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my_o misguide_a conscience_n and_o further_o assure_v i_o of_o the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o interest_n in_o his_o love_n and_o favour_n by_o the_o renew_a use_n of_o his_o sacred_a ordinance_n xii_o to_o which_o he_o call_v and_o invite_v i_o both_o by_o the_o outward_a overture_n of_o fit_a occasion_n and_o inward_a incitation_n of_o good_a and_o earnest_a desire_n to_o partake_v of_o they_o as_o the_o pledge_n and_o conduit_n of_o my_o great_a comfort_n and_o happiness_n which_o happiness_n i_o esteem_v and_o seek_v after_o not_o only_o in_o a_o freedom_n from_o the_o punishment_n and_o misery_n of_o my_o sin_n but_o from_o the_o power_n of_o and_o the_o pleasure_n that_o seem_v to_o be_v in_o sin_n nor_o do_v i_o count_v it_o a_o less_o degree_n of_o grace_n and_o mercy_n which_o enable_v i_o to_o serve_v and_o love_v he_o than_o that_o which_o save_v i_o from_o hell_n torment_n nor_o do_v i_o come_v to_o the_o sacrament_n only_o to_o quit_v the_o score_n of_o my_o sin_n but_o to_o get_v strength_n and_o grace_n against_o they_o to_o deny_v mortify_v and_o overcome_v they_o which_o above_o all_o thing_n that_o the_o world_n account_n will_v i_o most_o abhor_v and_o desire_v to_o avoid_v and_o be_o most_o grieve_v if_o i_o do_v not_o i_o make_v new_a and_o reinforce_v vow_n and_o resolution_n between_o god_n and_o my_o soul_n against_o my_o sinful_a self_n which_o although_o i_o have_v often_o fail_v to_o keep_v as_o i_o intend_v yet_o i_o be_o not_o quite_o overcome_v while_o i_o true_o desire_v pray_v and_o endeavour_v to_o get_v the_o victory_n and_o be_o never_o more_o displease_v than_o when_o i_o fail_v of_o it_o xiii_o thus_o have_v try_v and_o renew_v my_o repentance_n by_o my_o sigh_n sorrow_n and_o humiliation_n for_o sin_n my_o serious_a purpose_n and_o earnest_a prayer_n against_o sin_n my_o faith_n by_o my_o love_n of_o god_n dependence_n upon_o he_o submission_n to_o he_o desire_v to_o please_v he_o arise_v out_o of_o a_o apprehension_n and_o persuasion_n of_o his_o love_n to_o my_o soul_n my_o love_n to_o god_n and_o my_o saviour_n by_o my_o hatred_n of_o sin_n fear_v to_o and_o grief_n for_o offend_v by_o my_o love_n of_o his_o servant_n delight_n in_o his_o word_n zeal_n for_o his_o truth_n and_o glory_n a_o earnest_a desire_n and_o steadfast_a hope_n to_o enjoy_v he_o and_o by_o my_o particular_a appetite_n and_o desire_n to_o this_o holy_a sacrament_n as_o a_o special_a mean_n of_o communion_n with_o my_o god_n and_o saviour_n and_o partake_v of_o his_o grace_n my_o charity_n and_o love_n to_o other_o by_o my_o care_n and_o endeavour_v by_o all_o mean_n to_o further_a their_o soul_n good_a by_o my_o affectionate_a prey_n for_o they_o though_o they_o have_v deserve_v ill_o of_o i_o by_o my_o tenderness_n of_o give_v offence_n my_o slowness_n to_o take_v offence_n by_o my_o grief_n when_o any_o arise_v by_o my_o proneness_n and_o joy_n in_o reconcile_n and_o though_o i_o find_v all_o these_o grace_n in_o i_o but_o in_o weak_a and_o small_a degree_n with_o mixture_n of_o much_o infirmity_n and_o many_o imperfection_n nay_o a_o contrary_a power_n daily_o oppose_v and_o with_o much_o impatience_n strive_v to_o break_v the_o cord_n of_o pious_a and_o solemn_a resolution_n i_o be_o as_o well_o become_v i_o humble_v and_o empty_v of_o all_o opinion_n of_o myself_o fourteen_o yet_o be_o i_o not_o discourage_v from_o come_v since_o what_o do_v most_o deter_v i_o in_o itself_o from_o come_v to_o christ_n my_o sin_n and_o unworthiness_n be_v by_o the_o operation_n of_o faith_n make_v as_o the_o great_a incitement_n to_o provoke_v i_o to_o come_v be_v one_o who_o great_a want_n and_o unworthiness_n will_v afford_v a_o fit_a subject_n whereon_o to_o magnify_v the_o riches_n of_o that_o free_a grace_n and_o infinite_a mercy_n which_o become_v the_o majesty_n of_o god_n and_o may_v answer_v the_o merit_n of_o our_o saviour_n from_o who_o as_o a_o principle_n of_o a_o new_a life_n i_o expect_v all_o the_o grace_n comfort_n strength_n and_o happiness_n which_o i_o want_v and_o to_o who_o i_o give_v the_o glory_n of_o all_o that_o i_o enjoy_v who_o as_o the_o head_n derive_v to_o every_o part_n of_o his_o body_n the_o church_n life_n motion_n health_n and_o whatever_o be_v in_o his_o own_o fullness_n and_o perfection_n who_o love_n and_o compassion_n to_o my_o soul_n to_o all_o eternity_n will_v be_v too_o little_a to_o comprehend_v and_o magnify_v xv._n which_o