acknowledge_v with_o soul_n heart_n and_o conscience_n if_o thou_o saveâ—_n i_o it_o be_v a_o miracle_n and_o if_o thou_o reâ—_n fuse_v it_o be_v but_o just_a justice_n assure_v myself_o in_o forbear_v thy_o chastise_v affection_n i_o shall_v eveâ—_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o be_v confident_a of_o permanent_a punishment_n for_o that_o the_o pencil_n of_o holy_a wriâ—_n which_o will_v not_o be_v violate_v 3.19_o heb._n 12.5_o apoc._n 3.19_o have_v plain_o express_v those_o who_o thou_o receive_v thou_o chastene_v and_o that_o their_o long_o laugh_v must_v be_v turn_v into_o bitter_a mourning_n 6.25_o joel._n 2.12_o luk._n 6.25_o before_o they_o have_v any_o true_a hope_n of_o thy_o grace_n favour_n or_o pardon_n o_o then_o dear_a mediator_n i_o beseech_v thou_o minister_v daily_o on_o i_o thy_o discipline_n correction_n 5._o pro._n 3._o job_n 5._o and_o when_o thou_o think_v it_o meet_v let_v my_o inward_a grief_n be_v my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n my_o comfort_n but_o if_o those_o will_v not_o penetrate_v my_o flinty_a nature_n to_o make_v i_o glorify_v thy_o unspeakable_a blessing_n and_o apprehend_v my_o base_a ingratitude_n grant_v i_o sweet_a saviour_n a_o feel_a inspiration_n of_o torment_n due_a unto_o the_o damn_a that_o if_o then_o i_o may_v not_o without_o rob_v thy_o justice_n obtain_v by_o thy_o mercy_n a_o share_n in_o thy_o suffering_n yet_o i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o let_v i_o be_v a_o second_o dives_fw-la upon_o earth_n for_o admonish_v my_o poor_a christian_a brethren_n to_o prevent_v the_o like_a fall_n of_o so_o fatal_a a_o danger_n and_o the_o rather_o for_o that_o thou_o perceive_v offender_n be_v not_o so_o much_o terrify_v by_o thy_o judgement_n pronounce_v in_o holy_a writ_n as_o they_o be_v mollify_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o mortal_a creature_n misery_n wherein_o it_o make_v i_o fear_n satan_n by_o thy_o permission_n have_v a_o more_o predominate_a power_n than_o thou_o that_o creat_a they_o all_o which_o i_o leave_v to_o thy_o divine_a sacred_a will_n and_o unsearchable_a mercy_n beg_v pardon_n for_o my_o bold_a presumption_n or_o if_o thou_o please_v to_o make_v intercession_n 8.8_o mat._n 8.8_o and_o say_v amen_o to_o my_o petition_n the_o affliction_n of_o a_o prodigal_n o_o dear_a and_o immortal_a god_n i_o thy_o abject_n creature_n have_v so_o high_o offend_v thy_o deity_n essence_n and_o glory_n in_o profane_v thy_o name_n abuse_v thy_o blessing_n and_o slight_v thy_o suffering_n that_o i_o dare_v claim_v no_o privilege_n by_o thy_o death_n no_o comfort_n in_o thy_o promise_n nor_o no_o favour_n from_o thy_o mercy_n but_o the_o rigour_n of_o punishment_n the_o wrath_n of_o justice_n and_o reward_n of_o the_o damn_a o_o misery_n of_o all_o misery_n what_o have_v i_o lose_v thy_o glory_n that_o make_v i_o thy_o son_n that_o die_v for_o i_o and_o thy_o spirit_n that_o sanctify_a i_o be_v there_o a_o creature_n from_o adam_n so_o wretched_a be_v there_o a_o child_n conceive_v from_o euab_n more_o miserable_a then_o i_o that_o have_v lose_v the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n and_o purchase_v the_o fire_n of_o hell_n o_o my_o birth_n life_n and_o death_n i_o be_o wrap_v in_o sorrow_n have_v small_a hope_v but_o in_o despair_v no_o comfort_n but_o in_o grieve_v nor_o any_o joy_n but_o in_o lament_v o_o thou_o false_a heart_n and_o curse_a sense_n why_o be_v you_o make_v to_o bring_v my_o soul_n in_o