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Salvation Iohn Howe Mr. CORBET's ENQUIRY INTO THE State of his Soul His Introduction IN order to peace of conscience and assurance of my good estate towards God it must in reason be supposed that I may rightly understand the marks of sincerity set down in Gods Word as also the predominant inclination and motions of my own soul and that I may be so far assured of my right understanding of the things aforesaid as to have no reasonable ground of doubting thereof For I have no other ordinary way to know my sincerity in order to the said peace and assurance but to examine it according to my best understanding by the marks thereof set down in Gods Word In this Self-Examination it is requisite that I use all Diligence and Impartiality with Constancy and that I earnestly pray for Gods assistance in it and heartily offer my self to his search as David did Psal. 139. 23. Wherefore if upon the most impartial and diligent search that I can make according to the best of my understanding together with earnest and constant Prayer to God to assist me therein as in my greatest concern it doth most rationally appear to me that the predominant inclination and motions of my soul are agreeable to the marks of sincerity set down in Gods Word then my conscience doing its office aright is to judge for me accordingly viz. that I am sincere And in this judgment I am to acquiesce because it is the Judgment of Gods Agent and Minister which he hath set up within me to judge under him of my internal state according to his Law by which he himself doth and will judge me God hath the same aspect upon the Soul which Conscience his Vicegerent hath as it from time to time or ordinarily judgeth not against him or without him but under him and according to his judgment either acquitting or condemning To this purpose the Apostle speaketh 1 John 3. 20 21. If our heart condemn us God is greater than our Heart and knoweth all things If our heart condemn us not then have we confidence towards God The State of my Own SOUL According to the strictest Search that I can make Psal. 139. 23 24. Search me O Lord and know my Heart try me and know my Thoughts and see if there be any wicked way in me and lead me in the way Everlasting Amen The following particulars were set down in Decemb. Jan. Feb. An. 1663. AS far as I am able to discern my heart and wayes I have chosen the Lord for my portion I take up my rest in him and not in the Creature To love and fear and admire and bless him and to have communion with him is my chief joy And the eternal Vision and Fruition of God is my great hope I would not only have God herafter but here in this World for my chief good He is even now better than all the World I come to God by Jesus Christ. And as I believe in God I believe also in Christ and rejoyce and glory in him and acknowledging my own sinfulness and unworthyness I rest intirely on him as the ground of my justification to Life and of all favour and acceptance with God I receive Christ as my Lord and give up my self to him I let him into my heart by Faith I esteem him precious and am willing to suffer the loss of all that I may win him I desire to know him in the Power of his Death and Resurrection and am much grieved that I do so weakly experience that power and feel it no more operative in me in my dying to sin and 〈◊〉 World and in living and walking in the Spirit I do not cease to lament the more heinous sins of my Life and cannot forbear the continual imploring of the pardon of them I do not return again to them and I resolve never so to do I watch and pray and strive against all sin but especially against those sins to which I am more especially inclined my conflicts are daily and am put hard to it But I do not yield up my self to any sin nor lie down in it yea I do not suffer sinful Cogitations to lodge in me Howbeit I am many times much discomposed damped in Spirit deadned in Duty distracted in my Studies and molested and hindered every way by the sin that dwelleth in me But I resolve that sin shall have no rest in my soul and that I will never injoy it Though I cannot keep sin out of my heart yet it doth not reign in my mortal body nor do I yield my members to the service of it I would fulfil all Righteousness and owe nothing to any man but love I had a hundred sold rather suffer wrong than do wrong It was said of Christ that no guile was found in his mouth and of the faithful Company that followed the Lamb that no guile was found in their mouth And that it may be so with me I indeavour with my whole heart I trust God with my chiefest outward Concernment even with that about which I am most Solicitous and wherein to be satisfied is of great moment to me for that