sake_n as_o also_o thy_o own_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxviii_o confession_n incina_n cor_fw-la meum_fw-la deus_fw-la in_o testimonia_fw-la tua_fw-la 118._o ecce_fw-la concupui_fw-la mandata_fw-la tua_fw-la in_fw-la aequitate_fw-la tua_fw-la vivifica_fw-la me-incline_a my_o god_n my_o hart_n to_o thy_o testimony_n and_o in_o thy_o truth_n quicken_v my_o soul._n for_o behold_v my_o soul_n do_v exceed_o covet_v to_o perform_v thy_o law_n for_o thy_o law_n be_v truth_n and_o the_o effect_n thereof_o be_v justice_n and_o peace_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n when_o i_o remember_v how_o i_o have_v stray_v from_o thou_o by_o sin_n i_o become_v ashamed_a before_o thâ—e_n but_o when_o i_o consider_v thy_o mercy_n i_o hope_v still_o notwithstanding_o what_o be_v pass_v to_o become_v through_o thy_o grace_n which_o so_o sweet_o prevent_v i_o please_v to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o lord_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscuredâ—_n by_o sin_n and_o ill_a custom_n enlighten_v it_o that_o i_o may_v walk_v the_o way_n of_o justice_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o way_n whereof_o thou_o speak_v by_o esaie_n the_o prophet_n 8._o in_o which_o a_o fool_n can_v err_v as_o he_o affirmethâ—_n o_o let_v i_o by_o true_a humility_n become_v a_o fool_n according_a to_o his_o meaning_n let_v i_o become_v as_o a_o bittle_a child_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n certain_o we_o ought_v to_o live_v so_o subject_a to_o thou_o that_o we_o have_v no_o election_n of_o any_o thing_n as_o pretend_v ourselves_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n and_o also_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o a_o relation_n to_o thou_o that_o in_o thy_o light_n in_o thy_o truth_n and_o whole_o according_a to_o thy_o will_n we_o perform_v all_o we_o do_v and_o out_o of_o that_o respect_n omit_v what_o we_o omit_v ☞_o o_o my_o god_n let_v i_o i_o say_v walk_v this_o way_n of_o love_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o sack_v it-self_n in_o any_o tâ—ing_n whatsoever_o let_v this_o love_n whole_o possess_v my_o soul_n and_o hart_n which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o may_v live_v and_o move_v only_o in_o and_o out_o of_o a_o pure_a and_o sincere_a love_n to_o thou_o who_o above_o all_o aught_o to_o be_v love_v and_o desire_v let_v this_o fire_n which_o thou_o come_v into_o this_o world_n to_o send_v and_o will_v it_o shall_v burn_v consume_v i_o whole_o into_o itself_o that_o forgetful_a of_o myself_o and_o all_o create_a thing_n i_o may_v be_v mindful_a of_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n it_o be_v thy_o promise_n that_o where_o sin_n â—ath_v abound_v graâ—e_o shall_v superbound_v that_o the_o riches_n of_o thy_o merâ—y_n may_v appear_v and_o show_v it-self_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o holy_a name_n which_o mercy_n i_o beseech_v thou_o extend_v itself_o â—o_o i_o that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o o_o that_o thy_o pure_a love_n be_v â—o_o ground_v and_o establish_v in_o my_o hart_n that_o i_o may_v sigh_v and_o pant_v without_o cease_v after_o thou_o and_o be_v â—ble_n in_o the_o strength_n of_o this_o thy_o love_n â—o_o live_v without_o alâ—_n comfort_n and_o conâ—olation_n human_a or_o divine_a thereby_o â—o_o become_v the_o more_o conformable_a to_o â—hee_o the_o belove_a of_o my_o soul_n o_o how_o â—appy_a be_v they_o that_o true_o love_n tâ—ee_v certain_o whatsoever_o they_o suffer_v it_o â—â—_o very_o tolerable_a to_o they_o because_o he_o or_o who_o love_n they_o suffer_v be_v thâ—ir_a helâ—er_n indeed_o my_o lord_n thou_o be_v a_o hiden_n god_n but_o yet_o not_o so_o hide_v from_o â—ur_n soul_n but_o that_o in_o some_o sort_n we_o â—ave_n therein_o according_a to_o our_o poor_a capacity_n not_o only_o a_o taste_n but_o also_o sight_n of_o thou_o for_o as_o even_o thou_o thy_o self_n have_v say_v 8._o bless_v be_v the_o clean_a of_o hart_n for_o they_o shall_v see_v god_n o_o sight_n to_o be_v wish_v desire_a and_o long_v forâ—_n because_o once_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o be_v to_o have_v learn_v all_o thing_n nothing_o can_v bring_v we_o to_o this_o sight_n but_o love_n but_o what_o love_n must_v it_o be_v not_o a_o sensible_a love_n only_o a_o childish_a love_n a_o love_n which_o seek_v it-self_n more_o than_o the_o belove_a no_o but_o it_o must_v bâ—_n a_o ardent_a love_n a_o pure_a love_n a_o couradgious_a love_n ☞_o a_o love_n of_o charity_n anâ—_n humble_a love_n and_o a_o constant_a love_n not_o wear_v out_o with_o labour_n noâ—_n daunt_v with_o any_o difficulty_n o_o lord_n give_v this_o love_n unto_o my_o soul_n that_o â—_o may_v never_o more_o live_v nor_o breath_n buâ—_n out_o of_o a_o most_o pure_a love_n of_o thou_o my_o all_o and_o only_o good_a let_v i_o love_v thou_o foâ—_n thyself_o and_o nothing_o else_o but_o in_o anâ—_n for_o thou_o let_v i_o love_v nothing_o in_o steeâ—_n of_o thou_o 8._o for_o to_o give_v all_o for_o love_n be_v â—â—_o most_o sweet_a bargain_n for_o love_n be_v as_o stronâ—_n as_o death_n o_o that_o this_o thy_o love_n may_v floâ—_n in_o such_o abundance_n into_o the_o harâ—_n of_o all_o capable_a thereof_o that_o the_o sonâ—_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o praise_n may_v contiâ—nually_o be_v hear_v through_o out_o all_o the_o earth_n o_o what_o do_v we_o do_v love_a vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z abuse_v the_o most_o noble_a capacity_n of_o our_o soul_n by_o desire_v that_o which_o pass_v away_o like_a smoke_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z love_v that_o which_o be_v more_o changeable_a than_o the_o moon_n can_v any_o â—hing_n satiate_v our_o heart_n but_o our_o god_n can_v we_o find_v true_a repose_n out_o of_o he_o â—s_v any_o thing_n worthy_a of_o our_o love_n but_o â—hat_n goodness_n which_o be_v love_n it-self_n and_o â—hom_n the_o more_o we_o love_v the_o more_o we_o â—re_n able_a to_o love_n because_o for_o love_n he_o make_v we_o capable_a of_o love_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o honour_n â—nd_v i_o know_v not_o it_o i_o be_v compare_v â—o_o beast_n and_o by_o sin_n become_v like_a to_o â—hem_o or_o worse_o than_o they_o be_v this_o my_o equital_n for_o all_o thy_o love_n be_v this_o excusable_a that_o my_o soul_n make_v by_o theeâ—o_o â—o_z be_v delight_v with_o the_o food_n of_o â—ngels_n which_o be_v love_n shall_v delight_v â—â—self_n with_o the_o bread_n of_o swine_n o_o be_v â—y_a hart_n able_a to_o rehear_n this_o before_o â—â—ee_v and_o not_o through_o excessive_a grief_n â—reak_v in_o sunder_o can_v i_o in_o my_o nature_n not_o abide_v to_o be_v disloyal_a to_o one_o who_o i_o find_v to_o be_v a_o faithful_a friend_n to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o endure_v to_o remember_v my_o disloyalty_n to_o my_o god_n can_v i_o with_o joy_n undergo_v for_o my_o friend_n ☞_o disgrace_n and_o difficulty_n and_o can_v i_o endure_v nothing_o for_o my_o god_n be_v the_o absence_n of_o a_o dear_a friend_n intolerable_a to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o abide_v to_o see_v myself_o cease_v at_o any_o time_n to_o sigh_v and_o long_o after_o my_o god_n o_o no_o my_o god_n let_v that_o be_v far_o from_o i_o i_o here_o renounce_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o creature_n place_n with_o thy_o own_o hand_n tâ—â—_n love_n in_o their_o roomâ—_n that_o it_o expel_v thence_o all_o â—hat_n now_o be_v therein_o displease_v to_o tâ—ine_a eye_n thou_o maâ—â—_n thy_o selâ—_n whole_o possess_v i_o give_v and_o distribute_v my_o affection_n and_o dispose_v the_o passion_n of_o my_o haâ—â—_n according_a to_o thy_o sweet_a will_n which_o only_o be_v just_a only_o holy_a and_o true_a iâ—_n it-self_n c_o how_o sincere_a then_o be_v oâ—_n affection_n when_o we_o love_v our_o neigâ—â—bour_n only_o in_o and_o for_o thou_o theâ—â—_n we_o pity_v not_o one_o and_o be_v hard_o heart_v to_o another_o according_a to_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o perverse_a nature_n but_o behold_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o consequent_o willing_o serve_v and_o assist_v all_o for_o thy_o love_n then_o we_o do_v not_o show_v our_o seve_v meek_a only_o to_o our_o friend_n but_o also_o to_o those_o by_o who_o we_o suffer_v most_o contradiction_n and_o glad_o upon_o all_o occasion_n extend_v our_o charity_n for_o there_o be_v no_o true_a friendship_n but_o that_o which_o be_v found_v upon_o thou_o and_o which_o be_v maintain_v without_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love_n ☜_o this_o be_v only_o the_o love_n of_o charity_n which_o charity_n know_v not_o how_o to_o repine_v to_o be_v angry_a to_o be_v exceptious_a to_o be_v inconstant_a to_o be_v troublesome_a to_o be_v suspicious_a or_o jealous_a for_o it_o regard_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o desire_v thou_o above_o all_o it_o take_v all_o in_o good_a part_n it_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v man_n exceed_v in_o word_n find_v it-self_n so_o often_o to_o offend_v in_o
intend_v yet_o what_o be_v ill_a reform_v in_o thou_o and_o this_o will_v all_o amend_v as_o far_o as_o he_o do_v think_v it_o good_a who_o be_v most_o just_a and_o wise_a he_o will_v thou_o by_o affliction_n purge_v from_o what_o displease_v his_o eye_n will_v thou_o of_o all_o that_o love_v thy_o god_n from_o suffer_v be_v exempt_a o_o no_o but_o bliss_n as_o other_o do_v thy_o god_n and_o live_v content_a amid_o the_o various_a accident_n that_o do_v to_o thou_o befall_v commit_v thyself_o and_o all_o to_o god_n who_o seek_v our_o good_a in_o all_o thyself_o be_v blind_a and_o can_v judge_v what_o be_v the_o best_a for_o thou_o but_o he_o do_v pierce_v into_o all_o thing_n how_o hâ—dd_v so_o ere_o thâ—y_v be_v my_o hart_n shall_v only_o this_o desire_n that_o thou_o my_o lord_n dispose_v even_o as_o thou_o please_v in_o all_o thing_n till_o these_o my_o eye_n thou_o close_o by_o death_n which_o i_o so_o much_o desire_n because_o it_o will_v procure_v i_o to_o enjoy_v my_o god_n my_o all_o where_o i_o shall_v be_v secure_a that_o none_o from_o i_o can_v take_v my_o lord_n but_o for_o eternity_n i_o shall_v enjoy_v my_o only_a good_a and_o to_o he_o ever_o be_v unite_v by_o a_o knot_n of_o love_n which_o nothing_o shall_v unity_n but_o will_v remain_v as_o permanent_a as_o his_o divinity_n o_o happy_a hour_n when_o will_v thou_o come_v and_o set_v my_o spirit_n free_a that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n for_o perpetuity_n contemplate_v his_o glorious_a face_n with_o all_o that_o he_o adore_v sing_v with_o they_o his_o sweet_a praise_n for_o eâ—er_v and_o ever_o more_o in_o this_o be_v such_o and_o so_o great_a comfort_n and_o peace_n that_o well_o may_v the_o soul_n be_v term_v to_o