torture_n and_o yourselves_o in_o torment_n to_o deny_v they_o will_v not_o avail_v you_o to_o expect_v pardon_n be_v unpossible_a to_o confess_v they_o will_v hardly_o mitigate_v they_o o_o then_o dear_a saviour_n see_v i_o have_v bring_v myself_o by_o sinful_a presumption_n to_o permanent_a perdition_n yet_o let_v i_o beg_v at_o thy_o hand_n the_o agony_n of_o individual_a sorrow_n which_o thou_o ordaine_v for_o the_o damn_a that_o if_o then_o the_o spectacle_n of_o my_o deserve_a malady_n can_v dissolve_v thy_o justice_n into_o mercy_n yet_o may_v mitigate_v my_o endless_a misery_n and_o not_o die_v like_o a_o stupid_a dog_n void_a of_o sense_n know_v thou_o make_v i_o the_o image_n of_o thy_o creature_n the_o contemplation_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o god_n creator_n and_o saviour_n of_o the_o world_n be_v not_o i_o make_v thy_o image_n to_o serve_v and_o glorify_v none_o other_o but_o thyself_o how_o fall_v it_o out_o dear_a father_n that_o i_o have_v be_v more_o contemptible_a against_o all_o thy_o law_n 5._o sap._n 5._o statute_n and_o blessing_n 3.5_o joh._n 3.5_o than_o a_o savage_a beast_n i_o can_v believe_v it_o proceed_v from_o original_a sin_n in_o that_o thy_o sacred_a self_n suffer_v for_o sin_n nor_o from_o my_o conception_n 33._o ezek._n 33._o for_o that_o thou_o desire_v my_o preservation_n but_o altogether_o by_o satan_n assault_v the_o world_n provoke_v nature_n betray_v and_o my_o own_o stiffnecked_a transgression_n what_o reason_n then_o can_v myself_o or_o mortal_a man_n conceive_v that_o thou_o will_v save_v i_o when_o i_o never_o true_o serve_v nor_o honour_v thou_o be_v not_o thou_o a_o just_a judge_n 25._o jer._n 25._o as_o thou_o have_v be_v a_o merciful_a saviour_n to_o plead_v weakness_n avail_v not_o wilfulness_n i_o dare_v not_o nor_o want_v thy_o assistance_n i_o can_v wherefore_o then_o do_v thou_o give_v i_o long_o sustentation_n when_o thou_o know_v i_o have_v deserve_v damnation_n 4.27_o fxod_n 9.16_o act._n 4.27_o be_v it_o for_o that_o thou_o will_v exceed_v in_o thy_o mercy_n to_o increase_v my_o misery_n or_o else_o be_v not_o my_o sin_n full_o complete_a for_o thy_o determine_a suffering_n why_o thou_o know_v satan_n offend_v thou_o but_o once_o i_o have_v ever_o they_o both_o obey_v and_o fear_v thou_o i_o have_v never_o what_o madness_n then_o will_v it_o be_v in_o i_o to_o presume_v that_o thou_o will_v break_v the_o whole_a course_n of_o thy_o justice_n for_o my_o sake_n know_v in_o my_o own_o conscience_n i_o have_v lose_v the_o benefit_n of_o thy_o redemption_n by_o my_o wilful_a presumption_n otherwise_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a through_o unfeigned_a repentance_n to_o have_v assurance_n of_o salvation_n by_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n which_o now_o grieve_v the_o entrails_n of_o my_o soul_n in_o that_o i_o be_v such_o a_o curse_a reprobate_a to_o crucify_v thou_o who_o suffer_v on_o the_o cross_n to_o save_v i_o â—7_n mar._n 10._o â—7_n so_o that_o according_a to_o humane_a judgement_n my_o talon_n be_v eternal_a torment_n howsoever_o i_o bequeath_v the_o disposure_n of_o my_o deject_a soul_n to_o thou_o 9.15_o rom._n 9.15_o which_o shed_v thy_o innocent_a blood_n on_o the_o behalf_n of_o i_o but_o why_o shall_v i_o be_v so_o base_a a_o creature_n reason_n with_o thou_o that_o be_v my_o maker_n know_v the_o clay_n ought_v not_o contest_v with_o the_o potter_n for_o it_o be_v in_o thy_o power_n and_o not_o in_o i_o to_o make_v