accustom_a division_n he_o tell_v one_o satan_n have_v bear_v he_o in_o hand_n and_o have_v delude_v he_o to_o who_o the_o other_o answer_v i_o hope_v that_o god_n will_v restore_v you_o as_o before_o to_o glorify_v he_o no_o no._n yea_o be_v you_o weak_a i_o will_v hope_v notwithstanding_o i_o desire_v nothing_o more_o god_n be_v thank_v you_o have_v labour_v careful_o for_o his_o glory_n i_o will_v labour_v after_o another_o fashion_n in_o the_o night_n he_o pray_v and_o repeat_v his_o belief_n and_o after_o rest_v a_o while_n he_o call_v those_o that_o watch_v with_o he_o bear_v witness_n that_o i_o say_v not_o i_o believe_v but_o in_o general_a as_o desire_v i_o may_v believe_v one_o come_v to_o visit_v he_o ask_v he_o how_o be_v it_o with_o you_o my_o mind_n be_v grievous_o possess_v with_o sundry_a distraction_n this_o night_n but_o i_o feel_v my_o burden_n now_o more_o light_a i_o thank_v god_n he_o be_v put_v in_o mind_n of_o that_o oh_o thou_o afflict_a and_o toss_v with_o tempest_n 9_o isai_n 54.11_o ver_fw-la 7_o 8_o 9_o and_o not_o comfort_v etc._n etc._n for_o a_o small_a moment_n have_v i_o forsake_v thou_o but_o with_o great_a mercy_n will_v i_o gather_v thou_o etc._n etc._n he_o lift_v up_o his_o eye_n thereupon_o he_o be_v ask_v what_o the_o lord_n do_v say_v to_o his_o soul_n that_o have_v long_o refuse_v comfort_n take_v heed_n be_v not_o too_o bold_a look_v to_o the_o foundation_n and_o then_o he_o pray_v lord_n give_v i_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o deliverance_n and_o forgive_v i_o my_o foolishness_n that_o i_o may_v praise_v thy_o name_n when_o he_o complain_v of_o his_o idle_a speech_n on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n one_o come_v to_o he_o will_v he_o to_o put_v his_o hand_n to_o a_o certain_a note_n of_o debt_n this_o be_v not_o a_o day_n for_o that_o we_o will_v go_v to_o the_o sermon_n god_n speed_v you_o now_o you_o can_v go_v to_o the_o church_n to_o serve_v the_o lord_n i_o will_v pray_v he_o to_o come_v to_o you_o amen_n he_o hardly_o suffer_v any_o to_o stay_v with_o he_o at_o evening_n one_o do_v read_v something_o of_o m._n downehams_n warfare_n and_o ask_v he_o do_v you_o think_v it_o to_o be_v true_a yes_o therefore_o you_o must_v not_o trust_v your_o sense_n what_o not_o such_o as_o i_o be_v but_o i_o will_v not_o now_o dispute_v when_o they_o be_v help_v of_o he_o up_o and_o put_v on_o his_o clothes_n upon_o some_o occasion_n one_o say_v unto_o he_o to_o this_o effect_n a_o child_n will_v not_o much_o grieve_v at_o the_o lay_v aside_o of_o a_o old_a coat_n when_o he_o have_v a_o new_a one_o make_v when_o you_o shall_v put_v on_o that_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o long_o nakedness_n the_o resurrection_n will_v amend_v all_o to_o those_o that_o die_v in_o the_o lord_n no_o doubt_n you_o will_v die_v in_o the_o lord_n have_v live_v in_o he_o i_o have_v answer_v you_o before_o but_o i_o will_v not_o believe_v you_o in_o that_o case_n the_o next_o day_n a_o friend_n of_o his_o be_v to_o go_v out_o of_o the_o town_n ask_v he_o whether_o he_o will_v have_v any_o thing_n with_o he_o for_o he_o be_v to_o leave_v he_o and_o know_v not_o whether_o he_o shall_v ever_o see_v he_o again_o or_o no._n here_o quoth_v he_o look_v to_o your_o call_n that_o it_o be_v as_o well_o inward_a as_o outward_a he_o counsel_v another_o to_o be_v stir_v for_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n one_o stand_v by_o he_o say_v i_o be_o think_v how_o to_o get_v grace_n put_v your_o trust_n in_o god_n so_o i_o do_v i_o omit_v to_o tell_v you_o how_o with_o great_a patience_n he_o continual_o submit_v himself_o to_o advise_v in_o any_o mean_n for_o his_o good_a in_o put_v his_o temporal_a estate_n in_o order_n he_o deal_v merciful_o with_o his_o poor_a debtor_n yea_o with_o some_o which_o be_v able_a enough_o to_o pay_v it_o his_o worthy_a patron_n for_o so_o he_o often_o call_v he_o who_o for_o honour_n sake_n i_o name_v sir_n robert_n harlo_n send_v his_o man_n to_o he_o with_o some_o potable_a gold_n together_o with_o a_o book_n which_o a_o doctor_n have_v make_v in_o praise_n thereof_o come_v to_o he_o ask_v he_o how_o he_o do_v oh_o say_v he_o if_o it_o will_v please_v god_n that_o i_o may_v live_v with_o he_o anon_o after_o he_o say_v to_o one_o i_o have_v be_v think_v of_o argument_n by_o which_o