is of God shall and vvill stand all vvindes and vveather against all the many tempests and violent stormes of all principalities and powers of spirituall wickedness in High places all this hath been in vain for this fire though a little while it did but Smoak Yet it will Blaze and that with fervent heat it will never go out it 's God Everlasting it 's God beginning a good work in the soul who will undoubtedly perfect it it 's God in darkness or glimmerings who will be a Shining light to us and fulness of Heavens Glory in us Precious friend I finde all that a poor soul can do against the smoaking flax or Day-breaking of God shall never prevail against it for it overcomes all and can be overcome of nothing O that I could more praise and exalt the Lord for his unspeakable loving kindness to me whose compassions fail not to his unworthy servant though once and often she thought they had under her spirits captivity Now I can through mercy say That Jehovah the infinite and glorious being shews wonders to the dead and makes the desolate arise out of the grave of sin and silence as Lazarus did and praise him who preaches loving kindness to such and puts an end to death and destruction by his own life and salvation I finde the Lord makes known his faithfulness and loving kindness in the land of forgetfulness to souls that know not him nor his wonders in the deeps which causeth me to wait with joy for the further manifestations of the goodness and glory of God Our God of love whose communications of love are very precious to our soules strongly engaging our hearts to praise him O when says my soul shall we do this sufficiently When we confess God to be his own praise Some say of Parents That their Children can never render to them their due I am sure we may say so of God our Father and Wisdom our Mother which is Christ for let a soul give never so much to God it comes short of what is his due from us for making us free and joyfull in himself from the bondage of corruption by awaking and arising from under the black dark veils of Ignorance and Unbeleife saving us from our enemies which are too strong for us and so redeeming and gathering us to himselfe who can no ways be happy out of him Now that we may be made thus happy Christ is a Refiners fire to us to burn and destroy all our dross hay and stubble that we may be made a meet and fit habitation for God through the Spirit O how should we be content with this purging fire knowing it to be our Gods design of love in sending his bosom-Son to utterly abolish Mortality and all that hath Death in it and then cloath us with life glory and Immortality according to his will that we may be fit Brides for the Marriage of the Lambe appearing like those who are begotten of the Immortall seed and so changed from glory to glory by love Whose irradiant beames and sweet shinings forth makes the Lion a Lambe the vile precious and ravening ones meek and lovely These experienced souls I finde can more admire then speak forth the exceeding riches of Gods grace and free-love and of his strange and mighty acts in renew making of us by destroying the old creation in us and transfiguring his new one in spirit When this new life and glory or new creation is come down into us or we taken up into it then may a Christian be called A new Jerusalem a heaven and earth wherein dwells righteousness or the righteous Lord who makes all things new and glorious by whose in dwelling presence in our hearts we come to see what all the mists and fogs of darkness were which hindred the Revelation of Christ in the Gospel and his sweet discoveries of love from us which was onely our proud vile vain corrupt self this is the obscuring veile which veile for our comfort the Lord Jesus puts aside as he said he would do in the appointed time this veile of darkness I finde also to be that vile woman which Solomon speaks of her specious pretences to man in his lost condition to bewitch us from the true knowledg of our dear God and his ways and spirituall Worship but he who is our wisdom and Power our all is stronger then all enemies to save and keep us for ever from them Christ is our over-topping Mountain in and by whom God hath promised to destroy the veile of the covering of the flesh sin or self-righteousness which is cast over all people this our spirituall eyes shall see with joyfull heart when Christ shall be established above all other Mountains in the souls of his people above every high thought proud vain imagination which offers to exalt it self above God where it ought not to be in our hearts till the Holy Child Jesus is born and brought forth thence our beloved Isaac heir of all things with the Government of life and Peace upon his shoulder to rule all as only Lord and King King of Salem Prince of Peace who hath doth and will bring all things in us into Obedience to his Holy Scepter even our corrupt averse wills to subject to his Holy Divine will in all things this great work Christ accomplishes by degrees when he takes up his abode in our hearts Ah what a joy to the spirit but what a sorrow to the flesh is this indwelling presence in the hearts of his sanctified ones it's a sorrow to the flesh or old man in us because it 's death and it 's very joyous to the new man or second creation because the life and glory of it the indwelling presence of Christ is a death to all that is evil in us and a Quickning spirit to that which is good the first work our King Jesus doth