me thy loue which is chast and holie that it may replenishe preserue wholy possesse me Giue me likewise I beseeche thee in token of thy loue a fountaine of teares trickling downe from mine eies that they may beare witnes of thy teÌ„der affection towardes me let them speake and declare how much my soule doth loue thee seing it cannot containe it selfe from teares by reason of the surpassing great sweetnesse surpassinge greate charitie I remember o louing Lord that good woman Anne who came to the tabernacle to desire a sonne of whom the holie scripture relateth that after her teares and prayers to this effect offered shee remained as one assured to obtaine what shee had desired Now when I call to minde this her soe greate vertue and constancie in not doubtinge to receiue what shee demaunded I caÌ„not but be greatelie greiued and ashamed1 For if a woman did thus weepe perseuer in weeping which did onelie seeke to obtaine a sonne in what manner ought my soule to lament and to continue in lamentation which doth seeke and loue God desireth to attaine vnto him how ought that soule to lament and weepe which doth seeke God day and night whâ—ch refuseth to loue any other thinge sauinge Christ alone Verilie we might very well wonder and be astonished if the teares of such a soule were not her continuall foode Wherefore I beseâ—che the take pittiâ— of me and be mercifull vnto me because the sorrowes of my harte are exceeding manie Imparte vnto me thy celestial comforte and despite not my sinfull soule for which thou hast suffered a death soe cruel Bestowe vppon me the guifte of teares proceeding from an internall affection loue towardes thee which may breake the bands of mine iniquities and alwaies fill my soule with celestiall gladnes Although I durst not demauÌ„de to be pertaker of that vnspeakeable rewarde which thou hast ordained for true perfect moÌ„kes and religious men for that I am altogether vnable to followe the footestepps of theire angelicall conuersation yet at least lett me obtaine some place or other in thy kingdome amonge the deuoute blessed woemen The wonderfull deuotion of an other deuoute woman doth likewise come into my minde who with greate loue sought thee lying in thy graue who after thy disciples were gone went not away from thy tombe but â—att still sorrowfull and lamenting and for a long time together very bitterly weeping and rising vp from the place where shee had sitten with watchfull eies and many teares shee diligently sought thee againe and againe in euery corner of thy sepulcher from which thou wert departed being risen to see if peraduenture shee might any where see and finde thee whom shee sought with soe greate affection Doubtles shee had entred and sought thee in the sepulcher diuers times before and yett all was not enoughe in respect of her ardent loue for that perseueraÌ„ce is the perfectioÌ„ of euery good action And because aboue others shee loued thee and with loue lamented thee and with lamentation sought thee and in seeking continued coÌ„stantly for this cause before all others shee deserued to finde thee to see thee and to speake vnto thee Neither was shee onely thought worthy of this one fauour alone but besides this was made the messenger Apostle vnto the Apostles themselues of thy glorious Resurrection thou gently bidding and coÌ„maunding her saying Goe tell my brethren that they goe into Galilee there they shall see me If therefore this woman did in this maner weepe and perseuere in weeping who sought thee as one shee thought to be deade albeit thou wert liuinge who touched thee with the hande of her faith how greately ought that soule to lament and persist in lamentation who beleiueth with the hart and acknowledgeth thee with the mouth to be her Reedemer and to rule and raigne both in heauen and euery where how greately ought that soule to groane and weepe who with the whole harte loueth thee and with the whole harte desireth to see thee O thou-that art the onely hope and succoure of such as are in miserie to whom we neuer pray without hope of mercie for thine owne sake and for thy holy names sake graunt me this grace I beseeche thee that as often as I thinke speake write reade or talke of thee as often as I meditate of thee and as often as I stande before thee to offer prayses prayers and sacrifice vnto thee soe often lett me with teares aboundantly sweerely weepe in thy sight that my teares may be my foode day and night Thou truly o king of glorie and maister of all vertues hast taught vs by thy worde example to lament and weepe saying blessed are they that mourne for they shal be comforted Thou thy selfe didst lament the death of thy disceased freinde and with many teares didst bewaile the cittie that in fewe yeares after was to come to ruine I beseech thee o good Iesu by those most pretious teares of thine and by all thy mercies by which thou hast in that wonderfull manner releiued our miseries graunt me the guift grace of teares which my soule doth much desire and couet because without thy guift I cannot obtaine it it being the Holy Ghost that doth effect the same whose propertie is to mollifie the harde hartes of sinners and to moue them to compunction Graunt me the guift and grace of teares like as in times past thou hast donne to our forefathers whose footestepps I ought to imitate that I may during the whole course of my life lament as they did both day and night By theire meritts and intercession who haue pleased and deuoutely serued thee take compassion of me thy vnworthy seruant being in great miserie graunt me the guift grace of teares I beseeche thee Graunt that the water of teares may flowe from mine eies as from a floude that night and day they may be vnto me in steede of foode O my God let me become as a pleasing and acceptable oblation to be sacrificed in thy sight by the fire of compunction and as a most gratefull sacrifice lett me be accepted of thee in the odoure of sweetneâ— O most louing Lord lett me become as a faire and flowing fountaine in which let this sacrifice be daily washed from the filthe of sinne For albeit by the assistance of thy grace I haue offered my selfe wholy vnto thee yet neuerthelesse I doe dailie offende in many thingeâ— throughe my exceeding greate frailtie Graunt me therefore most blessed and beloued God the guift and grace of teares especiallie through the sweetnes of thy loue and the remembrance of thy manifolde mercies prepare this banquet in thy â—ight for me thy vnworthy seruant and graunt me this prerogatiue that as often as I will I may be fedd and refreshed with it Afforde me this fauour for thy mercy and goodnes sake I beseeche thee that I may soe drinke and become drunke by drinkinge of this most excellent cupp of teares
