our selves more Our Strength is to sit still and to wait for the Salvation of God For when he works there 's none can let it and till he does arise and work all we can do will be in vain And this many have found to their cost Let us learn to be wise by other mens harms There are many Devices in the heart of Man but the Counsel of the Lord that shall stand And whoever goes about to resist it will find him self sadly deceiv'd I will always maintain my Loyalty to the King and quietly submit to the Power that Protects me That so I may keep a Conscience void of offence both towards God and towards Man And it is the grief of my heart to see any otherwise minded For if we must not Speak wickedly for God nor Talk deceitfully for him much less must we Act wickedly for him And yet I would be found doing too I mean I would be found in the daily Exercise of Faith and Repentance and endeavour to get a broken and a contrite Heart for my past Sins because God has assur'd me that with such Sacrifices he is well pleased The Soul's Expostulation AND now O my Soul consider with thy self If Sin be the procuring Cause of all thy Troubles hast thou not greater Reason to be troubled for thy Sins than for thy Sufferings Afflictions may make thee better but Sin always makes thee worse It may be necessary sometimes to chuse Sorrow but it never can be so to chuse Sin 'T is God alone is that Wise Alchymist that can Extract Good from Evil and make even the Sins of his People turn to his Glory Thus through the working of God's Grace thy Pride may tend to humble thee and a due sence of thy Passion may produce Patience But this is alone the Effect of God's Grace for the Nature of Sin is only Evil. What reason then O my Soul hast thou to bless God who has made thy Outward Losses prove thy Inward Gain by taking thee off from the Pursuit of Sin and Training thee up in the School of Affliction Sure O my Soul it concerns thee to see what good Lessons thou hast learn'd there for if thou art not the better for 't thou wilt certainly be the worse Affliction is a Furnace and if thou comest not forth purified like Gold thy dross will appear the more But if thou canst say with David It has been good for me that I have been afflicted thou hast great cause to bless God for it If these Trials have done thee good what hast thou to complain of And if by the light of Affliction thou hast seen the greatness of thy Sin and that sight of Sin has humbled thee and brought thee to Repentance thou art hereby become a greater Gainer than all the outward Prosperity in the World could make thee For there is no Comparison between Temporal Losses and Spiritual Gains For all the things that are seen are but Temporal but the things that are not seen are Eternal How blessed a thing is it O my Soul to be afflicted Seeing these light Afflictions that are but for a moment work out for thee a far more Exceeding and Eternal Weight of Glory T his O my Soul is enough not only to make them rejoyce but even glory in Tribulations since they have so blessed an effect See then O my Soul that thy Tribulation worketh Patience and Patience Experience and Experience Hope even that Hope which maketh not ashamed and so shalt thou have rejoycing in thy self and not in another A PRAYER O Almighty and merciful Lord God who madest all things for thy own Glory and canst Over-rule all Events so as to bring glory to thy Name and good to thy People out of the darkest of thy Dispensations towards them Grant I beseech Thee that these Afflictions with which thou hast been pleased to Exercise me may by thy gracious Ordination bring forth the Peaceable fruits of Righteousness unto me that I may be Enabled to say It is good for me that I have been Afflicted And suffer me not O Lord neither to despise thy chastening by going on in those Ways of Sin and Rebellion against thee which have brought thy Iudgments down upon this Nation nor to defer my Repentance for those Iniquities which I have been guilty of And since thou hast declared in thy Word That he which hideth his Sins shall not prosper but that those who confess 'em and forsake 'em shall find Mercy Help me I humbly beseech thee with all thy People to make our Confession unto thee and to acknowledge that we have sinned and have committed Iniquity and have rebelled by departing from thy Precepts and thy Iudgments neither have we hearken'd to thy Servants the Ministers which spoke in thy Name to our Kings our Princes and our Fathers and to all the People of the Land And therefore O Lord Righteousness belongs unto thee but unto us Confusion of face as at this day to our King our Princes and our Iudges because we have sinned against thee And have added this Evil unto all the rest that yet we have not made our Prayer before the Lord our God that we might turn from our Iniquities and understand thy Truth O Lord our God we pray thee hear encline thine Ear and open thine Eyes and behold our low Estate For we do not present these our Supplications before thee for our Righteousness sake but for thy great Mercies through Iesus Christ our Lord and only Saviour Our Father c. Meditation V. Of the Benefit and Advantage