it hath as great an influence upon my Spirit as any outward thing hath And I do believe that God will provide for me herein or otherwise supply the want of it My earnest desire of God is that my outward condition may be so stated by his Wife and Gracious providence as I may be least exposed to temptation and best disposed and furthered unto Duty I have an Inclination to seek Self particularly in vain applause and that in Religious services and herein I have been highly guilty but I shame my self for it before God and I am willing to be satisfied in the Praise that comes from him alone and I trust through his Grace that I can deny my self in matter of Reputation to do his Will I love the Lord Jesus Christ and all his Saints The broken estate of the Church especialy by intestine Evils is a great trouble to my Spirit The scandals of professors I am truly grieved at and I would not by their weaknesses seek to excuse my own faults or an advancing of my own Virtues I have no setled Bitterness and Revenge against my Enemies but I love pitty and pray for them As concerning God's Enemies I am more provoked but I would not be inhumane or cruel against them For the wrath of Man worketh not the Righteousness of God I contemn none I would not imbitter the Spirit of any I would answer all obligations of courtesy as accounting it a Righteousness I would not insult over the weakness of any and this is partly out of Natural tenderness and Moral Considerations and I find that the goodness and kindness of God the meekness gentleness of Christ hath here unto made Impression upon me I find upon the review of my Life past according to the clearest judgment that I can make that I have not gone
could live more by Faith in this trying affliction I indeavour to impress upon my Soul those arguments which the Scripture affords for Patience and Long-suffering with joyfulness But this will not do the work unless the Spirit of Faith and Patience be given from him from whom comes down every good and perfect gift I pray I cry to my Father that he would give me the Holy Spirit according to his Gracious promise that I might shew forth the Power of his grace and that I might not dishonour him nor discourage his Children nor reproach Religion by my weakness And in my bearing of it well my Reputation is nothing regarded by me in comparison of the honour of Christ. Him I desire to Gloryfy both in my obedience and patience I do not love God the less because of his correcting hand upon me As my necessities drive me so His Love draws me and my Love brings me to him I look to him as my Father And shall I not honour my Father and give him reverence when I am chastned of him The Lord is my Portion saith my Soul therefore will I hope in him I will wait for the Lord who hideth his face I will look after him He retaineth not his Anger for ever because he delighteth in Mercy Therefore he will turn again and have compassion upon me If he kill me I will put my trust in him for he will not cast me off for ever if I cleave to him with Faith unseigned but even through Death it self will he save me He will bring me forth to the Light and I shall behold his Righteousness When I say what shall I do in case of such or such troublesome or dangerous consequents my heart answers be not careful God will provide I will leave it to him Besides a Natural desire of ease and rest the sense of the temptation which I am liable in this condition makes me importunate to be delivered from it I feellingly know the weakness of my own heart and I am not ignorant of the Devil's malice and subtilty and how he will make the fiercest assaults where I am weakest Whereupon I tremble in my self for fear of being tempted and shaken and greatly amazed And upon this ground respecting my Souls safety I judg an humble and patient importunity with God for the removing or moderating of my distemper to be my Duty Yet to keep me from being over solicitous and anxious in this thing I consider that God doth govern and limit all our temptations and will not suffer us to be tempted above what we are able but will with the temptation open a way for us to escape Nevertheless I find that I do much offend by too great a vehemence of desire to be delivered from this grievous burden without due submission also by too much disquietness and dejection when after some expectation of a benefit by that means I perceive that my hope thereof is like to be frustrated The Lord help me to carry it better and as I ought to do and keep my mind in its right frame My business under this Affliction is to be careful about my own part and to leave God's part to his care My part is to do my duty and to get the benefit of the Affliction but to remove it is God's part Let me perform what