speak_v it_o i_o confess_v that_o in_o my_o mother_n belly_n i_o be_v defile_v in_o sin_n my_o father_n and_o mother_n pray_v to_o many_o god_n and_o i_o hear_v they_o when_o they_o do_v so_o and_o i_o do_v so_o too_o because_o my_o parent_n do_v so_o and_o in_o my_o childhood_n afore_o i_o can_v act_v sin_n i_o do_v delight_n in_o it_o as_o dance_v and_o pawwaug_n and_o when_o they_o do_v so_o they_o pray_v to_o many_o god_n as_o beast_n bird_n earth_n sea_n tree_n etc._n etc._n after_o i_o be_v bear_v i_o do_v all_o such_o thing_n i_o love_v lust_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n though_o i_o do_v act_v these_o lust_n but_o a_o little_a but_o when_o i_o have_v a_o little_a begin_v my_o heart_n do_v very_o much_o desire_v more_o to_o do_v such_o sin_n i_o see_v the_o english_a keep_v sabbath_n i_o care_v not_o but_o play_v and_o catch_v bird_n or_o any_o thing_n yet_o when_o i_o see_v englishman_n i_o run_v away_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n because_o they_o shall_v not_o see_v i_o as_o 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because_o i_o understand_v stand_v 〈…〉_z to_o hear_v i_o hear_v some_o youth_n 〈…〉_z roxbury_n my_o brother_n say_v to_o i_o go_v you_o because_o you_o may_v learn_v smithery_a for_o that_o reason_n i_o do_v go_v but_o desire_v not_o to_o learn_v to_o pray_v all_o these_o thing_n be_v vain_a when_o we_o come_v to_o roxbury_n i_o say_v i_o desire_v to_o learn_v smithery_a but_o my_o master_n say_v i_o may_v not_o teach_v he_o my_o trade_n lest_o indian_n learn_v to_o make_v lock_n and_o gun_n then_o i_o will_v not_o dwell_v with_o he_o and_o think_v to_o cast_v off_o pray_v and_o think_v i_o will_v forsake_v my_o brother_n my_o brother_n persuade_v i_o to_o dwell_v one_o year_n there_o but_o i_o will_v not_o yet_o at_o last_o i_o do_v dwell_v there_o one_o year_n and_o go_v to_o meeting_n but_o in_o vain_a for_o i_o understand_v not_o one_o word_n after_o that_o year_n i_o return_v to_o noonantam_n and_o then_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n make_v all_o the_o world_n but_o yet_o i_o do_v not_o pray_v to_o god_n one_o jot_n but_o still_o sin_v and_o especial_o the_o sin_n of_o lust_n and_o i_o make_v light_n of_o any_o sin_n i_o hear_v and_o understand_v the_o command_n of_o god_n thou_o shall_v not_o murder_v commit_v adultery_n steal_v bear_v false_a witness_n covet_v and_o that_o make_v i_o afraid_a to_o commit_v sin_n afore_o man_n lest_o i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o put_v to_o death_n but_o i_o fear_v not_o god_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o minister_n ask_v who_o make_v you_o a._o god_n and_o who_o redeem_v you_o a._o christ_n and_o who_o must_v sanctify_v you_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o that_o god_n make_v heaven_n earth_n sea_n etc._n etc._n than_o i_o a_o little_a consider_v of_o god_n who_o make_v all_o this_o world_n and_o then_o i_o be_v afraid_a i_o see_v that_o no_o man_n can_v make_v these_o thing_n and_o that_o therefore_o we_o must_v pray_v to_o god_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v assure_o it_o be_v so_o god_n make_v all_o thing_n and_o make_v i_o and_o i_o 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live_v be_v trouble_v for_o i_o then_o i_o say_v i_o will_v abide_v with_o my_o brother_n because_o i_o love_v they_o but_o not_o because_o i_o will_v pray_v then_o that_o winter_n god_n break_v my_o head_n i_o know_v but_o little_a i_o be_v almost_o dead_a then_o my_o heart_n say_v now_o i_o know_v god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o for_o my_o sin_n and_o have_v therefore_o smite_v i_o then_o i_o pray_v hard_o when_o i_o be_v almost_o dead_a i_o remember_v my_o sin_n much_o and_o consider_v they_o much_o i_o remember_v that_o god_n make_v all_o the_o world_n and_o therefore_o assure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n i_o hear_v that_o god_n make_v adam_n and_o make_v he_o in_o his_o own_o image_n gen._n 1._o and_o assure_o none_o but_o god_n can_v make_v all_o the_o world_n heaven_n earth_n sea_n etc._n etc._n than_o i_o do_v believe_v that_o god_n do_v make_v the_o world_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o see_v that_o i_o have_v offend_v against_o god_n and_o sin_v against_o he_o and_o that_o i_o have_v the_o root_n of_o sin_n in_o i_o and_o that_o i_o have_v deserve_v all_o misery_n and_o death_n and_o hell_n i_o hear_v that_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o adam_n and_o forbid_v he_o to_o eat_v of_o the_o tree_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o garden_n and_o yet_o he_o do_v eat_v and_o