receive_v a_o hundred_o fold_n in_o this_o life_n who_o despise_v itself_o and_o all_o other_o thing_n that_o it_o may_v find_v thou_o o_o how_o free_a be_v such_o a_o soul_n to_o fly_v with_o the_o wing_n of_o love_n to_o the_o throne_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n never_o be_v there_o or_o can_v be_v imagine_v such_o a_o love_n as_o be_v between_o a_o humble_a soul_n and_o thou_o who_o can_v express_v what_o pass_v between_o such_o a_o soul_n and_o thou_o very_o neither_o man_n nor_o angel_n be_v able_a to_o do_v it_o sufficient_o and_o the_o more_o such_o a_o soul_n know_v of_o thou_o the_o more_o sound_n become_v her_o humility_n the_o which_o thyself_o only_o can_v teach_v one_o perfect_o and_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o get_v it_o in_o verity_n and_o perfection_n but_o by_o converse_v with_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n bestow_v this_o heavenly_a gift_n on_o i_o which_o only_o find_v favour_n before_o thou_o those_o that_o possess_v it_o be_v able_a in_o and_o by_o thou_o to_o bear_v all_o thing_n to_o understand_v all_o thing_n as_o far_o as_o it_o be_v necessary_a for_o they_o for_o one_o learn_v more_o in_o prayer_n of_o thou_o in_o one_o hour_n than_o all_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n can_v teach_v one_o in_o fifty_o year_n for_o that_o which_o thou_o teach_v be_v sound_a solid_a and_o secure_a because_o it_o tend_v to_o nothing_o but_o to_o love_v thou_o &_o neglect_v itself_o thy_o word_n bring_v force_n &_o strength_n in_o themselves_o thy_o word_n be_v word_n of_o peace_n to_o the_o soul_n thy_o word_n be_v not_o like_o the_o word_n of_o man_n which_o pass_v as_o a_o sound_n through_o the_o air_n buâ—_n thy_o pierce_v the_o very_a bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n let_v i_o hearken_v therefore_o to_o thou_o who_o speak_v love_n and_o most_o certain_a truth_n the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o world_n be_v foolishness_n before_o thou_o but_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v much_o to_o be_v desire_v and_o for_o it_o willing_o ought_v we_o to_o give_v all_o our_o substance_n to_o it_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v espouse_v and_o by_o it_o if_o we_o will_v be_v happy_a all_o our_o action_n ought_v to_o be_v govern_v although_o thou_o do_v say_v 3._o that_o unless_o we_o become_v as_o little_a child_n we_o can_v not_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n yet_o withal_o thou_o have_v say_v 16._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v wise_a as_o serpent_n and_o simple_a as_o dove_n where_o thou_o put_v that_o we_o shall_v be_v wise_a before_o we_o be_v simple_a and_o not_o simplicity_n before_o wisdom_n whereof_o i_o ask_v thou_o the_o reason_n o_o my_o lord_n with_o all_o the_o humility_n i_o be_o possible_o able_a for_o it_o seem_v to_o meâ—_n that_o thereinâ—_n as_o in_o all_o thy_o word_n there_o be_v a_o hide_a mystery_n tell_v i_o i_o say_v my_o god_n of_o who_o in_o all_o case_n and_o doubt_n i_o ask_v solution_n and_o many_o time_n by_o it_o thou_o do_v make_v many_o thing_n manifest_a to_o my_o simplicity_n tell_v i_o â—_o say_v what_o be_v the_o reason_n very_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o thou_o bid_v we_o be_v wise_a before_o we_o become_v simple_a because_o that_o be_v only_o true_a simplicity_n which_o follow_v true_a wisdom_n for_o we_o can_v become_v true_o simplify_v in_o our_o soul_n but_o by_o thy_o heavenly_a gift_n of_o true_a wisdom_n for_o there_o be_v a_o simplicity_n which_o be_v without_o wisdom_n and_o discretion_n which_o little_o avail_v to_o perfection_n this_o virtue_n of_o simplicity_n become_v more_o and_o more_o perfect_a in_o the_o soul_n as_o she_o increase_v in_o humility_n and_o charity_n yet_o at_o the_o very_a first_o of_o our_o conversion_n this_o be_v in_o some_o sort_n practise_v by_o we_o if_o we_o do_v as_o we_o ought_v to_o do_v as_o for_o example_n to_o become_v please_v to_o thou_o it_o be_v absolute_o necessary_a that_o a_o soul_n walk_v simple_o and_o sincere_o before_o thyself_o and_o all_o man_n and_o read_v and_o hear_v obey_v and_o perâ—forme_v all_o in_o a_o simple_a and_o humble_a manner_n not_o search_v into_o that_o which_o belong_v not_o unto_o she_o this_o i_o say_v thou_o do_v exact_a for_o nothing_o be_v more_o odious_a to_o thou_o than_o the_o contrary_a practice_n but_o yet_o this_o do_v not_o diminish_v our_o natural_a reason_n but_o make_v it_o more_o clear_a and_o able_a to_o comprehend_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o us._n this_o virtue_n also_o therefore_o bestow_v upon_o i_o who_o even_o in_o my_o nature_n as_o thou_o well_o know_v do_v ever_o above_o all_o thing_n hate_v dissemble_v and_o dissimulation_n o_o lord_n poor_a as_o i_o be_o and_o most_o sinful_a thus_o thou_o â—eest_v how_o i_o presume_v to_o speak_v unto_o â—hâ—e_n but_o easy_o shall_v i_o obtain_v pardon_n of_o thou_o because_o thou_o overflowe_v with_o â—he_n abundance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n for_o whâ—ch_a glory_n praise_v adoration_n be_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n and_o only_o desire_v by_o i_o i_o have_v no_o friend_n to_o speak_v or_o treat_v with_o but_o thou_o and_o some_o of_o thy_o saint_n to_o who_o thou_o have_v give_v charge_n of_o i_o and_o to_o who_o i_o fly_v when_o my_o sin_n affright_v i_o among_o who_o next_o after_o thy_o dear_a mother_n the_o queen_n of_o mercy_n be_v my_o belove_a s._n augustine_n o_o glorious_a saint_n who_o hart_n do_v burn_v and_o flame_n with_o love_n divine_a remember_v i_o most_o sinful_a wretch_n who_o hunger_n starve_a do_v pine_v for_o want_v of_o that_o which_o thou_o enjoy_v in_o such_o abundant_a measure_n it_o be_v my_o god_n that_o i_o do_v mean_a my_o joy_n and_o all_o my_o treasure_n thy_o word_n o_o saint_n be_v true_o sweet_a because_o thou_o do_v address_v they_o unto_o he_o who_o be_v only_a meet_v our_o mis'ry_n to_o redress_v at_o who_o intorcession_n much_o have_v thou_o do_v for_o i_o honour_v they_o my_o lord_n for_o i_o who_o be_o so_o poor_a thate_o have_v nothing_o to_o present_v they_o or_o thou_o only_o a_o desire_n of_o be_v grateful_a to_o thou_o who_o be_v by_o all_o eternal_o prayâ—sed_v amen_n it_o be_v s._n augustine_n the_o doctor_n and_o amorous_a servant_n of_o god_n that_o she_o here_o mean_v the_o second_o confession_n omnis_fw-la ex_fw-la vobis_fw-la qui_fw-la non_fw-la renunti_fw-la at_o omnibus_fw-la quae_fw-la possident_fw-la 14._o non_fw-la potest_fw-la meus_fw-la esse_fw-la discipulus_fw-la qui_fw-la habet_fw-la aures_fw-la audiendi_fw-la audiat_fw-la all_o you_o who_o renounce_v not_o all_o you_o possess_v can_v be_v my_o disciple_n who_o have_v ear_n of_o hear_v let_v he_o hear_v these_o be_v thy_o word_n my_o lord_n which_o though_o they_o seem_v hard_o at_o first_o yet_o be_v explicate_v to_o our_o soul_n by_o thou_o they_o become_v most_o easy_a and_o sweet_a to_o perform_v teach_v i_o therefore_o my_o god_n i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n teach_v i_o i_o say_v how_o i_o â—hall_v perform_v this_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o thyâ—oly_a â—oly_z name_n thou_o have_v inflame_v my_o â—art_n as_o thou_o
to_o my_o true_o love_v thou_o what_o can_v i_o i_o say_v pretend_v see_v no_o peace_n or_o comfort_n can_v be_v find_v but_o only_o in_o thou_o what_o do_v we_o when_o we_o desire_v comfort_n of_o thou_o but_o deprive_v ourselves_o of_o a_o most_o happy_a liberty_n which_o they_o enjoy_v who_o desire_v nothing_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n ☞_o but_o without_o all_o regard_n of_o themselves_o to_o be_v perfect_o conformable_a to_o thou_o if_o we_o will_v live_v without_o all_o intention_n or_o wish_v but_o of_o enjoy_v thou_o which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o a_o true_o humble_a and_o faithful_a soul_n the_o devil_n can_v not_o overcome_v we_o by_o any_o wile_n we_o shall_v easy_o retain_v true_a peace_n with_o ourselves_o with_o all_o the_o world_n and_o above_o all_o with_o thou_o for_o when_o we_o adhere_v to_o any_o create_a thing_n we_o become_v a_o slave_n to_o our_o passion_n and_o be_v in_o eminent_a danger_n of_o sin_n no_o way_n be_v plain_a secure_a and_o easy_a and_o 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through_o their_o pride_n and_o forgettfullnes_n of_o their_o own_o nothing_o and_o of_o the_o greatness_n of_o thy_o majesty_n which_o pride_n above_o all_o thing_n deliver_v i_o from_o i_o beseech_v thou_o because_o it_o make_v soul_n so_o odious_a before_o thyself_o and_o all_o that_o love_v thou_o let_v i_o give_v all_o glory_n to_o thou_o who_o without_o any_o desert_n of_o i_o have_v thus_o sweet_o with_o grace_n prevent_v i_o for_o which_o be_v thou_o ever_o by_o all_o praise_v and_o adore_v amen_n the_o xiii_o confession_n o_o lord_n who_o power_n majesty_n and_o wisdom_n have_v no_o end_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o sinner_n and_o give_v i_o leave_v to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o ask_v thou_o whither_o man_n be_v please_v to_o thou_o because_o they_o abound_v with_o human_a knowledge_n and_o behold_v thou_o affirm_v no_o but_o unhappy_a be_v they_o who_o can_v pierce_v into_o all_o thing_n ☜_o if_o they_o be_v ignorant_a of_o thou_o let_v i_o therefore_o love_n and_o 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thou_o will_v by_o they_o be_v belove_v o_o how_o soon_o do_v thou_o by_o thy_o grace_n wipe_v out_o the_o sinnâ—â—_n of_o such_o who_o now_o detest_a their_o former_a ill_a life_n do_v strive_v by_o humble_a love_n to_o become_v grateful_a to_o thou_o for_o thy_o prevent_a mercy_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n though_o thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o much_o yet_o i_o be_o far_o from_o love_v thou_o much_o those_o who_o now_o enjoy_v thou_o that_o have_v heertofor_o be_v sinner_n as_o i_o be_v they_o intercessor_n to_o thou_o for_o meâ—_n and_o be_v thou_o ever_o praise_v for_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n by_o all_o thy_o majesty_n creature_n for_o ever_o anâ—_n ever_o amen_o the_o fourteen_o confessionâ—_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n who_o sweet_o dispose_v all_o thing_n give_v thy_o poor_a contemptible_a creature_n leave_v to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o my_o hope_n from_o my_o youth_n and_o entire_o belove_v of_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o i_o will_v 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their_o hope_n â—holy_a upon_o thou_o all_o creature_n be_v unstable_a and_o those_o that_o seek_v not_o â—hee_o above_o all_o creature_n but_o put_v their_o trust_n more_o in_o man_n then_o in_o thou_o will_v find_v no_o true_a peace_n in_o their_o