correct me good Lord as a Father in thy Pitty to amend me not as a Judge in thy Fury to confound me Thou didst redeem me with thine own most precious blood that thou mightest convert me And how then wilt thou Judge me being redeemed with that blood that thou maist condemn me Well may my sins be condemned of thee who art the Righteous Judge for I who have been the sinner and who still am an unrighteous man cannot but condemn them and my self for them But surely thy precious blood can never come under condemnation nor my soul whiles thou lookest upon it as washed with that blood Thus thou hast given me a pledge of delivering my soul from the terrours of my death by conquering them and from the severity of Gods Justice by satisfying it And thou hast also prepared a deliverance for my body for in that thou madest thy grave with the wicked in thy death thou hast sanctified the grave as a Repository for my dead body till my flesh shall be totally wasted therein and with my flesh all the sin and wickedness which hath so long dwelt in it and cannot be destroyed before it And thou wilt at last raise me from thence after thine own likeness that I may come from the grave as thou didst go to it not having violence in mine hand nor deceipt in my mouth nor wickedness in mine heart Lord let it be thy pleasure thus to deliver me Make hast O Lord to help me Take away all my sin from my soul and then as soon as thou pleasest take away my soul from my body That having no unrepented sin in my life I may have no unsufferable sorrow in my death but may find comfort in it deliverance by it and glory after it Amen Contemplations on Heb. 12. Verse 1 2. IN my troubles and distresses either of my body or of my soul I cannot bestow my time better then in looking about me for help And in looking about me for help I cannot bestow mine eyes better then in looking up to heaven For my help cometh from the Lord who hath made heaven and earth Psal. 121. 2. And if I look up to heaven I shall soon spie there a bright cloud even a cloud of witnesses to enlighten me that I stumble not in my waies for any darkness of my understanding And if I look up yet higher through that cloud I shall behold a far greater light even the Sun of righteousness to enflame me and to quicken me lest I should sit still when I am bound to be walking for the dulness of my will and the deadness of my affections for above that cloud dwelleth he who is the brightness of Gods glory and the express Image of his person Heb. 1. 3. Wherefore my sight may not be terminated or bounded by this cloud of witnesses But through it I must be looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of my Faith if I desire the comfort of my faith when I most want it even in the day of my visitation and at the hour of my dissolution And indeed where should a good Christian fix either his eye or his heart but only on Christ And I may here see Christ in his Mystical body that is in his Church the cloud of witnesses And Christ in his natural body that is in himself Jesus the Author and Finisher of our Faith And the same Christ in either body destitute afflicted tormented O Lord how many arguments are here alledged to perswade me to behave my self with great constancy humility and patience in those conflicts and agonies which I must expect as a Christian unless I will renounce communion with Christ and embrace an unwarrantable and an unprofitable Christianity I think there is a Lyon in the way as said Solomons sluggard ready to devour me and I see nothing but briers and thorns in it ready to intangle my feet and to tear my flesh But God telleth me it is the ready way to heaven and the Race that I must run if ever I hope to get thither Let us run with patience the race that is set before us If it be my race then I must run it if it be set then I cannot remove it if it be set before me then I cannot decline it And truly I cannot deny but it is set before me by the dispensation of Gods Providence and the indispensable Duty of my Christian vocation And therefore I give him hearty thanks that he hath so plainly shewed unto me the manner of running this race and the reasons that I have to run it The manner of running this race is twofold First I must forsake my self and all my selfishness that is all those things to which I have naturally an immoderate desire and in which I have naturally an immoderate delight let us lay aside every weight and the sin which doth so easily beset us For what am I or what is my flesh but a weight that doth beset me rather then befriend me even an unprofitable and an unsufferable burthen And what else cometh from me or cleaveth to me but only sin Which living in me cannot but work with me Operari sequitur esse and working with me cannot but defile my purest and my best works Secondly I must fix mine eyes and mine heart only upon my blessed Saviour looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of our Faith Looking to and on nothing else either within me or without me but only Christ whether in the way of my sanctification for he is the Author of my faith whereby alone my heart is purified and sanctified Or in the way of my salvation for he is the Finisher of my Faith whereby alone my soul is saved It is he that hath brought my soul from Infidelity to Faith whereby I now see through a glass darkly It is he that will bring my faith to a clear vision whereby I shall see him face to face The Reasons I have to run this race are drawn from that grand Topick which works so much upon all the world that Pelagius thought thereby to shift off Original sin from mans nature and to put it only on his imitation This Topick is the Common-place of example And first I have the examples of all those holy men that were before Christ who through their faith in Gods promises and constancy in their faith possessed their souls in great patience whiles they lived and resigned their souls in great comfort and contentment when they dyed This innumerable company of Saints is here called a cloud of witnesses and it is such a cloud as must needs at some time or other drop down many cool showers able to allay if not to extinguish the flames of my greatest fiery tryals Secondly I have the example of Christ himself he is the Author of my faith he is the Captain of my salvation that marcheth before me to this battle instructing me by his Word encouraging me by his Promises supporting me by his
redeemed with thy most precious blood and be not angry with me for ever Spare me good Lord. From this and all other evil and mischief of my body from the more afflictive and contagious sin of my soul from the crafts and assaults of the Devil either against my body or against my soul from the fear of thy wrath and from the sentence of everlasting damnation Good Lord deliver me By thine agony and bloody-sweat help and assist me in all mine agonies By thy Cross and Passion make me conquerer in all my sufferings By thy precious death and burial sweeten my death and sanctifie my grave By thy glorious resurrection and ascention raise me up again at the last day and glorifie me and by the coming of the Holy-Ghost give unto me now amidst the torments of my life and the terrours of my death the immortal comfort of a blessed resurrection to eternal glory And in this my distress by this thy special assistance help and comfort Good Lord deliver me In all time of my tribulation and adversity which thou hast now sent me In all time of my wealth and prosperity if thou shalt be pleased once again to send it me in the hour of my death and in the day of Judgement Good Lord deliver me I that am a sinner do beseech thee to hear me O Lord God And that it may please thee to rule and govern thy holy Church universally in the right way And to deliver this thy distressed and oppressed Church from all her sins and from all her troubles and to restore her to her former Truth and Peace I beseech thee to hear me good Lord. That it may please thee to let thy hand be upon the man of thy right hand and the Son of man whom thou hast made so strong for thine own self and so will not we go back from thee O let us live and we will call upon thy Name Turn us again O Lord God of Hosts shew us the light of thy countenance and we shall be whole I beseech thee to hear me good Lord. That it may please thee to defend and strengthen all Bishops and Ministers of thy Church That notwithstanding the manifold oppositions contempts and persecutions of disobedient and gainsaying people they may still uphold thy true and lively Word and thy holy and blessed Sacraments and by their preaching and administring and their living and dying may set them forth and shew them accordingly I beseech thee to hear me good Lord. That it may please thee to be a Father to the Fatherless whom my sins have helped to make so and whom my repentance cannot but thy Mercy