belongs to me and what belongs to God he will certainly perform in his own time and way The Sum of my duty is Graciously to comply with the dispensation and to behave my self suitably to it and to please and honour God under it Accordingly in this I Labour and in this way I seek for comfort And first I justify God and judg my self God exercises his own holiness and justice in this Castigation His justice and holiness I approve and accept the punishment of mine Iniquity and exercise an hatred of the Sin for which I now smart I will bear the indignation of the Lord because I have sinned against him and I repent with a self-abhorrence And I lye in the dust at his feet and wait on him untill that he have Mercy upon me and I am glad to receive Mercy upon his terms I have fled for refuge to lay hold on the hope that is set before me I do most heartily take God for my portion and I had rather Live the divine Life in Conformity to him and Fellowship with him here in the first-fruits of the Spirit and hereafter in the fulness of Glory than live in the fulness of the delights and Contentments that belong to the Natural Life upon earth in a way of Sin and allienation from the Life of God I do most heartily take Christ according to the offer of the Gospel not only to be justified from my Sins and delivered from the wrath to come by his merits but also to be Sanctified by his Word and Spirit and to be governed by his Laws and to be brought by him unto the aforesaid fellowship with God And my Life and practice in the main Bent and ordinary course thereof is according to this choice in a daily walking not by sight and sense but by faith not after the flesh but after the Spirit in setting my heart not on earthly but on heavenly things I cast off vain desires and hopes and my expectations of good are from God according to the tenor of his promises When I walk in darkness and see no light of outward comfort humane helps and visible means I will trust in the Name of the Lord and stay my self upon my God I strive with my own spirit to subdue it to the will of God And in whatsoever I am tempted to be most impatient therein I labour most for patience My great care is that I may not sin against my God in any kind and more especially that I may not sin by a rebellious impatience under his correcting hand In this present distress I look upon my self as being upon my Tryal and therefore I look more diligently to my behaviour in it Now a price is put into my hand for the proof of my sincerity and I labour accordingly to make good proof of it I am willing to serve God in pain and patience else I were unworthy of so good a Master I am willing to be conformable to Christ in suffering else I were unworthy of him But here I must say again the spirit indeed is willing but the flesh is weak Lord help my unwillingness I am called to deny all the pleasures of sence and to mind them no more and I am heartily willing of it I am called to declare to others by the exercise of Faith and Patience the Righteonsness of the Lord and his tender Mercies and great Faithfulness and that he alone is Alsufficent O that the power of his grace may be thus magnified in me This is the fruit of the Afflictions that I look after And in this will I labour more and more And through the help of Divine
backward but proceeded forward in the wayes of Godliness And this increase I reckon not by sudden fits now and then hapening but by the main progress of the work in the total Sum. I have been grieved that I am no more elevated in the hope of Heaven and that I cannot attain to a longing desire to be gone hence and to be there with Christ. I have laboured to raise up my heart and have had enlargement even when deadness and flatness had been upon me I think with my self sometimes were my Evidences clear for Heaven I would exalt to be gone hence this very hour but I find not this readiness at all times When I have had a good enterprize in hand for God's Glory and some publick benefit I watched against Vanity of mind and vain Glory in carrying it on and I desire purely to aym at God ' s Glory and to be satisfied with my reward in him And I take heed that I forget not my Mortality when I am pursuing that design but I would fain bring up my self to this frame to be contented to be taken hence in the midst of it as judging that I shall be no looser by my removal and God cannot stand in need of that Service Lord forgive my inordinate self-love which hath disturbed the Actings of pure Charity in divers passages of Moment For self-love in my sensitive appetite hath had motions contrary to the Love of God and my Neighbour Nevertheless my Judgment hath disallowed it and I have for the most part acted against it and for that which the Love of