have seene thy face saith hee Genes 33.10 as though I had seene the face of God By this I know saith David Psal. 41.11 that thou favourest me because mine enemy doth not triumph over me Thirdly These common favours and fruits of Gods love may worke in all men even in them that have no faith a kind of love unto God a common and an ordinary and a superficiall love But then I say fourthly A sound and true love to God can never bee wrought in any mans heart that hath not faith by these outward and temporall blessings of God nor by any knowledge hee can have by them of Gods love to him The unsoundnesse of that love that is wrought in men towards God by these common favours of his will appeare in three points First It is but a mercenary love they love the gifts of God rather then the Lord himselfe and when God giveth over giving to them they give over loving of him This is like the love that harlots beare to their lovers When the Prodigall had to give and spend upon those harlots upon whom it is sayd hee wiâ—tâ—d his goods Luke 15.30 no doubt but they shewed a great deale of kindnesse unto him but when hee could give them no more their love was at an end Satan knew well that this is the love of most men unto God though hee falsely and maliciously charged Iob with it Iob 1.10 11. While God mâ—â—â—th in hedge about them and about all that they have while hee blesseth the worke of their hands and their substance is increased they will love the Lord but let thâ— Lord put forth his hand and touch all that they have they will be ready to curse him to his face Whereas hee that soundly and truly loveth the Lord loveth him for himselfe and those perfections and excellencies that are in him and not for his gifts nor for his owne advantage onely Hee loveth him as a good child doth his parents 1 Tim. 5 4 though they bee poore and have nothing to give him And as Paul declaring the truth of his love to the Corinthians professeth 2 Cor. 12.14 hee sought not theirs but them so doth hee that truly loveth the Lord desire to enjoy him and his favour more then hee doth desire any of Gods blessings any thing that the Lord can doe for him His soule saith unto God as David did Psal. 119.57 Thou art my portion ô Lord. If I have thee I have enough I desire no more There are many will say saith David Psalm 4.6 7. who will shew us any good Gods goods and benefits every man desireth every man is enamored with But Lord saith hee lift up the light of thy countenance upon us As if hee had said Wee have enough if wee have thee and thy favour And so speaketh hee also Psalm 73.25 There is nothing upon earth that I desire besides thee And from hence also it commeth that as hee that truly and intirely loveth any man will love him at all times even then when his friend doth not nor can requite his love yea therein principally the truth of his love appeareth as Solomon saith Prov. 17.17 A friend loveth at all times and a brother is borne for adversity And as our Saviour teacheth us that no man hath any true charity in him towards his neighbour that loveth him onely while hee dealeth kindly with him but caâ— love no man that hath dealt unkindly with him or done him wrong If you doe good to them that doe good to you saith he Luk. 6.33 what thankes hâ—â—e you for sinners also will doe so much So hee that truly loveth the Lord will love him at all times even when hee with-holdeth his hand and with-draweth his bounty when he carrieth himselfe towards him even as if he were his enemy Though he slay me saith Iob 13 15. yet will â—trust in him which he could never have done if he had not loved him Secondly The love that is bred in men towards God by his temporall blessings without faith is no sound or true love because there bee many other things that all such men love as much or more then God He that loveth father or mother more then mee saith our Saviour Matth. 10.37 hee that to please them dare offend mee hee that loveth sunne or daughter more then mee hee that to scrapâ— and provide for them dare sinne against mee or through fondnesse like Ely can beare with any profanenesse or lewdnesse in them is not worthy of me his love is of no worth at all in my account If a man bee a lover of pleasures more then a lover of God as the Apostle telleth us 2 Tim. 3.4 many in these last dayes shall be if a man love any lust of his better then God and rather then hee will forsake it he will adventure the loste of Gods favour certainely hee hath no true love of God in him Hee that truly loveth God giveth him the highest seate in his heart loveth him more then any thing else in the world and can say with Paul Phil. â— 8 For Christ I have suffered that is in will and affection the losse of all things and doe count them but dung that I may win Christ. And this Christ required in Peters love Iohn 21.15 he saith not onely Simon thou sonne of Ionas lovest thou me that had not beene enough to prove his love true and sincere but lovest thou mee more then these then thy nets then thy fish then thy friends that are here about thee And though Peter in the depth of his humilitie saith nothing in his answer to that terme of comparison yet is it evident by Christs question that he knew his love was so unfeined towards him that there was nothing in the world that he loved more or so much as him Thirdly and lastly