of Afflictions WE have in the former Meditation Enquir'd into the Nature of Afflictions they are Evils in themselves not joyous but grievous and into the Causes of them which generally is Sin and what some of those Sins are we have also examin'd and found our selves to be concern'd in them which calls for our hearty Sorrow and Repentance But as a wife Physician will so temper Poyson as not only to allay its Venom but turn it into an Antidote so does the great Physician of our Souls do with Afflictions making them work together for our Good and bring forth for us the Peaceable Fruits of Righteousness And here I will a little Meditate upon the reasons why it pleases God to Afflict his Children and what the Benefits are that we reap thereby 1. Because we might shew our Conformity to our Blessed Redeemer who first Suffered and then Entered into his Glory In like manner we are told that if we suffer with him we shall also reign with him And the greater Tryals we endure here the brighter will our Crown of Glory shine hereafter The Author to the Hebrews having given a large account of the sufferings of the People of God in former Ages and of their not accepting Deliverance gives this as the reason that they expected a better Resurrection Agreeable to which our Lord tells us That those that are persecuted here for Righteousness sake
against me Thou hast delivered me from the Violent Man Therefore will I give thanks unto thee O LORD among the Heathen and sing Praises unto thy Name Great Deliverance giveth He to his King and sheweth mercy to his Anointed to David and to his Seed for evermore Thus David's being delivered out of his Troubles fill'd his mouth with Songs of Deliverance to his great Deliverer GOD is the same GOD still and has the same Power to save and the same Bowels of Compassion to shew Mercy Let us therefore lift up our Eyes and our Hearts to Him We have been long looking to Men but they have prov'd but as broken Reeds that have rather pierc'd our hands than holpen us We have experienc'd the Truth of what David long ago affirmed That Men of low degree are Vanity and Men of high degree are a Lye And therefore let us all say as he does Psal. LXII 5. My Soul wait thou only upon God for my expectation is from him But to proceed It is as I have said before none of the least Benefit of Afflictions That it makes deliverance more sweet to us For as after a great drouth a shower of Rain is more refreshing to the Earth or when we are extream thirsty a draught of Drink is sweeter to us and a Calm is rendred more pleasant and acceptable to Passengers after a troublesome Tempest so will our deliverance be more grateful to us after we have been exercis'd with great and sore Afflictions Thus in the LXVIII Psalm and the 13th vers Tho' ye have lien among the Pots like Sons of Clay esteem'd as the filth of the World and the off-scouring of all things yet when your Deliverance shall come ye shall be as the Wings of a Dove covered with Silver and her Feathers with yellow Gold i. e. Ye shall be so much the more bright and glorious and for every Sorrow you underwent in the time of your Affliction you shall receive redoubled Consolations after your Deliverance And this Deliverance will come in due time if with Faith and Patience we be found waiting for it For tho' Heaviness may endure for a Night yet Ioy will come in the Morning especially if we let Patience have its perfect work But if through impatience we seek to hasten it we shall but retard it for he that believeth maketh not haste And that we may the more quietly submit to the good Pleasure of GOD and rest satisfied in his Wise Disposal of things our next Meditation shall be of our Resignation to the Will of GOD. The Soul's Expostulation LET us now O my Soul a little Contemplate on the adorable Wisdom of GOD who is wonderful in Counsel and excellent in working whose way is in the Sea and his Path in the great Waters and his footsteps are not known Since then O my Soul his Judgments are such a great deep that all the Lines of a created Understanding can never fathom them Is it not much better to accept of his Fatherly Chastisements than to quarrel with his Proceedings Present Afflictions may be far better than a Prosperous Condition if thou hast Wisdom to improve 'em to the end for which GOD designs ' em Will it be a Mercy to be made conformable to thy blessed Redeemer who first suffered and then entered into his glory And will it not be thy happiness to have the same mind in thee as was in Christ Jesus And if Afflictions do this surely thou oughtest to Thank God for Afflictions and rejoyce that thou art counted worthy to be a Partaker of Christ's sufferings Again If by Afflictions thy heart be weaned from the World and thy Affections set upon the things above where there are better and more durable Treasures thou art certainly an infinite Gainer by the Bargain And if outward ease and Prosperity has caused thee to contract sinful habits and evil Diseases which are purged away by Afflictions what reason hast thou to complain Or if God by his afflicting hand hedge up thy way with Thorns that thou canst not do all the Evil