thee so could not any thing be created by any other but by thee to the end that all things might serue thee praise thee and publish thy glory Thou art the vniuersall dispenser of good things so that there is no benefit to be found either of nature or grace body or soule which taketh not his originall from thee who art the fountaine of all goodnes Thou art the maine of all perfection the Abysse of all greatnesse the Dâ—…ean of infinite mercy and goodnes the image of incomparable beauty Thou art the God of Gods the holy of holiest the King of Kinges the Lord of Lords the cause of causes the being of beings the life of the liuing the order of the Uniuers the beauty of the world the glory of the heauens Thou art my Creator that madest me of nothing to thine owne Image and similitude Thou art my conseruer who by thy prouideÌ„ce maintainest me lest I should become nothing Thou art my sanctifier who by thy grace extollest me vnto things which are diuine Thou art my glorifier who hast made me to enioy the glorie euerlasting Thou art my defender helper pastor benefactor Thou art my King my Lord my father my spouse Thou art the center of my soule my last end in whom alone consisteth all my felicity happinesse and the last perfection of my life what neede many words Thou art to me all in all in as much as thou art God But in as much as thou art man thou art my redeemer my sauiour and deliuerer Thou art as the Apostle testifieth my wisedome my iustice my sanctification my redemption my sacrifice my Lambe my priest my aduocate my intercessor my doctor my example my fortitude my consolation Thou art the generall phisition of all my wounds infirmities Thou hast healed my pride by thy humility my auarice by thy pouerty my pleasures by thy dolors my wrath by thy meeknes my enuy by thy charity my excesse by the gall and vinegar which thou tastedst for my sake my sloath by thy diligence and vnmeasurable labors vndertaken for my sake For my sake thou didst fast wander hither and thither sweate watch pray weepe for mee thou wert banished persecuted deâ—…ded mockt spit vpon whipt crowned with thornes crucified and more afflicted than all other men of this world and at length put to death 2. A thanksgiuing ALL these are thy benefits O Lord for which I ought to yeeld thee thanks nay rather they are most iust causes for which I am indebted vnto thee bonds by which thou holdest me captiue bound vnto thee What shall I giue vnto our Lord for all the benefits hee hath bestowed on mee by what duty or what humble seruice shall I recompence so manie graces bestowed vpon me Uerily I beleeue that although I onely had all mens hearts and with all them did only loue thee yet might I not in the least sort yeeld thee that which belongeth vnto thee How then for many so great benefits shall I yeeld thee satisfaction How can I deny thee that one heart which I haue for all wheÌ„ I owe thee so much for all thy benefits towards me What shal I say my God what shall I doe for I alone am not sufficieÌ„t to yeeld thee condigne thanks for such a multitude of blessings But I know what I shall doe I will call vpon all creatures that are in heauen on earth and I will desire them to assist me and vouch safe with me to sing thy praises and glorifie with mee the Lord of all glorie Let vs therefore sing the song which the three children sang in the burning Furnace in Babilon saying O blesse ye all the workes of the Lord God praise ye and magnifie him for euer O yee angels of the Lord blesse yee the Lord praise him and magnifie him for euer O yee heauens blesse the Lord praise yee and magnifie him for euer O yee waters that are aboue the firmament blesse yee our Lord praise him and magnifie him for euer c. 3. The oblation of a mans selfe ALL these praises and blessings doe I owe thee O father yea and far more greater belong vnto thee For if I shal more neerely examine the matter I not only owe thee mine but my selfe also For if in India a man buy another man for a red cap and hee that is bought at so slight a rate is in such sort wholly obliged subiect to the buier as that he is neither master of a moment of time or of a farthing but is very often cast into fetters by his Lord beaten with clubs and handled according to the humour of him that bought him what shall become of me O Lord I am thine yea truly wholy thine not tied vnto thee vnder one name and title but by infinite respects Thou hast created me thou hast bought me not with a red cap but with thy precious blood thou hast conserued me in all and euery momeÌ„t of my life For without thee I can nether stir haÌ„d or foot without thy prouidence I can neither breath nor respire or act any thing with what colour theÌ„ can I cast off thy dominion ouer me How an I deny thee that which is thine By what right can I challenge liberty to my selfe Or with what