comforte during the time of this my banishment Let my minde flie vnder the shadow of thy winges from the heate of worldly cogitations Let my harte pause and repose in thee my harte I say which is like vnto a spatious and tempestuous sea O God the most riche and bountifull giuer of the diuine daintie dishes of heauenlie plentie refreshe it being wearie recall it being gone astray deliuer it being in captiuitie and being by sinne as it were broken in peeces restore it to the estate of its former innocencie Beholde it standeth at thy dore knocking and calling vnto thee I beseech thee o Lord by the bowells of thy mercy in which thou hast visited vs comminge downe from heauen commaund thy gate to be opened vnto my poore wretched soule knocking at the same to the end it may freelie enter in and repose in thee and be fed by thee the breade of heauen for thou art the breade and fountaine of life thou art the light of euerlasting felicitie thou art all thinges by which the righteous doe liue that loue thee Of the desire of the soule CHAPT V. O God the light of those harts that see thee the life of those soules that loue thee the strength of those thoughtes that seeke thee graunt me grace that by loue I may alwaies adhere vnto thee Come I beseech thee into my harte and make it drunke with the plentie of thy pleasure to the end I may forget all temporall thinges whatsoeuer Verilie I am ashamed and grieued to endure such thinges as are donne in the worlde Whatsoeuer I see in this vale of miserie is displeasing vnto me whatsoeuer I heare of thinges transitorie is burdensome vnto me Helpe me o Lord my God and make my harte glad come vnto me that I may see thee But alas the house of my soule is ouer little to entertaine thee vntill thou enter into it and enlarge it It is ruinous and ready to fall wherfore I beseech thee to repaire it It hath many thinges I confesse and knowe contained in it which are displeasing in thy sight but who will cleanse it or to whom besides thee shall I crie to doe it Cleanse me o Lord from my secret sinnes and be mercifull vnto thy seruaunt in respect of other mens sinnes committed by my meanes Graunt me grace o sweete Christ o good Iesu graunt me grace I beseech thee to lay aside the burden of all carnall loue and worldly desires through the loue and desire of thee Let my soule haue dominion ouer my body reason ouer my soule thy grace ouer reason and make me in all thinges subiect to thy most holy will both without and within Afforde me this fauoure I beseech thee that my harte and tongue and all my bones may praise and magnifie thee Dilate my mind and lift vp the eies of my harte that albeit for neuer soe shorte a time my soule may attaine vnto thee the eternall wisedome abiding aboue all thinges Free me I beseech thee from the bandes with which I am bounde that forsaking all thinges transitorie I may adhere and attende vnto thee onely Of the soules felicitie being deliuered out of the prison of this earthly body CHAPT VI. HAppy is that soule which beinge freed from this earthlie prison doth freely mounte vp into heauen which beholdeth thee o sweete Lord apparantlie face to face being now noe more affraied of deathe or of any worldlie miserie but reioycinge throughe the immortalitie of euerlasting glory It liueth in repose and securitie fearing now neither deathe noâ— ennimie It enioyeth thee being a mercifull Lord whom it hath long sought and alwaies loued and being ioyned in felowship with the quires of Angells it singeth for euer mellifluous sonnets of perpetuall gladnes in praise and commendation of thy glory o Christ our King o good Iesu Verilie it becommeth as it were drunke throughe the aboundance of thy heauenlie habitation because thou dost cause it to drinke of the riuer of thy vnspeakeable delectation O howe happy is the heauenlie company of celestiall cittizens how glorious is the solemniâ—ie of all those that returne vnto thee o Lord from the toiles and trauailes of this our pilgrimage to the pleasantnes of all beauty to the beauty of all brightnes and to the dignitie of all excellencie where thy cittizens o Lord doe continuallie see thee Nothing at all is there hearde that may molest the minde What sacred Canticles what diuersitie of instruments what delightfull ditties what sweete sounds of heauenlie harmonie are there hearde incessantlie There the mellifluous organ there the most sweete melodie of Angels doe sounde forth Hymnes and admirable Canticles of Canticles euelastingly which are songe by the celestiall cittizens to thy praise and glory Noe spitefulnes or bitternes of affection is founde in that heauenly region for that neither malice nor malitious men haue there any abiding Noe aduersarie is there to impugne vs nor occasion of sinne to entice vs. There is noe want or pouertie in that place noe shame or disgrace noe brawling noe vp braiding noe blaming noe fearefullnes noe disquietnes noe paine noe doubtfullnes noe violence noe variance but contrariwise surpassing greate peace perfect charitie singing and praising of God euerlastinglie perpetuall repose ioined with securitie and ioy in the holy Ghost during all eternitie O how fortunate shall I be if after this life I shal be admitted to heare the most pleasant and sweete songes of those heauenlie cittizens if I shal be admitted I say to heare those mellifluous meeters of poetrie made to expresse the praises and honoure due to the most sacred Trinitie O how much more happy shall I be then I can imagine if I my selfe likewise shal be thought worthy to sing a songe to our Lord Iesus Christ euen one of the sweete songes of Syon Of the ioy of Paradise CHAPT VII O Liuing life o euerlasting life and euerlastinglie happie Where there is ioy without griefe rest without laboure dignitie without feare riches without sicknes plentie without want life without deathe eternitie without corruption felicitie without affliction where all good thinges are comprehended in perfect charitie where the Sainctes see God and one an other apparantlie where where there is perfect knowledge in all thinges and of all thinges where the supreame goodnes of God is behelde and the light that enlightneth all thinges is by the Saincts glorified where Gods maiestie is seene present and with this foode of life the minde of the beholders doth remaine satisfied and content They alwaies see God and by seeing long to see him they desire it without loathsomnes where the true sunne of iustice doth refreshe them all by the wonderfull light of his vnspeakeable beautie and doth in that manner enlighten all the câ—ttizens of that celestiall countrie as that they beinge but a light enlightned by God who is the light that enlightneth them doe shine more bright then the sunne and all the stars of heauen Who adhering vnto God who is