can relieve To be a husband to the widow a comfort to the comfortless and to relieve all that be desolate and oppressed and to shew thy pity upon all exiles prisoners and captives especially those that suffer imprisonment and captivity or banishment for the cause of righteousness for the Doctrine of a Catholick Faith or for the duties of a Christian life I beseech thee to hear me good Lord. That it may please thee to have Mercy upon mine enemies persecutors and slanderers to turn their hearts and to forgive their sins and to save their souls and to make me forgive as I desire to be forgiven and to make me desire to be forgiven as I stand in need of forgiveness and to make my waies to please thee that thou mayest make mine enemies to be at peace with me I beseech thee to hear me good Lord That it may please thee to give us all true repentance that thou mayest forgive us all our sins not only our negligences and ignorances but also our perversnesses and profanesses and to endue us with the grace of thy holy Spirit that we may lay aside our own animosities self-interests and worldly advantages and joyn together with one heart and mouth to praise thee and to glorifie thy holy Name not looking after fond pretences and fading vanities but looking for that blessed hope the glorious appearing of the great God and of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ I beseech thee to hear me good Lord. Son of God I beseech thee to hear me O Lamb of God that takest away the sins of the world take away my sins also inwhom alone there is a world of sin and grant me thy peace and have Mercy upon me O Christ hear me and as thou camest to redeem me when I was utterly lost so I beseech thee suffer me not to be lost now thou hast redeemed me Lord have Mercy upon me Christ have Mercy upon me Lord have Mercy upon me And remember me according to the favour that thou bearest unto thy people O visit me with thy salvation that I may once more if it be thy will see the felicity of thy chosen and rejoyce in the gladness of thy people and give thanks with thine inheritance through Jesus Christ our Lord Amen The sick mans Benediction BLessed be the Lord God even the God of Israel which only doth wonderous things And blessed be the Name of his Majesty for ever and all the earth shall be filled with his Majesty and my soul shall be filled and revived with his Mercy Amen Amen The Lord Jesus be within me to strengthen without me to assist before me to direct behind me to defend and protect beneath me to uphold and sustain above me to receive my soul. Let the power of the Father preserve me the wisdom of the Son guide and énlighten me the operation of the Holy-Ghost quicken and revive me in my passage through the gates of death and bring me into everlasting life The blood that ran from the wounded heart of my blessed Saviour which hath purchased for me abundance of grace in my life of comfort in my sickness and of hope in my death wash my soul from sin and from iniquity that it may be presented without spot or blemish before the righteous Judge of men and Angels in the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy-Ghost Amen The sick mans Valediction LORD I am willing to forsake all to follow thee O let me follow the Lamb whithersoever he goeth I willingly forgive all men and heartily desire all men to forgive me that though I came into this world hating my God yet I may not go out of it hating my Brother for God with whom I hope to dwell when I go from hence is love and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God and God in him 1 John 4. 16. I follow after to apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus This one thing I do forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forth to those things which are before I press toward the mark for the price of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all Amen Phil. 3. 12 13 14. The sick mans Preparation for his Departure I am now ready to be
subjecti others ratione objecti but we must here add a third excellency unknown in Philosophy yet undoubted in Christian Divinity ratione termini For the knowledge of Christ Jesus our Lord is most excellent of all others not only from the Object for that he is the brightness of his fathers glory and the express image of his person Heb. 1. 2. And from the Subject for that hâ—… is the true light which lighteth every man that cometh into the world John 1. 9. But also from the Term or end of it For this is life eternal that they might know thee the only true God and Jesus Christ whom thou hast sent Joh. 3. 17. Did they not know their own temporal Death they would not care to know thy eternal Life Did they not know the Vanity which themselves have contracted they would not so heartily desire to know the Glory which thou hast provided Did they not know themselves they would not labour to know their Saviour and yet all the world cannot shew us any knowledge like this knowledge of Christ Jesus our Lord which thus begins in Majesty goes on in Perspicuity and ends in Glory CHAP II. Tekel or weighing of our selves and of our sins SECT I. Weighing of our selves WHiles man is in the stâ—… of Nature as heâ—… under the Curse aâ—… Dominion so is he also uâ—…der the Blindness aâ—… Darkness of sin for heâ—…ing he doth hear and doth not understaâ—… and seeing he doth see and not perceiâ—… Act. 28. 16. Therefore it is necessary tâ—… the soul first weigh her self before theâ—… weigh her sins Now the soul may 〈◊〉 weigh her self in her own Ballance butâ—… the Ballance of the Sanctuary by considâ—…ing not what she is in her own but wâ—… she is in Gods account Quanti pretii est Anima cujus Redemptio est Dei Filius Of how great price is the soul of man which could not be Redeemed but by the Son of God Of how great mischief is sin unto the soul which doth make it forfeit the benefit of that Redemption I should not easily debase my soul by sin if I did but consider seriously what she is in Gods Account what she is in the Account of God the Father who created her after his own likeness what in the account of God the Son who Redeemed her with his own blood what she is in the account of God â—…he Holy Ghost who Sanctifieth her that â—…he may be sealed to the day of Redemption Eph. 4. 30. O veneranda Trinitas O adoâ—…anda Unitas per te sumus creati vera Aeâ—…ernitas per te sumus redempti summa tu Charitas This consideration will bring the soul to know the state of Grace and then she will never be at Rest till she know her self to be in that state For if the soul be â—…ot in the state of Grace and Salvation she must needs be in the state of fin and damâ—…ation A third state of souls is not Revealed may not be Phansied Holy Ignatius Determines excellently concerning this â—…oint in his Epistle to the Magnesians I say there are two several Stamps and Impressions of men some are of the True some are of the False Stamp The Godlâ—… man is of Gods own stamp true curranâ—… mony The Ungodly man is of the Devilâ—… stamp a piece of counterfeit and false coinâ—… 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Not that God made two several sorts of men in the Creation But thaâ—… the Devil hath since got a power over aâ—… wicked men by their own Election so thaâ—… the ungodly and unbelievers do now beâ—… the Image of the Prince of Darkness Thâ—… Godly and the â—…aithful do bear the Imagâ—… of God the father and of our Lord Jesuâ—… Christ. Thus far in effect S. Ignatius S. Pâ—…ters second Successor in the Bishoprick oâ—… Antioch and had from him learned thiâ—… Divinity who in his first Epistle firsâ—… Chapter and third ver Blesseth God for having begotten us again to a lively hope thereby teaching that those can have no lively hope whom God hath not begotten againâ—… The same is also Saint Pauls Divinity foâ—… the spirit of Verity is alwaies the spirit oâ—… Unity speaking indeed by several mouths but still one Truth who plainly contradistinguisheth the state of Gentiles and thâ—… state of Christians the state of Nature anâ—… the state of Grace Eph. 4. 13 17 18. So that we all either walk as Christians till we come in the Unity of the Faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God unto a perfect man unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ or we walk as Gentiles walk in the vanity of their mind having the understanding Darkned being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them because of the blindness of their heart Nor is it enough for a man to know the state of Christians in General but he must moreover labour to know his own state to be truly Christian in Particular according to that of the same Apostle 2 Cor. 13. 