THE Vertuous Wife OR THE HOLY LIFE OF Mrs. ELIZABTH WALKER Late Wife of A. Walker D. D. sometime Rector of Fyfield in Essex Giving a modest and short Account of her Exemplary PIETY and CHARITY Published for the Glory of God and provoking others to the like Graces and Vertues With some useful PAPERS and LETTERS writ by her on several Occasions London Printed for N. R. and sold by J. Robinson A. and J. Churchill J. Taylor and J. Wyat. 1694. To the Honoured Friends of my late Dear Wife for whose sake chiefly these things are Written Much honoured Christian Friends THough when I first set upon this Work I design'd to thrust it forth into the World without any Address farther than the short Introduction with which I began it yet when I had finished it I judged it not amiss to premise these few things following partly by way of Advertisement partly by way of Apology First by way of Advertisement 1. That all I relate as hers as written or spoken or done by her were exactly hers not feigned or pretended to be so I have not writ her Life as the Roman Historians did the Lives of their Great Men and Heroes made Speeches for them and put Words into their Mouths rather fit to be spoken by Men of their Figure and Character than really spoken by them But all that 's Comma'd in the Margin is transcribed verbatim from her Writings which I have shew'd to many Witnesses and am ready to shew to any Friend who shall desire it And what is related as spoken is her Words as near as my Memory could retain them at so many Years distance always the true sense and substance of what she spake and which was oft heard by many besides my self 2. The things she wrote she could not have the least prospect they should ever see the publick light and therefore did not dress them up to appear with the best advantage she could have given them 3. That she was a plain private Woman and conversed only with obscure Persons of low Degree not to say as contemptible as our selves unless it were now and then a day or two in a Year some Persons of Honour might vouchsafe her their Conversation and therefore just Allowances are to be made and too raised an Expectation ought not to be brought to the Perusal of what is offered if it be usefull to Persons of her Level it may suffice and others ought to exceed her as much in their Improvements as they do in their Advantages to be improved and their Opinions of themselves above her 4. Though some Phrases occur in her Papers or Letters more than once and may seem Tautologies now they are put so close together into one piece yet had not the least shaddow of being so being written at so many Years distance upon such different Occasions and to divers Persons 5. Lastly I pretend not to satisfie those who relish nothing but the flashes of frothy Wit elegansie of Elaborate Periods and a Chime of fine Words and modish new Notions but for solid experienced Christians who desire to exercise themselves unto Godliness and expect what may encourage and assist them thereto I humbly hope they may meet an Entertainment which will not make repeated Perusal dis-agreeable to them or think their Labour lost For Apology I know it is better not to need any than to be able to make the best Yet two Apologies seem needfull for my self one for attempting the Work the other for performing it no better For the first some know though I forbear to mention what put me upon the Resolution and I think might be allowed as a fair Excuse Admitting it usefull it must be done by my self or the World have lost the Benefit of it And for the avoiding an Envidious Suspition that I design my own Honour behind the Curtain and would slily steal a Reputation under Pretence of paying her Name a just Tribute of deserved Praise I know the best way to break the dint of a Blow is to latch it and meet it half-way and I could more than almost spoil such Objections by preventing them and making them as piquant and stinging as any would screw them up to be but when all is done there is no Fence against Ill-will but obligingly to declare I hope I shall meet with none or unconcernedly that I pity and despise its feeble impotency and if any will say not so rudely as the Captain concerning the young Prophet sent to annoint Jehu Wherefore came this mad Fellow 2 Kings 9.11 Yet what means this vain Man to write the Life of his own Wife and thereby insinuate c. Jehu's Answer for him shall suffice me for my self to you for and to whom I write You know the Man and his Communication 2. Why I have performed it no better To which I reply first if I have done it as well as I could it is my Infelicity more than my Fault that it is performed no better 3. That if I could have adorned it better yet some Circumstances may excuse its appearing as it doth The truth is I begun it in haste and with some precipitancy not foreseeing it would grow up into so great a Bulk or Length and that I might dispatch it quickly began the Impression as soon as a Sheet was ready and so was forced to keep pace with the Press that I could not alter or correct a Line nor lick the rudest Features into a better Shape either for Method or Language nor transcribe a Page or add to the first flowings of my Thoughts or Pen. 'T is said indeed That Honey is the purest which flows of its own accord without pressing of the Combs yet even that needs clarifying but that Ink is the palest and most faint which swims at the Top and is poured out without much shaking of the Bottle If what I have written this hasty Treatise with be censured as such I cannot help it now I writ most of it at London or Chelsy and the whole in the midst of many Diversions that it is in a great measure an heap not only of first Thoughts but of sudden ones And had I had opportunity of a strict review of the whole some things I would have retrenched that are Minute more I would have added very weighty most might have been expressed more politely yet take it with all its disadvantages though it may be defective in the Ornamental part of its Dress it is not so in the Substantial part of its Truth which is more than the Ornament the Life and Soul of History and with the ordinary measure of Candour which I reckon my self bound to allow to others when I read their Labours this may pass in the Crowd and prove neither despicable nor useless which is all that is begged or expected and I promise my self shall not be denied by you my much honoured Friends to Your very Humble Servant Anthony Walker May 10. 1690. THE CONTENTS THE
Introduction pag. 3 SECT I. Of her Birth and Parentage pag. 5 An Account of her Book out of which most is transcribed concerning our selves and Children Time and Place of her Birth pag. 9 Her Parents Her Father 's early Prudence and a strange over-ruling Providence which brought him to be a Citizen which was the spring and occasion of many consequent Mercies to her and others pag. 10 The tenderness of her Spirit when a Child pag. 13 A great fault she was guilty of when young which was turned to her benefit in future Caution pag. 14 Her Father 's great Care of her and Confidence in her pag. 15 SECT II. How she was first awakened to a deep Sense of Religion by Temptation pag. 17 The first Onset by a blasphemous suggestion pag. 18 How she overcame the Temptation to Atheism pag. 19 Her long struggling with Temptation and the first glimpse of Comfort pag. 20 Kept half a Year by it without sleep or very little pag. 22 Means of her Recovery and some gradual Relief of which she hath an excellent Passage pag. 24 Yet she suffered renewed Onsets pag. 25 SECT III. Of our Marriage remarkable Passages concerning it pag. 27 SECT IV. Her Life in concise Epitome pag. 30 SECT V. How she spent a Day pag. 32 Rose constantly at Four of the Clock Spent two hours with God in secret An account of the rest till bed-time pag. 41 SECT VII For the number Six is omitted by the Printer How she spent a Week ibid. Her exact circumspection in sanctifying the Lord's Day Her whole method in it to Page 44 Monday Mornings Prayers for the Church of God which she constantly observed with great Zeal and Charity both for all the Foreign Churches and our own for many years ever after she had been informed of that commendable Custom set up in so many Families quite through the