The love that is bred in men towards God by that generall bounty and goodnesse that all men tast of is no true love because it hath no force and strength to restraine them from sinne and draw them unto obedience The Apostle speaking of a commandement that hath some difficultie in it that is the parting with our goods for the reliefe of our brother whom wee see in necessitie saith of him that sticketh at this 1 Ioh 3.17 How dwelleth the love of God in him And thereupon inferreth in the next words verse 18. My little children let us not love he meaneth let us not love God in word nor in tongue but in deed and in truth As if hee had said no man doth love God in deed and in truth if his love to God will not make him willing to doe any thing that hee would have him to doe and that may please him True love we know is a most forcible thing to make one serviceable and willing to doe any thing for such as they love What paines will the mother take what offices will shee performe to her little infant yea how wilâ—ingly and cheerefully
7.25 and the flouds came and the winds blew and beat upon that house and it fell not because it was founded upon a rocke As if hee should say Nothing can overthrow or hurt him that is built upon the rocke In all these things saith the Apostle Romans 8.37 And what were those things See verse 35. In tribulation distresse persecution in famine nakednesse perill sword And what greater evills then these can befall a man In all these things saith hee wee are more then conquerours through him that loved us that is through Christ. Yea the faithfull have never found so much true comfort in all their lives as they have done in their greatest and most extreame afflictions This hath beene evident in the experience of the blessed Martyrs and this God hath made an expresse promise for Vnto the righteous saith the Psalmist 112 4. ariseth light in darkenesse As if hee had sayd In times of darkenesse and affliction then hath their light beene wont to rise most Thy light shall rise in obscurity saith the Lord Esay 58.10 and thy darkenesse shall bee as the noone-day And if there were nothing else to make us in love with Christ to long after him to strive to make him sure to us this were enough to doe it even the sweetenesse that wee shall find in him in the time of affliction A friend loveth at all times saith Salomon Proverbs 17.17 and a brother is borne for adversity As if hee had said There is the tryall of a true friend and of a kind brother indeed when they will stieke close to a man in his adversity Surely there is not such a friend such a brother in the world for this as Christ is wee shall feele the sweetnesse of his love to us most in our greatest affliction Secondly Admit a man had never so good assurance to be exempted from all trouble and affliction to spend all his dayes in peace and prosperity as much as his heart can wish yet can hee have no true comfort in any blessing that hee doth enjoy till hee bee in Christ. Two evident reasons there bee for this 1. They will do him no good at all but much hurt 2. God giveth them not to him in love For the first Though thy health and wealth bee in themselves good things even the good blessings of God Every creature of God is good saith the Apostle 1 Timothy 4.4 yet to thee that hast not Christ they are not good things they can doe thee no good it had beene much better for thee to have beene without them To the unbeleeving nothing is pure saith the Apostle Titus 1.15 That which the Lord saith of some wicked men Malachi 2.2 I will curse your blessings may bee understood as spoken to all that are without Christ though these things bee blessings in themselves yet to thee they will prove curses There is a sore evill which I have seene under the sunne saith Salomon Ecclesiast 5.13 namely riches kept to the owners thereof to their hurt The prosperity of fooles shall destroy them saith hee Proverbs 1.32 Yea the more thou hast of them if thou have not Christ withall the more hurt they will doe thee The meate that is in their boweâ—â—s saith Zophar of wicked men Iob 20.14 shall bee as the gaâ—â— of aspes which verse 16. hee calleth the poison of aspes within him And you know the more poison any man taketh the more it will torment him And how is impossible that the riches of such as are out of Christ should doe them any good how can they choose but doe them much hurt Daily experience proveth that men seldome have good of that that they come unjustly by that they have no just title to that is not their owne If a rich man that hath his grounds never so well stockt with cattell bring but one bullocke that he hath stollen and put among them will it doe him any good Will it not consume all the rest and undoe him Gods curse shall dwell in the tabernacle of the oppressour said Bildad Iob 18.15 because it is none of his hee hath no just title to it hee came not justly by it On the other side That is onely a mans owne that hee commeth rightly by and that that is thus his owne hee may enjoy with comfort Let them worke with quietnesse saith the Apostle 2 Thess. 