i_o a_o vessel_n of_o honour_n or_o dishonour_n therefore_o in_o obedience_n to_o thy_o unsearchable_a deity_n i_o will_v surcease_v all_o disputation_n and_o endeavour_n to_o prevent_v worldly_a perturbation_n that_o i_o may_v have_v so_o much_o hope_n to_o be_v thy_o creature_n as_o my_o belief_n assure_v i_o thou_o be_v my_o creator_n the_o agony_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o sacred_a creator_n and_o celestial_a father_n do_v not_o thou_o make_v i_o of_o run_a water_n and_o ruddy_a earth_n do_v thou_o not_o see_v how_o satan_n assault_v i_o how_o the_o world_n insnate_v i_o and_o how_o my_o own_o nature_n betray_v i_o o_o my_o god_n how_o then_o can_v thou_o but_o in_o pity_n take_v compassion_n upon_o i_o know_v i_o have_v no_o power_n to_o prevent_v any_o of_o these_o precedent_a conspiracy_n but_o by_o thy_o divine_a providence_n will_v thou_o then_o leave_v i_o to_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v appear_v worse_a miserable_a than_o the_o beast_n which_o perish_v o_o be_v more_o charitable_a for_o that_o thou_o make_v i_o thy_o image_n cast_v but_o thy_o eye_n upon_o i_o and_o turn_v not_o thy_o face_n from_o i_o then_o try_v whether_o thou_o will_v deny_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o i_o be_v not_o sweet_a saviour_n my_o first_o parent_n sinner_n do_v not_o thyself_o suffer_v for_o sinner_n and_o prote_v thou_o desire_v not_o the_o death_n of_o sinner_n shall_v then_o the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o only_a offence_n blot_v out_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o immortal_a mercy_n when_o thou_o be_v my_o advocate_n i_o the_o offender_n thou_o my_o redeemer_n i_o the_o debtor_n let_v i_o not_o then_o perish_v for_o want_v of_o thy_o protection_n when_o it_o be_v not_o riches_n nor_o honour_n i_o will_v have_v o_o my_o father_n no_o or_o releasement_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o seek_v o_o my_o father_n no_o or_o heaven_n i_o beg_v o_o my_o father_n i_o dare_v not_o presume_v no_o nor_o any_o thing_n i_o crave_v but_o the_o increase_n
the_o first_o part_n of_o youth_n error_n write_a by_o thomas_n bushel_n the_o superlative_a prodigal_n luke_n 15.18_o i_o will_v arise_v and_o go_v to_o my_o father_n and_o say_v unto_o he_o father_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o heaven_n and_o before_o thou_o and_o be_o no_o more_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o son_n etc._n etc._n imprint_v at_o london_n 1628._o to_o the_o honourable_a and_o right_a virtuous_a thomas_n lord_n windsor_n my_o very_a good_a lord_n excellent_a peer_n little_o do_v i_o imagine_v or_o your_o lordship_n expect_v to_o see_v my_o name_n come_v under_o the_o press_n which_o as_o yet_o be_v to_o i_o a_o wonder_n so_o likewise_o it_o must_v needs_o be_v to_o your_o honour_n a_o miracle_n that_o know_v both_o my_o life_n and_o breed_n to_o have_v neither_o language_n latin_a tongue_n nor_o upon_o my_o salvation_n the_o help_n of_o any_o coadjutor_n but_o as_o it_o be_v write_v those_o thing_n which_o appear_v unpossible_a to_o man_n apprehension_n 10.27_o mar_n 10.27_o be_v nothing_o to_o god_n unsearchable_a wisdom_n otherwise_o your_o lordship_n may_v suspect_v the_o author_n for_o i_o mistrust_v myself_o until_o i_o have_v read_v the_o say_n that_o god_n be_v able_a to_o make_v the_o dumb_a to_o speak_v 7.22_o luk._n 7.22_o the_o blind_a to_o see_v and_o the_o lame_a to_o go_v wherein_o he_o have_v show_v