soul_n o_o that_o i_o do_v true_o love_n for_o by_o love_n only_o my_o soul_n shall_v become_v capable_a of_o understand_v truth_n love_n be_v humble_a peaceable_a subject_a to_o thou_o in_o all_o thing_n the_o soul_n that_o love_v thou_o be_v more_o conversant_a in_o heaven_n then_o on_o earth_n and_o what_o here_o she_o of_o necessity_n must_v admit_v of_o serve_v to_o she_o rather_o as_o a_o cessation_n then_o any_o consolation_n the_o soul_n that_o love_v find_v occasion_n in_o all_o and_o by_o all_o thing_n to_o praise_v thou_o my_o god_n and_o to_o humble_v itself_o such_o be_v willing_o subject_a for_o thou_o and_o do_v see_v how_o odious_a it_o be_v to_o thou_o to_o see_v that_o subject_n shall_v contemn_v contradict_v or_o 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know_v what_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n be_v it_o suffice_v thy_o poor_a servant_n give_v i_o grace_n to_o obey_v thou_o my_o god_n with_o all_o that_o love_v thou_o for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xv._n confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n what_o soul_n that_o true_o love_v thou_o can_v complain_v what_o difficulty_n soever_o she_o endure_v or_o how_o great_a a_o desolation_n soever_o obscure_v her_o soul_n or_o how_o great_a pain_n soever_o she_o sustain_v see_v thou_o who_o she_o love_v more_o than_o her_o life_n and_o self_n be_v always_o the_o same_o behold_v with_o a_o amorous_a and_o love_a eye_n the_o love_a soul_n afflict_v by_o thou_o or_o by_o thy_o permission_n rather_o to_o try_v her_o fidelity_n then_o to_o oppress_v she_o with_o such_o a_o burden_n that_o may_v separate_v she_o from_o she_o only_o belove_a for_o see_v nothing_o be_v dread_v by_o she_o but_o to_o be_v separate_v from_o her_o god_n she_o hold_v humility_n and_o confidence_n thou_o o_o lord_n will_v never_o permit_v she_o to_o be_v overcome_v for_o thou_o make_v the_o quarrel_n thy_o own_o thus_o fight_v by_o we_o and_o the_o victory_n we_o though_o indeed_o gain_v by_o thou_o not_o by_o our_o own_o self_n o_o how_o happy_a be_o i_o in_o thy_o power_n and_o glory_n very_o though_o i_o be_v to_o return_v to_o my_o own_o nothing_o yet_o i_o can_v not_o account_v myself_o void_a of_o a_o infinite_a happiness_n see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o i_o then_o â—_o be_o my_o own_o will_v remain_v and_o be_v the_o same_o in_o all_o wisdom_n and_o majesty_n thâ—s_o be_v the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n and_o the_o crown_n of_o my_o glory_n in_o which_o i_o will_v exult_v in_o my_o great_a
i_o speak_v to_o thou_o according_a to_o his_o desire_n still_o more_o and_o more_o inflame_v my_o love_n unto_o thou_o be_v thou_o all_o in_o all_o and_o above_o all_o unto_o i_o if_o thou_o teach_v not_o my_o soul_n to_o love_n in_o vain_a be_v the_o endeavour_n of_o man_n speak_v and_o preach_v to_o i_o let_v i_o â—eare_z thou_o by_o he_o and_o let_v i_o not_o so_o harken_v to_o he_o without_o that_o i_o grow_v deaf_a to_o thou_o who_o be_v within_o thy_o word_n be_v work_n either_o speak_v by_o other_o for_o our_o good_a or_o by_o tâ—y_a self_n in_o the_o most_o interior_a of_o our_o soul._n o_o happiness_n that_o there_o shall_v be_v such_o a_o capacity_n in_o we_o of_o have_v relation_n to_o thou_o in_o all_o thing_n all_o thing_n create_v may_v fail_v we_o but_o thou_o who_o only_a can_v fatiat_fw-la our_o heart_n can_v never_o change_v or_o alter_v but_o be_v still_o the_o same_o and_o thy_o year_n shall_v not_o fail_v thou_o teach_v a_o soul_n true_a humility_n and_o solid_a virtue_n in_o thou_o nothing_o be_v neglect_v thou_o be_v the_o maiester_n of_o perfection_n thou_o teach_v the_o simple_a humble_a and_o love_a soul_n thy_o way_n and_o give_v her_o hide_a manna_n in_o the_o strength_n of_o which_o she_o may_v walk_v even_o to_o the_o house_n of_o her_o god_n where_o she_o shall_v praise_v he_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o qui_fw-la ambulat_fw-la simpliciter_fw-la ambulat_fw-la confidenter_fw-la who_o walk_v simple_o walk_v confident_o if_o we_o love_v thou_o all_o will_n cooperat_fw-la to_o good_a which_o grant_v to_o thy_o own_o praise_n amen_n the_o xxv_o confession_n 2_o omnis_fw-la populus_fw-la venit_fw-la ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sedens_fw-la docebat_fw-la eos_fw-la all_o the_o people_n come_v jesus_n and_o he_o sit_v teach_v they_o can_v i_o hear_v and_o consider_v these_o word_n write_v by_o thy_o best_a belove_a disciple_n and_o not_o even_o melt_v into_o tear_n of_o joy_n if_o indeed_o any_o have_v be_v by_o thou_o my_o lord_n reject_v i_o may_v have_v fear_v and_o that_o most_o just_o remember_v my_o past_a and_o present_a sin_n but_o to_o put_v i_o out_o of_o fear_n and_o doubt_v thy_o holy_a evangelist_n say_v omnis_fw-la all_o to_o thou_o therefore_o i_o will_v fly_v and_o of_o thou_o i_o will_v learn_v how_o i_o may_v please_v praise_n and_o love_v thou_o and_o how_o by_o true_a humility_n i_o may_v die_v to_o myself_o and_o all_o create_a thing_n hereby_o whole_o to_o live_v to_o thou_o my_o all_o and_o only_o good_a thou_o know_v that_o my_o soul_n without_o cease_v do_v long_o after_o thou_o and_o to_o see_v it-self_n free_a from_o all_o that_o which_o be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o my_o perfect_o love_v thou_o oâ—_n love_n of_o my_o lord_n god_n how_o forcible_a be_v thou_o in_o a_o pure_a soul_n o_o who_o will_v give_v thou_o to_o i_o that_o my_o hart_n may_v be_v purge_v and_o purify_v thereby_o to_o become_v a_o please_a habitation_n for_o my_o god_n o_o lord_n who_o be_v goodness_n itself_o can_v there_o be_v find_v any_o joy_n comfort_n or_o true_a content_n in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o can_v there_o i_o say_v for_o as_o for_o i_o far_o have_v it_o be_v from_o thou_o to_o permit_v any_o thing_n but_o thy_o self_n to_o be_v sweet_a to_o i_o o_o all_o you_o that_o think_v it_o a_o burden_n to_o be_v oblige_v by_o your_o profession_n to_o tend_v to_o great_a perfection_n and_o fear_v the_o punishment_n of_o our_o do_v the_o contrary_a raise_v up_o your_o heart_n ☜_o and_o remember_v what_o it_o be_v that_o our_o lord_n exact_v of_o you_o by_o this_o your_o profession_n and_o this_o as_o it_o may_v seem_v at_o first_o a_o severe_a exaction_n so_o remember_v well_o and_o consider_v i_o say_v what_o it_o be_v and_o your_o heart_n will_v rejoice_v that_o fear_v our_o lord_n it_o be_v o_o it_o be_v to_o love_v without_o bound_n or_o measure_n it_o be_v to_o leave_v yourself_o that_o you_o may_v find_v god_n it_o be_v to_o fly_v from_o the_o world_n that_o you_o may_v hear_v our_o lord_n speak_v 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thou_o let_v i_o not_o offend_v thou_o in_o my_o misery_n and_o then_o come_v as_o many_o as_o please_v thou_o for_o i_o account_v that_o only_o a_o misery_n to_o wit_n to_o offend_v thou_o let_v all_o thing_n praise_v thou_o and_o let_v i_o in_o all_o praise_n thy_o divine_a majesty_n with_o they_o that_o love_v thou_o behold_v fire_n sea_n snow_n thunder_n lightning_z hail_o and_o â—he_v spirit_n of_o storm_n do_v thy_o will_n and_o yet_o i_o in_o all_o contradict_v it_o who_o be_o capable_a of_o thy_o love_n and_o be_o invite_v to_o love_v so_o many_o way_n by_o thou_o my_o god_n o_o let_v this_o thy_o love_n whole_o possess_v my_o soul_n that_o all_o that_o be_v within_o i_o may_v bless_v thy_o holy_a name_n i_o renounce_v into_o thy_o hand_n all_o that_o be_v in_o i_o contrary_a to_o this_o thy_o love_n let_v it_o whole_o consume_v i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v whole_o turn_v into_o love_n and_o that_o nothing_o else_o may_v be_v desire_v by_o i_o let_v i_o be_v drown_v and_o swallow_v up_o in_o that_o of_o divine_a love_n in_o which_o my_o soul_n may_v swim_v for_o all_o eternity_n never_o more_o by_o sin_n to_o be_v separate_v from_o thou_o o_o when_o will_v this_o day_n come_v that_o i_o may_v return_v to_o thou_o my_o beginning_n when_o will_v thy_o glory_n appear_v when_o shall_v death_n be_v swallow_a up_o in_o victory_n that_o i_o may_v without_o cease_v praise_v thou_o my_o god_n who_o name_n i_o write_v with_o no_o small_a comfort_n though_o otherwise_o i_o be_v so_o dry_a that_o i_o can_v scarce_o think_v upon_o thou_o to_o hear_v thâ—e_n name_v or_o to_o write_v to_o or_o of_o thou_o refresh_v my_o soul_n in_o all_o her_o misery_n and_o to_o it_o i_o fly_v from_o the_o thought_n fear_n and_o care_n which_o as_o thou_o know_v often_o oppress_v i_o for_o my_o humiliation_n who_o for_o my_o pride_n deserve_v just_o to_o be_v reject_v for_o ever_o by_o thou_o but_o in_o such_o case_n i_o hope_v both_o live_n and_o die_v that_o thou_o my_o lord_n be_v my_o god_n my_o mercy_n and_o what_o be_v want_v to_o i_o i_o shall_v abundant_o possess_v if_o i_o confide_v only_o in_o thou_o which_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v not_o fail_v to_o do_v who_o only_o be_v to_o be_v adore_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xxvi_o confession_n erant_fw-la appropinquantes_fw-la ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la publicani_fw-la .1_o &_o peccatores_fw-la ut_fw-la audirent_fw-la illum_fw-la there_o be_v sinner_n and_o publican_n approach_v to_o jesus_n that_o they_o may_v hear_v he_o this_o be_v write_v in_o the_o gospel_n of_o this_o day_n my_o lord_n which_o do_v much_o comfort_n my_o sinful_a
of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v â—uâ—ned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o â—urn_v inâ—_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o â—ath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâ—h_n in_o the_o uâ—hâ—menâ—_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o â—ave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tâ—y_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ—_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o vertnes_n yet_o i_o be_o confident_a to_o be_v partaker_n of_o thy_o merit_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n which_o thou_o liberal_o bestow_v according_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n o_o be_v thou_o bless_v in_o all_o thou_o dispose_v o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v all_o i_o desire_v into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v my_o spirit_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o most_o learned_a of_o d._n s._n augustin_n say_v aiâ—_n eruditissimus_fw-la doctorum_fw-la augustinus_n o_o eternal_a truth_n and_o true_a charity_n and_o o_o aeterna_fw-la veritas_fw-la &_o vera_fw-la charitas_fw-la dear_a eternity_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n to_o thou_o &_o chara_fw-la eteruitas_fw-la tu_fw-la es_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la i_o suspire_v day_n and_o night_n this_o be_v that_o sublive_a tibi_fw-la suspiro_fw-la die_fw-la ac_fw-la nocte_fw-la hic_fw-la est_fw-la sublimis_fw-la ille_fw-la contemplative_a augustine_n contemplator_n augustinus_n cvius_fw-la cor_fw-la charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la 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i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ—_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o â—he_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o 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life_n desire_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n tâ—_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ—_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sâ—rue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâ—os_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaâ—â—ur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâ—m_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ—_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ—_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ—_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o