that_o i_o may_v more_o full_o discover_v i_o have_v a_o more_o lively_a assurance_n of_o be_v more_o thankful_o affect_v and_o live_v more_o worthy_a of_o it_o i_o repeat_v again_o this_o sacred_a memorial_n and_o seal_v of_o his_o love_n and_o mercy_n have_v first_o seek_v by_o frequent_a earnest_a and_o humble_a prayer_n and_o in_o some_o measure_n obtain_v the_o assistance_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n which_o by_o its_o preparatory_a grace_n stir_v up_o earnest_a and_o hunger_a desire_n to_o receive_v renew_v its_o habitual_a grace_n plant_v in_o my_o heart_n knowledge_n faith_n repentance_n love_v of_o god_n charity_n to_o other_o and_o thankfulness_n by_o actuate_a a_o new_a before_o i_o receive_v assistance_n in_o receve_v by_o sacred_a devout_a and_o pertinent_a meditation_n seal_n and_o testify_v to_o my_o conscience_n my_o acceptance_n and_o efficacy_n of_o receive_v by_o increase_n of_o holiness_n in_o my_o heart_n and_o care_n of_o better_a obedience_n in_o my_o life_n after_o the_o sure_a evidence_n and_o true_a i_o can_v have_v or_o expect_v of_o my_o worthy_a receive_n xvi_o have_v thus_o faithful_o discharge_v my_o duty_n and_o conscience_n in_o the_o way_n of_o preparation_n to_o the_o sacrament_n though_o still_o conscious_a to_o and_o humble_v in_o the_o consideration_n of_o my_o own_o unworthiness_n in_o any_o proportion_n to_o the_o great_a good_a i_o aim_v at_o yet_o i_o will_v not_o deprive_v myself_o of_o so_o neâ—r_a and_o inestimable_a a_o comfort_n by_o refrain_v nor_o dare_v l_o so_o far_o distrust_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o dignation_n of_o my_o saviour_n who_o propound_v not_o my_o personal_a worthiness_n in_o a_o strict_a sense_n as_o the_o object_n of_o my_o comfort_n and_o hope_n in_o come_n but_o his_o gracious_a acceptance_n and_o merciful_a indulgence_n such_o indeed_o as_o become_v the_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o honour_n of_o the_o christian_n god_n and_o saviour_n xvii_o the_o same_o holy_a frame_n and_o devout_a temper_n of_o spirit_n i_o labour_v to_o continue_v in_o my_o receive_n carry_v my_o faith_n by_o the_o visible_a representation_n before_o i_o and_o give_v to_o i_o to_o behold_v its_o invisible_a but_o most_o credible_a object_n jesus_n christ_n crucify_v and_o die_v for_o my_o sin_n who_o love_n and_o merit_n i_o consider_v with_o as_o great_a a_o obligation_n of_o love_n thankfulness_n and_o obedience_n upon_o i_o as_o if_o he_o have_v lay_v down_o his_o life_n for_o i_o alone_o these_o meditation_n raise_v i_o to_o thankfulness_n to_o admiration_n to_o exaltation_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n my_o saviour_n above_o all_o xviii_o final_o so_o i_o endeavour_v to_o receive_v this_o bless_a sacrament_n as_o if_o each_o opportunity_n be_v my_o last_o as_o if_o i_o be_v to_o appear_v before_o god_n in_o judgement_n that_o in_o the_o power_n of_o that_o grace_n i_o there_o receive_v i_o may_v live_v the_o remainder_n of_o my_o short_a life_n virtuous_o and_o holy_o in_o the_o hope_n of_o its_o reward_n and_o perfection_n in_o heaven_n i_o may_v die_v willing_o and_o cheerful_o in_o the_o merit_n and_o righteousness_n of_o it_o i_o may_v attain_v to_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o just_a appear_v justify_v before_o god_n at_o the_o last_o and_o great_a day_n and_o obtain_v the_o consummation_n of_o all_o in_o that_o glorious_a estate_n of_o immortality_n with_o god_n and_o christ_n in_o heaven_n xix_o the_o duty_n of_o examine_v myself_o be_v by_o precept_n clear_o enjoin_v i_o by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n let_v a_o man_n therefore_o examine_v himself_o and_o so_o let_v he_o eat_v of_o that_o bread_n and_o drink_v of_o that_o cup_n 1._o cor._n 11._o chap_n 28._o verse_n which_o alone_o be_v enough_o to_o exact_v my_o performance_n but_o since_o all_o the_o command_n of_o god_n who_o be_v the_o most_o perfect_a reason_n to_o rational_a creature_n be_v most_o reasonable_a though_o oft_o time_n ignorance_n or_o blindness_n do_v not_o or_o will_v not_o discover_v it_o to_o the_o equity_n of_o this_o injunction_n my_o own_o reason_n must_v needs_o subscribe_v for_o know_v that_o every_o thing_n be_v receive_v according_a to_o the_o capacity_n and_o disposition_n of_o the_o recipient_a and_o that_o a_o worldly_a sensual_a and_o mere_a humane_a mind_n be_v unapt_a to_o receive_v thing_n intellectual_a spiritual_a and_o divine_a and_o perceive_v object_n the_o