the_o splendour_n of_o his_o divine_a providence_n on_o i_o base_a and_o unworthy_a creature_n to_o see_v more_o clear_o through_o my_o matchless_a offence_n for_o that_o now_o i_o constant_o believe_v there_o be_v no_o forgiveness_n without_o true_a repentance_n nor_o no_o true_a repentance_n without_o confession_n contrition_n satisfaction_n and_o amendment_n which_o make_v i_o presume_v to_o patronize_v the_o first_o fruit_n of_o my_o retiredness_n under_o your_o lordship_n name_n as_o a_o legasie_fw-mi of_o my_o loyal_a duty_n to_o your_o honour_n prevention_n of_o other_o and_o in_o my_o obedience_n to_o that_o good_a god_n 5.16_o 〈◊〉_d 5.16_o who_o require_v a_o open_a confession_n for_o a_o public_a transgression_n wherein_o if_o i_o shall_v verify_v our_o saviour_n word_n to_o give_v caesar_n his_o due_a 22.21_o â—at_a 22.21_o i_o must_v acknowledge_v under_o god_n your_o noble_a relation_n of_o a_o monastic_a life_n be_v the_o great_a inducement_n i_o receive_v from_o mortalist_n towards_o my_o regeneration_n so_o that_o if_o i_o have_v mount_v too_o high_a in_o shelter_v my_o weak_a labour_n under_o your_o lordship_n virtue_n let_v i_o beg_v a_o favourable_a censure_n and_o attribute_n rather_o forgetfulness_n to_o â—ngratitude_n than_o my_o forwardness_n to_o presumption_n for_o believe_v i_o honour_a lord_n have_v i_o not_o fortunate_o â—ist_v your_o fair_a hand_n before_o departure_n my_o zealous_a fidelity_n be_v so_o mix_v with_o the_o â—regs_n of_o mortality_n that_o certain_o upon_o my_o companion_n revolt_v 26.11_o pro._n 26.11_o i_o have_v fall_v like_o a_o doâ—_n to_o his_o vomit_n and_o ruinate_v my_o own_o soul_n but_o thanks_o bâ—_n to_o the_o divine_a providence_n by_o a_o short_a cut_n i_o have_v meet_v with_o contentment_n end_v my_o travel_n discard_v my_o pleasure_n and_o circle_v the_o earth_n foâ—_n christ_n know_v my_o ambition_n be_v never_o high_o than_o 〈◊〉_d poor_a remote_a cave_n or_o desert_n cell_n where_o if_o these_o illitterate-deiected_n line_n shall_v reflect_v a_o like_v in_o you_o lordship_n judicious_a read_n i_o be_o confident_a by_o god_n assistance_n future_a endeavour_n may_v edify_v oâ—â—ers_n especial_o when_o my_o peregrination_n shall_v understand_v of_o your_o religious_a approbation_n who_o honourable_a opinion_n i_o esteem_v more_o â—en_o mortal_a creature_n not_o for_o â—â—at_v your_o noble_a apprehension_n exceed_v all_o man_n but_o by_o â—eason_n your_o internal_a fidelity_n â—quals_v the_o best_a of_o man_n which_o accord_v to_o my_o simple_a â—udgement_n carry_v a_o great_a benediction_n and_o clear_a revelation_n of_o god_n favouâ—_n then_o all_o other_o virtue_n how_o soever_o if_o the_o tributary_n praieâ—_n of_o a_o sinful_a beadsman_n caâ—â—_n increase_v your_o lordship_n immortal_a glory_n i_o be_o confident_a god_n multiply_v you_o honour_n daily_o your_o oblige_a and_o devote_a servant_n tho._n bushel_n to_o my_o christian_a brethren_n gentle_a reader_n somewhat_o i_o will_v glad_o say_v in_o way_n of_o admonition_n as_o altogether_o example_n for_o that_o the_o holy_a apostle_n assure_v i_o i_o be_v not_o bear_v 〈◊〉_d myself_o but_o for_o other_o though_o â—u_n may_v perceive_v i_o have_v confine_v my_o â—rson_n from_o society_n of_o man_n yet_o belue_v that_o i_o bar_v not_o the_o visitation_n of_o 〈◊〉_d man_n but_o willing_a to_o edify_v all_o man_n far_o as_o god_n shall_v enable_v my_o week_n ability_n and_o their_o patience_n humâ—_n entreat_v that_o the_o spectacle_n of_o yâ—â—_n