therefore_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o man_n and_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n and_o therefore_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o and_o because_o i_o have_v sometime_o forsake_v god_n and_o run_v wild_a therefore_o i_o now_o know_v my_o sin_n and_o my_o offence_n against_o god_n i_o desire_v no_o more_o to_o cast_v off_o god_n and_o prayer_n for_o now_o i_o know_v my_o sin_n and_o that_o i_o have_v deserve_v misery_n therefore_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v i_o desire_v pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o i_o think_v it_o may_v be_v god_n will_v pardon_v i_o and_o my_o heart_n pray_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n if_o thou_o give_v i_o life_n again_o i_o will_v assure_o believe_v and_o obey_v and_o now_o i_o know_v my_o sin_n by_o the_o sin_n of_o adam_n but_o when_o i_o have_v thus_o do_v quick_o my_o heart_n will_v be_v vain_a again_o after_o my_o wound_n when_o i_o come_v to_o myself_o and_o awake_v i_o see_v my_o sin_n and_o promise_v god_n to_o pray_v unto_o he_o when_o i_o see_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n be_v so_o great_a unto_o i_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n
as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o have_v no_o punishment_n for_o it_o about_o a_o year_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o minister_n teach_v another_o word_n that_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v precious_a and_o our_o death_n be_v nothing_o worth_a therefore_o god_n promise_v pardon_n of_o all_o sin_n for_o christ_n his_o sake_n he_o bid_v we_o remember_v this_o against_o next_o time_n when_o he_o come_v again_o he_o ask_v i_o and_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o do_v to_o this_o day_n but_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v not_o believe_v only_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o answer_v when_o i_o be_v ask_v and_o then_o again_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o will_v not_o go_v away_o but_o it_o be_v because_o i_o love_v our_o place_n and_o dwelling_n i_o pray_v but_o i_o believe_v not_o i_o consider_v not_o eternal_a life_n but_o only_o this_o worldly_a life_n and_o thus_o i_o go_v on_o till_o they_o choose_v ruler_n at_o natik_a they_o choose_v i_o and_o i_o refuse_v because_o i_o believe_v not_o after_o that_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o i_o be_v sick_a to_o death_n but_o live_v again_o and_o be_v well_o i_o think_v i_o can_v not_o pray_v i_o be_v a_o child_n and_o therefore_o can_v not_o i_o put_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n my_o relation_n die_v and_o why_o shall_v i_o pray_v but_o than_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n thus_o punish_v i_o yea_o the_o minister_n speak_v to_o i_o about_o it_o and_o say_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v because_o i_o refuse_v to_o do_v god_n work_n as_o moses_n when_o he_o first_o refuse_v god_n be_v patient_a but_o when_o he_o persist_v in_o his_o refusal_n god_n be_v angry_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n see_v my_o sin_n and_o then_o my_o heart_n almost_o believe_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v right_a and_o to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n for_o i_o further_o hear_v in_o the_o four_o commandment_n remember_v the_o sabbath_n to_o keep_v it_o holy_a and_o psa._n 101._o i_o will_v walk_v wise_o in_o a_o perfect_a way_n also_o in_o isay_n 58._o if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o foot_n from_o the_o sabbath_n and_o do_v not_o thy_o own_o work_n nor_o find_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n nor_o speak_v thy_o own_o word_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n than_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o take_v away_o our_o gun_n and_o cause_v we_o to_o bring_v they_o as_o far_o as_o roxbury_n that_o night_n my_o heart_n be_v break_v off_o my_o heart_n say_v god_n be_v not_o the_o sabbath_n be_v not_o it_o be_v not_o the_o lord_n day_n for_o be_v it_o so_o the_o soldier_n will_v not_o have_v then_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o pray_v than_o we_o come_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath-day_n it_o be_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v lawful_a but_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v it_o that_o day_n i_o be_v very_o thirsty_a do_v drink_v too_o much_o and_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o be_v ashamed_a i_o come_v to_o roxbury_n to_o the_o minister_n and_o there_o i_o be_v ashamed_a also_o because_o i_o