Nation ibid. Constantly spent Friday the Passion-day in Fasting and Prayer or if she foresaw Diversion unavoidable on that day chose one before it pag. 48 SECT VIII How she spent a Year Where are set down the Heads of the following Sections pag. 49 SECT IX Her Character as a Wife pag. 51 In time of Health to Page 55 In times of being Sick to Page 61 SECT X. Of her Lyings-in in Child-bearing ibid. SECT XI Of the Baptising our Children Her very commendable Practice on that occasion pag. 64 SECT XII Her Care of the Education of her Children pag. 66 to pag. 82 I give no touch at the Particulars of this long Section because I arnestly recommend the reading of the whole often over as being very Exemplary and usefull SECT XIII Of monthly Sacraments Her constant Communicating and serious Preparation pag. 82 SECT XIV Of her Writings pag. 84 SECT XV. Discreet management of her Family pag. 86 SECT XVI Visitations by Sickness on our selves or some of our Children pag. 92 to pag. 115 This is so large and hath so many exemplary passages of indefatigable Watchings fervent Prayers gratious Answers humble Submission to God that I leave them to the Reader 's own Observation SECT XVII Renewed Assaults of her Enemy by Temptation pag. 115 The usual Seasons of which were Indispositions of Mind by Sorrow or of Body by Sickness pag. 116 Her Methods of Resisting 1. Conference with Experienced Christians 2. Reading suitable Books 3. Entring her solemn protest against them under her hand in appeal to God which you find Page 119. with this Title In time of Temptation writ by me Elizabeth Walker followed with a most devout pathetick Prayer SECT XVIII Friends she used to pray for by name and the form of Prayer in which pag. 123 I name those in the Body of the Prayer but omit to name them in the Margin above Thirty Heads of Families not being set down in order according to their Qualities SECT XIX Some trying Calamities on the Nation on Friends or Family and signal Deliverance from Dangers pag. 126 The great Plague and the number that died ibid. The Fire the number of Churches and Houses burnt pag. 127 Other Afflictions on particular Friends pag. 12â— On our selves pag. 129 to pag. 13â— SECT XX. Of our going to Tunbridge-Wells ibid My reasons of writing on it How she made that placâ— of Divertisment and Hurry a place of Retirement anâ— Vacancy to Devotion to pag. 14â— SECT XXI Of keeping our Wedding-day and Enteâ—tainment of our Friends ibid SECT XXII Of the Marriage of our only Daughter and her Death in Child-birth the same Year yet leaving a Son pag. 148. 'T is no wonder she wrote so much of heâ— own who used not to pass by what concerned others 〈◊〉 the Lady Mary Rich and the Lady Essex Rich theâ—â— Marriages with a devout Prayer for each pag. 149. Thâ—â— is a large Section most transcribed from her own Papers full of most excellent Devotion and humble Submission to God's smarty blow to pag. 161. And then 〈◊〉 most pathetick tenderness to the Dear Child pag. 16â— SECT XXIII Acts and Kinds of her great Charity ibid An account how it might be call'd her Charity though she were a Wife and great Charity by which shâ— gave though all she had to give were in truth but little I allowed her what my small Estate would afford all she gave of that was properly her own Charity and mine also in several respects might properly be called her's to pag. 171. She gave considerably more every Year out of her allowance than she spent upon herself She would buy Cloath from London by the whole piece to Clothe the Poor cause strong Linsey-woolsey to be made to give away imploy the Poor who wanted Work never buy any thing too cheap of the Poor People c. was bountifull to her poor Relations pag. 175 Yet never reproached her self or me by a sordid garb but secured her own decency with great Prudence while she relieved the Poor with great Charity pag. 176 Her Charity in Pains was next to that of her Purse in getting and using her skill in Physick and Chirurgery and Women labouring with Child pag. 180 Her forgiving Charity pag. 181 Her Moderation towards them who were not of the same Communion pag. 182 to pag. 185 SECT XXIV Of her care to promote God's Glory and the Salvation of Souls pag. 185 SECT XXV Several Graces in which she was most Eminent pag. 188. Knowledge Faith Charity Patience Sympathy with others pity to the Poor Repentance Reverential Fear of God Love Obedience Sincerity Modesty Courage Meekness Contentedness Thankfulness Tenderness of Conscience Improvement of Time Zeal Humility from pag. 188 to pag. 209 Her Sickness and Death pag. 210 The APPENDIX pag. 232 Directions to her Children concerning Prayer pag. 214 to pag. 223 Some Heads of Prayer formed according to those Directions pag. 224 Marks of a Regenerate Estate pag. 229 to pag. 233 A Consolatory Letter written to the Right Honourable Isabella Countess of Radnor upon the surprizing Death of her dearly-beloved Daughter the
them to repent of whatever had provoked him to so heavy displeasure that their dross being consumed in the furnace of Affliction he would chuse them to himself break the Iron Yoak from off their Necks bound on so close by the hand of proud and cruel persecuting Tyranny that being fitted for it they might once more be intrusted with their Civil and Religious Liberties and be gathered home from all the Countries into which they are scatter'd to their own Land in Peace and Safety and never forfeit it again But with more ardent Zeal if more be possible did she pray for the Peace of our own Jerusalem and wrestle with God to render these Nations fit for Mercy for though she had a grateful sense of vouchsafed Deliverances yet when hopes were gayest and affairs most promising she was full of Fears and Expectations of impending and approaching Judgments and would often yea very often say for out of the abundance of her Heart her Mouth spake That if we traced God's footsteps in the Scriptures he must change his usual methods if he took not Vengeance of so provoking a Nation which would not be healed but in the midst of so many changes would not be changed from open Profaneness mutual Hatreds and scorning and opposing serious Holiness and solid Religion and the power of Godliness Good Lord avert from her survivors what she so reasonably feared and thou hast freed her from the feeling of The Righteous are taken away from the Evil to come The rest of this Day she spent as others are described and so the rest till Friday the Weekly memorial of our Saviour's Passion On this after some necessary Family Affairs dispatch'd she constantly retired and spent it alone in religious Fasting The House of Levy apart and their Wives apart Zach. xij 13. And remembring who had blamed exacting all their labours on a fasting Day Isa lviij 3. she gave her Maids that day to work for themselves to read or spend more time in Prayer if they had hearts to doe it And if she foresaw any unavoidable diversion as being from home or Strangers to come to us she would prudently prevent the loss of that Day by chusing one before which might afford her the best vacancy And though I confess she usually set but one day in a week apart when I was at home I have been since her death informed both by those in my Family and by her Diary that in my absence she spent two three yea and more days in a week so I add no more concerning her Week but her awakened remembring on the last day of it the approaching Sabbath and solemn preparing to meet the Lord of the Day on that day of our Lord whose presence I comfortably believe she now enjoys in a continual Sabbath everlasting Rest And this is the second Edition of her Life's Epitome how she spent every Week SECT VIII How she spent a Year I Next proceed to give account how she us'd to spend a Year in the larger Revolution whereof there occurred many things which fell not within the narrower compass of a Day or Week nor all precisely into that circle taken strictly and with rigour yet are fairly reducible to that Head Many of her Years which consisted of such Days and Weeks as above described being fill'd up with her prudent holy submissive Deportment under and godly Improvement she made of such Circumstances and Conditions of Life as these that follow many yearly at least often 1. Her most