sinful_a brother_n misery_n may_v mortâ—_n your_o fleshly_a desire_n and_o take_v so_o mâ—â—_n compassion_n of_o yourselves_o as_o to_o pâ—uent_v future_a peril_n i_o have_v my_o rewaâ—_n you_o your_o glory_n otherwise_o the_o dâ—ger's_n desperate_a as_o i_o be_v damnaâ—_n without_o god_n unspeakable_a merâ—_n which_o my_o fair_a hope_n can_v as_o 〈◊〉_d believe_v he_o will_v so_o much_o remember_v 〈◊〉_d to_o forget_v his_o justice_n o_o than_o geâ—_n sir_n if_o your_o own_o conscience_n accâ—â—_n you_o resolve_v to_o follow_v the_o one_o and_o 〈◊〉_d the_o other_o for_o assure_v yourselves_o 〈◊〉_d precedent_n of_o my_o fatal_a affliction_n 〈◊〉_d be_v a_o occasion_n to_o condemn_v you_o at_o 〈◊〉_d day_n of_o judgement_n if_o you_o obstinate_a neglect_n the_o same_o but_o why_o shouâ—â—_n expect_v you_o will_v either_o read_v or_o mâ—â—_n â—â—e_v of_o they_o know_v the_o writing_n of_o â—â—r_a saviour_n the_o labour_n of_o apostle_n use_v whole_a life_n of_o ancient_a father_n â—â—e_v cast_v aside_o as_o superfluous_a garment_n â—hen_o a_o play_n book_n be_v admit_v to_o â—sse_v away_o the_o time_n which_o with_o inâ—ard_a grief_n i_o confess_v be_v my_o libraâ—es_n and_o i_o fear_v continue_v too_o much_o â—â—ur_n study_v yet_o for_o that_o my_o invisible_a â—rments_n live_v upon_o earth_n as_o dives_fw-la 〈◊〉_d hell_n and_o can_v at_o any_o time_n resolve_v â—ose_v which_o doubt_v in_o the_o same_o may_v 〈◊〉_d a_o occasion_n to_o extenuate_v your_o licenâ—ous_a appetite_n that_o god_n name_n may_v 〈◊〉_d glorify_v your_o soul_n save_v and_o i_o â—nsatisfied_v tho._n bushel_n the_o content_n of_o this_o book_n be_v the_o first_o part_n the_o prodigal_a sinner_n confession_n the_o prodigal_n petition_v the_o prodigal_n affliction_n the_o prodigal_n contemplation_n the_o prodigal_n prayer_n the_o occasion_n of_o the_o prodigal_n revolt_v from_o 〈◊〉_d world_n the_o difference_n of_o a_o public_a and_o private_a liviâ—â—_n together_o with_o his_o resolution_n the_o conference_n he_o have_v with_o a_o grave_n diuâ—_n before_o his_o departure_n to_o a_o monastic_a life_n his_o woeful_a experience_n of_o insinuate_a flatterer_n the_o confession_n of_o his_o disobedience_n with_o a_o trâ—_n relation_n of_o his_o lord_n and_o master_n the_o prodigal_n advertisement_n concern_v the_o hopeful_a branch_n of_o vniâ—sities_n the_o right_n and_o profit_n belong_v the_o church_n the_o content_n of_o marriage_n the_o cry_a sin_n of_o murder_n the_o cry_a sin_n of_o pride_n the_o cry_a sin_n of_o adultery_n to_o his_o love_a brother_n edward_n bushel_n esquire_n â—lomon_a say_v he_o that_o cover_v his_o sin_n shall_v not_o prosper_v but_o whoso_o confess_v and_o forsake_v they_o shall_v have_v mercy_n prou._n 28.13_o it_o be_v not_o unknown_a to_o yourself_o nor_o the_o world_n that_o i_o continue_v a_o prenticeship_n the_o superlative_a prodigal_n either_o i_o be_o ashamed_a to_o diwlge_v â—hen_o god_n himself_o command_v upon_o â—enalty_n of_o eternal_a damnation_n 5.16_o jam._n 5.16_o yet_o it_o grive_v my_o very_a soul_n that_o ever_o i_o gaâ—â—_n occasion_n to_o be_v 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plead_v guilty_a in_o the_o high_a manner_n for_o debase_v his_o name_n essence_n and_o glory_n below_o the_o degree_n of_o
