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make_v i_o to_o dwell_v in_o safety_n into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commit_v my_o soul_n and_o body_n keep_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n amen_n on_o monday_n morning_n and_o every_o day_n in_o the_o week_n use_v these_o ejaculation_n lord_n what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o be_v mindful_a of_o he_o and_o the_o son_n of_o man_n that_o thou_o regard_v he_o thou_o make_v he_o low_a than_o the_o angel_n to_o crown_v he_o with_o glory_n and_o worship_n behold_v i_o be_v shape_v in_o wickedness_n and_o in_o sin_n have_v my_o mother_n conceive_v i_o thou_o shall_v purge_v i_o with_o hyssop_n and_o i_o shall_v be_v clean_o thou_o shall_v wash_v i_o and_o i_o shall_v be_v white_a than_o snow_n turn_v thy_o face_n from_o my_o sin_n and_o put_v out_o all_o my_o misdeed_n make_v i_o a_o clean_a heart_n o_o god_n and_o renew_v a_o right_a spirit_n within_o i_o cast_v i_o not_o away_o from_o thy_o presence_n and_o take_v not_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n from_o i_o o_o give_v i_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o help_n again_o and_o establish_v i_o with_o thy_o free_a spirit_n let_v the_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n and_o the_o meditation_n of_o my_o heart_n be_v now_o and_o evermore_o acceptable_a in_o thy_o sight_n o_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o redeemer_n a_o preparatory_a meditation_n upon_o the_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o lord_n supper_n i._o o_o who_o will_v give_v to_o my_o head_n water_n and_o to_o my_o eye_n a_o fountain_n of_o tear_n that_o i_o may_v weep_v day_n and_o night_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o ingratitude_n towards_o god_n my_o creator_n consider_v o_o my_o soul_n the_o multitude_n of_o god_n benefit_n bestow_v upon_o
thou_o and_o be_v thou_o confound_v and_o ashamed_a of_o all_o thy_o iniquity_n consider_v who_o thy_o creator_n be_v and_o who_o thou_o be_v how_o he_o have_v behave_v himself_o towards_o thou_o and_o what_o ungrateful_a return_n thou_o have_v make_v in_o requital_n to_o he_o thou_o have_v make_v i_o o_o lord_n when_o i_o be_v not_o and_o that_o according_a to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o from_o the_o very_a instant_n of_o my_o being_n have_v be_v my_o god_n my_o father_n and_o my_o deliverer_n and_o with_o the_o benefit_n of_o thy_o providence_n have_v preserve_v my_o life_n even_o till_o this_o present_a moment_n ii_o but_o because_o these_o thing_n o_o heavenly_a father_n cost_v thou_o nothing_o to_o bind_v i_o more_o fast_o to_o thou_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o present_a which_o cost_v thou_o dear_a thou_o do_v come_v down_o from_o heaven_n to_o sack_v i_o in_o all_o those_o way_n in_o which_o i_o have_v lose_v myself_o by_o thy_o captivity_n thou_o have_v loose_v my_o bond_n and_o by_o deliver_v thyself_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o sinner_n thou_o have_v deliver_v i_o from_o the_o power_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o by_o take_v upon_o thou_o the_o form_n of_o a_o sinner_n thou_o have_v destroy_v my_o sin_n these_o thing_n thou_o do_v to_o allure_v and_o bind_v i_o unto_o thou_o and_o to_o strengthen_v my_o hope_n to_o make_v i_o detest_v and_o abhor_v sin_n by_o behold_v what_o thou_o have_v do_v and_o suffer_v to_o over_o throw_v the_o kingdom_n of_o sin_n o_o how_o can_v i_o without_o tear_n call_v to_o remembrance_n how_o oft_o time_n thou_o may_v just_o have_v bereave_v i_o of_o my_o life_n how_o many_o thousand_o soul_n now_o peradventure_o burn_v in_o hell_n who_o have_v less_o sin_v than_o i_o and_o yet_o i_o burn_v not_o there_o how_o then_o can_v i_o be_v so_o ungrateful_a as_o not_o to_o prize_v the_o large_a extent_n of_o that_o mercy_n which_o can_v be_v comprehend_v monday_n morning_n a_o preparatory_a prayer_n to_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n o_o almighty_a lord_n god_n thou_o have_v call_v i_o to_o thy_o holy_a table_n and_o have_v set_v out_o a_o part_n of_o consecrate_a bread_n and_o wine_n for_o i_o i_o acknowledge_v my_o ignorance_n that_o i_o must_v be_v instruct_v by_o such_o mean_n as_o thou_o in_o thy_o