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and_o saint_n paul_n the_o fruit_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v the_o effect_n of_o a_o true_a love_n to_o god_n and_o a_o perfect_a charity_n towards_o our_o neighbour_n they_o be_v such_o as_o a_o solid_a piety_n produce_v a_o extreme_a horror_n for_o the_o small_a sin_n a_o violent_a hunger_n after_o righteousness_n a_o universal_a constant_a and_o continual_a mortification_n a_o profound_a humility_n a_o great_a exactness_n in_o all_o the_o duty_n be_v of_o our_o call_v they_o be_v a_o exceed_a a_o version_n for_o every_o thing_n our_o saviour_n hate_v and_o a_o high_a esteem_n for_o every_o thing_n he_o love_v the_o victory_n over_o our_o passion_n the_o reformation_n of_o our_o life_n and_o conduct_n be_v the_o fruit_n that_o he_o expect_v from_o we_o this_o be_v the_o meaning_n of_o those_o word_n 3.8_o matt._n 3.8_o bringforth_o fruit_n worthy_a of_o penance_n show_v by_o your_o work_n &_o by_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o your_o life_n that_o you_o be_v real_o convert_v here_o 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away_o the_o hedge_n thereof_o and_o it_o shall_v be_v eat_v up_o i_o will_v break_v down_o the_o wall_n there_o of_o and_o it_o shall_v be_v tread_v down_o i_o will_v lay_v it_o waste_v it_o shall_v not_o be_v prune_v or_o dig_v but_o there_o shall_v come_v brayar_n and_o thorn_n and_o that_o its_o ruin_n may_v be_v without_o remedy_n i_o will_v command_v the_o cloud_n not_o to_o rain_v upon_o such_o ungrateful_a ground_n which_o bring_v forth_o only_o bad_a fruit_n we_o may_v easy_o understand_v the_o meaning_n of_o these_o word_n let_v we_o now_o apply_v they_o to_o ourselves_o we_o have_v hitherto_o bring_v forth_o only_o leave_v &_o rot_a fruit_n god_n will_v therefore_o deprive_v we_o of_o those_o great_a help_n which_o we_o render_v useless_a when_o that_o hedge_n be_v once_o take_v away_o that_o inward_a recollection_n once_o lose_v our_o heart_n will_v run_v after_o every_o object_n and_o we_o shall_v become_v a_o prey_n to_o our_o unruly_a passion_n god_n will_v speak_v no_o 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