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your_o own_o innocency_n will_v never_o be_v tempt_v to_o appear_v in_o any_o spiritual_a preferment_n by_o the_o way_n of_o sinon_n magus_n 8.18_o act._n 8.18_o or_o help_v of_o his_o coadjutor_n for_o sure_o those_o be_v never_o consecrate_v by_o god_n nor_o allow_v by_o law_n how_o then_o gentle_a sir_n in_o your_o own_o conscience_n can_v they_o absolve_v baptise_v instruct_v or_o minister_v the_o sacrament_n but_o with_o a_o tremble_a fear_n of_o murder_v the_o soul_n like_o a_o tyrant_n conscience_n that_o be_v imbrue_v in_o blood_n o_o than_o you_o anoint_v branch_n be_v not_o persuade_v by_o a_o mould_n of_o clay_n to_o trench_v in_o so_o great_a a_o crime_n know_v yourselves_o as_o yet_o unspotted_a in_o so_o do_v 12.50_o matt._n 12.50_o god_n name_n will_v be_v glorify_v your_o brethren_n edify_v and_o your_o own_o duty_n discharge_v which_o will_v remain_v precedent_n to_o other_o joy_n to_o your_o parent_n comfort_n to_o your_o friend_n and_o happiness_n to_o your_o soul_n 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suspect_v thou_o see_v their_o wilful_a ignorance_n and_o if_o i_o follow_v thy_o gospel_n professor_n i_o fear_v thou_o find_v they_o full_a of_o scandal_n distraction_n and_o worldly_a perturbation_n what_o then_o sweet_a saviour_n will_v become_v of_o i_o forlorn_a creature_n that_o have_v no_o relief_n but_o sin_n to_o succour_v i_o satan_n to_o assist_v i_o and_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n to_o comfort_v i_o without_o thy_o sacred_a suffering_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o and_o accept_v thy_o saint_n oblation_n for_o sinner_n to_o thou_o i_o shall_v be_v force_v to_o curse_v my_o conception_n and_o wish_v my_o mother_n womb_n have_v be_v my_o tomb_n to_o have_v form_v i_o a_o lump_n of_o flesh_n without_o life_n or_o any_o creature_n but_o thy_o image_n for_o than_o have_v i_o live_v according_a to_o creation_n and_o not_o liable_a to_o eternal_a damnation_n yet_o most_o merciful_a and_o immortal_a father_n shall_v my_o agonied_a soul_n suspect_v to_o suffer_v shipwreck_n when_o thou_o guide_v the_o stern_a or_o despair_n and_o die_v when_o thou_o be_v live_v or_o curse_v her_o birth_n when_o thou_o be_v in_o be_v o_o my_o god_n rather_o let_v she_o taste_v the_o torture_n of_o hell_n then_o be_v deprive_v of_o life_n and_o lose_v her_o hope_n in_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n let_v then_o satan_n assay_v his_o best_a and_o the_o wicked_a world_n her_o worst_a my_o deject_a soul_n have_v set_v up_o her_o rest_n in_o thou_o that_o make_v she_o to_o save_v she_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o say_v amen_o the_o supplication_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o god_n my_o refuge_n my_o mercy_n how_o dare_v i_o remember_v thy_o greatness_n when_o the_o billow_n of_o my_o cry_a sin_n have_v raise_v the_o wrath_n of_o thy_o omnipotent_a person_n who_o out_o of_o mere_a divine_a love_n to_o pious_a charity_n creat_v i_o after_o thy_o own_o image_n redeem_v i_o be_v lose_v and_o in_o a_o word_n give_v i_o all_o i_o ever_o have_v yet_o have_v i_o so_o much_o dishonour_v the_o deity_n of_o thy_o glory_n that_o i_o make_v the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n my_o god_n on_o earth_n and_o now_o they_o be_v turn_v my_o torment_a accuser_n of_o death_n o_o sacred_a father_n bequeath_v the_o plague_n of_o egypt_n for_o my_o talon_n rather_o than_o this_o deceitful_a world_n to_o my_o portion_n which_o have_v not_o only_o breed_v i_o disobedient_a towards_o thou_o that_o make_v i_o a_o traitor_n to_o thy_o son_n that_o die_v for_o i_o but_o sacrific'de_v my_o own_o soul_n