5. Examine your selves whether ye be in the Faith Prove your own selves know ye not your own selves how that Jesus Christ is in you except ye be Reprobates The words import a standing Relation of the soul to God as he is the giver of Life and Salvation as if he had said Examine your selves whether ye be in that Faith without which it is impossible to please God whether ye so come to God as to believe that he is and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him Heb. 11. 6. Examine your own selves whether ye be in that faith by which Christ Jesus dwelleth in you and you in him Theâ—… is no man to be excused from this Examination from this Self-tryal much less to bâ—… Exempted from it For the Apostle speaketh very Passionately concerning it anâ—… we may take this for the meaning of hâ—… speech Have you been so long called 〈◊〉 the faith of Christ and do you not yet knâ—… whether ye be truly in that Faith If you 〈◊〉 not know it then examine and prove yoâ—…selves If you do know it then examine aâ—… prove your Faith For you must know thâ—… Jesus Christ is in you or that you are in a mâ—… miserable condition such as is the conditionâ—… Reprobates not of good Christians whereby is evident that every man is bound to knoâ—… his own Spiritual state or condition whâ—…ther he be in the state of Sin or in the staâ—… of Grace whether he be in the state of Sâ—…vation or in the state of Damnation whâ—…ther he be in the state of Faith or in the staâ—… of Infidelity Nor is this knowledge gottâ—… by looking abroad but by looking at homâ—… not by searching into Gods secrets but oâ—… own So saith the Apostle Rom. 10. 6 7 8 〈◊〉 The Righteousness which is of Faith speakâ—… on this wise Say not in thine heart Who shâ—… ascend into Heaven to wit that he mâ—…
reveal to me from thence Gods will coâ—…cerning my salvation for that is to bring Christ down from above to deny that Christ is already come down from heaven of purpose to shew us the way up thither Or who shall descend into the deep to wit to rescue me from the power of death and hell that is to bring up Christ again from the dead to deny that Christ is risen from the dead and hath conquered the power of death But what saith it The word is nigh thee even in thy mouth and in thy heart That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead thou shalt be saved As if he had said What needs any man trouble himself about cuâ—…ious Questions to know whether he be in â—…he state of Salvation for that 's a thing which he can best know from his own mouth and from his own heart If his â—…eart be true to his Saviour by a lively Faith in his death and Resurrection And if his tongue be true to his heart by a â—…oyful Profession of that Faith If his Faithâ—…e â—…e agreeable to the word of Christ and his â—…fe be agreeable to his Christian faith eiâ—…er by his Innocency or by his Repentance â—…f his Inner man be true to Christ and his â—…uter man be true to his Inner man He needs neither Rove in uncertainties noâ—… Dive into Curiosities nor distract himself with Perplexities for he is undoubtedly in the state of Salvation The Spiriâ—… of God saith to a man in such a condition Thou shalt be saved Upon these Premiseâ—… of Faith and Obedience here specified bâ—… Confession it would be Unlogical anâ—… much more Untheological to deny thâ—… Conclusion the state of Salvation Thoâ—… shalt be saved And if you shall yet desire to know whether you have a trâ—… Faith or no I must tell you that as thâ—… life of the Soul is the life of the Body sâ—… Faith is the life of the Soul For Chriâ—… dwelleth in the heart by Faith Eph. 3. 17. And as life is known to be in the body bâ—… its sense and motion so also is life known tâ—… be in the Soul First by its sence for 〈◊〉 hath a feeling of its own sins and groanâ—… under the burden of them It hath a feeling of Christs merits and mercies and râ—…joyceth in the comfort thereof Secondly by its motion The Affections are the feeâ—… by which the soul moveth Hence thaâ—… saying Anima est non ubi Animat sed uâ—… Amat The soul is not where it lives bâ—… where it loves consequently the soul thaâ—… placeth its love in God hath its life in God Omnia sunt Vita in Deo quae non vivunt in seipsis saith the Angelical Dr. most Angelically All things are life in God even those things which have no life in themselves Creatures that are dead in themselves are alive in God Creatures without life are life in him Creatures that have life in themselves yet in God have a far better life Thus men in themselves have but a Momentany a Corruptible an Indigent an Inglorious life But men in God have a life of Eternity of Incorruption of Al-sufficiency and full of Glory wouldst thou then live Eternally Incorruptibly Contentedly and gloriously Go out of thy self O Devout soul and live in God Go out of thy self by thy Affections which will carry thee from earth to Heaven from thy self to thy Saviour and will make thee whiles thy body is below mount up on high Placing thy heart where thy Treasure is for Christ alone is the Treasure of Souls who alone is the Saviour and Lover of Souls even in Heaven nay in the highest part of Heaven at the right Hand of God This is the Apostles advice Col. 3. 1 2. If ye then be risen with Christ seek those things which are above where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God set your Affections on things above not on things on earth And we may very well turn this Advice into an Argument to prove that we are indeed Risen with Christ because we do seek those things which are above where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God because we do settle our affections on things above not on things of the earth but withall we must carefully observe the nature of this proof For 1. It is not a Violent but a Voluntary motion of the Affection that is herâ—… required the things above are such as wâ—… seek with Desire and find with Delight 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Quae sursum sunt qâ—…aerite seek those things which are above Noâ—… turn Seeker after mens new Phansies bâ—… after Gods old Mercies Psal. 25. 6. Thâ—… Tender mercies and thy loving kindnesses fâ—… they have been ever of old It is in the Hebrew Quia à seculo ipsae No Verb at aâ—… to signifie any Time to shew they were bâ—…fore all time from everlasting and shaâ—… continue beyond all time to everlasting 〈◊〉 is the consideration of these everlasting meâ—…cies that maketh the soul to seek after Gâ—… the father of mercies Not the Fear of heâ—… but the Love of heaven It is not a Violeâ—… but a Voluntary motion That is the first 2. Secondly Again It is not the motion of one Affection but of all for 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 set your affection is spoken Indifinitely and therefore since in a matter necessary Universally It is not some affections for God some for the World for so had wicked Balaam Num. 23. 10. saying Let me die the death of the Righteous And yet he loved the wages of Unrighteousness 2 Pet. 2. 15. But all the affectious must be for God For as a man cannot live the life of nature and have his Heart divided so much less can he live the Life of Grace Therefore all the Affections His Affections are settled Universally That is the second 3. Thirdly This motion of the soul is not without Deliberation and great Judgement For it is grounded upon the consideration and belief of Christs Resurrection If ye then be risen with Christ The consideration That Christ hath opened the Kingdom of Heaven to all believers makes him Believe The consideration That Christ sitteth on the right Hand of God in the Glory of the Father maketh him Seek those things which are above where Christ sitteth on the right Hand of God His Judgement goes before his Affection the word 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 requires no less He hath seriously computed with himself and sees there is but one Pearl of great Price unto his Soul and for that he will sell all that he hath to buy it Mat. 13. 4. 5. His Affections are settled judiciously on Christ that 's the Third 4. Fourthly and lastly This motion of the soul is not without right Order for it begins from a right Principle and therefore must needs end with a blessed conclusion He is not moved with the Fear of Gods Majesty but