i_o may_v plead_v my_o cause_n with_o god_n and_o i_o have_v find_v but_o what_o if_o die_a thus_o i_o shall_v be_v judge_v a_o apostata_fw-la man_n be_v not_o the_o judge_n at_o who_o tribunal_n you_o must_v stand_v or_o fall_v there_o come_v in_o many_o of_o our_o chief_a fellow_n one_o of_o they_o request_v he_o to_o make_v confession_n of_o his_o faith_n willing_o but_o i_o will_v think_v of_o it_o first_o muse_v a_o while_n he_o say_v here_o true_o my_o heart_n and_o soul_n have_v be_v far_o lead_v and_o deep_o trouble_v with_o tentation_n and_o sting_n of_o conscience_n but_o i_o thank_v god_n they_o be_v ease_v in_o good_a measure_n wherefore_o i_o desire_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v brand_v with_o the_o note_n of_o a_o forlorn_a reprobate_n and_o castaway_n such_o question_n and_o opposition_n and_o all_o tend_v thereunto_o i_o renounce_v now_o help_v i_o once_o and_o put_v i_o in_o mind_n what_o do_v you_o think_v of_o your_o former_a doctrine_n most_o true_a in_o it_o have_v i_o live_v and_o in_o it_o will_v i_o die_v i_o deal_v hypocritical_o in_o it_o be_v you_o willing_a to_o die_v true_o i_o will_v tell_v you_o my_o patron_n who_o of_o late_o send_v i_o potable_a gold_n have_v take_v order_n that_o i_o may_v live_v with_o he_o in_o the_o ministry_n but_o i_o commit_v myself_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n do_v you_o desire_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o the_o salvation_n of_o your_o brethren_n what_o more_o do_v you_o forgive_v all_o wrong_n yes_o and_o desire_v that_o i_o may_v be_v forgive_v i_o and_o now_o i_o thank_v you_o sir_n i_o remember_v a_o thing_n wanton_o do_v towards_o you_o point_v at_o one_o present_n you_o send_v i_o a_o knife_n for_o a_o new_a year_n gift_n and_o i_o â—yed_v two_o verse_n to_o it_o and_o send_v it_o back_o i_o pray_v you_o pardon_v i_o it_o if_o in_o any_o thing_n i_o have_v offend_v by_o my_o inconsiderate_a speech_n in_o the_o time_n of_o my_o tentation_n i_o hearty_o and_o humble_o ask_v mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n of_o god_n for_o they_o all_o you_o do_v then_o say_v one_o rely_v upon_o inherent_a righteousness_n as_o if_o you_o seek_v in_o yourself_o whereby_o you_o shall_v be_v save_v indeed_o we_o know_v your_o conversation_n to_o be_v unreprovable_a no_o i_o dare_v not_o affirm_v it_o i_o trust_v in_o nothing_o but_o in_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n have_v you_o any_o certainty_n in_o he_o i_o will_v not_o he_o press_v to_o a_o particular_a assurance_n in_o this_o grievous_a agony_n we_o desire_v you_o to_o inform_v they_o that_o come_v to_o you_o of_o your_o estate_n my_o unability_n be_v great_a they_o then_o pray_v give_v god_n thanks_o that_o whereas_o before_o they_o have_v crave_v his_o mercy_n for_o his_o servant_n he_o have_v hear_v they_o and_o manifest_v to_o his_o glory_n how_o he_o never_o forsake_v he_o and_o beseech_v he_o because_o he_o know_v the_o malice_n of_o his_o enemy_n to_o perfect_v his_o good_a work_n and_o not_o suffer_v he_o to_o be_v tempt_v above_o his_o strength_n now_o sir_n we_o tell_v you_o one_o thing_n for_o your_o comfort_n we_o never_o hear_v you_o speak_v aught_o against_o god_n or_o man_n throughout_o the_o time_n of_o your_o visitation_n but_o whole_o against_o yourself_o i_o have_v be_v bold_a thus_o to_o argue_v with_o god_n if_o he_o have_v show_v mercy_n to_o such_o and_o such_o why_o shall_v not_o i_o likewise_o have_v hope_n he_o complain_v once_o while_o he_o be_v visit_v the_o sick_a in_o which_o work_n many_o poor_a soul_n find_v the_o ready_a mercifulnesse_n of_o his_o soul_n and_o now_o feel_v a_o great_a want_n he_o light_v upon_o doubt_n that_o he_o may_v more_o full_o satisfy_v when_o the_o like_a may_v be_v move_v he_o study_v too_o earnest_o one_o bring_v he_o a_o notebook_n which_o he_o have_v lend_v he_o be_v always_o willing_a to_o communicate_v what_o he_o have_v most_o private_a here_o be_v a_o book_n quoth_v he_o of_o great_a pain_n to_o a_o stranger_n a_o worthy_a gentleman_n that_o come_v to_o visit_v he_o he_o say_v the_o lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o and_o i_o have_v cause_n of_o rejoice_v afterward_o a_o reverend_a governor_n come_v to_o he_o to_o who_o he_o complain_v of_o his_o sin_n and_o misery_n you_o look_v not_o say_v he_o for_o any_o thing_n in_o