endearing Affections and obliging Observance as a Wife to my self 2. Her Lyings-in in Child-bearing 3. The Baptizing of our Children 4. Care and Methods of their Education 5. Monthly Sacraments 6. Of her Writings 7. Discreet Management of Family 8. Visitations by Sickness on our selves or Children and some of their Deaths 9. Renewed assaults of her Enemy by Temptation 10. A Catalogue of her Friends she used to pray for 11 Some trying troubles on the Nation on Friends or Family Signal Deliverances from Dangers 12. Going to Tunbridge-Wells 13. Keeping our Wedding-Day Entertainments of Friends 14. Marriage of our onely Daughter Her death in Child-bed the same Year yet leaving a Son 15. Acts and kinds of her great Charity 16. Care to advance God's Glory and Salvation of others 17. Several Graces in which she was most eminent 18. Her Character All which If I should pursue not in an historical Narrative of them that 's neither my design nor business but in her glorifying God in them and making a spiritual Improvement and Advantage of them and to teach others how to doe the like I might write a Volume of them from the wise pertinent and holy Memoirs her Pen hath left me and my own observation and memory would supply me with My greatest labour therefore here will be to contract and I must leave out much of that which my own Judgment tells me if my Affection do not greatly bribe and flatter me might not only be passable but very exemplary and usefull I might have added more particulars and set them in better order and not blended so promicuously together Heavenly and Earthly Spiritual and Secular Concerns But it matters not they both come within the compass of my design to shew how good she was in all relations and conditions she was Mary and Martha both unto perfection and acted Martha's part with Mary's Spirit SECT IX Her Character as a Wife I Should be too ungratefull to her Memory should I not begin with the endearing Affections and obliging Observance she always paid me as an Husband on which Subject it is impossible to exceed or Hyperbolize though Love should render so dull a Pen Eloquent if that be not an impossible supposition Our mutual compellation was always my Dear not a word of coarse or empty Compliment but the sincere interpretation of the Language of our Hearts All my concerns were nearer to her than those which were immediately her own were I in any sort afflicted she would with Passion wish she could exempt me from it by bearing it her self Whatever toucht my Reputation Peace or Saftety toucht her in the most sensible and tender part I could give two most trying Instances of Envy and Malice but I lay my Finger on both those Sores that it may appear blessed be God's Grace I am guided by a better Spirit than to revive the memory of what we both so heartily forgave and so oft and earnestly jointly and severally have begged of God both to forget and pardon unto those who by their present Passions were hurried so far as to afford us the tryal and exercise of Christian Fortitude and Patience and so meek yea generous a Charity as I would not stand in need of from any Man for all the World On both these occasions how did she comfort me how did she counsel me to commit my innocent Cause to God assuring me he would not fail to plead and defend it and bring forth my Innocence as
away then Good Madam in endless Joy you shall meet again dear Lady Essex never to part but shall be for ever with her the rest of the blessed Saints and Angels and all in an indissolvable union with God and Christ in eternal Glory Amen Amen Good Madam It is the Prayer of your singular good Ladiship 's Obedient Servant Elizabeth Walker I beseech you Good Madam excuse the trouble of a long Letter Another Consolatory Letter written to a good Christian Friend under Trouble Good Friend I Have had troublesome solicitous thoughts of what I did not well understand at parting when I last saw you therefore I desire to be farther informed how it is like to be with you But however it may be in this present Life when it concludes it shall be well your comfort is It will be well with the Righteous of which number you are assuredly One of those exercised with God's discriminating Character of Adoption and Sonship Affliction 's his preparatory work upon his People to fit them for a better Estate that should encourage because it will compensate and reward God's Faithfull Ones for all their sufferings for his sake with an eternal weight of Glory which if their Enemies well understood they would in pure Enmity be less injurious to them As to this World if the Death of God's Saints be pretious to him so are their Sufferings considerable though he bear with his and their Enemies for a time Fellow-Creatures through Fear or Cowardise may forsake and desert but God will not You know whose Case it was but he had the strongest Party on his side the Lord stood by him he will not forsake his own Inheritance but his Truth shall be their Shield and Buckler so tender is he of them he would not have their Thoughts disturbed with anxious Sollicitousness And that his People should be continually dependant on himself he sets no Period but promises a continual supply of Grace giving in that Hour that which will make them Justifiable before their Adversaries which they shall not be able to gain-say with the verdict of Truth The Lord fortifie his People for any Tryal he sees fit to call them to that I may be one of those found Faithfull Dear Sir I beg your Prayers for me who am your truly Loving and Affectionate Friend Elizabeth Walker Sept. 24. 83. Part of two Letters written to a young Minister who had lived several Years in my House and was well preferred from thence to stir him up to Faithfulness in his Ministry and may be usefull to other such It may not be unseasonable or unusefull here to take notice what singular Care she would take of the young Scholars which came to live in my Family who though when they were first received bringing more Learning than Religion from the University for sometime would seem a little uneasie and be rather shy of her and undervalue her pious and strict Example and weighty serious Counsels for their Morals and God's Service yet after a while had a very great Respect for her and loved and honoured her as if she had been their Mother I own it as a great Mercy it was so with them all who staid any time with us but shall instance only in the last who though at first seemed to be possessed with a greater prejudice yea averseness than his Predecessors yet before one Year was out was more than convinced of his Errour and daily increased in his value of her and deference he paid her and when towards the end of the third Year his Consumption prevailed so as to threaten his Life and she declaring her concern for him and how much she was troubled he should come to die with us He with a very Pathetick Gratitude cried out O blessed be God that I ever knew this Family I know I must die somewhere and if God would give me my Choice I had rather die here than in any place in all the World I will not presume to commend her Conduct towards such young men from any thing but the good Success and for the sake of that I 'll briefly touch it Her Method was not to be always harping on the same String not to be constantly pressing them with an affected tyring Importunity which like the falls of Nilus rather makes Men Deaf than open their Ears to Discipline her Rules were short but her Example long her Advices few but Wise and Home her Reproofs fewer but Seasonable and Grave but the Copy of an holy diligent serious Conversation was never wanting A small number of wholesome Counsels well exemplified prevails more than a long Series of starched and studied Aphorisms confuted by his Life whose Head conceived them and Mouth dictated them She rarely spake to them directly and in the second Person and never but when the occasion was fair and the necessity urgent frequently what concerns them as of a third Person and it is observable that many times a glancing Blow and a Side-Wind cuts deeper and fills the Sails better than a downright Stroke or a Wind directly in the Stern I remember some of her Prudent Rules but because there are so very few to be assisted by them and it