impudence shaking off the yoake of my Lord can I wish to liue according to my wicked desires when by so many reasons I am thine ought so wholy to be dedicated vnto thee Most humbly therfore acknowledging thy dominion ouer me behold I dedicate my self wholy vnto thee and intirely submit my selfe to thy perpetuall seruice subiection Neither doe I onely offer my selfe vnto thee but also all that which is mine what soeuer this day or in the rest of my life I shall thinke speake or do with all those things which at any time for thy sake shal be offered me to admit or further 〈◊〉 so that henceforward I wil neither eat nor drink nor sleep nor do any such like thing whose end shall not bee the honour glory of thy most holy name Once more I say O Lord I sacrifice my selfe vnto thee lest hereafter I be mine owne not thine I will liue no more according to mine owne will I will not labour for my selfe I wil not seek my selfe but in all things euery way will I seeke thee obey thy will and be diligent in thy seruice and if at any time I shall doe the contrary I will call my selfe a theefe and rauisher of an other mans right for that dutie and obedience which vnder so many titles and by so much right appertaineth vnto thee deniing and stealing the same from thee I shall vsurpe vnto my selfe 4. A petition for new benefits BUt because without thy grace I cannot yeeld thee that duty I pray thee O Lord that thou wilt assist me herein and create in me a new heart that shal not iudge himselfe to be his own no not for 〈◊〉
of loue O most holy father o most mercifull sonne O most louing holy ghost when wilt thou most beloued father dwell in my soule and abide in the secrets of my heart possesse me wholy When shal I be wholy thine and thou wholy mine When shall it come to passe o my King when will that day come o when O were it here Shall I neuer see it o how vngrateful delay how odious procrastinatiō Haste thee O Iesus haste thee and delay not returne returne and runne like a Goate and the yong hinds vpon the mountaines of Bether O my God the repose of my life the light of mine eies my consolation in tribulations the end of my desires the paradise of my heart the center of my soule the pledge of glory the companion of my pilgrimage my ioy in exile the medicine of my wounds mercifull iusticer of my sins master of the ignorant guide of life nest in which my soule resteth hauen wherein she is saued glasse wherein she beholdeth her selfe staffe on which she leaneth stone on which she is builded precious treasure in which shee glorieth If thou therefore o Lord be all these vnto me how can I forget yea but for a moment of time If I forget thee o my God let mee forget my right hand let my tongue cleane to the roofe of my mouth if I remember thee not I will giue no sleepe vnto mine eies o blessed Trinitie nor rest to mine eie-lids nor quiet to my temples vntill I finde this loue vntill I finde a place for my Lord in my heart and a tabernacle for the God of Iacob in my soule who liueth for euer world without end Amen The first prayer for the loue of God I Will loue thee O Lord my strength I wil loue thee my vnspeakable ioy and let my whole life liue not to my selfe but to thee which was condemned to miserie raised againe by thy mercy Too late did I feare thy Maiestie too late did I loue thee thou beautie both old and new too late did I loue thee I sought thee my refreshment and I found thee not because I vndirectly sought thee I sought thee without my selfe thou didst dwel in me I trauelled the streets and waies of the Citty of this world seeking thee and I found thee not because inconsiderately I sought thee abroad wheras thou wert at home with mee I asked y◠earth whether it were my God and it answered mee no and all things which are in the same confessed the very same I asked the Sea the depths and y◠inhabitants therof and they answered we are not God seeke him aboue vs. I asked the fleeting aire with all the dwellers therein and he answered mee no. I asked heauen the Sunne the Moone and the Starres neither are wee thy Gods said they Finally I asked all creatures and they cried vnto mee with a loud voice hee that made vs is thy true God Lord. And I sayd where therfore is my God where shall I seek him shew him me And I heard a voice saying vnto me God is in euery place seeke him in thy self he filleth Heauen filleth the earth and filleth thy heart And I came to my selfe I entred into my selfe and I said vnto my selfe how entrest thou hither O my God at what doore wert thou admitted I began to enquire examine euery one of my senses if by any of them thou didst enter but they likewise knew not how or which waies thou camest in For the eies say if he be not coloured he cannot enter by vs. The cares say if he make no sound hee cānot passe by vs The nose saith if hee smell not hee