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nor_o willing_a to_o hear_v any_o other_o praise_n or_o speak_v well_o of_o we_o for_o in_o this_o there_o be_v also_o great_a danger_n saint_n ambrose_n say_v that_o when_o the_o devil_n can_v beat_v we_o down_o by_o pusillanimity_n and_o dismay_v he_o procure_v to_o blow_v we_o up_o by_o presumption_n and_o pride_n and_o when_o he_o can_v overthrow_v we_o by_o the_o way_n of_o affront_n he_o procure_v that_o we_o may_v be_v honour_v and_o praise_v and_o so_o to_o be_v undo_v by_o that_o mean_n saint_n hierome_n say_v keep_v yourselves_o safe_a from_o these_o siren_n for_o they_o inchant_v man_n and_o put_v they_o out_o of_o their_o wit_n the_o music_n of_o the_o praise_n of_o man_n be_v so_o delightful_a
rich_a and_o charitable_a man_n the_o more_o they_o move_v they_o to_o pity_n and_o the_o more_o aim_v they_o receive_v at_o their_o hand_n so_o the_o more_o a_o man_n know_v and_o humble_v himself_o and_o confess_v his_o misery_n the_o more_o do_v he_o invite_v and_o incline_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n to_o take_v pity_n and_o compassion_n on_o he_o and_o to_o communicate_v the_o gift_n of_o his_o grace_n with_o the_o more_o abundance_n for_o he_o give_v strength_n to_o the_o weak_a and_o to_o to_o they_o who_o be_v as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o but_o he_o multiply_v courage_n and_o strength_n to_o declare_v in_o few_o word_n the_o great_a benefit_n and_o advantage_n of_o this_o exercise_n i_o say_v that_o the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o a_o man_n self_n be_v the_o universal_a remedy_n of_o all_o inconvenience_n and_o so_o in_o the_o question_n which_o we_o use_v to_o ask_v in_o spiritual_a conference_n whence_o such_o or_o such_o a_o thing_n use_v to_o grow_v &_o what_o may_v be_v the_o 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the_o first_o degree_n of_o humility_n and_o from_o thence_o we_o must_v get_v up_o to_o the_o second_o so_o that_o it_o suffice_v not_o that_o you_o speak_v ill_a of_o yourself_o yea_o even_o though_o you_o speak_v it_o sincere_o and_o from_o your_o heart_n but_o you_o must_v procure_v to_o arrive_v so_o far_o as_o that_o you_o may_v be_v glad_a that_o other_o think_v that_o of_o you_o which_o you_o think_v and_o say_v of_o yourself_o and_o that_o they_o disesteem_v and_o despise_v you_o saint_n john_n climacus_n say_v he_o be_v no_o humble_a man_n who_o be_v content_a to_o abase_v and_o speak_v ill_a of_o himself_o for_o what_o man_n be_v he_o who_o can_v be_v content_a to_o bear_v with_o himself_o but_o that_o man_n be_v humble_a who_o can_v easy_o be_v glad_a to_o be_v ill_o entreat_v and_o despise_v by_o other_o it_o be_v well_o that_o a_o man_n shall_v ever_o be_v speak_v ill_o of_o himself_o and_o confess_v that_o he_o be_v proud_a and_o slothful_a and_o impatient_a and_o 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