God and my Neighbour did command O Lord forgive my ten thousand Talents I come to Jesus Christ who hath made satisfaction and lay this heavy reckoning to his account Lord forgive my Iniquity for it is exceeding great These following passages were set down March 4. An. 1675. UPon the Review of the foregoing Evidences after Twelve Years I find through Grace the same abiding in me and more and more Rooted And some particulars which did make me more to doubt of my good Estate I find to be since that time in a greater degree vanquished I have done what in me lies to call to remembrance all my remarkable Sins from my Childhood and Youth till now And as far as I can Judg I have Repented of them both generally and particularly And I now Repent of them all from the bottom of my Heart with a self Abhorrence if I can know my own Heart by the strictest and most impartial search that I can make Upon the best Judgment that I can make of the Nature of Sin and the Frame of my own Heart and Course of Life I know no Sin lying upon me which doth not consist with habitual Repentance and with the hatred of Sin and with an unseigned consent that God be my Saviour and Sanctifier and with the Loving of God above all The Mercy of God towards me in the prolonging of the day of Grace in the strivings of his Spirit in his Chastisements in the checks of Conscience in the Recovery of my Soul out of Distempers and Backslidings doth greatly affect my Heart and strongly engage me to Him and doth often call upon my Soul and all that is within me to Bless his holy Name Though my Spiritual growth be very low and slow yet to this present time I have not grown Worse but Better speaking of growth in the whole space or greater spaces of my time past and not every particular Day By Prayer and Endeavours long continued I have in some measure overcome a special very Sinful Distemster of Mind and gained the contrary Temper against a natural Propensity Though my Faith in Christ be weak yet to have part in his Promises I am ready to part with all that is dear in this World and I have no hope of Happiness but in Christ. Though I have had doubtings touching the promised Salvation yet I know that as to my own Felicity I prize nothing more than that Salvation being the glorifying and injoying God for Ever and I Embrace it as my best Good I Love Christ whom I have not seen and I am affected towards him as towards a person who taught and did the most excellent Things and promised a most excellent State to his Followers and purchased their Redemption at the dearest rate I am heartily grieved for loving God so little yet I am sure This I Wrote according to a full perswasion at that time I Love nothing more than God and in my esteem and choice I prefer the Spiritual Divine and Heavenly Life imcomparably before the Carnal Animal Earthly Life And this esteem and choice is made good by performance in Ordinary I Love to Love God And I desire this Love not only as an evidence of my Salvation but for it self I had much rather have a heart to love him perfectly than to have all the Riches Honours and Pleasures of this World My Conscience beares me witness that in the present exercise of my ministry I have no self-end of Worldly Advantage or Reputation among Men or any Interest of the Carnal Mind but if the Command of Christ and the necessities of Souls did not oblige me to this Service I should gladly retire to Privacy and Solitude My Temporal Estate is mean and low yet I am Contented with it and humbly bless God for what I have I Live in as narrow a compass for Expences as I can that I might have something to give to the Poor and to be helpful to those that are in Need according to my Ability And as God hath required of us to Love Mercy and our Saviour hath said It is a more Blessed thing to give than to receive so I have more pleasure in giving a Portion to the Needy as far as my mean Estate will bear than in laying out for the Delight of my own Sense or Worldly Conveniences And this proceeds not from a conceit of Merit in any thing that I can do but from a Love to please God and do Good Though I have a good Knowledge about the premises yet I am apt to waver about the Conclusion And though I apprehend the Evidences of my Sincerity to be clear yet a Timorousness remains in me Though I have not as yet overcome the Fear of Death yet I am sure that the unwillingness that is in me to Dye is not that I might enjoy the pleasures of Sense or any Gratification of the Animal Life I feel in my self a burden of Sin and Corruption much Sensuality Earthliness Selfishness nevertheless I judg there is that Predominancy of Love to God and Holiness which I hope is unmoveably seated in my Soul whereupon I hope that it cannot be that I should be cast out of his blissful Presence into that Perdition which is a State of immutable hatred of him And I apprehend that the most horrid and hellish state of Hell it self lyes in its Everlasting and utmost Enmity against
