according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o 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herself_o in_o this_o high_a condition_n for_o oftentimes_o she_o must_v act_v according_a to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o dictate_v of_o pure_a reason_n which_o afford_v her_o matter_n of_o sigh_n and_o languish_n after_o her_o belove_a this_o be_v that_o which_o kindle_v in_o her_o breast_n a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o leave_v this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n wherein_o by_o the_o common_a misery_n of_o mankind_n she_o live_v a_o life_n displease_v to_o herself_o for_o be_v not_o whole_o for_o god_n as_o she_o desire_v it_o seem_v to_o her_o a_o kind_n of_o death_n and_o see_v she_o can_v continual_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n without_o vicissitude_n it_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o death_n unto_o she_o a_o death_n unknown_a to_o sensual_a man_n but_o such_o that_o be_v spiritual_a be_v very_o sensible_a thereof_o o_o jesus_n deliver_v i_o from_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v here_o i_o can_v live_v your_o life_n of_o purity_n in_o 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faithful_o to_o practice_n on_o the_o occasion_n of_o cross_n contempt_n and_o disgrace_n which_o happen_v to_o we_o in_o this_o life_n i_o ought_v daily_o to_o endeavour_v after_o purity_n although_o i_o can_v attain_v the_o high_a practice_n because_o the_o course_n of_o my_o life_n wherein_o god_n have_v place_v i_o will_v not_o permit_v it_o nor_o do_v exact_a of_o i_o to_o attempt_v of_o myself_o the_o grand_a effect_n of_o purity_n lest_o i_o shall_v be_v discourage_v by_o fail_v in_o the_o enterprise_n this_o be_v only_o the_o perfection_n of_o the_o great_a saint_n and_o herein_o we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o be_v infinite_o wise_a we_o need_v not_o fear_v have_v he_o for_o our_o leader_n but_o as_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v too_o rigorous_a so_o we_o must_v not_o be_v too_o fainthearted_a in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n but_o apply_v ourselves_o with_o love_n and_o resolution_n to_o all_o occasion_n by_o suffer_v peaceable_o and_o with_o contentation_n whatever_o injury_n we_o may_v receive_v from_o other_o in_o seek_v too_o much_o their_o own_o interest_n all_o suffering_n be_v to_o be_v entertain_v with_o love_n but_o especial_o what_o we_o suffer_v by_o injustice_n for_o be_v not_o this_o that_o which_o the_o son_n of_o god_n have_v do_v principal_o upon_o earth_n by_o suffer_v innocent_o do_v not_o therefore_o say_v i_o will_v suffer_v this_o injury_n if_o he_o that_o do_v it_o have_v the_o least_o reason_n for_o it_o for_o this_o proceed_v from_o self-love_n and_o passion_n it_o may_v well_o be_v that_o he_o have_v no_o reason_n to_o do_v you_o this_o injury_n but_o divine_a reason_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n teach_v you_o to_o bear_v it_o patient_o it_o be_v good_a to_o suffer_v thus_o and_o in_o this_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n be_v
eminent_a way_n but_o judge_v ourselves_o unworthy_a thereof_o and_o content_a with_o little_a our_o saviour_n shall_v please_v to_o give_v we_o we_o must_v cooperate_v humble_o and_o faithful_o with_o that_o small_a portion_n of_o grace_n we_o have_v already_o and_o not_o grow_v idle_a wish_v for_o those_o eminent_a grace_n wherewith_o perhaps_o our_o soul_n shall_v never_o be_v beautify_v this_o be_v one_o of_o the_o chief_a point_n of_o humility_n to_o be_v content_a with_o that_o little_a portion_n we_o have_v in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n and_o judge_v ourselves_o unworthy_a of_o god_n favour_n it_o be_v true_a there_o be_v nothing_o we_o ought_v so_o high_o esteem_v