that is in thy heart is not this the greatest Mercy that can happen to thee And if by outward sufferings thou approvest the sincerity of thy heart to God oughtest thou not to rejoyce therein Thou canst not but know O my Soul how apt thou art to start aside from GOD like a deceitful Bow and if to Cure thee of that Evil the Floods of Affliction like those of great Waters do arise and force thee to run to God as thy strong hold for safety and Refuge is there not a hand of Mercy to be eyed therein which thou oughtest thankfully and humbly to adore And likewise if Afflictions cause thee to live in the Exercise of Faith Hope Charity Patience Humility and other Divine Graces thou hast exceeding reason to be thankful to God and to say with David It is good for me I have been Afflicted Lastly O my Soul consider how pleasant it will be to look back upon the various Issues of Divine Providence when God shall have wrought Deliverance for thee How wilt thou then O my Soul exalt and magnify the Lord and rejoyce in God thy Saviour Thou art now apt to blame the Conduct of Divine Providence and to say with good old Iacob All these things are against me But then thou wilt be of another mind and conclude that he hath done all things well so that it could not be done better and break forth into that Pathetical Exclamation of the holy Apostle O the depth of the Riches both of the Wisdom and Knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his Iudgments and his ways past finding out And thence conclude with him That of him and through him and to him are all things To whom be glory for ever Amen A PRAYER GRACIOVS and Merciful Father help me thy poor unworthy Creature to adore thee for that Goodness and Mercy which thou hast been pleased to Vouchsafe to me by all the various Methods of thy Providence towards me and more particularly for those Afflictions which it has pleased thee to Visit me withal O Lord be thou pleased to make them effectual for those gracious Ends and Purposes designed by Thee That by them I may be made more conformable to my Lord and Saviour Iesus Christ who was a Man of Sorrow and acquainted with Grief and who learned Obedience by the things that he suffered and having suffered entered into his glory and that by them also I may find my Heart and Affections drawn off from the love of the World because the Friendship of the World is Enmity to God but grant O Lord that my Affections may be raised and set upon things above even where my blessed Redeemer sits at thy right hand that so when he shall appear I also may appear with him in glory Grant also O Lord That tho' no Affliction at the present is Ioyous but Grievous my Afflictions may be so tempered with the Oyl
of Mercy by the great Physician of my Soul that they may purge out all those sinful Distempers and Evil Habits that Prosperity and Ease has caus'd me to contract that so being purged from my Sins and refined in the Furnace of Affliction I may come forth like Gold And seeing my Foolish and Deceitful Heart is so ready to run after Lying Vanities let thy Chastisements be as so many Thorns to hedge up my Way that so being stopt from running into the Paths of the Destroyer my Soul may be like a Garden inclosed a Spring shut up and a Fountain sealed And blessed Lord grant also that by my Patient continuance in well doing under thy Afflicting hand I may Evidence the sincerity of my Love to-towards thee which the Waters of Affliction can never quench nor all the Floods of Tribulation drown And tho' former Prosperity has caus'd me to forget thee yet let this storm that it has pleased thee in thy Righteous Iudgment to bring upon me cause me to fly unto thee for shelter who art a Covert from the Storm and from the Rain and my only Refuge and Rock of Defence where I can be safe against the fear of Evil. And as the depressing of a Palm-tree makes it grow the Straighter and the treading of Cammomile makes it smell the Sweeter so let my present Afflictions cause the Graces of thy holy Spirit in me to send forth the greater Fragrancy and to appear more Eminently And further be pleased to grant O Lord through thy Wise and all-Disposing Providence these light Afflictions that are but for a moment may work out for me a far more exceeding and eternal weight of Glory And that when thou shalt graciously please to accomplish all the purposes of thy Grace towards me by thy Afflicting hand and caused thine Anger towards me to cease that my Mouth may be filled with Songs of Diliverance That I may say with thy Servant of Old Bless the Lord O my Soul and all that is within me bless his holy Name Bless the Lord O my Soul and forget not all his Benefits who forgiveth all thine Iniquities who healeth all thy Diseases who redeemeth thy Life from Destruction and Crowneth thee with loving Kindness and tender Mercies Grant this O Lord for the sake of Iesus Christ thy blessed and only Son who for the Ioy that was set before him endured the Cross and despised the Shame and is set down at the right hand of the Majesty on high To whom with thee O Father and the Eternal Spirit be ascribed all Honour Glory Power and Praise World without