could not come by me Taste saith if he sauored not he entred not by me Touch likewise addeth if he is not corpulent aske me nothing of this matter How therefore o my loue didst thou enter my soule and didst not enter by any doore Truly thou art light shining in darkenes yet such as the eie is not capable of Thou art a voice sweet aboue all voices yet such a one as the eare conceiueth not Thou art a sweete more fragrant than any odor which neuerthelesse my taste comprehendeth not Thou art an embracement to bee esteemed aboue all embraces which notwithstanding the touch attaineth not Where wert thoutherefore my God where wert thou my light where wert thou my hope I asked it was answered me Ascend into the superior parts of thy heart there shalt thou find God Truly thou art great O God and hast ouercome our wisdome Thou art the king of kings and the Lord of Lords Thou art immortall and dwellest in vnaccessible light whom no mortall man euer saw or shall euer see and liue Many and great are the wonders that are reported of thee o Lord yet more lesse and fewer than may be said of thee words are defectiue where thou are neuer deficient For thou exceedest all that which may bee spoken or thought O onely loue my Lord God thou didst loue me before I loued thee and createdst mee according to thine owne image and madest mee Lord ouer all thy creatures Moreouer thou makest thine Angels spirits for me whō thou hast ordained to defend mee in all my waies lest I should hurt my foote against the stone Thou wouldest not permit me to be borne in a pagan but a Christian land in which by the water and the holy Ghost I am regenerate sanctified Thou neither gauest me too much riches nor too abiect pouerty lest I shold either waxe proud or grow more contemptible but thou gauest me vnderstanding and wil whereby I should know and loue thee Thou didst cal me when I was lost knockedst at my doore but I did not answer thee I liued according to mine own lust and attributed too much to mine owne strength whereas neuerthelesse it was not strength but weaknesse I would runne and grow presently weary and where I thought I should bee secure there was I in greatest danger I went away frō thee like y◠prodigall son and trauelled into a strange countrey and dwelt therein whereas louing vanitie I became vain I was blind I desired blindnes I was a seruant I loued seruitude I was bound tooke pleasure in thraldome I thought bitter was sweet and sweete was bitternes I was wretched and I knew it not Whilst I liued in this most desperate estate thou didst cast thine eies of compassion vpon mee and although without intermission I did offend thee yet didst not thou giue ouer to reclaime me from my sins when I wandered thou broughtest me into the way when I was ignorant thou taughtest me when I did sinne thou didst correct me when I was sad thou didst comfort mee When I did despaire thou didst encourage me when I fell thou didst raise me vp when I stood thou sustainedst me I was vndone and dead thou descendedst vnto the dead tookest on thee mortality thou a
for mee doth the Thrush sing for mee doth the Peacoke spread her party-coloured plumes what need more There is nothing that liueth or mooueth in water earth oâ—… ayre which either feedeth me noâ—… or recreateth mee not or medicineth me not so that all this inferiour world is no other thing thaâ—… my store-house my walke and 〈◊〉 Poticaries shop If I shall ascend aboue the elementall world how many how great wonders hast yâ— made there for me The moone the sunne the stars to whom shine they but to me to whose vse doe they impart their influences to those inferiour bodies but to mine To whom do the times of yeares moneths and daies varie and admit measure but for me I wil ascend higher it was thy will that those noble and pure Angelicall spirits who minister vnto thee assist thee should bee my ministers also that they might defend me from the assaults of al mine enemies visible and inuisible induce mee to goodnesse by their suggestion helpe me in my tribulations offer my prayers vnto thee and bring my soule departing out of this life to thy presence Arise now my soule arise number if thou canst all these benefits wherwith God ceasseth not to follow thee though a sinner euerie day All and euery one of these are certaine voyces inuiting thee to prayse this thy bountifull benefactor Doest thou not heare nor know who he is who insinuateth himselfe vnto thee by so many arguments makes himselfe known by so many testimonies draweth thee vnto him by so many rewards esteemed thee so much that hee made all things for thy vse who is made the shepheard of thy flocke the steward of thy houshold the Physition of thy bodie soule wilt thou not loue him wilt thou not serue him wilt thou not giue him thanks wilt thou not prayse him I desire to prayse thee O Lord giue