bounty_n have_v appoint_v for_o i_o and_o i_o acknowledge_v thy_o divine_a goodness_n that_o thou_o vouchsafe_v i_o to_o be_v teach_v by_o those_o 〈…〉_z of_o grace_n whereby_o i_o may_v come_v to_o that_o of_o 〈…〉_z i_o do_v hear_v thy_o word_n and_o thy_o dear_a son_n be_v 〈…〉_z my_o â—â—r_fw-fr i_o receive_v this_o sacrament_n 〈…〉_z ffer_v unto_o my_o eye_n in_o the_o testimony_n of_o these_o two_o witness_n this_o truth_n be_v establish_v in_o my_o heart_n that_o my_o saviour_n suffer_v death_n for_o my_o sin_n ii_o as_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o thus_o to_o offer_v i_o thy_o favour_n so_o i_o beseech_v thou_o give_v i_o that_o grace_n whereby_o i_o may_v walk_v worthy_a of_o it_o be_o i_o thus_o invite_v to_o the_o heavenly_a banquet_n to_o the_o table_n of_o the_o king_n of_o king_n o_o let_v i_o not_o go_v without_o my_o wedding_n garment_n last_o the_o bridegroom_n of_o this_o feast_n say_v unto_o i_o how_o come_v thou_o in_o hither_o without_o thy_o rich_a vestment_n which_o be_v suitable_a to_o this_o great_a solemnity_n thou_o have_v now_o command_v i_o to_o examine_v myself_o and_o let_v i_o now_o try_v and_o examine_v my_o heart_n and_o be_v acquaint_v with_o it_o whereby_o i_o may_v find_v out_o all_o my_o spiritual_a want_n and_o necessity_n and_o look_v how_o i_o stand_v in_o thy_o sight_n by_o make_v a_o severe_a scrutiny_n into_o myself_o the_o jew_n will_v not_o eat_v with_o unwashed_a hand_n dare_v i_o eat_v with_o a_o unwashed_a heart_n they_o will_v not_o drink_v but_o their_o vessel_n must_v be_v purify_v and_o dare_v i_o now_o drink_v and_o my_o soul_n not_o purify_v before_o the_o passover_n they_o sanctify_v themselves_o and_o before_o this_o sacrament_n shall_v not_o i_o now_o prepare_v myself_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v it_o lord_n help_v my_o desire_n lest_o eat_v and_o drink_v unworthy_o i_o eat_v and_o drink_v my_o own_o damnation_n a_o prayer_n before_o examination_n o_o holy_a jesus_n who_o be_v a_o merciful_a embracer_n of_o true_a penitent_n but_o yet_o a_o consume_a fire_n to_o obstinate_a offender_n i_o be_o now_o prepare_v myself_o to_o come_v to_o thy_o holy_a table_n unfeigned_o confess_v my_o own_o unworthiness_n commit_v against_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o many_o way_n and_o that_o since_o i_o last_o receive_v this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n i_o have_v not_o know_v thou_o in_o thy_o word_n behold_v thou_o in_o thy_o work_n apprehend_v thou_o in_o thy_o son_n serve_v thou_o in_o the_o spirit_n apply_v thou_o by_o faith_n fâ—â—râ—d_v thou_o for_o thy_o justice_n nor_o admire_v thou_o as_o i_o ought_v for_o thy_o great_a mercy_n i_o have_v not_o frequent_v thy_o house_n hear_v thy_o word_n lay_v it_o up_o in_o my_o heart_n nor_o practise_v it_o in_o my_o life_n as_o i_o ought_v to_o do_v 〈…〉_z even_o i_o by_o the_o lust_n of_o my_o eye_n the_o lust_n of_o thâ—_n flâ—sh_n and_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n have_v dishonour_v thy_o great_a and_o glorious_a name_n and_o when_o thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o ten_o thousand_o talent_n i_o will_v not_o forgive_v my_o brother_n a_o hundred_o penny_n ii_o as_o one_o deep_a call_v upon_o another_o the_o depth_n of_o misery_n upon_o the_o depth_n of_o mercy_n what_o shall_v i_o say_v unto_o thou_o o_o thou_o preserver_n of_o all_o man_n much_o more_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o inherit_v eternal_a life_n i_o will_v arise_v and_o go_v unto_o god_n my_o father_n and_o say_v unto_o he_o father_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o heaven_n and_o in_o thy_o sight_n and_o be_o no_o more_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o son_n but_o thou_o have_v say_v that_o he_o which_o hide_v his_o sin_n shall_v not_o prosper_v but_o he_o which_o confess_v they_o shall_v obtain_v mercy_n i_o confess_v and_o be_o true_o sorrowful_a i_o have_v sin_v lord_n do_v pardon_n and_o forgive_v i_o all_o my_o sin_n and_o grant_v that_o in_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o life_n hereafter_o i_o may_v live_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o great_a name_n and_o to_o the_o comfort_n and_o salvation_n of_o my_o own_o soul_n iii_o o_o lord_n give_v