even from my Youth and if my deceitful heart deceive me not I dare appeal unto thee for the sincerity of it oh that thou wouldest make me usefull to thee in that way or any way thou shalt be pleased to choose that I might glorifie thy great and holy Name Sweet Discoveries of the Love of God in Jesus Christ Oh how good a God have I who is pleased every day to bear up my Soul with the sweet influâ—nces of his gratious Spirit and pretious incomes of his tender Love O how could I sit and meditate of thy loving kindness all the day long where can I find any comfort in this World but in thy presence there have I Lord indeed through thy Grace found a fulness of Joy a time of endless pleasures O what am I or what is my Fathers House that I should be the daughter to a King that I a worm a poor detestable creature madâ— up with clay and dust nay worse then a worm they being creatures which shall prey upon me for that I am aâ—pointed for their food yet that the Lord of Hosts the Holy One of Israel the High and Mighty God the King of Glory the King of Kings who is a King over the whole Earth should yet be pleased thus to abase himself as to have thoughts of love for such a poor unworthy wâ—etched creature as I am oh how unworthy am I of thy favours yet Lord because thou hast bâ—d me hope in thy mercy I dare do no otherwise nay Lord thou hast commanded me to believe Loâ—d I believe pardon my unbelief that should in any ways cause me in the least to distrust the riches of thy Grace or thy unspeakable goodness which is thy Glory since thou art pleased dear Lord to make a worm the object of thy grace Oh let my Soul injoy these sweet transcendant pleasures which lye discovered to my soul in the rich treasury of thy unbounded love whilst others take their fill of Worldly vanities When I considered the sinfulness of my nature my weaknesses my frailtyes and my many infirmities oh what is there in me should ever cause the Lord to pitty me or yet to continue his favour to me in so â—aspeakable a manner N my Soul bless thou the Lord for Jesus Christ in whom the Lord is pleased richly to look upon thee O happy is the soul that is born up by such a support how wretched had my soul been had not the Lord laid help on one who is mighty hadst not thou had the Lord to be thy Saviour Christ the dear son of God to be thy Redeemer O blessed be the Lord and blessed be my Rock who hath thus looked upon sinful mankind and thus loved the Sons of Men as to give his only dearly beloved Son to dye for such poor miserable wretches as I O the wonderful goodness of God the transcendant and unspeakable riches of his grace in Jesus Christ O my Soul canst thou but be filled with holy admiration at the infiniteness of his Glory the unspeakable and transcendant beauty of thy dear Redeemer this indeed is rich mercy That the Lord should come into the World and give his life a ransome for poor sinners but that thou shouldest be one for whom the Lord was pleased to leave his glory to take upon him the habit of a servant the nature of a sinful man that thou shouldest be one for whom the Lord became himself a curse to redeem thee from the curse that was due to thee and from that which there was no Redemption but through the blood of that pure and spotless Lamb that Christ the Son of God should give himself to dye a shameful death for thee that thou mightest live that thou mightest be partaker of those glorious benefits and gratious priviledges which came by him O my soul that thou should be one to whom such exceeding love is shown O my soul how doth the love of Christ constrain thee to love him O my poor unworthy soul how art thou bound for ever to admire and only aim at and seek the glory of thy dear Redeemer O my dear Redeemer how is my poor unworthy heart carried out to admire thy dear and tender love Lord if to injoy the Communion with thy Saints and people here on earth be such a glorious priviledge which thou hast made my soul to long after O then what is it to injoy Communion with thy Saints and Angels to all Eternity in the presence of my Lord and Saviour What darkness can Eclipse that glory or rather will not that glory quite put out that glory which the World but falsly yeilds what is all the glory of the World or all the Kingdoms of the Earth compared to the apprehention of a Heavenly Kingdom in the soul here much less to the full injoyment of it to all Eternity What is all the glory of the world but poor empty husks poor deceitful vanities a very lie which at the best makes but ashamed but Lord how glorious art thou in the beauties of holiness my Soul hath found enough in thee to fill it with a holy admiration O that I might forever be admiring of thy glory what are the treasures of the earth poor low base things that we should have our hearts so much carried after them What is it the hearts of the World runs out so much after is if there was their greatest happiness Is