have_v great_o sin_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o free-mercy_n because_o precious_a be_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n oh_o pardon_v this_o my_o sin_n yet_o again_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o a_o great_a sinner_n i_o be_v even_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o break_v the_o beast_n of_o god_n command_n and_o teach_v other_o so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v the_o least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n my_o heart_n say_v lord_n such_o a_o one_o have_v i_o be_v for_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o for_o mercy_n o_o lord_n free_o pardon_v my_o great_a sin_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o be_o very_o weak_a even_o like_o a_o very_a child_n and_o i_o so_o walk_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v if_o i_o die_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o sin_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o believe_v in_o he_o we_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n as_o by_o a_o ladder_n this_o help_v i_o almost_o to_o believe_v and_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n be_v thou_o my_o ladder_n to_o heaven_n again_o ioh._n 14._o christ_n say_v none_o come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o therefore_o i_o believe_v nothing_o can_v carry_v i_o to_o god_n but_o only_o christ_n if_o i_o penitent_o believe_v in_o he_o again_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v still_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a to_o resist_v sin_n for_o if_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n i_o teach_v indeed_o but_o i_o do_v not_o as_o i_o ought_v and_o therefore_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n do_v rebuke_v i_o mat._n 23._o hear_v and_o do_v what_o they_o say_v but_o do_v not_o as_o they_o do_v when_o i_o do_v among_o other_o reprove_v sinner_n that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o so_o cast_v the_o moat_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
my_o heart_n do_v desire_n christ_n and_o to_o pray_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v and_o my_o heart_n be_v stir_v up_o thereunto_o by_o luke_n 18._o christ_n speak_v a_o parable_n that_o we_o shall_v pray_v and_o not_o be_v weary_a because_o the_o widow_n tire_v the_o unjust_a judge_n and_o make_v he_o help_v she_o how_o much_o more_o shall_v god_n the_o righteous_a judge_n hear_v and_o help_v his_o child_n that_o cry_v night_n and_o day_n therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v unto_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v for_o i_o be_o weak_a and_o i_o fear_v i_o shall_v perish_v then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n ioh._n 3._o god_n so_o love_v the_o world_n that_o he_o give_v his_o only_a son_n that_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o he_o shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o again_o it_o be_v say_v that_o god_n love_v his_o son_n and_o give_v all_o thing_n into_o his_o hand_n i_o be_o weak_a and_o though_o i_o pray_v yet_o i_o be_o weak_a therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v in_o christ_n hand_n as_o in_o a_o fort_n in_o a_o fort_n we_o be_v safe_a from_o exercise_n they_o can_v easy_o catch_v we_o out_o of_o a_o fort_n we_o be_v open_a to_o they_o so_o i_o desire_v church-estate_n the_o seal_n of_o baptism_n and_o the_o lord_n supper_n and_o all_o church-ordinance_n as_o a_o fort_n unto_o my_o soul_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n of_o christ_n mat._n 16._o thou_o be_v peter_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o oh_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v there_o keep_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o god_n be_v able_a of_o these_o stone_n to_o raise_v â—p_a seed_n to_o abraham_n therefore_o raise_v up_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o again_o christ_n come_v to_o john_n to_o be_v baptise_v john_n refuse_v but_o christ_n say_v suffer_v it_o to_o be_v so_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o fulfil_v all_o unrighteousness_n therefore_o so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v all_o that_o be_v right_a and_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v baptise_v again_o i_o confess_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v sin_v again_o and_o defile_v myself_o after_o i_o be_o wash_v and_o baptise_v even_o as_o the_o dog_n return_v to_o his_o vomit_n therefore_o i_o cry_v o_o god_n help_v i_o for_o thy_o free_a mercy_n sake_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o