ever â—…ore Almighty God and shall they â—…t be also before me they are open in 〈◊〉 sight and shall they not be so in mine that we would consider how far we have â—…t-gone David in his sin and yet how far â—…ort we come of him in his Repentance â—…r sin though it is the work of darkness â—…t may not hope to be covered or conâ—…led by it it is never invisible but alâ—…ies comes to light God sees it man himâ—…f sees it and happy is the man who sees â—…n due time for that is the only way to â—…ake God not see it but turn away his â—…es from it yet if he see it never so late CHAP. III. Peres or Dividing of our Persons SECT I. The Soul Divided from the Body while it lives by a Voluntary Separation conversing with it self and with itâ—… Saviour A GOOD man can neveâ—… want Good company soâ—… if he may not have it froâ—… his neighbour he may havâ—… it from himself Me Interrâ—…gans mihique respondent quùm solus essem tanquam Duo essemuâ—… Ratio Ego saith Saint Aust. lib. 1. Râ—…tract c. 4. Unde hoc opus Soliloquia nominavi I did Question and Answer my self as if we had been Two Reason and I whence I called that work my Solilequies And indeed a mans safest way of talking is to talk with himself so will his tongue not defile his body as Saint James complains but purge his Soul not set on fire the course of nature but thirst after the welsprings of Grace not it self be set on fire from Hell but inflame the soul with the love desire of Heaven He that talks most with himself is like to answer for himself For the right Judgement of things is made by the Conscience which looks not on Time but on Eternity The soul must Answer by it self alone without the body â—…nd therefore had need consult with it self â—…lone about its Answer not admit the flesh â—…nto consultation which will deprave the â—…udgement and cannot rectifie it Mundus â—…egacosmus intrat in microcosmum i. e. 〈◊〉 Animam scil Bonam in itinerario menâ—…is This Great world was made to enter inâ—… man the Lesser world for the soul is â—…ble to receive it all and yet still must â—…ontinue empty But man himself was â—…ade to enter into a better world Enter â—…ou into thy Masters Joy Mat 25. 23. â—…he world above is too big to enter into â—…s we must enter into it Therefore it is better to know this world then to love because by knowledge this world enteâ—… into us but it is better to love the woâ—… above then to know it because by loâ—… we enter into that world And surely is like to have the happiest entrance tâ—… soonest knocketh at the door For soâ—… there will be who will say Lord Lâ—… open unto us who will have this answer 〈◊〉 rily I say unto you I know you not Mat. 〈◊〉 11 12. Wherefore it is necessary that tâ—… soul be divided from the body even whâ—… it dwels in it that so it may by a voluntaâ—… both prevent and facilitate its violent seâ—… ration For if she be accustomed to the oâ—… she will never fear the other Thuâ—… may be a Separatist and be no Schisâ—… tick by Separating from my self but 〈◊〉 from my brethren The Jews phaâ—… much of Gods speaking with his own Jâ—… cial house and when they find him speâ—… ing in the plural number not knowâ—… the mysterie of the Trinity or not caâ—… to acknowledge it do only tell us he is 〈◊〉 sulting with his own Judgement 〈◊〉 Solomon Jarchi on Cantic 8. v. 5. 〈◊〉 How much more ought man to conâ—… with his own soul that by so doing heâ—… also consult with God For the soul more it descends into it self the more it ascends unto its Saviour God alone haveing the Priviledge to be within the Soul as the Soul alone hath the priviledge to be within the body Therefore let me have frequent Colloquies with mine own soul that I may have frequent Colloquies with my Saviour my Colloquies with my self will wean me from the love of earth my Colloquies with my Saviour will make me in love with heaven my Colloquies with my self will shew me the Vanities of the world the Infirmities of the flesh the Malice of the Devil and the sight of these will make me say with the Psalmist O that I had wings like a Dove then would I flee away and be at Rest Psal. 55. 6. When the spirit of a Dove will not give me Rest such may be the wickedness of men yet the wings of a Dove will give it me such is the goodness of God when condescending to man by patience and meekness will not then ascending to God by prayer and meditation will give Peace and Rest unto my soul. My Colloquies with my Saviour will shew me his Al-sufficient merits His Almighty power His Al-saving mercy And the first of these will make me Abandon the worlds Vanity that I may retire to his Al-sufficiency he hath ascribed sufficiency to his Grace 2 Cor. 12. But he hath reserved the Al-sufficiency to himself The second will make me acknowledge mine own Infirmity that I may rely on his Omnipotency as saith the Apostle most gladly will I glory in mine Infirmities that the Power of Christ may rest upon me 2 Cor. 12. 9. For if the power of Christ rest on me sure I cannot but have rest in it The third will make me not fear the Devils malice whiles I place my whole trust and confidence in my Saviours everlasting and Al-saving meâ—…cies For blessed be his undeserved goodness I have a Saviour who is able and willing to save a Jesus whose name is salvation whose presence is salvation whose work is salvation they are all three Joyned together John 11. 21 Then said Martha unto Jesus Lord if thou hadst been here my brother had not dyed He is Jesus there 's Salvation in his name thou shalt call his name Jesus for he shall save his people from their sins Mat. 1. 21. If thou hadst heen here there 's Salvation in his presence My brother had not dyed there 's salvation in his work therefore must my soul be alwaies neer my Saviour that it may never be far from his Salvation It must converse with him and therefore it must be united to him by the spiritual and blessed Union which is wrought by Faith by Hope by Charity For without this Union I may not hope for that Conversation The Union or Conjunction of the soul with Christ by Faith is expressed and in that required Eph. 3. 17. That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith Not in your Heads by Phansie but in your Hearts by Faith not float in your Brains but sink down into your Breasts Wherefore let me be sure to cherish in my soul this heavenly gift of Faith by refraining my mind from vain Curiosities and bringing into captivity every thought to the Obedience
of Christ 2 Cor. 10. 5. and by cleansing and purging my will and affections for true faith is in the will no less then in the understanding from all filthiness of the flesh and of the spirit perfecting holiness in the fear of God 2 Cor. 7. 1. For Impiety doth directly dispose the soul to Infidelity And they that are men of corrupt minds though of never so clear Judgements are also reprobate concerning the Faith 2 Tim. 3. 8. The Union of the soul with Christ by hope is expressed and withal required Isa. 26. 3. Thou wilt keep him in perfect Peace Heb. Peace Peace the peace of a Good Conscience here of a blessed eternity hereafter whose mind is staid on thee because he trusteth in thee v. 4. Trust ye in the Lord for ever for in the Lord Iehovah is everlasting strength God takes it for an honour to be trusted he that most trusts him most honours him and he that least honours him least trusts him Offer the sacrifices of Righteousness and put your trust in the Lord Psal. 4. 5. He that offers not the sacrifice cannot have the trust For he that doth not think it sit to honour him cannot think it safe to trust him therefore let my hope in Christ be such as becometh a Christian and much more such as becometh Christ such as becometh a Christian not provoking him whiles I trust him much more such as becomethChrist trusting him with what he cares to be trusted that is my soul and for what is worth his trust that is my Salvation The Union or Conjunction of the soul with Christ by Charity is expressed and in that required 1 John 4. 16. And we have known and believed the Love that God hath to us God is love and he that dwelleth 〈◊〉 love dwelleth in God and God in him here we must observe that the soul is uniâ—…ed unto Christ not by every kind of love â—…ut by a Right a Great a Firm love a right â—…ove which loves him before all things for 〈◊〉 loves him upon this ground because he â—…oved us first We have known and believed â—…he love which God hath to us A great love which loves him above all things so that â—…he soul wills not for it self but for God â—…ares not to know any thing but by him â—…or desire any thing but for him nor do â—…ny thing but with him nay yet more â—…ares not to live or move or have any being â—…ut in him and to him alone He that truâ—…y Loves dwells not where he lives â—…ut where he Loves He dwelleth in Love Thirdly and lastly a Firm Love which loves God beyond all things by a â—…ove that hath an everlasting continuance 〈◊〉 love not capable of being corrupted and therefore not of being interrupted For where the love of God is without corruption as in Heaven it is also without Interruption where it is a pure love there it is also an Everlasting Love A love so desiring an Union as to be fully resolved against a separation He that dwells in Gods love will not endure the thought oâ—… being put out of his dwelling And He thaâ—… dwelleth in love dwelleth in God and God iâ—… him Excellent is the Rule of the Casuistâ—… Spiritale bonum divinum consistere in Amicitia inter Deum Hominem ac per hoc iâ—… consentire conversari convivere colloqâ—… cum Deo Cajetane in summula verbâ—… Acedia The Spiritual good of man oâ—… the blessing of the Soul