it not that they may gain abundance of riches and what are they when they are gotten but thorns to put out their own eyeâ— they â—oyl and labour hard in the woâ—ld â—or that which is at best of no induring substance and if they make a shift to keep it whilst they continue here yet at the Grave this the great happiness must leave them O misserabâ—e are they whose chiefest good consists in worldly vanities what is all the treasure upon Earth to that in esteemable Riches which are only to be found in Jesus Christ of how much greater value is that one pearl of great price then all the Pearls and Diamonds aâ—d the richest treasure upon earth Lord fill thou my heart with Heavenly Treasure and let my Soul be rich in grace oh tâ—at iâ— might be such in which I might bring glory to thy Name Meditations upon my Saviours Love HOw excellent a thing is Love how doth it adorn a Christian and comes most near the Image of a loving Saviour never was any love like to his love he loved us not because we first loved him no we were enemies yet even then he loved us and had compassion on us O the riches of divine Love see the sweet indearments of a loving Saviour greater love can no man show then to lay down his life for his friends yea but our dear Lord said down his life for us when we were enemies and from being enemies he is pleased to stile us friends and not only so but behold what manner of love the Father hath
ones O then my Soul fly thou unto the Throne of Grace Loose not so great an opportunity of coming to thy Saviour refuse not so great love tendred unto thee the bearing so great a burthen the weight of which would sink thee down into the bottomless pit of eternal perdition under the heavy wrath of God there to have perished to all eternity O the unfathomed and transcendant love of thy God and Heavenly Father O my Soul how canst thou read and not live ever in the meditations of such great and glorious Love as this where with the Lord hath loved thee he was content to give himself a ransome unto death to satisfie the Justice of his Father and to regain that favour for thee which thou by sin hadst lost he was content not only to forsake the bosom of his father to empty himself of all his glory but to come down upon this sinful earth he who was the glory of the whole world was content to confine himself in a Virgins Womb he who had possession of the utmost parts of the earth was now content with a poor lodging in a stable he who is a King of Glory was pâ—eased to take upon him the form and habit of a servant and all for thee he was content to be come poor and low that thou through his poverty mightest become rich he who with one blast of his Nostrils could have consumed at once his enemies was now content to be scourged buffeted spit upon crowned with Thorns and all this to purchase life for sinners he who was equal with God the express image of his fathers person he the Son of God the dearly beloved of his Soul was sweetly content to bear the scoffs and base reproaches of sinful maâ—e and prayed for them Father forgive them for they know not what they do this the Lord Jesus was pleased to undergo for thee nor is this all but O those bloody sweats which run down his tender cheeks for thy hard heart those terrible agonies of Soul he felt having the whole wrath of God due unto thee and the world of sinners poured forth upon himself being smitten as with the strokes of an enemy which made him cry out my God my God why hast thou forsaken me these are the gratious evidences of the Love of God to these poor sinful Souls and thus hateful is sin in the eyes of a holy God as not to spare it in his dear and only Son who never sinned but in that he took upon him our sins he must also bear our punishment he himself bear our iniquities in his own body upon the tree he became a curse for thee to redeem thee from the curse of the Law this was the love of thy Saviour O behold the Love of thy Redeemer how powerful and constraining is this Love was ever any Love like this Hardly shall we see a Man lay down his Life for us when we were enemies to be buried in a Grave that with him thy sins might be buried in everlasting forgetfulness he rose again that in him thou mightest be glorified and to prepare a place for thee in endless Glory where he is now at the right hand of God making intercession for thee who would not have an Interest in this Christ who would not be in union with this Saviour O Soul tast and behold the goodness of this Lord in whom it hath pleased the Father all fulness should dwell Oh the sweet constraining power of his transcendant Love who loved thee when thou wert miserable to make thee happy O who would not fear thee O thou King of Naâ—ions and now what hath thy glorified Redeemer thy Lord required of thee for all his love to thee he caused thee to cast thy burden upon him when weary and heavy laden and imposeth nothing upon thee but a sweet