hot_a fiery_a furnace_n wherein_o the_o lord_n try_v his_o metal_n whether_o it_o be_v good_a or_o reprobate_n and_o by_o the_o way_n suppose_v he_o have_v dye_v at_o the_o worst_a as_o in_o the_o lord_n justice_n he_o may_v to_o the_o harden_v of_o those_o that_o will_v not_o be_v foftn_v as_o no_o man_n shall_v rather_o judge_v he_o by_o the_o inch_n of_o his_o death_n than_o the_o length_n of_o his_o life_n so_o i_o for_o my_o part_n neither_o do_v in_o he_o nor_o do_v in_o myself_o so_o much_o fear_v his_o death_n as_o i_o do_v and_o do_v desire_v his_o life_n diverse_a god_n course_n in_o visit_v his_o child_n be_v diverse_a you_o may_v observe_v the_o course_n which_o god_n take_v in_o visit_v his_o child_n to_o be_v diverse_a some_o be_v comfortable_a and_o without_o any_o great_a admixture_n of_o discomfort_n other_o heavy_a without_o horror_n other_o horrible_a yet_o all_o in_o the_o end_n gracious_a but_o to_o leave_v any_o further_a digression_n and_o to_o come_v agaâ—ne_v to_o the_o matter_n in_o hand_n when_o one_o come_v unto_o he_o he_o break_v out_o into_o these_o word_n oh_o how_o sinful_a woeful_a and_o miserable_a be_v my_o estate_n that_o thus_o must_v converse_v with_o hellhound_n he_o be_v with_o those_o word_n straightway_o move_v go_v to_o call_v some_o of_o his_o best_a able_a friend_n to_o comfort_v he_o to_o they_o he_o complain_v that_o the_o lord_n have_v curse_v he_o be_v demand_v how_o he_o know_v it_o he_o answer_v why_o the_o event_n show_v it_o it_o be_v reply_v how_o such_o and_o such_o be_v curse_v he_o answer_v i_o have_v no_o grace_n how_o do_v you_o know_v then_o that_o once_o you_o have_v none_o i_o be_v a_o foolish_a vainglorious_a hypocrite_n it_o be_v against_o the_o course_n of_o god_n proceed_n to_o save_v i_o he_o have_v otherwise_o decree_v he_o can_v put_v your_o trust_n in_o god_n i_o can_v no_o more_o than_o a_o horse_n do_v you_o desire_v to_o believe_v no_o more_o than_o a_o post_n than_o a_o horse-shoe_n i_o know_v you_o can_v deny_v but_o you_o have_v seek_v god_n glory_n not_o sincere_o there_o be_v a_o secret_a mixture_n of_o pride_n and_o hypocrisy_n in_o the_o best_a i_o have_v no_o more_o sense_n of_o grace_n than_o those_o curtain_n than_o a_o goose_n than_o that_o block_n let_v the_o testimony_n of_o your_o life_n past_a comfort_n you_o especial_o in_o the_o call_n of_o a_o tutor_n i_o do_v the_o business_n thereof_o perfunctory_o when_o i_o handle_v hard_a author_n i_o come_v often_o unprepared_a and_o read_v shameful_o be_v of_o good_a courage_n and_o the_o lord_n will_v comfort_v your_o soul_n it_o be_v end_v there_o be_v no_o such_o matter_n why_o do_v you_o think_v so_o you_o shall_v see_v the_o event_n god_n will_v bring_v it_o to_o pass_v tush_o tush_o trifle_n what_o do_v you_o think_v of_o your_o former_a doctrine_n very_o good_a let_v it_o comfort_v you_o it_o can_v you_o desire_v it_o can_v if_o it_o may_v there_o be_v nothing_o unpossible_a to_o god_n which_o stand_v with_o his_o decree_n oh_o oh_o miserable_a and_o woeful_a the_o burden_n of_o my_o sin_n lie_v heavy_a upon_o i_o i_o doubt_v it_o will_v break_v my_o soul_n behold_v your_o comfort_n nothing_o to_o i_o i_o pray_v you_o hold_v your_o peace_n do_v not_o trouble_v yourself_o idle_o you_o vex_v i_o your_o word_n be_v as_o dagger_n to_o my_o soul_n another_o time_n some_o of_o the_o young_a sort_n say_v remember_v sir_n what_o good_a counsel_n you_o have_v give_v we_o heretofore_o these_o be_v ordinary_a you_o may_v see_v many_o other_o in_o the_o like_a estate_n not_o such_o as_o i_o see_v david_n what_o do_v you_o speak_v to_o i_o of_o david_n good_a sir_n endeavour_v to_o settle_v your_o mind_n yes_o to_o play_v with_o hell-bound_n will_v you_o pray_v i_o can_v you_o be_v wont_v heretofore_o yes_o by_o a_o custom_n and_o for_o vainglory_n suffer_v we_o to_o pray_v for_o you_o take_v not_o the_o name_n of_o god_n in_o vain_a in_o pray_v for_o a_o reprobate_n there_o you_o may_v see_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n prefer_v before_o his_o own_o salvation_n rather_o willing_a to_o have_v the_o mean_n of_o his_o own_o salvation_n neglect_v than_o the_o lord_n dishonour_v suffer_v we_o to_o pray_v for_o ourselves_o look_v to_o it_o you_o will_v now_o show_v your_o faculty_n in_o pray_v can_v you_o say_v amen_o no_o