accustomed divisions He told one Satan had borne him in hand and had deluded him To whom the other answered I hope that God will restore you as before to glorifie him No no. Yea were you weaker I would hope notwithstanding I desire nothing more God be thanked you have laboured carefully for his glory I would labour after another fashion In the night hee prayed and repeated his Beliefe and after resting a while he called those that watched with him Beare witnesse that I said not I believe but in generall as desiring I might believe One comming to visit him asked him how is it with you My minde was grievously possessed with sundry distractions this night but I feele my burthen now more light I thanke God Hee was put in minde of that Oh thou afflicted and tossed with tempests Isai 54.11 ver 7 8 9. and not comforted c. For a small moment have I forsaken thee but with great mercies will I gather thee c. He lifted up his eyes Thereupon he being askd what the Lord did say to his soule that had long refused comfort Take heed Be not too bold looke to the foundation and then he prayed Lord give me the comfort of thy deliverance and forgive me my foolishnesse that I may praise thy name When he complained of his idle speeches on the Sabbath day One came to him willing him to put his hand to a certaine note of debts This is not a day for that We will goe to the Sermon God speed you Now you cannot goe to the Church to serve the Lord I will pray him to come to you Amen He hardly suffered any to stay with him At evening one did reade something of M. Downehams Warfare and asked him Doe you thinke it to be true Yes Therefore you must not trust your sense What not such as mine are but I will not now dispute When they were helping of him up and putting on his clothes upon some occasion one said unto him to this effect A childe will not much grieve at the laying aside of an olde coat when he hath a new one made When you shall put on that there shall be no longer nakednesse the resurrection will amend all To those that die in the Lord. No doubt you will die in the Lord having lived in him I have answered you before But I would not believe you in that case The next day a friend of his being to goe out of the towne asked him whether he would have any thing with him for he was to leave him and knew not whether he should ever see him againe or no. Here quoth he looke to your calling that it be as well inward as outward Hee counselled another To be stirring for the glory of God One standing by he said I am thinking how to get grace Put your trust in God So I do I omit to tell you how with great patience hee continually submitted himselfe to advise in any meanes for his good In putting his temporall estate in order he dealt mercifully with his poore debtors yea with some which were able enough to pay it His worthy Patron for so he often called him whom for honours sake I name Sir Robert Harlo sent his man to him with some potable gold together with a booke which a Doctor had made in praise thereof comming to him asking him how he did Oh said he If it would please God that I might live with him Anon after he said to one I have been thinking of arguments by which I might plead my cause with God and I have found But what if dying thus I should be judged an Apostata Man is not the judge at whose Tribunall you must stand or fall There came in many of our chiefe fellows One of them requested him to make confession of his faith Willingly but I will thinke of it first Musing a while he said here Truly my heart and soule have been far lead and deeply troubled with tentations and stings of conscience but I thanke God they are eased in good measure Wherefore I desire that I may not bee branded with the note of a forlorne reprobate and cast-away such questions and oppositions and all tending thereunto I renounce Now help me once and put me in minde What do you think of your former doctrine Most true in it have I lived and in it will I die I dealt hypocritically in it Are you willing to die Truly I will tell you My Patron who of late sent me potable gold hath taken order that J might live with him in the Ministery but J commit my selfe to the will of God Doe you desire the glory of God and the salvation of your brethren What more Doe you forgive all wrongs Yes and desire that mine might be forgiven me And now I thanke you Sir I remember a thing wantonly done towards you pointing at one present you sent me a knife for a new yeares gift and I â—yed two verses to it and sent it back I pray you pardon me it If in any thing I have offended by my inconsiderate speeches in the time of my tentations I heartily and humbly aske mercy and forgivenesse of God for them all You did then saith one relie upon inherent righteousnesse as if you sought in your selfe whereby you should bee saved Indeed we know your conversation to bee unreproveable No I dare not affirme it I trust in nothing but in the name of Jesus Have you any certainty in him I would not he pressed to a particular assurance in this grievous agony We desire you to informe them that come to you of your estate My unability is great They then prayed giving God thanks that whereas before they had craved his mercy for his servant he had heard them and manifested to his glory how he never forsaketh his and besought him because he knew the malice of his enemy to perfect his good worke and not suffer him to bee tempted