and easie yoke take my yoke upon you be intressed in my Love what is this yoke but a sweet complacency of love in uniting of the parties loving Soul saith the Lord of Lords give me thy sins and take my self to be thy Saviour take my yoke on thy neck that so thou mayest become in union with me thou maist become mine and I thine as my tender Spouse Lord what are we poor empty sinful creatures that thou shou dest thus condescend to woe invite intreat such poor despicable creatures who mightest command us by thy power to do whatever pleaseth thee O were it not the infinite goodness of our God to poor sinful man thou mightest have left us to have perished in our iniquities and raised up children of the stones to praise thee O sweet condescending love for us to be yoked in your affections unto thee and from enemies become thus thy friends to receive the yoke of Christ it is to receive the love and commands of Christ and be united as a branch unto the vine by which thou doest injoy true Spiritual communion with thy God what happiness like this how great and many are the priviledges that come by him O blessed be God for this love and the eternal riches of his grace in effecting and calling thee to so great an eternal weight of glory O had it not been through free grace what benefit couldest thou have had of this most glorious redemption by Jesus Christ what power couldest thou have had to come and cast thy self at his feet uâ—der the weight of thy sins it was free grace that led the out to see thine own insufficency unto any thing that was good and thy miserable condition without a Christ O was it not free grace and mercy by which the Lord was pleased to draw thereby the cords of love unto the Lord Jesus by whom a lone thou hast redemption O what hadest thou been and what had been thy life had it not been for this sweet crown of all thy comforts therefore O Lord to thee be glory for the riches of thy grace by which my soul is yet alive to praise thee and blessed be thy mercy for it is great to me poor miserable sinner what are the priviledges thou injoyest through this sweet union with thy Saviour O surely they are enough to make rhee live for ever in the meditations of them who can fathome that bottomless Ocean O how canst thou comprehend that which is in comprehensible this love which passeth understanding into which the more thou searchest the more thou admirest O what canst thou say but be filled with holy admiration to behold with what manner of Love the Father the omnipotent King of Kings and the eternal Lord who reigns in endless Glory hath loved thee Meditations on the great mistery of Godliness O how great is the mistery of Godliness in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ HOw wonderful excellent of how great concern to know him aright Help thou my Soul dâ—ar Lord to meditate on this swâ—â—â— incomprehensible subject O fill it with this Rich and Heavenly Treasure O let me not
thou part with him on any terms surely thou hast not loved him for Loaves only but for that excellency the Father hath cloathed him with the fear of man brings a snare but he that trusteth in the Lord shall be safe man says thou shalt not doe this c. t is disobedience to commands of men and the Issue of it will be either prison Banishment or death but the spirit of God says pay thy vows though it come in competition with thy very life for he that loveth his Father Mother c. Ye his very life better then me is not worthy of me and he that taketh not up his Cross to follow me cannot be my disciple then surely t is better disobeying man on earth then to be found an offender of the Majesty on high the waies of Christ are still the same good waies in persecution and they were in peace nor are they a whit the less disowned by Christ for being disallowed of man the soul that truly is established in Gospel truths is upon a sure foundation and owning Christ to be his Lord and King gives the honour due unto his King his Lord and Law giver As thy redeemer as thy saviour as a mediator now in heaven interceeding for thee as thy Lord and King as one who being fully interested in the fathers love and in all the father is and hath also made thee through grace to perticipate thereof O the unbounded richeâ— of free love what love was ever like to that of Christs who loved not his life unto the death but gave it freely for thee that thou mayest thereby freely come out of that cursed damned estate thou else hadst lain in unto all eternity and into the glorious liberty of Sons O how sweetly sounds that word Sons and Daughters heirs of a Kingdom and Co-heirs with Christ Jesus this is a believers portion and a glorious portion through the lively exercise of faith for the Lord in the offers of his grace sayes come come freely without any worth in your selves or good of your own and take my Son and with him all that shall make you eternally happy the Lord Jesus he a lone