consists in this thâ—… a man hath friendship with God and consequently that he lives for him to him witâ—… him in him Lives for him by consent tâ—… him by conversation with him by cohabitation in him by contentation And this iâ—… the friendship that the good Christian hath with Christ whiles he converseth with him or rather is united to him by Faith Hope and Charity For according to Aristotles rule 8. Eth. c. 5. there may be 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 but not 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 There may be Good will in those that live far asunder but Friendship only in those that live together 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 An habitual not an Actual Friendship And he proves it by this Proverb 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 That the neglect oâ—… want of Friendly salutes and compellations hath dissolved many mens Friendships So is it also in this Spiritual Friendship he that will have Christ for his friend must be sure constantly to live with him wholly to rely on him and daily to call upon him for want of friendly compellations hath made many lose his friendship first falling into a strangeness then into a sullenness and at last into a plain dislike and discontent with their Devotions which makes them not care to have their conversation where they do not expect to have their contentment Wherefore above all things O my soul never let go the exercise of thy Faith Hope and Charity that thou maist never let go thy Saviour Thy faith will best exercise it self about his bitter passion thou wilt see him in the garden sweating blood Thou wilt see him on the Cross dropping blood with his feet nailed fast to stay for thee with his hands stretched out to embrace thee with his Head bowed down to hear thee with his side ready open to receive thee This will be the best exercise of thy faith that God having already punished thy sins in his own beloved Son will not in mercy cannot in justice punish them again in thee his most unworthy servant Hence will thy heart be filled with compassion for his sufferings and much more with compunction for thy sins Hence will thy mouth be filled with Thanksgivings to him for suffering and thy whole Life with a blessed conformity to his sufferings Knowing it is a faithfull saying For if we be dead with him we shall also live with him If we suffer we shall also reign with him 2 Tim. 2. 11 12. Thy hope will best exercise it self about his powerfull Resurrection Thou wilt there see a great Earthquake and a great Man-quake Thou wilâ—… there see a great Earth-quake which opened the Graves so that many of the bodiâ—… of the Saints which slept arose Mat. 27. 53â—… And That Earthquake will much more open thy Heart to let into it thâ—… Blessed Hope that is full of Immortality no less full of comfort the hope of a glorious Resurrection of thy body to the lifâ—… everlasting Thou wilt there also see a greaâ—… Manquake the keepers of the sepulchreâ—… the Roman Souldiers trembling and shaking for fear of the Angel though pooâ—… mercenary Souls they were soon afteâ—… bought out of their Fright and as sooâ—… bought out of their Faith A little paâ—… more then ordinary made them forgâ—…â—…eir Fright and forgo their Faith It madâ—… them turn Preachers though it kept them â—…rom turning Christians but their Doâ—…trine was accordingly fit for Mammons Chaplains fit for money Preachers It was â—…he denying of Christs resurrection
Saviour I get into his Mystical Body and by keeping my hold I continue in it The Syriack translation instead of Confidence here saith The uncovering of the face to shew that there is not left in the true Believer the conscience of any one sin unrepented or unsatisfied through the All-sufficiency of his Saviours satisfaction which may make him cover his face either out of shame or out of fear to look upon God either out of shame because of his own unworthiness for by faith he hath his Saviours worthiness to make him confident or out of fear because of Gods unplacableness for by hope he hath a cause to rejoyce not to fear therefore it is said The rejoycing of our hope And the same Apostle moreover gives the reason of this saying Chap. 4. v. 15 16. For we have not an high-Priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities but was in all points tempted like as we are yet without sin Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need What is the hope that we can rejoyce in but the hope of Eternal Life And we have this hope because we have a great high-Priest that is passed into the heavens Jesus the Son of God v. 14. He is passed in before us to make way for us to follow after him Nor ought we to be dismayed at our infirmities since he is touched with the feeling of them for himself was tempted to strengthen us in our temptations that in his strength we should encounter them and by his strength should overcome them Let us therefore come boldly to the Throne of Grace c. Wherein we have set forth the manner and the reason of our going unto God The manner it must be with a holy confidence in the righteousness of our high-Priest Let us come boldly The reason is two-fold the first concerns our God because he hath erected a Throne of Grace to pardon us not of Judgement to condemn us unto the Throne of grace The second concerns our selves That we may obtain mercy and find grace to help us in time of need What help so welcome as that which helps in time of need What time of need so much wants help as that wherein we can neither help our selves nor have any else to help us the Hour of Death and the Day of Judgement In this time of need it is that our high-Priest doth chiefly help us he will make intercession for us when we shall not be able to speak for our selves at the hour of death he will make answer for us when we shall not be able to answer for our selves at the day of Judgement What though the Devils will then busily accuse me as long as his righteousness shall be interposed in answer for me what if my conscience doth condemn me as long as his satisfaction doth acquit me Why should not my soul joyfully say I will go forth even out of my body in the strength of the Lord God and will mention thy Righteousness only Psal. 71. 16. Though I dare not go forth in mine own strength for fear I should fail in my journey or miscarry at my journeys end yet I dare go forth in his strength Though I dare not mention mine own Righteousness at the Bar of Gods Justice yet I dare mention my Saviours Righteousness I will make mention of thy Righteousness even of thine only Having therefore boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus by a new and living way which he hath consecrated for us through the Vail that is to say his Flesh and having an high-Priest over the House of God let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of Faith Heb. 10. 19. Here are three singular benefits that all they have who have Communion with Christ to assure them of their entrance into heaven when they depart from the earth The first is That the door is opened unto them and they have such a right to enter as cannot be doubted must not be denyed Having boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus The second is That the way which leadeth thither is a safe way keeping all from death that walk in it A new and lively way And also A ready way such as they may hope to walk in notwithstanding their infirmities because he hath made it plain for them for he hath consecrated it for us through his flesh The third is That the House whither they are to go is wholly disposed and ordered by their high Priest who both guides them in the way and is ready to receive them at their journeys end Having an high-Priest over the House of God These being the Premises That the door is open and we have a right to enter that the way is both safe and plain that the House whither we desire to go is wholly ordered by our own high-Priest who guides us thither and is ready to receive us there what else can be the conclusion but comfort and confidence what have we else to do but to draw near with a true heart in full assurance of Faith A true heart that is true to its Saviour by believing in full assurance of faith that is true to it self by drawing near according to that belief And surely the Apostles invitation is as urgent for us to draw near to the Church Triumphant as to the Church Militant because all power is given to our Saviour Christ as well in heaven as in earth Mat. 28. 18. He hath power over the House of God in heaven as well as over the House of God in earth And where he hath power of the House we need not be afraid to enter For as he hath made the passage for us to pass from the bondage of sin and Satan to come into his Kingdom of Grace So much more hath he made the passage for us to pass from his Kingdom of Grace to come to his Kingdom of Glory And if we have already passed from Death to Life much more shall we pass from Life to everlasting Life If we have already passed from Nature to Grace much more shall we pass from Grace to Glory For the distance betwixt Nature and Grace is much greater and harder to be passed then the distance betwixt Grace and Glory for nature scarce affords a capacity of Grace but grace is the very Inchoation of Glory Profitable If thou wilt not help us for our miseries which we have deserved yet help us for thy mercies which thou hast promised For thy Goodness is more willing to forgive then thy power is to punish And thy blood cryeth much lowder for pardon and forgiveness then our sins can cry for punishment Thou hast not yet forgiven so much as thou hast promised and thou hast not promised so much as thou hast purchased One drop of thy blood had been a full and sufficient satisfaction for the