of me a poore distressed orphant I am as a poore fatherlesse childe and my soule is as a woman bereaued of her husbande Vouchsafe gratiouslie to behold the teares of my distressed orphancie and widowhoode which I offer vnto thee vntill thou returne o my God May it please thee therfore may it please thee o Lord to manifest thy selfe to me and I shall be comforted Graunt that I may see thee and I shall obtaine what I desire Make manifest thy glorie and my ioy wil be accomplished My soule hath thirsted after thee soe hath likewise my fleshe exceedingly My soule hath thirsted after God the liuinge fountaine when shall I come and be presented before the face of my Lord When wilt thou come o my comforter for whome I will wishe and earnestly waite for O that I might once behold my delight which I doe soe muche desire O howe truly shall I be satisfied when thy glorie shall appeare which I doe greatlie hunger to beholde When shall I become drunke through the plentie of thy heauenlie habitation for which I sighe soe often When wilt thou make me to drinke of the riuer of thy pleasure which I soe greâ—tely thirst and desire In the interim o Lord let my teares be my continual foode vntill it be saied vnto me Beholde thy God vntill it be saied vnto my soule Beholde thy bridegroome In the interim feede me with my sobbs and weepinges nourishe me with my sorrowes and lamentations Peraduenture my redeemer will come and visit me because he is full of mercie yea he will not be long in comminge because he is full of pittie To him be glorie during all eternitie Amen The end of the Meditations of S. Augustin A TABLE OF THE Meditations of S. Augustin Bishop of Hyppon A Prayer vnto almighty God for the amendment of our life and manners Chapt. I. Mans acknowledging his miserie his commendation likewise of Gods mercie Chapt. II. Mans complainte who for his disobedience is not hearde of God Chapt. III. The dreade of the iudge comming to iudgment Chapt. IV. The healpe of God the Father is desired by the mentts of God the soÌ„ne Chapt. V. Hâ—ere man doth represent to God the Father the passion of his sonne Chapt. VI. Heere man doth acknowledge himselfe to haue beene the cause of Christs passion Chapt. VII Heere man for his reconciliation doth propose to God the Father the passion of his sonne Chapt. VIII A Prayer to desire the assistance of the holie Ghost Chapt. IX A Prayer for one seruing God and thinking humblie of himselfe Chapt X. A Prayer to the holie Trinitie Chapt. XI The acknowledging of God almighty and of his Maiestie Chapt. XII After what manner it pleased God the Father to succoure mankinde of the incarnation of the diuine Worde and thanks for the same Chapt. XIII Of the confidence which a Christian soule ought to haue in lesus Christ and in his Passion Chapt. XIV Of the surpassing greate charitie of the eternall Father towardes mankinde Chapt. XV. Of the two-folde nature of Christ who pittieth vs and prayeth for vs Chapt. XVI Of the greate thanks giuing which maÌ„ ought to render to God for the benefit of his redemption Chapt. XVII A deuoute Prayer to our Sauiour Iesus Christ Chapt. XVIII The distinction and difference betwene that wisedome which is Gods house and that which is diuine Chapt. XIX Heere man desireth that this house of God will likewise prâ—y for him Chap. XX. Of the manifolde miseries with which mans life is replenished Chapt. XXI Of the happines of that life which God hath prepared for those that loue him Chapt. XXII Of the happines of a holie soule departing out of this worlde Chapt. XXIII A Prayer to the Saincts to succoure vs in our necessities Chapt. XXIV The soules desire to attaine to the heauenlie Cittie Hierusalem Chapt. XXV A hymne of the glorie of Paradice composed by the blessed S. Peter Damian Cardinall of Ostia monke of the holy order of S. Benneâ— taken out of the sayings of S. Augustine Chapt XXVI The continuall prayse of the soule through the contemplation of God Chapt XXVII What it is after a certaine manner to see and comprehend God and what opinion we ought to haue of him Chapt. XXVIII A Prayer shewing the manifold properties and attributes of God Chapt. XXIX Of the vnitie and pluralitie of personnes in God Chapt XXX A Prayer to the sacred Trinitie Chapt. XXXI That God is the true and soueraigne life Chapt. XXXII The prayses of Angells and men Chapt. XXXIII Heere man doth lament for that when he thinketh of God he is not moued to compunction seing the verie Angells tremble and quake when they beholde him Chapt. XXXIV A Prayer greately mouing the harte to deuotion and to the loue of God Chapt. XXXV A most deuoute prayer demaunding grace of God to prayse him as we ought Chapt XXXVI A Prayer greately stirring vp the minde to compunction if it be saied in silence with attention Chapt. XXXVII A Prayer to be saied in time of tribulation Chapt. XXXVIII A verie deuoute prayer to God the sonne Chapt XXXIX A profitable Prayer Chapt. XL. A deuoute Prayer in memorie of Christs passion Chapt. XLI FINIS THE BOOKE OF S. AVGVSTIN BISHOPP OF HYPPON Commonlye called his Soliloquies that is the secret discourses and conferences of his soule with God AT S. OMERS For IOHN HEIGHAM Anno 1624. THE BOOKE OF S. AVGVSTIN BISHOPP OF HYPPON Commonlye called his Soliloquies that is the secret discourses and conferences of his soule with God Of the vnspeakeable sweetnes of God CHAPT I. O Lord the strength of my soule graunt me grace I beseech thee that like as thou knowest me I may knowe thee O my comforter manifest thy selfe vnto me O light of mine eies graunt that I may see thee Come o ioy of my spirit Let me see thee o delight of my harte O life of my soule giue me grace to loue thee O Lord my God my cheife delight and sweetest solace vouchsafe to appeare vnto me for thou art my life and all the glorie of my soule O desire of my harte lett me finde thee O loue of my soule let me touche thee O heauenly bridegroome my cheife delight both without and within me let me embrace thee Let me possesse thee o euerlasting blisse lett me possesse thee in the middst of my hatte blessed life and soueraigne sweetnes of my soule Let me loue thee o Lord my fortitude my force my refuge and my deliuerer Let me loue thee o my God my helper my stronge fortresse and my swâ—ete hope in all time of distresse Let me embrace thee the onely true good let me â—nioy thee the onely best thinge Open mine eares by vertue of thy worde more peircing theÌ„ a two edged sworde to the end I may heare thy voyce Let the greatnes of thy voyce be hearde as a thunder from aboue Let the sea roare and the fulnes thereof let the earth be moued and all thinges