is possible none into whose Hands these Papers may fall they would but vanish into idle Speculations with which I will not trouble my unconcerned Reader And she was not only kind and carefull of their good whilst in our House but continued her Prayers for them and good Counsel to them when removed from us witness the following Letters Good Mr. Ph. I Do assure you my Affections have not been froze though my Ink hath this cold Season which may help make an Apology for a bad Scribe but I now return you my acknowledgments for your kind Letter I have received Good Mr. Ph. I heartily desire to approve my self your true Friend and would not be wanting in any thing you may expect from me whenever opportunity may afford the Tryal Especially I shall endeavour you may not meet with disappointment in that you set so great an estimate and value on my poor Prayers Oh that they were more worth that not only you but with my self the Church and People of God might have some Benefit by God's Assistance and Acceptance of my small Mite which I would as my All cast into that great Stock and Bank committed to the sure Hand and Improvement of our Great Factor and Mediator Jesus Christ who affords great Returns to which Intercourse is given more than his People can ask or think therefore my good Friend afford me your Remembrance at the Throne of Grace at which be frequent and fervent but I need not excite you to so advantageous a Duty by which you may obtain so much for your self and others The pressing Necessities of the Church of God at home and abroad cry aloud for Intercessors to prevent the Judgments we have cause to fear and may justly feel Oh! be one of those who meet
other Blessed be my gracious God for his great Kindness to me in them both After Three Years continuance in that Family upon the Death of Dr. Read my Lord presented my Dear to Fyfield in Essex a competent good Living and Subsistence blessed be God for it Good Lord crown his Ministry there with the Success of the Conversion and Bringing in their Souls to the Obedience and Knowledge of Jesus Christ Give him abundance of the Graces of thy Holy Spirit and store his Heart with the Treasuries of thy heavenly Truths and continue my Dear Husband a faithfull painfull able Labourer in thy Vineyard If what I have thus far touch'd may savour of any Vanity the modesty of what I have past over may excuse the Errour at least to them who may see the Original Manuscript Now to return to her of whom I write she proceeds I was Born at London in Bucklersbury on Thursday the 12th of July in the Year of our Lord 1623 and Baptized the 20th Day of the same Month. The Lord vouchsafing me a reception into the visible Church of Jesus Christ when he most justly might have suffered no Eye to pity me but have cast me out to the loathing of my Person in my original Defilement and Stains of my sinfull Nature But to my first admittance good Lord enable me to ascend that being a Member of thy Church militant here on Earth I may attain to be one of thy Church triumphant in Heaven My Dear Father was Mr. John Sadler a very Eminent Citizen and of a most generous loving and charitable Disposition and a most tender Father to me and a kind Father-in-Law to my Husband He was born at Stratford upon Avon in Warwickshire where his Ancestors lived My Grandfather had a good Estate in and about the Town He was of a free and noble Spirit which somewhat out-reach'd his Estate but not given to any Debauchery I ever heard of My Father's Mother was a very wise pious and a good Woman and lived and died a good Christian My Father had no Brother but three Sisters who were all eminently Wise and good Women especially his youngest Sister who married my Father's Partner in Trade a religious good Man In process of time my Father was desired to change his single estate accordingly a Match was provided for him but he by God's Providence approved not of it His Father then provided him good Clothes good Horse and Money in his Purse and sent him to make his Addresses to a Gentlewoman in that Country But he considering well how difficult a married Condition was like to prove his Father having reduced his Estate from about 400 l. a Year to 80. His own Prudence but especially God's good Providence over-ruling his mind instead of going a Wooing he join'd himself to the Carrier and came to London where he had never been before and sold his Horse in Smithfield and having no Acquaintance in London to recommend him or assist him he went from Street to Street and House to House asking if they wanted an Apprentice and though he met with many discouraging Scorns and a thousand denials he went on till he light on Mr. Brokes bank a Grocer in Bucklersbury who though he long denied him for want of Sureties for his Fidelity and because the Money he had but Ten Pounds was so disproportionable to what he used to receive with Apprentices yet upon his discreet account he gave of himself and the Motives which put him upon that Course and promise to compensate with diligent and faithfull Service what ever else was short of his Expectation he ventured to receive him upon Trial in which he so well approved himself that he accepted him into his Service to which he bound him for Eight Years to which he willingly submitted though he was then full Twenty-one Years old and there he served a faithfull and laborious Apprenticeship but much liked of his Master and Mistress And after served him Five Years Journey-man they not being willing to part with him In which time he had his Master's leave to Trade for himself in Drugs and Tabacco by which he left Grocery and was by Trade a Druggist in London And by that Profession God bless'd my dear Father with a very plentifull and good Estate with which God gave him a bountifull Mind and liberal Heart to doe much good to his Relations and others My Dear Mother Mrs. Elizabeth Sadler was the Daughter of Mr. Dackum sometimes Minister of Portsmouth Also my Grandmother Dackum was a very wise and prudent Woman In my Infancy I was very sickly and of a weakly Constitution Blessed be God for the Love and Care of Parents and Friends in my Childhood Estate She was her Parents first Born after Five Years Marriage and despair of having Children which rendred them exceeding tender of her and yet was she well nigh starved at Nurse at Lusam in Kent For though her Parents sent so bountifully besides the Nurses Wages as might near maintain the Family yet have they found the Meat they sent ready to stink for want of dressing In my fuller Age I was of a pensive Nature God saw it good that I should bear the yoak in my Youth but I did not consider the hand that put it on When I was Young the Lord was pleased to deliver me from many Casualties After naming them she always concludes with Praises Blessed be his preventing Mercy Blessed be God that preserved me in that danger And such like If St. Augustin's confessing of his robbing an Orchard be so much approved why may not I touch so small a thing as I meet with here which shews the tenderness of her Spirit When I was a Child my Mother would send me where she less trusted my Sisters In what I might fail I cannot call to mind but I remember she sent me where she kept her Apples they suited my childish Appetite I took one I could not keep it but thought I had stole it I went back unlock'd the Door but with some regret laid down the Apple Blessed be restraining Grace But I must pass over a great many things for brevity which might be usefull unto others and are very pleasant to my self in reading for the savory sense of pious Gratitude which all along breaths in them yet I will not hide the greatest fault I ever knew her guilty of in my own observation or find her charge her self with either in her Book or Diary Having written many things which I pass by and last concerning the burning of her Father's House she thus proceeds About half a year after the Fire which was when she was about Thirteen or Fourteen years old my Father had a great fit of sickness which held him a quarter of a year and in great danger of Death In which time of his sickness I poor wretched Creature through a sudden surprise and provocation spoke a wicked word to a superior of which my Father was informed and most
