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time_n but_o when_o â—â—_o at_o time_n come_v that_o i_o pitch_v upon_o than_o i_o be_v â—â—_o far_o off_o as_o ever_o and_o then_o woeful_a fear_n begin_v â—â—arise_v in_o my_o heart_n that_o all_o the_o profession_n that_o â—â—ad_v make_v have_v not_o be_v of_o god_n but_o from_o some_o â—â—f-design_n for_o if_o it_o have_v be_v a_o work_n of_o god_n â—â—_o will_v not_o have_v decay_v and_o therefore_o i_o â—â—red_v that_o god_n have_v give_v i_o up_o to_o the_o plague_n â—â—_o a_o hard_a heart_n and_o will_v never_o own_v i_o more_o â—â—t_v it_o please_v the_o lord_n to_o bring_v i_o to_o the_o hear_n â—â—_o another_o sermon_n that_o mr._n nicholson_n preach_v â—â—m_fw-la gen._n 17.1_o i_o be_o the_o almighty_a god_n walk_v â—ore_v i_o and_o be_v thou_o perfect_a from_o which_o â—â—s_o observe_v in_o that_o god_n be_v a_o all-sufficient_a use_v it_o be_v a_o abundant_a encouragement_n unto_o his_o people_n in_o time_n of_o their_o distress_a estate_n and_o condition_n in_o the_o 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