thee thanks with my whole heart but in my selfe I finde no means how I may do it for praise is not seeming in the mouth of a sinner But for that thou hast created all things to my vse seruice I will cal vpon all creatures that they with me may praise the Lord of al things saying O alye works of the Lord blesse yee with mee the Lord praise him and magnifie his name for euer The third thanksgiuing for the benefite of our redemption I Giue thanks with my lips my heart and all the vertue that is in mee to thine infinite mercie O Lord my God for that being created according to thy similitude and likenesse and fallen and lost in my first parents thou wouldst not banish me for euer like the proud angell from thy presence but of thy vnspeakeable goodnesse thou hast redeemed me Because thou madst mee O Lord I owe my selfe vnto thee but for that thou redeemedst mee I should owe thee farre more than my self if I had it But wher as thou couldst not helpe vs by thy life yet was it thy pleasure to effect the same in thy death to the end thou mightest expresse vnto vs the force of thy loue for lesse hadst thou loued except for a time thou hadst sustained to the end thou mightest disburden vs. And so much more worthily art thou to bee honoured by vs by how much more greater things thou hast sustained for our sakes For who art thou that sufferest what of what kinde are the things thou sufferest for whom sufferest thou and why sufferest thou Tell me O Lord that I may counterpoise equallie this wonderfull worke incomparable benefite What therefore O my God shall I say that thou art I will say that which thou thy selfe saidst to Moses in times past Thou art that thou art Thou art an infinite being that proceedest from no man but thy selfe and without thee there is no being that hath being of himselfe but from thee onely who art that beginning and fountaine of al being Thou of thy omnipotent power madst al things of nothing thou of thy goodnesse conseruest all things without any forraine helpe thou by thy will if it so pleased thee maiest reduce al things to nothing thou onely art that art and all that seemeth to be is nothing in comparison of thee The moone shineth not and the starres are not cleane in thy sight All beautie compared to thee is deformitie all power infirmity all wisdome ignorance and all goodnesse is malice Thou art good without defect wise without error liberall without acception of persons iust without wrath cleane without detriment thou workest all things and art not distracted thou labourest and art not wearie thou art euerie where and nothing is wanting in thee What therfore shal I speake of the greatnes of thy maiesty Thou beholdest the earth and makest it tremble thou touchest the mountaines and they smokke thou hast shut the sea within bounds when it brake out as a child from his mothers wombe thou numbrest yâ— multitude of starres and callest them all by their names whom the dominations and Angelical powers adore before whom the highest Seraphins clock their wings hide themselues with their fethers All thy works praise thee and thy Saints blesse thee the morning starres praise thee and all the children of God reioyce in thee the heauens declare thy glory and the firmament sheweth thy brightnesse the flowers of the field testifie thy beauty the earth thy prouidence the Sea and the flouds thereof doe preach thy Maiestie Such and so great art thou O Lord oh now let it be lawfull for mee to speake or rather to feele what and how vnworthy wrongs thou the God of so great maiesty hast suffered for mee and whilst I reckon vp these things let all â—…he Quires of Angels fall downe before thee and giue thee thanks for that which thou hast sustained for our redemption Thou being so sublime and admirable didst descend from the height of thy glory into this vale of miserie inuested with our carnall body and in habite like a man subiect to sinne Thou in this world sustainedst for my sake hunger and thirst yâ— heate of the Sunne and the cold of the Winter persecutions and dolors thou sufferedst for me so much pouertie that where the Foxes haue dennes and the birds of the aire their nests thou the Lord of heauen hadst not a place to rest thy head on borne in a Stable among beasts thou didst beg the heate of their breath from them and wert wrapped in ragged clouts On the eight day thou tookest on thee the marke of a sinner Presently after this the world persecuted thee thou fledst to forraine Lands and to a Nation honouring idols and to that purpose soughtst the silence of the night the innocency of thy â—…s excused thee not neither was there rest giuen to thy tender bodie neither was thy delicate childhood idle as thy body increased thy griefes and labours grew For who can expresse O Lord thy praiers watchings fastings wearines hunger thirst persecutions and