as_o grace_n and_o its_o increase_n in_o we_o and_o desire_v it_o of_o god_n with_o incessant_a prayer_n but_o this_o must_v be_v with_o perfect_a submission_n to_o his_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n that_o we_o may_v not_o disturb_v the_o peace_n of_o our_o soul_n on_o one_o side_n i_o behold_v my_o extreme_a misery_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o so_o depress_v that_o all_o my_o natural_a strength_n and_o endeavour_n do_v what_o they_o can_v to_o the_o utmost_a can_v never_o bring_v i_o out_o of_o myself_o on_o the_o other_o side_n i_o burn_v with_o desire_n to_o be_v whole_o for_o god_n by_o live_v a_o supernatural_a and_o spiritual_a life_n it_o be_v to_o you_o o_o divine_a spirit_n i_o address_v my_o sigh_n the_o infinite_a source_n of_o all_o grace_n you_o know_v i_o have_v a_o longing_n to_o live_v this_o spiritual_a life_n in_o the_o exercise_n whereof_o i_o shall_v find_v the_o true_a practice_n of_o divine_a love_n by_o which_o i_o shall_v satisfy_v my_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v whole_o for_o jesus_n and_o shall_v live_v no_o more_o after_o my_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o maxim_n of_o human_a prudence_n but_o i_o see_v how_o impossible_a it_o be_v for_o i_o to_o attain_v this_o unless_o you_o vouchsafe_v to_o assist_v i_o with_o your_o illumination_n against_o my_o darkness_n with_o your_o strength_n against_o my_o weakness_n with_o your_o continual_a supply_n against_o my_o relapse_n for_o how_o often_o o_o divine_a spirit_n have_v i_o begin_v this_o supernatural_a life_n and_o fall_v from_o it_o conquer_v by_o my_o nature_n and_o worldly_a temptation_n draw_v i_o after_o you_o so_o powerful_o and_o continual_o that_o i_o may_v no_o more_o return_n into_o myself_o but_o may_v follow_v your_o attract_v with_o perseverance_n i_o will_v follow_v you_o dear_a jesus_n in_o the_o state_n of_o your_o mortal_a life_n in_o annihilation_n contempt_n poverty_n and_o suffering_n and_o if_o i_o lose_v the_o sight_n of_o you_o in_o those_o obscurity_n which_o sometime_o cloud_v my_o soul_n yet_o let_v i_o not_o lose_v courage_n provide_v i_o continue_v in_o your_o way_n that_o be_v in_o the_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o the_o true_a christian_a life_n you_o will_v not_o be_v far_o from_o i_o it_o be_v impossible_a that_o jesus_n annihilate_v and_o suffer_a shall_v not_o be_v near_o to_o a_o soul_n suffer_v and_o annihilate_v well_o then_o though_o we_o may_v lose_v the_o sight_n of_o jesus_n the_o light_n we_o have_v in_o prayer_n leave_v we_o though_o we_o feel_v he_o not_o by_o sensible_a influence_n yet_o we_o be_v assure_v that_o he_o be_v near_o we_o if_o we_o be_v in_o his_o way_n by_o self-denial_n and_o a_o love_n of_o humiliation_n for_o his_o sake_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v a_o soul_n to_o be_v content_a to_o follow_v the_o annihilation_n of_o jesus_n without_o the_o feel_n of_o his_o perfume_n and_o sweetness_n she_o do_v practise_v the_o purity_n of_o love_n in_o this_o condition_n for_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o light_n and_o consolation_n which_o be_v very_o harsh_a to_o nature_n and_o suffer_v it_o content_o be_v one_o of_o the_o most_o excellent_a act_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n which_o consist_v chief_o in_o a_o perfect_a resignation_n to_o suffer_v as_o well_o inward_o as_o outward_o when_o god_n please_v i_o be_o very_o sensible_a by_o experience_n that_o there_o be_v a_o vast_a difference_n between_o think_v and_o do_v talk_v and_o live_v this_o true_a christian_a life_n when_o we_o meet_v with_o no_o repugnance_n we_o find_v it_o not_o difficult_a to_o practise_v virtue_n whereof_o the_o idaea_n be_v as_o sweet_a as_o the_o act_n be_v bitter_a of_o such_o as_o consist_v in_o privation_n and_o suffering_n