above his streÌ„gth Now Sir we tell you one thing for your comfort we never heard you speak ought against God or man throughout the time of your visitation but wholly against your selfe I have been bold thus to argue with God if he hath shewed mercy to such and such why should not I likewise have hope Hee complained once while he was visiting the sick in which worke many poore soules found the ready mercifulnesse of his soule and now feeles a great want he lighted upon doubts that he might more fully satisfie when the like might be moved he studied too earnestly One brought him a Note-booke which he had lent he being alwaies willing to communicate what hee had most private Here is a booke quoth he of great paines To a stranger a worthy Gentleman that came to visite him he said The Lord is mercifull to me and I have cause of rejoycing Afterward a reverend governour came to him to whom he complained of his sin and misery You looke not saith he for any thing in
escape safe to that land of righteousnesse (r) Psal 143.10 And thither also must we arrive through the streights of death and therefore that we may looke that King of terrours (Å¿) Iob 18 14. undauntedly in the face it stands us all in hand to watch Here wee may see the Lords champion this blessed servant of God in the lists resisting (t) Heb. 12.4 unto blood combating and encountering with most dreadfull temptations whose turne may be the next wee know not God may call any of us out unto the duell and turne Satan loose upon us hand to hand we had need therefore before hand learne the use of all our spirituall armour (u) Eph. 6. as Saul taught Iudah the use of the bowe * 2 Sam. 1.18 The strength we must stand and withstand by is not our owne not from nature no nor grace it selfe it is God that must teach (w) Psal 144.1 our fingers to fight he must cover our head in the day of battell (x) Psal 140.7 We are here all militant and must bid battell and abide it or else no victorie Satan reserves his most dangerous ambushments and desperate assaults to the last Here thou maist perceive how where and when he useth most mortally to strike and so stand upon thy guard To keep thy conscience safe shot-free and unwounded is the maine-service Herein I exercise my self (z) Acts 24.16 to have alwaies a conscience void of offence toward God and toward men If that bird of the bosome sing sweetly in our brest it makes no matter what dirdams and stirres be from the world Therefore make much of conscience it must stand us in stead and be our best friend another day Walke in the light thereof It is a blessed thing to keep it tender But alas how doe men muzzle stifle and choke it up how doe they noise and drum in its eares that the cries thereof may not be heard 2 King 23.10 Ier. 19.2 as the Idolatrous Jewes in the burning of their children to their Idols O Brethren saith Francis Spira take a diligent heed to your life Relation of Francis Spira pag. 112. make more account of the gifts of Gods Spirit than I have done learne to beware my misery thinke not you are assured Christians because you understand something of the Gospell take heed you grow not secure on that ground be constant and immoveable in the maintaining of your profession confesse even untill death if you be called thereto he that loveth father mother brothers sisters sons Luk. 14.26 daughters kindred houses lands more than Christ is not worthy of him pag. 104 105. And in another place Take heed to your selves it is no light or easie matter to be a Christian it is not baptisme or reading of the Scriptures or boasting of faith in Christ though even these are good that can prove one to be an absolute Christian There must be a conformity in life a Christian must be strong unconquerable not carrying an obscure profession but resolute expressing the image of Christ and holding out against all opposition to the last breath he must give all diligence by righteousnesse and holinesse to make his calling and election sure Many there are that snatch at the promises in the Gospel as if they undoubtedly did belong to them and yet they remain sluggish and carelesse and being flattered by the things of this present world they passe their course in quietnesse and security as if they were the only happy men whom neverthelesse the Lord in his providence hath ordained to eternal wrath as you may see in S. Lukes rich man Luke 16. thus it was with me therfore take heed Thus he And that I may keep thee no longer from this so fruitfull a Treatise Reade advisedly this following Narration and thou shalt reape much good thereby To which end it is now published and presented to thy view by thy wel-wisher in the Lord I. C. MASTER PEACOCKS Visitation MAster Peacock the servant of God in the beginning of his Visitation for the space of two weekes and foure daies was full of most heavenly consolations shewing by sweet meditations and gracious ejaculations the entertainment he found with his God in his sicknesse with whom he so much desired to be acquainted in his health We are saith one comming to visit him miserable comforters Iob 16.2 Nay saith he you are good for this is ever the priviledge of Gods children that their very presence affords comfort Sometimes hee craved pardon for his actions and for the circumstances of them badly observed Otherwhile he desired to have some matter given him to meditate on Finally hee said his hope was firmly setled