End Amen Meditation VI. Of our Resignation to the Will of God OUR Blessed Saviour in that most Excellent Form of Prayer he has taught us has made this one Principal Petition in it Thy Will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven And tho' I hope we all make use of this Prayer yet how few of us are there that understand what we ask Tho' there is nothing more pleasing to God nor nothing that tends more to the Establishment of our own quiet than this Resignation of our Wills to the Will of God which we therein pray for For could we in times of greatest Trouble and at the lowest Ebb of Affliction consider that it is the Will of God without whom nothing comes to pass and whose alone Will is the Rule of all Righteousness that consideration would soon allay all those storms of Passion and Discontent which are so ready to arise in our Souls under such Dispensations of Providence and make all calm and quiet there And this was that which silenc'd all the Complaints of Gods People in the Days of Old when they were even cover'd with the Cloud of his Anger Of which tho' many Instances might be given I shall confine my self to a few AND the first shall be that of old Eli the Priest who was a good Man but too indulgent a Father his wicked Children who thereby took Encouragement to sin by which God was so provok'd that he sent Samuel to Eli with such a Message as was enough to make his Ears to tingle importing no less than the destruction of him and his house and that the Iniquity of his house should not be purged with Sacrifice nor Offering for Ever because his Sons had made themselves Vile and he restrained them not And yet even under so heavy a Message as this was the good old Man resigns himself up to the Will of God saying It is the LORD let him do what seemeth him good A Second Instance shall be that of King David when he was forced to fly from the Rebellion which Absalom his own Son had rais'd against him Absalom having aspir'd to the Kingdom and wheedled the People out of their Loyalty and Allegiance upon a Pretence of the Mismanagement of his Father telling those that came to the King for Judgment in any Cause That there was no Man deputed of the King to hear them and then wishing he was made Iudge in the Land that he might do them Iustice By which sly Insinuations he had stolen away the hearts of the Isralites from his Father And when by these ill Practices things were ripe for an Open Rebellion Religion too must be brought in for a Part and a Vow to the Lord is pretended to be paid at Hebron on which pretence Absalom having obtain'd leave to depart from the King blows the Trumpet of Rebellion throughout all Israel and makes himself King in Hebron This News being brought to David he finds himself in Danger from his Rebellious Son and thereupon resolves to Abdicate the Royal City of Ierusalem to which Absalom was hastening as fast as he could In this flight of the King he had several of his Loyal Subjects to attend him and among them were Zadok and Abiathar the Priests and the honest Levites with the Ark of God But the good King who was more concern'd for the Ark of God than for himself knowing that God had chosen the Gates of Zion before all the Dwellings of Iacob would by no means suffer the Ark to be carried after him but sends it back again into the City not knowing how God might deal with him with this Noble Resignation of himself to the Will of God Carry back says he to Zadock the Ark of God into the City if I shall find Favour with the Lord he will bring me again and shew me both it and his habitation But if he thus say I have no delight in thee behold here am I let him do to me as seemeth good unto him This is a truly Royal Example and well worthy Imitation A Third Instance of this Resignation of our Wills to the Will of God shall be that of King Hezekiah who after his Recovery from Sickness having Received the Congratulatory Ambassadors of Merodach Baladan the King of Babylon was so pleas'd with the Honour which he thought was thereby done him that he shewed the Ambassadors the
Thou ever art a Merciful Father Forget not thy Fatherly Goodness to me who pray thy Pardon for offending Thee Thy Grace to serve Thee and Thy Providence to preserve me this Night and Evermore through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen A Prayer for one in Affliction O Lord That Affliction which is now my Lot is the Result of thy good Pleasure and as such let me Eye it and improve it to Reclaim me from Evil Ways and to direct my course into those that are Good If it be so grievous to bear it for a Time what is it O God to suffer it and ten thousand times more misery than it for Ever Then if it be ill let it be thy Rod to reclaim me and if Good thy Staff to make me stand better in Grace and advance me to thy Glory Thy Fan to Purge me Thy Furnace to Prove me So Adversity to my Body be the Prosperity of my Soul let it come and Welcome O Lord that my Soul may at last everlastingly Prosper with Thee in that Day of Bliss which knows no Cloud of Ill nor end of Good to Eternity Since Affliction is a sign of thy Mercy a Badge of thy Favour and a means of Glory