deuised to allure his Maiesty who was alâ⦠ready contrary to the Cardinaâ⦠mynd and knowledge fallen iâ⦠loue with the Lady Anne Bullen to affect the French Kings Sister Which thing because of thâ⦠wars and hatred that was theâ⦠ââ¦etweene the French King and ââ¦e Emperour whome the Carââ¦inall now mortally hated he eryâ⦠earnestly indeauoured to ââ¦rocure And for the better furââ¦ering this his purpose he reââ¦uested one Langland Bishop of ââ¦incolne and Ghostly Father to ãâã Henââ¦y to put a scruple into ââ¦he K. head that it was not lawâ⦠for him to mary his Brothers ââ¦ife which thing the King not ââ¦ry to heare of related first to ãâã Thomas More required his ââ¦ounsell therein and with all ââ¦ewed himsome places of Scriture which seemed somewhat ãâã serue his purpose Syr Thomaââ¦ââ¦ore perusing the said places ââ¦ereupon as one that had neââ¦r professed Diuinity excused ââ¦mselfe vnto his Maiesty and said he was farre vnfit to meddle with such affaires The King not satisfied with this answere pressed and vrged him the more which he perceauing said vnto his Maiesty that for asmuch as such a busines required good aduise and deliberation he besought his Highnes to giue him sufficient respit to coÌsider aduisedly of the same Wherwith the King well contented replyed That Tonstall Clark Bishops of Durham Bath with others learned of his priuy CouÌsell should also be dealers therin So Syr Thomas More departed and conferred those places of Scripture with the Expositions of diuers of the ancient Fathers and Doctours of the Church and at his comming to Court talking with the King of the aforesaid matter he said To be playne with your Grace neither my Lord of Durham nor my Lord of Bath though I hold ââ¦hem to be both learned verââ¦uous holy Prelates nor my ââ¦elfe with any other of your Counsell being all your Maieââ¦ties owne seruants so greatââ¦y bound vnto you for your maââ¦ifold benefits dayly bestowed vpon vs be in my iudgment fit Counsellors for your Grace heââ¦ein But if your Maiesty desyre ââ¦o vnderstand the Truth such Counsellors may be found as ââ¦either for respect of worldâ⦠commodity nor for feare of ââ¦our Princely authority will ââ¦ny way be drawne to deceiuââ¦ââ¦ou And then he named vnto the King S. Hierome S. Augustine and diuers others auncient Fathers Doctors of the Church both Greeke an Latin and further shewed his Maiesty what authority he had gathered forth of them of which although the King as not fitting to his purpose did not very well like yet were they by Syr Thomas Moreâ⦠so wisely alleaged and so tempred with discretion that the King at that tyme tooke it in good part and had oftentimes conference with him againe about the same matter After this there were certayne questions propounded to thâ⦠Kings Counsell whether in this case the King needed to haue any scruple at all and if he had what was the best way to freâ⦠him of it The greater part of the Counsell were of opinion that there was good cause of scruple and that for his Maiesties discharge therin it was fit suite should be made vnto the Sea of Rome where the King thought that by his liberality he might with ease obtayne his purpose TheÌ was there procured from Rome a commission for the try all of this Mariage wherein Cardinall Campegius and Cardinall Wolsey were ioyned commissioners who for the determination therof sate at the Blacke-Fryers in London where a Libell was put in for the anulling of the said Mââ¦triomony affirming the Mariage betweene the King and Qââ¦eene to be vnlawfull Then againe for proofe therof to be lawfull there was produced ãâã dispensation in which after diuers disputations thereupoÌ holden there appeared an imperfection which notwithstanding by an other instrument or Breuâ⦠found out vpon search in thâ⦠Treasury of Spayne sent oueâ⦠to the commissioners in EnglaÌdâ⦠was supplyed so should iudgmeÌt haue ben giuen by the Popâ⦠accordingly had not the King vpon intelligence therof beforâ⦠the same Iudgment appealed to a Generall CouÌcell After whose Appellation the Cardinalls satâ⦠no more vpon that businesse It happened before the saâ⦠matter of Mariage brought in Question that M. Roper being one day in discourse with Syâ⦠Tho. More did with a kind of ââ¦oy congratulate with his said Father for the happy Estate of the Realme that had so Cathoââ¦ique a Prince as no Heretique durst shew his face so vertuous and learned a Clergy so graue and sound a Nobility and so loââ¦ing and obedient Subiects