is thy redeemer he a lone is thy Redeemer he alone hath perfected the work of thy Redemption And unto him be glory ye all glory for ever and for ever who still had been a glorious and a holy God though thou hadst perished to all eternity and now what hath he required of thee O my soul but to love him to own him and this love begits obedience to him and love unto his laws and from which if thou shouldest now draw back thou wilt deny thy love to him and through a slavish fear make Shipwrack of thy faith deny the power faithfullness soveranity and omnipotency of the great God and so be come a prey to Satan and loose thy soul thy God thy Christ and all thy heavenly treasures forever the Lord in his mercy prevent it and all this for a song a sinful compliance with the men of the worâ—d and for fear of there threats sin against such Light such Love such Convictions of Conscience as the Lord through rich grace hath manifested to thee then consider how the Lord speaks to his poor covenant people who art thou that thou shouldest be afraid of a man that shall dye when I am on thy side who hath power to do with all men whatsoever he will am not I your Father and cannot you trust me with your preservation though in suffering times there fore O my soul trust in the Lord let him bee all thy stay and â—â—e assured all shall be well with thee if suffering be thy Lot as it is all theirs that will live Godly â—â— Christ â—esus the Lord will give out strength proportionable for he hath said that he will lay no more upon thee then he will inable thee to bear then let thy sufferings be what they will they shall be crowned with a glorious Isue thy small moment of affliction shall work for thee an eternity of glory say they then vaunt over thee with reviling speeches and reproach the too with sedition Hypocriâ— Hereticks Schismaticks c. Better is it to bear the Reproach then be truly guilty but what is this when the Lord saith Blessed are ye when all men hate Reproach and speak all manner of evil against you for my sake shall the Disciples be abâ—vt his Lord for what can they do to thee that they have not done to him He suffered a vile and shamefull death without the camp for the bearing this reproach he was scoffed at made a scorn off reviled buffered spit upon and at lengt crucified and all for thy sake taking it patiently and quietly and can't thou be content to suffer some small thing for his sake who hath suffered such great things for thee therefore my soul fix thou thy faith on Jesus Christ who ever liveth to make intercession for his affiicted ones is ready at hand to give seasonable supplies for every condition O be found still walking in his wayes and full of love to his pretious Laws and trust him with thy condition who can deliver thee from trouble or else preserve thee and bear thee up under it Blessed David saith the reproaches of them that reproached thee are fallen upon me and for thy sake I have borne reproach shame hath covered my face it was good Davids portion to fall under such reproaches as were even ready sometimes to have broken his heart yet for his help hath his recourse to God ye though the Lord is pleased seemingly to turn away his ear yet he will seek no other help I was a reproach to all mine enemies but especially among my Neighbours ye his very friends reproached him but says he As for me I will call upon God and he shall save me evening and morning and at noon will I pray and cry aloud he shall hear my voice O let this be thy work to approve thy integretie and sincerity unto God And so plead with thy God for mercy and deliverance for what matter is it how man Judgeth of thee so thy heart be right with God what disadvantage will reproaches bring unto thee Mâ—ses esteâ—med the reproaches of Christ greater riches then the treasures of Egypt therefore says Paul I take pleasure in reproaches Yea if you be reproached for the name of Christ hâ—pâ— are ye for the spirit of glory and of God in a more eminent manner resteth upâ—n you the Church of God in all ages hath lain under such afflictions and the father hath so ordained it for the purging away of sin the purifying of man from his dross that so he might become as tryed silver resigned fit for holy use and therefore seeing the necessity of it saith the Apostle beloved think it not stâ—ange concerning the fiery tryal which is to try you as though some strange thing happened unto you t is no new thing