but_o in_o a_o certain_a general_a fashion_n one_o pray_v and_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n he_o rest_v most_o quiet_o and_o when_o prayer_n be_v end_v i_o pray_v you_o say_v he_o go_v hence_o to_o bed_n trouble_v not_o yourselves_o in_o vain_a let_v not_o the_o devil_n delude_v you_o abuse_v your_o mind_n and_o tongue_n i_o know_v you_o speak_v not_o these_o word_n i_o wonder_v that_o intelligent_a scholar_n shall_v speak_v this_o we_o be_v persuade_v you_o be_v in_o as_o good_a estate_n as_o ourselves_o one_o that_o watch_v with_o he_o ask_v he_o sir_n how_o can_v you_o discern_v this_o change_n by_o the_o absence_n of_o god_n if_o you_o never_o enjoy_v his_o presence_n i_o think_v i_o have_v once_o but_o now_o i_o see_v it_o far_o otherwise_o but_o god_n deal_v with_o you_o as_o he_o do_v with_o the_o church_n 54.8_o isa_n 54.8_o he_o forsake_v it_o a_o while_n and_o hide_v his_o face_n but_o he_o return_v to_o it_o again_o and_o so_o no_o doubt_n the_o case_n stand_v with_o you_o never_o add_v more_o affliction_n to_o the_o afflict_a oh_o i_o wretch_n groan_a pitiful_o hope_v no_o worse_o of_o yourself_o say_v one_o then_o we_o do_v of_o you_o all_o of_o we_o have_v see_v clear_o which_o way_n your_o carriage_n be_v still_o set_v after_o the_o spirit_n and_o we_o be_v assure_v you_o will_v come_v to_o the_o spirit_n howsoever_o you_o seem_v to_o have_v lose_v your_o way_n to_o all_o particular_n he_o will_v answer_v general_o i_o do_v desire_n grace_v i_o do_v good_a outward_o but_o all_o hypocritical_o one_o ask_v he_o do_v you_o love_v such_o a_o one_o his_o most_o dear_a and_o worthy_a to_o be_v dear_a friend_n yes_o why_o because_o of_o his_o goodness_n why_o then_o you_o be_v god_n child_n 3.14_o 1_o joh._n 3.14_o for_o by_o this_o mark_n we_o know_v we_o be_v translate_v from_o death_n etc._n etc._n many_o like_o forcible_a proof_n he_o will_v put_v off_o with_o his_o former_a evasion_n and_o afterward_o grow_v more_o wary_a against_o himself_o either_o loath_a to_o grant_v any_o thing_n or_o grant_v it_o stagger_o or_o what_o then_o fear_v he_o shall_v be_v press_v he_o wish_v that_o some_o be_v put_v in_o mind_n 1._o for_o their_o great_a care_n for_o building_n and_o too_o small_a care_n for_o scholar_n in_o they_o 2._o their_o give_v so_o long_o leave_v of_o absence_n from_o the_o college_n and_o desire_a amendment_n after_o noon_n come_v a_o worthy_a governor_n of_o a_o college_n in_o our_o university_n he_o request_v he_o to_o be_v of_o good_a comfort_n and_o to_o pluck_v up_o his_o spirit_n i_o can_v why_o can_v you_o not_o because_o i_o have_v no_o grace_n no_o more_o than_o a_o stake_n why_o think_v you_o so_o by_o this_o affliction_n do_v you_o desire_v grace_n i_o can_v he_o speak_v most_o strange_o i_o can_v as_o well_o leap_v over_o a_o church_n but_o be_v you_o not_o sorry_a you_o can_v desire_v it_o i_o can_v will_v you_o not_o be_v in_o heaven_n i_o will_v not_o one_o stand_v by_o say_v the_o devil_n will_v if_o he_o can_v by_o the_o way_n you_o shall_v have_v the_o opinion_n of_o a_o much_o respect_a minister_n opposite_a hereto_o which_o he_o give_v in_o private_a a_o proud_a man_n say_v he_o will_v think_v scorn_n to_o seek_v any_o good_a from_o his_o enemy_n so_o the_o devil_n pride_n will_v not_o let_v he_o think_v himself_o behold_v to_o god_n for_o heaven_n if_o he_o may_v get_v it_o you_o have_v say_v one_o the_o testimony_n of_o faith_n you_o love_v the_o brethren_n i_o do_v not_o do_v you_o not_o love_v we_o no._n the_o devil_n now_o say_v he_o shall_v be_v cast_v into_o his_o strait_n if_o you_o shall_v grant_v this_o what_o be_v it_o that_o do_v most_o trouble_n you_o i_o undertake_v too_o much_o upon_o i_o foolish_o i_o have_v get_v a_o little_a logic_n and_o greek_a and_o mean_o instruct_v in_o the_o rule_n do_v set_v myself_o to_o read_v to_o scholar_n and_o afterward_o undertake_v often_o business_n which_o distract_v my_o mind_n and_o body_n from_o they_o i_o have_v destroy_v a_o thousand_o soul_n you_o may_v see_v the_o falsehood_n of_o he_o that_o sugge_v this_o unto_o you_o you_o never_o have_v a_o thousand_o he_o put_v a_o false_a glass_n before_o you_o the_o good_a effect_n of_o your_o pain_n appear_v in_o many_o of_o your_o scholter_n oh_o they_o