then_o have_v thus_o displease_v she_o beâ—â—ued_v who_o alone_o she_o desire_v intend_v &_o thirst_v aâ—ter_n and_o to_o who_o to_o adhere_v &_o in_o here_o she_o put_v all_o her_o content_n &_o happiness_n al_n he_o do_v and_o permit_v seem_v mosâ—_n just_a ☞_o and_o reasonable_a to_o she_o and_o to_o live_v interiors_o and_o exterior_o according_a to_o the_o right_a rule_n of_o his_o justice_n be_v all_o she_o desire_v these_o be_v they_o which_o our_o saviour_n say_v shall_v adore_v â—im_a in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n and_o of_o who_o it_o be_v say_v all_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o soâ—_n be_v within_o for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v withâ—â—_n we_o such_o a_o soul_n may_v true_o say_v i_o will_v hearâ—_n what_o my_o lord_n god_n say_v within_o i_o thâ—â—_n my_o most_o sweet_a lord_n god_n be_v ever_o adore_v and_o praise_v and_o seek_v after_o by_o we_o all_o anâ—_n bliss_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o in_o heaven_n anâ—_n earth_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n thaulerus_n 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the_o certainty_n that_o be_v to_o be_v find_v between_o god_n and_o our_o soul_n in_o religion_n we_o may_v bid_v all_o true_a confidence_n à _fw-fr lieu_fw-fr i_o mean_v those_o only_o who_o be_v apt_a for_o a_o internal_a lifeâ—_n for_o as_o for_o other_o i_o do_v not_o take_v upon_o i_o to_o know_v their_o case_n and_o place_v our_o peace_n upon_o that_o which_o be_v as_o changeable_a as_o the_o moon_n to_o wit_n the_o humour_n and_o opinion_n of_o man_n in_o indifferent_a thing_n i_o have_v have_v myself_n a_o confessor_n who_o though_o he_o have_v the_o large_a conscience_n that_o ever_o i_o know_v good_a man_n have_v in_o my_o life_n in_o what_o he_o please_v yet_o out_o of_o the_o difficulty_n he_o have_v with_o i_o in_o his_o nature_n and_o out_o of_o his_o aptness_n thereby_o to_o take_v all_o i_o do_v and_o say_v in_o another_o sense_n than_o i_o mean_v it_o he_o can_v and_o do_v turn_v twenty_o thing_n which_o my_o other_o confessor_n make_v no_o great_a matter_n of_o into_o horrible_a mortal_a siâ—s_n and_o will_v have_v fright_v i_o â—rom_o the_o sacrament_n till_o i_o have_v settle_v my_o conscience_n according_a to_o his_o will_n and_o mind_n what_o be_v i_o to_o do_v in_o this_o case_n i_o hâ—d_v be_v warrant_v by_o three_o former_a confessor_n two_o of_o which_o be_v my_o chief_n superior_n &_o doctor_n of_o divinity_n and_o now_o this_o present_a whole_o doubt_v my_o case_n he_o have_v as_o he_o pretend_v agreaâ—er_v reach_n into_o my_o case_n then_o all_o the_o rest_n and_o they_o be_v simple_a to_o he_o in_o discover_v true_o the_o state_n of_o my_o soul._n but_o shall_v i_o in_o this_o case_n put_v my_o soul_n into_o hâ—s_a hand_n who_o desire_v to_o know_v all_o that_o haâ—_n pass_v â—n_v my_o life_n to_o inform_v he_o in_o some_o thing_n he_o desire_v to_o know_v rout_n of_o policy_n thereby_o also_o to_o tie_v i_o to_o himself_o more_o absolute_o very_o if_o i_o have_v thus_o put_v myself_n on_o he_o i_o have_v do_v great_a wrong_n to_o god_n and_o i_o may_v have_v bid_v farewell_n to_o all_o true_a peace_n hereafter_o but_o stand_v to_o my_o former_a warrant_n and_o give_v he_o the_o respect_n be_v due_a to_o he_o and_o be_v reserve_v towards_o he_o i_o have_v hitherto_o god_n be_v praise_v keep_v myself_n out_o of_o his_o finger_n and_o also_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n hope_v to_o hold_v on_o my_o way_n in_o tendance_n towards_o god_n thereby_o raise_v myself_n according_a as_o his_o divine_a majesty_n shall_v vouchsafe_v to_o enable_v i_o out_o of_o my_o natural_a fear_n to_o the_o lout_n of_o god_n who_o be_v only_o able_a to_o satisfy_v and_o satiate_v our_o soul._n and_o not_o as_o this_o my_o confessor_n will_v have_v have_v i_o to_o plunge_v myself_n by_o reason_n of_o his_o word_n and_o threat_n of_o my_o miserable_a state_n which_o notwithstanding_o his_o apprehension_n be_v so_o much_o and_o no_o more_o as_o it_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n who_o change_v not_o his_o opinion_n of_o we_o as_o 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for_o vain_a be_v the_o help_n of_o man_n 13._o i_o will_v therefore_o confide_v in_o thou_o my_o god_n my_o mercy_n who_o be_v adore_v praise_v and_o exalt_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n amen_n the_o nine_o confession_n lex_fw-la domini_fw-la immaculata_fw-la convertens_fw-la animas_fw-la 9_o testimonium_fw-la domini_fw-la fidele_fw-la sapientiam_fw-la praestans_fw-la paruulis_fw-la justitiae_fw-la domini_fw-la rectae_fw-la laerificantes_fw-la corda_fw-la praeceptum_fw-la domini_fw-la lucidum_fw-la illuminans_fw-la oculos_fw-la the_o law_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v immaculate_a correct_v soul_n the_o testimony_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v faithful_a give_v wisdom_n to_o little_a one_o the_o justice_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v right_a make_v heart_n joyful_a the_o precept_n of_o our_o lord_n light_v some_o illuminate_n the_o eye_n these_o my_o god_n be_v the_o word_n of_o thy_o royal_a prophet_n which_o be_v as_o it_o follow_v in_o the_o same_o psalm_n to_o be_v desire_v above_o gold_n and_o 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manner_n from_o this_o error_n therefore_o my_o god_n hereafter_o deliver_v thy_o poor_a contemptible_a servant_n that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o who_o be_v my_o only_a strength_n and_o hopeâ—_n lead_v i_o which_o way_n thou_o will_v soâ—â—_n may_v bless_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o rest_n in_o thou_o above_o all_o from_o thou_o the_o strong_a receive_v their_o strength_n and_o in_o thou_o sinner_n that_o have_v nothing_o of_o our_o own_o have_v wherewith_o to_o supply_v all_o our_o want_n thou_o fly_v up_o with_o they_o who_o by_o a_o ardent_a love_n have_v surmount_v all_o create_a thing_n and_o be_v firm_o unite_v to_o thou_o in_o spirit_n and_o thou_o also_o lend_v thy_o sweet_a hand_n to_o thy_o little_a and_o imperfect_a one_o who_o be_v of_o a_o good_a will_n to_o help_v they_o out_o of_o the_o mire_n and_o dirt_n of_o passion_n and_o inordinate_a affection_n in_o this_o mercy_n my_o soul_n do_v hope_n and_o rejoice_v and_o i_o do_v in_o my_o poverty_n congratulate_v the_o 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it_o pierce_v my_o very_a soul_n see_v they_o forsak_v he_o who_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a and_o a_o most_o amiable_a beauty_n remember_v o_o lord_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n our_o extreme_a frailty_n and_o give_v graâ—e_o that_o we_o may_v all_o convert_v and_o return_v by_o love_n to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n who_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n for_o which_o glory_n be_v ever_o to_o thou_o by_o all_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n amen_n the_o x._o confession_n accedite_fw-la ad_fw-la deum_fw-la &_o illuminamini_fw-la &_o facies_fw-la vestrae_fw-la non_fw-la confundentur_fw-la come_v to_o he_o and_o be_v illuminate_v and_o your_o face_n shall_v not_o be_v confound_v these_o word_n in_o our_o divine_a office_n be_v speak_v not_o only_o by_o he_o who_o by_o thy_o own_o testimony_n be_v a_o man_n
return_n for_o she_o have_v forsake_v all_o for_o thou_o and_o have_v taste_v of_o thy_o sweetness_n say_v with_o the_o prophet_n 8.37_o turn_v away_o my_o eye_n that_o they_o see_v not_o vanity_n lest_o like_o a_o dog_n she_o return_v to_o her_o vomit_n and_o after_o have_v have_v a_o glimmer_a of_o thy_o light_n she_o because_o she_o fear_v she_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o sustain_v thy_o chastisement_n and_o shall_v forget_v and_o loose_v herself_o by_o these_o tribulation_n and_o desirous_a that_o she_o may_v be_v happy_o enable_v to_o enâ—er_v the_o more_o full_o into_o thou_o and_o fear_v i_o say_v her_o own_o frailty_n she_o thus_o again_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o by_o these_o other_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n say_v 187.2_o domine_fw-la deus_fw-la salutis_fw-la meae_fw-la in_o die_v clamavi_fw-la &_o nocte_fw-la coram_fw-la te_fw-la o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n day_n and_o night_n have_v i_o cry_v after_o thou_o for_o who_o but_o thyself_o can_v comfort_v a_o 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to_o the_o soul._n the_o xx._n confession_n without_o pain_n it_o be_v impossible_a o_o my_o most_o amiable_a god_n to_o live_v in_o love_n but_o if_o the_o difficulty_n which_o thy_o true_a friend_n and_o servant_n feel_v be_v weigh_v with_o the_o misery_n of_o those_o who_o rather_o seek_v to_o please_v themselves_o and_o other_o then_o thou_o there_o will_v be_v find_v a_o infinite_a disâ—parity_n for_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n to_o the_o simple_a and_o humble_a and_o to_o those_o who_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o who_o joy_n thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o who_o nothing_o else_o but_o thou_o my_o god_n do_v seâ—k_n for_o in_o time_n or_o eternity_n these_o i_o say_v be_v despise_v contemn_a afflict_a pain_a tempt_v trouble_a and_o many_o time_n sit_v sorrowful_a with_o a_o heavy_a hart_n and_o sad_a countenance_n but_o thy_o will_n be_v their_o law_n and_o thy_o disposition_n their_o consolation_n i_o may_v bold_o affirm_v that_o in_o all_o this_o they_o suffer_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o the_o fondâ—_n lover_n of_o this_o world_n because_o thou_o be_v ever_o more_o present_a to_o they_o then_o tâ—ey_v to_o themselves_o do_v when_o thou_o see_v thy_o time_n refresh_v their_o soul_n with_o the_o light_n and_o comfort_n of_o thy_o grace_n yea_o seem_a to_o be_v even_o prodigal_a of_o thy_o sweetness_n to_o such_o as_o abide_v faithful_a to_o thou_o in_o their_o tribulation_n and_o hope_v confide_v and_o glory_n in_o thou_o and_o not_o in_o themselves_o and_o who_o take_v occasion_n in_o all_o they_o see_v hear_v suffer_v overcome_v to_o humble_v themselves_o under_o thy_o mighty_a hand_n and_o bless_v and_o praise_v thy_o justice_n and_o mercy_n in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o among_o which_o number_n admit_v i_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a sinner_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n for_o this_o thy_o mercy_n from_o all_o creature_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n remove_v 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little_a to_o i_o unless_o i_o possess_v thou_o by_o thy_o self_n i_o praise_v thou_o who_o name_n do_v not_o beseem_a the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n o_o let_v i_o love_n or_o not_o live_v i_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o who_o alone_o i_o wish_v for_o and_o desire_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul._n o_o my_o god_n how_o near_o thou_o be_v to_o we_o ready_a to_o hear_v and_o receive_v our_o prayer_n and_o petition_n behold_v thy_o sâ—eeâ—_n providence_n show_v itself_o in_o all_o thing_n o_o how_o long_o shall_v my_o god_n be_v thus_o forget_v by_o creature_n when_o will_v thou_o by_o love_n be_v by_o all_o seek_v after_o as_o thou_o ought_v to_o be_v by_o we_o the_o