3.12 and eat their own bread Now none of all the comforts of this life that we possesse are our owne neither have we just title to them a just civill title unto them I know a wicked man may have so as no man may justly take them from them but a spirituall a sanctified a comfortable title to them can we never have till we be Christs I pray consider the reason of this and you will find it to be a most evident truth The Lord when hee made man gave all his creatures unto him and made him Lord over them all Thou madest him saith David Psalme 8.6 to have dominion over the worke of thy hands thou didst put all things under his feet But wee by our fall in Adam forfeited all this title and right wee had to any thing that God hath made and made the good creatures of God accursed unto us Cursed bee the earth for thy sake saith the Lord to man after his fall Genesis 3.17 Now this title which wee had forfeited in the first Adam is restored to us in the second and this curse which wee had brought upon the creatures by our sinne is taken away by Christ and by him onely For God hath made him heire of all things and given them all to him as the Apostle teacheth us Hebrewes 1.2 and through him onely wee come to have this blessed title unto them And how then can a man have any comfort in any thing that hee possesseth How can they be good to him that is not in Christ Secondly God giveth none of these things in love to the man that is not in Christ. True it is all these outward blessings bee in themselves fruits of Gods love and mercy unto men It is an argument of his love to the stranger saith Moses Deut. 10.18 that he giueth him food and raiment And a man may safely conclude God is good to mee and loveth me or els hee would never preserve me and provide for mee as hee doth Yet this love of God that appeareth in any of these outward things is such as a man can take no sound comfort in till he be in Christ. For alas that is but a common love extended to the bruit beasts as well as to thee O Lord thou preservest man and beast saith David Psalme 36.6 There is many a bruit beast that liveth longer and in better health more fully provided for of all things fit for the preservation of this life and that with lesse care and trouble then any man is Yea this love God extendeth unto his very enemies and such as he hath ordained
to open his griefe and make his moane and powre out his heart unto Nature taught Haman that wretched man when hee was full of heavinesse for the honour that was done to Mordecai to ease his heart that way Est. 6.13 Hee told Zeresh his wife and all his friends euery thing that had befallen him In which respect great Princes have esteemed it a cheife part of their happinesse to have some speciall bosome friend whom they might make use of this way Such a one was Hushai to David 2 Sam. 15.37 and Zabud to Solomon 1 King 4.5 Now there is no such friend in the world for this purpose as the Lord is Trust in him at all times saith David Psal. 62.8 ye people powre out your hearts open your greifes before him God is a refuge for us Thus Anna the mother of Samuel told Ely that shee had done 1. Sam. 1.15 I am a woman of a sorrowfull spirit and have powred out my soule before the Lord. Thus did Samuel her son seeke to ease his heart when it was full of heavinesse 1. Sam. 8.21 Hee rehearsed all their words in the eares of the Lord hee made his moane to God Thus did Iob My friends scorne mee saith he Iob 16 â—0 counted him an hypocrite Oh heauie affliction for a man in his case to bee so iudged of and censured by such men as they were but mine eye saith he powreth out teares unto God as if hee should say That is all the helpe I have Thus did Hezechiah when he was in that paine and anguish of spirit as the poore mother in trauell whose child is even come to the birth and shee wanteth strength to bring it forth as hee complaineth to the Prophet Psa. 37.3 He taketh Rabshakehs blasphemous letter and goeth up to the house of the Lord and spreadeth it before the Lord ver 14. As if he had said Behold Lord what hee hath written O that wee would acquaint our selues so with the Lord that wee might make him our bosome friend and make this use of him in all our sorrowes Secondly The Lord is able and none but hee to yeeld us helpe in this case and restore us to our comfort He maketh sore saith Eliphaz Iob 5.18 and bindeth up he woundeth and his hands make whole This is the Lords peculiar prerogative to comfort a soule that is any distres He is the father of mercies and God of all comfort as the Apostle speaketh 2. Cor 1.3 I even I am he saith the Lord Esa. 51.12 that comforteth you And therefore David when hee had lost his feeling and comfort cryeth oft earnestly to God to restore it to him Psal. 51.8 Make me to heare joy and gladnesse As if he had said though never so much bee delivered to me for my comfort by the skilfullest of all thy servants I shall bee utterly uncapable of it and remaine still deafe of that eare till thou make me able to heare it And vers 12. Restore to me the joy of thy salvation And 86.4 Rejoyce the soule of thy servant for unto thee doe I lift up my soule And thus should every one of us cry unto God for helpe and comfort when we are in the like case Thirdly The Lord as he is able and none but he to revive such a soule so is he most ready to doe it he is very pitifull and of tender mercy as the Apostle speaketh Iames 5.11 specially to his servants who are wounded in spirit yea he hath bound himselfe by promise to helpe such Psal. 34.18 The Lord is nigh to them that are of a broken heart and