escape_v safe_a to_o that_o land_n of_o righteousness_n 143.10_o righteousness_n psal_n 143.10_o and_o thither_o also_o must_v we_o arrive_v through_o the_o strait_n of_o death_n and_o therefore_o that_o we_o may_v look_v that_o king_n of_o terror_n 14._o terror_n job_n 18_o 14._o undaunted_o in_o the_o face_n it_o stand_v we_o all_o in_o hand_n to_o watch_v here_o we_o may_v see_v the_o lord_n champion_n this_o bless_a servant_n of_o god_n in_o the_o list_n resist_v 12.4_o resist_v heb._n 12.4_o unto_o blood_n combat_v and_o encounter_v with_o most_o dreadful_a temptation_n who_o turn_n may_v be_v the_o next_o we_o know_v not_o god_n may_v call_v any_o of_o we_o out_o unto_o the_o duel_n and_o turn_v satan_n loose_v upon_o we_o hand_n to_o hand_n we_o have_v need_v therefore_o before_o hand_n learn_v the_o use_n of_o all_o our_o spiritual_a armour_n 6._o armour_n eph._n 6._o as_o saul_n teach_v judah_n the_o use_n of_o the_o bow_n 1.18_o bow_n 2_o sam._n 1.18_o the_o strength_n we_o must_v stand_v and_o withstand_v by_o be_v not_o our_o own_o not_o from_o nature_n no_o nor_o grace_n itself_o it_o be_v god_n that_o must_v teach_v 144.1_o teach_v psal_n 144.1_o our_o finger_n to_o fight_v he_o must_v cover_v our_o head_n in_o the_o day_n of_o battle_n 140.7_o battle_n psal_n 140.7_o we_o be_v here_o all_o militant_a and_o must_v bid_v battle_n and_o abide_v it_o or_o else_o no_o victory_n satan_n reserve_v his_o most_o dangerous_a ambushment_n and_o desperate_a assault_n to_o the_o last_o here_o thou_o may_v perceive_v how_o where_o and_o when_o he_o use_v most_o mortal_o to_o strike_v and_o so_o stand_v upon_o thy_o guard_n to_o keep_v thy_o conscience_n safe_a shot-free_a and_o unwounded_a be_v the_o maine-service_n herein_o i_o exercise_v myself_o 24.16_o myself_o act_n 24.16_o to_o have_v always_o a_o conscience_n void_a of_o offence_n towards_o god_n and_o towards_o man_n if_o that_o bird_n of_o the_o bosom_n sing_v sweet_o in_o our_o breast_n it_o make_v no_o matter_n what_o dirdam_n and_o stir_n be_v from_o the_o world_n therefore_o make_v much_o of_o conscience_n it_o must_v stand_v we_o in_o stead_n and_o be_v our_o best_a friend_n another_o day_n walk_v in_o the_o light_n thereof_o it_o be_v a_o bless_a thing_n to_o keep_v it_o tender_a but_o alas_o how_o do_v man_n muzzle_v stifle_v and_o choke_v it_o up_o how_o do_v they_o noise_n and_o drum_n in_o its_o ear_n that_o the_o cry_v thereof_o may_v not_o be_v hear_v 19.2_o 2_o king_n 23.10_o jer._n 19.2_o as_o the_o idolatrous_a jew_n in_o the_o burn_a of_o their_o child_n to_o their_o idol_n o_o brethren_n say_v francis_n spira_n take_v a_o diligent_a heed_n to_o your_o life_n 112._o relation_n of_o francis_n spira_n pag._n 112._o make_v more_o account_n of_o the_o gift_n of_o god_n spirit_n than_o i_o have_v do_v learn_v to_o beware_v my_o misery_n think_v not_o you_o be_v assure_v christian_n because_o you_o understand_v something_o of_o the_o gospel_n take_v heed_n you_o grow_v not_o secure_v on_o that_o ground_n be_v constant_a and_o immovable_a in_o the_o maintain_n of_o your_o profession_n confess_v even_o until_o death_n if_o you_o be_v call_v thereto_o he_o that_o love_v father_n mother_n brothers_z sister_n son_n 14.26_o luk._n 14.26_o daughter_n kindred_n house_n land_n more_o than_o christ_n be_v not_o worthy_a of_o he_o 105._o pag._n 104_o 105._o and_o in_o another_o place_n take_v heed_n to_o yourselves_o it_o be_v no_o light_n or_o easy_a matter_n to_o be_v a_o christian_a it_o be_v not_o baptism_n or_o read_v of_o the_o scripture_n or_o boast_v of_o faith_n in_o christ_n though_o even_o these_o be_v good_a that_o can_v prove_v one_o to_o be_v a_o absolute_a christian_a there_o must_v be_v a_o conformity_n in_o life_n a_o christian_a must_v be_v strong_a unconquerable_a not_o carry_v a_o obscure_a profession_n but_o resolute_a express_v the_o image_n of_o christ_n and_o hold_v out_o against_o all_o opposition_n to_o the_o last_o breath_n he_o must_v give_v all_o diligence_n by_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n to_o make_v his_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a many_o there_o be_v that_o snatch_n at_o the_o promise_n in_o the_o gospel_n as_o if_o they_o undoubted_o do_v belong_v to_o they_o and_o yet_o they_o remain_v sluggish_a and_o careless_a and_o be_v flatter_v by_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o present_a world_n they_o pass_v their_o