unto_o i_o now_o a_o break_a heart_n a_o contrite_a spirit_n a_o sorrowful_a soul_n and_o a_o mind_n hunger_a and_o thirst_v after_o jesus_n christ_n and_o his_o righteousness_n give_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o grace_n to_o know_v thou_o the_o only_a true_a god_n the_o creator_n and_o preserver_n of_o all_o mankind_n o_o give_v i_o grace_v now_o to_o feel_v the_o burden_n of_o all_o my_o sin_n and_o that_o thou_o will_v speak_v peace_n unto_o my_o soul_n and_o say_v unto_o it_o thou_o be_v my_o salvation_n o_o let_v i_o be_v ease_v of_o this_o lump_n of_o sin_n by_o wash_v it_o away_o with_o the_o blood_n of_o thy_o dear_a son_n i_o do_v believe_v lord_n help_v my_o unbelief_n i_o be_o sorry_a for_o my_o sin_n make_v i_o to_o be_v hearty_o and_o unfeigned_o sorrowful_a i_o promise_v to_o live_v near_o to_o thou_o than_o ever_o i_o have_v do_v give_v i_o power_n to_o perform_v my_o promise_n i_o forgive_v all_o that_o have_v wrong_v i_o even_o as_o thou_o for_o christ_n sake_n have_v forgive_v i_o let_v this_o forgiveness_n of_o i_o be_v without_o dissimulation_n and_o lord_n grant_v that_o i_o may_v humble_v myself_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o ignorance_n and_o dulness_n and_o weakness_n and_o wickedness_n and_o spiritual_a deadness_n of_o heart_n and_o have_v empty_v myself_o of_o myself_o i_o may_v receive_v of_o thy_o fullness_n and_o grace_n for_o grace_n in_o who_o name_n i_o put_v up_o these_o my_o imperfect_a prayer_n our_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n hallow_a be_v thy_o name_n thy_o kingdom_n come_v thy_o will_n be_v do_v on_o earth_n as_o it_o be_v in_o heaven_n give_v we_o this_o day_n our_o daily_a bread_n and_o forgive_v we_o our_o trepass_n as_o we_o forgive_v they_o that_o trespass_n against_o we_o and_o lead_v we_o not_o into_o temptation_n but_o deliver_v we_o from_o evil_a amen_n still_o upon_o your_o knee_n say_v almighty_a god_n unto_o who_o all_o heart_n be_v open_a all_o desire_v know_v and_o from_o who_o no_o secret_n be_v hide_v cleanse_v the_o thought_n of_o my_o heart_n by_o the_o inspiration_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n that_o i_o may_v perfect_o love_v thou_o and_o worthy_o magnify_v thy_o holy_a name_n through_o christ_n our_o lord_n amen_o some_o head_n of_o self_n examination_n by_o the_o x._o commandment_n to_o be_v express_v on_o
death_n and_o passion_n as_o a_o true_a token_n and_o pledge_n that_o he_o suffer_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o rise_v again_o from_o thâ—_n dâ—ad_v for_o my_o justification_n and_o now_o sit_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n the_o father_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o to_o who_o be_v all_o honour_n power_n and_o glory_n adoration_n and_o subjection_n from_o this_o time_n forth_o and_o for_o ever_o more_o amen_o our_o father_n etc._n etc._n meditation_n for_o monday_n evening_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o lord_n supper_n show_v the_o necessity_n of_o receive_v of_o it_o i._o our_o bless_a saviour_n the_o wise_a physician_n have_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o weakness_n ordain_v this_o most_o holy_a and_o divine_a sacrament_n and_o for_o this_o purpose_n have_v he_o institute_v the_o same_o in_o form_n of_o food_n that_o the_o very_a form_n wherein_o he_o do_v institute_v it_o may_v declare_v unto_o we_o the_o effect_n it_o work_v and_o withal_o the_o great_a necessity_n our_o soul_n have_v of_o it_o ii_o o_o most_o wonderful_a sacrament_n what_o shall_v i_o say_v of_o thou_o thou_o be_v the_o life_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o a_o medicine_n to_o heal_v all_o my_o wound_n what_o tongue_n be_v able_a to_o express_v the_o excellency_n of_o this_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n which_o thou_o o_o lord_n invite_v i_o to_o who_o be_o a_o vile_a and_o miserable_a sinner_n when_o i_o consider_v who_o thou_o be_v and_o what_o i_o be_o how_o rich_a and_o excellent_a the_o benefit_n be_v which_o thou_o prepare_v for_o i_o and_o how_o little_a i_o be_o dispose_v to_o receive_v they_o my_o soul_n be_v in_o trouble_n and_o i_o tremble_v to_o draw_v near_o to_o thy_o glorious_a majesty_n iii_o thou_o be_v o_o lord_n without_o quantity_n great_a