saueth such as bee of a contrite spirit and 147.3 He healeth the broken in heart and bindeth vp their wounds and Esa. 57.19 I create the fruit of the lips peace peace to him that is farre off and to him that is neere saith the Lord and I will heale him So that wee may boldly go to God and seeke to him for comfort and even challenge him vpon these promises that he hath made unto us and say unto him as Psal. 85.6 Wilt thou not reviâ—e vs againe but let us remaine so dead hearted that thy people may reioyce in thee Fourthly The Lord doth therefore many times withdraw himselfe from his people and deprive them of the sence of his favour of purpose to make them more importunate in seeking to him by prayer I will goe and returne to my place saith the Lord Hos. 5.15 till they acknowledge their offence and seeke my face in their affliction they will seeke mee early And this was the cause why our Saviour was so harsh with the woman of Canaan and caryed himselfe so strangely toward her a great while even to try her faith and encrease her fervencie and importunitie in seeking to him by prayer Mat. 15.22.28 Fifthly and lastly Gods servants that have beene in this case have recovered their comfort this way even by fervent prayer when nothing else was able to doe it and have set their Probatum est upon it When David was in that case that hee said in his hast he was cast out of Gods sight Psalme 31.22 Neuerthelesse saith hee Thou heardest the voice of my supplications when I cryed unto thee as if hee had said By prayer I found comfort and thereupon hee inferreth verse 23. O love the Lord all yee his Saints as if hee should say Who would not love so gracious a God that is so ready to bee found of them that seeke him though it be in so weake a manner as I did So Psal. 77. when he was in that case that he said verse 3. he remembred God and was troubled he complained and his spirit was overwhelmed within him yet even then he found comfort by prayer ver 1. I cryed vnto God with my voice even unto God with my voice and he gave eare vnto me The sixth and last direction that I am to give to them that being afflicted in minde desire to recover their comfort is this Admit thou canst not finde comfort by any of the former meanes yet consider well and bend thy minde to meditate of that mercie and goodnesse of God whereof David speaketh heere and thou hast heard the handling of this Doctrine and thou shalt finde that thou hast no cause to doubt but that hee loveth thee First Consider the goodnesse of the Lord to all his creatures even to the worst men that live and even that may be a great helpe to thy faith in this case Alas thou wilt say that is a poore helpe if God be no otherwise good to me if he love me no otherwise then he loveth them what comfort can that yeeld me O say not so for the holy Ghost in the Word hath oft commended this to us for a helpe to our faith and bids us observe how good the Lord is to all his creatures and even to wicked men for the confirming of our owne hearts in the assurance of his love to vs. So saith
Like as a father pitieth his children so the Lord pitieth them that feare him For he knoweth our frame he remembreth that we are dust He will so correct his children as he will not lose the weakest of them either through the continuance or the extreamity of any affliction he layeth upon them Psal. 125.3 The rod of the wicked shall not rest on the lot of the righteous lest the righteous put forth their hand unto iniquity I will sist the house of Israel saith the Lord Amos 9.9 even as corne is sifted in a sive yet shall not the least graine fall upon the earth Fiftly and lastly The Lord when he hath brought his people into the bryers of affliction leaveth them not there nor forsaketh them but he will be sure to be with them in all their troubles and never sheweth himselfe to be more graciously present with them then when they are in that case I will be with him in trouble saith the Lord Psal 91.15 And how will he be with them 1. To take notice of their wrongs and miseries his eye is then specially upon them to that end Acts 7.34 Psal. 56.8 Psal. 31.7 2. To assist and strengthen them that they may not be overcome of them Psal. 37.24 Esa. 41.10 13 14. 43.2 So as though they may be moved and shaken with their afflictions they shall not greatly be moved Psal. 62.2 2 Cor. 4.9 And though God doe discover their weaknesse to them and they feele themselves ready to faint yet even then he will strengthen them Esa. 40.29 He giveth power to the saint and to them that have no might he increaseth strength Insomuch as they have beene able to say they never felt his strength more in susteining them then when they have felt themselves most weake 2 Cor. 12.10 3. To comfort them in all their distresses and heavinesse Acts 23.11 Mica 7.8 2 Cor. 7.6 Lecture LII On Psal. 51.4 March 20. 