very_o i_o may_v and_o must_v confess_v and_o acknowledge_v to_o thou_o most_o particular_o in_o this_o that_o thou_o have_v so_o particular_o and_o plain_o as_o thou_o have_v do_v for_o my_o humiliation_n discover_v my_o sin_n unto_o i_o whereby_o i_o may_v know_v and_o confess_v myâ—_n obligation_n to_o thou_o and_o â—ith_o all_o compassion_n on_o the_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n of_o other_o which_o they_o also_o be_v permit_v to_o fall_v into_o that_o rise_v up_o their_o love_n may_v be_v the_o great_a when_o they_o remember_v it_o before_o thou_o and_o this_o i_o may_v add_v to_o thy_o great_a glory_n that_o thou_o do_v reserve_v this_o knowledge_n of_o my_o sinful_a and_o miserable_a state_n from_o i_o till_o by_o mean_n of_o thy_o say_a servant_n baker_n i_o be_v put_v into_o the_o way_n of_o love_n and_o aspire_v to_o thou_o for_o else_o it_o will_v have_v whole_o deject_a and_o overwhelm_v i_o be_v thou_o by_o all_o glorify_a and_o praise_v for_o thy_o mercy_n to_o i_o amen_n the_o xxx_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n to_o and_o before_o who_o only_o i_o deâ—ire_v to_o pour_v out_o my_o hart_n and_o the_o desire_n affecâ—tions_n and_o affliction_n thereof_o for_o thy_o own_o sake_n forsake_v not_o i_o who_o desire_v to_o leave_v all_o for_o thou_o if_o thou_o will_v thou_o canâ—t_v save_v i_o though_o i_o have_v never_o to_o my_o knowledge_n do_v any_o thing_n that_o deserve_v any_o grace_n or_o favour_n before_o thou_o yet_o mere_o out_o of_o thy_o own_o goodness_n forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n and_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n which_o without_o any_o desert_n of_o i_o prevent_v i_o bring_v i_o to_o thou_o let_v nothing_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n but_o thy_o self_n be_v desire_v by_o i_o let_v not_o my_o soul_n loose_a it-self_n by_o rest_v in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o let_v i_o take_v comâ—ort_n in_o hear_v of_o thou_o and_o let_v all_o inordinate_a love_n to_o creature_n be_v root_v out_o of_o my_o hart_n by_o thou_o thou_o know_v 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unite_v to_o thou_o let_v i_o without_o cease_v aspire_v by_o love_n unto_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v be_v lift_v above_o myself_o and_o all_o create_a thing_n so_o to_o be_v pure_a and_o free_a unto_o thou_o amen_n the_o xxxi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n when_o i_o remember_v my_o innumerable_a sin_n it_o seem_v not_o much_o to_o i_o that_o i_o sustain_v these_o thing_n both_o without_o and_o within_o but_o yet_o my_o dear_a god_n i_o may_v speak_v to_o thou_o in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o my_o soul_n who_o be_v my_o only_a refuge_n and_o comfort_n in_o affliction_n and_o say_v that_o thou_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o shut_v up_o all_o hope_n of_o mean_n to_o help_v myself_o by_o some_o thing_n which_o i_o already_o do_v and_o more_o be_o like_o hereafter_o to_o sustain_v of_o who_o shall_v i_o beg_v help_v but_o of_o thou_o or_o strength_n to_o bear_v this_o to_o thy_o honour_n with_o conformity_n to_o thy_o bless_a will_n who_o can_v bestow_v this_o on_o i_o but_o thy-self_n thou_o know_v that_o since_o i_o give_v my-sef_a to_o a_o serious_a tend_v to_o thou_o ☞_o i_o never_o desire_v the_o friendship_n or_o favour_n of_o any_o creature_n live_v nay_o to_o thy_o honour_n i_o speak_v it_o thou_o many_o time_n and_o several_a way_n show_v i_o so_o plain_o the_o uncertainâ—y_n instability_n and_o changeablenes_n of_o all_o create_a thing_n that_o my_o soul_n even_o loathe_v the_o favour_n of_o any_o how_o good_a soever_o neither_o do_v i_o wonder_v to_o see_v those_o who_o to_o day_n upon_o occasion_n i_o be_o resolute_a i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o to_o morrow_n be_v in_o a_o humour_n of_o interpret_n all_o i_o have_v do_v or_o say_v in_o another_o sense_n then_o indeed_o i_o mean_v it_o this_o indeed_o thou_o permit_v to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v trust_v in_o thou_o alone_o adhere_v to_o thou_o alone_o and_o for_o to_o purge_v our_o soul_n of_o the_o interest_n which_o nature_n get_v even_o in_o the_o action_n which_o we_o do_v with_o best_a intention_n thou_o â—_z i_o neiâ—her_v desire_n nor_o pretend_v any_o thing_n but_o do_v wish_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n that_o thy_o will_n be_v perfect_o accomplish_v and_o take_v this_o answer_n from_o thou_o which_o i_o shall_v anon_o recite_v when_o i_o be_o too_o solicitous_a of_o my_o own_o good_a or_o too_o much_o trouble_v with_o the_o prejudice_n or_o affliction_n of_o those_o thy_o servant_n with_o who_o i_o most_o unworthy_a â—inner_n live_v who_o be_v in_o thou_o all_o without_o exception_n most_o dear_o belove_v by_o i_o with_o this_o answer_n follow_v of_o thou_o i_o be_o i_o say_v put_v in_o mind_n of_o my_o dury_n where_o thou_o say_v quid_fw-la ad_fw-la â—e_n tu_fw-la i_o sequere_fw-la 22._o what_o be_v that_o to_o thou_o do_v thou_o follow_v i_o and_o i_o answer_v thou_o my_o lord_n that_o as_o for_o i_o it_o be_v good_a for_o i_o to_o adhere_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v that_o one_o thing_n which_o be_v only_o necessary_a thou_o alone_o suffise_v i_o and_o all_o thing_n buâ—_n thy-self_n shall_v be_v to_o i_o as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o that_o i_o may_v â—ind_v and_o enjoy_v thou_o aâ—ter_v who_o my_o soul_n do_v pant_v and_o sigh_v without_o cease_v long_v after_o tâ—ee_v with_o all_o my_o force_n who_o be_v my_o all_o and_o only_o good_a no_o rhirst_n in_o any_o though_o never_o so_o weary_a and_o tire_a can_v be_v so_o great_a for_o want_v of_o that_o which_o natural_o quench_v our_o thirst_n when_o we_o pant_v and_o be_v dry_a with_o heat_n and_o thirst_n as_o be_v the_o thirst_n which_o my_o soul_n do_v sustain_v sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o thou_o the_o live_a fountain_n which_o yet_o i_o can_v enjoy_v till_o my_o soul_n be_v set_v free_a from_o this_o corruptible_a flesh_n but_o the_o more_o i_o sigh_v the_o more_o i_o be_o delight_v to_o sigh_v after_o whom_o i_o will_v so_o fain_o enjoy_v the_o more_o i_o love_v the_o more_o i_o be_o yet_o able_a far_a to_o love_v thou_o the_o more_o i_o deny_v myself_n the_o morâ—_n sweet_a it_o be_v come_v to_o i_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o the_o only_o belove_a of_o my_o soul._n woe_n be_v i_o that_o ever_o i_o offend_v such_o a_o goodâ—nes_n as_o be_v thou_o my_o god_n certain_o my_o sin_n deserve_v to_o be_v punish_v in_o a_o extraordinary_a manner_n because_o i_o commit_v they_o more_o wilful_o then_o ordinary_a such_o be_v the_o carefulness_n of_o thy_o servant_n my_o natural_a father_n who_o be_v so_o careful_a that_o i_o shall_v be_v keep_v out_o of_o all_o occasion_n of_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v consider_v the_o nature_n also_o which_o thou_o give_v i_o have_v live_v very_o innocent_o but_o what_o through_o my_o great_a fault_n and_o negligence_n be_v due_a to_o i_o for_o my_o sin_n be_v it_o supply_v by_o the_o superaboundance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n which_o i_o will_v from_o henceforth_o with_o all_o my_o force_n extol_v and_o i_o beseech_v thou_o remember_v thy_o true_a servant_n my_o say_a father_n who_o through_o his_o care_n prevent_v my_o further_a evil_a baker_n and_o also_o i_o offer_v to_o â—hee_o he_o who_o happy_a instruction_n have_v make_v thy_o yoke_n sâ—_n sâ—eet_a and_o thy_o burden_n so_o light_a to_o i_o who_o as_o thou_o know_v find_v it_o so_o grievous_a and_o heavy_a before_o i_o take_v my_o instruction_n from_o he_o that_o i_o be_v weary_a of_o the_o yoke_n and_o despair_v ever_o to_o bear_v thy_o burden_n with_o any_o comfort_n or_o quiet_a whereas_o afterward_o be_v put_v into_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n and_o mortification_n by_o hâ—m_n my_o great_a obligation_n seem_v to_o be_v most_o most_o desirable_a burden_n for_o all_o thy_o benefit_n be_v thou_o by_o all_o praise_v for_o