without_o quality_n good_a without_o measure_n wise_a and_o without_o time_n everlasting_a the_o star_n be_v dim_v in_o thy_o presence_n the_o pillar_n of_o heaven_n quake_v before_o thou_o the_o high_a of_o the_o seraphin_n do_v gather_v in_o their_o wing_n and_o account_v themselves_o as_o it_o be_v little_a fly_n when_o thou_o be_v present_a how_o then_o dare_v so_o vile_a a_o creature_n as_o i_o be_o approach_n unto_o thy_o holy_a table_n if_o st._n john_n baptist_n who_o thou_o fill_v with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n from_o his_o mother_n womb_n think_v himself_o not_o worthy_a to_o stoop_v down_o and_o unloose_v the_o lachet_n of_o thy_o shoe_n shall_v i_o who_o be_o load_v with_o sin_n dare_v to_o present_v myself_o to_o that_o holy_a banquet_n where_o angel_n wait_v as_o minister_a spirit_n send_v out_o for_o the_o good_a of_o those_o who_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o earnest_n of_o salvation_n shall_v i_o with_o lascivious_a eye_n full_a of_o wanton_a look_n behold_v that_o lamb_n without_o spot_n or_o blemish_n with_o my_o pollute_a look_n and_o lie_a tongue_n shall_v i_o touch_v the_o bread_n of_o angel_n or_o shall_v i_o lodge_v the_o king_n of_o king_n in_o a_o heart_n fill_v with_o foul_a concupiscence_n iv._o i_o be_o in_o a_o strait_a o_o lord_n on_o both_o side_n for_o if_o i_o absent_v myself_o from_o this_o holy_a table_n i_o be_o disobedient_a to_o my_o saviour_n who_o command_v i_o to_o set_v forth_o his_o death_n till_o he_o shall_v come_v again_o i_o keep_v at_o a_o distance_n from_o the_o fountain_n of_o life_n i_o renounce_v the_o seal_n of_o the_o covenant_n and_o the_o pledge_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o if_o i_o come_v to_o it_o unworthy_o i_o be_o afraid_a i_o may_v eat_v and_o drink_v my_o own_o damnation_n and_o draw_v upon_o myself_o thy_o heavy_a judgement_n if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n o_o lord_n who_o shall_v stand_v but_o there_o be_v forgiveness_n with_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v fear_v mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n be_v from_o the_o lord_n our_o god_n for_o we_o have_v rebel_v against_o he_o but_o where_o sin_n have_v abound_v thy_o grace_n have_v much_o more_o abound_v o_o lord_n my_o whole_a trust_n be_v in_o thou_o as_o by_o thy_o goodness_n thou_o give_v i_o thy_o blessing_n so_o by_o thy_o wisdom_n thou_o will_v instruct_v i_o how_o to_o receive_v they_o to_o salvation_n a_o prayer_n for_o monday_n evening_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n o_o lord_n i_o take_v the_o boldness_n to_o approach_v unto_o thou_o o_o receive_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o tender_a mercy_n banish_v from_o my_o mind_n all_o those_o earthly_a and_o carnal_a thought_n which_o disturb_v my_o devotion_n affect_v my_o sense_n with_o a_o pious_a veneration_n give_v unto_o i_o such_o humility_n and_o repentance_n such_o fear_n and_o reverence_n as_o so_o high_a a_o mystery_n do_v require_v i_o come_v not_o o_o lord_n to_o excuse_v but_o accuse_v myself_o i_o trust_v not_o o_o lord_n in_o my_o own_o righteousness_n neither_o have_v i_o any_o merit_n to_o be_v puff_v up_o with_o nor_o do_v i_o extol_v myself_o with_o the_o proud_a pharisec_n ii_o but_o o_o lord_n i_o come_v to_o thou_o as_o the_o poor_a publican_n with_o eye_n cast_v down_o as_o be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o own_o unworthiness_n and_o lay_v my_o hand_n on_o my_o breast_n say_v lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o a_o sinner_n i_o come_v to_o thou_o with_o poor_a bartemeus_fw-la that_o i_o may_v receive_v my_o sight_n who_o be_o blind_a and_o lame_a i_o come_v as_o naked_a to_o thou_o the_o father_n of_o compassion_n as_o hunger_a and_o thirst_v after_o righteousness_n to_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v the_o bread_n of_o life_n and_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n spring_v up_o from_o the_o well_n of_o eternal_a salvation_n iii_o thou_o do_v o_o lord_n accept_v of_o mary_n magdalen_n tear_n the_o faith_n of_o the_o thief_n on_o the_o cross_n the_o repentance_n of_o st._n peter_n and_o the_o prayer_n of_o the_o poor_a publican_n accept_v now_o of_o this_o my_o humiliation_n confirm_v