on the rocke Christ Jesus he hoped that the Lord would give him a place though it were in the lowest roome of his Saints and he thanked God that hee had no trouble of Conscience The Lord did not suffer Satan to vexe him insomuch that one seeing his great comfort feared lest hee would be overtaken with sorrow before his death He much rejoyced that the Lord had so disposed of him that he had seene his friends in the Countrey Here first was his yeelding unto death suspected and his hoped recovery doubted I thought said he I had been in a good estate but I see it now far otherwise for these things my Conscience laies against me 1. I brought up my Schollers in gluttony This some endeavoured to pull out by putting him in minde of 1. The preventing of many inconveniences 2. His well knowne moderation 3. The great care hee tooke for good conference when they were at Table with him But saith he while I was talking they did undoe themselves and further I did unadvisedly expound places of Scripture at the table many times and for these now I feele a hell in my conscience 4. Againe I have procured my own death by eating and drinking often like a beast when I was joysting up and downe to my friends in the countrey and now I see before my face those dishes of meate wherewith I clogged my stomack Well saith one to him if all these things that you accuse your selfe of were undone would you doe them againe Nay then doubt not but a reprobate would desire to be saved if a desire would serve the turn Indeed he may have a desire but of bare willingnesse not with an intent and purpose in using the meanes Another time a worthy friend of his asking him how he did he cryed out Sin Sin Sin What doth any lie on your conscience Yea. What My inconsideratenesse I did eat too much of such meat at breaking my fast such a morning my selfe being witnesse of his great abstinence could not but admire the tendernesse of his selfe-accusing conscience well said he God be thanked there is no greater as we must not extenuate our sins so neither must we too much aggravate them Let drunkards and gluttons have those most
terrible horrours I thanke God I never continued in any known sin against my conscience He was willing that wee should pray with him Kneeling downe he said He was then uncapable of prayers Afterward hee kneeled downe of his owne accord shortly after he broke out into such speeches I damnable wretch Those are not your words saith one you cannot deny but you have good experience of Gods mercy c. I cannot Then be comforted for Whom he once loveth he loveth for ever Yet Satan took such advantage at his infirmities that though he could finde some comfort yet no particular assurance You have lived profitably saith one I have endeavoured You are now humbled and the Lord lookes you should aske mercy Master Dod was sent for who being come they were private awhile afterward comming unto him againe Master Dod put him in minde of Gods kindnesse whereof hee shewed him foure parts 1. To take small things in good part 2. To passe by infirmities 3. To be easie to be intreated 4. To be entreated for the greatest sin there is now in you Now for the image of the olde man Adam sin and sorrow there shall be in you the image of the new man in holinesse and happinesse and righteousnesse The life to come might be set out by three things 1. By the estate it selfe happinesse holinesse and glory 2. By the company every one shall love you better than any one even the best can love you here 3. By the place There are three differences between the afflictions of the good and bad 1. From the cause for they come to the good from Gods love 2. In the measure as far as they need and are able to beare 3. In the end for their good Of those former doubts we after heard not a word from him upon the Sabbath day he desired to be alone after noone he was fearefully troubled In his countenance appeared evident tokens of a sorrowfull minde borne up with a weake body his spirit was wounded Satan had foiled him Those his terrible wrastlings with temptations griefes of conscience and restlesse terrours none can understand much lesse expresse but he which felt them Satan had winnowed him and shewed him nothing but chaffe his tender conscience was grieved with the fiery darts of the devill pointed with the edge of sin and sense of Gods heavy wrath as through a false glasse the dazeled eye of his astonished and amazed soule could see nothing but hideously-appearing sinne and the terrible image of death and damnation he had drunke deeply of the dregs of hell his adversary had represented unto him his owne most gracious God as a most severe Iudge displeased angry and chiding with him yea yeelding him up into his clawes that so by this deadly stratagem hee might take from him all hope of help that way and so not only stop the sensible flowing of Gods grace and cut the chaines of Gods love wherewith he had tyed him and would draw him after him but finally break his Christian soule O that you had seen and that wee which were present had had eyes to have seen his seeming forlorne soule with what barkings of conscience and with what too heavy burdens of sin waves of fearefull thoughts blustering blasts and surging stormes of Gods heavy displeasure he was tossed turmoiled and dashed against rockes of despaire more then in danger of his soules shipwrack happy were we if neither through frowardnesse nor