able_a to_o resist_v thou_o in_o they_o then_o their_o judgement_n will_v be_v so_o clear_v that_o they_o will_v understand_v most_o hide_a mystery_n then_o a_o hour_n of_o prayer_n will_v instruct_v they_o more_o full_o than_o fifty_o year_n study_n can_v do_v they_o have_v by_o the_o mean_a of_o such_o prayer_n in_o all_o thing_n relation_n to_o thou_o the_o only_a true_a wisdom_n and_o in_o who_o light_n only_o be_v true_a light_n to_o be_v see_v by_o love_v thou_o and_o die_v to_o themselves_o in_o all_o thing_n they_o will_v become_v master_n of_o themselves_o and_o all_o the_o world_n will_v than_o nothing_o move_v they_o nor_o will_v any_o thing_n affright_v they_o because_o thou_o will_v be_v their_o stay_n and_o comfort_n in_o all_o thing_n if_o we_o will_v do_v as_o we_o ought_v and_o as_o be_v best_a for_o we_o we_o must_v be_v subject_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o all_o thing_n without_o exception_n and_o this_o be_v the_o benefit_n of_o a_o internal_a life_n that_o it_o make_v one_o capable_a of_o see_v and_o know_v god_n will_v and_o also_o most_o ready_a to_o perform_v it_o which_o way_n soever_o he_o signify_v it_o to_o they_o which_o make_v they_o obey_v as_o ready_o and_o willing_o mere_o for_o god_n sake_n and_o out_o of_o obedience_n to_o he_o a_o simple_a or_o imperfect_a superior_n as_o they_o will_v a_o angel_n or_o the_o wise_a creature_n in_o the_o world_n yea_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a that_o a_o worm_n or_o any_o other_o creature_n be_v ordain_v by_o god_n to_o rule_v over_o they_o â—hey_n will_v with_o all_o their_o heart_n embrace_v his_o will_n by_o they_o for_o without_o this_o total_a subjection_n to_o god_n it_o be_v impossible_a to_o become_v true_o spiritual_a for_o if_o we_o resist_v his_o will_n in_o our_o superior_n in_o vain_a do_v we_o pretend_v to_o please_v he_o this_o virtue_n therefore_o of_o obedience_n we_o must_v learn_v of_o he_o the_o which_o must_v be_v ground_v upon_o true_a '_o humility_n that_o must_v be_v our_o stay_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o those_o two_o virtue_n of_o humility_n and_o obedience_n together_o with_o the_o divine_a virtue_n of_o discretion_n he_o will_v teach_v we_o if_o we_o do_v our_o part_n in_o seek_v to_o become_v more_o &_o more_o humble_a and_o subject_a to_o he_o for_o see_v it_o be_v his_o will_n we_o shall_v obey_v and_o become_v true_o humble_a how_o can_v we_o doubt_v but_o he_o will_v give_v we_o the_o grace_n if_o we_o humble_o and_o perseverant_o beg_v it_o of_o he_o and_o practice_v those_o virtue_n upon_o occasion_n as_o well_o as_o we_o can_v for_o he_o himself_o have_v saâ—d_v 11.12_o whâ—n_o we_o ask_v our_o father_n bread_n he_o do_v not_o give_v a_o stone_n nor_o if_o we_o ask_v he_o fish_n will_v he_o give_v a_o serpent_n much_o less_o will_v he_o deny_v we_o what_o be_v necessary_a to_o make_v we_o please_v to_o he_o and_o we_o seek_v or_o desire_v nothing_o but_o by_o true_a love_n to_o be_v faithful_a to_o he_o o_o prayer_n prayer_n able_a to_o obtain_v all_o thing_n o_o how_o come_v it_o to_o pass_v my_o lord_n that_o this_o omnipotent_a thing_n â—as_v some_o of_o thy_o dear_a servant_n term_v it_o prayer_n shall_v be_v so_o unknown_a yea_o and_o even_o to_o they_o who_o thou_o term_v the_o salt_n of_o the_o earth_n contemn_v i_o mean_v mental_a prayer_n at_o least_o for_o the_o practice_n of_o poor_a simple_a woman_n for_o who_o they_o hold_v it_o above_o all_o thing_n most_o dangerous_a even_o to_o my_o own_o knowledge_n as_o i_o have_v know_v affirm_v by_o superior_n of_o several_a order_n ☞_o o_o misery_n to_o be_v true_o lament_v by_o all_o that_o have_v or_o may_v have_v taste_n iâ—_n prayer_n and_o by_o the_o effect_n thereof_o know_v how_o sweet_a a_o thing_n it_o be_v to_o attend_v only_o and_o whole_o to_o the_o praise_n and_o love_n of_o goâ—_n sure_o the_o want_n of_o the_o wisdom_n ☞_o which_o by_o prayer_n the_o