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ruin_v and_o demolish_v for_o we_o indeed_o in_o depart_v from_o thence_o fall_n and_o come_v to_o ruin_n but_o our_o house_n in_o this_o our_o absence_n which_o be_v thy_o eternity_n can_v never_o fall_v lib_fw-la v._o chap._n i._n oblation_n of_o his_o confession_n to_o god_n their_o end_n be_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o praise_n accept_v o_o lord_n the_o sacrifice_n of_o these_o my_o confession_n offer_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o my_o tongue_n 35.10_o psal_n 35.10_o make_v and_o move_v by_o thou_o to_o confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n and_o heal_v thou_o all_o my_o bone_n that_o they_o may_v say_v o_o lord_n who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o it_o be_v not_o at_o all_o to_o teach_v thou_o that_o which_o be_v do_v within_o he_o when_o any_o one_o confess_v it_o unto_o thou_o for_o the_o closeness_n of_o the_o heart_n exclude_v not_o thy_o eye_n nor_o the_o hardness_n of_o it_o repel_v thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o do_v often_o in_o pity_n and_o otherwile_v also_o in_o 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invitation_n of_o all_o other_o stray_a sinner_n to_o return_v to_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n by_o confession_n the_o wicked_a discontent_a and_o restless_a may_v depart_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o but_o still_o thou_o see_v they_o and_o divide_v the_o darkness_n 1.4.31_o gen._n 1.4.31_o and_o behold_v all_o thing_n round_o about_o they_o be_v still_o fair_a and_o lovely_a in_o thy_o sight_n only_o themselves_o deform_v for_o alas_o in_o thus_o abandon_v thou_o how_o have_v they_o hurt_v or_o frustrate_v thou_o at_o all_o or_o any_o way_n discompose_v thy_o absolute_a empire_n from_o the_o high_a heaven_n to_o the_o low_a abyss_n just_a and_o entire_a for_o whither_o flee_v they_o when_o they_o flee_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n or_o where_o be_v they_o not_o discover_v by_o thou_o they_o flee_v only_o 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o *_o that_o themselves_o may_v not_o see_v thou_o when_o see_v they_o and_o may_v yet_o blindfold_a still_o run_v against_o thou_o who_o never_o departe_v from_o 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rome_n his_o scholar_n there_o defraud_v he_o of_o their_o stipend_n now_o therefore_o i_o begin_v diligent_o to_o put_v in_o practice_n that_o for_o which_o i_o come_v to_o rome_n the_o teach_n of_o rhetoric_n and_o first_o to_o gather_v some_o to_o my_o lodging_n by_o who_o mean_n i_o have_v begin_v to_o be_v make_v know_v abroad_o and_o now_o i_o be_o acquaint_v that_o some_o other_o unworthy_a trick_n be_v play_v at_o rome_n which_o i_o suffer_v not_o at_o carthage_n for_o it_o be_v assure_v to_o i_o indeed_o that_o there_o be_v not_o here_o such_o insolence_n and_o tumult_n of_o unruly_a youth_n as_o there_o but_o say_v they_o a_o many_o of_o they_o to_o avoid_v the_o payment_n of_o their_o stipend_n will_v of_o a_o sudden_a conspire_v together_o before_o the_o time_n they_o be_v due_a and_o depart_v to_o another_o master_n desertor_n of_o their_o faith_n and_o vilify_a honesty_n for_o the_o love_n of_o money_n 139.22_o ps_n 139.22_o and_o these_o also_o my_o soul_n hate_v though_o not_o with_o a_o perfect_a and_o upright_a hatred_n for_o i_o hate_v they_o perhaps_o more_o for_o the_o damage_n i_o shall_v suffer_v than_o for_o the_o evil_a they_o commit_v 73.27_o ps_n 73.27_o and_o sure_o very_o guilty_a such_o person_n be_v who_o do_v go_v a_o whore_v from_o thou_o enamour_v of_o these_o volatile_a trifle_n of_o temporal_a good_n and_o of_o dirty_a lucre_n which_o fowl_n the_o hand_n that_o touch_v it_o hug_v this_o world_n that_o fly_v from_o they_o and_o slight_v thou_o that_o stay_v for_o they_o and_o call_v after_o they_o and_o pardone_v every_o meretricious_a soul_n among_o they_o that_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o now_o these_o i_o hate_v as_o wicked_a and_o crooked_a but_o so_o as_o i_o also_o love_v they_o corrigible_a and_o amendable_a by_o a_o prefer_n learning_n before_o silver_n and_o again_o a_o prefer_n above_o their_o learn_v thou_o o_o god_n the_o truth_n and_o the_o fullness_n of_o all_o assure_a good_a and_o our_o most_o chaste_a and_o delicious_a peace_n but_o at_o that_o time_n i_o rather_o can_v not_o endure_v they_o evil_a for_o my_o own_o sake_n than_o wish_v