Grace Good Lord grant me the Blessing of Prayer and requite them and theirs in Spiritual Blessings Good Lord remember in much Mercy the Relations of my dear Deceased Friends Be thou the God of the Widow and the Father of the Fatherless Children Also any that ever asked my poor Prayers Gracious God though these I name I stretch out my craving Hands over the World I beseech thee let thy most suitable Mercies reach them Good Lord be Merciful to this Town and People in a sound Conversion Bless our Family with Soul-Mercies and all our Servants In the Margin are named about thirty Heads of Families with their Relations of almost all Ranks and Degrees from Right-Honourable down to them of low Condition for whom she had a peculiar Esteem and endear'd Affection who so far suffer with me that they have lost a sincere Friend and humble earnest Intercessor at the Throne of Grace I will use an Expression of her own Pen touched above on the like occasion I humbly hope these Prayers remain upon the File of God's Mercy And I humbly and heartitly beseech him they may be answered with Blessed Returns upon my self and mine and upon all them and theirs for whom they were sent up with so devout and commendable Charity and Zeal Amen SECT XIX Some trying Calamities on the Nation on Friends and Family and signal Deliverances from Dangers AS she was none of those who regard not God's Works nor the Operation of his Hands but duly observed and humbly adored his Providential Dispensations so she cast them not behind her Back but constantly Recorded them with Awakening Pious Reflections upon them whether relating to the Nation Friends or Family I shall scarcely mention one of twenty only touch a few one or two of a kind as Instances and Examples to others to provoke to Imitation About four years after King Charles the Second's coming into England began the great Plague May the 5th 1665. of which died in and about London 68592. I think it should have been 98592 her Pen by an easie Mistake pointing the first Figure upward which should have been turned downward as hath been Computed besides great Multitudes in other Parts of the Kingdom In the Year following was the Dreadful Fire September the Second which Consum'd and Burnt down Eighty nine Churches and as Account hath been given 13200 Houses Lord how manifold are thy Judgments Give the Inhabitants of the Earth to learn Righteousness thereby If some might blame me yet I believe some would have thanked me had I added many more of these National Concerns as a very brief Chronicle especially with her usefull Reflections Whoso are Wise will consider these things and they shall understand the Loving Kindness of the Lord whoso doth his great and wonderfull Works that they ought to be had in Remembrance But for Brevity I refrain And as she took notice of publick Concerns so did she also of what touched particular Persons especially her Friends as for Instance January 13. 1672. God was pleased to suffer a sudden and lamentable Fire to Consume in a few hours a large House the Habitation of a good Gentleman our Friend and Neighbour Mr. Luther of Miles's three Miles distant from us upon which she wrote a most kind and Christian Letter to him of which I find the Copy She records the Deaths of many Friends and always with a short Character of them and useful Improvements As for Instance April 12. 1678. It pleased God to take to himself the Most Excellent Lady the Countess of Warwick She was Eminent in Religion a sound Christian in Knowledge and Practice exceeding Charitable did very much good a very sincere and obliging Friend very sweet in Disposition and in Condescention to all even to those much below her she did excell both in Religion and in all other commendable Vertues she lived very desirable and dyed much bewailed as a deep Loss to her Relations to the Neighbourhood to the Church and People of God to all that knew her amongst whom to my Dear Husband to him she was a most entire Friend and to my self Good Lord Sanctifie to us this heavy Deprivation the loss of our Honourable and most Endearing Friend Lord make up the Breach which for Extent is very wide yet not beyond the Bounds of thy Boundless Compassion Good Lord fill up to us and all that share in this smarty touch of thy Hand with full Supplies fetched beyond Creature-Enjoyments more immediate from thy self in thy immutable Friendship and never-dying Love and Favour in that unchangeable Rock of Ages Christ Jesus which Lord vouchsafe to grant Amen Amen And having named several Deaths of other Friends with true Characters of them she concludes Good Lord Sanctifie to me these frequent Warnings of Mortality and Death I beseech thee fit me for my Departure out of this World She mentions also three Eminent Deliverances from the Danger of Fire breaking out in our House in which we inhabited and one in another House of ours in the Parish which were prevented by signal Providences which she sets down and closes with most thankful Praises There 's not an Eminent Danger into which I fell and out of which God's Mercy rescued me which she remembers not with Expressions which testifie a most Dear Affection to my self and a most Pious and Devout Sense of God's Watchful Providence and Comfortable Instances of his Gratious Answers to her Prayers I shall touch but one or two out of very many August 1660. My Dear Husband coming from London fell into the Hands of four Robbers which prevented his coming Home that Day which much troubled me being Saturday Night and being very Tempestuous with great Rains Lightning and Thunder but after some time spent by my self the rest of my Family being in Bed I powr'd out my Request to God in his behalf my Heart being much quieted I went to my Rest where God gave me the Repose of the Night and in the Morning brought home my Dear Husband to our mutual Comfort and his performing the work of that Day in God's own Service Blessed be God He received no eminent Harm but attempting to escape one of the Thieves with a Club struck him on the side of his Head but his Hat broke the Blow that he had not much hurt I bless God They took his Money Watch and Rings but none of his Cloaths and though the tender Mercies of the Wicked are cruel God so over-ruled their usual harsh demeanour that one of them pulled off one of his own Coats and wrapt it about him for some time and set him under a Tree to shroud him from the Rain and Tempest Blessed be God for his Preservation in this Danger Some Passages in the preceding Paragraph run so parallel with what we read St. John 4.50 that I shall transcribe the Words and then make an unforced and appposite Application of them to the purpose for which I produce them and allude to them Then
but my Dear Wife's Pains and Trouble I told her we had now continued this Custom a great while and that I thought it too burthensome to her a Dinner signified not much to the Rich and for the Poor I would take Care they should be no losers She at present seem'd well pleased with what I said and acquiesced in it But upon second Thoughts she said My Dear I thank thee for thy Tenderness to me to prevent my Trouble but I am rather willing to undergo it were it greater than to discontinue a Practice so long used constantly and thereby occasion any mis-interpretation as if it proceeded from Parsimony or abatement of Kindness therefore I intreat thee let us continue to doe as we have hitherto done Yearly only let us try to have all in two Days we used to have in three and if our House will not contain them all at twice to some of the poorest I will send double as much as they could have eaten here And so it was agreed and performed and so her last Christmass was as kind and Charitable as those of former Years SECT XXII Of the Marriage of our onely Daughter and her Death in Childbirth the same Year yet leaving a Son IT is not to be wondred at that she should write so many Pages of this Come-Tragedy as I called another Providence mentioned before a Trage-Comedy whose Pious Kindness was so mindful in Holy Prayers and Praises not of her self alone but of her Honoured Friends I shall touch but one or two for Instance and I cannot single out any more suitable than of those Right Honourable Ladies whose sweet Condescension not only vouchsafed to give this our Dear Daughter frequently their kindest and familiar Conversation but borrowed and desired hers almost whole Summers divers Years Concerning these young Ladies thus her Pen speaks The Lady Ann the Lady Mary and the Lady Essex Rich had a Pious Education under â—he tender Care of the Right Honourable the Countess of Warwick their Aunt whose great Care of them and Kindness and Love to them supplied and over-shot the measures of what could be expressed to them by the tenderest Mother Of two of their Marriages she writes thus December the 11th 1673. The Vertuous and Right Honourable the Lady Mary Rich was Married to Mr. Henry St. John the Eldest Son of Sir Walter St. John a Pious good Family and an ancient Barronet and great Estate Blessed Lord thou hast abundantly enriched them with the Blessings of the Nether Springs full streams in the good things of this Life let it not be their all but turn these Waters into Wine give them the Blessings of the Vpper Springs the plentifull Effusions of thy Spirit flowing into their Hearts and Souls that they may build up each other in their most Holy Faith as Heirs together of the Grace of Life June 16. 