mat._n 18._o where_o two_o or_o three_o be_v meet_v together_o in_o my_o name_n christ_n be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o they_o therefore_o i_o desiâ—â—_n to_o have_v the_o ordinance_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v with_o christ_n but_o my_o heart_n say_v if_o i_o be_v bind_v by_o ordinance_n than_o i_o shall_v be_v imprison_v but_o yet_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v there_o in_o prâ—â—on_n with_o christ_n if_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o shall_v be_v as_o dead_a but_o yet_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v so_o with_o christ_n again_o i_o hear_v in_o john_n christ_n say_v who_o ever_o come_v to_o i_o i_o cast_v he_o not_o away_o but_o he_o shall_v have_v life_n but_o ioh._n 5._o christ_n do_v say_v you_o will_v not_o come_v unto_o i_o that_o you_o may_v have_v life_n therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v great_o fear_v and_o pray_v oh_o that_o i_o may_v come_v to_o christ_n and_o christ_n be_v the_o everlasting_a son_n of_o god_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o be_v with_o he_o and_o this_o i_o confess_v that_o though_o i_o believe_v in_o christ_n yet_o i_o be_o still_o weak_a and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v make_v strong_a by_o the_o seal_n but_o i_o fear_v i_o be_o unworthy_a because_o of_o that_o word_n mat._n 7._o cast_v not_o pearl_n before_o swine_n nor_o holy_a thing_n to_o dog_n yet_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o lord_n remember_v i_o and_o yet_o let_v i_o a_o dog_n come_v under_o thy_o table_n to_o get_v a_o crumb_n and_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n because_o of_o all_o my_o weakness_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v deliver_v or_o help_v or_o save_v myself_o only_a christ_n jesus_n can_v do_v it_o and_o let_v freegrace_n pardon_v i_o and_o save_v i_o o_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o again_o mat._n 18._o whatever_o you_o bind_v on_o earth_n be_v bind_v in_o heaven_n and_o whatever_o you_o lose_v on_o earth_n be_v loose_v in_o heaven_n therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v loose_v both_o in_o earth_n and_o in_o heaven_n and_o to_o be_v seal_v with_o god_n seal_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n of_o his_o i_o say_v because_o the_o lord_n have_v say_v that_o in_o the_o mouth_n of_o two_o or_o three_o witness_n every_o truth_n shall_v be_v establish_v therefore_o i_o desire_v that_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o interpreter_n may_v attest_v unto_o this_o which_o i_o have_v read_v first_o mr._n peirson_n say_v so_o far_o as_o i_o discern_v i_o doubt_v not_o of_o the_o truth_n of_o what_o mr._n eliot_n have_v deliver_v and_o for_o that_o which_o he_o have_v now_o utter_v though_o some_o thing_n the_o indian_a have_v add_v more_o than_o he_o speak_v in_o private_a and_o some_o thing_n leave_v out_o and_o some_o thing_n otherwise_o place_v yet_o for_o the_o substance_n of_o his_o present_a confession_n it_o be_v the_o same_o with_o that_o which_o he_o deliver_v in_o private_a where_o we_o do_v careful_o try_v all_o thing_n that_o we_o may_v be_v sure_a that_o we_o understand_v he_o right_n then_o bro._n fouldyer_n be_v desire_v to_o speak_v who_o say_v that_o he_o do_v not_o expect_v to_o have_v understand_v so_o much_o of_o his_o speech_n and_o so_o plain_o as_o he_o do_v and_o his_o interpreter_n do_v perfect_o understand_v all_o and_o to_o his_o best_a understanding_n that_o which_o mr._n eliot_n have_v deliver_v be_v the_o very_a same_o which_o he_o speak_v i_o say_v unto_o the_o assembly_n in_o that_o he_o speak_v so_o plain_a to_o his_o understanding_n it_o be_v because_o i_o have_v advise_v he_o and_o so_o all_o the_o rest_n to_o express_v themselves_o in_o the_o most_o plain_a and_o familiar_a word_n and_o expression_n they_o can_v for_o my_o more_o easy_a and_o perfect_a understanding_n again_o for_o that_o my_o bro._n peirson_n observe_v that_o they_o leave_v out_o something_o and_o add_v other_o and_o vary_v in_o sundry_a expression_n it_o be_v true_a i_o observe_v the_o same_o and_o it_o may_v well_o be_v so_o for_o they_o have_v not_o any_o writing_n or_o like_a help_n only_o their_o memory_n and_o the_o help_n of_o god_n spirit_n to_o read_v in_o their_o own_o heart_n what_o they_o utter_v then_o the_o two_o son_n of_o thom._n stanton_n be_v call_v to_o testify_v the_o scholar_n speak_v first_o and_o say_v that_o he_o do_v understand_v perfect_o all_o that_o the_o indian_a say_v and_o he_o do_v not_o observe_v any_o difference_n in_o what_o mr._n eliot_n have_v deliver_v