let me not be Impatient under it lest I perpetuate my Woes to two Worlds and whom Thou hast but for a Time make my self miserable for ever Blessed Jesus who didst go from a Cross to a Crown and doest Cross me to Crown me let me carry mine Patiently that I may come to thy Throne and not cast my self from a Cross of Woe into a Gulph of Confusion From such Miscarriages under my Present Afflictions O Lord deliver me Dear Jesus By the Merits and Example of thy holy Cross and by the Vertues and Works of thy holy Spirit Do it for me and Sanctifie it to me Amen A Concluding Prayer BEhold O Lord what I have Prayed unto thee for and grant I humbly beseech thee the Requests that I have put up unto Thee this Evening and hear the Petitions of thy Servant And do for me for the Nation for thy Church and for all Estates and Conditions therein not only according to what I have Prayed but according to what I should and ought to have Prayed and what any else have prayed with me for Jesus Christ his sake in whose Name I have presented them with whose Words I desire to Perfume and Perfect my Prayers Beseeching Thee That his Spirit may breathe in those Words in which I know I Pray both what and as I ought And therefore as Devoutly Confidently say Our Father which art in Heaven c. The Blessing BLESSED are the Afflicted and Troubled and those that mourn under those Calamities we feel and fear The Blessing and Comfort of God the Father and the Grace of our Lord Iesus Christ and the Consolations of the holy Spirit be upon me and upon all such sad and sorrowful Souls with me this Night and Evermore Amen Meditations and Prayers FOR THE NOLY COMMUNION BOTH Before At and After Receiving A Meditation before the Receiving the holy Communion O My dear Lord Thy Passion makes me full of all Passions I am in Love and yet I Hate I have my Longings and my Loathings I both Rejoyce and Grieve and Cherish Hope and Fear I am Incens'd and Ravish'd I am in Love with Thee O blessed Jesus I am Enamour'd of thy Person O Thou God-Man The Son of God! The Beauty of Heaven and Earth The Center of all Created and Uncreated Excellency The Mirror of the Godhead The Wonder of Angels The Glory of Mankind I am Inflamed with thy Love Thou mad'st thy Love to Lazarus legible in thy Tears See how he loved him said the Jews and shall not I read it in thy Wounds They saw Love in thy driping Eye and shall not I in thy Bleeding Side They in the Hot-water thou didst bestow on his Dead Body and shall not I see it in that reaking Blood thou sheddest for my lost and Dying Soul O let not my heart be so hard to see those Wounds of so great Love to me and yet to have no Woundings of Affection for Thee For thee Lord Yes and all in Heaven and Earth that have Relation to Thee I am also in Love with the God and Father of my Lord Jesus Christ who would give his Son his only Son the Son of his Love so to suffer on Earth for a Time that I might not suffer for Ever in Hell I am also in Love with Thee O Thou Blessed and Holy Spirit of GOD who didst anoint Jesus to be my Christ and thereby Inaugurate him to his Crown of Thorns and Blessed tho' most Bloody Passion which he suffered for me I am in Love with the whole Blessed Trinity whose glorious Essence and Ineffable Unity I Adore tho' I cannot comprehend and whose Counsels fill my Soul with the highest Admiration tho' I am never able to search out their Unfathomable depth I have also Love for the Sons of Men for them especially for whom my Lord Jesus shed his precious Blood thereby to make them the Sons of God and Brothers of Christ Thy Cross O Jesus shall make all Mankind my Friends for where thou gavest thy Blood why shou'd not I give my Heart THUS Lord I love all for thee and thee in all And now I will love my self for thy sake amongst them O Lord I am one in whom is thy Flesh a Man I am one in whom is thy Spirit a Christian I am one for whom thou didst shed thy Blood on whom thou hast shed thy Spirit A redeemed esteemed Man by Thee and shall I be so poor as to Value Dirt to thy Blood Shall I be tempted to give my self from Thee to the Flesh and to the World O Lord I will Value thy Blood more I will keep the Spirit better I will set a higher price on my self than to sell thy Blessed Purchase to the Devil for a base Piece of Flesh and a small portion of the World So am I and let me ever be in love with Thee O Lord. BUT O Sin I am in Hate with Thee for my own and for my Saviour's sake O thou Enemy of God and Man how execrable art thou More than heart can think That madest him lamentable more than Eye saw AND O Devil I hate Thee who didst tempt Man out of Paradise and so draw Christ to a Cross And could thy Temptations have prevail'd and thy Power been equal to thy Malice wouldst have cast the second Adam out too that so nor the First nor his Seed might ever have come in again AND O World I abhor thee as the Imp of the Devil who of his Jews and Gentiles couldst find hands for such horrid Acts and Sins that made those Bloody Passions So Sin Devil World for the Death of my King and Lord and Christ you have my Hate I have also my Longings too I Long for the Lord My Soul Longeth for God even the