course_n in_o quietness_n and_o security_n as_o if_o they_o be_v the_o only_a happy_a man_n who_o nevertheless_o the_o lord_n in_o his_o providence_n have_v ordain_v to_o eternal_a wrath_n as_o you_o may_v see_v in_o s._n luke_n rich_a man_n 16._o luke_n 16._o thus_o it_o be_v with_o i_o therefore_o take_v heed_n thus_o he_o and_o that_o i_o may_v keep_v thou_o no_o long_o from_o this_o so_o fruitful_a a_o treatise_n read_v advise_o this_o follow_a narration_n and_o thou_o shall_v reap_v much_o good_a thereby_o to_o which_o end_n it_o be_v now_o publish_v and_o present_v to_o thy_o view_n by_o thy_o wellwisher_n in_o the_o lord_n i._n c._n master_z peacock_n visitation_n master_n peacock_n the_o servant_n of_o god_n in_o the_o begin_n of_o his_o visitation_n for_o the_o space_n of_o two_o week_n and_o four_o day_n be_v full_a of_o most_o heavenly_a consolation_n show_v by_o sweet_a meditation_n and_o gracious_a ejaculation_n the_o entertainment_n he_o find_v with_o his_o god_n in_o his_o sickness_n with_o who_o he_o so_o much_o desire_v to_o be_v acquaint_v in_o his_o health_n we_o be_v say_v one_o come_v to_o visit_v he_o miserable_a comforter_n 16.2_o job_n 16.2_o nay_o say_v he_o you_o be_v good_a for_o this_o be_v ever_o the_o privilege_n of_o god_n child_n that_o their_o very_a presence_n afford_v comfort_n sometime_o he_o crave_v pardon_n for_o his_o action_n and_o for_o the_o circumstance_n of_o they_o bad_o observe_v otherwhile_o he_o desire_v to_o have_v some_o matter_n give_v he_o to_o meditate_v on_o final_o he_o say_v his_o hope_n be_v firm_o settle_v on_o the_o rock_n christ_n jesus_n he_o hope_v that_o the_o lord_n will_v give_v he_o a_o place_n though_o it_o be_v in_o the_o low_a room_n of_o his_o saint_n and_o he_o thank_v god_n that_o he_o have_v no_o trouble_n of_o conscience_n the_o lord_n do_v not_o suffer_v satan_n to_o vex_v he_o insomuch_o that_o one_o see_v his_o great_a comfort_n fear_v lest_o he_o will_v be_v overtake_v with_o sorrow_n before_o his_o death_n he_o much_o rejoice_v that_o the_o lord_n have_v so_o dispose_v of_o he_o that_o he_o have_v see_v his_o friend_n in_o the_o country_n here_o first_o be_v his_o yield_v unto_o death_n suspect_v and_o his_o hope_a recovery_n doubt_v i_o think_v say_v he_o i_o have_v be_v in_o a_o good_a estate_n but_o i_o see_v it_o now_o far_o otherwise_o for_o these_o thing_n my_o conscience_n lay_v against_o i_o 1._o i_o bring_v up_o my_o scholar_n in_o gluttony_n this_o some_o endeavour_v to_o pull_v out_o by_o put_v he_o in_o mind_n of_o 1._o the_o prevent_n of_o many_o inconvenience_n 2._o his_o well_o know_a moderation_n 3._o the_o great_a care_n he_o take_v for_o good_a conference_n when_o they_o be_v at_o table_n with_o he_o but_o say_v he_o while_o i_o be_v talk_v they_o do_v undo_v themselves_o and_o further_o i_o do_v unadvised_o expound_v place_n of_o scripture_n at_o the_o table_n many_o time_n and_o for_o these_o now_o i_o feel_v a_o hell_n in_o my_o conscience_n 4._o again_o i_o have_v procure_v my_o own_o death_n by_o eat_v and_o drink_v often_o like_o a_o beast_n when_o i_o be_v joy_v up_o and_o down_o to_o my_o friend_n in_o the_o country_n and_o now_o i_o see_v before_o my_o face_n those_o dish_n of_o meat_n wherewith_o i_o clog_v my_o stomach_n well_o say_v one_o to_o he_o if_o all_o these_o thing_n that_o you_o accuse_v yourself_o of_o be_v undo_v will_v you_o do_v they_o again_o nay_o then_o doubt_v not_o but_o a_o reprobate_n will_v desire_v to_o be_v save_v if_o a_o desire_n will_v serve_v the_o turn_n indeed_o he_o may_v have_v a_o desire_n but_o of_o bare_a willingness_n not_o with_o a_o intent_n and_o purpose_n in_o use_v the_o mean_n another_o time_n a_o worthy_a friend_n of_o he_o ask_v he_o how_o he_o do_v he_o cry_v out_o sin_n sin_z sin_n what_o do_v any_o lie_n on_o your_o conscience_n yea._n what_o my_o inconsiderateness_n i_o do_v eat_v too_o much_o of_o such_o meat_n at_o break_v my_o fast_n such_o a_o morning_n my_o self_n be_v witness_n of_o his_o great_a abstinence_n can_v not_o but_o admire_v the_o tenderness_n of_o his_o self-accusing_a conscience_n well_o say_v he_o god_n be_v thank_v there_o be_v no_o great_a as_o we_o must_v not_o extenuate_v our_o sin_n so_o neither_o must_v we_o too_o much_o aggravate_v they_o let_v drunkard_n and_o glutton_n have_v those_o most_o
