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see_v what_o god_n in_o his_o word_n say_v to_o such_o isa_n 50.10_o who_o be_v among_o you_o that_o fear_v the_o lord_n that_o â—eyeth_v the_o voice_n of_o his_o servant_n that_o walk_v 〈◊〉_d darkness_n and_o have_v no_o light_n let_v he_o â—ust_z in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o stay_v upon_o â—…s_n god_n here_o be_v a_o certain_a remedy_n for_o nose_n that_o be_v in_o darkness_n to_o stay_v upon_o their_o god_n and_o here_o be_v a_o duty_n that_o god_n require_v even_o in_o a_o dark_a state_n to_o trust_v in_o his_o name_n second_o they_o may_v be_v as_o to_o their_o own_o apprehension_n in_o a_o very_a hopeless_a and_o helpless_a condition_n but_o yet_o even_o then_o there_o be_v both_o hope_n and_o help_v for_o they_o by_o look_v towards_o the_o holy_a temple_n that_o be_v by_o look_v to_o christ_n and_o believe_v what_o he_o be_v and_o what_o he_o say_v oh_o hear_v that_o sweet_a word_n flow_v from_o his_o lip_n luke_n 4.18_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v upon_o 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be_v through_o a_o great_a mistake_n there_o may_v be_v a_o bless_a work_n a_o glorious_a work_n begin_v and_o yet_o you_o not_o at_o present_a sensible_a of_o it_o four_o they_o may_v be_v in_o their_o own_o thought_n without_o the_o inâ—â—…ential_a motion_n of_o god_n spirit_n and_o hence_o they_o be_v day_n and_o night_n mourning_n though_o still_o preserve_v and_o not_o consume_v as_o the_o build_v be_v exod._n 3.3_o oh_o how_o many_o do_v look_v upon_o themselves_o in_o no_o better_a a_o condition_n than_o those_o dry_a bone_n which_o god_n show_v the_o prophet_n and_o ask_v he_o whether_o they_o can_v live_v ezek._n 37.3_o 4._o but_o as_o these_o bone_n the_o forsake_a jew_n will_v live_v when_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n blow_v upon_o they_o so_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v at_o present_a dry_a and_o without_o sap_n and_o therefore_o be_v mourn_v in_o secret_a and_o cry_v out_o bitter_o because_o of_o their_o desolate_a state_n shall_v most_o certain_o if_o they_o 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manner_n in_o never_o so_o retire_v a_o place_n but_o be_v naked_a and_o open_a unto_o god_n christ_n tell_v nathaniel_n john_n 1.48_o when_o thou_o be_v under_o the_o figtree_n i_o see_v thou_o ah_o when_o any_o poor_a creature_n be_v weep_v lament_v and_o bemoan_v himself_o in_o holes_n and_o corner_n even_o then_o and_o there_o god_n see_v he_o second_o oh_o then_o this_o state_n be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n which_o must_v be_v submit_v to_o be_v there_o any_o evil_n in_o the_o city_n and_o the_o lord_n have_v not_o do_v it_o jonah_n be_v in_o the_o whale_n belly_n be_v the_o act_n of_o god_n god_n put_v he_o there_o so_o whatever_o mourn_v state_n thou_o be_v in_o it_o be_v the_o lord_n be_v do_v as_o christ_n speak_v of_o god_n gracious_a revelation_n of_o gospel-light_n and_o knowledge_n rather_o to_o babe_n than_o to_o the_o wise_a and_o learned_a resolve_v it_o into_o god_n freewill_n and_o distinguish_a goodness_n as_o the_o only_a move_a cause_n thereof_o matt._n 11.26_o even_o so_o father_n for_o so_o it_o seem_v good_a in_o thy_o sight_n so_o shall_v every_o poor_a creature_n under_o the_o pressure_n of_o temptation_n under_o spiritual_a conflict_n and_o soul-trouble_a say_v even_o so_o father_n it_o be_v thy_o will_n it_o shall_v be_v so_o it_o have_v seem_v good_a unto_o thou_o thus_o to_o lay_v thy_o hand_n upon_o i_o and_o therefore_o come_v to_o this_o â—â—sult_n