the formal object of our Faith by which truths are delivered from God to man in divers manners THou hast made man and plac'd him in this world O Soveraign Creator to know serve love and please thee and to praise thee eternally in the next world But how alas can he arrive at this end or hope to hit this mark unless he be heightned above his depressing earth elevated beyond his drossie senses and enlightned with a more sublime knowledg than his own weak reason can reach unto Thy supernatural assistance O Divine bounty is necessary to raise him to these blessed objects which are above nature His blindness is too great and his ignorance is too gross to discover the Mysteries of Faith and secrets of Religion He must learn this Science from thy self O supreme Verity and this assurance must be derived from thine own Divine revelation And this thou hast abundantly performed O immense fountain of all Truth at sundry times by several means and in divers manners 1. By outward words forming voices as it were in the air to inform us of thy will 2. By speaking to our hearts which thou disposest to understand thy heavenly inspirations 3. By interposing the Ministry of thy Creatures to denounce thy commands Teaching us by thy Angels preaching to us by thy Prophets instructing us by thy Apostles informing us by thy Scriptures which are missives sent from thine Omnipotency declaring to us mortals thy pleasure 4. By Visions either purely Intellectual as in S. Paul or Imaginary as in Jeremy or Real as in Daniel all shewing by silent signs and resemblances what thou wilt have effected 5. By Dreams when the outward senses being shut up from all distracting objects our souls are sweetly inform'd with thy Divine Verities 6. By Raptures when our elevated spirits inflamed with heavenly love are for a time interdicted the use of their corporeal senses and operations and totally taken up in the contemplation of thy infinite beauties and perfections 7. By thine own dear Son our sweet Saviour in whom were hidden all the treasures of thy Divine Science Him thou sentst us O eternal and ever-loving Father from heaven to earth to be our Doctor and Master and to teach us thy heavenly Truths by his own humane mouth O my God! how great is thy love in all these manifestations and how great is my obligation for all these thy mercies In how many languages dost thou speak to my deaf Soul Be thou eternally praised for all thy comfortable words revelations visions raptures instructions which thou hast conferred upon all thy Saints and Servants but above all for sending thy beloved Son thy co-eternal co-equal consubstantial increated and yet incarnate Wisdom to reveal the mystery of thy Law the immensity of thy Love the marvels of thy Mercy O my Soul What glory is it to be instructed by Gods own Son O my Lord how pleasing are thy words to my pallat how far more sweet are they to my heart than is honey or the honey-comb to my mouth 4. The Rule and Judg of Faith The Rule and Judg to distinguish between Divine Revelations and Diabolical Delusions is the Catholick Church which alone hath power to explicate the Scriptures and judg of Tradition BUt since I find my self unfit and unworthy to whom thou O my Supreme Soveraign shouldst particularly talk and tell thy Divine secrets Behold I here absolutely renounce all relying upon any seeming instinct self-judgment or proper re son in matters of my Faith and entirely submit to that Judg whom thou hast appointed to regulate inform and command me Yes O Jesu my loving Saviour the only revealer of all Faith and prime Author of all Truth Thou hast espoused to thy self and establish'd for thy servants an infallible Church as an unshaken Pillar to lean upon a solid ground-work to build on a skilfull teacher and suggester of all necessary tenents a speaker by thy Spirit and an expounder of thy words To deny this O my God were to slander thy Providence and suspect thy Justice Can I doubt but the same Providence which so eminently presides in all human affairs so plainly appears in the daily supply of my corporal necessities and which hath given me a Sun by the light whereof I may guide my bodily steps from error during this my lifes pilgrimage hath not also ordain'd an infallible and safe conduct for my immortal Soul to guide it in its way to Eternity Hath thy Justice commanded me to believe love and serve thee O my Soveraign Creator upon pain of eternal punishment and hath not thy goodness sufficiently shewed me the means and manner whereby to effect it Be thou eternally blessed O my mercifull Lord God! and thy Providence ever praised which hath left me a sacred Church to which I may safely give credit since he that hears her hears thee who art her Inspirer Governour and Protector Behold O my Lord I pull down the Sails of my own soaring judgment Avant all you Heresies Singularities Sects and Self-opinions here I will dwell since I have advisedly chosen it in this Ark I fear no Shipwrack in this Haven I may safely cast my Anchor in thy bosom and embraces O dear Mother I rest secure and satisfied I believe what thou tellest me admit what thou determinest reject what thou refusest I embrace all thy holy definitions concerning Grace Justification Sacraments and all other Tenents whatsoever contested by contentious Hereticks as so many heavenly revelations and I hearken to thy Doctrin as to the voice of the Divinity since the same Spirit which spake to the world in the Apostles continues in their Successors which are thy present Pastors O what Joy what Comfort what quiet what assurance brings this proposition Christs true Church cannot Erre She never yet erred she never shall for the future the malice of Hereticks and rage of Hell shall never prevail against her God is her Head her Guide her Instructer even unto the end of the World O my Soul how good is it for us to be here where only happiness can be hoped and elsewhere is nothing but darkness error damnation Thou hast not done thus O most loving Lord to every Nation 't is thy special grace and goodness to my undeserving Soul for which she shall ever sound forth the sacred Anthems of thy praises 5. The Motives of Credibility Christ himself is the founder of our Faith The Greatness of the Church The Quality of the Doctrine The Means by which it was planted and propagated WHen I consider thee my dear Saviour to be the Origin Founder Denouncer Teacher and Establisher of my Faith Oh how can I doubt of its verity and sincerity Thou Lord art all truth all might all wisdom all goodness Thou hast confirm'd thy mysterious words with such miraculous works as none could effect but by divine assistance O how credible are thy testimonies