blindenesse of judgement wee did inconsiderately passe by or prophanely deride Gods judgements by thinking that they either happen casually or by forgetting of them suddenly If we could but rightly discerne it we should finde nothing more profitable than to have the image of this gracious though now afflicted soule in our consciences hereby wee may see that The righteous scarcely being saved 1 Pet. 4.18 there is no place for the wicked and ungodly to appeare And truly we may thinke that our God even sent it for our sakes that we with whom it is too usuall to dally with God might know Heb. 10.31 that it is afearefull thing to fall into his hands Our faith is tryed in earnest when as the Lord hideth his face from us for if we love God above all it cannot be but that at the losse of the rellish of his favour or least taste of his displeasure our soules should be in bitternesse tormented wounded thrust through yea and swallowed up with desolation It is a wonder to see in the world how we will ride and runne and carefully will seeke physick and use dyet by any meanes to avoid bodily paine and how carelesse we are of the unprofitable fits of the soules mortall sicknesse It is not in our owne power to apprehend grace when we will and a harder matter it is than we can conceive to lift a poore soule up that is cast downe with the sense of Gods wrath If a violent passion may so far transport the minde what may we thinke of this restlesse trembling when the soul after long tossings seeth it selfe drowned and overwhelmed with a deluge of sorrow proceeding from the everlasting threats of shame and confusion of face in the presence of the Almighty Consider the body laden with a burden neither portable nor evitable and thence gather the struglings of an overladen soule Consider a man ready to fall from an high Tower to the Earth and thence gather the estate of another falling from heaven with a spirituall ruin into hell Consider a childe when the mother hideth her face from it and terrifies it with a bug-beare and therein take view of the estate of a poore Christian whose chiefest happinesse having consisted in being joyned and united to his heavenly Father having now lost his presence or being affrighted with the devill as if he were ready to lay hands on him Consider the estate of a debtor cast off by his best creditors and gather that of a Christian being bankerupt with his God Consider the estate of a man once in favour afterward adjudged to death by his Prince without hope of pardon and repriving and gather that of a Christian who after his citation and arraignment at the tribunall seate of God stands condemned and is wholly deprived of obtaining pardon and delivered into the hands of the devill The Lord needs not to seeke wilde beasts to punish us or such like executioners of his wrath to torment us he may finde enough within us all the furies and devils cannot invent a grievouser torment then a wounded conscience One by it apprehended needs not more accusers or tormentors his many thoughts of sins as if he stirred a nest of Waspes come buzzing about his eares and as a man indebted once laid hold of makes him faster daily His loving friends may stand by the prison and call him but he being fast fettered can not come forth You shall see him now in his Purgatory not that Papisticall sin-satisfying fiction the Popes Jayle but that
hot fiery furnace wherein the Lord tries his mettal whether it be good or reprobate And by the way Suppose he had dyed at the worst as in the Lords justice he might to the hardning of those that will not be foftned as no man should rather judge him by the inch of his death than the length of his life so I for my part neither did in him nor doe in my selfe so much feare his death as I did and doe desire his life Gods course in visiting his children is diverse You may observe the courses which God takes in visiting his children to be diverse Some are comfortable and without any great admixture of discomfort Others heavy without horror Others horrible yet all in the end gracious But to leave any further digression and to come agaâ—ne to the matter in hand When one came unto him he brake out into these words Oh how sinfull wofull and miserable is mine estate that thus must converse with hell-hounds He being with those words straightway moved went to call some of his best able friends to comfort him to them he complained that the Lord had cursed him Being demanded how he knew it he answered Why the event shewes it It being replyed how such and such were cursed he answered I have no grace how doe you know then that once you had none I was a foolish vain-glorious hypocrite it is against the course of Gods proceedings to save me he hath otherwise decreed he cannot Put your trust in God I can no more then a horse Doe you desire to believe No more then a post then a horse-shoo I know you cannot deny but you have sought Gods glory Not sincerely There is a secret mixture of pride and hypocrisie in the best I have no more sense of grace than those curtaines than a goose than that block Let the testimony of your life past comfort you especially in the calling of a Tutour I did the businesse thereof perfunctorily when I handled hard authors I came often unprepared and read shamefully Be of good courage and the Lord will comfort your soule It is ended there is no such matter Why doe you thinke so You shall see the event