under_o such_o a_o dispensation_n with_o 〈◊〉_d dear_a redeemer_n john_n 18.11_o the_o cap_n which_o my_o father_n have_v give_v i_o shall_v i_o not_o drink_v it_o so_o this_o stroke_n that_o my_o father_n have_v lay_v upon_o i_o shall_v i_o not_o bear_v it_o three_o then_o such_o a_o state_n be_v very_o dreadful_a to_o poor_a creature_n to_o be_v under_o the_o hide_v of_o god_n face_n and_o leave_v to_o the_o hurry_v of_o the_o tempter_n be_v sad_o terrify_v and_o affrightning_n the_o spirit_n of_o a_o man_n may_v sustain_v his_o infirmity_n but_o a_o wound_a spirit_n who_o can_v bear_v if_o it_o be_v a_o grievous_a thing_n to_o abraham_n to_o send_v away_o his_o son_n and_o the_o bondwoman_n out_o of_o his_o house_n gen._n 21.11_o 12._o oh_o how_o much_o more_o grievous_a be_v it_o to_o poor_a creature_n when_o their_o rest_n be_v go_v peace_n be_v go_v and_o all_o quietness_n be_v go_v from_o they_o in_o such_o a_o perplexity_n be_v jonah_n here_o in_o the_o whale_n belly_n and_o thus_o david_n mournful_o complain_v psalm_n 30.7_o thou_o do_v hide_v thy_o face_n and_o i_o be_v trouble_v it_o be_v not_o a_o small_a but_o a_o very_a sore_n great_a torment_a trouble_n when_o a_o soul_n be_v leave_v in_o the_o dark_a
to_o day_n now_o be_v her_o head_n anoint_v with_o the_o oil_n of_o joy_n and_o gladness_n above_o most_o of_o her_o fellow-saint_n in_o such_o a_o state_n now_o she_o be_v make_v to_o lie_v down_o in_o green_a pasture_n and_o lead_v beside_o the_o still_a water_n and_o now_o oh_o now_o after_o so_o much_o fearfulness_n and_o tremble_v have_v come_v upon_o she_o after_o such_o great_a and_o dreadful_a horror_n have_v so_o long_o overwhelm_v she_o her_o soul_n be_v full_o and_o perfect_o restore_v and_o she_o set_v at_o liberty_n and_o that_o not_o only_o from_o the_o suggestion_n of_o satan_n whereby_o she_o be_v plunge_v for_o a_o time_n into_o a_o gulf_n of_o misery_n but_o from_o all_o the_o evil_n peril_n and_o danger_n in_o the_o region_n of_o mortality_n which_o she_o have_v be_v so_o long_o burden_a and_o lamentable_o afflict_v with_o for_o now_o be_v give_v to_o she_o the_o wing_n of_o a_o dove_n wherewith_o in_o a_o wonderful_a swiftness_n and_o celerity_n she_o fly_v up_o 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give_v a_o little_a check_n to_o those_o hope_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o retain_v and_o make_v too_o much_o room_n for_o fear_n and_o doubt_n in_o our_o thought_n concern_v she_o indeed_o we_o be_v all_o at_o our_o wit_n end_n and_o can_v not_o tell_v what_o to_o think_v or_o say_v of_o she_o for_o my_o part_n i_o can_v true_o say_v her_o case_n take_v up_o my_o whole_a time_n i_o can_v hardly_o mind_v any_o thing_n else_o day_n and_o night_n be_v my_o thought_n busy_o employ_v what_o course_n to_o take_v for_o she_o or_o what_o mean_v to_o use_v that_o may_v be_v of_o avail_n to_o she_o and_o after_o many_o wrestle_n with_o sigh_n and_o groan_n unto_o god_n in_o her_o behalf_n and_o revolve_v many_o thing_n in_o my_o perplex_a
and_o severe_a affliction_n and_o it_o be_v more_o than_o imply_v that_o jonah_n apprehend_v this_o when_o he_o thus_o cry_v to_o he_o the_o israelite_n be_v to_o eat_v no_o leaven_a bread_n with_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o their_o passover_n but_o the_o unleavened_a bread_n of_o affliction_n deut._n 16.3_o that_o they_o may_v remember_v what_o they_o be_v once_o in_o egypt_n and_o the_o gracious_a design_n god_n have_v towards_o they_o even_o in_o that_o bondage_n state_n oh_o a_o belief_n of_o this_o glorious_a truth_n will_v allay_v the_o tempestuous_a sea_n