When I weigh the wonderfull greatness glory and splendor of thy dear Spouse the Catholick Church her antiquity extent succession her establishment order union her charity constancy sanctity and all other her advantages and prerogatives which would fill whol volumes to explicate am I not sufficiently convinc'd that she is not built up by human policy but is the work of thy heavenly power O City of God! what glorious things are said of thee which hast such excellent succours from above such admirable success against thy enemies such amiable sweetness to confer upon thy faithful children When I ponder the quality of the doctrine so pure so perfect so holy forbidding all Sin even in the least thought or desire teaching all Virtue tending to a supernatural end as self-hatred contempt of all temporalities c. and ayming O Lord at thy holy Love and union How clearly doth it appear to proceed from thy self the pure source of all sanctity and perfection Alas how unproportionable is mans weakness and wickedness to think of a doctrin so conformable to thy divine greatness When I also meditate on the means whereby this Faith was at first planted and soon after propagated to the utmost ends of the world I clearly behold a hand of heaven and an evident draught of thy infinite power and providence Twelve Apostles poor powerless creditless persons proposing things contrary to mens natural appetites and of most hard digestion to flesh and bloud to give Laws to the whol world To conquer and convert the Emperors and Kings of the earth rising in express opposition against them I plainly perceive thy co-operation O Father of Heaven and thy choosing of weaklings to confound the strong 'T is thou alone canst be master of this sacred science and I may with an humble confidence cry out If this be error O Lord 't is thy self hast deceived me since thou hast led me into this belief by persons of such sanctity and confirm'd it by prodigies of such efficacy 6. Resolutions concerning Faith ANd now my dear Lord and Lover I offer thee my poor heart replenished with all these Acts Affections and Resolutions O that I might dye for the defence of these infallible Verities How willingly would I lay down my life and shed every drop of bloud in my body for each part and parcel of this my Faith and profession Thou O Jesu art God-man and Man-God Thou art the Way the Truth and the life O that I might be torn in a thousand morsels for following this way believing this Truth loving this Life Thy Church is infallible and her decisions indubitable O that occasion were offer'd of a thousand deaths swords fires torments to try my fidelity in this assured particular But how resolvest thou my feeble soul upon these high and heroick exploits who art so subject to faint and to turn coward upon far less occasion Alas hast thou not often bely'd thy Faith by thy works without any constraint or contradiction Thou confessest a Saviour needy upon earth and naked on the Cross and yet thy covetousness is insatiable A Saviour humble and contemned and thou breathest nothing but ambition A Saviour meek merciful patient and thy enmities are immortal thy injuries intolerable thy hatred irreconcilable Ah weakling Thou yieldest at a pins-pricking how wilt thou stand at the swords piercing If straws make thee stumble how wilt thou subsist against darts Conquer thy self first in these lesser skirmishes that thou mayst be constant in those greater combats O my Lord I am reduced to nothing I praise the Conquerors but my self perisheth in the smallest conflicts I am too conscious of my own frailty to confide in my own forces Yet I desire to imitate the invincible courage of holy Martyrs and tender Virgins who for this Faith endured such torments Thou Lord art my only strength and confidence O let thy grace which is never wanting to them that trust in thee powerfully support and shield me thy weak yet willing Souldier with faithful courage and perseverant constancy in the day of battail and whensoever time or occasion shall exact a tryal of my true fidelity thou O Saviour Jesu the Author and finisher of my Faith who hast call'd me sought me found me carried me home to thy fold and numbred me amongst thy Sheep Grant I beseech thee that I may lead a life correspondent to my Faith and that my manners may be conformable to thy merciful illuminations That after the imperfect and obscure knowledg of this world I may finally arrive to the pure knowledg of thee in the other where with thy Saints I hope to behold thee face to face by the light of glory in thy blessed Eternity 7. A triple Practise and the Conclusion of these Acts of Faith IN the mean space I will by thy blessed assistance O divine bounty daily and diligently prepare encourage and fortifie my Soul with these three pious practises 1. Since Faith is the fountain of all Grace the life of my soul the soul of my love the ground-work of my salvation the only Eye by which I can