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she_o and_o hence_o she_o run_v into_o the_o opinion_n of_o two_o substance_n but_o after_o thou_o have_v cure_v my_o sick_a head_n and_o remove_v this_o my_o frenzy_n i_o awaken_v to_o behold_v thou_o but_o not_o with_o my_o former_a eye_n of_o sense_n and_o i_o see_v thou_o infinite_a in_o a_o much_o other_o manner_n than_o former_o i_o imagine_v thou_o chap._n xv._o and_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n on_o other_o thing_n and_o see_v they_o to_o owe_v unto_o thou_o their_o be_v and_o to_o be_v in_o thou_o finite_a and_o bound_v yet_o not_o as_o circumscribe_v by_o place_n but_o as_o all_o support_v by_o the_o hand_n of_o thy_o reality_n and_o verity_n and_o i_o see_v
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be_v in_o i_o who_o be_o not_o yet_o a_o thing_n so_o low_a and_o remote_a as_o hell_n or_o the_o grave_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v present_a there_o for_o if_o i_o go_v down_o into_o hell_n thou_o be_v there_o also_o 139.7_o psal_n 139.7_o therefore_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v o_o my_o god_n not_o be_v at_o all_o but_o only_o by_o thy_o be_v in_o i_o or_o rather_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v but_o by_o be_v in_o thou_o of_o who_o and_o by_o who_o and_o in_o who_o 11.36_o rom._n 11.36_o all_o thing_n be_v it_o be_v so_o lord_n even_o so_o whether_o then_o may_v i_o invoke_v thou_o see_v i_o be_o already_o in_o thou_o or_o from_o whence_o thou_o draw-near_a unto_o i_o for_o whither_o can_v i_o retire_v beyond_o the_o utmost_a limit_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o invite_v from_o thence_o my_o god_n into_o i_o who_o have_v say_v i_o fill_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n 23.24_o jer._n 23.24_o chap._n iii_o but_o do_v the_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thus_o fill_v by_o thou_o therefore_o 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capable_a of_o thou_o whole_o do_v they_o only_o receive_v some_o part_n and_o then_o do_v they_o all_o receive_v the_o same_o or_o several_a part_n of_o thou_o the_o great_a taking_n more_o the_o lesser_a a_o less_o and_o be_v there_o then_o some_o part_n of_o thou_o great_a and_o some_o less_o or_o be_v thou_o every_o where_o total_o yet_o no_o where_o total_o receive_v chap._n iu._n o_o what_o be_v thou_o therefore_o my_o god_n what_o can_n i_o say_v be_v thou_o but_o the_o lord_n god_n for_o who_o be_v god_n 18.31_o ps_n 18.31_o but_o the_o lord_n or_o who_o be_v god_n save_v our_o god_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a most_o good_a most_o potent_a most_o omnipotent_a most_o merciful_a and_o most_o just_a most_o present_a and_o most_o retire_a the_o fair_a and_o the_o strong_a stable_n and_o yet_o not_o comprehensible_a unchangeable_a and_o yet_o all-changing_a never_o new_a nor_o never_o old_a and_o all-renewing_a only_o wither_v and_o bring_v to_o nothing_o the_o proud_a and_o gallant_a 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assay_v to_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o wo_n to_o they_o who_o in_o thy_o praise_n be_v silent_a though_o in_o it_o they_o be_v no_o more_o than_o mute_a who_o be_v most_o eloquent_a nothing_o eloquent_a or_o whereln_n the_o very_a dumb_a say_v something_o and_o such_o as_o say_v most_o say_v nothing_o chap._n v._n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o repose_v and_o acquiesce_v in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v my_o soul_n wholly-poss_a with_o and_o inebriate_v by_o they_z so_o to_o enjoy_v a_o eternal_a oblivion_n of_o all_o past_a evil_n and_o the_o perpetual_a embrace_n of_o thou_o my_o only_a good_a and_o in_o this_o so_o much_o on_o both_o side_n longed-for_a union_n what_o good_a be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n indulge_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o or_o what_o good_a be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o thou_o exact_a of_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o and_o if_o i_o do_v it_o not_o be_v high_o displease_v and_o threaten_v to_o 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it_o the_o sordid_a furniture_n thereof_o must_v be_v very_o offensive_a to_o thy_o holy_a eye_n i_o know_v and_o confess_v it_o but_o who_o can_v purge_v and_o cleanse_v it_o beside_o thou_o vulg_n psal_n 19.12_o psal_n 116.10_o psal_n 32.6_o psal_n 26.12_o vulg_n or_o to_o what_o