of_o sorrow_n when_o our_o soul_n be_v bow_v down_o with_o anguish_n four_o god_n will_v appear_v as_o answer_v of_o prayer_n in_o the_o great_a affliction_n when_o jonah_n be_v cry_v he_o hear_v by_o a_o ear_n of_o faith_n god_n answer_v and_o so_o we_o find_v israel_n acknowledge_v deut._n 26.7_o and_o when_o we_o cry_v unto_o the_o lord_n god_n of_o our_o father_n the_o lord_n hear_v our_o voice_n and_o look_v on_o our_o 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and_o misery_n as_o job_n messenger_n come_v from_o every_o corner_n sink_v his_o spirit_n with_o ill_a news_n and_o pierce_v his_o soul_n with_o the_o dart_n of_o disconsolate_a tiding_n job_n 1.16_o so_o many_o choose_a vessel_n of_o the_o lord_n may_v be_v beset_v with_o trouble_n and_o sorrow_n of_o every_o kind_n which_o may_v make_v they_o roar_v and_o cry_v out_o as_o those_o without_o hope_n three_o poor_a creature_n may_v be_v worry_v and_o hurry_v by_o the_o temptation_n of_o the_o devil_n which_o be_v a_o species_n of_o hell_n torture_n as_o the_o tongue_n be_v say_v to_o be_v set_v on_o fire_n of_o hell_n james_n 3.6_o so_o the_o spirit_n of_o tempt_a one_o may_v be_v and_o too_o often_o be_v bear_v down_o and_o keep_v under_o the_o hatch_n by_o the_o tyranny_n of_o hell_n monarch_n we_o find_v paul_n complain_v of_o a_o thorn_n in_o the_o flesh_n the_o messenger_n of_o satan_n buffet_n he_o 2_o cor._n 12.7_o oh_o it_o be_v a_o hell_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v in_o the_o claw_n of_o hell_n roar_v lyon_n four_o poor_a creature_n may_v be_v for_o a_o time_n conquer_v and_o overcome_v by_o hell_n sorrow_n though_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o absolute_o prevail_v matt._n 16.18_o yet_o they_o may_v a_o great_a while_n and_o in_o a_o great_a measure_n prevail_v over_o many_o precious_a child_n of_o zion_n though_o god_n choose_v once_o shall_v not_o be_v leave_v to_o remain_v always_o in_o hell_n as_o david_n personate_n christ_n speak_v with_o respect_n to_o the_o grave_a psalm_n 16.10_o yet_o they_o may_v be_v leave_v a_o long_a time_n under_o the_o power_n of_o hell_n to_o be_v cry_v out_o as_o though_o they_o be_v for_o ever_o lose_v then_o i_o take_v notice_n of_o the_o dolefulness_n of_o jonah_n complaint_n as_o we_o have_v it_o in_o the_o three_o verse_n for_o thou_o have_v cast_v i_o into_o the_o deep_a in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o sea_n and_o the_o flood_n compass_v i_o about_o all_o thy_o billow_n and_o thy_o wave_n pass_v over_o i_o wherein_o there_o be_v metaphorical_o set_v forth_o first_o the_o sense_n he_o have_v of_o sin_n as_o the_o deserve_a cause_n of_o what_o he_o now_o so_o lamentable_o groan_v under_o thou_o have_v cast_v i_o into_o the_o deep_a and_o that_o deserve_o for_o my_o horrid_a and_o cry_a sin_n of_o disobedience_n of_o which_o mention_n be_v make_v chap._n 1.1_o 2_o 3._o now_o the_o word_n of_o the_o lord_n come_v unto_o jonah_n the_o son_n of_o amittai_n say_v arise_v go_v to_o nineveh_n that_o great_a city_n and_o cry_v against_o it_o for_o their_o wickedness_n be_v come_v up_o before_o i_o but_o jonah_n rise_v up_o to_o flee_v unto_o tarshish_n from_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n here_o we_o find_v he_o shameful_o turn_v his_o back_n upon_o the_o command_v of_o his_o god_n and_o now_o in_o the_o deep_a he_o be_v sad_o sensible_a of_o it_o and_o break_v in_o heart_n for_o it_o so_o in_o like_a manner_n we_o find_v the_o church_n acknowledge_v and_o that_o in_o a_o soul-humbled_n and_o debase_v way_n lam._n 5.15_o 16._o the_o joy_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v