saint_n do_v gain_v be_v the_o cause_n why_o cústome_n and_o opinion_n do_v take_v place_n for_o the_o most_o part_n in_o this_o world_n of_o true_a reason_n surely_n never_o be_v the_o world_n reform_v of_o its_o sin_n and_o error_n but_o it_o must_v be_v by_o the_o wisdom_n which_o come_v from_o god_n and_o be_v far_o different_a from_o that_o which_o be_v account_v wisdom_n by_o the_o world_n which_o as_o s._n paul_n say_v 3.19_o be_v folly_n before_o god_n certain_z other_z devotion_n of_o the_o same_o devot_fw-la soul_n d._n gertrude_n more_o which_o she_o leave_v write_v in_o her_o breviary_n in_o the_o fore_a part_n of_o her_o breviary_n she_o have_v frame_v and_o write_v the_o ensue_a prayer_n for_o her_o due_a performance_n of_o the_o divine_a office_n viz_o all_o you_o that_o bless_v our_o lord_n exalt_v he_o all_o you_o can_v for_o he_o be_v great_a than_o all_o your_o praise_n omnis_fw-la spiritus_n laudet_fw-la dominum_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v the_o lord_n and_o i_o â—hy_a poor_a creature_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o good_a do_v here_o in_o the_o preâ—sence_n of_o all_o thy_o celestial_a court_n desire_v 〈◊〉_d perform_v this_o my_o office_n with_o all_o diligenâ—â—_n and_o with_o a_o amorous_a affection_n towards_o thou_o my_o â—oâ—_n who_o have_v impose_v this_o sweet_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v obligation_n upon_o i_o sinner_n who_o do_v not_o deserve_v any_o such_o honour_n or_o comfort_n from_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v admit_v to_o join_v my_o cold_a and_o freeze_a praise_n with_o all_o those_o who_o praise_v thou_o either_o on_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n where_o all_o to_o my_o comfort_n do_v without_o cease_v continual_o praise_v thou_o and_o for_o what_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o the_o performance_n thereof_o as_o i_o shall_v and_o ought_v to_o do_v supply_v it_o out_o of_o the_o superaboundance_n of_o thâ—_n merit_n and_o mercâ—_n i_o desire_v to_o say_v it_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n according_a to_o the_o intention_n of_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o catholic_n church_n of_o which_o i_o desire_v through_o thy_o grace_n to_o live_v and_o die_v a_o true_a member_n be_v thâ—u_n according_a to_o her_o desir_n adore_v bless_a magnify_v and_o supreme_o superexalt_v by_o â—t_a let_v it_o be_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o all_o immaculate_a mother_n the_o lady_n and_o queen_n of_o angel_n and_o saint_n to_o these_o in_o a_o particular_a manner_n â—_o viz_o to_o my_o good_a angel_n our_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n s._n scholastica_fw-la s_o joseph_n s._n peter_n and_o s._n paul_n s._n john_n enangelist_n s._n john_n baptist_n s._n thomas_n and_o my_o dear_a s._n augustin_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o that_o be_v in_o heaven_n have_v by_o it_o to_o they_o exhibit_v by_o thou_o what_o thou_o will_v and_o desire_v shall_v be_v i_o beseech_v thou_o also_o that_o i_o may_v by_o it_o pray_v to_o thou_o or_o all_o afflict_a pain_a tempt_v and_o trouble_v that_o they_o may_v please_v and_o praise_v thou_o in_o those_o their_o misery_n and_o overcome_v they_o to_o their_o comfort_n and_o thy_o glory_n i_o also_o offer_v to_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n all_o those_o soul_n who_o by_o deadly_a sin_n be_v enemy_n to_o thou_o which_o be_v indeed_o the_o misery_n of_o misery_n o_o lét_v they_o return_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v our_o beginning_n and_o the_o true_a centre_n of_o our_o soul_n from_o who_o to_o be_v separate_v by_o sin_n â—s_v a_o most_o grievous_a hell_n and_o to_o who_o to_o be_v unite_v by_o grace_n be_v a_o most_o sweet_a heaven_n convert_v therefore_o and_o recall_v those_o soul_n to_o thou_o for_o who_o â—hou_n spaâ—edst_v not_o â—hy_n most_o