I haue receiued from thee common with them the guift of reason wherby to knowe thee Neuerthelesse I haue saied almost equall for that they alreadie haue the happie knowledge of thee by seeing thee as thou art but I by hope onely They by beholding thee apparantlie face to face I obâ—curelie as it were in a looking glasse They plainelie and perfectlie but I partlie onely Of the future dignitie of man CHAPT VIII WHen that therfore which is perfect is arriued that which is partly onely shal be disanulled which will be when we shall be admitted to beholde thy face apparentlie What will then hinder vs to be almost equall to the Angells whom thou o Lord at that time wilt crowne with a crowne of hope which is adorned with glorie and renowne whom thou with vnspeakeable fauoures wilt grace as thy friends yea we shal be in all thinges like and equall to the Angells Thy truth doth likewise testifie the same saying They are equall to the Angells and are the sonnes of God What are they but the sonnes of God if they are equall to the Angells They shall without doubt be the sonnes of God because the sonne of man is become the sonne of God Through this consideration I durst boldlye affirme that man is not onely almost equall to the Angells noe not equall onely but higher in dignitie and surpassing the Angells because man is God and God is man not an Angell Wherfore I durst auouche that man is the most excellent of all creatures because the Worde which in the beginning was God with God the Worde by which God sayed let light be made and light was made to witt the Angelicall nature the Worde by which God in the beginning created all thinges the same Worde hath become fleshe and dwelt in vs and we haue seene the glory of it Loe this is the glorie by which I glorie whensoeuer I glorie as I ought Loe this is the ioy by which I reioyce whensoeuer I reioyce as I shoulde euen thou o Lord my God the life and onely glorie of my soule I confesse therfore vnto thee o Lord my God that thou hast created me in a manner equal to the Angells in that thou hast created me capable of reason for that by meanes of thy diuine Worde I am in possibilitie to become equall to the Angells that by meanes of thy onely begotten Worde I may be adopted to be thy sonne o Lord to be thy sonne I say by the meanes and merits of thy beloued sonne lesus Christ in whom thou hast beene well pleased being thy onely soÌ„ne and heare and our onely Lord and redeemer enligthner and comforter being our aduocate with thee and the light of our eies who is our life our Sauiour and our onely hope who hath loued vs more then himselfe by whom we haue an assured trust and confidence and accesse to come to thee because he hath giueÌ„ them power to be the sonnes of God that beleiue in his name I will for euer o Lord praise thy holy name who by creating me according to thine owne image and likenes hast made me capable of soe greate glorie as to be the sonne of God The trees stones and all thinges els whatsoeuer that are mouâ—d or growe in the ayre or in the sea or on the earthe haue not this priuâ—ledge and prerogatiue because thou hast not giuen them power by meanes of thy Worde to be the sonnes of God for that they are depâ—iued of reason because this power doth depende of the reason by which we knowe God But he hath giuen this power to men whom he hath created reasonable according to his owne image and likenes And I o Lord like as by thy grace I am a man soe likewise by thy grace I am in possibilitie to be thy sonne which is a prerogatiue which they cannot attaine vnto Whence proceedeth this soe greate a good vnto me o Lord the most soueraigne truth and true soueraigntie the originaâ—l and beginning of all creatures What is the cause heereof o Lord that I shoulde be able to become thy sonne and they cannot Thou art the cause o Lord who remainest for euer who hast created aswell the one as the other Thou hast created both men and beastes the stones and the greene grasse growing on the grouÌ„de There were not any precedent meritts or precedent grace because thou hast created all thinges being moued there vnto by thy onely goodnes All creatures before theire creation were equall in meritts for that they were all voide of merits What then hath caused thy goodnes to be more liberall towardes me thy creature whom thou hast endewed with reason then towardes all others that are voide of the same Why am not I like vnto all them or all they like vnto me or I alone like vnto them What merits of mine what grace or goodnes was there in me to deserue the same to witt that thou shouldest make me capable to be the sonne of God which prerogatiue thou hast graunted to none of them Be it farr o Lord from mine imagination that I shoulde thinke this to proceede from any merits of mine Thy onely grace and goodnes hath been the cause of this to the end I might be pertaker of the sweetnes thereof I beseeche thee therefore by that grace by the which thou hast created me that thou wilt giue me grace to the end I may be gratefull for this grace receiued from thee Of Gods omnipotent power CHAPT IX THy omnipotent hande o God being still one and the same hath created Angells in heauen and wormes on the earth not being more excellent in the creation of the first then of the later For as noe other hande coulde create an Angell soe noe other coulde create a worme As noe other coulde create heauen soe noe other coulde create the least leafe of a tree As noe other coulde create the body soe noe other coulde cause soe much as one haire of the heade to be either white or blacke But the omnipotent hande of thy maiestie createth all thinges with a like facilitie Neither is it more possible vnto it to create a worme then an Angell nor more inpossible to inlarge the heaueÌ„s then a leafe it is not more easie vnto it to make a haire then a body nor more harde to lay the foundation of the earthe vpon the waters then the foundation of the waters vpon the earthe But all thinges whatsoeuer it woulde it hath made as it woulde in heauen and in earthe in the sea and in the bottomeles depthes making me likewise amongst all other thinges euen as it would could and knewe how Veriely thy hande o Lord coulde haue made me a stone or a birde or a serpent or some brute beaste knowing full well how to doe it yet woulde not by reason of thy great goodnes The cause therefore why I am not a stone or a tree or some brute beaste is for that thy goodnes hath otherwise ordained neither were there