1674. The Honourable Lady Essex Rich was Married to Mr. Daniel Finch Eldest Son to his Father then Lord Keeper of the Great Seal of England Good Lord give them the Blessings of thy Right-hand and continue to them the Blessings of thy Left-hand also But let not their Portion be only in this Life let thine own Prerogative have the Supremacy in their Hearts and accelerate and quicken them to thy Service that Glorifying thee on Earth they may be in Everlasting Glory with thee in Heaven Amen Amen I will mention no more like Instances and humbly beg Pardon if I have been too bold in touching these I now come to the Title of this Section and shall add nothing of my own only transcribe and that with Abbreviation what her Pious Pen hath left me not that one Word need to be retrenched upon other accounts but only to avoid Prolixity January 17. 1675. My Dear Husband and my Dear Child Margaret Walker went to London in reference to our great Concern her Marriage our onely one so dear to us She was Married February the 1st 1675. to Mr. John Cox Barrister of Grays-Inn His Father lived at Coggshall his Relations very honest good People and very well to live in the World God hath graciously provided for her a loving Husband a sober Person and I hope a good Man God consummated their Choice by Mr. Gifford a worthy good Man Minister of St. Dunstan's in the East in London whither she was accompanied by the Right Honourable the Countess of Warwick with the chief of the Family from Warwick-House and with many other manifestations of Kindness God shined upon her and in all respects gave her a comfortable Day I draw the Curtain of a modest c. over the rest lest the Thankfulness of her who was so truly humble should incurr the unkind censure or suspicion of Vanity and concluding what I have omitted with these Words And with many other Favours God hath honoured them She proceeds Lord I desire to own thy Goodness as the Fountain Head from whence flows all Good to be enjoyed in the things of this Life and concerns of a better and more endurable Estate for their Souls advantage For which I beseech thee give them a capacious Heart to know love serve and enjoy thy self and vouchsafe them of the good things of this World what thou seest convenient for them and help them to be contented to be without what in mercy thou deniest them Good Lord keep both them and theirs inoffensive in this World and when they shall go hence and be no more in this Life Lord grant that where thou art they may be also in Eternal Glory Amen Amen Thus far the pleasant and more lightsome part Now follows what 's more dark and dolefull I have now a very smarty afflictive Dispensation from God to record very pressing by his afflictive Hand on us I acknowledge very deservedly for my Sins the Lord hath taken from us out of this Life our onely One the most dearly Beloved Daughter and Child of my choice Aâ—fections Mrs. Margaret Cox she was mâ—â—ried February the first 1675. The 19th 〈◊〉 November following she was Delivered of a Son Lord's Day seven a Clock in the Morning She continued pretty well two or three Days Tuesday following sickned of a Fever and dyed December the 5th 1675. But God in the midst of his just Judgments remembred his Mercy to us hath spared the little one to us Blessed be God for it and received the Motherless Babe into Covenant with himself by Baptism I Bless God he is the Son of good Parents his Father a very sober and a good Man his dear deceased Mother was a fine lovely handsome well accomplished Woman both in Nature and Grace to God's Praise I do make my Acknowledgments let it have no other Censure She was of a quick Apprehension modest humble discreet and of a good Judgment and well fitted for Family-Government and Imployment She had a sweet amicable Deportment and gracefull Behaviour these Endowments through God's Kindness to her rendred her very desirable to all that knew
him not off with any thing less than thy self No Lord I beg thou wilt with-hold the grandeur of this Life from him farther than thou wilt give him an Heart to lay it out to the best advantage of thy Glory on Earth the procuring a better Estate in Heaven those Everlasting Mansions where are durable Riches an Eternal weight of Glory purchased with the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ which good Lord grant unto him Amen Amen Amen June 19. 1688. My dear Grand-Child escaped by God's gracious Providence a very terrible Danger of being Wounded or sudden Death which danger she describes had not God's watchfull Compassion interposed I cannot express the terrible Consequence which might have happened I am not able to recount thy multiplied Mercies in delivering us from present Dangers and many we know not of For this and all good Lord accept as I would render them from a Heart sensible of thy Mercies my most gratefull Acknowledgments and in consideration of this I beseech thee make deep Impressions on the Heart of my poor Child and us his Parents concerned for him that he and we may live thy Praises Amen Amen I will satisfie my self with the Perusal of the rest and not trouble the Reader by transcribing more though all improved to Holy Purposes and the Reflections made with such warm Expressions as I conceive might be very apt to kindle the Flames of Devoutest Thankfulness in those who read them no words being more likely to affect the Hearts of others than those which so evidently proceed from the Hearts of those who Speak or Write them and feel what they utter according to the Advice good Bishop Felton used to give his Chaplains of which the Excellent Bishop Brownwrig was sometime one to steep their Sermons in their Hearts before they Preached them SECT XXIII Acts and Kinds of her great Charity THough the Title-page gives this Section a Right and Claim to one moiety of the whole I write concerning her yet I would have it interpreted with some grains of Allowance for alass how could any thing she gave be called her Charity who was a Wife or how could it be called great when all we both possessed had the whole been given could not in rigour bear that Epithete I will therefore account for both in a few words First therefore though a Wife she had a freedom of my little All where I was Cajus she was truly Caia according to the old Roman Phrase she had free access to whatever I was Master of so abundantly was I satisfied in her Integrity and Prudence and to touch so small a thing as a Testimony of her wise Care and our mutual Confidence to avoid the clog of many Keys she contrived to have five Locks open with one Key and had two made one for each of us that upon no occasion of the others Absence either of us might be shut out from what was kept under them and so for a few other Locks she provided double Keys one of which she kept the other hung up in my Study Now when any object of Charity offered it self she would serve the occasion as she also did for her own Expence out of my Store but would after always tell me to a Penny what she took which I have times without number not only excused her from but almost chid her for