view heaven through this veil of mortality the root of all that is truly good desirable amiable and yet this so necessary a good O eternal Goodness is thy free gift I will instantly beg it of thy bounty and never cease crying out in imitation of thy Apostles Lord encrease my Faith 2. Since the want of this lively and active Faith in such things as concern thy divine honour O dread Soveraign and my own happiness is the chief cause that I have passed and lost so many years days and hours of my short life without making any progress in thy love or profit in virtue My soul shall henceforth inhabit Heaven my spirit shall be no longer link'd to these sensible objects but shall look upon things to come as if they were present truths Ah World what art thou to me who am made for an Eternity O Earth how I loath thee when I behold Heaven 3. Since my Faith is thus setled my conscience thus quieted my mind thus resolved upon such evident grounds such infallible Principles Let Hell vomit out all its malice by hereticks mouths against these my Tenents Let all the dead arise from their graves to tell me I am deceived Let the Angels and Saints descend from heaven to Evangelize a new doctrine Let all Christians upon Earth revolt against this and receive a contrary belief I will still remain stedfast in my choice and firm in my station not for the miracles which have confirm'd me and marks of truth which have seal'd my security and thy Churches infallibility but because thou my Lord who hast thus illuminated my soul with the supernatural light of Faith which thy Church teacheth me art the Truth it self and canst not possibly deceive me Lord I believe thy self and thy sacred Church This is the sum of my belief This is my present profession and protestation before heaven and earth
Here I live here I will die Supply my defects O indeficient fountain of goodness and strengthen this my Faith by thy efficacious Grace even to the last gasp I believe in God c. The Third Exercise Of Hope 1. The Definition of Hope Hope is a Theological Virtue enabling and enclining our souls to trust in God as their proper and Soveraign good by means of his grace and good works O Most infinitely amiable Lord God! who of thy meer unmeasurable and boundless mercy hast thus fill'd my Vnderstanding with true Faith whereby I have professed to believe thee and all thy revealed Verities confessed thee to be the only object of my desires and acknowledged thee the Author of my beginning preserver of my Being and the blessed end I aim at Replenish now my Will with heavenly Hope that I may patiently and perseverantly chearfully and couragiously expect the performances of thy faithful and infallible promises Lift up my soul O powerful Lord from her natural weakness and unweildiness that soaring aloft upon Hopes sacred wings she may attentively look on thee and always aspire towards thee her only secure Center and the sweet accomplishment of her desires and pretensions Thou O Soveraign Goodness art all amiable and therefore all desirable But alas I am yet far from thee I see but a glimpse of thy glory I behold thee at a great distance through the dark prospective-glass of Faith I enjoy not thy beatifying presence thy perfect love thy heavenly happiness My soul is not yet disengaged from her clog of clay she hath not yet triumph'd over her temptations trampled upon the bellies of her enemies Satan Sin Sensuality nor crown'd her virtues with final Perseverance These heights are the objects of my Hope and I rest assured that I may by thy helping grace O bountiful bestower of all blessings arrive at all these happinesses Ah! my immortal Soul what needest thou but thy God what desirest thou but his favour and friendship Canst thou content thy covetous appetites with natures poor imperfect and perishable accommodations Alas how unnecessary are they in order to thy soveraign good how unaccomplish'd how unsatisfactory But to desire thee O only amiable object of my wishes is true felicity Be thou therefore henceforth the whol aim of my love and sole scope of my endeavours O let my soul be totally taken up with this study to turn from creatures and return to thee her only desirable Creator Yes Lord As the tired and thirsty Hart seeks after the living fountain so doth my faint soul desire thee O lovely source of all sweetness When O when shall I attain to thee possess thee enjoy thee when shall I appear in thy sweet presence and be fully inebriated with thy only satisfying pleasures By thy grace O merciful Maker I may get these Glories and by a good life I shall in some sort deserve the performance of thy Promises I will now therefore strive O my God! to correspond to thy never-wanting Grace I will presently seriously and vigorously settle my self to live virtuously And though my passions are violent my imperfections many my offences grievous yet thy grace is stronger thy goodness greater thy mercy more powerful all which give me hopes of victory over my self and from thee confidence of pardon and compassion 2. The main motive of Hope is Gods great Mercy 〈◊〉 at all times in all places to all conditions O My meek Creator how infinite is thy Mercy how can I consider it and distrust thee Thou at first broughtst forth Angels and men out of their eternal Nothing to a glorious and blessed being After sin thou providedst a present remedy and promisedst a powerful Redeemer In Heaven thou recompencest thy Saints above their hopes or deserts In Hell thou punishest with less rigour than thy enemies malice requires On Earth thy glorious beams of providence shine upon all thy creatures rich and poor great and small Saint and Sinner Jew and Gentile Christian and Pagan Am I wicked Thou sweetly wooest me to penance Am I penitent Thou willingly receivest me to pardon Am I just Thou conservest