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A08889
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The meditat[i]ons of saint Bernard; Tractatus de interiori domo. English
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Bernard, of Clairvaux, Saint, 1090 or 91-1153.
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STC 1917; ESTC S108390
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compence_n or_o dyspyse_v lettyd_v and_o wythdrewe_v not_o his_o confessyon_n but_o necessyte_n ¶_o accusing_n by_o confessyon_n of_o dyvers_a syne_n xiiijo._o in_o the_o chapytre_n where_o i_o ought_v to_o have_v amend_v my_o sin_n i_o have_v addyd_v and_o put_v sin_n to_o sin_n when_o i_o accuse_v or_o complain_v of_o for_o they_o have_v other_o excuse_v they_o by_o some_o mean_a or_o elly_n i_o have_v all_o togyder_n deny_v they_o or_o elly_n i_o have_v defend_v they_o and_o answer_v unpacyent_o and_o without_o reason_n &_o that_o be_v worst_a of_o all_o since_o there_o be_v no_o sin_n wherwyth_o i_o be_o not_o somewhat_o fylyd_v or_o may_v be_v fylyd_v it_o be_v right_n that_o all_o occasyon_n remen_v &_o put_v away_o i_o promise_v meke_o tamende_v how_o somever_n and_o of_o who_o soever_o i_o be_v accuse_v or_o complain_v of_o that_o i_o may_v thereby_o be_v delyver_v from_o sin_n do_v &_o to_o come_v ¶_o take_v heed_n here_o in_o aswell_o to_o the_o order_n as_o to_o the_o nombre_fw-fr for_z we_o go_v comyn_o fro_o less_o evyll_n to_o the_o more_o i_o fere_v the_o multytude_n of_o my_o own_o sin_n have_v drade_n to_o reprove_v transgressyon_n &_o trespass_n of_o other_o and_o therefore_o i_o have_v be_v a_o auctoure_n of_o death_n for_o i_o have_v not_o expel_v &_o thrust_v out_o venym_a that_o i_o by_o due_a calling_n on_o may_v have_v put_v out_o i_o have_v have_v indygnation_n ayenste_n they_o that_o reprevyd_v i_o of_o vice_n &_o i_o have_v hate_v those_o that_o i_o ought_v to_o have_v love_v those_o thing_n that_o noy_v i_o or_o dyspleyse_v i_o have_v desire_v their_o destruction_n &_o yet_o i_o know_v that_o they_o be_v good_a in_o their_o nature_n &_o kind_n &_o make_v of_o a_o good_a maker_n but_o they_o be_v noisome_a to_o i_o by_o cause_n i_o be_v evyll_n &_o use_v they_o evyll_n for_o there_o be_v no_o thing_n contrary_a to_o i_o but_o i_o myself_o it_o be_v i_o what_o soever_o may_v noye_v i_o and_o i_o be_o a_o burden_n to_o myself_o also_o i_o have_v desire_v that_o god_n shall_v not_o know_v my_o sin_n or_o that_o he_o will_v not_o or_o that_o he_o may_v not_o punysshe_v they_o and_o so_o i_o will_v god_n to_o have_v be_v unwyse_a unryghtwy_n &_o impotent_a that_o which_o if_o we_o be_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v god_n there_o be_v no_o pride_n above_o my_o pride_n therefore_o the_o word_n of_o my_o trespass_n be_v far_o from_o my_o health_n soth_o my_o pride_n be_v suspect_v to_o god_n and_o it_o may_v not_o be_v that_o i_o with_o it_o be_v torn_v ayene_v to_o grace_n for_o their_o lodge_a be_v dyvers_a and_o they_o may_v