King My musing such with which I would not part For all your mirth and pleasant melody Christs dearest love take away my heart In which lies Joy and true felicity Your company wherein you do delight Like to your self are made of earthly moulâ— Which will at length to feast the worms invite Then wheres your pleasures which so dear you holâ— My joys my comforts and my aim shall be To rest in Heaven to all Eternity There 's fellowship with holy Angels bright And Halâ—le-lujahs sing to the King of Kings There 's sweet Communion with the Saints in light When fire consumes your perishing earthly things The Lord feeding and keeping his Flock See how the Lord doth of his Flock take care And plenteously his Love to them doth share Reaching his arm of mercy them to guide And leading them fast by the Rivers side Thore doth them feed in pastures pleasantly And hiding them from Rage o' th enemy Now let thy heart with praises ever sing Even to thy Saviour Shepherd Lord and King Longings to be with Christ Sin sick am I And faâ—n would dye Reaching forth to Eternity I le leave the world with all my heart With it i 'me willing Lord to part To be with thee O Lord its best And in thine arms to be at rest Unto the world I â—ain would dye To live with thee Eternally Sweet Saviour then thou art gone before A place in Heaven to prepare Post Script of her own I know that my Redeemer liveth and that I shall see him with these eyes O that the time would come But I will wait upon the Lord the days of my appointed time till my change come FINIS The Contents 1. THe account of her early conversion 2. Of further discoveries of Christ 3. The longings of her Soul after Church Fellowship 4. Of Recording her experiences 5. The discoveries of Christ to her Soul when joyned to a Church in the Lords Supper 6. Sweet Discoveries of the love of God in Jesus Christ 7. Meditations upon her Saviours love 8. Meditations of Wisdom in imbracing the offer of Jesus Christ 9. Exhortations to her Brothers and Sisters 10. Meditations upon hearing the voice of Christ 11. Of heart examination 12. Meditations of being in Christ 13. Meditations of being the Servant of Christ 14. Of a new Heart 15. Of thirsting after assurance of heaven 16. Meditations of death 17. Of Communion of Saints 18. Meditations of the unchangeable love of God 19. Meditations on the 11th Chap. of Matthew 28 29 and 30. v. 20. Meditations on the great mistery of Godliness 21. Of the excellency of the knowledge of the mistery of Christ 22. God injoyed in mercies 23. Of self insufficiency 24. Of worldly honour 25. Meditations on the power of God God being her Father 26. Her further meditations of death 27. Meditations of a day of Tryal or preparation for sufferings 28. Sparks of Divine Love 29. Apraising Soul 30. Ahymne of free grace 31. A short dialogue between flesh and spirit 32. The Lord feeding and keeping his flock 33. Longings to be with Christ. ERRATA REader your Charity is desired in amending some little faults of the Printer the rest are these In the epistle Page 11. line 15. f. parting 's r. pantings p 15. l. 17. ad which runs f. their r. these p. 1. l. 2. for conversation r. convertion p. 11. l. 20. f. east r. cast p. 15. l. 19 f. this r. his p. 28. l. 6. f. son r. Soul p. 31. f. N. r. O p. 39. l. 9. f. ond read and l. 11. f. de r doc p 47. l. 15. f. truth read tush l. 26. f. as read at p. 49 l. 19 f but read both p. 59. l. 9. f. suffered r. suffer p. 63. l. 11. f. would r. will l. 15. f. ro r. to p. 68. l. 25. f his r. t is p. 79. l. 15. r. bring home p. 88. l. 15. f. received r. revealed p. 89. l. 4. f. it r. is p. 94. l. 10. f. lo r. ho p 103. l. 5. f. your read ours p. 110. l. 14. ad sealed p. 123. l. 15. f. a r and l. 27. ad to p. 131. l. 18. f. him r. bin p. 135. l. 6. f. receive r. rejoyce l. 10. f. any r. my l. 20. ad trial â— 22. f. any r. thy p. 137. l. 1. f. and r. is To be sold at the Black Spread-Eagle at the West End of Pauls
bestowed upon us that we should be called the sons of God and if sons then Heirs of God and Co-heirs with Christ in Eternal Glory O blessed change from enemies to friends from friends to Sons and so heirs with the Lord Jesus of an eternal inheritance O the gratious effect of this transcendant love Now are we Sons of God but yet it doth not appear what we shall be why can greater testimony of love be shown then this to be taken into the number of Gods Children to be counted Sons and Daughters of the Great and Glorious God the Lord of Hosts the High and Mighty King of Kings Oh yes it doth not yet appear what we shall be now we see but darkly as in a Glass but here is mercy this is tender love that when he shall appear who hath so loved us even our dear Redeemer in his Glory we shall be like him for we shall see him as he is our dear Saviour who was content not only to lay down his life for us that we might be partakers with him of his Son-ship and also of the Gâ—ory Oh the transcendant and unspeakable love of God to poor Souls whom the Lord Jesus is pleased out of the rich treasury of his diviâ—e Love to reconcile unto God by the blood of the Cross and what hath the Lord required again of us poor Worms for all his benefits but that we shâ—uld return him love again and this is the love he requires that we should keep his Commandements oh blâ—ssed Lord and thy commandements are not grievous but delightful to the Soul that loves thee and what is