all those present miseries of my life which thou hast already sanctified in that thou hast born them and all those possible horrours of my death which thou hast already conquered in that they durst assail thee to bear them That I who of my self am in death even in the midst of life may through thee my blessed Saviour find life in the midst of death and glory after it to glorifie thee who art the Lord of death and the Giver of life Amen 23. O holy Jesus thou only Redeemer of souls who by ' thy death hast overcome death and opened unto us the gate of everlasting life I most humbly beseech thee that as by thy special grace preventing me thou dost put into my mind good desires of departing hence and of being with thee so by thy continual help I may bring the same to good effect and at last joyfully depart in thy peace for that mine eyes have seen thy salvation my heart hath believed it and my soul goeth hence to enjoy it and with it thee my blessed Redeemer who with the eternal Spirit art most high in the glory of the Father one God everlasting Amen 24. O thou who layedst down thy life for my Redemption make me ready to lay down my life at thy command Teach me more and more to despise the Treasures and the Pleasures of this world which have in them a double vanity that they are transitory that they are not satisfactory As they cannot give me true content whiles I possess them because they are not satisfactory so let them not create in me any discontent when I must have them because they are but transitory O make me lay up for my self a stock of Treasure and of Pleasure in heaven by 〈◊〉 true and lively faith working zealously â—…or thee relying wholly on thee and â—…onging earnestly after thee for ever 25. Lord where is my Treasure but only in him that bought me who is my everlasting Portion that only God could give me and men cannot take from me And where should my heart be but where my Treasure is even in heaven and heavenly things I will therefore from henceforth live by the faith of the Son of God who died for me and gave himself for me And living by that faith though I may dwell on earth yet I shall live in heaven nay in the uppermost part of heaven even at the right hand of God there will I live alwaies with thee O my blessed Redeemer adoring thy Excellency reverencing thy Majesty loving thine Authority enamoured with thy Perfections and joyfully depending on thy Mercy That though my continuance be still with men yet my conversation may be with thee my God and Saviour by love earnestly longing for thee by hope wholly trusting on thee by desires stedfastly cleaving to thee and by delight alwaies rejoycing in thee So shall my soul when it departs out of this earthly Tabernacle be received into thine everlasting habitations there to bless and enjoy thee who with the Father and the Holy-Ghost livest and reignest one God world without end Amen 26. O Lord who hast called to thee all those that travel and are heavy laden and hast promised to give them rest have mercy upon me thy distressed servant who now am in a restless condition what ease and repose thou denyest unto my body I beseech thee give unto my soul that though my flesh doth not enjoy the sweet and comfortable rest of sleep yet my spirit may enjoy that everlasting rest and repose which is alwaies to be found in thee O grant that a promise being left me of entering into thy rest I may not come short of it through my unbelief but that by going out of my self and living in thee I may forthwith enter into that internal rest which is to be enjoyed here in the presence of thy grace and may continue and abide therein till I shall come to that eternal rest which is not to be expected till hereafter nor to be enjoyed but only in the presence of thy glory 27. O Lord God the God of my salvation teach me to cry day and night before thee that so thou mayest still save me and let my prayer enter in whither I am not worthy to enter even into thy presence Incline thine ear unto my calling since thou hast inclined my heart to call upon thee for my soul is full of trouble and my life draweth nigh unto hell But draw thou nigh unto my soul I shall be delivered from all my troubles and though thou hast put my lovers my friends away from me and hid mine acquaintance out of my sight yet let me ever see the light of thy countenance and I shall not be troubled for not seeing them and make me rejoyce in thine everlasting love and I shall find no want of my other friends lovers 28. O Lord I cannot deny but that having been at enmity with thee I deserve to be cloathed with shame and covered with mine own confusion as with a Cloak But O cloath me with thy Sons righteousness and therewith cover my shame and my confusion I am unworthy in my self to pray for mercy for Judas-like I have betrayed my Saviour O make me worthy in his blood not only to pray for it but also to obtain it 29. O Lord my foot hath often slipped but thy mercy hath hitherto held me up that I have not fallen into the pit of destruction Let thy Mercy O Lord still hold me up and in the multitude of sorrows that I have or shall have in my heart by reason of my sins let thy comforts evermore refresh my soul For thou makest me find trouble and heaviness that I may call upon thy Name and I do call upon thy Name that thou mayest deliver my soul O Lord I beseech thee deliver my soul from death mine eyes from tears and my feet from falling that I may walk before thee in the Land of the living That I may walk carefully and conscionably before thee because thou seest all things That I may walk reverently before thee because thou rulest all things That I may walk thankfully before thee because thou givest all things That I may walk comfortably before thee because thou savest all things and wilt in mercy save me O let me so walk before thee here in this world as one that hath a hope to live with thee hereafter in the world to come Let my soul awake from the sleep of sin to give glory to thee because I trust that when I shall awake from the sleep of death I shall receive glory from thee 30. O thou worthy Judge-Eternal I tremble at the very thought of thy Judgement and how then shall I tremble at the sight of my Judge For mine own mouth doth most grievously accuse me and mine own heart doth most impartially condemn me and mine own conscience cannot but set its seal to the justness of my condemnation But I believe that thou
thoughts that I may often feel the influence of thy mercy in heavenly joyes I have many sad and dismal sorrows from my self O give unto me true comfort in my Saviour let my trouble be in the day when thou wilt hear me and not in the day when thou wilt Judge me There is no trust but may deceive me save only my trust in thee there is nothing in which I may not miscarry but only thy Mercy O Lord let my trust be so in thee that though I have miscarried in all the desires and designs and delights of this world yet I may not miscarry in thy Mercy but may have the joyes and delights of the world to come through Jesus Christ our Lord Amen 37. Be thou exalted Lord in thine owâ—… strength so will I sing and praise thâ—… power Thy strength is that whicâ—… strengthens souls and thou lovest to shew thy strength in our weakness Lord let thy strength be made perfect in my weakness so shall I most gladly rather glory then repine in my infirmities whiles the power of Christ doth-rest upon me and my soul doth rest upon thee and thy Mercies in Jesus Christ. 