not_o dwell_v both_o togyder_n in_o one_o soul_n the_o which_o will_v not_o dwell_v to_o guider_n in_o heaven_n soth_o pride_n begin_v in_o heaven_n but_o it_o be_v as_o unmyndfull_a of_o the_o way_n that_o it_o fall_v by_o may_v not_o tear_v thither_o afterward_o when_o thayr_a be_v trowble_v with_o rein_n or_o great_a cold_n of_o great_a heat_n i_o grutchyd_v wycked_o ayenste_n god_n for_o soothe_v all_o thing_n that_o we_o receyve_v to_o the_o use_n of_o life_n we_o tear_v to_o the_o use_n of_o sign_n and_o therefore_o right_a be_v that_o we_o the_o which_o sin_n in_o all_o thing_n be_v smyten_v &_o punyssh_v in_o all_o thing_n i_o have_v often_o time_n at_o divyne_a seruyce_n break_v my_o voy_n that_o i_o may_v sing_v the_o swetter_n oft_o time_n i_o have_v more_o playsyre_n in_o mesure_a of_o the_o voice_n thenne_fw-fr in_o compunction_n of_o the_o herte_fw-fr soth_o almyghty_a god_n from_o who_o none_o unlefull_a deed_n be_v hide_v desire_v no_o clernesse_n of_o voy_n but_o clennes_n of_o herte_n for_o when_o the_o synger_n be_v about_o to_o please_v the_o people_n with_o his_o voy_n he_o provoke_v our_o lord_n to_o wrath_n with_o his_o shrewd_a manner_n i_o have_v oft_o time_n by_o great_a importunyte_n &_o subtylte_n or_o wylnes_n of_o mind_n gooth_o licence_n of_o my_o prelate_n to_o speak_v or_o to_o do_v some_o other_o thing_n like_o a_o wretch_n take_v no_o heed_n that_o he_o dysceyve_v &_o begyle_v himself_o that_o other_o open_o or_o preve_o be_v aboutwarde_a that_o his_o goostly_a fader_fw-mi may_v enjoin_v he_o that_o that_o he_o desire_v i_o have_v oft_o time_n desire_v to_o great_o a_o edle_n or_o a_o knife_n or_o some_o such_o thing_n of_o lytyl_o valour_n &_o have_v not_o confess_v it_o for_o i_o hope_v not_o it_o have_v be_v sin_n by_o cause_n of_o the_o lytell_a valour_n but_o soth_o it_o be_v lytel_a dyffrence_n whether_o a_o vile_a or_o a_o precyous_a thing_n be_v desire_v when_o thaffection_n or_o desire_n be_v ylyke_o corrupt_a for_o the_o knife_n be_v not_o vice_n but_o the_o unlefull_a appetyte_n of_o the_o knife_n ne_o gold_n be_v not_o vice_n ▪_o but_o the_o unlefull_a desire_n of_o gold_n i_o have_v not_o travayl_v in_o labour_n somoche_n as_o i_o may_v or_o shall_v have_v do_v i_o have_v be_v so_o idle_a in_o scylence_n that_o in_o that_o ydelnesse_n i_o think_v no_o prouffyte_n of_o my_o neighbour_n i_o seek_v not_o the_o contemplation_n of_o god_n soth_o he_o prouffyte_v lytyll_o to_o himself_o that_o prouffyte_v not_o other_o when_o he_o may_v i_o have_v boast_v i_o of_o ryghtwysnesse_n wen_a there_o have_v be_v a_o right_n great_a virtue_n where_o be_v a_o great_a fall_n of_o sin_n also_o i_o make_v vice_n of_o virtue_n for_o ryghtwysnesse_n when_o he_o excedyth_v &_o pass_v his_o dute_fw-mi &_o manere_fw-mi or_o measure_n engender_v the_o vice_n of_o cruelty_n and_o over_o moche_n petty_a &_o pacyence_n bring_v for_o the_o break_n of_o dyscyplyne_v &_o wantonness_n and_o so_o oft_o time_n that_o be_v vice_n the_o which_o some_o man_n