my_o pardon_n seal_v my_o redemption_n cleanse_v i_o from_o all_o my_o pollution_n support_v my_o weakness_n and_o cover_v my_o nakedness_n o_o send_v i_o not_o away_o empty_a lest_o i_o faint_v by_o the_o way_n but_o satisfy_v my_o soul_n with_o the_o food_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a banquet_n that_o thereby_o it_o may_v receive_v nourishment_n unto_o eternal_a life_n iv._o grant_v o_o lord_n that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o with_o pure_a lip_n and_o a_o penitent_a heart_n that_o thou_o dwell_v in_o my_o heart_n by_o faith_n i_o may_v find_v myself_o strenghn_v comfort_v and_o my_o heart_n inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o then_o shall_v i_o prostrate_v myself_o before_o thou_o and_o acknowledge_v in_o the_o assembly_n of_o thy_o saint_n that_o it_o be_v thou_o alone_o who_o have_v comfort_v i_o and_o that_o there_o be_v no_o salvation_n in_o any_o beside_o thou_o v._o as_o thou_o prepare_v a_o table_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o enemy_n and_o fille_v up_o my_o cup_n and_o do_v anoint_v and_o wash_v thy_o poor_a guest_n pour_v upon_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o thy_o most_o fragrant_a oil_n wash_v not_o only_o my_o foot_n but_o also_o my_o hand_n and_o my_o head_n that_o i_o may_v have_v part_n with_o thou_o make_v i_o not_o only_a partaker_n of_o the_o seal_n of_o thy_o covenant_n and_o of_o the_o pledge_n of_o thy_o love_n but_o also_o that_o i_o may_v receive_v thyself_o with_o all_o the_o benefit_n of_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n let_v my_o preparation_n which_o i_o now_o make_v be_v sincere_a and_o without_o lukewarmness_n that_o i_o may_v become_v a_o worthy_a receiver_n at_o thy_o holy_a table_n our_o father_n etc._n etc._n meditation_n for_o tuesday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v the_o gracious_a manifestation_n of_o his_o goodness_n he_o be_v good_a in_o the_o graciousness_n of_o his_o promise_n and_o upright_o in_o the_o truth_n of_o his_o performance_n and_o this_o grace_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o habitation_n of_o his_o throne_n be_v the_o refuge_n of_o the_o sinner_n and_o the_o sanctuary_n of_o the_o penitent_a ii_o and_o where_o o_o my_o soul_n can_v thou_o better_v taste_v the_o goodness_n of_o the_o lord_n then_o in_o this_o bless_a eucharist_n the_o sacred_a feast_n of_o the_o lord_n goodness_n and_o as_o his_o goodness_n do_v invite_v thou_o so_o let_v his_o uprightness_n encourage_v thou_o for_o that_o faithful_a be_v he_o who_o have_v promise_v faithful_a to_o give_v according_a to_o his_o promise_n heal_v for_o thy_o wound_n strengthen_v for_o thy_o weakness_n comfort_n for_o thy_o sorrow_n and_o will_v give_v that_o which_o be_v the_o compendium_n of_o all_o spiritual_a good_a thing_n peace_n of_o conscience_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n iii_o why_o be_v thou_o so_o heavy_a o_o my_o soul_n and_o why_o be_v thou_o so_o cast_v down_o within_o i_o be_v it_o because_o thou_o have_v
require_v of_o i_o look_v not_o upon_o i_o i_o meek_o beseech_v thou_o as_o i_o be_o in_o myself_o in_o my_o frailty_n of_o sinful_a nature_n but_o gracious_o behold_v i_o in_o the_o beauty_n and_o perfection_n of_o thy_o bless_a son_n lord_n give_v i_o that_o holy_a hunger_a and_o thirsting_n after_o thou_o that_o my_o long_n may_v be_v earnest_a for_o thou_o let_v thy_o holy_a table_n be_v delightful_a to_o i_o and_o sweet_a than_o all_o outward_a enjoyment_n that_o i_o may_v true_o love_v it_o and_o joyful_o possess_v thy_o heavenly_a comfort_n by_o it_o iii_o almighty_a god_n who_o so_o perfect_o hate_v sin_n that_o thou_o have_v most_o severe_o punish_v it_o in_o thy_o only_a and_o belove_a son_n who_o thou_o free_o give_v not_o only_o to_o die_v for_o sin_n but_o also_o to_o condemn_v it_o and_o to_o call_v sinner_n to_o repentance_n for_o it_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o i_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o thy_o vile_a sinful_a and_o most_o unworthy_a servant_n who_o have_v not_o only_o foolish_o and_o sinful_o imagine_v that_o thou_o will_v cherish_v that_o in_o i_o which_o thou_o have_v so_o sharp_o punish_v in_o my_o saviour_n but_o also_o wicked_o divide_v thou_o in_o thy_o