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it_o grow_v so_o grievous_a and_o intolerable_a to_o i_o that_o i_o wish_v often_o it_o may_v have_v be_v shake_v of_o lawful_o by_o i_o pretend_v it_o be_v so_o incompatible_a with_o my_o good_a that_o i_o can_v scarce_o work_v my_o salvation_n in_o this_o my_o state_n and_o profession_n this_o my_o god_n thou_o be_v witness_v of_o be_v true_a ☞_o and_o so_o it_o do_v continue_v with_o i_o above_o two_o year_n after_o i_o have_v in_o show_n forsake_v the_o world_n and_o the_o world_n indeed_o forsake_v i_o but_o do_v my_o lord_n in_o these_o biter_n affliction_n forsake_v i_o no_o no_o but_o he_o provide_v such_o a_o help_n for_o i_o by_o mean_n of_o a_o faithful_a servant_n of_o his_o that_o quik_o be_v my_o sorrow_n turn_v into_o joy_n yea_o into_o such_o a_o unspeakable_a joy_n that_o it_o have_v sweeten_v all_o the_o sorrow_n which_o since_o that_o time_n have_v befall_v i_o for_o as_o soon_o as_o my_o soul_n be_v set_v in_o a_o way_n of_o tend_v to_o my_o god_n by_o prayer_n and_o abâ—egation_n i_o find_v all_o my_o misery_n present_o disperse_v themselves_o and_o come_v to_o nothing_o yea_o even_o in_o five_o week_n my_o soul_n become_v so_o enamour_v with_o the_o yoke_n of_o this_o my_o dear_a lord_n that_o if_o i_o must_v have_v make_v not_o only_o four_o but_o four_o thousand_o vow_n to_o have_v become_v whole_o dedicate_v to_o he_o ☞_o i_o shall_v have_v embrace_v this_o state_n with_o more_o joy_n and_o content_a then_o ever_o i_o do_v find_v in_o obtain_v that_o which_o ever_o i_o most_o of_o all_o wish_a or_o desire_v yea_o and_o as_o thou_o know_v my_o god_n by_o my_o soul_n be_v put_v into_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n i_o seem_v to_o have_v now_o find_v a_o true_a mean_n whereby_o i_o may_v love_v without_o end_n or_o measure_n and_o that_o without_o any_o peril_n or_o danger_n for_o who_o can_v love_v thou_o ☜_o my_o god_n too_o much_o o_o let_v i_o melt_v whole_o into_o love_n to_o record_v these_o thy_o most_o abundant_a mercy_n let_v i_o never_o be_v weary_a of_o sing_v thy_o praise_n who_o thus_o have_v invite_v and_o draw_v i_o even_o whither_o i_o will_v or_o no_o to_o a_o perfect_a contempt_n of_o all_o create_a thing_n that_o i_o may_v adhere_v to_o thou_o above_o all_o gift_n whatsoever_o this_o i_o do_v so_o particular_o write_v down_o because_o my_o frailty_n be_v so_o great_a that_o i_o may_v perhaps_o grow_v unmindful_a of_o thou_o notwithstanding_o all_o this_o that_o thou_o have_v do_v for_o i_o which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o sake_n never_o permit_v i_o to_o be_v that_o i_o may_v praise_v and_o love_v thou_o without_o cease_v who_o be_v my_o god_n bless_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxxv_o confession_n 21._o qvi_fw-la facit_fw-la veritatemâ—_n venit_fw-la ad_fw-la lucem_fw-la ut_fw-la manifestentur_fw-la opera_fw-la eius_fw-la quae_fw-la in_o deo_fw-la sunt_fw-la facta_fw-la o_o lord_n what_o be_v more_o amiable_a and_o desirable_a than_o truth_n that_o be_v it_o which_o 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â—nd_v perceive_v we_o be_v poor_a and_o frail_a of_o ourselve_n above_o all_o we_o can_v imagine_v â—_o conceive_v and_o by_o it_o we_o plain_o perceive_v that_o whatsoever_o be_v well_o â—one_n by_o we_o be_v as_o true_o to_o be_v attribute_v to_o thou_o as_o if_o it_o have_v be_v do_v without_o any_o concurrence_n of_o we_o â—ith_v thou_o and_o that_o it_o be_v as_o just_a our_o â—ill_n shall_v in_o all_o thing_n obey_v thou_o â—nd_v that_o without_o any_o challenge_v â—f_a reward_n â—or_a it_o of_o thou_o but_o only_o so_o â—r_o as_o it_o be_v due_a by_o thy_o mere_a promise_a â—ercy_n as_o it_o be_v certain_a that_o without_o â—ee_n we_o can_v neither_o live_v nor_o be_v also_o in_o this_o light_n we_o see_v in_o some_o sort_n as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o look_a glass_n how_o â—reat_a and_o good_a a_o god_n we_o have_v and_o â—â—at_o he_o be_v more_o present_a to_o we_o then_o â—e_n be_v to_o ourselves_o which_o make_v â—y_a soul_n exult_v and_o rejoice_v amid_o â—â—e_z trouble_n 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to_o converse_v on_o earth_n without_o prejudice_n to_o our_o soul_n and_o in_o fine_a by_o it_o we_o shall_v praise_v god_n and_o become_v so_o unite_v to_o he_o that_o nothing_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o separate_v we_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n from_o his_o sweet_a goodness_n and_o let_v he_o be_v all_o in_o all_o to_o we_o who_o only_o can_v satisfy_v our_o soul_n he_o be_v his_o own_o praise_n iâ—_n which_o and_o by_o wâ—ich_a we_o be_v infinite_o happy_a though_o of_o ourselves_o we_o aâ—e_v able_a to_o praise_v and_o love_v he_o but_o in_o a_o very_a poor_a manner_n who_o can_v say_v that_o desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v he_o that_o they_o be_v poor_a see_v he_o who_o be_v more_o they_o than_o they_o be_v their_o own_o be_v so_o rich_a and_o to_o who_o nothing_o be_v want_v that_o shall_v make_v he_o a_o infinite_a happiness_n in_o this_o let_v we_o joy_n in_o this_o jet_n we_o glory_n without_o intermission_n when_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o attend_v unto_o he_o and_o praise_v he_o as_o we_o will_v let_v we_o commend_v our_o hart_n and_o soul_n to_o the_o saint_n in_o heaven_n who_o without_o cease_v praise_n our_o lord_n let_v we_o do_v that_o by_o they_o which_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o do_v by_o ourselves_o yea_o let_v we_o desire_v he_o who_o be_v his_o own_o praise_n and_o only_o be_v able_a to_o do_v it_o as_o he_o deserve_v to_o have_v it_o do_v to_o supply_v what_o he_o desire_v we_o shall_v wish_v he_o lâ—t_v we_o sâ—ek_v no_o other_o comfort_n but_o to_o be_v able_a without_o all_o comfort_n to_o be_v true_a to_o he_o let_v we_o rest_v in_o he_o alone_o and_o and_o not_o in_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v or_o can_v be_v creaâ—ted_v let_v we_o not_o seâ—ke_v the_o gist_n but_o the_o giver_n o_o how_o little_a be_v all_o the_o love_n we_o can_v give_v he_o in_o comparison_n of_o that_o he_o deserve_v from_o we_o where_o therefore_o shall_v thâ—re_o be_v room_n for_o any_o create_a thing_n in_o out_o soul_n let_v we_o wish_v and_o desire_v and_o as_o far_o as_o it_o lie_v in_o we_o procure_v that_o all_o love_n be_v give_v to_o he_o let_v he_o have_v all_o glory_n all_o honour_n and_o all_o praise_n let_v we_o desire_v the_o favour_n of_o none_o but_o he_o alone_o to_o who_o free_a disposition_n let_v we_o stand_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n as_o absolute_o by_o ouâ—_n will_v as_o if_o we_o never_o have_v any_o other_o freedom_n of_o wâ—l_n in_o us._n nothing_o we_o do_v or_o suffer_v let_v we_o esteâ—me_v great_a for_o our_o sin_n deserve_v much_o more_o let_v our_o whole_a care_n tend_v to_o the_o magnify_v of_o he_o let_v his_o honour_n bâ—_n we_o and_o let_v we_o seek_v nothing_o
will_n and_o pleasure_n may_v be_v perfect_o accomplish_v in_o all_o creature_n and_o last_o of_o all_o though_o not_o with_o the_o least_o affection_n i_o offer_v to_o thou_o this_o thy_o convent_n whereof_o though_o very_o unworthy_a of_o such_o a_o favour_n as_o to_o live_v in_o such_o a_o happy_a company_n i_o be_o a_o poor_a imperfect_a member_n cambray_n beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o owâ—e_a sake_n and_o by_o the_o love_n thou_o bear_v to_o all_o such_o as_o true_o seek_v to_o please_v thou_o alone_o that_o thou_o wilâ—_n merciful_o enrich_v their_o soul_n with_o the_o most_o abundant_a gift_n of_o thy_o grace_n so_o that_o their_o whole_a study_n may_v be_v to_o please_v praise_n and_o worship_v thou_o in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n and_o especial_o i_o offer_v thou_o thoâ—e_v therein_o that_o have_v do_v do_v or_o shall_v hereafter_o by_o their_o patience_n in_o support_v the_o defect_n of_o their_o sister_n ☞_o and_o help_v they_o by_o that_o mean_n to_o bear_v their_o burden_n and_o by_o their_o give_v good_a example_n in_o humility_n obedience_n and_o other_o virtue_n be_v a_o mean_a or_o help_v to_o the_o maintain_n of_o peace_n in_o this_o thy_o house_n towards_o which_o thou_o have_v show_v so_o much_o providence_n that_o if_o we_o cast_v not_o our_o whole_a care_n both_o for_o body_n and_o soul_n upon_o thou_o we_o shall_v not_o deserve_v the_o favour_n thou_o have_v show_v to_o us._n we_o be_v thy_o little_a flock_n keep_v thou_o ever_o possession_n of_o we_o let_v we_o be_v of_o one_o mind_n and_o of_o one_o hart_n and_o let_v we_o all_o and_o every_o one_o with_o one_o consent_n according_a to_o thy_o grace_n give_v we_o simple_o intend_v and_o regard_n â—hee_o in_o all_o we_o do_v tâ—ink_v speak_v or_o desire_v thou_o have_v call_v we_o and_o gather_v we_o together_o send_v we_o a_o good_a life_n and_o a_o happy_a death_n to_o thy_o praise_n honour_n and_o glory_n who_o be_v god_n of_o all_o thing_n and_o to_o who_o now_o and_o for_o ever_o be_v give_v all_o laud_n and_o praise_n by_o all_o creature_n amen_n amen_n delicta_fw-la iwentutis_fw-la meae_fw-la &_o ignorantias_fw-la meas_fw-la ne_fw-la memineris_fw-la domine_fw-la ab_fw-la oâ—cultis_fw-la meis_fw-la munda_fw-la i_o domine_fw-la &_o ab_fw-la alienis_fw-la parce_fw-la seruo_fw-la tuo_fw-la o_o domine_fw-la spes_fw-la mea_fw-la delicta_fw-la quis_fw-la entelligit_fw-la o_o my_o god_n my_o dear_a delight_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n thou_o know_v i_o groan_v in_o spirit_n against_o myself_n to_o think_v that_o i_o make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o couclude_v a_o everlasting_a league_n and_o peace_n with_o thou_o my_o god_n o_o teach_v i_o to_o love_n or_o let_v i_o not_o live_v thou_o only_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n and_o i_o as_o tâ—ou_v well_o know_v can_v do_v nothing_o behold_v i_o desiâ—e_v to_o leave_v all_o to_o find_v thou_o and_o to_o die_v to_o all_o create_a thing_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v live_v only_o in_o and_o to_o thou_o i_o desire_v only_o thou_o and_o to_o reâ—urn_v to_o thou_o the_o beginning_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o the_o supreme_a belove_a of_o all_o chaste_a soul_n o_o how_o powerful_a be_v thy_o true_a love_n in_o a_o pure_a soul_n o_o purify_v my_o hart_n and_o soul_n so_o that_o nothing_o but_o thy_o love_n may_v live_v in_o i_o o_o when_o shall_v i_o see_v my_o soul_n unite_v to_o thou_o o_o when_o by_o true_a love_n shall_v my_o soul_n languish_v for_o thou_o o_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v whole_o turn_v into_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o o_o that_o i_o may_v do_v in_o all_o thing_n that_o which_o be_v please_v to_o thou_o o_o when_o shall_v my_o soul_n by_o transcend_v all_o create_a thing_n become_v capable_a by_o charity_n of_o embrace_v thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o poor_a soul_n o_o love_n love_n loâ—e_v what_o wonderful_a effect_n do_v tâ—ou_v work_n in_o a_o soul_n thy_o love_n my_o god_n do_v sweeten_v all_o misery_n aâ—d_n make_v light_v all_o burden_n and_o labour_n very_o nothing_o in_o the_o wâ—rld_n be_v so_o delightâ—ful_a to_o they_o that_o love_v it_o and_o have_v as_o much_o of_o it_o as_o they_o can_v desire_v and_o enjoy_v all_o the_o pleasure_n and_o content_n thereof_o as_o it_o be_v to_o a_o love_a soul_n that_o sincere_o seek_v thou_o to_o suffer_v for_o thy_o love_n o_o my_o god_n what_o do_v we_o loose_v even_o in_o this_o life_n when_o we_o wish_v for_o love_n or_o desire_v any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o it_o be_v only_a love_n that_o draw_v thou_o down_o to_o we_o and_o elevate_v we_o up_o to_o thou_o o_o who_o will_v not_o suffer_v any_o thing_n to_o obtain_v this_o love_n nothing_o can_v comfort_v or_o satisfy_v my_o soul_n but_o to_o love_v thou_o when_o will_v thou_o replenish_v my_o hart_n with_o thy_o