precious_a blood_n shed_v it_o to_o the_o very_a last_o drop_n for_o we_o finner_n i_o offer_v thou_o also_o my_o parent_n who_o have_v place_v i_o here_o in_o thy_o house_n where_o here_o i_o may_v even_o hear_v and_o see_v how_o to_o serve_v thou_o and_o where_o i_o may_v night_n and_o day_n attend_v to_o thou_o and_o praise_v thou_o my_o amiable_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v belove_v who_o to_o serve_v and_o to_o be_v oblige_v to_o love_v be_v the_o only_a happiness_n in_o this_o world_n and_o to_o who_o to_o be_v tie_v by_o vow_n and_o other_o obligation_n of_o religion_n be_v a_o most_o sweet_a servitude_n and_o yoâ—e_n and_o so_o sweet_a that_o no_o liberty_n be_v to_o it_o to_o be_v compare_v i_o offer_v thou_o also_o our_o holy_a congregationâ—_n and_o all_o that_o ever_o or_o shall_v desire_v my_o poor_a unworthy_a prayer_n and_o above_o all_o i_o offer_v thou_o all_o those_o in_o earth_n or_o purgatory_n which_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n will_v have_v i_o pray_v for_o to_o thou_o beseech_v thou_o that_o tâ—y_v divine_a
xxii_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n let_v all_o thing_n praise_v thou_o let_v thy_o just_a will_v be_v our_o law_n let_v subject_n humble_o obey_v in_o and_o for_o thou_o for_o inferior_n contend_v and_o withstand_v their_o superior_n in_o that_o thou_o will_v have_v they_o obey_v in_o ☜_o be_v most_o odious_a in_o thy_o eye_n and_o nothing_o they_o can_v do_v will_v please_v thou_o unless_o they_o will_v hear_v thy_o voice_n as_o well_o by_o other_o as_o from_o thyself_o for_o it_o be_v not_o so_o much_o the_o greatness_n of_o the_o action_n that_o thou_o regard_v as_o the_o be_v do_v by_o we_o in_o that_o manner_n thou_o will_v have_v it_o do_v by_o we_o and_o in_o nothing_o can_v we_o obey_v thou_o as_o we_o ought_v to_o do_v unless_o we_o first_o regard_n and_o intend_v thou_o in_o that_o which_o by_o we_o be_v accomplish_v and_o a_o superior_a reflect_v on_o his_o own_o authority_n rather_o than_o on_o what_o in_o thy_o behalf_n he_o ought_v to_o exact_v in_o that_o case_n or_o case_n and_o rather_o on_o what_o by_o his_o power_n he_o can_v command_v then_o on_o what_o according_a to_o thy_o pleasure_n be_v best_a to_o be_v do_v rathâ—r_o govern_v in_o his_o own_o power_n then_o in_o thou_o and_o the_o effect_n unless_o it_o be_v very_o straight_o and_o right_o between_o his_o subiectâ—_n heart_n and_o thou_o will_v consequent_o be_v more_o human_a than_o divine_a and_o the_o superior_n while_o sensible_a of_o their_o honour_n abuse_v the_o power_n give_v by_o thou_o do_v yet_o loose_v what_o they_o will_v have_v for_o their_o subject_n often_o look_v upon_o rather_o what_o be_v defective_a in_o the_o superior_a then_o upon_o their_o own_o duty_n both_o of_o they_o fail_v in_o their_o duty_n to_o thy_o dishonour_n who_o so_o sweet_o have_v dispose_v of_o all_o thing_n if_o we_o do_v not_o pervert_v thy_o order_n with_o seek_v not_o thou_o and_o thy_o honour_n but_o our_o own_o and_o ourselves_o from_o which_o misery_n bless_v we_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o sake_n that_o thou_o maisâ—_n be_v glorify_v both_o in_o the_o commander_n and_o the_o obeyer_n the_o xxiii_o confession_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v those_o thou_o instructe_v in_o thy_o law_n and_o in_o who_o it_o go_v straight_o between_o their_o soul_n and_o thet_z for_o their_o only_a care_n be_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n these_o humble_o obey_v for_o thou_o and_o see_v how_o dangerous_a it_o be_v to_o resist_v thy_o will_n in_o any_o thing_n how_o little_a soever_o but_o very_o much_o must_v we_o strive_v to_o humble_v ourselves_o if_o we_o desire_v to_o know_v and_o stand_v unto_o the_o thing_n that_o be_v exact_v of_o we_o by_o thou_o for_o nothing_o be_v able_a to_o enlighten_v our_o blindness_n but_o thy_o grace_n shine_v in_o a_o humble_a soul._n if_o