they_o good_a for_o thou_o chap._n xiii_o recommend_v by_o symmachus_n he_o remove_v from_o rome_n to_o teach_v rhetoric_n at_o milan_n where_o he_o be_v favourable_o receive_v by_o st._n ambrose_n their_o bishop_n who_o sermon_n he_o frequent_v only_o for_o the_o fame_n of_o his_o eloquence_n it_o happen_v afterward_o that_o a_o order_n be_v send_v from_o milan_n there_o milan_n the_o emperor_n reside_v much_o there_o to_o the_o perfect_a of_o rome_n to_o provide_v a_o rhetoric_n professor_n for_o that_o city_n and_o to_o send_v he_o thither_o upon_o the_o publâ—ck_a charge_n therefore_o i_o make_v suit_n by_o the_o same_o person_n such_o who_o be_v intoxicate_v with_o the_o manichean_a fable_n from_o which_o that_o i_o may_v now_o be_v deliver_v thou_o order_v this_o journey_n but_o little_o do_v we_o know_v it_o that_o symmachus_n the_o then_o 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be_v find_v within_o thy_o church_n but_o as_o one_o kind_n towards_o i_o and_o i_o diligent_o hear_v he_o preach_v to_o the_o people_n not_o out_o of_o any_o right_a intention_n at_o all_o but_o as_o it_o be_v for_o the_o try_v of_o his_o eloquence_n whether_o it_o be_v answerable_a to_o the_o great_a fame_n thereof_o and_o whether_o it_o flow_v high_a or_o mean_a than_o report_v and_o there_o i_o stand_v very_a intent_n upon_o his_o expression_n but_o in-observant_a of_o his_o matter_n and_o be_v much_o take_v with_o the_o elegancy_n of_o his_o language_n though_o more_o learned_a yet_o not_o so_o cheerful_a and_o please_a as_o faustus_n his_o be_v but_o for_o the_o matter_n there_o be_v no_o comparison_n the_o one_o vain_o expatiate_v through_o manichean_a delusion_n the_o other_o profitable_o teach_v salvation_n but_o salvation_n be_v far_o from_o the_o ungodly_a such_o as_o i_o then_o stand_v before_o he_o 119.155_o ps_n 119.155_o yet_o i_o draw_v near_a and_o near_o to_o it_o 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pleasure_n i_o have_v hear_v also_o that_o speech_n from_o thy_o bounty_n with_o which_o i_o be_o much_o take_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v shall_v we_o abound_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v not_o shall_v we_o lack_v that_o be_v neither_o will_v the_o one_o render_v i_o plentiful_a nor_o the_o other_o deficient_a another_o voice_n i_o have_v hear_v for_o i_o have_v learn_v in_o whatsoever_o state_n i_o be_o therewith_o to_o be_v content_a 4.11_o phil._n 4.11_o i_o know_v both_o how_o to_o abound_v and_o how_o to_o suffer_v need_n through_o christ_n that_o strengthen_v i_o i_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n 15.32_o psal_n 103.14_o gen._n 3._o luke_n 15.32_o see_v here_o a_o soldier_n of_o the_o celestial_a host_n and_o not_o such_o earth_n and_o dust_n as_o we_o be_v but_o remember_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o we_o be_v but_o dust_n and_o that_o of_o the_o dust_n thou_o make_v man_n and_o he_o be_v lose_v but_o be_v find_v neither_o be_v this_o man_n able_a of_o himself_o to_o do_v such_o thing_n because_o he_o be_v the_o same_o dust_n who_o by_o thy_o inspiration_n say_v such_o thing_n i_o do_v so_o dear_o affect_v but_o i_o say_v he_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o he_o who_o strengthenâ—h_v i_o strengthen_v thou_o i_o also_o that_o i_o may_v be_v able_a give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o please_v he_o also_o confess_v 6._o 1_o cor._n 4._o â—_o 1_o cor._n 1_o 31._o eccles_n 23_o 5_o 6._o that_o he_o have_v receive_v it_o and_o what_o he_o glorifi_v oâ—â—e_n glorifi_v of_o in_o the_o lord_n another_z i_o have_v hear_v ask_v of_o thou_o that_o he_o may_v receive_v take_v thou_o fâ—om_v i_o say_v hâ—_n the_o greediness_n of_o the_o belly_n whence_o it_o appear_v my_o holy_a god_n that_o thou_o give_v when_o it_o be_v do_v what_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v do_v thou_o have_v teach_v i_o also_o 14.3_o rom._n 14.20_o 1_o tim._n 4.4_o 1_o cor._n 8.8_o col._n 2.16_o rom._n 14.3_o good_a â—aâ—her_n unto_o the_o pure_a that_o all_o thing_n be_v pure_a but_o that_o it_o be_v evil_a to_o the_o man_n who_o eat_v with_o offence_n and_o that_o every_o creature_n of_o thou_o be_v good_a and_o nothing_o to_o be_v refuse_v which_o be_v receive_v with_o thanks_o give_v and_o that_o meat_n commend_v we_o not_o to_o god_n and_o that_o not_o man_n may_v judge_v we_o in_o meat_n or_o in_o drink_n and_o that_o he_o which_o eat_v let_v he_o not_o despise_v he_o that_o eat_v