own_o essence_n and_o there_o by_o myself_o from_o thou_o in_o the_o lose_n of_o thy_o gracious_a presence_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o and_o release_v i_o from_o these_o misty_a fog_n of_o sin_n and_o ignorance_n and_o lead_v i_o by_o thy_o bless_a light_n of_o grace_n to_o those_o thy_o bless_a path_n which_o lead_v to_o glory_n iv_o lord_n i_o have_v sin_v and_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v i_o tremble_v at_o the_o greatness_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o humble_o beg_v thy_o pardon_n for_o it_o in_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n o_o let_v thy_o sweet_a save_n and_o prevent_a grace_n make_v this_o my_o humiliation_n effectual_a unto_o i_o o_o let_v i_o no_o long_o vain_o think_v the_o guilt_n only_o of_o sin_n to_o be_v i_o and_o the_o punishment_n my_o saviour_n but_o let_v i_o faithful_o believe_v that_o until_o by_o thy_o grace_n i_o be_o make_v true_o conformable_a to_o he_o i_o have_v no_o part_n nor_o portion_n in_o he_o but_o be_o yet_o in_o my_o sin_n and_o thereby_o liable_a to_o thy_o sore_a punishment_n lord_n give_v i_o a_o save_a faith_n to_o believe_v in_o he_o a_o sanctify_a life_n to_o be_v a_o true_a follower_n of_o he_o and_o a_o bless_a death_n to_o live_v for_o ever_o with_o he_o amen_n meditation_n for_o thursday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n affliction_n be_v the_o proper_a object_n of_o compassion_n misery_n the_o proper_a object_n of_o mercy_n and_o therefore_o we_o read_v how_o pilate_n willing_a to_o release_v jesus_n he_o bring_v he_o forth_o have_v his_o back_n surrow_v with_o the_o whip_n his_o head_n harrow_v with_o the_o thorn_n and_o his_o derisive_a purple_a stain_v yea_o drench_v with_o blood_n and_o present_v he_o thus_o ghastly_a a_o spectacle_n to_o the_o jew_n with_o a_o ecce_fw-la homo_fw-la behold_v the_o man_n suppose_v so_o sad_a a_o sight_n will_v have_v move_v malice_n to_o mercy_n and_o envy_v itself_o to_o compassion_n now_o what_o pilate_n do_v to_o the_o jew_n with_o christ_n christ_n in_o a_o fit_a resemblance_n and_o apt_a allusion_n do_v with_o the_o penitent_a to_o his_o father_n he_o bring_v he_o forth_o in_o the_o court_n of_o conscience_n have_v his_o heart_n wound_v with_o sorrow_n his_o spirit_n break_v in_o contrition_n and_o his_o soul_n faint_v in_o languishment_n of_o repentance_n and_o present_v he_o so_o sad_a a_o spectacle_n to_o the_o father_n with_o a_o ecce_fw-la homo_fw-la behold_v the_o max._n ii_o behold_v the_o man_n once_o so_o lofty_a in_o his_o pride_n now_o so_o lowly_a in_o his_o penitence_n once_o so_o harden_v in_o his_o rebellion_n now_o so_o humble_v in_o his_o contrition_n once_o so_o obstinate_a a_o sinner_n now_o so_o pitiful_a a_o penitent_n and_o oh_o whilst_o this_o man_n of_o sorrow_n mourn_v in_o affliction_n how_o do_v the_o father_n of_o mercy_n melt_v in_o compassion_n when_o the_o wound_a sinner_n be_v present_v by_o the_o wound_a son_n and_o the_o penitent_n tear_n cry_v aloud_o with_o the_o mediator_n blood_n how_o must_v the_o father_n compassion_n need_v melt_v into_o sin_n remission_n iii_o this_o affliction_n and_o pain_n be_v either_o that_o of_o the_o penitent_a sinner_n or_o that_o of_o the_o devout_a saint_n that_o of_o the_o penitent_a sinner_n who_o have_v withdraw_v himself_o from_o the_o world_n and_o retire_v into_o the_o secret_a closet_n of_o his_o conscience_n how_o do_v he_o with_o hezekiah_n even_o overturn_v the_o annal_n of_o his_o life_n in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o his_o soul_n and_o after_o a_o strict_a survey_n have_v faithful_o observe_v the_o sin_n which_o he_o have_v commit_v and_o the_o several_a circumstance_n by_o which_o they_o be_v aggravate_v he_o then_o sum_n they_o up_o into_o a_o catalogue_n which_o be_v no_o soon_o in_o his_o eye_n but_o sorrow_n be_v in_o his_o heart_n endeavour_v to_o blot_v our_o those_o letter_n of_o guilt_n with_o his_o tear_n of_o repentance_n through_o faith_n in_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n iv._o and_o whilst_o he_o set_v his_o sin_n in_o order_n before_o he_o oh_o how_o do_v a_o secret_a affrightment_n chill_v his_o blood_n and_o make_v his_o heart_n to_o tremble_v in_o apprehension_n of_o their_o loathsome_a filth_n and_o