to_o be_v the_o fuel_n of_o hell_n fire_n o_o deadly_a life_n of_o immortal_a death_n what_o shall_v i_o term_v thou_o the_o shape_n of_o a_o christian_a which_o without_o thy_o sacred_a intercession_n for_o thy_o never_o die_a mercy_n i_o shall_v remain_v quicken_v with_o the_o fiend_n of_o hell_n to_o future_a age_n for_o ever_o o_o do_v not_o thou_o sweet_a saviour_n forget_v the_o pity_n of_o thy_o goodness_n though_o i_o have_v lose_v the_o duty_n of_o my_o obedience_n but_o grant_v the_o same_o favour_n to_o i_o thou_o give_v the_o thief_n upon_o the_o cross_n look_v upon_o the_o tear_n of_o my_o misery_n with_o the_o passion_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o if_o neither_o grief_n groan_n sigh_n nor_o sorrow_n can_v appease_v thy_o just_a wrath_n why_o do_v thou_o make_v i_o wherefore_o be_v thy_o death_n who_o will_v thou_o save_v or_o be_v thou_o another_o god_n now_o then_o when_o thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o oppress_a a_o father_n of_o the_o godly_a and_o a_o advocate_n for_o the_o damn_a if_o they_o repent_v o_o then_o enrich_v my_o soul_n with_o a_o divine_a sorrow_n for_o my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n for_o my_o comfort_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o presume_v of_o thy_o favour_n nor_o despair_n of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o have_v thy_o great_a name_n glorify_v thy_o sacred_a death_n satisfy_v and_o thy_o poor_a forlorn_a sinner_n save_v lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o say_z amen_o ¶_o the_o prodigalle_n prayer_n o_o dear_a and_o omnipotent_a god_n i_o here_o stand_v guilty_a of_o all_o the_o barbarous_a and_o inhuman_a sin_n which_o satan_n can_v object_v against_o the_o cursedst_v creature_n live_v for_o i_o have_v presumptuous_o commit_v more_o riot_n and_o offence_n than_o either_o heathen_a pagan_a turk_n or_o infidel_n beside_o treacherouslie_o make_v thy_o name_n a_o cloak_n for_o my_o own_o villainy_n thus_o dear_a saviour_n have_v i_o live_v a_o smooth_a factor_n for_o satan_n to_o the_o utter_a subversion_n and_o deprivation_n of_o eternal_a felicity_n and_o purchase_v the_o reward_n of_o condemnation_n with_o endless_a misery_n break_v o_o my_o big_a swell_a heart_n lest_o a_o thunderbolt_n from_o heaven_n prevent_v thou_o gush_v forth_o into_o a_o flood_n of_o tear_n thou_o crocodile_n by_o nature_n in_o be_v such_o a_o curse_a reprobate_a to_o forget_v thy_o maker_n a_o devil_n incarnate_a for_o crucify_a thy_o redeemer_n ah_o savage_a beast_n can_v neither_o creation_n redemption_n nor_o daily_a blessing_n mollify_v my_o 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trench_v into_o the_o displeasure_n of_o your_o lordship_n grave_a censure_n therefore_o i_o think_v best_a to_o recommend_v those_o general_a reason_n which_o be_v the_o occasion_n of_o my_o revolt_n from_o the_o world_n assure_v your_o lordship_n it_o be_v not_o the_o foolish_a fantasy_n of_o my_o wander_a thought_n 18.13_o gal._n 6._o pro._n 18.13_o but_o a_o serious_a consideration_n of_o my_o former_a transgression_n with_o a_o inward_a meditation_n of_o the_o small_a time_n that_o god_n will_v stay_v for_o man_n conversion_n or_o eversion_n make_v i_o bequeath_v the_o remainder_n of_o my_o day_n to_o this_o private_a cell_n by_o your_o lordship_n assist_v permission_n yet_o peradventure_o some_o will_v allege_v to_o your_o honour_n that_o this_o course_n of_o retiredness_n be_v neither_o command_v nor_o