38. O Lord who forgivest the sins of the penitent and coverest those sins which thou forgivest I beseech thee to accept my repentance and to cover all those sins which I desire thee to forgive That I may have the blessing of him whose unrighteousness is forgiven and whose sin is covered For if my sins should be all discovered to my self they would fill me with fear if they should be discovered to others they would fill me with shame And how wilt thou discover them either to my fear or to my shame since thou canst not forgive them unless thou cover them O then be pleased so to cover my sins here as not to discover them again hereafter so to hide my transgressions in the day of thy Mercy as not to lay them open in the day of Wrath Or if thy Justice shall require that all my sins be revealed in the day of the revelation of thy righteous Judgement let the atonement also for my sins be then revealed which I have laboured to make and thou hast promised to accept through the Merits and satisfaction of thy Son and our Saviour Jesus Christ. 39. O thou who art gracious and righteous and in thy righteousness teachest the upright the way of innocency and by thy grace leadest sinners in the way of repentance Have mercy upon me thy most unworthy servant and grant that my great defects and wants of the first righteousness that of Innocency may be supplyed by the fulness of the second righteousness that of Faith and Repentance And make mine eyes look so diligently to thee that I may never again want care in looking to my self Order my steps in thy Word and so shall no wickedness have dominion over me Order my heart in thy Faith and so shall I have dominion over all my wickedness for though my fears shall force me to say O wretched man that I am who shall deliver me from the body of this death yet my Faith will be able to suppress that saying and suggest unto me this heavenly comfort and triumph I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. 40. O Lord I am in the midst of many troubles and sorrows by reason of my sufferings and much more by reason of my sins but thou hast promised that the righteous shall rejoyce in the Lord and put his trust in him and all they that are true of heart shall be glad Psal. 64. 10. O then make me true of heart that I may trust in thee and be truly righteous And give unto me true righteousness that thou mayst give unto me true joy There is no true righteousness but the righteousness of thy Son There is no true joy but the joy of thy Spirit O thou Father of Mercy give unto me the righteousness of God the Son my Redeemer that thou mayst give me the joy of God the Holy-Ghost my Comforter to be with me and to remain in me for evermore 41. O Lord thou hast brought upon me so much misery that I cannot love my condition And I have so much sin that I cannot love my self Wherefore I beseech thee to fix my love wholly upon thee that my soul may thirst for thee and my flesh also may long after thee in this barren and dry Land where no water is either to cleanse or to refresh or to revive me That looking for thee in holiness I may behold thy power and glory For my soul cannot truly thirst for thee till my flesh also long after thee since whiles my flesh is in love with the profits and pleasures of this life my spirit cannot but lose the desire and neglect the pursuit of the life everlasting O Lord thou hast taken away from me most of the profits and all the pleasures of this life O take from me also the love of it That I may not fear to lose that life which I do not love nor love that life which I am sure to lose but let me so love thee as to live in thee that I may not fear the loss either of my life or of my love 42. O Lord I am assaulted by vexations without and by temptations within and to whom should I flie for succour but only to thee who art not so displeased for my sins but that thou wilt be appeased by my repentance O give unto me that repentance which thou wilt accept and take from me that displeasure which I so fear Thou canst defend me with thy favourable kindness as with a Shield O Lord I ask no other defence but only this defence of thy Mercy to defend me from my self and all my sinfulness to defend me from thy wrath and from all the punishments of my sins Though thou leave me destitute of all other defence yet let thy loving-kindness evermore defend me according to that eternal love wherewith thou hast loved me in the Son of thy love our blessed Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. 43. O Lord thou hast hitherto guided me by thy counsel and thou wilt hereafter receive me with glory Therefore have I none in heaven but thee because none else can receive me with glory and there is none upon earth that I desire in comparison of thee because none else can guide me with true counsel O Lord pardon my strayings from thy directions as thou hast been my guide that thou mayst receive me into thine habitation and be my glory for Jesus sake Amen 44. O Lord make my soul willing to depart and go from hence because it here dwells among the enemies of my peace even among mine own sins and fears which disturb the peace of a good conscience here and threaten to destroy the peace of a blessed eternity hereafter Make me to long for that blessed minute which will restore to me perfect innocency and will transmit me into everlasting peace
even that peace of God which passeth all that I do understand and will fullfill all that I can desire Lord now lettest thou thy servant depart to this peace that thou mayest at once deliver me from all my troubles for his sake who hath shed his precious blood to purchase this peace for me Jesus Christ the only righteous Amen 45. Lord give unto me an earnest repentance to cleanse and purge my soul from dead works that thou mayest give unto me a true and lively faith to settle and establish my soul in the light of life That acknowledging and bewailing mine own demerits and unrighteousness I may by the Merits and Righteousness of my blessed Redeemer obtain remission of all my sins whereof I now stand guilty before thy Judgement-seat and the assurance of that remission sealed unto my conscience by the testimony of thy holy Spirit that I may not be terrified with the thought of death being delivered from the terrours of Judgement and having that righteousness interposed in answer for me which cannot but answer all the accusations of the Devils and all the attestations and convictions of mine own conscience O my blessed Advocate do thou come to plead for me and then come Lord Jesus come quickly Amen 46. Lord make me daily more and more to see the manifold miseries of my pilgrimage whereby I am a stranger to eternity and a so journer with vanity burdened and clogged with a heavy weight of flesh and a far heavyer weight of sin That I may heartily pray to be delivered from all those burdens and miseries and not be afraid least thou shouldst hear my prayer but that my soul providing to return into her own Countrey may accordingly have longings and earnest desires after the Land of Promise and after the heavenly Jerusalem and after thee my God who there livest and reignest world without end Amen 47. Lord make me patiently to undergo this punishment of my body but earnestly to long for the deliverance of my soul Make me thankful for that small ease and refreshment thou givest me on earth but much more for the eternal rest thou hast provided for me in heaven grant that though I have affliction in the world yet I may have peace in thee and may rejoyce in that peace for thou hast overcome the world grant that though I am weak in my body yet I may be strong in my soul for thou art the strength of souls grant that though I find pain and anguish in my flesh yet I may find joy and comfort in my spirit for thou art the God of spirits grant that I may not look on thy hand scourging me with an evil eye whiles I believe that the thoughts which thou thinkest towards me are thoughts of peace and not of evil and that though thou givest me a sad beginning yet thou wilt give me an expected end Jer. 29. 11. 48. I will bear the indignation of the Lord because I have sinned against him and I may well bear it patiently nay rather take it thankfully since it is his great goodness to punish temporally that he may spare eternally For he will at last plead my cause and execute Judgement for me he will at length bring me forth to light out of this dismal darkness and I shall behold his righteousness and he will not behold mine unrighteousness Then shall I say with great joy Who is a God like unto thee that pardoneth iniquities and passeth by transgressions and retaineth not his anger for ever because he delighteth in Mercy Therefore he will turn again he will have compassion upon me he will subdue mine iniquities before he suffer death to subdue me and he will cast all my sins into the depth of the Sea before he will cast me into the deep of the earth Mich. 7. v. 9 18 19. 49. Art thou not from everlasting O Lord my God mine holy One and I but only of yesterday and for a moment I shall not die whiles thou art my Resurrection and my Life O Lord thou hast ordained these pains and sicknesses for Judgement and O mighty God thou hast established them for correction O Lord let them prove so to me as Judgements to advise me and as Chastisements to amend me for thou art of purer eyes then to behold evil and therefore sure of purer hands then to embrace it and thou canst not look on iniquity therefore sure wilt not encourage it O then let this thy visitation so purge away all evil and iniquity from me that thou mayest both encourage my soul in my life and embrace it at my death Hab. 1. 