ween_v be_v virtue_n as_o a_o remysse_o unquyknesse_n some_o man_n ween_v be_v mekenes_n and_o the_o vice_n of_o slougth_n false_o feyn_v to_o be_v the_o virtue_n of_o quyetnesse_n &_o rest_n i_o feign_v i_o to_o be_v that_o that_o i_o be_v not_o i_o say_v that_o i_o will_v that_o i_o will_v not_o i_o say_v one_o thing_n with_o my_o mouth_n &_o i_o think_v a_o neither_o with_o my_o herte_n and_o so_o i_o hold_v my_o wulffysshe_a conscyence_n under_o a_o shepy_n skin_n for_o a_o wulffyshe_a conscyence_n be_v a_o slake_n &_o slow_a conversacyon_n beest_o cogytacyon_n feign_a confessyon_n short_a &_o seldom_o compunction_n obedience_n without_o devotion_n prayer_z without_o intention_n rede_a without_o edyfyeng_v &_o prouffyte_n a_o servant_n without_o cyrcunspection_n &_o take_v heed_n o_o how_o hard_o be_v thyse_n to_o i_o that_o i_o speak_v for_o in_o speak_v of_o they_o i_o strike_v my_o own_o selfe·_n nevertheless_o by_o cause_n i_o deny_v not_o myself_o to_o be_v a_o sinner_n but_o know_v my_o sin_n peraventure_fw-fr against_o god_n that_o meek_a juge_n this_o knowledge_n of_o sin_n shall_v purchaa_n i_o foryevenes_n i_o shall_v tell_v therefore_o i_o shall_v tell_v my_o wretchydnes_n if_o peraventure_fw-fr his_o great_a petty_a meve_v he_o i_o shall_v tell_v the_o my_o sin_n for_o the_o confessyon_n of_o sin_n be_v the_o begin_n of_o health_n i_o have_v a_o great_a crown_n &_o round_a clothing_n i_o keep_v the_o rule_n of_o fast_a i_o keep_v the_o hour_n of_o seruyce_n but_o my_o heart_n be_v far_o from_o my_o god_n i_o behold_v that_o outward_a thing_n deem_v that_o all_o thing_n ben_fw-mi sauf_a &_o well_o in_o i_o not_o feel_v the_o inward_a worm_n that_o gnaw_v within_o stranger_n have_v eten_v &_o waste_v my_o strengthe_n &_o i_o have_v not_o know_v and_o therefore_o i_o walk_v altogyder_n in_o those_o thing_n that_o ben_fw-mi outward_a &_o unknow_v my_o inward_a thing_n be_o effuse_a &_o spylte_n as_o water_v &_o be_o bring_v to_o nought_o forget_a thing_n paste_v neglygent_fw-fr of_o thing_n present_a not_o prevyde_a thing_n to_o come_v i_o be_o unkind_a to_o benefyce_n &_o good_a dede_n prone_a &_o ready_a to_o evyll_n thing_n &_o slow_a to_o good_a thing_n if_o i_o behold_v myself_o inly_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_o unclean_a and_o if_o i_o behold_v not_o myself_o inly_o i_o know_v not_o myself_o and_o when_o i_o behold_v myself_o i_o may_v not_o suffer_v myself_o i_o find_v so_o moche_n in_o i_o that_o be_v worthy_a rebuke_n &_o confusyon_n and_o the_o oft_o &_o more_o suptylly_a that_o i_o dyscusse_v myself_o the_o more_o abhomynation_n i_o find_v in_o corner_n of_o my_o heart_n for_o since_o i_o begin_v to_o sin_n i_o coude_fw-fr never_n escape_v one_o day_n with_o out_o sin_n but_o i_o add_v &_o put_v to_o sin_n to_o sin_n &_o i_o have_v they_o before_o my_o eye_n &_o yet_o i_o sorrow_n not_o i_o see_v thing_n that_o i_o shall_v be_v ashamed_a of_o &_o yet_o i_o be_o not_o ashamed_a i_o behold_v thing_n to_o be_v sorrow_a but_o i_o