dreadful_a curse_n yea_o in_o behold_v himself_o under_o the_o heavy_a sentence_n of_o the_o law_n condemnation_n oh_o how_o be_v he_o whole_o encompass_v with_o terror_n and_o amazement_n when_o he_o look_v within_o he_o oh_o the_o terror_n of_o a_o accuse_a conscience_n and_o a_o kill_a guilt_n when_o he_o look_v without_o he_o oh_o the_o horror_n of_o a_o deserve_a death_n and_o a_o torment_a hell_n when_o he_o look_v above_o he_o oh_o the_o dread_a of_o a_o offend_a majesty_n and_o a_o avenge_a judge_n oh_o whither_o then_o shall_v this_o poor_a penitent_a fly_n for_o succour_n where_o oh_o where_o shall_v his_o affright_a and_o afflict_a soul_n seek_v for_o shelter_n where_o but_o at_o the_o cross_n of_o his_o redeemer_n v._o and_o when_o christ_n so_o full_a of_o pity_n so_o full_a of_o love_n when_o he_o behold_v the_o humble_a suppliant_a and_o sincere_a penitent_a in_o the_o low_a depth_n of_o his_o humiliation_n pour_v out_o his_o complaint_n at_o the_o foot_n of_o his_o cross_n when_o he_o hear_v his_o mournful_a sigh_n his_o painful_a groan_n the_o earnest_a messenger_n of_o his_o asslicted_a soul_n it_o be_v then_o as_o impossible_a for_o christ_n to_o forget_v the_o passion_n of_o sorrow_n which_o he_o suffer_v as_o not_o to_o compassionate_v this_o poor_a penitent_n for_o who_o he_o suffer_v he_o who_o stop_v not_o his_o ear_n at_o the_o jew_n blasphemy_n will_v certain_o not_o stop_v his_o ear_n at_o the_o penitent_n complaint_n he_o that_o turn_v not_o away_o his_o face_n from_o his_o enemy_n buffet_n will_v not_o turn_v away_o his_o eye_n from_o the_o suppliant_n tear_n though_o the_o devil_n have_v bereave_v the_o sinner_n of_o his_o purity_n yet_o can_v he_o not_o deprive_v his_o saviour_n of_o his_o pity_n christ_n do_v not_o christ_n can_v so_o remember_v the_o sin_n that_o man_n have_v commit_v that_o he_o forget_v the_o soul_n which_o himself_o have_v purchase_v his_o eye_n and_o nothing_o else_o indeed_o can_v do_v it_o but_o his_o eye_n of_o mercy_n that_o look_v through_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n to_o behold_v the_o sorrow_n of_o the_o sinner_n and_o that_o affliction_n move_v his_o compassion_n vi_o the_o sorrow_n of_o affliction_n and_o pain_n in_o the_o penitent_a become_v destructive_a of_o sin_n through_o the_o power_n of_o faith_n in_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n for_o that_o god_n will_v be_v sanctify_v in_o all_o they_o that_o come_v nigh_o unto_o he_o and_o therefore_o he_o be_v a_o consume_a fire_n in_o the_o fury_n of_o his_o vengeance_n when_o we_o humble_v ourselves_o before_o he_o though_o with_o the_o deep_a of_o affliction_n unless_o it_o be_v by_o faith_n in_o jesus_n christ_n as_o the_o mediator_n god_n will_v be_v a_o just_a judge_n to_o condemn_v rather_o than_o a_o merciful_a father_n to_o forgive_v for_o it_o be_v not_o our_o tear_n without_o christ_n blood_n not_o our_o sorrow_n without_o his_o suffering_n not_o our_o affliction_n without_o his_o passion_n that_o can_v quench_v the_o fire_n of_o god_n wrath_n satisfy_v the_o severity_n of_o god_n justice_n and_o move_v the_o tenderness_n of_o his_o mercy_n when_o therefore_o act_v by_o love_n and_o strengthen_v by_o faith_n we_o pour_v out_o our_o complaint_n unto_o our_o god_n in_o a_o sincere_a repentance_n our_o affliction_n and_o pain_n shall_v become_v the_o proper_a object_n of_o his_o divine_a mercy_n a_o prayer_n for_o thursday_n morning_n preparatory_a to_o the_o
secret_a and_o unknown_a error_n of_o my_o sinful_a life_n pass_v and_o gracious_o prevent_v the_o fail_n of_o that_o to_o come_v iv._o make_v i_o true_o and_o sincere_o holy_a and_o to_o embrace_v it_o neither_o for_o fear_n of_o punishment_n nor_o hope_v of_o reward_n but_o pure_o for_o thy_o sake_n who_o be_v holiness_n itself_o o_o let_v i_o never_o think_v myself_o holy_a enough_o but_o press_v still_o forward_o in_o thy_o holy_a race_n until_o at_o last_o i_o have_v attain_v unto_o that_o full_a measure_n of_o holiness_n which_o by_o thy_o gracious_a acceptation_n of_o it_o in_o christ_n will_v end_v in_o endless_a happiness_n bless_v these_o my_o holy_a desire_n with_o happy_a performance_n for_o his_o sake_n who_o perfect_a righteousness_n thou_o both_o gracious_o accept_a for_o i_o and_o willing_o impute_a to_o i_o amen_n