when he enters into our hearts he shews us the falsness foulness Ignorance and darkness and all manner of evil in them and afterwards he shews us the reality and purity of his own native beauty and Supernaturall Glory When the Sun of righteousness arises in our dark hearts we then immediately see the gross darkness in us and are then able to discerne aright between darkness and light good and evil truth and Error by the Spirit of God which searches all things even the deeps of Gods Counsels and the deeps of our hearts shewing us the weakness and unworthyness of our selves and also the Power Glory and Omnipotence of God above them who can turn and change them how and when he pleaseth for his own glory and our sole comfort and make us of vile precious and beautyful through his comeliness O what could God do more for his vineyard his people then he hath done he hath invested them with his own glorious Image and married them to Himself or Son which is all one who is Heire of all things King of Kings and also dignified
owning him in giving mercies to us and not friends and owning him to take them from us and not enemies the Lord gives takes also Truly the Lords tryall in these things is a firy strict tryall God tries our Faith and love as he did Abrahams by causing him to offer up his onely son Isaac the son of promise Now I know said God to him in doing this that thou lovest me and thou shalt know it for in Blessing I will multiply Blessings upon thee and thy seed This ascending spark of love in Abraham from God to God did as I may say engage the Lord to descend showers of blessings upon him and his seed Our God in wisdom doth all things he tries and proves us to do us unexpected good in the latter end he tries whether we can live in the practicall part of Christianity what we can do and suffer in truth for Christ whether we can be content to leave all for him be content with Christ alone without freinds or the world gifts graces qualities and conditions and such-like in one hand and Christ in the other whether we can be content to resign up all to God all outward and inward things all Relations Ordinances Gifts Graces Desires Hopes all that can be named or desired of Heaven and Earth that nothing of self may Remain none of our wills desires ends hopes but all crossed and destroyed in us which is contrary to the Lords will the Creatures will being so contrary to Gods will in all things it 's well to have it crossed though it be in that which may be most for its seeming comfort Surely they who are acquainted with the excellency of Gods hidden Divine will would not have it crossed but rather its own will in any thing though it may seem hurtful to it sure it 's thus Sir I shall acquaint you a little what a hard thing it was for me to submit to this will of God though easie to him to make me quietly submit and resign up all to him in the departure of my dear Brother Though the dispensation was dark and dismall yet I dare say from a full perswasion after many doubts that though it might seem in Judgment yet God hath received him to everlasting mercy for being weak I finde he was suddenly overcome by the strong man not willingly but by constraint meeting with many unnamed inward and outward fears and troubles Certainly what is not done in despite willingly against God but the violent hurrying of Temptation through weakness not willingly shall never be layed to any poor tempted souls charge The Lord doth not look so much to the weakness of his creature and temptation as to his own rich mercy and free love Surely thus the God of love hath looked upon my dear departed Brother for I had experience of him in his life-time that when he was himself he served the Lord with many Tears and Temptations oftentimes and did endeavour to walk as exact as a Christian to that light of knowledg God was pleased to measure out to him Much I might say of this nature had I oportunity and thought it convenient which causeth me to Believe the Lord hath not looked upon him to take advantage of his weakness to destroy but to save him according to the multitude of his tender mercies and being a God of love patience and long Suffering hath I am now perswaded though one while I was much troubled with doubts and feares hath taken him from sin and sorrow to bliss and blessedness He was of a very weak Constitution of body Truly dear friend the great loss of such a comfortable staff such a hopefull son and brother the maner and unexpectedness of his going from us hath been a sword in our bones first pierced thorow our soul which hath cut us to the heart First from a serious consideration of Gods dishonour by opening the mouths of the ungodly to cause them to stumble at the way of God saying What profit is it to serve God and are these they that made the Lord their trust and such-like things And secondly the Saints discouragement besides our own great discomfort in the middle of our supposed comfort I hope the effect of the sword I mention will prove the Lords severing sword to separate more between flesh and Spirit Christ and the creature I find all that God doth is to try us whether we can love God as well in the way of his Judgments as in the way of his mercies love him in casting us down as raising us up in smiting as healing in Winter as Summer for all in all changes and conditions above all many are the troubles of the holy seed of God and truly did we not suffer something the remaining part of Christs