obtaine pardon I haue directed thy Worde with my wordes whom I haue affirmed to haue beene sent for my misdeedes and haue recounted vnto thee the passion of thy most sacred sonne which I doe beleeue to haue beene suffred for my redemption I doe beleeue that his deitie sent by thee hath vouchsafed to be cloathed with my humanitie in which he thought it not strange to endure buffets bondes spittinges derision and mockinge yea to take patiently the crosse the nayles and the lances percinge This humanitie whilome subiect to the cryinge of infancy wrapped in the swadlinge cloathes of childhoode troubled with the trauailles of youthe made leane with tastinge wearied with watchinge tired with trauailinge after that cruelly treated with whipps torne with tormeÌ„ts reputed as dead endowed with the glory of his resurrection he hath caried with him vnto the heauenly felicitie and placed the same at the râ—ght hande of thy Maiestie This is that which doth implore thy mercy to pardon mine iniquitie Heere behâ—ulde o holy Faâ—her the sonne whom thou hast begotten and the seruant whom thou hast redeemed See heere the Creator and despise not his creature Gâ—atiously embrace the shepheard mercifully looke vpon the sheepe which vppon his owne shoulders he hath brought backe vnto the folde This is that most faithfull shepheard who heresofore with much and manie laboures sought the sheepe that was loste wanderinge ouer the craggie hilles and dangerous dales Who liauing at length found this one sheepe that had beene lost beinge now almost dead and fainting for want of foode with iov he laied it on his owne shouâ—ders and bindinge it fast vnto him with cordiall cordes of affection he drewe it out of the pitt of perdition and lastly holding it fast with the embracements of his mercy that it might not againe get away he brought it backe to the ninety nine that had neuer gone astray Beholde o Lord thou who aâ—t my king and God of all power beholde the good sheepheard doth yeeld thee an accompt of that which thou hast committed to his charge he hath by thy ordinance vndertaken to saue man whom he hath repaired and rendred vnto thee free from all spott of sinne Beholde thy most deerely beloued sonne hath reconciled vnto thee the creature which thou didst create of clay which had departed farr from thee Beholde the milde sheapphearde doth bringe againe to thy flocke the sheepe which the violent theife had driuen a way He representeth the seruant before thy face that did runne away through the guilt of his owne conscience to the end that he who by his owne merits deserued punishment may by the satisfaction of this soe good a Lord obtaine pardon and that he to whom hell was due for his sinnes and iniquitie may hope in shorte time by meanes of soe good a guide to be recalled to the countrie of hauenly felicitie I haue beene able of my selfe to offende thee but of my selfe I caÌ„not appease thee My God is become mine ayde to witt thy beloued sonne makinge himselfe partaker of my humanitie that he might cure mine infirmitie to the end that by the same thinge from whence arose the cause of offence he might offer vnto thee a sacrifice of praise and by this might make me acceptable to thy mercie that sittinge at thy right hande he might alwaies shewe himselfe to be of the same nature and substance with me Beholde this is my hope this is my confidence If thou doest as worthily thou maiest contemne me in respect of my sinne at least looke mercifully vpon me for the loue of thy beloued sonne For thy sonnes sake pardon me his seruant Looke vpon the Sacrament of his fleshe and remit my fleshes guiltines Lett my sinnes I beseeche thee be blotted out of thy sight be they neuer soe vilde as often as thou doest see those wide open woundes of thy blessed childe Washe a way I beseeche thee the spotts of pollution and filthines where with I am defiled as often as thou doost behold the pretious bloud flowing from his sacred side And for that flesh hath caused thee to be angry leâ—t flesh 〈◊〉 wise I most humbl requâ—st thee moue thee vnto mercy that as flesh hath seâ—uced me to sin soe flesh may reduce me to pâ—rdon True it is that much is due to my impietie but much more to his pitty Great certainly is my wickednes but farr greater is his worthines For by how much higher God is then man in greatnes and exceliencie by soe much lower is mans malice to his goodnes in quality and quatitie For what hath man done and committed which the sonne of God being made man hath not redeemed What pride could swell to be soe great which so great humiâ—iâ—y did not abate and defeaâ—e What power of death coulde grow to haue soe supereminent power and dominion as that Christ had not power to destroy and pâ—ll it downe by the paine of his passion Verily o my God if the demerits of man sinning and the meritts of his crâ—ator redeeming him were weighed togeather in a ballance that is iust and euen farr greater distance and difference would be founde betweene them then is betweene the East and West or betweene the lowest hell and the highest hâ—auen Now therfore o most excellent creator of light now mercifully pardo me my sinnes for the vnspeakable labours of thy beloued sonne Lett my wickednes I beseeche thee be now forgiuen by meanes of his pitty my peruersnes through his modesty my fiercenes through his meekenes and mercie Lett his humilitie now winne my hautines his sufferance mine impatieÌ„ce his benignity mine vncourteousnes his obedience my disobedience his tranquillitie mine vnquietne his sweetnes my bitternes his mildnes my hastines his charitie mine vngentlenes A prayer to desire the assistance of the Holy-Ghost CHAPT IX VOuchsafe now o true loue of the diuinity o sacred communication of the almighty Father and his most blessed sonne O Holy Ghost the almighti aduocate the most meeke and mercifull comforter of those that mourne and are in misery vouchsafe now to flow and descende into the secret roomes of my harte by the powerfull vertue and dwellinge and abidinge in me make ioyfull by the shininge of thy bright illumination all the darksome dennes of my neglected mansion fruitfull likewise I beseeche thee by visitting me with the aboundance of the heauenly dewe of thy grace infused whatsoeuer thou shalt finde in me through longe neglect to be growne corrupt or withered Wounde with the darte of thy loue the secret places of mine inwarde man and entringe in set on fire with thy wholsome flames the internall partes of my dull affection consume likewise whatsoeuer is amisse in all the partes and powers of my body and soule within by enlightninge me with the fire of sacred deuotion Giue me to drinke of the fountaine of thy pleasure that I may not desire to taste of the poysoned sweetnes of any worldly creature Iudge me o Lord and discerne