1626. IT followeth now that we proceed unto the meanes that God in his Word hath directed us to use for the obtaining of this grace to beare the crosse patiently to beare all kinde of affliction patiently and comfortably whensoever God shall be pleased to exercise us by it And those I find to be eight principally First He that would beare trouble and affliction patiently and comfortably when it commeth must oft thinke upon it and expect it and prepare for it before it come Thus did Iob 14.14 All the daies of my warfare for so I render it with Arias Montanus will I wait till my change come He thought of and looked for a change continually Neither did he thus onely in the time of his misery looke for a change and alteration of his estate into the better but when he was in greatest prosperity he lived in continuall expectation of trouble and of a change of his estate as he professeth Iob 3.25 The thing which I greatly feared in come upon me and that which I was afraid of is come unto me Gods people should in the time of their best health thinke oft of death in the time of their greatest peace and prosperity thinke oft of trouble O that they were wise saith the Lord of his people Deut. 32.29 that they would understand this that they would consider their latter end This is an high point of wisdome To this purpose tendeth that counsell of Solomon Eccle. 11.8 If a man live many yeares and rejoyce in them all yet let him remember the daies of darknesse the time that he must spend in the grave and in the state of the dead for they shall be many A longer time by farre then he hath spent in this life in which respect we call our grave our long home and therefore it is fit wee should oft thinke of our future estate True it is these thoughts of death and of trouble will breed feare and heavinesse in the hearts of men as you heard they did in Iob 3.25 But the feare and heavinesse that these thoughts breed is very wholsome and profitable for us In which respect Solomon saith Eccl. 7.2 3 4. It is better to go into the house of mourning then to go to the house of feasting for that is the end of all men and the living will lay it to his heart Sorrow is better then laughter this sorrow he meaneth that groweth from the thought of our death for by the sadnesse of the countenance the heart is made better And thereupon he inferreth The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning even when his body cannot be with them that mourne for the sicknesse or the death of their friends for the miseries they are subject to through persecution banishment imprisonment warre yet his heart is with them he thinketh oft of them but the heart of fooles is in the house of mirth Three notable benefits we may receive by thinking oft of our death and of the times of trouble and affliction that we have cause to looke for 1. It would season all our pleasures and earthly contentments so as we should not surfet nor take hurt by them so much as usually we do Our Saviour being at a great feast in Bethany a great feast I say for there was such costly ointment bestowed at it for the anointing of his feet as a pound of it cost above three hundred Romane pence which amounteth to above nine pound seven shillings and sixe pence of our money insomuch as not Iudas onely but the rest of the Disciples were much troubled for to see such wast and superfluity Mat 26.8 Mar. 14.4 5. at this great and sumptuous feast I say our Saviour fell into a meditation and speech of his death and buriall Iob. 12.7 8. to teach us that thoughts of our death thoughts of the troubles and miseries that Christ in his members doth endure thoughts of our owne dangers and of the troubles our selves have cause to looke for are very seasonable even at our greatest feasts In which respect the Prophet noteth this for a great sin in his time Amos 6.6 that at their feasts they drunke wine in bowles and anointed themselves with the chiefe ointments but had no thoughts of the miseries of Gods Church they were not grieved for the affliction of Ioseph This benefit it appeareth Ioseph of Arimathea made of the meditation and remembrance of his death The Sepulcher that our blessed Saviour was buried in was his as you know he had newly made it for himselfe as you may read Matth. 27.60 But where made Ioseph this honourable man his tombe Even in his garden the place of his delight and pleasure and refreshing as you shall find Iohn 19.41 And so had other great men done before him 2 King 21.18 And why in their gardens Surely that when they were taking their pleasure delighting and refreshing themselves they might be put in mind of their death and so kept from exceeding in that kind The second benefit we may receive by thinking oft
himselfe 2 Cor. 1.12 that the testimony his conscience gave him of this that he had served God in his ministery in simplicity and godly sincerity that is with an upright heart was the greatest joy he had in the world Secondly This will yeeld a man comfort in the time of any affliction and susteine him from fainting under it if his conscience can then witnesse unto him that though his life hath beene full of defects and frailties yet his heart hath beene upright with God Iob found this to bee so in his extreame affliction and therefore professeth Iob 27.5 6. that hee would not loose the comfort of his integrity for all the world hee would hold it fast and would not let it goe though his friends pulled hard to get it from him Thus did Ieremy likewise comfort himselfe in the time of a great tentation Ieremy 12.3 Thou ô Lord saith hee knowest mee thou hast seene mee and tryed mine heart towards thee And so did Hezekiah when hee had received the sentence of death Esa. 38.3 Remember now ô Lord I beseech thee how I have walked before thee in truth and with a perfect that is an upright heart You see now how effectuall the Motives are that God in his Word hath given to stirre us up unto this duty even to examine our selves and to enquire diligently into our hearts whether there be truth of grace in them whether they be upright with God or no. O that the Lord would be pleased to give them life and power in our hearts Lecture LXXVI On Psalme 51.6 Novemb. 