Grace I will not doubt of a good Issue while I am found in the Way of Duty To them who by Patient Continuance in Well-doing seek for Glory and Honour and Immortality God who cannot lye hath promised to give Eternal Life I am desirous to be delivered from this Affliction if it be the Will of the Lord upon this account that I might have a more notable proof of my freer choosing of God for my Portion when I am not thus driven to Him as now because I can go no where else for Comfort also of my freer turning from the World even then when I am capable of injoying it To have such a proof of these things in my self I should take for a great Advantage and be greatly Thankful Nevertheless for the quieting of my Mind I consider that my present Afflicted State doth better secure me from Temptations which might draw my Heart from God to the Love of the World in which respect Prosperity is far more Dangerous than Adversity Moreover my present State gives me Advantage for a higher proof of the Grace that is in me and of the Power of Divine Aid upholding me in a Life of Faith and Patience by which I Live upon God alone when Worldly Comfort fails me and by which I am enabled to overcome things Grievous to Nature and to get above not only the Pleasures but the sharp Pains of Sense and to Live and endure with little natural or bodily Rest. Also it gives me the advantage of exercising a resolved willing Self-Resignation to God in this Dispensation which is harsh to Flesh and Blood and a resting in Hope when there is no present appearance of help and a waiting and looking for the Lord who hides his Face and a cleaving to him by constant Love though he doth fore Bruise me If I continue in the exercise of these Graces they will give me a Good Proof that the Heavenly Nature is in me and will make way for great Assurance towards God and full Consolation in Christ Jesus And yet further I trust that I have long before this distress chosen God for my Portion and drawn off my Heart from the flattering Vanities of this World And I know that in this Distress I do not come to Him constrainedly or meerly as driven For I delight to draw nigh to Him to pour out my Heart before Him in Prayer and Meditation My Meditation of Him is Sweet to my Soul and I do not Love to be Diverted from it And when my Distemper is any whit more easy it Works unto a Rejoycing in Him And it is for enlargement of Heart towards Him that I chiefly desire bodily Ease and Rest. Hear my Cry O God Attend unto my Prayer I will Cry unto Thee when my Heart is overwhelmed Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. God the infinite Goodness and Love will not cast off a poor Soul that lies at his Feet and cryes for the Help of his Grace when it is ready to sink under the Burden and is willing to have Mercy upon his Terms Therefore I will still cry to Him and look for Him and lean upon Him will not depart from Him by an Evil Heart of Unbelief This I resolve in his Strength Lord Strengthen me unto the perfect Work of Patience Lord I heartily consent that Thou shouldest use me as Thou pleasest so Thou use me as one of those that Love thy Name Disposal is an effect of Propriety but it is alwayes a regular and a loving Disposal of the Subjects of his Government O! Deal favourably with thy Servant Thou Knowest my Frame Remenber that I am but Dust. The Lord will Perfect that which concerneth me Thy Mercy O Lord Endureth for Ever Forsake not the Works of thine own Hands O Lord without Thee I can do nothing Therefore I must Beg and Thou wilt give Grace sufficient without which I cannot Subsist For therein is the Life of my Spirit For Ever O Lord Thy Word is settled in Heaven Pitty me O Lord as a Father Pittyeth his Children Comfort me O Lord as one whom his Mother Comforteth The Lord will wait that He may be Gracious unto you For the Lord is a God of Judgment Blessed are all they that wait for Him Can I be in a better Hand As my professed Judgment is concerning Gods Proceeding so let me stand Affected towards it NOTES FOR My Self KEep thy Heart with all Diligence for out of it are the Issues of Life Death and Life are in the Power of the Tongue Entertain not a sensual Imagination for a Moment and give not way to the least Glance of the Eye towards Vanity Be alwayes expecting some Trouble or other to interrupt thy outward Peace and Rest. Never expect any thing from the World and when it offers thee any thing that is good for thee receive it but catch not at it greedily Be alwayes mindful what thou may'st do for thine own and