meditation_n for_o saturday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n now_o to_o keep_v the_o soul_n in_o a_o even_a temper_n we_o must_v observe_v these_o follow_a direction_n first_o for_o the_o best_a order_v our_o life_n as_o to_o the_o safety_n and_o peace_n of_o our_o soul_n be_v the_o more_o servant_n the_o more_o importunate_a in_o your_o prayer_n when_o your_o lust_n be_v most_o eager_a and_o vehement_a in_o their_o desire_n for_o this_o we_o have_v st._n paul_n example_n for_o our_o imitation_n when_o he_o proportion_v the_o vehemency_n of_o his_o devotion_n to_o the_o violence_n of_o his_o temptation_n and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o messenger_n of_o satan_n 2_o cor._n 12._o 9_o do_v the_o more_o furious_o reiterate_v his_o buffet_n the_o more_o zealous_o do_v he_o renew_v his_o prayer_n and_o at_o length_n he_o receive_v this_o comfortable_a answer_n to_o his_o sorrowful_a complaint_n my_o grace_n be_v sufficient_a for_o thou_o sufficient_a to_o cure_v thy_o wound_n and_o to_o pardon_v thy_o guilt_n sufficient_a to_o strengthen_v thy_o weakness_n and_o to_o perfect_v thy_o deliverance_n ii_o second_o entertain_v we_o no_o parley_n no_o treaty_n with_o our_o lust_n have_v no_o commerce_n or_o company_n with_o they_o silence_n their_o suggestion_n or_o if_o they_o will_v needs_o be_v suggest_v give_v they_o not_o the_o ear_n lest_o they_o make_v that_o the_o passage_n to_o the_o heart_n we_o betray_v ourselves_o to_o sin_n whensoever_o we_o treat_v with_o our_o lust_n conference_n with_o they_o be_v the_o way_n to_o be_v ensnare_v by_o they_o we_o must_v fly_v sin_n as_o a_o serpent_n not_o let_v in_o the_o head_n lest_o it_o draw_v in_o its_o body_n not_o yield_v to_o the_o first_o motion_n lest_o we_o be_v engage_v in_o its_o full_a commission_n iii_o three_o set_v we_o up_o the_o law_n of_o spirit_n and_o life_n in_o our_o heart_n rom._n 8._o 2._o and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o law_n of_o sin_n will_v be_v stir_v in_o our_o thought_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o let_v this_o royal_a law_n of_o christ_n spirit_n and_o life_n bear_v sway_n in_o our_o soul_n and_o to_o that_o end_n especial_o now_o in_o the_o solemnity_n of_o the_o bless_a eucharist_n renew_v we_o our_o purpose_n our_o vow_n our_o covenant_n renew_v we_o ourselves_o denial_n our_o total_a resignation_n thereby_o to_o obtain_v a_o further_a quicken_a in_o grace_n a_o further_o strengthen_v of_o the_o inward_a man_n and_o all_o by_o a_o near_a communion_n of_o christ_n in_o his_o fullness_n thus_o this_o holy_a sacrament_n shall_v seal_v unto_o our_o heart_n the_o comfort_n of_o this_o assurance_n that_o he_o will_v never_o leave_v we_o nor_o forsake_v we_o iv._o let_v we_o offer_v up_o to_o god_n the_o sacrifice_n of_o a_o break_a heart_n and_o a_o contrite_a spirit_n which_o sorrow_n of_o contrition_n must_v be_v like_o that_o of_o one_o mourn_v for_o the_o dead_a a_o funeral_n sorrow_n the_o deep_a of_o mourning_n like_o that_o of_o one_o mourn_v for_o her_o only_a son_n the_o sad_a of_o funeral_n and_o for_o our_o sin_n deep_a humiliation_n be_v 〈◊〉_d necessary_a whereby_o we_o confess_v the_o guâ—lt_n of_o our_o sin_n bewail_v the_o bitterness_n of_o distress_n deprecate_v god_n wrath_n and_o implore_v his_o mercy_n for_o a_o full_a and_o free_a pardon_n of_o our_o sin_n a_o prayer_n for_o saturday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n o_o thou_o bless_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a sweetness_n who_o art_n infinite_o sweet_a to_o my_o weary_a soul_n than_o all_o earthly_a enjoyment_n in_o who_o presence_n be_v the_o fullness_n of_o joy_n and_o at_o who_o right_a hand_n be_v pleasure_n for_o evermore_o forgive_v the_o folly_n and_o infirmity_n of_o i_o thy_o sinful_a servant_n who_o have_v foolish_o prefer_v these_o transitory_a drop_n of_o insufficient_a joy_n which_o have_v be_v wearisome_a and_o burdensome_a unto_o i_o to_o those_o thy_o river_n of_o eternal_a pleasure_n in_o which_o thy_o bless_a saint_n do_v sweet_o bathe_v their_o happy_a soul_n where_o everlasting_a jâ—y_n be_v on_o their_o head_n and_o thy_o eternal_a comfort_n in_o their_o heart_n ii_o lord_n open_a my_o eye_n now_o 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