sufferings would be unfulfilled which tryal and proof he endures in us as he suffered in the patterne so we in truth O there is a necessity of our suffering something if we would be feelingly sensible of what Christ hath suffered in the flesh for us to crown us with glory in the Spirit and be sympathizing with others in affliction and really magnifying that free grace of God which ends in full glory causing us always to extol the Lord blessing him with a triumphant song of praise I am sure the Saints have cause to bless the Lord at all times even in the wilderness because this is the place where God usually speaks comfortably to his people Though he lead them this solitary way yet it 's the right way the way of the Lord is an unknown strange way even in the whirlwind O what a happyness is it to finde afflictions come not out of the dust but as we may say they are the finger the providence of God for our good he makes them antidotes to us to expell poyson the more we have of them Sanctified to us the more pure like Christ we have no cause to say when we are under the rod therefore not beloved of our Father because so and so afflicted but the rather loved of our Father because chastned hereby we are made more conformable to Christ by being buried with him in the Baptisme of his sufferings The Cup of affliction which the sanctified ones drink of is a Fathers Cup which they cannot but drink handed to them for their good from himself whose ways are all mercy and truth whose paths drop fatness whose out-goings and in-comings are all sweet and precious to us The poor creature in trouble is very apt to cry out and say Is this and this a pleasant way is this a comfortable condition and can God indeed bring good out of such great evills O it 's impossible Thus I have thought often Can any good come out of sinfull Nazareth out of my confusion and darkness O it 's impossible with us it is but not with God who at first commanded light to shine out of darkness O what cause have we to exalt Gods power and love
his way to doe as he hath done to suffer patiently and willingly without the least gainsaying or resistance such grievous things Christ was as a sheep before the slaughter David under afflictions was dumbe also because he saw the Lord did it and not man so Aaron when he lost his sons suddenly held his peace And good old Eli said It 's the Lord let him do as he pleaseth In this sweet spiritual frame was Job when he said it was the Lord that took from him in the flesh who could give him much more in the Spirit All that they suffered was not so much from an enemy as a Father for their good who seeing how apt the current of their affections was to run more to them then to him their heart being not so fixed upon him as he would have them but very apt to be divided and to wander from him like ours as we are creatures therefore he sends afflictions as messengers to fetch them home to his Sheepfold Once this word came in Power to me when I was very sad O soul grieve not grieve not for thy Brother precious in my sight is thy Brothers death though grievous to thee and others was not Christs sufferings much more terrible and think not strange your firy tryalls for what is befallen you is common to all in this life and the same afflictions are accompanied to your fellow-members in the world Think of Samsons death a good man who died among the Philistins and seemingly in anger to be revenged on them for his two eys Consider these things and lay them to heart and sorrow no more as one without hope but know all things shall worke togeather for good even this unto ye therefore be still and know I am God doing whatever I please in heaven and earth and all places his time was not in thy hands or friends or his own but in my hands A sparrow cannot fall to the ground nor a hair off the head without my knowledge When these things was spoken to me I was very restless in my spirit even resolving to spend my few days in silent sorrow not expecting any more Sun-shine days of joy and suddenly the glory of the Lord broke forth thorow some thick darkness bidding me lift up my head and the Lord was pleased to speak to me as sweet as ever telling me he would wipe all teares from my eyes and the rebuke or reproach of his people he would take from off all the earth he had spoken it who would do it Jehovah a fulfiller of Promises therefore let not thy troubled fearfull heart be disquieted or afraid Peace Peace be unto thee I found Christ reasoned with me as once he did with his disciples when they were sad Why are ye troubled and why do such fears and doubts arise in thy heart am not I and my favour more to thee then enjoyments or Relations or any thing thou canst desire though I chasten thee sharply to draw thee neer me yet my favour will I not take from you nor alter my love is not this O soul more then all to give thee my self Who am the Desire of Desires the Beauty of all Blessedness the top of all Royalties even the fulness that silleth all in all who hath made thee beautifull thorow my comlyness though black in thy self under the bondage of coruption yet Lovely as Redeemed Justified and Sanctified my soul was even melted with in me at this sweet and powerful manifestation of love that I cryed out None but a naked Christ and who would not sell all for this Precious Pearl and willingly resigne up all even life it self to Christ who became poor and despised in the worlds eye that we though his poverty might be