but_o it_o be_v the_o same_o which_o the_o indian_a speak_v the_o other_o speak_v and_o say_v he_o do_v not_o perfect_o understand_v all_o that_o the_o indian_a say_v but_o so_o far_o as_o he_o do_v understand_v mr._n eliot_n have_v deliver_v the_o truth_n my_o son_n be_v call_v to_o speak_v who_o say_v i_o do_v for_o the_o most_o part_n well_o understand_v the_o indian_a and_o to_o my_o best_a understanding_n my_o father_n have_v give_v a_o true_a interpretation_n thereof_o antony_n he_o be_v next_o call_v who_o thus_o speak_v i_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o the_o lord_n and_o all_o these_o people_n and_o godly_a man_n for_o you_o thorough_o know_v that_o we_o be_v great_a sinner_n not_o only_o before_o god_n but_o before_o man_n also_o i_o confess_v that_o in_o my_o mother_n womb_n i_o be_v conceive_v in_o sin_n and_o that_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o iniquity_n my_o father_n and_o mother_n be_v sinner_n and_o live_v in_o fin_n they_o pray_v to_o many_o god_n the_o sun_n heaven_n beast_n tree_n and_o every_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n they_o make_v they_o their_o god_n and_o thorough_o we_o follow_v these_o sin_n when_o i_o be_v bear_v i_o be_v in_o the_o image_n of_o satan_n i_o know_v not_o that_o god_n make_v all_o this_o world_n i_o be_v only_o wise_a to_o sin_n and_o i_o do_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o like_v to_o do_v even_o all_o lust_n from_o my_o youth_n up_o and_o now_o i_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o all_o man_n for_o god_n and_o man_n do_v know_v they_o i_o do_v all_o my_o delight_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n the_o english_a come_v but_o i_o regard_v they_o not_o afterward_o i_o hear_v that_o the_o indian_n pray_v but_o my_o heart-said_a i_o will_v not_o pray_v so_o long_o as_o i_o live_v for_o they_o be_v vain_a word_n to_o pray_v unto_o god_n my_o parent_n teach_v i_o to_o pray_v unto_o many_o god_n sometime_o i_o come_v to_o
you_o shall_v have_v pardon_n and_o be_v save_v and_o therefore_o sometime_o i_o believe_v and_o sometime_o i_o doubt_v again_o afterward_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o to_o vain_a course_n nigh_o half_a a_o year_n yet_o when_o sabbath_n come_v my_o heart_n will_v turn_v to_o god_n when_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o make_v we_o bring_v our_o gun_n hither_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_a god_n have_v not_o say_v keep_v the_o sabbath_n day_n holy_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v only_o in_o my_o heart_n when_o we_o come_v to_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v and_o i_o do_v believe_v when_o we_o go_v from_o the_o magistrate_n i_o be_v thirsty_a and_o i_o drink_v a_o great_a deal_n and_o i_o be_v drink_v and_o be_v carry_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o then_o i_o be_v ashamed_a then_o i_o come_v to_o the_o minister_n house_n and_o i_o be_v great_o ashamed_a and_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o i_o have_v now_o cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n but_o i_o repent_v and_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o this_o my_o sin_n for_o my_o sin_n be_v great_a i_o have_v other_o temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n weak_a and_o doubt_v but_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v and_o i_o be_v ready_a to_o stumble_v like_o a_o little_a weak_a child_n after_o this_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n of_o god_n mat._n 12._o do_v you_o not_o remember_v what_o david_n do_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n and_o be_v blameless_a then_o i_o think_v the_o soldier_n do_v not_o sin_n but_o than_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o that_o i_o have_v break_v the_o sabbath_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 3._o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n and_o this_o trouble_a i_o because_o i_o have_v evil_a fruit_n again_o mat._n 6._o christ_n say_v be_v you_o not_o like_o hypocrite_n which_o seem_v to_o pray_v before_o man_n i_o think_v this_o be_v my_o case_n i_o do_v only_o pray_v before_o man_n but_o i_o doubt_v of_o christ_n and_o his_o grace_n again_o mat._n 5._o who_o ever_o break_v the_o least_o of_o god_n commandment_n and_o teach_v man_n so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n then_o i_o be_v trouble_v because_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n in_o lust_n and_o other_o sin_n and_o i_o be_v worse_a than_o a_o beast_n in_o my_o sin_n then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o christ_n pardon_v all_o