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introduction_n pag._n 3_o sect_n i._o of_o her_o birth_n and_o parentage_n pag._n 5_o a_o account_n of_o her_o book_n out_o of_o which_o most_o be_v transcribe_v concern_v ourselves_o and_o child_n time_n and_o place_n of_o her_o birth_n pag._n 9_o her_o parent_n her_o father_n be_v early_a prudence_n and_o a_o strange_a overrule_a providence_n which_o bring_v he_o to_o be_v a_o citizen_n which_o be_v the_o spring_n and_o occasion_n of_o many_o consequent_a mercy_n to_o she_o and_o other_o pag._n 10_o the_o tenderness_n of_o her_o spirit_n when_o a_o child_n pag._n 13_o a_o great_a fault_n she_o be_v guilty_a of_o when_o young_a which_o be_v turn_v to_o her_o benefit_n in_o future_a caution_n pag._n 14_o her_o father_n be_v great_a care_n of_o she_o and_o confidence_n in_o she_o pag._n 15_o sect_n ii_o how_o she_o be_v first_o awaken_v to_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o religion_n by_o temptation_n pag._n 17_o the_o first_o onset_n by_o a_o blasphemous_a suggestion_n pag._n 18_o how_o she_o overcome_v the_o temptation_n to_o atheism_n pag._n 19_o her_o long_o struggle_v with_o temptation_n and_o the_o first_o glimpse_n of_o comfort_n pag._n 20_o keep_v half_a a_o year_n by_o it_o without_o sleep_n or_o very_o little_a pag._n 22_o mean_n of_o her_o recovery_n and_o some_o gradual_a relief_n of_o which_o she_o have_v a_o excellent_a passage_n pag._n 24_o yet_o she_o suffer_v renew_v onset_n pag._n 25_o sect_n iii_o of_o our_o marriage_n remarkable_a passage_n concern_v it_o pag._n 27_o sect_n iv_o her_o life_n in_o concise_a epitome_n pag._n 30_o sect_n v._o how_o she_o spend_v a_o day_n pag._n 32_o rose_n constant_o at_o four_o of_o the_o clock_n spend_v two_o hour_n with_o god_n in_o secret_a a_o account_n of_o the_o rest_n till_o bedtime_n pag._n 41_o sect_n vii_o for_o the_o number_n six_o be_v omit_v by_o the_o printer_n how_o she_o spend_v a_o week_n ibid._n her_o exact_a circumspection_n in_o sanctify_v the_o lord_n day_n her_o whole_a method_n in_o it_o to_z page_z 44_o monday_n morning_n prayer_n for_o the_o church_n of_o god_n which_o she_o constant_o observe_v with_o great_a zeal_n and_o charity_n both_o for_o all_o the_o foreign_a church_n and_o our_o own_o for_o many_o year_n ever_o after_o she_o have_v be_v inform_v of_o that_o commendable_a custom_n set_v up_o in_o so_o many_o family_n quite_o through_o the_o nation_n ibid._n constant_o spend_v friday_n the_o passion-day_n in_o fast_v and_o prayer_n or_o if_o she_o foresee_v diversion_n unavoidable_a on_o that_o day_n choose_v one_o before_o it_o pag._n 48_o sect_n viii_o how_o she_o spend_v a_o year_n where_o be_v set_v down_o the_o head_n of_o the_o follow_a section_n pag._n 49_o sect_n ix_o her_o character_n as_o a_o wife_n pag._n 51_o in_o time_n of_o health_n to_o page_n 55_o in_o time_n of_o be_v sick_a to_o page_n 61_o sect_n x._o of_o her_o lyings-in_a in_o child-bearing_a ibid._n sect_n xi_o of_o the_o baptise_v our_o child_n her_o very_a commendable_a practice_n on_o that_o occasion_n pag._n 64_o sect_n xii_o her_o care_n of_o the_o education_n of_o her_o child_n pag._n 66_o to_o pag._n 82_o i_o give_v no_o touch_n at_o the_o particular_n of_o this_o long_a section_n because_o i_o arnest_o recommend_v the_o read_n of_o the_o whole_a often_o over_o as_o be_v very_o exemplary_a and_o useful_a sect_n xiii_o of_o monthly_a sacrament_n her_o constant_a communicate_v and_o serious_a preparation_n pag._n 82_o sect_n fourteen_o of_o her_o write_n pag._n 84_o sect_n xv._o discreet_a management_n of_o her_o family_n pag._n 86_o sect_n xvi_o visitation_n by_o sickness_n on_o ourselves_o or_o some_o of_o our_o child_n pag._n 92_o to_o pag._n 115_o this_o be_v so_o large_a and_o have_v so_o many_o exemplary_a passage_n of_o indefatigable_a watch_n fervent_a prayer_n gracious_a answer_n humble_a submission_n to_o god_n that_o i_o leave_v they_o to_o the_o reader_n be_v own_o observation_n sect_n xvii_o renew_a assault_n of_o her_o enemy_n by_o temptation_n pag._n 115_o the_o usual_a season_n of_o which_o be_v indisposition_n of_o mind_n by_o sorrow_n or_o of_o body_n by_o sickness_n pag._n 116_o her_o method_n of_o resist_a 1._o conference_n with_o experience_a christian_n 2._o read_v suitable_a book_n 3._o enter_v her_o solemn_a protest_n against_o they_o under_o her_o hand_n in_o appeal_n to_o god_n which_o you_o find_v page_n 119._o with_o this_o title_n in_o time_n of_o temptation_n