all ââ¦n one fayth agreeing togeather Troth it is so indeed Sonne Roââ¦er quoth he and then commended all degrees and estates of the same far beyond M. Roper And yet Sonne Roper quoth he I pray God that some of vs as high as we seeme to sit vpon the Mountaynes treading Heretiââ¦ques vnder our feete like Ants ââ¦ue not to see the day when we gladly would wish to be in league and composition with those whome you call Heretiques to let them haue their Churchâ⦠quietly to themselues vpon coÌâ⦠dition that they would be content to let vs haue ours quieâ⦠to our selues Then M. Roper produceâ⦠many reasons to the contrary saw no cause why any shoulâ⦠say so Well well Sonne Ropâ⦠quoth he I pray God some ãâã vs liue not till that day and ãâã no more To whome M. ãâã replyed By my troth Syr thââ¦s ãâã desperatly spoken seeming ãâã be halfe angry with Syr ãâã More who perceiuing the ãâã said merily vnto him Well ãâã SoÌne Ropââ¦r It shall not be then since you will not haue it soâ⦠Thus was he of so excellent ãâã temper that those who liued were coÌtinually coÌuersant with him in his house for the space ãâã twenty yeares and vpwardes ââ¦ould neuer perceiue him to be ââ¦nce moued or to make the ââ¦ast shew of anger But to returne agayne where ââ¦eft After the supplying of the ââ¦spensation sent vnto the comââ¦ioners into England as is ââ¦efore rehearsed the King taââ¦ng the businesse to himselfe as ââ¦t then mynding to proceed ââ¦y further in the matter assiââ¦ed the Bishop of Durham and ãâã Thomas More to go Embassaââ¦urs to Cambray a place neiââ¦er Imperiall nor French to ââ¦eat a Peace betweene the Emââ¦rour the FreÌch King himââ¦fe in the concluding wherof ââ¦r Tho. More so worthily manââ¦ged the busines that he procured therby much more benefit for the Kingdome then was at that tyme by the King and his CouÌsell thought possible could be coÌpassed For whose good seruice in that Embassy the King when he after made him Lord Chauncellour caused the Duke of Norfolke to declare openly to the people how much all ââ¦ngland was bounden vnto him as you shall see heeââ¦after more ãâã large Now vpon the coÌming home of the Bishop of Durham and Syâ⦠Thomas More from Cambray aforsayd the King began to reneâ⦠agayne his old suite and waâ⦠very earnest in persuading Syâ⦠Thomas More to agree vnto thââ¦
mend his shirt of hayre which he would not discouer vnto any other whatsoeuer Now in this meane space whilst he was Lord ChaÌcellour of England the King did one day greatly moue him desire him well to weigh and consider of his great matter concerning his diuorce Syr Thomas More falling vpon his knees most humbly besought his Maiesty to stand still his gratious Soueraigne as euer since his entry into his Royall Seruice he had found him and said that there was nothing in the world more grieuous to his hart then that he was not able with the losse of one of his lymbes to find any thing for that matter wherby he might with safe conscience serue his Maiesties turne And that he had alwayes borne in mynd the most Godly wordes that his Highnesse spake vnto him at his first comming into his Royall seruice the most vertuous Lesson that euer Prince taught a Subiect to wit that he should first looke vnto God after God vnto his King as in good fayth said he I haue ââ¦ost sincerely done or els might your Grace accompt me a most ââ¦nworthy seruant To this the King replyed ââ¦hat if he could not therein with ââ¦is conscience serue him he was well content to accept of his ââ¦eruice otherwise and vse the ââ¦duice of some others of his priââ¦y Counsell whose conscienââ¦es would agree well inough ââ¦herewith nor would he neuerââ¦helesse discoÌtinue his gracious ââ¦auour towards him nor trouââ¦le his conscience any further with that matter for the tyme ââ¦orward But Syr Thomas More perââ¦eiued by little and little that ââ¦he King fully determined to ââ¦roceede in his Marriage with Queene Anne when he with the Bishopps and Nobles of the Higher House of Parlament were for the furtherance of that matter coÌmanded by the King to go vnto the Commons of the lower House shew vnto them what the Vniuersities aswell of other parts beyond the seas as of Oxford and Cambridge had done in that behalfe testifiyng the same with their seales and subscriptions All which things at the Kinges request not shewing of what mynd he was therein himselfe he opened to the Lower House of Parlament Neuerthelesse doubting greatly lest further inconueniences