my_o great_a sin_n oh_o christ_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o oh_o god_n remember_v i_o to_o pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n thus_o i_o cry_v and_o desire_v pardon_n but_o i_o be_v weak_a in_o believe_v but_o then_o about_o two_o year_n after_o i_o be_v great_o trouble_v about_o my_o weakness_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v well_o but_o i_o be_v weak_a then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n help_v i_o by_o thy_o spirit_n in_o i_o and_o send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n sometime_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n but_o weak_o then_o i_o hear_v mat._n 23._o christ_n bid_v the_o people_n do_v what_o the_o scribe_n and_o pharisee_n say_v but_o not_o do_v as_o they_o do_v i_o say_v lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n i_o teach_v better_o than_o i_o do_v and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v repentance_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o forsake_v my_o sin_n then_o mat._n 7._o christ_n say_v thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o to_o cast_v the_o mote_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n my_o heart_n say_v true_o it_o be_v so_o i_o teach_v other_o but_o i_o do_v not_o well_o myself_o i_o reprove_v sin_n and_o yet_o i_o do_v it_o then_o be_v my_o heart_n weary_a and_o i_o desire_v again_o to_o do_v well_o and_o amend_v but_o i_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a sometime_o my_o heart_n hate_v pray_v to_o god_n and_o meet_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n and_o therefore_o i_o see_v i_o deserve_v hell_n torment_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n pardon_v all_o these_o my_o sin_n then_o afterward_o my_o heart_n desire_v strong_o to_o pray_v unto_o god_n but_o i_o see_v i_o deserve_v misery_n and_o punishment_n and_o i_o be_v weak_a then_o i_o desire_v my_o heart_n may_v be_v make_v strong_a by_o church-covenant_n baptism_n and_o the_o lord_n supper_n which_o may_v be_v as_o a_o fort_n to_o keep_v i_o from_o enemy_n as_o a_o fort_n keep_v we_o from_o our_o outward_a enemy_n yet_o my_o heart_n be_v sometime_o backward_o and_o say_v no_o matter_n do_v it_o not_o but_o still_o do_v what_o thy_o heart_n will_v have_v thou_o and_o i_o see_v satan_n do_v thus_o follow_v i_o with_o these_o temptation_n to_o misbelief_n and_o doubt_v but_o now_o i_o see_v satan_n tempt_v i_o because_o he_o desire_v i_o shall_v be_v ever_o torment_v with_o he_o then_o i_o learn_v that_o in_o john_n 6._o i_o be_o the_o true_a bread_n and_o he_o that_o eat_v i_o shall_v live_v for_o ever_o and_o he_o that_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v have_v life_n but_o he_o that_o do_v not_o eat_v my_o flesh_n and_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v not_o have_v life_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v truth_n lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n again_o i_o learn_v john_n 3._o he_o that_o believe_v shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n let_v it_o be_v so_o again_o mat._n 16._o christ_n say_v thou_o be_v peter_n a_o rock_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o therefore_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v this_o because_o christ_n dwell_v in_o the_o church_n and_o be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o they_o where_o two_o or_o three_o be_v meet_v together_o in_o my_o name_n oh_a i_o do_v therefore_o desire_v church_n ordinance_n that_o i_o may_v be_v with_o christ_n and_o that_o i_o may_v have_v the_o seal_n mat._n 3._o christ_n say_v let_v it_o be_v for_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o i_o shall_v fulfil_v all_o righteousness_n my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o i_o may_v also_o so_o do_v o_o lord_n now_o my_o heart_n desire_v and_o thirst_v oh_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o pity_v my_o weakness_n that_o i_o may_v have_v pardon_n in_o christ_n and_o strength_n from_o christ_n in_o all_o his_o ordinance_n and_o that_o i_o may_v leave_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o oh_o god_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v i_o be_o so_o weak_a oh_o god_n help_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o the_o same_o i_o desire_v of_o you_o before_o who_o i_o be_o in_o this_o house_n help_v i_o for_o mat._n 16._o who_o you_o bind_v on_o earth_n be_v bind_v in_o heaven_n and_o who_o you_o lose_v on_o earth_n be_v loose_v in_o heaven_n and_o my_o desire_n be_v that_o christ_n will_v pardon_v all_o 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