me outwardly comfortest me inwardly and encouragest me to perseverance with infallible promises of eternal pleasures in thy blessed Paradise O mercy the sweet refuge and secure harbour of my Soul Shall I not hope in thee so immense so infinite so ready at all times in all places to all conditions Yes I will rely on thee O my only comfort I will repose in thee in all the accidents of this my wearisom Pilgrimage in my languor and health in adversity and prosperity life and death for time and eternity And when further I duly dive into thy Paternal Providence O heavenly Father which furnisheth all things with all necessaries to compass the end of their creation taking care of the smallest Birds Beasts Flyes Fishes Plants Minerals all shall I doubt of thy solicitude for my soul the most excellent of them all made to be master of them all form'd and fashion'd to thy own divine resemblance O my Creator how glorious things do I expect from thy bounty which hath conferr'd such plenty upon these thy least creatures Thy Power also supports this my Hope and confidence Who can take my soul out of thy hands if thou wilt save it What are Hells powers compar'd to thy omnipotency What shackles of sin can hold me if thou wilt break them Thou Lord canst lift up my drown'd soul from the deluge of vice to the piety of Saints to the purity of Angels to the perfection of Seraphins in a moment sooner then I can speak a word think a thought or twinkle with my eye And thy fidelity in the performance of thy promises O just God! confirms and comforts me in all the premises For Heaven and Earth shall pass but not a tittle of thy words shall perish 3. Other Motives of Hope Gods great Benefits are also powerfull motives for us to place our Confidence in him Especially his Creation Redemption Vocation HOw can I weigh thy wonderful Benefits O most bountiful Lord and not esteem them as so many sacred pledges of thy eternal love to me and strong pillars to support my confidence in thee Thou created'st me freely willingly unconstrainedly of nothing and canst thou hate thine own handy work Thou gavest me a noble Being and shall I doubt but thou wilt give me a perfect and accomplisht Being Thou mad'st all for me and me for thy self and may I not hope thou wilt bring me to thy self Thou constituted'st me King of thy creatures wilt thou cast me only off and not govern me with thy creatures Thou designed'st me for thy glory and wilt thou destroy me for eternity No Lord Thou wilt in thy good time compleat thine own purposes in me and finish these blessed beginnings Thou O sweet Redemer undertookest a thirty three-years Pilgrimage upon earth to seek me a lost sheep wilt thou reject me seeking after thee Thou hast loved me and
Wretch Art thou not ashamed to remain still in thy wonted negligences imperfections tepidities to sing still the same sinful song after so many years past over so many iterated Confessions so many received Sacraments and so many good Resolutions made to the contrary Wallowest thou still in the same Mire and lyest thou still snorting in the same Bed of Sensuality O horrid ingratitude If thou wert now summon'd to give up thy just accounts what couldest thou answer for so much time mispent so many inspirations neglected so many graces abused Thou approachest nearer death and Eternity but recoylest backward in religious Piety and Perfection Wilt thou still lie sleeping in this dangerous Lethargy Is this the grateful and dutiful service thou rendrest thy Creator for having afforded thee all convenient means to do Penance and for having so patiently expected thy conversion and amendment Alas my confounded Soul What will become of thee What course wilt thou steer When and how wilt thou begin Ah sinful Wretch Prodigal Child Disloyal friend Sue to thy Physician Return to thy Father Repent thee of thy disloyalty Request pardon grace and love Resolve to do Penance for what is past and to amend for the time to come Yes Lord even this Day this Hour this very Moment will I begin to be a new Creature I renounce all my former follies I renew all my former good Resolutions I consecrate the whole remainder of my life to thy love and service And for this end I will presently leave such Company such Curiosities such Vanities c. and abandon whatsoever holds my heart captive and my Affections enslaved to the prejudice of thy Honour and my Souls perfection I wil willingly undergo such and such difficulties endure such contradictions crosses afflictions and whatsoever thy fatherly hand shall impose upon me O all powerful Creator since thou hast given me the Grace to frame this Resolution give me also the strength and courage to put it in execution Then endeavour to make an act of perfect Contrition which contains 1. A Detestation of your sins past grounded on Gods love and goodness 2. A firm Purpose of Amendment for the future 3. A Confidence in Gods mercy 4. A will to do Satisfaction 5. A total Resignation to the Divine disposition An act of Contrition and Prayer before Confession O My good God! Father of all comfort and compassion Creator of Heaven and Earth and Redeemer of my Soul Behold here a poor Worm prostrate at the feet of thy divine Majestie humbly craving pardon for all his iniquities and impurities I am going O my sweet Lord Jesu to the Tribunal of thy Mercy to present my self before thy Minister and Vice-gerent and there to give thee an exact account of my miserable life by humbly confessing detesting and lamenting all the ingratitudes impieties and spiritual fornications which I have presumed to commit in thy presence with so little respect and for so vile and base ends that the very remembrance thereof breeds an extream Shame Fear and Sorrow in my now sensible and penitent Soul Shame for having left an infinite Good to embrace an empty