faith not by seeing thee face to face Because that hope which is seene is not hope Those immortall troupes of holie Angells o Lord doe incessantlie praise thee and the celestiall vertues doe glorifie thy name who haue noe neede to reade this which I haue written of thee thereby to knowe thee the sacred and vndeuided Trinitie Because they alwaies do behold thy face in which without the sillables of times they doe reade what thy eternall will woulde haue to be doÌ„ne they doe reade choose and loue thee yea they doe reade euerlastingly and that which they reade neuâ—r passeth away By choosinge and louinge thee they doe reade the immutabilitie of thy counsell neither shall theire booke at any time be shutt or folded together for that thou thy selfe art this booke of theirs and shalt be for euer O how â—urpassinge happie are those heauenlieve â—tues who are able to praise thee soe holilie and purelie with such excessiue sweetnes and vnspeakeable ioy from thence they take occasion of praise from whence they reioyce that is by beholdinge thee euerlastinglie by which they are made able to reioyce and to praise thee But we that are ouercharged with the burden of our fraile fleshe who are likewise placed a farr of in the pilgrimage of this life from the light of thy countenance and lastly are distracted and disquieted through diuersitie of worldly businesses cannot praise thee worthily as we ought how be it we praise thee by faith not by seeing thee face to face contrariwise those Angelical spirits by seeing thee face to face not by faith Our fleshe is the cause of this by meanes whereof we praise thee in a farr meaner degree then they But albeit we praise thee after a diuers manner yet thou art one and the same God creator of all thinges to whom sacrifice of praise is offered in heauen and on earth and by helpe of thy mercy we hope heereafter to be made pertaker of theire companie Graunt o Lord in the interim during the time of my abode in this fraile flesh that my hart and tongue may praise thee and lett all my bones say O Lord who is like vnto the Thou art God almightie whom we worship and adore three in personnes and one in substance of deitie the Father vnbegotten the Sonne the onely begotteÌ„ of the Father the holy Ghost proeedinge from them both remaining in them both the â—acred and vndeuided Trinitie one onely God almightie Who when we were not hast powerfully made by our offences hast lost and vndonne vs and when we were wonderfullie recouered vs by thy pittie and goodnes Suffer vâ— not I beseech thee to be vngreatefull for soe greate benenefitts and vnworthy of soe maniâ—olde mercies I humbly craue pray and beseeche thee increase our faith inlarge our hope augment our charitie Make vs by this thy grace to be alwaie firme in faith and fruitfull in good workes that by an vpright and perfect faith and workes worthy of the same we may by thy mercie attaine to life euerlastinge that there contemplating thy glorie as it is we may adore thy maiestie and may all of vs say together whom thou hast made worthy to beholde this thy blisse Glorie be to the Father who hath created vs glorie be to the Sonne who hath redeemed vs glorie be to the holie Ghost who hath sanctified vs glorie to the most highe vndeuided Trinitie whose workes are inseperable whose Empire is euerlastinge and perpetual All glory and songes of praise are befittinge thee all worshipp benediction loue and thankes giuing is due to thee To thee our God be ascribed all honour strenght and fortitude for euer and euer Amen Heere man doth lament for that when he thinketh of God he is not moued to compunction seeinge the verye Angells tremble and quake when they beholde him CHAPT XXXIV FOrgiue me o Lord forgiue me o good God forgiue me and be mercifull vnto me pardon mine ignorance and my manifolde imperfections Reiect me not for my ouermuche boldenes in that I beinge but a seruant and woulde to God a good one and not all together bad and vnprofitable as I am yea in this respect very badd for that I presume to praise blesse and adore thee our God almightie terrible and exceedinglie to be feared without contrition of hart a fountaine of teares without that reuerence and feare which is fittinge For if the Angells praising and adoring thee albeit replenished with vnspeakable ioy doe tremble and quake how much more ought I soe to doe when I stande before thee singing praises or offering sacrifice vnto thee whence is it that my hart doth not pante and my contenance growe pale and why doe I not tremble in my whole bodie that by that meanes I might weepe and waile in thy presence incessantlie I would doe soe if it laie in my power but I cannot doe as I desire And for this cause I cannot but haue thee in highe regarde as often as I beholde thee with the eies of my faith soe terrible and woÌ„derfullie to be feared But who can doe this or any good thinge els without the assistance of thy grace because our whole succoure and safetie doth wholy proceede from thy greate mercle Miserable wretche that I am how is it that my soule is become soe sottishe and voide of sense that it is not exceedinglie affraide when it standeth before God and singeth praises in his presence Miserable wretche that I am how is my harte soe hardned that my eyes do not without ceasinge flowe forth floudes of teares whiles the seruant talketh with his Lord man with God a creature with his creator one that is made of stime with him that hath made all thinges of nothinge Beholde o Lord I doe make manifest vnto thee what I am and what I thinke of my selfe in the secrett of my harte I doe openly make knowen in the eares of my brethren Thou art riche in mercie and libâ—rall in bestowinge rewardes giue me of thy goodes that by them I may be able to serue thee because we can neither serue nor please thee except it be by helpe of those guifts which we receiue from thee Pierce I beseeche thee my fleshe with thy feare lett my harte reioyce that it may feare thy name O woulde to God my sinfull soule did feare thee in that manner as that holy man did who saied I haue allwaies feared God as it were floudes of water flowing ouer my heade O God thou giuer of all good thinges giue me I beseech thee a fountaine of teares duringe the time of my prayers and prayses which I singe to thee accompanied with puritie of harte and mirthe of minde that louing thee perfectlie and praysing thee worthily I may with the palate of my harte pereciue taste feele how pleasant and sweete thou our Lord art as it is written Taste and see because our Lord is sweete Blessed is that man that trusteth in him blessed is that people that knoweth