might follow into with contrary to his conscience by reason of his Office he was likely to be fall he made humble suite to the Duke of Norforke his singular deare friend to be a meanes vnto the King that he might with his Graces fauour be discharged from his Office of Chancellourship in which for certayne infirmityes of his body he pretended himselfe not able any longer to serue This good Duke of Norfolke comming on a tyme to Chelsey to dyne with Syr Thomas More found him in the Church singing in the Quier with a Surâ⦠on his backe to whome after Masse was done as they went towardes his house together arme in arme the Duke ââ¦aid Gods body Gods body my Lord Chancellour what turned ââ¦arish Clarke You dishonor thâ⦠King and his Office very much Nay quoth Syr Thomas More smyling vpon the Duke your Grace may not thinke that the King your Maister and myne wil be offended with me for seruing God his Maister or therby accompt his Seruice any way dishonoured Now when the Duke at the speciall intreaty and importunate suite of Syr Thomas More had obtayned of the King that he should be discharged of his Chancellorship at a conuenienâ⦠tyme appointed by the King he repayred vnto the Court to yield vp the great Seale which his Maiesty receaued of him with prayse and thankes for hiâ⦠good seruice done to his persoâ⦠and the Realme in that Office And he further sayd vnto him in a gracious manner that if in any suite he should heerafter haue vnto him that either concerned his Honour for that word it pleased the King to vse vnto him or appertayned to his profit he should euer find his Highnes a very good and gracious Lord. After he had thus resigned the Office and Dignity of the Chancellorship and placed all his Gentlemen Yomen with Bishops and Noble men and his eight Watermen with the Lord Audley who succeded him in his Office to whome also he gaue his great Barge he then called al his children vnto him asked their aduises how he might now in the decay of his ability which by the surrender of his Office was so impayred that he could not as he was wont maintayne them to liue al togeather according to his desyre wherat when he saw them all silent vnwilling in that case to shew their opinions vnto him Why then will I quoth he shew vnto you my poore mynd I haue beene brought vp said he at Oxford at an Iune of Chââ¦ncery at Lincolnes Inne and also in the Kings Courtes and so forth from the lowest degree to the highest and yet I haue in yearly Reuenewes left me at this present little aboue a hundred poundes by the yeare So that now we must hereafter if we will liue together be content to become Contributours to ech other but by my counsell it shall not be best for vs to fall to the lowest fare first We will not therefore descend to Oxford fare nor the fare of New ââ¦nne but we will begin with Lincolnes Inne dyet where many right Worshipfull of good yeares do liue full well which if we find not our selues the first yeare able to mayntayne then will we the next yeare go one steppe downe to New-Inne fare wherewith many an honest man is well contented Then if that exceed our abilityes will we the next yeare after descend to Oxford fare where many graue learned ancient Doctours be continually resident which if our powers be not able to mayntayne neyther then may we yet with bagges and wallets go a begging togeather hoping that for pitty some good people will giue vs their Charity at their doore to sing Salue Regina and so still may we keepe company togeather and be as merry as Beggars And whereas you haue heard before that he was by the King taken from a very good liuing and aduanced to his Maiesties seruice wherein he spent with paynfull cares and trauels aswell beyond the Seas as within the Kingdome in a manner the whole substance of his life yet with all the gayne that he got thereby being neuer wastfull spender he was scarce able after the Resignation of his office of Chancellorship for the maintaynance of himselfe and such ãâã necessarily belonged vnto ââ¦im sufficiently to find meatââ¦ââ¦rinke apparell and other such ââ¦ecessaryes all the land which ãâã euer purchased which he ââ¦id also before he was Lord Chancellour not amounting ãâã aboue the value of Twenty ââ¦arkes a yeare And after his ââ¦ebts payd he had not his Chayne only excepted in gold ââ¦nd siluer left him the worth of ãâã hundred pounds In the tyme of his Chancelââ¦rship vpon the Sundayes and ââ¦oly daies when Masse or EueÌââ¦nge were ended one of his Gentlemen did vsually go to his ââ¦dyes Pew in the