fading filthy Nothing Fear for having forsaken the light of Heaven and the life of Eternity to temain in eternal death and darkness Sorrow for having offended thee my God who art to me so good so merciful so loving and so liberal Oh! that my heart could rend asunder with true Contrition and Compunction and my Eyes dissolve into a floud of tears for having been disloyal to so faithful a Friend and disobedient to so free-hearted a Father Mercy O dear Father to thy prodigal Child Mercy O good Lord to thy sinful Servant Give to my Understanding Light to see and know my faults to my heart Sorrow to hate and detest them to my eyes Tears to lament and weep bitterly for them and to my mouth so sincere and entire a Confession of them as if it were the first good Confession that I ever made or should be the last Confession that ever I should make which thou only knowest O my all-knowing Lord and Maker I therefore most humbly beseech thee Dear Jesu my Saviour and Redeemer By all thy Pains and Tears by the Prayers of thy most Blessed Mother by the past Sorrows of all Penitents who are now in Heaven secure of their own Salvation and sollicitous of mine encrease my Contrition release my Crimes Pardon O meek Lamb of God who takest away the Sins of the world my past faults pitty my present folly and protect my future frailty that with a clean quiet and contented soul I may strive to please and praise thee all my life-time hereafter and in the end die happily in thy favour and friendship O my crucified Jesu my only hope and refuge bathe me in thy Blood beautifie me with thy Merits bless me with thy Grace By the tears that issued forth of thy Eyes by the Prayers which came forth of thy Mouth by the Blood which gushed forth of thy Wounds and Heart by all the pains of thy Body and pangs of thy Soul by all the mercies of thy Divinity and merits of thy Humanity by all that is dear and near unto thee in Heaven and Earth cleanse quiet cloath comfort and content my sick sinful weak wounded and wretched soul In Confession THen full of confident Humility and humble Confidence cast your self at the feet of your Ghostly Father in whose person you are to consider two Priests the one Visible to whom you speak the other Invisible which is Christ Jesus whose place he represents wherefore honouring them both dreading them both and reverently inclining your head and body to them both begin your Confession in this manner In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost Benedicite that is I beg your blessing Which blessing being received you begin your Confiteor either in English or in Latin Though having before recited it in the Examination of your Conscience it is not necessary to repeat it here or you may do well when the want of time and the multitude of other Penitents require hast to abridge your Confiteor thus I confefess unto Almighty God to all the Saints and to you my Ghostly Father that I have exceedingly sinned in Thought Word and Deed through my Fault my Fault my exceeding great Fault Then without impertinent Preambles say I Accuse my self That since my last Confession which was eight days fifteen days or a month ago I have done this omitted this c. Having declared briefly and clearly what you could remember you may thus conclude your Confession For these and all other my Sins and Imperfections I am heartily sorry purpose amendment humbly beg pardon of God and Penance and Absolution of you my Ghostly Father Then bowing down your head and body proceed with Therefore I beseech the blessed Virgin Mary all the Saints and you my Ghostly Father to pray unto our Lord God for me
little and bad use of them as I have done If I deny all this my conscience witnesseth against me If I confess it Oh! why am I not more humble Finally If such great troubles temptations and tribulations had hapned to me as have done to others I should by consenting have ere now burn'd in Hell fire but thou O meek and merciful Creator hast spared me because thou knowest my weakness sent me smal crosses because I can't bear greater c. Wherefore Not unto me O Lord but to thee be all honour for time and eternity O that I could know thee and know my self O that I could truly see my own nothing and total dependency on thee my misery and malice and thy perfection and total goodness Ay me weak and wretched N What are my forces that I should rely on them I have nothing O my Lord but what is thine my merits are thy mercies my goods thy graces yet I never have been thankful for receiving them nor faithful in using them O! when did I trust in my own strength and was not foiled and confounded Grant therefore O my Lord O my only hope and help O my sole safety and security that I may totally trust to thee and distrust my self truly acknowledg thee and deny my self entirely love thee and bate my self 6. A further Confession of our own poorness unprofitableness unworthiness I Confess O my Lord that I am the poorest ungratefullest unprofitablest and unworthiest worm of the earth a thing altogether useless to the world only active to offend thee and to do wickedly in thy sight and is it possible that I can harbour any thought of self-love or self-liking O God of infinite glory greatness and Majesty before whom the powers of heaven do tremble what are all creatures in thy sight and what am I the meanest of them all O what proportion is there Great God! between me and thee between thy All and my Nothing and yet have I infring'd thy laws disobey'd thy commands contemn'd thy Counsels resisted thy callings and contradicted thy Will to prefer my own O monstrous impiety and ingratitude And shall not I willingly submit to all pain punishment contradiction contempt which thou O my highly offended Creator shalt suffer thy creatures to inflict upon me Behold O my Lord I debase humble and