dignified in the Spirit and made rich in Faith in grace in humility and goodness this is to be heavenly rich in God in love O who would not leave all to follow Chrst for his treasures of wisdom and knowledg and all good things which he gives to his close followers This was one word which was spoken to me also Lovest thou me more then these more then Gold Silver Lands Livings any relations Golden gifts and Graces men or meanes and love not the world nor the things of it love nothing I say equall or above me for he or she that loves any thing more then me is not worthy of me set not thy affections on things below on earthly sensitive things but on Heavenly things above invisible glories If riches encrease set not thy heart upon them My Deare brother was such riches to me that if I could have but enjoyed his life and him spiritually restored to a comfortable state in this life according to my earnest and constant souls desire and the desire of many precious Saints that our God might have been more glorifyed in his life on earth O what riches what a portion of great joy would this have been to my soul none knows but now seeing by this uncertainty and emptyness in all things below the Lord I am forced to say What is riches or the encrease or sweet enjoyment of any creature-comforts to the lifting up of Gods lovely countenance upon us I can say now more feelingly Whom have I in Heaven or in Earth to glory in or stay my self upon but God alone from whom flows all our fresh springs of comfort joy life love and sweetness The Lord I hope by our late chastisements will make us more holy humble thankfull and fruitfull in every good work of God and cause the sword not onely to pierce into our souls but even to divide and sever more between soul and body flesh and spirit Christ and the Creature That nothing may remaine in us but what loves admires and blesses our God alone above all Sir this is all my desire to know more and do and patiently submit to the holy will of our Dear God in all things and to have more single affections to him and his naked glory Christian friend I have written in these papers some poor stamerings or what the Lord hath communicated to me with comfort in weakness through which I have written this to you that you with me may bless the Lord for his precious loving kindness to his unworthy hand-maid I cannot tell whether I may be troublesom to you because so tedious at one time When I begin to write to a Christian friend in this kind I am always much enlarged the more because but slow of speech In these few lines you may perceive a little that many are the troubles of the Righteous and also that the Righteous Lord supports sweetly under them all and in his own best time graciously delivering them out of all These troubles of ours may well be compared to waters even a flood of waters as David said that hath wave upon wave which though it be our Fathers pleasure and our portion to wade thorow yet this is our comfort VVe shall not sink in them
them with the graces of his Spirit and cloathed them with the Glistering Spangles of his Holyness the Angels Glory and cull and chuse them from the common part of Gods earth to be the chiefe or precious part of his earth his choice Golden Mine his peculiar treasure O may we not say who have but seen heard or tasted ever so little a glimpse of this free rich grace and precious love of God what O what shall we render unto the Lord for these unspeakable special mercies for certainly God looks for some returne of his own from us he looks for some thing present from us as we do present and future from him He looks we should live answerable to our enjoyments and hopes Says Peter What manner of persons ought we professors to be in practice in all holy conversation O how excellent a thing is it to see all the Saints adorne the Gospell of Christ in walking as well as talking Noah is recorded for a walker with God O to walk holy as Christ did when he was upon earth in the days of his flesh is excellent we know his life was a life of Sanctity an holy life for said he Which of you convinceth me of sin and he who had no sin nor guile found in his mouth nay more the Devil confest him the Holy one of God O what a precious life was this holy life as Christ walked holy so humble O that all Saints might walk in humility as their Lord and Head did who though he were Lord and Heir of all yet he washed his Disciples feet and humbled himself to death even the death of the cross The humble soul looks likest Christ humility is the veile of Christs Bride O how beautifull doth she look in Christs eye when this veile of Rebekkah is upon her be ye cloathed with humility saith God to us As this veile hides anothers faults so it s own graces as Rebekkah did her beauty true grace you know shines most irradiant through the mask of humility O what are all Christian duties without heavenly humility Incense smels most sweet when beaten small then it sends forth its fragrant perfume As Divine humility studies Gods goodness so it s own unworthiness Better is that sin which thorowly humbles the soul like David then that duty which lifts up Pharisee-like In this the grace of humility is precious it gives all to God as Joab when he had gotten the Victory sent for King David to carry away the Crown of it so a believer when he or she hath gotten Victory over some corruption or temptation then they set the Crown upon Christs head and say with David By my God I have leaped