matter of his marriage vsinâ⦠all the wayes and meanes ãâã could deuise to draw him to his part and as it was thought did the rather for that end soone afââ¦er create him Lord Chauncelââ¦our of England And the King said further vnto him that alââ¦hough at his going to Cambray he was in vtter despaire to obââ¦ne dispensation thereof yet ââ¦ow he had conceiued some goââ¦d hope to coÌpasse the same ââ¦eaging that albeââ¦t his Marââ¦iage as being agaynst the posiââ¦ue Law of the Church the ââ¦itten Law of God was holââ¦en by the dispensation yet is ââ¦here another thing found out ââ¦flate quoth the King wherby ââ¦his Marriage appeareth so direââ¦tly agaynst the law of Nature ââ¦hat it can in no wise by the Church be dispensable as Doââ¦or Stokesley whome he had then preferred to the Bishopricke of London can well instruct you with whome vpon this point I would haue you to confer So they conferred togeatherâ⦠But for all this Conference Syr Thomas More could not be induced to change his opinion therein Yet notwithstanding did the Bishop in his Report oâ⦠him to the King affirme falsely that he found Syr Thomas More in the Kings cause very forward as being desirous to find some good matter wherewith he might serue the Kings contentment in that case Now this Bishop Stokesley hauing a litle before byn by Cardinall Wolsey openly rebuked in the Sarre-chamber awarded ãâã the Flecte he not well brooââ¦ing this contumelious vsage ââ¦nd knowing that forasmuch ãâã the Cardinall for his backeââ¦ardnes in pursuing the Kings ââ¦uorse was falling out of his ââ¦ghnes fauour and that he had ââ¦ow espied a fit opportunity to ââ¦euenge his quarell agaynst the ââ¦ardinall and to incense the ââ¦ing further agaynst him at ââ¦ast preuayled so far that the Cardinall was soone after disââ¦laced from his office of high Chancellorship and the same was conferred vpon Syr Thomas ââ¦ore hoping therby so to win ââ¦im to his syde that he would ââ¦ield his consent for the matter ââ¦f diuorse Then was Syr Thomas More betweene the Dukes of ãâã and Nââ¦rfolke brought througâ⦠ãâã Hall to his place ãâã the Chancery and the Duke ãâã Norfolkâ⦠in the audience of ãâã the people there assembled ãâã wed that he was from the ãâã himselfe straitley charged ãâã speciall commiââ¦ion to ãâã theââ¦e openly in the presence ãâã them all how much all ãâã was beholding to Syr ãâã ãâã for his good seruice anâ⦠how worthily he deââ¦erued thâ⦠highest roome in the Kingdom and further how deere his Maiesty loued trusted him wherââ¦in quoth the Duke he hatâ⦠great cause to reioyce praysâ⦠Almighty God Whereunto Syr Thomas Morâ⦠amongst diuers other wise and ââ¦arned speches made answere ââ¦nd replyed that allthough he ââ¦ad good cause to take comfort ãâã his Highnes singular fauour ââ¦wards him to whome thereââ¦ore he acknowledged himselfe ââ¦ost deeply bounden yet neââ¦erthelesse he must for his owne ââ¦art needes confesse that in all ââ¦ose things by thâ⦠Duks Grace ââ¦here alleaged he had done noââ¦hing but what was his duty ââ¦nd furthermore said That he ââ¦as very vnfit for that dignity ââ¦herein considering how wise ââ¦nd worthy a Prelate had lately ââ¦efore taken so great a fall he ââ¦aid he had no great cause to reââ¦oyce And as they had before in ââ¦he Kings behalfe charged him ãâã minister Iustice vprightly ââ¦ndiffereÌtly to the people without corruption or affection ãâã did he likewise charge them agayne that if they saw him at any time to digresse in the least thing touching any part of hiâ⦠duty in that honourable Office euen as they would discharg their owne duty and fidelity ãâã God and the King they would not fayle to declaââ¦e the same to his Maââ¦esty who otherwise might haue iust caùse to lay the fault wholy vpon them and to their charge Now when he was Lord Chauncellour on a tyme being at leasure as seldome he was a Sonne in law of his who had marryed one of his daughters spake merrily vnto him saying When Cardinall Wolsey was Lord Chancellour not onely ââ¦iuers of his priuy ChaÌber but ââ¦uch also as were but his very ââ¦oor-keepers got much proffit ââ¦nd now sith I haue maryed one ââ¦f your daughters and giue my ââ¦ayly attendance vpon youâ⦠I ââ¦hinke I might of reason looke ââ¦or ãâã ãâã ãâã ââ¦oyle all ãâã ãâã ãâã you be so ãâã ãâã ãâã to heare euery ãâã ãâã pââ¦re as rich beâ⦠ãâã ãâã no doores shut ãâã ãâã which is to me no ãâã ãâã and