annihilate my self under all things that have a being I will henceforth utterly hate distrust and detest my self and wholy love thee and rely upon thy mercy O holy self-knowledg O sacred humility thou art the key of all perfection the door of all solid virtue piety and devotion 7. Resolutions to practise Humility Self-denial and Abnegation I Now clearly see by the light of thy divine goodness O gracious Lord God! what hath hitherto been the cause of my non-proficiency in the way of the Spirit and why the path of virtue seemed so unpleasant thornie tedious and troublesome to my deceived soul It was because I had not learn'd to leave loath deny and distrust my self and rely wholy on thee O my only comfort and support I will therefore henceforth faithfully practise what I perceive so necessary I will profoundly humble my Soul both inwardly in thy presence O my Lord and outwardly to the whole world I will joyfully and voluntarily embrace all injury indignity contempt correction and confusion which can befal me with as much pleasure as I have formerly any worldly cherishings and kindnesses I will utterly destroy ruine and root out all Self-love self-liking self-seeking self-praise and self-complacency I will cast my self under the feet of the vilest creatures take pleasure in the meanest employments and obey them most willingly whom my nature most distasts and dislikes I will walk before thee O my Creator as thy needy naked desolate and destitute Vassal acknowledging my self void of all Virtue attributing to my self nothing but sin ingratitude defects failings imperfections I will fully perswade my self that no one can contemn confound persecute and punish me as I deserve I will not regard whether I am honoured or hated but imagine my self as a thing dead and forgotten or as that which never had a being and is now truly nothing I will be contented to be accounted an Hypocrite in my sincerest actions and to be thought full of inward impatience secret grudgings and desires of revenge against them who shall any way mortifie or misuse me though my Heart be never so free from it Finally I will have these and the like thoughts and words always in my heart and mouth I am nothing I have nothing I do no good I am an unprofitable servant I utterly hate and distrust my self and totally rely upon thee O my Lord my Love and my All. The Fourth Exercise To obtain Remission of our Sins 1. We excite our dull and drowsie Souls to arise speedily and lament seriously our former sinfulness WHO will give water to my Head and fountains of tears to my Eyes And I will weep day and night for my Sins which cover me all over like an incurable ulcer from the sole of the Foot to the crown of the Head Where art thou O my wretched and wicked Soul In what labyrinths dost thou walk In what sinks of Sin and puddles of uncleanness dost thou wallow Awake arise lament repent how long wilt thou sleep Why wilt thou die when wilt thou shake off thy fetters Ah return filly sheep to thy good Pastor return poor Prodigal to thy pious Father whose goodness so lovingly invites thee whose mercy hath so long expected thee O great and glorious God the mighty Monarch of heaven and earth King of Kings and Lord of Lords behold a poor and penitent Publican who is asham'd to lift up his eyes to Heaven and unworthy to take your Sacred Name into his sinful mouth humbly knocking at your gate of mercy clipping your holy feet and craving your accustomed pitty and compassion O merciful Lord Hide not your self from me shut not the door against me Oh! one crum of comfort one dram of devotion to my sad and sick Soul to my dry and desolate Spirit 2. Our God is all to us and in us and the Authour of all our goodness I Am conscious of my ingratitude against thee O supreme Majesty and my sin is always before me and confounding me But whether should I retire my self from thee To whom should I have recourse but unto thee Art not thou my Father my Father of mercies which have neither limits nor measure Art not thou my Maker my Preserver my Governor my Deliverer my King my Pastor my Physician my Priest my Sacrifice If thou art not all this and more to me and if I am nothing to thee refuse me reject me and relinquish me a prey to be swallowed up by thine enemies But it is time O Lord that Heaven and Earth take notice of what thou art to me and what I am to thee It is time thou shouldest enter into thy
Lamb Cloath me with thy Wool hide me in thy Wounds cleanse me with thy Blood lodg me in thy Heart revive me by thy Death unite me to thy Love swallow me up in thy Divinity melt me away in the fire of thy Charity and make me every way according to thy own hearts desire Peace be unto you Fear not I am he It is I who have ascended to my Father and your Father that I may open Heaven gates for you and provide you there a happy lodging and yet I remain with you in the sacred Eucharist till the worlds final consummation Faith YEs Lord Jesu It is thou thy precious Body and Blood thy blessed Humanity and Divinity Yes my sweet Saviour I as firmly believe it with my Soul as if I clearly saw it with my Eyes plainly tasted it with my Mouth or sensibly touched it with my Hands and I faithfully cry out My Lord and my God Resignation and Desire I Renounce all that is mine and resign unto thee O my Lord all that is thine I desire with all my heart I were according to thy Hearts desire and that thou wouldst please to make such a Change in me that nothing might evermore displease thee in me Renunciation and pure Intention I Come to this Sacrament O my Saviour out of Obedience to thy sweet Invitations and upon Confidence in thy saving Mercies My Intention is to do thy Will and not my own to seek thy Satisfaction not to feel sensible Devotion and to please and praise thee by the performance of my Duty that