pure_a love_n that_o rest_v in_o thou_o above_o thy_o gift_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v true_o adore_v thou_o in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n thou_o know_v that_o no_o grass_n do_v so_o wither_v for_o want_v of_o water_n as_o do_v my_o poor_a sinful_a soul_n for_o want_n of_o â—hy_a love_n o_o that_o without_o cease_v i_o can_v praise_v thou_o as_o the_o sâ—ag_n or_o hart_n beiug_v tire_v with_o pursuit_n do_v thirst_n and_o pant_v after_o a_o sweet_a spring_n so_o do_v my_o soul_n after_o thou_o it_o have_v be_v much_o more_o tire_v with_o strey_v from_o thou_o then_o the_o poor_a hart_n can_v be_v by_o be_v chase_v by_o his_o enemy_n by_o as_o much_o more_o as_o it_o be_v more_o grievous_a to_o be_v hurt_v by_o one_o self_n then_o to_o have_v it_o do_v by_o other_o o_o wâ—en_o shall_v i_o in_o all_o thing_n do_v thy_o will_n that_o my_o action_n may_v be_v just_a and_o please_v to_o thou_o o_o when_o shall_v i_o so_o humble_a myself_n â—hat_n i_o may_v be_v worthy_a in_o some_o sort_n to_o praise_v thou_o who_o now_o for_o my_o pride_n i_o be_o not_o fit_a to_o name_v jesu_n son_n of_o david_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o of_o thy_o great_a pity_n and_o charity_n remember_v i_o among_o the_o whelp_n that_o expect_v and_o beg_v under_o thy_o table_n for_o one_o crumb_n of_o grace_n from_o thou_o where_o but_o under_o the_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n shall_v i_o repose_v from_o the_o heat_n of_o all_o inordinate_a â—_z and_o desire_n and_o from_o that_o midday_n sun_n that_o parch_v and_o wither_v away_o the_o new_a sprig_n or_o leave_v of_o my_o new_a sow_v desir_n of_o love_a praise_v and_o please_v thou_o alone_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n who_o but_o thyself_o by_o thy_o sweet_a grace_n can_v preserve_v mâ—_n from_o fâ—lling_v into_o my_o old_a sin_n and_o sorrow_n thou_o therefore_o be_v my_o only_a refâ—ge_n in_o this_o day_n of_o my_o tribulation_n and_o amid_o the_o storm_n of_o this_o world_n to_o thou_o i_o reveal_v my_o cause_n be_v thou_o my_o strength_n and_o my_o glory_n that_o i_o may_v at_o last_o lay_v down_o the_o burden_n of_o this_o mortal_a flesh_n be_v admit_v into_o that_o place_n where_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n o_o my_o god_n when_o shall_v that_o time_n come_v that_o i_o shall_v never_o more_o offend_v thou_o this_o be_v the_o misery_n wherein_o i_o languish_v and_o which_o make_v this_o world_n tedious_a to_o i_o this_o only_o be_v true_o to_o be_v term_v a_o affliction_n and_o misery_n and_o nothing_o be_v true_o to_o be_v account_v misery_n but_o to_o displease_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n jesu_n son_n of_o david_n have_v mercy_n on_o my_o sinful_a soul._n o_o how_o happy_a be_v those_o that_o love_v thou_o o_o love_n love_n love_v of_o my_o god_n how_o far_o be_v my_o sinful_a soul_n from_o the_o happiness_n of_o enjoy_v thou_o as_o my_o soul_n desire_v nothing_o be_v sweet_a to_o a_o hart_n that_o desire_v to_o love_v her_o god_n but_o to_o sigh_v long_o and_o pant_v after_o he_o o_o who_o will_v give_v i_o the_o wing_n of_o a_o dove_n that_o i_o may_v fly_v into_o the_o open_a wound_n of_o my_o beloved_a o_o my_o god_n my_o oâ—ly_a desire_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o thus_o be_v estrange_v from_o thou_o the_o god_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o my_o portion_n for_o ever_o o_o the_o most_o dear_o belove_v of_o my_o soul_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o by_o inordinate_o adhere_v to_o create_a thing_n bâ—_n so_o far_o from_o love_v thou_o as_o i_o ought_v to_o do_v o_o thou_o who_o only_o deserve_v our_o love_n my_o god_n and_o my_o all_o lord_n my_o god_n who_o alone_o be_v good_a and_o just_a shall_v i_o any_o long_a love_n vanity_n and_o seek_v after_o a_o lie_n how_o long_o shall_v thy_o disposition_n and_o most_o righteous_a ordinance_n be_v displease_v to_o thy_o poor_a servant_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o resist_v thy_o divine_a will_n very_o my_o god_n in_o this_o my_o misery_n i_o sigh_v
and_o ever_o will_v be_v to_o thy_o honour_n from_o who_o proceed_v all_o good_a if_o he_o i_o say_v stand_v need_n of_o gather_v out_o of_o thy_o soly_n scripture_n and_o the_o write_n of_o holy_a saint_n somewhat_o that_o may_v elevate_v his_o mind_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o grow_v more_o cold_a by_o reason_n of_o human_a frailty_n as_o he_o profess_v before_o his_o manuel_n who_o word_n i_o will_v hereafter_o bring_v in_o as_o be_v most_o sweet_a to_o i_o whaâ—_n need_v then_o have_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o gather_v together_o certain_a devout_a and_o amouâ—rous_a word_n who_o scarce_o in_o the_o read_n thereof_o can_v lift_v up_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v in_o thy_o metcy_n whiâ—h_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n and_o out_o of_o whiâ—h_n thou_o have_v say_v by_o thy_o prophet_n 35._o man_n and_o beast_n thou_o will_v save_v to_o this_o mercy_n i_o fly_v in_o this_o mercy_n be_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o consolation_n i_o cast_v myself_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pity_n i_o have_v nothing_o wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v some_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o their_o body_n other_o in_o their_o mind_n other_o in_o both_o some_o for_o thou_o have_v take_v great_a pain_n and_o undergon_v great_a labour_n and_o austerity_n other_o by_o couradgious_o support_v disgrace_n and_o misery_n have_v become_v thereby_o most_o dear_a to_o thou_o other_o while_o they_o be_v afflict_v and_o persecute_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o their_o enemy_n and_o thereby_o procure_v pardon_n for_o their_o own_o sin_n but_o alaâ—_n my_o god_n as_o for_o i_o when_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n upon_o my_o life_n past_a i_o can_v find_v nothing_o do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o wherein_o i_o can_v hope_v wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o behold_v other_o daily_o to_o practice_v be_v far_o fromme_v i_o have_v live_v in_o this_o house_n of_o who_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la 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virgin_n crown_v with_o star_n and_o m_o one_o under_o thy_o foot_n obtain_v we_o pardon_v of_o our_o sin_n of_o christ_n our_o saviour_n sweet_a for_o though_o thou_o be_v mother_n of_o my_o god_n yet_o thy_o humility_n disdain_v not_o this_o simple_a wretch_n that_o fly_v for_o help_v to_o thou_o thou_o know_v thou_o be_v more_o dear_a to_o i_o â—hen_o any_o can_v expresâ—e_v and_o thâ—t_o i_o do_v congratulate_v with_o joy_n thy_o happiness_n who_o be_v the_o queen_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thy_o help_a hand_n i_o lend_v that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n and_o have_v a_o happy_a end_n and_o though_o my_o sin_n i_o terrify_v yet_o hope_v still_o in_o â—hee_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n refresh_v much_o when_o i_o unto_o thou_o fly_v for_o thou_o most_o willing_o to_o god_n petition_n do_v present_v and_o do_v obtain_v much_o grace_n for_o we_o in_o this_o our_o baâ—nishment_n the_o honour_n and_o the_o glorious_a praise_n by_o all_o be_v give_v â—o_o thou_o which_o iâ—sus_n tâ—y_o belove_a son_n ordain_v eternal_o for_o thou_o who_o he_o exalt_v in_o heaven_n above_o the_o angeâ—s_v all_o and_o who_o we_o find_v a_o patroness_n when_o unto_o thou_o we_o câ—l_v amen_n o_o mater_n dei_fw-la â—e_n â—ento_fw-la mei_fw-la amen_n as_o also_o my_o good_a angel_n s._n joseph_n saint_n john_n evangelist_n s._n martin_n s._n augustin_n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin_n and_o thou_o my_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n to_o our_o most_o holy_a father_n saint_n benedict_n most_o glorious_a father_n in_o who_o school_n i_o live_v and_o hope_v to_o die_v god_n grant_v i_o may_v observe_v thy_o rule_n for_o in_o that_o all_o do_v lie_v for_o no_o perfection_n can_v be_v name_v which_o we_o it_o do_v not_o teach_v o_o happy_a she_o who_o in_o her_o soul_n the_o sense_n thereof_o do_v reach_n but_o many_o praise_n obedience`_v and_o thy_o humility_n and_o yet_o conceive_v not_o as_o they_o shall_v what_o either_o of_o they_o be_v the_o simple_a humble_a love_a soul_n only_o the_o sense_n find_v out_o of_o any_o discreet_a obedient_a rule_n and_o these_o be_v void_a of_o doubt_n yea_o under_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n they_o up_o to_o heaven_n fly_n and_o taste_v here_o in_o this_o veil_n of_o tear_n what_o perfect_a peace_n do_v lie_v hide_v in_o performance_n of_o thy_o rule_n that_o lead_v unto_o heaven_n o_o happy_a soul_n who_o it_o perform_v the_o way_n so_o sweet_a and_o even_o by_o prayer_n and_o patience_n be_v fulfil_v charity_n obedience_n by_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o and_o give_v none_o offence_n the_o more_o i_o look_v upon_o thy_o rule_n the_o more_o in_o it_o i_o find_v o_o do_v to_o i_o the_o sense_n unfold_v for_o letter_n make_v we_o blind_a and_o bless_v yea_o a_o thousand_o time_n be_v thou_o who_o it_o haste_v write_v and_o thy_o sweet_a blessing_n give_v to_o they_o who_o true_o perform_v it_o for_o those_o be_v they_o which_o will_v conserve_v this_o house_n in_o perfect_a peace_n without_o which_o all_o we_o do_v be_v lose_v and_o all_o that_o be_v good_a will_v cease_v and_o praise_v be_v our_o glorious_a god_n who_o give_v to_o thou_o such_o grace_n not_o only_o he_o thy-self_n to_o seek_v but_o also_o out_o to_o trace_v a_o way_n so_o easy_a and_o secure_a if_o we_o will_v but_o thou_o hear_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o our_o god_n who_o be_v to_o we_o so_o near_o for_o at_o this_o thou_o do_v chief_o aim_v that_o god_n our_o soul_n do_v teach_v o_o if_o we_o do_v true_o obey_v he_o will_v by_o all_o thing_n preach_v his_o will_n to_o we_o by_o every_o thing_n that_o do_v to_o we_o befall_v and_o then_o as_o thou_o desire_v it_o shall_v he_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o o_o pray_v dear_a father_n that_o he_o ever_o be_v our_o only_a love_n and_o all_o eternal_o amen_n saint_n scholastica_fw-la s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o in_o heaven_n or_o on_o earth_n that_o be_v please_v to_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o make_v i_o partaker_n of_o their_o merit_n and_o prayer_n and_o above_o all_o wash_v i_o in_o thy_o precious_a blood_n one_o drop_n whereof_o have_v be_v sufficient_a to_o have_v redeem_v a_o thousand_o world_n in_o this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o confidence_n by_o this_o i_o hope_v to_o be_v enrich_v with_o all_o that_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o in_o that_o thou_o be_v and_o possesse_v i_o more_o rejoice_v and_o exult_v then_o if_o i_o have_v whatsoever_o in_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n i_o can_v desire_v at_o my_o command_n in_o this_o joy_n i_o cry_v out_o withal_o my_o hart_n with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o all_o my_o strength_n o_o how_o much_o good_a and_o happiness_n do_v i_o possess_v see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o myself_n than_o i_o myself_n be_o do_v possess_v so_o infinite_a glory_n majesty_n and_o so_o infinite_a good_a thing_n for_o indeed_o i_o have_v and_o hold_v he_o more_o i_o own_o than_o any_o thing_n that_o ever_o i_o have_v or_o hold_v heretofore_o this_o be_v the_o comfort_n of_o my_o poverty_n and_o the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n this_o my_o most_o delightful_a most_o amiable_a most_o bright_a and_o beawtiful_a and_o most_o glorious_a god_n be_v always_o present_a with_o i_o to_o hear_v my_o praise_n and_o receive_v my_o petition_n in_o he_o i_o be_o rich_a though_o in_o my_o self_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a to_o he_o my_o most_o love_a god_n be_v give_v now_o and_o ever_o all_o laud_n and_o praise_n and_o glory_n by_o all_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n these_o collection_n once_o more_o i_o offer_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o those_o that_o in_o peruse_v thereof_o be_v move_v thereby_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v thou_o be_v they_o my_o goâ—_n mindful_a of_o