thy Commandement dear Lord this is my Commandement and it is a â—ew Commandement that you should love one another my Commandements are not grievous it is only love that is required and that you should manifest it in obedience to my commands one of which is that you love one another but how dear Lord shall we manifest our love to thee in loving one another how hast thou required that we should love one another have not I set you an example Did not I first love you and therefore give you this new Commandement that as I have loved you so you would love one another with a sincere pure unbounded love such a love as seeks not your own things but the good of others such a love as is inward and not in outward show only but in deed and in truth in the sincerity of your hearts such a love as seeks the good and spiritual advantage of one anothers Souls to love one another as I have loved you or to love thy friend as thou lovest thy self most willing to do that which may be for thy friends good although it be to some prejudice to thy self this is love and by this you shall know that you are my Disciples if thus you love one another and by this men shaâ—l know that you are mine such as I have loved from the beginning Oh dear Lord how art thou pleased thus to plead with pooe clods of clâ—y what sweet argument of thine own matchless goodness Art thou pleased to lay down thy life to draw poor sinful Souls to thy self O Lord whom didst thou ever bless with a clear sight of the least glimps of thy most gratious goodness that yet could not love the Lord are not our hearts harder then stone How many is there do profess to love thee but in works deny thee even in this great matter of love even in loving one another Do we not rather back-bite and discover one another where is that tender bearing one anothers burthens Where is that sweet convincing spirit to reprove as should be in Christians how few are to be found but such as fear both to reprove and to be reproved to exhort or to be exhorted in that sâ—nce where is that love which hides a multitude of faults that love that works noâ— thinks ne ill to his neighbour where is that spirit of mourning over one anothers infirmities that spirit of supplication in one anothers behalf Lord where is this Spirit to be found in the measure it ought Sure but in few that do make profession of thy name Lord is there not secret pride lieâ— hidden through Hippocricy in our base deceitful hearts whoever saw the Lord that could not love who Lord hast thou ever brought under the power of thy constraining love that are not willing there to rest but Lord unless thou teachest by thy holy spirit ond give us daily supply from thine own self we can do nothing O Lord we are not able to de one good action without thy especial grace but here lies our fault still we have not power no strength Lord we have not because we aâ—k not Our dear Lord hath said Ask and you shall receive O how largely is he pleased to make promise unto poor worms Whatsoever ye shall ask in my name I will do it and again repeats it And if ye shall ask any thing in my name I will do it is not there a gratious promise from the mouth of him in whose power it is to make it good Is it not from the Lord himself who is the only giver of all good whose word the least tittle of which shall not fall to the Ground O then why are we not more at the throne of Grace since he is pleased in mercy to afford unto us so glorious a priviledgâ— O that my soul may abide seeking of thee that my heart may still more and more be carried out with this sincere love unto thee and thine O suffer me dear Lord once more to say with boldness through thy Grace I will not let thee go until thou herein will bless me This before her Marriage La libre de mon Consalationes la meditationes de mon Coeure Sarah Roane December 1660. My Meditations from that blessed experience the Lord hath been pleased in much mercy through the infinite Riches of his Grace to give my poor unworthy Soul of his unspeakable love in Jesus Christ by the preaching of the word and reading of the Scriptures Meditations of Wisdom in embracing the offer of Jesus Christ VVISDOM is accompanied with a most glorious train of Heavenly beautieâ— exactâ—y formed into a scene which doth present the souls eternal happiness and being united with the soul make it pertaker of her graces she carries ever with her and those that finâ— her shall find with her in esteemable values and things of great price happy therefore is the man that sits knocking at her gates for in her are all the paths of pleasure and the wayes of peace and what can be defired more Pleasure is that the world is most eager after but it is such a pleasure as ends in sorrows these pleasures cannot bring peace to the soul they may satisfie them selves with vain hope and say peace we shall do well but surely sudden destruction shall come upon them there is no peace for such