so I may get by my Resignation what I cannot by my Recollection and content thee by my Desires since I cannot by my Deserts Confession Contrition Resolution O My Lord Behold my Wounds my Wants and my Wishes I remain still ungrateful wretched wicked tepid vicious unmortified full of Pride Passions Imperfections I am sorry heartily I purpose amendment really and I beseech thee O Jesu for thy own goodness sake mercifully to forgive me and to cure all consume all consummate all that displeases thee in my Soul in the sacred Fire of thy Divinity Petition THy self O my sweet Saviour is all I want and thy Love is all I wish for O let me see thee love thee enjoy thee feed on thee be satiated with the torrents of thy true delights and be totally inebriated and drowned in the Ocean of thy ineffable sweetnesses Wean my soul O Lord from all terrene and temporal Affections and Wed it unto thy self by an inviolable tye of Love and Fidelity Provide for thy self O Jesu a lovely lodging in my heart and soul O you holy Angels and Saints come and prepare your Master's dwelling place within me 2. What is to be done in Communion IN Communion two things are required First A Reverend Retired Modest behaviour of your whol Exterior humbly placing your self upon your knees keeping your Body erected Head unmoved Eyes fixed on the Sacrament Lips quiet and so expecting till the Priest shall have fully plac'd the Sacred Host in your conveniently open'd Mouth and be sure not to anticipate his Action by reaching your self on your head forwards in order to receive or by snatching your Head or Mouth suddenly backwards after you have received Secondly A profound Humility of Heart and longing Love of your Soul mixed together saying O God! be merciful unto me a sinner I am not worthy O my Lord that thou shouldst enter under my roof yet I beseech thee speak the Word and my soul shall be saved O sweet Jesu That thou thy self shouldst come to me into me A Lord of such purity and perfection to so impure and imperfect a creature as I am O Love O Liberality Come Lord Jesu Come loving Master Enter freely into my open Soul which desires to embrace thee All is thine Dear Saviour dispose of all that is here of Body and Soul of Life Lodging All according to thy divin Will and pleasure Welcome my good Jesu Now dismiss thy servant in peace for my Eyes have seen thy salvation 3. What is to be done after Communion HAving received the Priests last Benediction arise return to your place and renew your ardent affections in this or the like manner O Fire O Flames Burn me Consume me Annihilate me Alas Beauty of Angels how late have I loved and how little do I yet love thee Behold a poor lodging yet such as it is it is all thy own I conceal nothing I reserve nothing Compose all Dispose of all Depose all my unruly Passions Impose upon me what thou pleasest only repose sweetly in my soul and permit no soul false or foolish affection to interpose it self or disturb this quiet peace and union O that I could lodg thee more worthily serve thee more faithfully please thee more perfectly praise thee more incessantly love thee more ardently O Jesu my Lord my all and only love a thousand times welcome What shall I render thee O sweet Saviour for all the good things thou hast given me I humbly acknowledg that I ow more than I have to give but not more than I would give if I had it O Lord take all that I have and pay thy self O Angels and Saints bless my God for me Love my Jesus for me and sing forth his praises purely perfectly perpetually in supply of my defects Be careful to keep your Friend company after your Feast and not to drive him presently out of doors or leave him alone What a Shame Ingratitude yea and Incivility were it for you having received the King of Heaven and Earth to go forthwith not only out of the Chappel but even out of your own self by evagation of mind and extroversion of spirit This surely is one reason why many remain so cold near this Fire But perchance your particular charge office employment calls you away Were you called from your Meal Tell me Would you not supply â— som after Do here in like manner Howsoever be sure at least for some short space to keep a Mental Solitude and Recollection if not a Corporal entertaining your divin Guest with the devout Aspirations Affections and Elevations of the eighth prescedent Exercise of Perfect Union with God Page 336. And then falling into Acts of Thanksgiving Congratulation Praise Admiration Oblation c. Think within your self 1. Who hath Fed you 2. With what Food 3. In how admirable a Manner 4. With what an excess of Love 5. What he requires in Recompense Then you may do well to perform these things following 1. Renew all your good purposes Vows Professions c. 2. Make a new Reunion and Conformity of all your desires Wills and Affections to them of your blessed Saviour 3. Resolve upon some thing in particular which doth most hinder you hurt you or trouble you 4. Ask your Saviours advice and Counsel therein And 5. Having marked his Inspirations Resolve effectually and fall to practise accordingly More Exercises Acts and Considerations for such as