how to praise him blessed is that man whose helpe is from God who hath soe disposed the ascents of his harte in this dolefull vale of miserie that by them he may ascende vp to the place of eternall felicitie Happie are the cleane in harte for they shall see God happie are they o Lord that dwell in thy house they shall praise thee for euer and euer A Prayer greatly mouinge the harte to deuotion and to the loue of God CHAPT XXXV O Iesu our redemption loue and desire God of God giue â—are to me thy poore vnworthy seruant To thee I câ—ll crie with a loude voyce with my whole harte To thee I call calling thee into my soule enter into the same and make it fitting for thee that thou mayest possesse it without wrinkle or blemishe of iniquitie because reason requireth that a cleane dwellinge shoulde be prepared for soe cleane a Lord to dwell in Sanctifie me therefor I beseech thee thy vessell which thou hast made cleanse me from malice fill me and preserue me full of thy grace that heere and for all eternity I may be made a fitt habitation for thy diuine maiestie O most sweete most powerfull most louing most deare most powerfull most desired most inestimable most amiable most beautifull Lord thou art more sweet then honie more white then either milke or snowe more pleasant to the tast then nectar or delitious wine more pretious then golde or pretious stones and more deare to me then all the riches and honoures of this worlde What doe I say o my God my onely hope and my surpassing great mercie What doe I say my happie and secure sweetnes What doe I say in saying these thinges Verilie I say what I am able not what I ought Woulde to God I were able to singe such hymnes of prayses as doe the quires of blessed Angells O how willinglie woulde I bestowe my selfe wholy in singing and setting forthe thy praises O how deuoutelie in the middest of thy Church would I pronounce those Canticles of celestiall melodie to the praise and glorie of thy holy name But because I cannot doe this shall I therefore holde my peace Woe be to those that haue not thee in theire mouth because thou art he that openest the mouthes of such as are mute and makest the tongues of infants to be eloqueÌ„t Woe be to those whose talke is not of thee because those that are talkatiue and full of wordes are to be esteemed as men speecheles if theire talke doth not tende to the extollinge of thy praises But who is able to praise thee worthily o vnspeakable vertue and wisedome of the Father Seeing therefore I want wordes by which I might be able sufficientlie to expresse thee o diuine worde of all power and knowledge I will in the interim say what I can vntill thou vouchsafe to call me vnto thee where I shal be able to speake what appertaineth both to thee and me Wherfore I humbly beseech thee that thou wilt not soe much consider what I say as what I desire to say Verily I greatlie desire to speake that of thee which is fittinge meete in respect that all praise thankesgiuinge and glorie is due vnto thee Thou knowest therefore o God from whom the very secrets of our hartes cannot be concealed that thou art more deare and acceptable to me then heauen and earthe and all thinges elsâ— that are therein for I loue thee aboue heauen and earthe and all other thinges contained in them yea soe greate loue is due to thy holy name as that in comparison thereof noe transitorie thinge doth deserue the fame I doe loue thee o my God very muche and doe desire to loue thee still more and more Giue me grace that I may alwaies loue thee accordinge to the greatnes of my affection and according to the greatnes of my obligation that thou onely maiest be my whole intention and my whole meditation Lett me thinke of thee in the day time without ceasinge Lett me dreame of thee in the night season Lett my soule talke to thee lett my minde discourse with thee Lett my harte be beautified by the light of thy holy sight that hauinge thee for my conductor and capitaine I may marche forewarde from vertue to venue and at length may beholde thee the God of Gods in Sion During the time of this life I doe see thee obscurelie as it were through a mrtroure or looking glasse but then I shall beholde thee apparentlie face to face where I shall knowe thee like as I am knowen of thee Blessed are the cleane in harte for they shall see God Blessed are they o Lord that dwell in thy house they shall praiâ—e thee worlde without end I beseeche thee therfore o Lord by thy manifolde mercies by which we are deliuered from eternall death mollifie my stonie harde harte harder then either stone or iron with thy most sacred and powerfull vnction and make me at all times to become a liuinge sacrifice in thy sight by the fire of compunctioÌ„ Make me to haue alwaies in thy sight a humble and contrite harte ioyned with aboundance of teares Make me in all my desires as one wholy deade to this wretched world and through the greatnes of the feare and loue of thee to forgett all thinges transitorie in so much as that I may neither greiue nor growe gladd at any temporall thinge being free from the feare loue of whatsoever passeth away with time beinge neither depraued through flattery nor dismaied through aduersitie And for that the loue of thee is forcible like vnto death graunt I beseeche thee that the fierie and sweete force of thy loue may wholy withdrawe my minde from all thinges vnder heauen that I may adhere to thee alone being fedd with the only memorie af thy sweetnes Lett the most odoâ—iferous smell of thee o Lord descende lett it descende I beseech thee lett it descende and with it lett the mellifluous loue of thee enter into my harte Let the admirable and vnspeakable fragrant sauoure of thee come vnto me causinge in me an eternall desire and affection and producinge in my harte fountaines of water flowinge into life euerlastinge Thou o Lord art infinitely good and therefore infinitelie to be loued and praysed of those whom thou hast redeemed with thy pretious bloud O most liberall louer of men most louinge Lord and most iust iudge to whom the Father hath committed all iudgment thou perceiuest in the most wise iudgement of thy righteousnesse whether this be iust and reasonable or noe that the children of this worlde of the night and darkenesse doe loue and seeke after riches and honoures that are transitorie and cannot long continue with a farr greater desire earnestnes and studie then we thy seruants doe loue and seeke after thee our God by whom we haue been made and redeemed For if one man loueth an other with soe greate affection as that the one can scarcely endure the other to