i_o be_o in_o a_o state_n wherein_o i_o feel_v repugnance_n and_o be_o resolve_v thereby_o to_o humble_v myself_o the_o more_o and_o keep_v the_o peace_n of_o my_o soul_n by_o a_o entire_a confidence_n of_o the_o succour_n which_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n will_v vouchsafe_v unto_o i_o i_o consider_v that_o nothing_o be_v more_o seeble_a than_o the_o apostle_n before_o pentecost_n they_o hide_v themselves_o abandon_v their_o master_n in_o his_o suffering_n and_o peter_n deny_v he_o but_o after_o they_o have_v receive_v the_o holy_a ghost_n he_o infuse_v such_o strength_n into_o their_o soul_n that_o they_o become_v powerful_a and_o courageous_a to_o admiration_n chap._n xv._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o human_a prudence_n the_o supernatural_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a mortification_n of_o deprave_a nature_n 1._o for_o it_o be_v certain_a first_o that_o we_o can_v live_v this_o excellent_a life_n but_o by_o annihilate_v our_o sense_n and_o reason_n 2._o second_o that_o this_o life_n be_v whole_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o can_v be_v but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o his_o influence_n and_o sacred_a motion_n 3._o three_o that_o the_o soul_n which_o live_v this_o life_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o sense_n und_fw-ge reason_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o prayer_n or_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o offer_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n as_o a_o continual_a sacrifice_n that_o though_o oftentimes_o w_n must_v do_v thing_n sensual_a as_o to_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o these_o must_v be_v do_v as_o grace_n direct_v we_o and_o other_o thing_n according_a to_o reason_n as_o to_o love_v our_o relation_n and_o friend_n yet_o this_o must_v be_v only_o in_o god_n and_o as_o his_o oracle_n do_v dictate_v to_o we_o o_o life_n of_o grace_n how_o be_v thou_o a_o continual_a death_n and_o mortification_n who_o live_v christianly_o live_v a_o martyrdom_n tota_n vita_fw-la christiana_n crux_fw-la est_fw-la &_o martyrium_fw-la however_o it_o be_v a_o joyful_a martyrdom_n for_o solid_a joy_n can_v but_o make_v glad_a the_o soul_n where_o grace_n inhabit_v o_o that_o this_o fundamental_a truth_n of_o our_o salvation_n do_v once_o well_o sink_v into_o our_o heart_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o eternal_a king_n of_o glory_n leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o father_n and_o become_v man_n to_o live_v and_o die_v in_o infinite_a humiliation_n jesus_n give_v we_o life_n by_o his_o death_n he_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o grace_n by_o ruine_v himself_o according_a to_o nature_n he_o purchase_v eternity_n for_o we_o by_o yield_v up_o his_o temporal_a life_n and_o the_o evangelist_n express_v his_o death_n do_v on_o set_v purpose_n use_v these_o word_n emisit_fw-la spiritum_fw-la he_o send_v forth_o his_o spirit_n without_o doubt_n he_o send_v it_o into_o the_o heart_n of_o his_o faithful_a servant_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v learn_v to_o live_v by_o his_o spirit_n to_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o so_o say_v st._n paul_n misit_fw-la deus_fw-la spiritum_fw-la filii_fw-la svi_fw-la in_o corda_fw-la nostra_fw-la ut_fw-la qui_fw-la vivunt_fw-la jam_fw-la non_fw-la sibi_fw-la vivre_fw-fr sed_fw-la ei_fw-la qui_fw-la pro_fw-la ipsis_fw-la mortuus_fw-la est_fw-la what_o remain_v then_o but_o that_o we_o banish_v our_o carnal_a spirit_n which_o carry_v we_o on_o to_o sensual_a delight_n although_o sometime_o not_o sinful_a let_v we_o love_v the_o spirit_n of_o penance_n of_o suffer_v of_o self-denial_n and_o humiliation_n gerson_n have_v 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