of my Soul I most heartily confess and acknowledg that thou hast provided for me in so convenient a manner both in prosperity and adversity in health and sickness in body and soul as no other wisdom but thou only my sweet Lord and Maker the increated Goodness and wise Disposer of all things could have effected To thee therefore O my God and my All I commit my self and all to be disposed of now and ever as shall be most agreeable to thy own honour and glory and most conformable to thy eternal just and equal will and providence I hope O my Soveraign Lord God! that this moment of pains and sufferings will be soon changed into an Eternity of happiness and comfort I trust that my now languishing and dying body shall be one day raised to glory impassibility immortality I cheerfully expect to have this poor imprisoned soul of mine called up to see enjoy and contemplate thy amiable and beautifying countenance for evermore 4. Acts of Love O Eternal Father thou hast given thy Son to me and behold I give him again to thee together with my whol self and all that I have am and can my Love my Life my Liberty my Heart my Soul to please and honour thee for all future time and Eternity O my Lord I love thee heartily and during the short remainder of my life in this world I will serve thee faithfully not so much of obligation as of Election not so much for my own comfort and profit as for thy will and pleasure not for the delight I take in thy loving service but for the desire I have to please thee not as a servant bondslave or hireling but as a Freeman loves his Friend as a Child his Father as a Spouse her Bridegroom not only out of gratitude for received benefits but also and chiefly because thou art my God of infinit perfection in thy self and of infinit affection towards me O God of Love and Love of my Soul what do I desire in Heaven or expect from Heaven and what do I long for upon Earth but thee the only object of my affections the only aim of my pretensions the only desire of my heart the only delight of my spirit Come O my blessed Lord and Lover and take full possession of my Heart and Soul transform me into thy love and conform me to thy Will Let thy Will be the only desire of my heart and let thy Love be the only life of my Soul and lease of my life that when I leave to love I may cease to live c. 5. Acts of Resignation Take examples from CHRIST in his Agony O My All powerful Father If I must needs drink of this bitter chalice endure this long and tedious Sickness suffer these sharp and severe torments thy holy Will be done From Job on his Dunghil 'T Is thou O Soveraign Lord who art the bountiful bestower of all blessings and thou maist justly withdraw revoke and retake them at thy own will and pleasure be thou blessed and praised for evermore From S. Paul prostrate on the ground LOrd What wilt thou have me to do what is thy holy pleasure behold thy Servant ready to accomplish it Aspire frequently to God and Resign up all willingly to him in this or the like sort WEre I master of all Bodies and Souls I would presently give up to thee Great Lord of Heaven and Earth all my right and title and were it in my power I would make of each body an instrument to please and praise thee and of all souls as many Paradises to lodge and love thee Come what will O my Creator I will place my hopes in thy infinit mercy and in thy Sons abundant Redemption And my perpetual Song shall be O Lord be merciful to me a Sinner Blessed be my God for all and in all Live Jesus by whose death I live and for whose love I am willing to die c. O when shall I take as much pleasure in suffering as I have done in sinning O that I could entirely resign my whol self Body and Soul in Life or Death for time and eternity to be disposed of according to thy divin Will and Pleasure O that I could in every moment of time pronounce with heart and tongue Live Jesus only whose Will be accomplished whose name be sanctified whose praise be published in all by all above all c. 6. An Act of Purity of Intention O Eternal Lord God! Thou hast created me to serve thee only redeemed me to love thee only and now inspir'd me with a will and desire to please thee only during all the remaining days of my life And behold my hearty and humble desire is to serve thee love thee and please thee purely perfectly perseverantly Reform therefore I beseech thee my sinful life conform my stubborn will Deiform my sinister intention change and transform my spirit into thine that all my thoughts words actions pretensions and these my present pains sufferings and sickness may be presented to thy sacred Majesty with such purity perfection and perseverance as thy Love deserves from me and mine desires for thee 7. An Heroick Act of highest efficacy containing a Contract between the Soul and her Creator Which being made devoutly at the beginning of any dangerous Sickness and frequently iterated during the intervals therof must needs afford exceeding great comfort in Deaths last hour and Agony O My God my Lord my Creator from whom by whom and in whom I and all things live move and have a being I rejoice at what thou art as if it were all mine and I offer what I and all creatures have and are as being all thine Behold O Heavenly Father I thy poor Child and unworthy Creature do here with all possible sincerity submission and devotion make this present Contract with thy Sacred Majesty to be thy faithful servant and bondslave for evermore intending hereby that each remaining moment of my life and all that is within me without me about me may henceforth incessantly bless and praise thy holy Name and accomplish thy most just and holy Will in all things whatsoever And for this end I do now enrol this Oblation Donation and Resignation of my whol self to thy divin Majesty in the very Center of my Heart Soul with such Intention Force and Efficacy as thou O my all-knowing Lord God! canst comprehend to be the very best which I thy poor creature am capable to perform without any reservation restriction or contradiction whatsoever I desire also O my Creator to make this Contract with thy sacred Majesty in the best manner with most proper words in the fittest terms and with such significant clauses and conditions as it ought and may be performed In Confirmation whereof I produce as witnesses the sacred Virgin Queen Mary my Angel Guardian my particular Patrons and all the celestial Citizens humbly imploring the assistance of their Prayers for the performance of this my hearty