terrible_a horror_n i_o thank_v god_n i_o never_o continue_v in_o any_o know_a sin_n against_o my_o conscience_n he_o be_v willing_a that_o we_o shall_v pray_v with_o he_o kneel_v down_o he_o say_v he_o be_v then_o uncapable_a of_o prayer_n afterward_o he_o kneel_v down_o of_o his_o own_o accord_n short_o after_o he_o break_v out_o into_o such_o speech_n i_o damnable_a wretch_n those_o be_v not_o your_o word_n say_v one_o you_o can_v deny_v but_o you_o have_v good_a experience_n of_o god_n mercy_n etc._n etc._n i_o can_v then_o be_v comfort_v for_o who_o he_o once_o love_v he_o love_v for_o ever_o yet_o satan_n take_v such_o advantage_n at_o his_o infirmity_n that_o though_o he_o can_v find_v some_o comfort_n yet_o no_o particular_a assurance_n you_o have_v live_v profitable_o say_v one_o i_o have_v endeavour_v you_o be_v now_o humble_v and_o the_o lord_n look_v you_o shall_v ask_v mercy_n master_n dod_n be_v send_v for_o who_o be_v come_v they_o be_v private_a awhile_o afterward_o come_v unto_o he_o again_o master_n dod_n put_v he_o in_o mind_n of_o god_n kindness_n whereof_o he_o show_v he_o four_o part_n 1._o to_o take_v small_a thing_n in_o good_a part_n 2._o to_o pass_v by_o infirmity_n 3._o to_o be_v easy_a to_o be_v entreat_v 4._o to_o be_v entreat_v for_o the_o great_a sin_n there_o be_v now_o in_o you_o now_o for_o the_o image_n of_o the_o old_a man_n adam_n sin_n and_o sorrow_n there_o shall_v be_v in_o you_o the_o image_n of_o the_o new_a man_n in_o holiness_n and_o happiness_n and_o righteousness_n the_o life_n to_o come_v may_v be_v set_v out_o by_o three_o thing_n 1._o by_o the_o estate_n itself_o happiness_n holiness_n and_o glory_n 2._o by_o the_o company_n every_o one_o shall_v love_v you_o better_o than_o any_o one_o even_o the_o best_a can_v love_v you_o here_o 3._o by_o the_o place_n there_o be_v three_o difference_n between_o the_o affliction_n of_o the_o good_a and_o bad_a 1._o from_o the_o cause_n for_o they_o come_v to_o the_o good_a from_o god_n love_n 2._o in_o the_o measure_n as_o far_o as_o they_o need_v and_o be_v able_a to_o bear_v 3._o in_o the_o end_n for_o their_o good_a of_o those_o former_a doubt_n we_o after_o hear_v not_o a_o word_n from_o he_o upon_o the_o sabbath_n day_n he_o desire_v to_o be_v alone_o after_o noon_n he_o be_v fearful_o trouble_v in_o his_o countenance_n appear_v evident_a token_n of_o a_o sorrowful_a mind_n bear_v up_o with_o a_o weak_a body_n his_o spirit_n be_v wound_v satan_n have_v foil_v he_o those_o his_o terrible_a wrastling_n with_o temptation_n grief_n of_o conscience_n and_o restless_a terror_n none_o can_v understand_v much_o less_o express_v but_o he_o which_o feel_v they_o satan_n have_v winnow_v he_o and_o show_v he_o nothing_o but_o chaff_n his_o tender_a conscience_n be_v grieve_v with_o the_o fiery_a dart_n of_o the_o devil_n point_v with_o the_o edge_n of_o sin_n and_o sense_n of_o god_n heavy_a wrath_n as_o through_o a_o false_a glass_n the_o dazzle_a eye_n of_o his_o astonish_a and_o amaze_a soul_n can_v see_v nothing_o but_o hideously-appearing_a sin_n and_o the_o terrible_a image_n of_o death_n and_o damnation_n he_o have_v drink_v deep_o of_o the_o dregs_o of_o hell_n his_o adversary_n have_v represent_v unto_o he_o his_o own_o most_o gracious_a god_n as_o a_o most_o severe_a judge_n displease_v angry_a and_o chide_v with_o he_o yea_o yield_a he_o up_o into_o his_o claw_n that_o so_o by_o this_o deadly_a stratagem_n he_o may_v take_v from_o he_o all_o hope_n of_o help_n that_o way_n and_o so_o not_o only_o stop_v the_o sensible_a flow_v of_o god_n grace_n and_o cut_v the_o chain_n of_o god_n love_n wherewith_o he_o have_v tie_v he_o and_o will_v draw_v he_o after_o he_o but_o final_o break_v his_o christian_a soul_n o_o that_o you_o have_v see_v and_o that_o we_o which_o be_v present_a have_v have_v eye_n to_o have_v see_v his_o seem_a forlorn_a soul_n with_o what_o barking_n of_o conscience_n and_o with_o what_o too_o heavy_a burden_n of_o sin_n wave_n of_o fearful_a thought_n bluster_a blast_n and_o surge_a storm_n of_o god_n heavy_a displeasure_n he_o be_v toss_v turmoil_v and_o dash_v against_o rock_n of_o despair_n more_o than_o in_o danger_n of_o his_o soul_n shipwreck_n happy_a be_v we_o if_o neither_o through_o frowardness_n nor_o blindness_n of_o judgement_n we_o do_v inconsiderate_o pass_v by_o or_o profane_o deride_v god_n