defile_v and_o deform_a soul_n do_v aspire_v behold_v i_o do_v extol_v now_o thy_o dear_a service_n to_o the_o sky_n profess_v and_o protest_v that_o there_o be_v no_o liberty_n so_o sweet_a as_o to_o be_v bind_v and_o oblige_v by_o vow_n to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n thou_o true_a and_o most_o bless_a god_n how_o do_v thou_o with_o a_o most_o sweet_a and_o severe_a kind_n of_o mercy_n receive_v check_v and_o convince_v i_o stray_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o by_o shameful_o seek_v that_o in_o thy_o creature_n which_o be_v only_o to_o be_v find_v in_o thou_o to_o wit_n comfort_n and_o peace_n o_o lord_n i_o be_o thy_o servant_n say_v unto_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n and_o all_o that_o be_v within_o i_o shall_v say_v quis_fw-la similis_fw-la tibi_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o my_o lord_n god_n behold_v i_o have_v have_v a_o aversion_n from_o all_o that_o which_o thou_o love_v and_o a_o inclination_n to_o all_o which_o thou_o hate_v but_o thou_o have_v break_v my_o band_n and_o i_o will_v offer_v thou_o a_o sacrifice_n of_o praise_n submit_v henceforth_o my_o stifneck_n to_o thy_o easy_a yoke_n and_o my_o shoulder_n to_o thy_o light_n but_o then_o underneath_o a_o picture_n of_o b._n john_n de_fw-fr cruse_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v viz._n o_o bless_a and_o pure_a saint_n pray_v for_o i_o sinful_a wretch_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o call_v upon_o thou_o yet_o coafide_v in_o thy_o inflame_a charity_n i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o sweet_a protection_n now_o and_o at_o the_o dreadful_a hour_n of_o my_o death_n remember_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o amen_n to_o some_o collection_n which_o she_o draw_v out_o of_o s._n augustins_n confession_n she_o add_v as_o follow_v good_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o my_o iniquity_n for_o this_o dear_a saint_n sake_n of_o thou_o who_o humility_n do_v so_o astonish_v i_o that_o i_o can_v choose_v but_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n in_o my_o hart_n o_o how_o admirable_a be_v thou_o in_o thy_o saint_n what_o be_v his_o whole_a book_n of_o confession_n but_o a_o profound_a acknowledgement_n of_o his_o sin_n whieh_o he_o do_v not_o only_o confess_v to_o thou_o but_o to_o all_o the_o world_n to_o the_o end_n that_o all_o may_v perpetual_o praise_v thy_o mercy_n but_o o_o my_o god_n for_o this_o humility_n of_o he_o thou_o have_v high_o exalt_v he_o for_o which_o be_v thou_o eternal_o magnify_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n he_o be_v one_o of_o those_o sinner_n for_o who_o conversation_n there_o be_v more_o joy_n in_o heaven_n then_o upon_o ninty_a nine_o just_o and_o not_o without_o great_a cause_n see_v he_o be_v to_o be_v a_o chief_a pillar_n in_o thy_o church_n and_o one_o who_o might_n and_o do_v draw_v infinite_a sinner_n by_o his_o word_n and_o write_n out_o of_o the_o mire_n and_o dregs_n of_o sin_n and_o teach_v they_o to_o submit_v themselves_o to_o thive_v easy_a yoke_n and_o to_o seâ—ue_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o to_o glory_n in_o nothing_o but_o thou_o yea_o what_o be_v want_v in_o his_o word_n that_o may_v invite_v our_o soul_n to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o heart_n with_o all_o our_o strength_n and_o our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o who_o can_v speaâ—e_v in_o the_o word_n of_o thy_o own_o oracle_n more_o comfortable_o to_o sinner_n than_o he_o have_v do_v â—n_o fine_a hâ—s_n word_n be_v so_o amorous_o sweet_a in_o thy_o praise_n that_o even_o my_o freeze_a soul_n have_v be_v melt_v â—_z by_o into_o thy_o praise_n he_o for_o thy_o sake_n be_v a_o advocate_n and_o intercessor_n to_o thou_o for_o i_o the_o most_o sinful_a and_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thâ—_n servant_n he_o i_o say_v to_o who_o many_o sin_n wâ—re_v forgive_v because_o he_o love_v much_o who_o i_o desire_v together_o with_o all_o the_o celestial_a court_n to_o adore_v and_o praise_v thou_o for_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o who_o be_v ever_o bless_v amen_n in_o a_o collection_n which_o she_o be_v make_v out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o psalm_n she_o add_v to_o some_o verse_n as_o follow_v psal._n 23._o vers_fw-la 6._o this_o be_v the_o generation_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v hâ—m_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v the_o face_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n i_o pray_v god_n it_o may_v prove_v so_o with_o we_o to_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n â—sâ—l_n 31._o veâ—s_n â—0_n i_o will_v give_v thou_o understanding_n and_o will_v instruct_v thou_o in_o the_o way_n tâ—at_v thou_o shall_v go_v i_o wâ—l_v fasten_v my_o eye_n upon_o thou_o who_o be_v not_o whole_o inflame_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o to_o hear_v such_o a_o promise_n from_o his_o own_o mellifluous_a mouth_n psal._n 35._o vers_fw-la 10._o because_o with_o thou_o be_v the_o fountain_n of_o life_n and_o in_o thy_o light_n we_o shall_v see_v light_a i_o beseech_v all_o those_o devout_a soul_n that_o shall_v peruse_v this_o book_n to_o labour_v careful_o for_o that_o light_n which_o the_o prophet_n here_o speak_v of_o which_o proceed_v from_o love_n ☜_o and_o not_o from_o human_a wisdom_n this_o light_n by_o which_o we_o shall_v discern_v truth_n from_o falsehood_n be_v get_v by_o converâ—ing_v with_o almighty_a god_n and_o humble_v ourselves_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n this_o light_n have_v teach_v many_o their_o way_n to_o god_n that_o can_v neither_o write_v nor_o read_v sweet_a jesus_n make_v we_o of_o the_o number_n of_o these_o little_a one_o to_o who_o this_o light_n be_v reveal_v which_o be_v hide_v from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a which_o be_v bestow_v upon_o those_o that_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o god_n and_o not_o on_o those_o that_o glory_n rather_o in_o themselves_o they_o in_o he_o he_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n psal._n 86._o vers_fw-la 5._o reveal_v thy_o way_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o hope_n in_o he_o and_o he_o will_v do_v it_o a_o comfortable_a say_n for_o those_o that_o god_n permit_v still_o to_o remain_v do_v whâ—t_o they_o can_v in_o their_o imperfection_n v_o 7._o have_v no_o emulation_n in_o he_o that_o appear_v in_o his_o way_n v._n 6._o be_v subject_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o pray_v he_o note_v this_o well_o v_o 11._o the_o meek_a shall_v inherit_v the_o land_n and_o shall_v be_v delight_v in_o multitude_n of_o peace_n if_o we_o true_o labour_v for_o his_o peace_n which_o be_v in_o much_o patience_n the_o god_n of_o peace_n will_v be_v among_o us._n v_o 25._o when_o he_o shall_v fall_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v bruise_v because_o our_o lord_n put_v his_o hand_n under_o o_o what_o a_o incouradgment_n be_v this_o to_o a_o poor_a frail_a soul_n let_v we_o notwithstanding_o our_o imperfection_n confident_o and_o amorous_o when_o we_o fail_v hope_v in_o his_o mercy_n and_o then_o he_o will_v heal_v and_o help_v we_o who_o make_v we_o so_o many_o sweet_a promise_n who_o be_v bless_v by_o all_o creatute_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n v_o 26._o i_o have_v be_v young_a for_o i_o be_o old_a and_o i_o have_v not_o see_v the_o just_a forsake_v nor_o his_o seed_n seek_v bread_n why_o do_v we_o distrust_v then_o who_o have_v dedicate_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n fear_v ro_o depend_v only_o of_o his_o divine_a providence_n ☜_o which_o be_v the_o great_a happiness_n in_o this_o world_n and_o so_o much_o to_o be_v desire_v if_o we_o have_v so_o much_o love_n and_o couradge_n as_o we_o shall_v psal._n 38_o v_o 8._o doubtless_o all_o thing_n be_v vanity_n every_o man_n live_v o_o my_o poor_a soul_n take_v good_a notice_n of_o this_o verse_n adhere_v to_o our_o lord_n who_o year_n never_o fail_v and_o who_o help_n be_v always_o at_o hand_n give_v that_o to_o god_n that_o be_v god_n and_o that_o to_o caesar_n that_o be_v caesar_n mark_v what_o the_o prophet_n faith_n in_o the_o same_o psalm_n viz._n and_o now_o what_o be_v my_o expectation_n be_v it_o not_o our_o lord_n and_o my_o substance_n be_v with_o thou_o psal._n 39_o vers_fw-la 15._o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n make_v not_o thy_o consideration_n far_o from_o i_o thy_o mercy_n and_o thy_o truth_n have_v always_o receive_v i_o o_o be_v thou_o ever_o bless_v for_o it_o by_o all_o creature_n my_o god_n and_o al._n amen_o psal._n 40._o vers_fw-la 1._o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o understand_v concern_v the_o needy_a and_o the_o poor_a in_o the_o evil_a day_n our_o lord_n will_v deliver_v he_o o_o my_o poor_a soul_n though_o thou_o have_v not_o where_o with_o to_o relieve_v the_o poor_a in_o thâ—_n iâ—_n hunger_n &_o thirst_n yet_o despair_v not_o to_o gain_v this_o blessing_n that_o our_o lord_n will_v protect_v thou_o in_o the_o evil_a day_n which_o thou_o stand_v so_o much_o need_v off_o for_o to_o pray_v for_o