others Salvation in every Instant upon every Occasion Dye daily In arguing with another watch against every inordinate Heat of Passion loud Speaking and every rash Word If any neglect or slight thee care not for it yet observe it Any Matter of Tryal to thee reckon among thy gains Take no delight of Sense but in a manifest and direct Subserviency to Spiritual Ends and use not that delight to irritate but to allay Sensuality When a sensual Imagination or Passion breaks in then excite a Tast of the Powers of the World to come and delay not to recover the Divine Frame What thou doubtest do not In thy Actions consider not only what is lawful but what is best in the present Circumstances and do that In every Delight of Sense watch against all Brutishness When thou art in Company where the Talk is but vain watch to put in a Word that may be to Edification If any despise thee do not bear a grudge against him for it And be not offended with any meerly because they do not honour thee When thou art framing Excuses take heed of speaking an Untruth or approaching near to it lest in avoiding the Offence of Man thou make too bold with God Take heed of this also when thou wouldst speak pleasingly and avoid Offence in speaking Use no Recreation or Delight of Sense but what thou canst at that very time desire of God that it may be sanctified to spiritual Ends. When thou hearest that another hath spoken any thing to thy Injury or Disparagement beware of a Transport of Anger that thou speak not harshly or unadvisedly against Him or too passionately for Self or as too much concerned for Self Uphold the Reputation of thy Colleague or any that is joyned with thee in Service as thou wouldst thine own Watch against all secret Pleasure in the lessening of another for advancing thy self Pray heartily for the Success of thy Colleague and others who perform the same Service that thou art ingaged in And rejoyce in
Do not value Men according to their Esteem of thee but according to their true Worth Watch against the Expectation of hearing thine own Praise and when such a Thought arises instantly suppress it When thou art commended let not thy Thoughts dwell on it with Delight but let it be to thee as nothing Take heed of too great a Valuation of thine own Work or Usefulness in thy Place and lay not too great a stress thereon When Friends out of Love over-value thee it concerns thee not to over-value thy self nor to take more than thy due though they give it Have a Habit of Compassion towards the Afflicted firmly fixed in thee that the Motions thereof may be sutably stirred up on every Occasion Let an Abhorrence of any Content in anothers Sufferings be deeply imprinted on thee that every Thought thereof may be prevented or instantly suppressed Yea hate all Disregard to anothers Misery Watch against all Eagerness and immoderate Delight in Eating and Drinking and against minding any kind of Food for the pleasing of the Sense Come to thy Meals not like a Bruit but as becomes a Saint Never terminate in the sensitive Pleasure but make use of it to raise thy Heart to God When thou hast eaten so much so that thou thinkest more is not expedient or is better forborn than taken proceed not to a Bit more lest thou be intangled or disturbed Still consider Is this Act I go about agreeable to one that hath Communion with God Will this Act promote Communion with God Do I come to this Act so as to have Communion with God thereby promoted Seek the lawful Contentment of any that are about thee as thou dost thy own and be as glad to gratify them as thy self so far as it is convenient for them Hate and shun all Motions of unworthy Selfishness And see that others be sharers with thee in thy pleasant Things and be not content to have them to thy self alone Be not over sollicitous for humouring thy self in sensitive Suavities but rather suspicious of it and be abstemious from it Always mind and do the present Duty Comply with the present Dispensation and make the most of it Thy business is to please God and God will provide for thy Comfort Lay thy Heart to Rest in the Will of God For there is no other Rest for the Soul to be thought on I will not indent with God for any good but what is included in the Covenant of Grace I will expect no good but according to the Tenor of that Covenant which is all my Salvation and all my Desire I am resolved that Pride shall not set me to Study or Preach or Pray or carry me on in any Service If thoughts of Men-pleasing or Mans Applause steal in with my honest intentions I will instantly cast them out as soon as they be discovered and I will VVatch and Pray for the preventing of them I will Watch when I go forth in my service for God that Pride do not send me forth Mens Opinion of me shall