shine o loue which dost alwaies burne o sweete Christ o good Iesu the eternall and neuer failing light the breade of life who dost feede vs with thy selfe without hurte to thy selfe who art daylie eaten and yet art alwaies whole without being broken I beseeche thee o Lord to shine vppon me and to enflame me Enlighten and sanctifie me thy vessell cleanse me from malice fill me and preserue me full of thy grace that to the good of my soule I may eate the foode of thy fleshe to the end that by eating thee I may liue of thee I may liue by thee I may come to thee and repose in thee Of the ioy which the soule receiuâ—th by receiuing Christ CHAPT XII O Lord the sweetnes of loue and the loue of sweetnes Be thou my foode and let all my bowelles be filled with the delitious drinke of thy loue to the end that all my wordes and cogitations may be good and tending to edification Make me o Lord and my loue to encrease in thee that thou mayest be eaten by me worthily who art more sweete then honie more white then snowe the foode of suche as growe greate in vertue Thou art my life by which I liue my hope to which I adhere my glory which I desire to obtaine Possesse thou my hart gouerne mine intention direct mine vnderstanding lift vp my loue eleuate my minde and draw the mouthe of my soule thirsting after thee to the waters of life euerlasting Let all tumultuous thoughtes and carnall cogitations I beseeche thee holde theire peace Let all phantasies of the earth and waters of the ayre and heauens keepe silence Let all dreames and imaginarie reuelations all tongues and tokens keepe silence briefly let all thinges holde theire peace that are donne in this vale of miserie being all of them short and soone passing away Let my soule in like sorte be silent and not speake a worde let it leaue it selfe by not thinking of it selfe but of thee o my God for that thou art my true and onely hope and my whole confidence Because a parte of each one of vs as the blood and flesh is founde in thee o Lord our God in thee I say o most sweete most gratious and most milde Iesu Where therfore parte of me doth raigne there I belieue likewise to haue dominion and where my blood doth dominere there I trust to haue principalitie and power Where my fleshe is glorified there I knowe my selfe to be renowned Although I am a sinner yet I doe not despaire to be pertaker of this grace and fauoure although my sinnes doe hinder it yet my substance doth require it Although my faultes and defectes doe exclude me yet my humaine nature which is common to me with Christ doth not repell me That the Worde incarnate is the cause of our hope CHAPT XIII DOubtles God is not soe cruell as not to loue his owne fleshe members and bowells I should certainely despaire by reason of the manifolde sinnes and vices faultes and negligences which I haue committed and doe dailie and continuallie commit in thought worde and deede and by all manner of meanes by which humaine frailtie is able to offend were it not that thy diuine Worde o my God had beene made fleshe and dwelt in vs. But now I dare not despaire because he being obedient vnto thee vntil deathe euen the deathe of the Crosse hath taken our handewrittinge or obligation wherein we stoode bounde as slaues to the Diuell by sinne and fastning it to the Crosse hath crucified both sin and deathe In him I securely breathe who sitteth at thy right hande and maketh intercession for vs. Trusting therefore in his bountie I desire to come to thee in whom we are already risen againe from the deade and are reuiued with whom we haue alreadie ascended into heauen and sit with him in glorie in that happie region To thee therfore o heauenly Father be all praise glory honor and thanks-giuinge HOw the more we are addicted to diuine contemplation the greater delight we take therein CHAT XIV How sweete is the remembrance of thee vnto vs o most louing Lord who hast soe dearelie loued and saued vs who hast soe wonderfullie reuiued and exalted vs. The more I meditare of thee o most mercifull Lord the more sweete and amiable thou art vnto me And for that thy goodnes doth exceedinglie delight me I purpose as long as I liue in the place of this pilgrimage to desire and contemplate without ceasing thy wonderfull loue vnspeakeable beautie with apure intention and with a most sweete and louinge affection Because I am wounded with the darte of thy charitie I am wonderfullie enflamed with the desire of thee coueâ—ing to come to thee to see thee Wherfore I will stande vppon my guarde and will singe in spirit with watchfull eies yea I wil singe with my minde and with all my forces I will praise thee my creator and redeemer I will peâ—rce the heauens by deuotion and feruoure and will remaine with thee by a feruent desire that being detained in this present miserie with my bodie only I may in thought and affection be continuallie with thee to the end my hart may be there where thou art my desired incomparable and most beloued treasure But alas o Lord my hart is not sufficient to conteÌ„plate the glorie of thy great goodnes and pittie for that thou art a God of infinite meekenes and mercie verily thy praise thy beautie thy vertue thy glorie thy magnificence thy maiestie and thy charitie doth farre surpasse the capacitie of any mortall memorie For euen as the brightnes of thy glorie is inestimable soe likewise the largenes of thy charitie is vnspeakeable whereby thou dost adopt those to be thy children and vnite them vnto thee by loue and affection whom thou hast created of nothinge How for Christs sake we ought to wishe for tribulations in this life CHAT XV. O My soule if it were necessary daylie to suffer torments yea to endure hell it selfe for a longe time together that we might see Christ in 〈◊〉 glorie and be ioyned in felowship with the Saintes in his heauenly cittie were it not meete thinkest thou to sustaine all manner of miserie that we might be made pertakes of soe greate a good and of soe greate felicitie Let the diuells therfore endeuoure as much as they will to entrap me and by tentatious to deceiue me let longe fastinge weaken my bodie and course cloathing subdue my fleshe let trauaile trouble me and watching drie me vp to nothinge let others exclaime against me let this or that man disquiet and molest me let colde make me crooked let my conscience murmure against me let heate scorche me let my bodie be grieued my breast enflamed my stomacke puffed vp with winde my countenance wanne and withered let me be wholie afflicted with sicknes let my life consume away in sadnes and my yeares in sighes and sorrowfullnes let rottennes enter into my bones and