27. 1627. NOw we proceed to those markes and notes whereby this truth of heart may be knowne and discerned All of them I will not goe about to give you That would be an endlesse labour For looke how many saving and sanctifying graces there be in any of Gods elect so many signes there be of an upright heart He that hath any one saving grace in him he hath certainely an upright heart he cannot be an hypocrite Yea though that one grace that is in him be for measure and degree very weake and small though it be no more for quantity then so much fire as will serve to make fire to smoke it is our Saviours comfortable comparison Matth. 12. â—0 and a very little sparke you know will make flax to smoke and to burne and flame also As when a man with sicknesse is growne so weake that he can neither move nor speake nor see and they that are about him thinke he is quite gone yet if when we speake to him we can perceive that he lifteth up his hand nay though he cannot doe so much if we can perceive he breatheth still we conclude that certainely hee is not yet dead there is life in him So is it in this case If a man have true faith though it be very weake he cannot be an hypocrite For our Saviour saith Iohn 3.36 He that beleeveth on the sonne hath everlasting life If a man have truly repented of any one sinne hee cannot be an hypocrite For of Zacheus Christ pronounceth upon his repentance for the unjust gaine he had gotten Luk. 19.9 that salvation was come into his house he was become the son of Abraham If a man doe truly feare God he cannot be an hypocrite For the Holy Ghost saith Pro. 14.26 In the feare of the Lord is strong confidence As if he had said A man may confidently build upon that that he is in the state of grace If a man do truly love such as do feare the Lord he cannot be an hypocrite For so saith the Apostle 1 Iohn 3.14 We know we are translated from death to life because we love the brethren and verse 19. Hereby we know that we are of the truth sound and upright and shall assure our hearts before him So that from any one grace that a man findeth to be indeed in him he may confidently conclude that his heart is upright and true to God And though it be true that no man hath truly repented of one sinne but hee hath habitually repented of all neither hath he any one grace in truth that hath not in him the seeds and habits of every grace as we shall heare hereafter in the prosecution of this point touching the signes of uprightnesse yet maketh the knowledge of this greatly to the comfort of Gods people who may have received some one grace in farre greater measure then any other and can sometimes sensibly discerne in themselves some one grace when in their owne feeling they are utterly destitute of all the rest All the difficulty will be to prove that we have any one saving grace in us in truth and not the shew and shadow of it onely But to give you the notes whereby the truth of every grace may be discerned would be an infinite piece of worke I will therefore instance onely in three whereby a man may most sensibly discerne whether his heart be upright or no. 1. The jealousie and feare that a man findeth in himselfe lest his heart should not be upright 2. The conscience a man maketh of and the obedience he yeeldeth unto the commandements and will of God 3. The bent of his will of the purpose and desire of his heart towards God First It is a good signe a man is not an hypocrite when hee is apt to suspect himselfe and fearefull of being deceived in this point So long as this jealousie that he hath of himselfe maketh him more diligent in examining himselfe and more willing to be tryed by others he is farre enough from being an hypocrite though he suspect himselfe to be one The best and uprightest soules are of all other most subject to this jealousie as experience doth daily prove and hath proved in all ages This is certainely one part of that poverty of spirit that our Saviour commendeth when he saith Matth. 5.3 Blessed are the poore in spirit A man may be in a blessed state and therefore also sound and upright hearted though he be poore in spirit and suspect himselfe to be unâ—ound nay he is therefore in a blessed state because he is poore in spirit because he is thus jealous of himselfe For this argueth and proceedeth from an hearty dislike and feare of being an hypocrite and from a strong desire to be upright in heart He thinketh himselfe never sure enough of this See this in two notable examples The first is of David Doubtlesse he was not free from this jealousie and suspition of himselfe when he prayed Psalme 119 80. Let my heart be sound in thy statutes that I be not ashamed Nor when he prayed as he did Psal. 1â—9 23 24. Search me ô God and know my heart trie me and know my thoughts and see if there be any wicked way in me if there be any falshood in my heart and leade me in the way everlasting Make me upright and guide me in an upright course This is that that made him