discouraââ¦eÌt whereas otherwise some ââ¦or friendshippe some for kynââ¦red but most for profit would ãâã glad to haue my furtherance ãâã bring them to your presence And now as the case stands if ãâã should take any thing of them know I should do them much wrong for that they may do ãâã much for themselues as I ãâã able to do for theÌ Which thinâ⦠though it be in you very comâ⦠mendable yet to me your Sonâ⦠I find it nothing profitable You say well Sonne quoâ⦠Syr Thomas More I do not mâ⦠like that you are so scrupuloâ⦠of conscience for there be mââ¦ny other wayes wherein I maâ⦠both do you good and pleasurâ⦠your friend also for sometymâ⦠may I by my word stand yoâ⦠friend insteed and sometimâ⦠I may by my letters help hiâ⦠or if he haue a cause dependiâ⦠before me at your request I mâ⦠heare him before another oâ⦠his cause be not altogether ãâã the best yet may I moue the paâ⦠tyes to fall to some reasonabâ⦠end or compound by arbitrement Howbeit this one thing Sonne I assure thee on my Fayth that if the parties will at my hands call for iustice then if ââ¦it were my Father that stood on the one side and the Diuell on the other side his cause being good the Diuell surely should haue right So offered he to his Sonne as much fauour as he thought he could in reason require And that he would for no respect digresse neuer so litle froÌ iustice did plainely appeare by another of his Sonns in law one M. Giles Hââ¦ron who had a sorry suite depending before him in the ChaÌcery yet presuming much vpon his Fathers fauour would in no wayes be perswaded by him to come to an indifferent compositioÌ with his aduersary wherevpon in triall of the matter Syr Thomas Mââ¦re pronounced sentence agaynst him He vsed euery afternoone to sit in his open Hall to the end that whosoeuer had any suit vnto him they might the more boulder come to his presence and there to open theyr Complayints before him Also his manner was to read euery Bill himselfe before he would grant any Sub poena and hauing read it he would either set his hand vnto it or else cancell it Whensoeuer he passed throgh Westminster Hall to his place in Chancery by the Court of Kings BeÌââ¦h if his Father one of the Iudges therof had bin there set before he came he would go into the same Court there most reuerently vpon his
being personally present vpon the Earth only vnto S. Peter the Apostle and his lawfull Successors Bishops of the same Sea by special prerogatiue It is not therefore ãâã inough for one Christian Catholike man to charge and conuince another Christian Catholike man say that this Realme of England being but a member a small part only of the Church of Christ hath power and authority to make a particular law disagreable to the generall law of Christs Vniuersall Catholique Church no more then the Citty of London being but one poore member in respect of the whole Kingdome might make a law agayââ¦st an Act of Parlament to bââ¦nd the whole Realme And further he shewed that it was coÌtrary both to the ancient Lawes Statutes of our owne Realme not theÌ repealled as they might well see in Magna Carta Quod ãâã libera sit habeat omnia iura integÌra libertates suas ãâã and contrary likewise to that sacred Oath which the Kings Highnes himselfe and enââ¦ry other Christian Prince of this realme with great Solemnity hath euer taken at their Coronation Alleaging moreouer that no more might this Realme of England refuse obedience to the Sea of Rââ¦me then the child might refuse Obedience to his naturall Father for as S. Paul sayth of the ãâã I haue regenerated you my Children in Christ so might holy S. Gregory Pope of Rome of whome by S. Augustine his messenger we Englishmen first receiued the Christian fayth truly say You are my Children beââ¦causâ⦠I haue giuen you euerlasting saluation a farre and better more noble Inheritance then any carnall Father can leaue to his Children by regeneration made you my Children in Christ. To this speach of Syr Thomas More the Lord Chancellor answered That seeing all the Bishops Vniuersities best learned of the Realme had to this Act of Parlament agreed it was very greatly to be admired that he alone agaynst them all would so stifly sticke and argue so vehemently against it To this Syr Thomas More a gaine replyed saying If the nuÌber of Bishops and Vniuersities be so materiall as your Lordship seemeth to take it then I see little cause my Lord why that thing should make any change at all in my CoÌscience For I nothing