50. O thou the high and lofty one that inhabitest eternity whose Name is Holy thou that dwellest in the high and lofty place but with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit to revive the spirit of the humble and to revive the heart of the contrite one be pleased to look upon the great humiliations of my body and the unfeigned contritions of my soul That thou mayst dwell with me and I may be revived in the spirit whiles I am daily put to death in the flesh And do not contend for ever neither be thou alwaies wrath least my spirit should fail before thee and the soul which thou hast made for the iniquity of my conversation thou wast wrath and smotest me but for the abundance of thine own mercies heal me and restore comforts to me and to my mourners and give unto me true joy and peace in Jesus Christ our Lord Isaiah 57. 15 c. 51. O Lord I have been long cloathed with filthy garmens even by the corruptions and pollutions of the flesh And Satan is standing at my right hand ready to tempt me here and to accuse and torment me hereafter But O Lord I beseech thee to say unto Satan The Lord rebuke thee O Satan even the Lord that hath chosen his servant rebuke thee And take away the filthy garments from me and say unto me behold I have caused thine iniquity to pass from thee and I will cloath thee with change of rayment even with the wedding-garment the righteousness of that immaculate Lamb the Lord Jesus Christ so shall I appear before thee with comfort stand before thee with confidence and remain before thee with joy for evermore Zach. 3. 52. O Lord thou hast left me a Promise of entering into thy Rest O let me not come short of it and not enter into it But since I have a great high-Priest that is passed into the heavens Jesus the Son of God an high-Priest touched with the feeling of my infirmities let me through him come boldly to the Throne of grace that I may obtain Mercy and find Grace to help in time of need Heb. 4. 53. O Lord my strength and my fortress and my refuge in the day of affliction I desire to come unto thee from the ends of the earth where I have inherited lyes and vanity and things wherein there is
take heed he forsake not thee Wonder not then if you find many of Samuels words that is much of the Churches dictates in these Devotions but know it is because God hath taught Samuel to pray that he might teach you And having taught you to pray by Samuels Devotions may perchance not hear your prayers eveâ—… as he accepted not Sauls offering out oâ—… Samuels Communion However you may certainly by this gleaning of some few grapes see what store of good wine was and is in thâ—… whole Vintage And I hope you will noâ—… have good wine only to see and to look upon but also to tast and to make good use of it Or confess it is your own wilfulness thaâ—… you I will not say your prayers are either Faint or Dry for not tasting it The sick mans confession of his sins I Confess unto thee O Lord God Almighty and most merciful Father that I have sinned against heaven and against thee and am not worthy to be called thy Son nor to have any portion in thine inheritance because I have been hitherto so unthankful for thy Mercy so unreverent towards thy Majesty and so undutiful to thine Authority wherefore innumerable troubles are most justly come upon me and my sins have taken such hold of me that I am not able to look up yea they are more in number then the hairs of my head and my heart hath failed me But O Lord let it be thy pleasure to deliver me make hast O Lord to help me and comfort the soul of thy distressed servant for unto thee O Lord do I lift up my soul gasping for that Mercy and Forgiveness which thou hast promised to Repentant-sinners for the Merits of thy dearly beloved Son Jesus Christ our Lord Amen Or this Almighty God Father of our Lord Jesus Christ Maker of all things Judge of all men I acknowledge and bewail my manifold sins and wickedness which I from time to time most grievously have committed by thought word and deed against thy Divine Majesty provoking most justly thy wrath and indignation against me I do earnestly repent and am heartily sorry for these my mis-doings the remembrance of them is grievous unto me the burthen of them is intollerable Have Mercy upon me have Mercy upon me most merciful Father for thy Son our Lord Jesus Christs sake forgive me all that is past and grant that I may ever hereafter serve and please thee in the newness of my life or in the contentedness and patience of my death to the honour and glory of thy Name through Jesus Christ our Lord Amen The sick mans Absolution or Remission of sins to be pronounced by himself alone when he cannot have the benefit of a Minister to absolve him HAve mercy upon me O God after thy great goodness and according to the multitude of thy mercies do away mine offences wash me throughly from my wickedness and cleanse me from my sins and absolve me from the guiltiness of all my transgressions according to the Promise of Mercy by thy Word the Purchase of Mercy by thy Son and the Pledges of Mercy by thy holy Spirit made and given to Repentant-sinners in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy-Ghost Amen Or this Almighty God our heavenly Father who of his great Mercy hath promised forgiveness of sins to all them which with hearty repentance and true faith turn unto him have Mercy upon me pardon and deliver me from all my sins confirm and strengthen me in all goodness and bring me to everlasting life through Jesus Christ our Lord Amen Then likewise he shall say O Lord open my heart that thou mayest open my lips O Lord open my lips and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise O God make speed to save me O Lord make hast to help me That I may with a thankful heart and with a chearful voice sing and say unto thee Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy-Ghost As it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be world without end Amen Praise ye the Lord I praise the Lord. The sick mans Psalm Psal. 6. 1. O Lord rebuke me not in thine indignation neither chasten me in thy displeasure 2. Have Mercy upon me O Lord for I am weak O Lord heal me for my bones are vexed 3. My soul is also sore troubled but Lord how long wilt thou punish me 4. Turn thee O Lord and deliver my soul O save me for thy Mercies sake 5. For in death no man remembereth thee and who will give thee thanks in the pit 6. I am weary of my groaning every night wash I my bed and water my couch with my tears 7. My beauty is gone for very trouble and worn away because of all mine enemies 8. Away from me all ye that work vanity for the Lord hath heard the voice of my weeping 9. The Lord hath heard my Petition the Lord will receive my Prayer 10. All mine enemies shall be confounded and sore vexed they shall be turned back and put to shame suddenly Glory be to the Father c. As it was in the beginning c. The sick mans first lesson Job 19. 25 c. I Know that my Redeemer liveth and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth And though after my skin worms destroy this body yet in my flesh shall I see God whom I shall see for my self and mine eyes shall behold and not another though my reins be consumed within me His first Canticle I praise thee O God I acknowledge thee to be the Lord. O praise our God ye people and make the voice of his praise to be heard Which holdeth our soul in life and suffereth not our feet to slip I will go into thy house with burnt-offerings and will pay thee my vows which I promised with my lips and spake with my mouth when I was in trouble O come hither and hearken all ye that fear God and I will tell you what he hath done for my soul. I called unto him with my mouth and gave him praises with my tongue If I encline unto wickedness with my heart the Lord will not hear me But God hath heard me and considered the voice of my prayer Praised be God which hath not cast out my prayer nor turned his Mercy from me Praise the Lord O my soul and all that is within me praise his holy Name Which forgiveth all thy sin and healeth all thine infirmities Which saveth thy life from destruction and crowneth thee with Mercy and loving-kindness Praise the Lord O my soul whiles I live will I praise the Lord yea as long as I have any being I will sing praises unto my God Lord make me so to praise thee here whiles it is my duty that I may exactly know how to praise thee hereafter when it shall be my reward For therefore with Angels and Arch-angels and with all the company of heaven do I now laud