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such_o may_v never_o hold_v their_o peace_n nor_o give_v the_o lord_n rest_n but_o in_o the_o strength_n of_o jacob_n by_o weep_v and_o supplication_n wrestle_z with_o the_o mighty_a one_o of_o jacob_n till_o he_o return_v in_o pity_n unto_o zion_n to_o their_o own_o soul_n and_o to_o all_o the_o distress_a who_o wait_n upon_o he_o and_o to_o the_o stop_v the_o mouth_n of_o all_o iniquity_n in_o the_o nation_n so_o late_o rescue_v by_o his_o hand_n even_o till_o the_o dry_a bone_n live_v and_o the_o heart_n of_o those_o that_o weep_v now_o great_o rejoice_v and_o flourish_v like_o a_o herb_n and_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v know_v towards_o his_o servant_n and_o his_o indignation_n towards_o his_o enemy_n yea_o to_o that_o effect_n in_o isai_n 66.12_o for_o thus_o say_v the_o lord_n behold_v i_o will_v extend_v peace_n to_o she_o as_o a_o river_n etc._n etc._n and_o jer._n 30.21_o and_o their_o noble_n shall_v be_v of_o themselves_o etc._n etc._n that_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o lord_n may_v be_v redeem_v in_o the_o land_n let_v we_o still_o wait_v on_o the_o arm_n of_o the_o lord_n who_o cause_v ahasuerus_n to_o be_v restless_a in_o the_o night_n till_o he_o have_v read_v the_o record_n of_o the_o chronicle_n of_o the_o good_a service_n of_o mordecai_n to_o the_o change_v his_o heart_n from_o his_o wicked_a decree_n and_o turn_v it_o against_o his_o treacherous_a flatterer_n and_o who_o have_v teach_v we_o to_o remember_v his_o hand_n upon_o the_o haughty_a of_o old_a and_o to_o plead_v it_o in_o future_a distress_n as_o in_o isai_n 51.9_o awake_v awake_a put_v on_o strength_n oh_o arm_v of_o the_o lord_n awake_a as_o in_o the_o ancient_a day_n etc._n etc._n for_o hereby_o have_v he_o gracious_o give_v we_o a_o fresh_a proof_n of_o his_o power_n to_o perform_v whatever_o may_v make_v to_o our_o relief_n and_o comfort_n in_o every_o condition_n whether_o we_o be_v encompass_v with_o public_a or_o private_a distress_n wherefore_o i_o have_v somewhat_o 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ourselves_o and_o whole_a zion_n the_o prophet_n ruler_n judge_n law_n custom_n of_o these_o nation_n &_o on_o the_o behalf_n of_o the_o afflict_a desert_a unbelieving_a divide_v and_o thereby_o liable_a to_o be_v destroy_v people_n and_o to_o turn_v the_o heart_n of_o those_o that_o be_v enrage_v and_o ready_a to_o do_v evil_a because_o it_o be_v in_o the_o power_n of_o their_o hand_n to_o do_v it_o for_o now_o all_o man_n almost_o see_v our_o sickness_n and_o our_o wound_n how_o foolish_a many_o physician_n and_o our_o false_a refuge_n have_v prove_v let_v we_o therefore_o now_o cease_v not_o only_o from_o babylon_n egypt_n ashur_n horse_n army_n fence_a city_n etc._n etc._n but_o also_o from_o those_o other_o fair_a show_v in_o the_o flesh_n to_o which_o some_o fearful_a friend_n will_v compel_v we_o to_o conform_v which_o have_v too_o oft_o deceive_v we_o neither_o let_v we_o humour_v the_o lust_n of_o man_n and_o multitude_n nor_o be_v find_v in_o the_o indirect_a path_n of_o fret_v proud_a wrath_n envy_v and_o grudge_v one_o against_o another_o nor_o in_o rash_a engage_v submit_v to_o tradition_n temporize_a etc._n etc._n but_o in_o deep_a humiliation_n and_o brokennesse_n of_o soul_n let_v we_o be_v as_o dove_n of_o the_o valley_n every_o one_o mourning_n over_o his_o iniquity_n which_o be_v the_o most_o hopeful_a path_n of_o refreshment_n from_o his_o presence_n who_o have_v hereby_o show_v we_o his_o right_a hand_n which_o will_v certain_o relieve_v and_o that_o right_a soon_o those_o that_o true_o sow_v in_o tear_n for_o according_a to_o his_o faithful_a word_n psal_n 126.5_o 6._o he_o that_o go_v forth_o and_o weep_v bear_v precious_a seed_n shall_v doubtless_o return_v again_o with_o rejoice_v bring_v his_o sheaf_n with_o he_o when_o the_o blossom_n of_o pride_n shall_v wither_v and_o the_o band_n of_o mocker_n will_v be_v make_v strong_a let_v my_o soul_n and_o you_o be_v embark_v with_o those_o that_o weep_v this_o day_n before_o the_o lord_n choose_v affliction_n with_o his_o people_n rather_o than_o with_o those_o who_o rejoice_v now_o and_o be_v not_o sensible_a of_o the_o affliction_n of_o joseph_n but_o make_v merry_a with_o the_o nakedness_n of_o noah_n and_o that_o the_o counsel_n give_v we_o for_o support_v in_o isai_n 26.20_o 21._o may_v be_v accompany_v with_o the_o residue_n of_o the_o spirit_n for_o our_o guidance_n and_o succour_n as_o be_v give_v we_o to_o be_v a_o word_n of_o gracious_a counsel_n for_o such_o a_o day_n as_o this_o and_o that_o though_o satan_n be_v see_v yet_o further_o to_o fall_v as_o lighten_v from_o heaven_n we_o may_v chief_o rejoice_v in_o that_o our_o name_n be_v write_v in_o the_o book_n of_o life_n and_o now_o to_o be_v still_o free_o admit_v with_o this_o precious_a soul_n to_o that_o feast_n that_o fade_v not_o for_o evermore_o be_v the_o humble_a and_o earnest_a desire_n on_o the_o behalf_n of_o himself_o and_o all_o saint_n of_o the_o unworthy_a of_o those_o who_o yet_o stand_v 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