judgement_n by_o think_v that_o they_o either_o happen_v casual_o or_o by_o forget_v of_o they_o sudden_o if_o we_o can_v but_o right_o discern_v it_o we_o shall_v find_v nothing_o more_o profitable_a than_o to_o have_v the_o image_n of_o this_o gracious_a though_o now_o afflict_v soul_n in_o our_o conscience_n hereby_o we_o may_v see_v that_o the_o righteous_a scarce_o be_v save_v 4.18_o 1_o pet._n 4.18_o there_o be_v no_o place_n for_o the_o wicked_a and_o ungodly_a to_o appear_v and_o true_o we_o may_v think_v that_o our_o god_n even_o send_v it_o for_o our_o sake_n that_o we_o with_o who_o it_o be_v too_o usual_a to_o dally_v with_o god_n may_v know_v 10.31_o heb._n 10.31_o that_o it_o be_v afearefull_a thing_n to_o fall_v into_o his_o hand_n our_o faith_n be_v try_v in_o earnest_n when_o as_o the_o lord_n hide_v his_o face_n from_o we_o for_o if_o we_o love_v god_n above_o all_o it_o can_v be_v but_o that_o at_o the_o loss_n of_o the_o relish_n of_o his_o favour_n or_o least_o taste_n of_o his_o displeasure_n our_o soul_n shall_v be_v in_o bitterness_n torment_v wound_a thrust_v through_o yea_o and_o swallow_v up_o with_o desolation_n it_o be_v a_o wonder_n to_o see_v in_o the_o world_n how_o we_o will_v ride_v and_o run_v and_o careful_o will_v seek_v physic_n and_o use_v diet_n by_o any_o mean_n to_o avoid_v bodily_a pain_n and_o how_o careless_a we_o be_v of_o the_o unprofitable_a fit_n of_o the_o soul_n mortal_a sickness_n it_o be_v not_o in_o our_o own_o power_n to_o apprehend_v grace_n when_o we_o will_v and_o a_o hard_a matter_n it_o be_v than_o we_o can_v conceive_v to_o lift_v a_o poor_a soul_n up_o that_o be_v cast_v down_o with_o the_o sense_n of_o god_n wrath_n if_o a_o violent_a passion_n may_v so_o far_o transport_v the_o mind_n what_o may_v we_o think_v of_o this_o restless_a tremble_a when_o the_o soul_n after_o long_a toss_n see_v itself_o drown_v and_o overwhelm_v with_o a_o deluge_n of_o sorrow_n proceed_v from_o the_o everlasting_a threat_n of_o shame_n and_o confusion_n of_o face_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o almighty_a consider_v the_o body_n lade_v with_o a_o burden_n neither_o portable_a nor_o evitable_a and_o thence_o gather_v the_o struggle_n of_o a_o overload_v soul_n consider_v a_o man_n ready_a to_o fall_v from_o a_o high_a tower_n to_o the_o earth_n and_o thence_o gather_v the_o estate_n of_o another_o fall_n from_o heaven_n with_o a_o spiritual_a ruin_n into_o hell_n consider_v a_o child_n when_o the_o mother_n hide_v her_o face_n from_o it_o and_o terrify_v it_o with_o a_o bugbear_n and_o therein_o take_v view_n of_o the_o estate_n of_o a_o poor_a christian_n who_o chief_a happiness_n have_v consist_v in_o be_v join_v and_o unite_v to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n have_v now_o lose_v his_o presence_n or_o be_v affright_v with_o the_o devil_n as_o if_o he_o be_v ready_a to_o lay_v hand_n on_o he_o consider_v the_o estate_n of_o a_o debtor_n cast_v off_o by_o his_o best_a creditor_n and_o gather_v that_o of_o a_o christian_a be_v bankrupt_a with_o his_o god_n consider_v the_o estate_n of_o a_o man_n once_o in_o favour_n afterward_o adjudge_v to_o death_n by_o his_o prince_n without_o hope_n of_o pardon_n and_o reprive_v and_o gather_v that_o of_o a_o christian_a who_o after_o his_o citation_n and_o arraignment_n at_o the_o tribunal_n seat_n of_o god_n stand_v condemn_v and_o be_v whole_o deprive_v of_o obtain_v pardon_n and_o deliver_v into_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o devil_n the_o lord_n need_v not_o to_o seek_v wild_a beast_n to_o punish_v we_o or_o such_o like_a executioner_n of_o his_o wrath_n to_o torment_v we_o he_o may_v find_v enough_o within_o we_o all_o the_o fury_n and_o devil_n can_v invent_v a_o grievous_a torment_n than_o a_o wound_a conscience_n one_o by_o it_o apprehend_v need_v not_o more_o accuser_n or_o tormentor_n his_o many_o thought_n of_o sin_n as_o if_o he_o stir_v a_o nest_n of_o wasp_n come_v buzz_v about_o his_o ear_n and_o as_o a_o man_n indebt_v once_o lay_v hold_n of_o make_v he_o fast_o daily_o his_o love_a friend_n may_v stand_v by_o the_o prison_n and_o call_v he_o but_o he_o be_v fast_o fetter_v can_v not_o come_v forth_o you_o shall_v see_v he_o now_o in_o his_o purgatory_n not_o that_o papistical_a sin-satisfying_a fiction_n the_o pope_n jail_n but_o that_o