over a Wall and if they finde strength to go thorow duties then they with Paul write Christ and free grace upon all I laboured more a bundantly then them all yet not I but the grace of God in me To walk in love and amity as Christ did to the glory of God is very desireable he breathed forth nothing but love he was full of this perfume as his person was lovely so was his disposition he was composed all of love he was so full of love within that it broke forth without his lips dropped honey his hands Myrrhe his sides blood his heart Love love O how ought all Saints who look for glorious things to come to live in love as Christ did upon earth O that this sweet spice might send out its fragrant smell more among Christians that all things by them might be done in love We know saith John we who live in love and amity That we are passed from death to life surely none can love the Person of Christ really but they will love his Picture though very contemptible to the world O how might the Saints highly honor God if they were more united in love and quite dispossessed of these two evil spirits that of self-conceitedness or vain glory and uncharitableness O why should this be why should not we love as brethren have we not all one Father indeed that is a blessed strife when the Saints contend for the faith this consists in unity O it 's good indeed when simply out of love the Saints shall be willing to suffer patiently for Christ as he did with a Lamb-like spirit considering all our many and great sufferings are but one dram to his To think of Christs sufferings and of his faithfull ones Davids Jobs Jeremiahs Sions and many others that we are not alone in troubles sorrows and sufferings hath administred much comfort to me under all our sad changes The Lord give us to submit and subscribe more to our Gods will in all troubles and changes that we may swim in the laver of his Love Glorifying Him in the fires Sir having these scattered Meditations upon my spirit at present I was moved to communicate them to you by way of writing being deprived of another oportunity I hope you will accept my poor mite out of my scanty store into you full treasury with love as I have done yours formerly in your lines I remember a saying of yours which stirred me up a little to this communicating you said As the rich ones of the World Visit one another opening their treasures to each other so much more should the Saints declare the goodness of God to each other Fearing my many lines at present may weary you and being somewhat weak in body through sharp exercises I shall now leave you with all Saints in the Everlasting imbraces of our dear Lord Jesus whose delight is to make his beloved the bosom of his rest the bed of Spices whose precious graces doth perfume all our tribulations thorow which we enter into the Kingdom and this love of the Lord also makes the world and evil of it a sweet savour of good Peace and rest to us in the end The good Lord cause us more to indulge and honor the spirit of these graces above them for the sweet incomes of them this will demonstrate to the world that We injoy more Within then we make sound of Without which my spirit covets after and live not onely in the form but in the Power of Godliness and so cannot be led away with the Error of the wicked or fall from our own stedfastness but grow in grace and in the pure perfect knowledge of our dear God alone Now the God of love and peace be with ye making ye perfect in every good work of faith and love working in you and all Saints and us that which is well pleasing in his sight causing us all to walk as Angels among Men as the Powers and glory of Heaven upon Earth like the children of the day in practice as burning and shining lights in this dark world As the Saints believing heart and undaunted spirit is their glory before God so is their unspotted life their holy walking their Glory before men for when they see their good work they will glorifie their God Sir having no further freedom to write more to you now I shall take leave and rest Remaining Your engaged friend to love and serve you as a member of Christ an heire of Heaven and one anointed of the Father SARAH WIGHT An empty nothing whose fulness is all in that Fountain that filleth all in all I am unskilled in Apologies and excellent expressions and if I were not I had not whereof to glory of the excellency of mans wisdom Sir my dear mother is still tossed with many tempests of temptations but the Lord graciously supports her and gives her a little hopes sometimes of a gracious Issue The Lord cast her into your heart to beg patience for her to wait silently for a fresh manifestation of the Lords love to her sad soul that she may with joyfull lips set forth his praise she sees so much evil in her and no good which makes her often doubt whether it will go well with her in the end and I tell her this is a token for good for the more vile in our own eyes the more precious in the sight of the Lord this is a terrible sight to flesh and blood To see our selves as we are and God as he is Sir your kind acceptance of my former lines encouraged me to present these to your view at your leysure in spare hours Sir I desire you to give my cordial respects to Mr. T. though unknown by face with thanks for his Christian care and love to us in an unthought-of way it 's not he but the Lord in him and by him who will not leave a cup of cold water unrewarded to him and you and all his FINIS