but she would not be perswaded to mend that Fault so tender was she Whereupon I told her I would ease us both of that needless and uneasie Trouble by allowing her a fixed certain Sum that she might have no shaddow of a Scruple left in using of it as she pleased I may indeed be ashamed to name it and it had been a niggardly and indecent Proportion had I had more than one competent Living but being as it was she would have no more only said merrily My Friend this shall not debarr me of my former Freedom which on my part it never did though on her part never was made use of The Summ was the rents of a small Farm of Nineteen Pound a Year which was always called hers and I used to call her my Landlady chearfully when I duly paid her Nine Pound ten Shillings on the half-years day and some little Perquisites about the Yard more than were spent in the Family which were also her Propriety and which might together amount to about Twenty two or Twenty three Pound a Year in the whole Out of which she cloathed herself very decently and many Poor very warmly and did much other good as I shall convinsingly evidence in what follows So true is the Saying Nullum numen doest si sit Prudentia Wise Contrivance will supply all other Defects And as an observing Gentlewoman said She never knew any had the Art so perfectly as Mrs. Walker of making a little shew a great deal or going a great way This small Pittance being absolutely her own her scrupulous Tenderness was freed from giving me account what she did with it and I from the irksome trouble of receiving it and what she spared out of it was properly her own Charity Now though to give more than her whole Allowance would be a lean and starvling Charity from those who have more than they know well what to do with yet our gracious Lord the most unexceptionable Judge of these Matters tells us the poor Widdow's two Mites was more than the bulky Summs which the Rich cast into the Treasuries of God out of their Abundance who rather squander their Superfluities than retrench from their Necessities to help the wants of the Indigent though I wish there were not too few even of such Squanderers And the Holy Apostle tells us If there be a willing Mind it is accepted according to what a Man hath and not according to what he hath not 2 Cor. 8.12 And I bear her Record that to her Power yea beyond her Power she was always willing and ready to communicate to the Wants of others for how strait soever her Ability might be she was not straitned in her own Bowels And though what she did from her own allowance was in strictest Sence her Charity only yet this only was not all her Charity for she having a joint Interest in what was mine she was sharer with me in the disposing or retaining of it and I can with Truth and Comfort testifie she never disswaded me from giving often encouraged me to give and would say to me on such occasions My Dear I think none of our Estate laid out so well as what is laid out so nor any part kept so safe as what is deposited in God's Hand and committed to his keeping But this is not all she would be over-ballanced against her own Inclination if there were Charity in the case She was not more averse from any thing than the enlarging our Family loved to have it as small as might be that it might be still and private free from disturbing Noise and distracting Diversions
which unavoidably attend the increased numbers in an House yet was chearfully content when Charity opened the Door made the Fire and the Bed As in the Case of Dr. Tongue whom we entertained so many Months and Monsieur Barnaby Gennays who was sent to me but for four Weeks and left to my sole Charge five Pounds only allowed towards his admitting into St. John's Colledge in Cambridge for six whole Years two in my Family to be Cloathed Fed and Taught till fitted for the University and four there till he had his Degree of Batchellor and yet she never repined or grudged the Cost yea took daily Pains to hear him read English and teach him to pronounce it right I 'll touch no more Instances lest I be suspected to borrow my own Praise under the disguise of paying hers only adding the last which is not liable to that suspition because it rather tends as much to my own Reproach as to her Honour My Curate dying in my Family of a Consumption and other Infirmities September last which had occasioned to us both much Charge and Trouble and who had been attended with as kind Diligence and Care as if he had been our own Child After some little time I told her that I would forbear taking a young Man at least for the present into the Family because the publick Charges were so great and I thanked God I was able to perform my Work my self to whch she presently replied Nay My Dear whatever thou sparest in spare it not in that Thou never keptest them for thy own Ease but for their Benefit to train them up to be fit for God's Service and usefull in the Church and seeing they have all proved so well and been so well preferred and provided for and so approved of in their Ministry continue to do as thou hast done so successfully so many Years there is as much need still as ever of so assisting Young-Men and let not that Practice cease the reason of which is not ceased I yielded took her wise and honest Advice and wrote immediately to a worthy Friend in Cambridge who provided me one whose Character answered my Desires But his Mind altered since my Wife's Death by prospect of Preferment in the Colledge and I wish he may never have cause to repent it by being worse disposed of And if so mean and so obscure a Person as my self may have leave to speak out and declare my Sentiments in this Affair without imputation of Vanity or Offence to my Betters if every Minister of my Ability not to say of double to mine would please to take a poor Schollar into his House as soon as they have commenced Batchellors in Arts and then are forced to leave the Colledge very raw because they can no longer have subsistence as Sizers and would lend or give them Books direct them in the reading them and assist and inspect their Studies to say no more there would not so many young Students be at loss for Maintenance and be forced so Callow and Pin-feather'd I borrow that Expression from my Dear which she was often heard by others as well as by my self to use and like young Partridges to run with the Shell upon their Heads and to get Bread be constrained to undertake the teaching others what themselves have so imperfectly learned But to return to what was properly and purely her own the acts of her Charity were more than the kinds and both as many as she met with Objects that wanted it both in giving and forgiving and both proportioned to the Necessities of those who needed that before her Rent-day came she was often near or quite exhausted and would pleasantly tell me Thou must expect no hoard of Money when I am Dead for I am almost Bankrupt Then I would tell her I would supply or if she would advance some part before-hand which I never remember she accepted more than once three Pounds She used as soon as she had taken her Allowance to separate nine Shillings six pence out of it into her poor Man's Box to be ready for smaller common Charities But though this was her first Quota this was far from being all for I find twenty six Pound three Shillings Four-pence set down in two Years given away besides what she might forget or omit though some small part I confess was rather Courtesie than strictly Charity as given to Friends Servants or the like And she would give liberal Summs I find twice five Pounds ten Shillings given to the French Protestants for whom she had a great Compassion one year after another and I have been informed by an Honourable Lady that she left five Guineys at a time with her for their Relief but it may be these might be the same and I would not make it more than it was in Truth She also gave twenty Shillings a time to the Briefs for both French and Irish Sufferers and other Guineys at a time I find set down in her Paper and know of by other means Also ten Shillings five Shillings and very oft Half-Crowns I find also twenty Shillings in a Year given at Tunbridge-Wells which she distributed to the Poor in smaller Pieces Shillings Six-pences and