other_n beside_o thou_o shall_v i_o cry_v cleanse_v i_o o_o lord_n from_o my_o secret_a sin_n and_o from_o my_o presumptuous_a wickedness_n deliver_v thy_o servant_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v and_o will_v forgive_v they_o and_o therefore_o do_v i_o speak_v and_o confess_v they_o o_o lord_n thou_o know_v have_v not_o i_o confess_v against_o i_o my_o sin_n unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o hope_v thou_o have_v forgive_v the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o truth_n nor_o will_v i_o be_v deceive_v in_o harken_v to_o excuse_n whilst_o perhaps_o my_o iniquity_n tell_v lie_n unto_o i_o therefore_o do_v i_o not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n 130.3_o psal_n 130.3_o o_o lord_n who_o shall_v abide_v it_o chap_n vi._n a_o account*_n of_o st._n augustine_n infancy_n nourish_v and_o sustain_v by_o the_o divine_a providence_n yet_o suffer_v i_o thy_o justice_n lay_v aside_o to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o mercy_n 18.27_o gen._n 18.27_o i_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o suffer_v i_o to_o speak_v be_v it_o be_v unto_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o god_n i_o speak_v and_o not_o to_o man_n so_o apt_a to_o scoff_n at_o i_o and_o perhaps_o thou_o also_o for_o the_o present_a lâ—â—â—liest_a at_o i_o 25.16_o psal_n 25.16_o but_o in_o
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enlighten_v my_o darkness_n chap._n ii_o chap._n iii_o still_o unsatisfied_a concern_v the_o cause_n of_o evil_a and_o why_o angel_n and_o man_n be_v create_v by_o the_o most_o good_a god_n there_o shall_v by_o he_o be_v place_v in_o they_o a_o power_n to_o will_v evil_o but_o although_o i_o thus_o grant_v thou_o uncontaminable_a and_o unalterable_a or_o liable_a to_o misery_n in_o any_o part_n or_o member_n of_o thou_o from_o the_o manichean-feigned_n opposition_n of_o i_o know_v not_o what_o gens_n tenebrarum_fw-la or_o adverse_a malignant_a power_n arise_v out_o of_o another_o lump_n of_o matter_n contrary_a to_o that_o which_o thou_o have_v make_v which_o can_v it_o any_o way_n have_v hurt_v thou_o thou_o must_v then_o the_o very_a name_n of_o which_o all_o abhor_v have_v be_v suppose_v both_o violable_a and_o corruptible_a as_o be_v well_o press_v by_o nebridius_fw-la long_a since_o at_o carthage_n and_o have_v then_o much_o startle_v we_o that_o hear_v it_o and_o although_o i_o 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not_o my_o god_n not_o only_o good_a but_o goodness_n itself_o from_o who_o have_v i_o then_o to_o will_v evil_o and_o to_o will_v well_o that_o so_o there_o may_v be_v that_o for_o what_o i_o may_v be_v just_o punish_v who_o put_v this_o thing_n into_o i_o who_o plant_v in_o i_o this_o root_n of_o bitterness_n all_o of_o i_o be_v make_v by_o the_o most_o sweet_a creator_n if_o the_o devil_n the_o author_n of_o it_o whence_o then_o the_o devil_n but_o if_o he_o also_o by_o a_o perverse_a will_n of_o a_o good_a angel_n become_v a_o devil_n whence_o come_v in_o he_o this_o evil_a will_n by_o which_o he_o become_v such_o since_o he_o total_o be_v make_v by_o the_o best_a god_n a_o good_a angel_n and_o by_o these_o thought_n be_v i_o plunge_v again_o and_o suffocate_v yet_o not_o so_o low_a as_o that_o infernal_a error_n to_o believe_v that_o thou_o rather_o do_v force_o suffer_v than_o man_n do_v evil_a chap._n iu._n chap._n v._n pursue_v the_o same_o query_n still_o unde_fw-la malum_fw-la yet_o *_o his_o faith_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n remain_v in_o he_o firm_a and_o unshaken_a and_o i_o seek_v from_o whence_o evil_a may_v come_v and_o i_o seek_v evil_o yet_o see_v not_o this_o evil_a in_o my_o inquisition_n and_o my_o spirit_n place_v before_o it_o the_o whole_a universe_n both_o of_o visibles_fw-fr as_o the_o earth_n sea_n air_n starrs_n plant_n animal_n etc._n etc._n and_o of_o invisibles_fw-fr as_o the_o firmament_n of_o heaven_n and_o all_o the_o angel_n and_o spiritual_a inhabitant_n thereof_o after_o this_o i_o consider_v thou_o my_o god_n as_o every_o way_n infinite_a and_o boundless_a environ_v and_o entire_o penetrate_v this_o mass_n as_o a_o shoarless_a sea_n will_v fill_v a_o sponge_n of_o a_o great_a but_o finite_a magnitude_n place_v within_o it_o so_o conceive_v i_o the_o finite_a creature_n fill_v with_o thou_o the_o infinite_a god_n and_o i_o say_v within_o myself_o behold_v god_n and_o behold_v all_o the_o 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