God will bring it to passe Tush tush trifles What doe you thinke of your former doctrine Very good Let it comfort you It cannot You desire it could If it might There is nothing unpossible to God Which stands with his decree Oh oh Miserable and wofull the burden of my sin lyeth heavy upon me I doubt it will breake my soule Behold your comforts Nothing to me I pray you hold your peace doe not trouble your selfe idly you vex me your words are as daggers to my soule Another time some of the yonger sort said remember Sir what good counsell you have given us heretofore These were ordinary You may see many others in the like estate Not such as mine See David What doe you speake to me of David Good Sir endeavour to settle your minde Yes to play with hell-bounds Will you pray I cannot You were wont heretofore Yes by a custome and for vain-glory Suffer us to pray for you Take not the name of God in vaine in praying for a reprobate There you may see the glory of God preferred before his owne salvation rather willing to have the meanes of his owne salvation neglected than the Lord dishonoured Suffer us to pray for our selves Looke to it You would now shew your faculty in praying Can you say Amen No but in a certaine generall fashion One prayed and in the meane time he rested most quietly and when prayer was ended I pray you saith he goe hence to bed trouble not your selves in vaine Let not the devill delude you abusing your minde and tongue I know you speak not these words I wonder that intelligent Schollers should speake this We are perswaded you are in as good estate as our selves One that watched with him asked him Sir how can you discerne this change by the absence of God if you never enjoyed his presence I thought I had once but now I see it far otherwise But God deales with you as he did with the Church Isa 54.8 hee forsooke it a while and hid his face but he returned to it againe and so no doubt the case stands with you Never adde moe afflictions to the afflicted Oh me wretch groaning pittifully Hope no worse of your selfe saith one then we doe of you All of us have seene clearely which way your carriage was still set after the Spirit and we are assured you will come to the Spirit howsoever you seeme to have lost your way To all particulars he would answer generally I doe desire grace I did good outwardly but all hypocritically One asked him Doe you love such a one his most deare and worthy to bee deare friend Yes Why Because of his goodnesse Why then you are Gods childe 1 Ioh. 3.14 for by this marke we know we are translated from death c. Many like forcible proofes he would put off with his former evasions and afterward grew more wary against himselfe either loath to grant any thing or granting it staggeringly or what then fearing he should be pressed He wished that some were put in minde 1. For their great care for buildings and too small care for Schollers in them 2. Their giving so long leave of absence from the Colledge and desired amendment After noone came a worthy Governour of a Colledge in our Vniversity He requested him to be of good comfort and to pluck up his spirit I cannot Why can you not Because I have no grace no more then a stake Why thinke you so By this affliction Doe you desire grace I cannot he spake most strangely I can as well leap over a Church But are you not sorry you cannot desire it I cannot Would you not be in heaven I would not One standing by said the devill would if he could By the way you shall have the opinion of a much respected Minister opposite hereto which he gave in private A proud man saith he will thinke scorne to seeke any good from his enemies so the devils pride will not let him thinke himselfe beholding to God for heaven if he might get it You have saith one the testimony of faith you love the brethren I did not Doe you not love us No. The devill now saith he should be cast into his streights if you should grant this What is it that doth most trouble you I undertooke too much upon me foolishly I had gotten a little Logick and Greek and meanly instructed in the Rules did set my selfe to reade to Schollers and afterward undertooke often businesse which distracted my minde and body from them I have destroyed a thousand soules You may see the falshood of him that suggesteth this unto you you never had a thousand he puts a false glasse before you the good effects of your paines appeares in many of your Scholters Oh they
were themselves capable Name one wherein they do not There is one pointing at a Master of Arts then present he justifiâ—d his care of him and thanked God that ever he knew him It is not so I did foolishly You confesse you did foolishly therefore not of malice Againe consider what would have become of them if you had not taken them ' Better far better All in the Colledge know to the contrary But I feele it It is false believe not the devill It is too true Then will you make amends God will give you your soules desire Never Are you sorry that he will not No. There is no grace in the soule it is dead Such was Davids case What doe you compare me with David Behold Christ himselfe Nothing to me God can make his death availeable He cannot He is omnipotent In me he cannot because it stands not with his purpose Whom God loveth once c. But he never loved me You have tasted of his love I deceived my selfe in a certaine vain-glory I exposed my head to many things outwardly only