not_o and_o let_v noâ—_n he_o that_o eat_v not_o judge_v he_o that_o eat_v these_o thing_n i_o have_v learn_v thanks_n be_v to_o thou_o praise_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n my_o master_n knocking-at_a my_o ear_n enlighten_v my_o heart_n deliver_v thou_o i_o from_o all_o temptation_n the_o uncleanness_n of_o the_o meat_n i_o do_v not_o dread_a but_o the_o uncleanness_n of_o lust_a i_o know_v that_o noah_n be_v permit_v all_o manner_n of_o flesh_n good_a for_o food_n 11.4_o gen._n 9.3_o 1_o kin._n 17.6_o mat._n 3.4_o gen._n 25._o 1_o chro_fw-la 11_o mat._n 4.3_o num._n 11.4_o that_o elias_n hunger_a in_o the_o desert_n be_v feed_v with_o flesh-meat_n that_o john_n the_o baptist_n a_o man_n endue_v with_o a_o miraculous_a abstinence_n receive_v no_o pollution_n from_o live_a creature_n 1._o locust_n make_v his_o food_n and_o on_o the_o otherside_n i_o know_v that_o esau_n be_v deceive_v by_o the_o lust_n of_o a_o few_o lentile_n and_o david_n censure_v by_o himself_o for_o the_o desire_n of_o a_o draught_n of_o water_n and_o that_o our_o king_n be_v tempt_v not_o in_o a_o matter_n of_o flesh_n but_o of_o bread_n only_o and_o therefore_o also_o the_o people_n in_o the_o wilderness_n not_o simple_o because_o they_o desire_v flesh_n but_o because_o in_o the_o desire_n thereof_o they_o murmur_v against_o the_o lord_n deserve_v to_o be_v reject_v i_o therefore_o place_v among_o the_o same_o temptation_n be_o strive_v every_o day_n against_o this_o concupiscence_n in_o eat_v and_o in_o drink_v for_o it_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n which_o i_o can_v resolve_v to_o cut_v off_o at_o once_o and_o touch_v no_o more_o as_o i_o can_v do_v concern_v concubinage_n therefore_o be_v the_o reins_o of_o the_o throat_n to_o be_v hold_v with_o a_o moderate_a hand_n between_o relaxation_n and_o restraint_n and_o who_o be_v he_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v not_o sometime_o transport_v beyond_o the_o list_n of_o necessity_n whoever_o he_o be_v a_o great_a one_o he_o be_v *_o let_v he_o magnify_v thy_o name_n but_o such_o a_o one_o i_o be_o not_o for_o i_o be_o a_o sinful_a man_n but_o i_o be_o one_o also_o that_o magnify_v thy_o name_n and_o *_o let_v he_o intercede_v unto_o thou_o for_o these_o my_o sin_n who_o have_v so_o perfect_o overcome_v the_o world_n reckon_v i_o also_o among_o the_o weak_a member_n of_o the_o same_o body_n 136.6_o â—sal_n 136.6_o because_o thy_o eye_n also_o regard_v this_o my_o imperfect_a substance_n and_o in_o thy_o book_n shall_v all_o thou_o be_v write_v chap._n xxxii_o 3._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o smell_n in_o sweet_a odour_n and_o perfume_n from_o the_o allurement_n of_o sweet_a smell_n i_o suffer_v no_o great_a trouble_n when_o absent_a i_o do_v not_o miss_v they_o when_o present_a not_o refuse_v they_o and_o be_o willing_a for_o ever_o to_o be_v without_o they_o thus_o i_o appear_v to_o myself_o but_o perhaps_o mistake_v for_o much_o to_o be_v lament_v be_v the_o darkness_n wherein_o my_o very_a ability_n and_o faculty_n which_o be_v within_o i_o lie_v obscure_v and_o hide_a from_o i_o so_o that_o my_o own_o mind_n when_o question_v itself_o concern_v its_o own_o strength_n know_v not_o well_o how_o to_o believe_v itself_o because_o much_o within_o it_o lie_v secret_a and_o conceal_v from_o it_o till_o
temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n abroad_o dote_v on_o what_o they_o have_v make_v within_o desert_v he_o by_o who_o they_o be_v make_v and_o deface_v that_o which_o they_o be_v make_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n and_o my_o glory_n concern_v all_o these_o do_v now_o sing_v a_o hymn_n and_o do_v sacrifice_n praise_v to_o thou_o my_o sanctifier_n for_o all_o these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o art_n which_o be_v transfer_v first_o from_o a_o idea_n in_o the_o soul_n into_o the_o work_n of_o a_o skilful_a hand_n be_v derive_v original_o from_o that_o beauty_n *_o which_o be_v above_o the_o soul_n and_o *_o after_o which_o my_o soul_n languish_v day_n and_o night_n and_o the_o drawer_n and_o admirer_n of_o these_o exterior_a beauty_n do_v learn_v from_o the_o first_o beauty_n a_o worthy_a estimation_n of_o they_o but_o learn_v not_o from_o it_o a_o right_a use_n of_o they_o and_o there_o also_o the_o true_a beauty_n be_v and_o they_o see_v it_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v seek_v no_o further_o 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