write_v by_o i_o elizabeth_n walker_n follow_v with_o a_o most_o devout_a pathetic_a prayer_n sect_n xviii_o friend_n she_o use_v to_o pray_v for_o by_o name_n and_o the_o form_n of_o prayer_n in_o which_o pag._n 123_o i_o name_v those_o in_o the_o body_n of_o the_o prayer_n but_o omit_v to_o name_v they_o in_o the_o margin_n above_o thirty_o head_n of_o family_n not_o be_v set_v down_o in_o order_n according_a to_o their_o quality_n sect_n xix_o some_o try_v calamity_n on_o the_o nation_n on_o friend_n or_o family_n and_o signal_n deliverance_n from_o danger_n pag._n 126_o the_o great_a plague_n and_o the_o number_n that_o die_v ibid._n the_o fire_n the_o number_n of_o church_n and_o house_n burn_v pag._n 127_o other_o affliction_n on_o particular_a friend_n pag._n 12â—_n on_o ourselves_o pag._n 129_o to_o pag._n 13â—_n sect_n xx._n of_o our_o go_v to_o tunbridge-well_n ibid._n my_o reason_n of_o write_v on_o it_o how_o she_o make_v that_o placâ—_n of_o divertisement_n and_o hurry_n a_o place_n of_o retirement_n anâ—_n vacancy_n to_o devotion_n to_o pag._n 14â—_n sect_n xxi_o of_o keep_v our_o wedding-day_n and_o entertainment_n of_o our_o friend_n ibid._n sect_n xxii_o of_o the_o marriage_n of_o our_o only_a daughter_n and_o her_o death_n in_o childbirth_n the_o same_o year_n yet_o leave_v a_o son_n pag._n 148._o it_o be_v no_o wonder_n she_o write_v so_o much_o of_o heâ—_n own_o who_o use_v not_o to_o pass_v by_o what_o concern_v other_o 〈◊〉_d the_o lady_n mary_n rich_a and_o the_o lady_n essex_n rich_a theâ—â—_n marriage_n with_o a_o devout_a prayer_n for_o each_o pag._n 149._o thâ—â—_n be_v a_o large_a section_n most_o transcribe_v from_o her_o own_o paper_n full_a of_o most_o excellent_a devotion_n and_o humble_a submission_n to_o god_n smarty_a blow_n to_o pag._n 161._o and_o then_o 〈◊〉_d most_o pathetic_a tenderness_n to_o the_o dear_a child_n pag._n 16â—_n sect_n xxiii_o act_n and_o kind_n of_o her_o great_a charity_n ibid._n a_o account_n how_o it_o may_v be_v call_v her_o charity_n though_o she_o be_v a_o wife_n and_o great_a charity_n by_o which_o shâ—_n give_v though_o all_o she_o have_v to_o give_v be_v in_o truth_n but_o little_a i_o allow_v she_o what_o my_o small_a estate_n will_v afford_v all_o she_o give_v of_o that_o be_v proper_o her_o own_o charity_n and_o i_o also_o in_o several_a respect_n may_v proper_o be_v call_v she_o to_o pag._n 171._o she_o give_v considerable_o more_o every_a year_n out_o of_o her_o allowance_n than_o she_o spend_v upon_o herself_o she_o will_v buy_v cloth_n from_o london_n by_o the_o whole_a piece_n to_o cloth_n the_o poor_a cause_n strong_a linsey-woolsey_n to_o be_v make_v to_o give_v away_o employ_v the_o poor_a who_o want_v work_n never_o buy_v any_o thing_n too_o cheap_a of_o the_o poor_a people_n etc._n etc._n be_v bountiful_a to_o her_o poor_a relation_n pag._n 175_o yet_o never_o reproach_v herself_o or_o i_o by_o a_o sordid_a garb_n but_o secure_v she_o own_o decency_n with_o great_a prudence_n while_o she_o relieve_v the_o poor_a with_o great_a charity_n pag._n 176_o her_o charity_n in_o pain_n be_v next_o to_o that_o of_o her_o purse_n in_o get_v and_o use_v her_o skill_n in_o physic_n and_o chirurgery_n and_o woman_n labour_v with_o child_n pag._n 180_o her_o forgive_a charity_n pag._n 181_o her_o moderation_n towards_o they_o who_o be_v not_o of_o the_o same_o communion_n pag._n 182_o to_o pag._n 185_o sect_n xxiv_o of_o her_o care_n to_o promote_v god_n glory_n and_o the_o salvation_n of_o soul_n pag._n 185_o sect_n xxv_o several_a grace_n in_o which_o she_o be_v most_o eminent_a pag._n 188._o knowledge_n faith_n charity_n patience_n sympathy_n with_o other_o pity_v to_o the_o poor_a repentance_n reverential_n fear_v of_o god_n love_n obedience_n sincerity_n modesty_n courage_n meekness_n contentedness_n thankfulness_n tenderness_n of_o conscience_n improvement_n of_o time_n zeal_n humility_n from_o pag._n 188_o to_o pag._n 209_o her_o sickness_n and_o death_n pag._n 210_o the_o appendix_n pag._n 232_o direction_n to_o her_o child_n concern_v prayer_n pag._n 214_o to_o pag._n 223_o some_o head_n of_o prayer_n form_v according_a to_o those_o direction_n pag._n 224_o mark_n of_o a_o regenerate_v estate_n pag._n 229_o to_o pag._n 233_o a_o consolatory_a letter_n write_v to_o the_o right_n honourable_a isabel_n countess_n of_o radnor_n upon_o the_o surprise_v death_n of_o her_o dearly-beloved_n daughter_n the_o
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