You could say the Lords prayer and therein call him Father Hypocritically I was wont to enquire of Master Mason what was meant by Abba Father rather in curiosity then truly to be edified God will give a good issue Never I have no sense We will pray with you Doe not dishonour God It is well that you will not have God dishonoured Here he sticked saying I pray you trouble me not with distinctions Afterward came one who with vehement action of body pressed him and urged him that he would trust upon God I cannot said he he will not have me saved his sentence is passed Doe you desire to be saved Noe. Doe you desire to desire No. Would you be damned No. Look at the sins of other men as great as yours and yet they are saved They were good and godly They found grace Here is the difference my sins are horrible he repeated that towards his Schollers All of us know you tooke paines Outwardly You did your best No. I see now what it is you strictly looke back to your owne actions as a Justitiary who will none of Gods mercy and now he hath justly met with you Your judgement is just These words affected some strangely Another willed him to looke to it It seemed neare Popery Doe you hope to be justified by your merits I feare to be damned for my sins The other asked him whether he could say Amen No. Have you no tongue What is that to the purpose Name Jesus at his name will flie away c. I cannot If I had your tongue in my hand I would make you speak Turning his speech to a friend present O saith he if you did feele my griefe an houre you would have compassion The other replyed if you were in the fire you would wish to get out I had rather be in the fire than here I will pray for you Sin not Let the fault bee mine Although my purpose was barely to relate the passages of this gracious mans visitation and to refer to your spirituall eye what you could finde therein yet let your gentle construction with-hold froÌ„ me the deserved censure of bold blindnesse in that I now and then point at some things which your quick sight may sooner and better apprehend The devils malitious policy was so great towards him in that he assaulted him most strongly in that which might and ought to have been his greatest comfort Again I saw the Physitians opinion helped somewhat in bodily maladies or diseases whereas in that his estate his soule remained as it were uncapable of comfort from the soules physitian He much respected some few hee dolefully poured out his soule into the bosome of a well-willer of his on this manner I tooke upon mee too proudly many things and being negligent performed nothing Cursed be the day when I tooke Schollers if I had not taken them I had been happy with a good flourish I was stirring many waies and in the meane time left the essence of my calling teaching of my Schollers What saith the other shall I now doe when I see you thus tossed Well I was an hypocrite therefore there is no hope of comfort for me in Gods presence I have no sense of it The Sun is in the Firmament though hid in a cloud This comparison agreeth not to me What then would you counsell me to doe Abide within the bounds of your calling take not too much on you and the Lord will blesse you Will it availe me to heare Sermons Yes if you meane to be saved What good shall I reap thence Nothing from the bare hearing Oh this heavy lumpish feare hath oftentimes shaked me and now it hath broken out Another said You know the poore in spirit are blessed I am not such You see you are empty of all good you feele the burthen I pray goe your waies He turned his head aside and stopped his cares What though you have done but little good if you have given but a cup of cold water He thrusted him away with his foot either as some thoght being troubled with his shrill voice or as he replyed through the devils subtilty That evening hee was grievously afflicted suddenly he breakes out Oh if God! The standers by endeavoured to cherish this good motion and said unto him God will give you grace I doubt it Then presently after he uttered this prayer Oh God give me a spark of grace and inlarge my soule that I may apprehend it He asked a friend how he might give satisfaction for some speeches Master Dod although he departed on Saturday and had then an unfeasonable journey yet being requested by letters returned on Tuesday following He at the first sight started up as desirous to meete him Oh Master Dod and in friendly sort complained I have no grace I will not saith Master Dod believe every one that saith he hath grace nor every one that saith he hath not any Answer the devill as Christ did A man must not alway bee lead by sense let us enquire by the effects and it may suffice A Christian must not alwaies be led by sense If you can but finde one even the least it is enough You forgive your enemies and love them and would do them no hurt if you can Yes Then your enemies are forgiven An hypocrite may give almes and fast this he cannot doe That is a small matter I thinke it to be a great one yea such a one as I had need to pray for That is put for a reason in the Lords prayer and if Christ had thought any more forcible he would have given it Sir that 's true in those that are elected Doe not put an exception where God hath not I would not handle you as I doe but that I know your estate I come hither to cherish you you love your good friends I cannot Had you rather that bad or good should bee with