cease_v our_o dance_n be_v turn_v into_o mourn_v the_o crown_n be_v fall_v from_o our_o head_n woe_n unto_o we_o that_o we_o have_v sin_v ah_o happy_a if_o under_o the_o weight_n of_o grief_n we_o have_v a_o sense_n of_o the_o evil_a of_o sin_n second_o he_o be_v under_o terror_n of_o conscience_n and_o miserable_a confusion_n in_o his_o spirit_n this_o be_v imply_v in_o the_o word_n sea_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o sea_n that_o he_o be_v literal_o cast_v into_o the_o sea_n we_o read_v chap._n 1.15_o so_o they_o take_v up_o jonah_n and_o cast_v he_o forth_o into_o the_o sea_n but_o beside_o this_o he_o be_v in_o a_o mystical_a sense_n in_o the_o sea_n that_o be_v under_o the_o racking_n of_o a_o wound_a spirit_n under_o the_o bite_n of_o a_o sting_a conscience_n so_o that_o he_o be_v as_o the_o prophet_n tell_v pashur_n he_o shall_v be_v jer._n 20.3_o magor_n missabib_fw-la even_o a_o terror_n to_o himself_o oh_o terror_n of_o conscience_n be_v the_o worst_a of_o sea-storm_n three_o he_o be_v overwhelm_v with_o sorrow_n and_o this_o be_v imply_v in_o the_o word_n flood_n and_o the_o flood_n compass_v i_o about_o so_o that_o his_o spirit_n as_o well_o as_o his_o body_n sink_v as_o lead_v in_o the_o mighty_a water_n as_o it_o be_v say_v of_o pharaoh_n and_o his_o host_n when_o they_o be_v drown_v in_o the_o red_a sea_n exod._n 15.10_o our_o saviour_n thus_o express_v the_o misery_n that_o shall_v come_v upon_o all_o incorrigible_a sinner_n matt._n 18.6_o it_o be_v better_o for_o he_o that_o a_o millstone_n be_v hang_v about_o his_o neck_n and_o that_o he_o be_v drown_v in_o the_o depth_n of_o the_o sea_n oh_o who_o can_v be_v sensible_a of_o the_o trouble_n and_o misery_n wherewith_o poor_a jonah_n be_v overwhelm_v when_o he_o be_v in_o the_o sea_n four_o he_o be_v close_o confine_v not_o only_o as_o to_o his_o body_n but_o narrow_o pen_v up_o as_o to_o his_o spirit_n this_o be_v include_v in_o the_o word_n billow_n all_o thy_o billow_n and_o thy_o wave_n pass_v over_o i_o we_o read_v indeed_o of_o his_o be_v in_o the_o whale_n belly_n chap._n 1.17_o and_o as_o that_o miserable_o confine_v his_o body_n so_o his_o spirit_n be_v worse_o restrain_v through_o the_o awful_a sense_n of_o divine_a displeasure_n as_o david_n once_o be_v psalm_n 42.7_o deep_o call_v unto_o deep_a at_o the_o noise_n of_o thy_o water-spout_n all_o thy_o wave_n and_o thy_o billow_n be_v go_v over_o i_o ah_o how_o sad_a it_o be_v when_o the_o soul_n be_v depress_v grovel_v in_o the_o dust_n and_o can_v look_v up_o for_o want_n of_o strength_n and_o faith_n
more_o such_o extreme_a fit_n of_o agony_n after_o this_o day_n or_o that_o she_o break_v forth_o into_o such_o direful_a exclamation_n and_o lamentation_n as_o she_o do_v before_o which_o make_v i_o hearty_o bless_v god_n both_o public_o and_o private_o for_o the_o begin_n of_o his_o appearance_n though_o it_o be_v but_o in_o a_o restrain_v way_n that_o though_o she_o have_v not_o that_o solid_a comfort_n and_o inward_a peace_n which_o i_o do_v unfeigned_o wish_v she_o and_o sincere_o without_o cease_v beg_v for_o she_o yet_o she_o have_v much_o great_a ease_n with_o respect_n to_o her_o burden_n under_o which_o she_o have_v so_o long_a a_o time_n groan_v and_o be_v not_o torture_v with_o those_o gripe_a and_o soul-tormenting_a pang_n as_o frequent_o in_o day_n and_o month_n past_a she_o have_v be_v in_o this_o middle_a state_n as_o i_o may_v say_v which_o as_o to_o she_o be_v neither_o clear_a nor_o dark_a neither_o day_n nor_o night_n but_o something_o between_o both_o she_o 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