be nothing with me but the pleasing of God and the doing of good shall be my whole scope In performing Prayer I am intent upon God and his Hearing and observing my Thoughts and Words and I earnestly purpose and strive against Thoughts about mens observing and judging of my Performance Nevertheless I do find that together with my sincere and earnest Intention directed to God Thoughts of Regard to Mens Esteem and Judging will too often thrust in do what I can so as either to be pleased or troubled as I think they judge These Thoughts have greatly troubled my Spirit Hereupon I consider That a due Regard to Expressions for Mens sake that they be Affecting and not Offensive is not faulty but necessary and therefore must be heeded And I think that my thoughts above mens judging have this intention at last chiefly that my Expressions be Affecting and not Offensive yet I am jealous of the mixture of Corruption and Vanity I earnestly indeavour to have my Heart so filled with the Apprehension of God's infinite Majesty and my Infinite Concernment in him that all Impertinent thoughts may be quite swallowed up All designing and indeavouring to please men for my own praise I do at that very time detest and abandon yea at that very time I am sure I do very little regard either the Approbation and praise or the disallowance and dispraise of those very Persons about whom my thoughts are apt to run out as aforesaid I do my uttermost to prevent restrain and suppress all such thoughts they are a burden to me There is scarce any thing that stirs within me which hath less of my Will than these thoughts have There is scarce any thing against which I do more watch and pray and strive than against these thoughts And whatsoever tincture of Vanity and Corruption be found in them I am Heartily sorry for it I hate and loath it and I hope that the merciful God will not Impute it to me to the rejecting of my Prayer or to any breach between him and me I find that my very fear of this Evil and desire to avoid it doth draw my thoughts to it as a mans great desire to sleep and his fear that he shall not sleep doth commonly keep him waking These thoughts I abhor not only before and after but in the very time they come in And I strive with might and main against them If God approve my Service and own me in it I shall be abundantly satisfied though men what soever or how-many soever they be should despise and loath it On the contrary If men should never so highly approve it I can never be satisfied if God do not accept and bless it This I am sure of if I be sure of any thing I discern that by care I have brought it to that pass that my thoughts of others present with me in prayer are not with regard to their praise● which I value not but to what is fit to be done by me in that service and to their being affected with it I find I am prone to be anxiously scrupulous yet I should consider that there be insuitable weaknesses as Impertinent thoughts accompanying the best Performances FINIS His WRITINGS Published are 1. HIs History of Col. Massy's Military-Actions at and near Glocester 2. The Interest of England 1st and 2d Part. 3. A Discourse of the Religion of England asserting That Reformed Christianity setled in its due Latitude is the Stability and Advancement of this Kingdom In two Parts 4. The Kingdom of God among Men With a Discourse of Schism and an Account of himself about Conformity Books Printed for Thomas Parkhurst THe Art of Divine Meditation by Edmund Calamy late of Aldermanbury London Mr. Thomas Wadsworth's Remains with Remarkables of his Holy Life and Death There is Printing a Discourse of Mr. Nathaniel Vincent of Self-Examination and Meditations on the Sacrament One Hundred Select Sermons of Thomas Horton late of St. Hellens London A Discourse of Actual Providence by John Collings D. D. An Exposition on the Six First Chapters of the Revelations by Charles Phelps Sermons of Grace and Temptation by Thomas Froysel Ark of the Covenant by George Gelaspy A New-Years-Gift by Thomas Lamb. Christ Display'd by Nathaniel Heywood Heaven or Hell in a Good or Bad Conscience by Nathaniel Vincent Incomparable Excellencies of God in his Attributes and Word by George Swinnock Glimpse of Eternity by Abram Coley An Exposition on the Assemblies Catechism by Thomas Doolitle Another Exposition by Thomas Lye Another by Thomas Vincent Morning-Exercise against Popery by sundry Ministers of the Gospel Four useful Discourses by Je● Burrough Published by Matthe● Mead. Present State of New England Husband-man's Companion it divers suitable Meditations by Edward Bury Revival of Grace by Henry Hurst Shepherdy Spiritualized by John Wood. Antidote against the Fear of Death by Edward Bury * In his Funeral-Sermon * Marcus Antoni●●