Farthings besides the Books she gave But besides what she gave in Money she both bought good Cloth to cloath poor Women and Children the day but one before she sickned she enquired of the Taylor what poor Children he had made the last Cloaths for that she might order the rest which then remained in the House to some other And a little before she bought that whole Piece of Cloth from London she caused Wool to be spun and strong Linsy-Woolsy to be made to supply many poor Childrens wants and she was as carefull of their Bellies as their Backs to feed the one as warm the other as wants no Proof nor Instance She used also to buy Primmers Psalters Testaments Bibles to give away and other good Books Crook's Guide especially to give to poor Children and Families She much delighted and abounded in that kind of Charity giving usefull Books and before she was prevented by settling a School to teach all the Poor that not a Boy or Girl in all the Parish but may be taught to read perfectly unless it be their own or Parents fault she used to pay for the Schooling of poor Children And being put together it amounted to a pretty considerable Summ what she yearly gave to poor Women when with-Child not only old Linnen but a good new Blanket every Lying-in which was so customary and constant that it was almost claimable as a due Debt and not only the Parish poor Women but some Borderers have been Partakers of it And I have been told already by one in that condition Now her Mistress is dead she must come to me so unwilling they are to let so known a Custom dye with her with which freedom as I was not offended so I discourage not others from making
Lady Essex Specot pag. 234 to pag. 246 Another Consolatory Letter written to a good Christian Friend under Trouble pag. 246 An account of the Care she took of young Scholars which came to live in my Family pag. 247. As it should be though mis-printed pag. 227. Two Letters in part which she wrote to one of them to stir him up to Faithfulness in his Ministry pag. 250 A good Letter to a Country Farmer who Married her Kinswoman which I hope may be usefull to all my plain Parishioners pag. 258 A very large but excellent Letter writ to her dear Grand-Child about two Months before she died which I hope may be very usefull to young Gentlemen of the like Age. pag. 270 The Conclusion pag. 296 It is not needfull to run over the whole to amend the Mis-printings which are not many nor great Prayers for Praises Amnestry for Amnesty revenerable for venerable Glassock for Glascock pag. 258. and a few like are all I remember and some Mis-pointings THE HOLY LIFE OF Mrs Elizabeth Walker The INTRODUCTION I Am not so short sighted as not to foresee the Censures I may expose my self to by this Undertaking especially if it fall into the Hands of such as are prone to make sinister Interpretations of other Mens Actions and receive with the left hand what is most innocently offered with the right Yet considering it would be very ill becoming that endeared Affection I always bore to her living and owe to her precious memory now God hath bereaved me of her to baulk a Duty and neglect an Office which may be as usefull to others as kind to her upon such fears I shall freely run that hazard to perpetuate her Memory with just Honour and deserved Praise but principally to glorifie God for that abundant Grace vouchsafed to her and to carry on that Work her Heart was so intensly set upon that is the promoting God's Interest in the World and the good of Souls That the Bushel of unkind silence and sudden forgetfulness may not be whelmed over so burning and shining a Light whose Heat and Lustre may warm and enlighten others though set upon so low a Candlestick as my hasty Pen must place it on I willingly wave an obvious Preface of the usefulness and efficacy of good Examples to enlarge on which it may elsewhere appear I am not wholly unfurnished because I design the concisest brevity and for the same reason I shall pass by what concerned her in all other regards but those the Title Page suggests or touch them no farther than seems necessary for decency and order's sake to introduce what I mainly and indeed solely design in this Essay that those who read it may more fully know of whom these things are spoken To effect which I shall begin with an Account of her Parentage and Birth left under her own hand SECT I. Of her Birth and Parentage BEfore the Transcribing of which I shall premise thus much concerning her Papers from which I am chiefly furnished for this work I sometimes coming into her Chamber when she was Writing she would slide her Book or Papers into the Drawer of the Table on which she wrote and this having happened several times she one day on the like occasion bespake me thus My Dear let me beg one promise from thee Which when I had assented to having demanded what it was she replied That I would never look into the Books and Papers in that Drawer so long as she lived So tender was she rather to improve her time well than to have it known even to my self how well she spent it Which promise as she fully acquiesced in was on my part most faithfully made good Since her Death amongst her many most usefull excellent and pious Writings I found a large Book in Octavo of the best Paper she could buy neatly bound gilded and ruled with red provided for the use to which she so well imployed it On the second Page of which I find thus written Elizabeth Walker her Book all writ with my own hand though the Character doth vary I striving to write a little deeper my sight growing weaker I say there is not one Syllable which I have not writ with my own hand In this Book from the beginning at one end in about two third parts of it are written many excellent Instructions and religious Directions for the use of her two Daughters who were then living to teach them how to serve God acceptably and promote the Salvation of their Souls Which I shall have occasion oft to refer to and to transcribe many Passages out of it in the sequel The other End bears this Title Some Memorials of God's Providences to my Husband Self and Children Then she begins thus My Husband was born c. and so gives a very exact Account of my Parentage Family Education and many signal Mercies and Diliverances vouchsafed me before she knew me of which she had informed her self at several times by enquiries of me and Discourses with me I suppose to inform our Children after us That the Generation to come might know them even the Children which should be born who should arise and declare them to their Children That they might set their hope in God and not forget the works of God but keep his Commandments As the Psalmist speaks Psal lxxviij 6 7. And after every one of them testifies the sense of a very pious gratefull Mind in such Expressions as these Blessed be God for his Mercy to him then and in his farther goodness to me therein for which mercifull Providence I bless God Blessed be God that upheld him in it and delivered him from it c. I can scarce obtain of my self to add more on this Head yet begging the Candour of the Christian Reader I will venture to subjoin the last Passage which in this Paragraph concerns my self because it savours no less of pious Gratitude to God than most endearing kindness toward me When he was ready to commence Master of Arts good Bishop Brownrigg commended him to worthy Doctor Gauden to teach Mrs. Mary Lukenor Dr. Gauden's Wife's Daughter who was afterward the Wife of my Lord Townsend and died Childless After Three Years spent in that Imployment and assisting Dr. Gauden in the Ministry at Bocken my Dear came to be Houshold Chaplain to the good and noble Right Honourable Robert Earl of Warwick at Leez where he received many Mercies the chief to be esteemed the Crown God was pleased to give to his Ministry in the Conversion of the then Lady Mary Rich since the Right Honourable Countess of Warwick A most incomparable Woman in all Ornaments of Nature and Grace and his most sincere and entire Friend whom I beseech God in his infinite Goodness to preserve and crown with all his Mercies Excuse the pathos of a gratefull Mind which cannot refrain crying out concerning these two holy Women Never Man had better Friend than the one or better Wife than the