doubt though not in this Realme yet in Chââ¦istendome round about the nuÌber of learned men and Bishops to be farre greater who will defend and maintayne the contrary and therefore am I not bouÌden to conforme my coÌscience to the Councell of one Kingdome against the generall CouÌcell of Christendome Now when Syr Thomas More for the auoyding of the Inditement had taken as many exceptions as he thought fit the Lord Chancellour loath to haue the burden of that Iudgment wholy to depend vpon ââ¦fe there openly asked the aduise of the Lord Fitz-Iames then Lord chiefe Iustice of the Kings Bââ¦nch and ioyned in commission with him whether this Inâ⦠were ãâã or no. Who like a ãâã man answered My Lordes quoth he by S. ãâã that was euer his oath I must needs coÌfesse that if the Act of Parlament be not vnlawfull then is not the Inditement in my conscience insufficient Whereupon the Lord Chancellour said to the rest of the Commissioners Loe my Lordes you all heare what my Lord chiefe Iustice sayth so immediatly he gaue Iudgment Which being done the commissoners yet further offered him curteously all fauourable audience if he would speake who answered I haue no more to say my Lords but that like as the Blessed Apostle S. Paul as we read in the Acts of the Apostles was present and consenteâ⦠to the death of S. Stephen kept their clothes that stoned him to death and are now both hoââ¦y Saintes in heauen so I verily trust and shall right hartily pray that though your Lordships haue now heere in earth byn Iudges to my Condemnation yet may we hereafter meete all togeather in euerlasting glory After his condemnation he departed from the Barre towardes the Tower agayne led by Sir William Kingston a tall strong and comely knight Constable of the Tower his very deere friââ¦d who wheÌ he had brought him a part of the way towardes the Tower with a heauy heart the teares running downe his cheekes bad him farwell The which Syr Thomas More seeing comforted him with as good words as he could saying Good M Kingston trouble not your selfe but be of good cheere for I will pray for you and my good Lady your wife that we may meete togeather in HeaueÌ where we shal be merry for euer and euer And a little after Syr William Kingstone meeting with M. Roper said In good fayth M. Roper I was ashamed of my selfe that at my departure from your Father I found my selfe so feeble and he so strong that he was fayne to coÌfort me who should rather haue comforted him As Syr Thâ⦠More came neere vnto the Tower his Daughter Roper desirous to see her Father once more before his death and to receaue his last blessing gaue attendance about the Tower-wharfe where he was to passe so soone as she saw him hastning vnto him without respect or care of herselfe pressed in among the throng of the Guard that with halbards went round about him and there openly in the sight of all asking him blessing on her knees imbrac't him tooke him about the necke and kissed him Who with a merry countenance nothing at all deiected gaue her his Fatherly blessing with many Godly wordes of comfort theÌ departed So remayned he in the Tower more then eight dayes after his condemnation from whence the day before he suffered he sent his shirt of hayre not willing to haue it seene to his said Daughter Roper and a Letter written with a cole printed in the aforesaid booke of his workes expressing playnly the feruent desyre he had to suffer on the Morrow in these wordes following I comber you good Margaret very much but I wold be sorry if it should be any longe then to Morrow for to Morrow is S. Thomas of Canterbury his Eue the Octaue of S. Peter therfore to Morrow long I to go to God it were a day very meete and conuenient for me I neuer liked you manner better towardes me then when you last imbraced me and when daughterly loue and deare charity haue no leasure to looke towards worldly courtesy Vpon the next Morrow according as he wished earely in the morning there came vnto him Syr Thomas Pope his singular good friend with a message from the King and Counsell that he must before nine of the clocke the same morning suffer death and that he should forth with prepare himself therto M. Pope quoth he for your good tydings I most hartily thanke you I haue alwayes ben much bound to the Kings highnes for the many benefits and honours that he hath still from tyme to tyme most bountifully heaped vpon me especially that it hath pleased his Maiesty to put me here in this