we_o know_v never_o so_o much_o and_o can_v do_v wonder_n if_o we_o have_v never_o so_o great_a guif_n of_o nature_n and_o grace_n ☜_o yet_o can_v we_o not_o thereby_o become_v please_v to_o thou_o unless_o withal_o we_o be_v diligent_a in_o the_o exercise_n of_o true_a humility_n o_o give_v i_o this_o gift_n for_o none_o of_o himsef_n be_v able_a to_o attain_v to_o it_o my_o god_n make_v i_o true_o humble_a that_o i_o may_v be_v whole_o thou_o let_v i_o by_o love_n adhere_v to_o thou_o that_o all_o impediment_n may_v be_v remove_v between_o my_o soul_n and_o thou_o let_v all_o create_a thing_n be_v to_o i_o as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o as_o to_o their_o become_v any_o impediment_n between_o my_o poor_a soul_n and_o thy_o godnes_n that_o so_o i_o may_v not_o be_v hinder_v by_o any_o thing_n from_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o for_o this_o thou_o may_v our_o soul_n that_o by_o thy_o grace_n we_o may_v return_v to_o thou_o who_o by_o sin_n we_o have_v stray_v from_o and_o that_o humble_o seek_v to_o love_n thou_o and_o use_v all_o thing_n create_v only_o to_o this_o end_n that_o we_o may_v at_o last_o find_v and_o possess_v â—hee_o who_o only_o be_v able_a to_o satiate_v we_o and_o therefore_o miserable_a be_v we_o when_o we_o seek_v any_o thing_n beside_o thou_o from_o which_o do_v i_o beseech_v thou_o defend_v us._n amen_o the_o xxiv_o confession_n non_fw-fr in_o solo_fw-la pane_fw-la vivit_fw-la homo_fw-la sed_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la verbo_fw-la quod_fw-la procedit_fw-la de_fw-la ore_fw-la dei_fw-la 4._o these_o be_v thy_o oâ—â—_n word_n my_o lord_n â—hich_v i_o rehear_n beâ—ore_v thou_o to_o whom_o power_n out_o my_o hart_n and_o my_o soul_n â—ith_v unspeakable_a joy_n hope_v that_o â—hy_a word_n shall_v be_v a_o light_n unto_o my_o foot_n that_o i_o may_v avoid_v the_o gin_n and_o snare_n which_o the_o world_n the_o â—â—esh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v lay_v to_o catch_v â—nd_n entrap_v my_o sinful_a and_o weak_a â—oul_n thy_o word_n indeed_o be_v sweet_a because_o thou_o speak_v peace_n to_o the_o hart_n and_o give_v by_o they_o strength_n â—o_o the_o soul._n it_o be_v well_o know_v to_o thou_o why_o i_o do_v thus_o dilate_v myself_o in_o speak_v and_o write_v to_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n rehearse_v to_o thou_o to_o who_o all_o thing_n be_v manifest_a the_o desire_n intention_n and_o affliction_n or_o comfort_n of_o my_o hart_n for_o as_o thâ—uâ—ell_o â—ell_z know_v if_o i_o shall_v not_o when_o â—_o enjoy_v some_o more_o interior_a light_n set_v down_o in_o write_v some_o thiug_n which_o i_o may_v peruse_v at_o other_o time_n that_o â—re_n of_o obsurity_n i_o shall_v be_v apt_a to_o forget_v to_o praise_v thou_o ☞_o yea_o and_o eveâ—_o wither_v away_o with_o the_o grief_n and_o anguish_n which_o by_o thy_o sweet_a permission_n overwhelm_v my_o soul_n be_v thâ—â—_n bless_v for_o all_o who_o take_v away_o 〈◊〉_d beseech_v thou_o or_o give_v as_o it_o best_o pleaâ—seth_v thou_o from_o thy_o poor_a seruantâ—_n only_o deprive_v i_o not_o of_o graceâ—_n so_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o i_o care_v not_o whaâ—_n happen_v to_o i_o let_v thy_o will_n be_v do_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n rooâ—_n out_o of_o my_o soul_n that_o pride_n whicâ—_n make_v i_o so_o far_o from_o be_v thaâ—_n thou_o will_v have_v i_o to_o be_v my_o desire_n be_v great_a to_o praise_n love_n honour_n and_o true_o serve_v thou_o but_o my_o power_n be_v so_o little_a that_o none_o have_v be_v less_o faithful_a to_o thou_o than_o i_o but_o where_o do_v the_o liberality_n of_o thy_o infinite_a mercâ—_n extend_v itself_o more_o willing_o theâ—_n where_o there_o be_v great_a poverty_n anâ—_n misery_n though_o i_o be_v poor_a yet_o mâ—_n lord_n be_v rich_a though_o i_o be_v in_o all_o blindness_n as_o to_o the_o discern_a of_o trutâ—_n yet_o my_o lord_n be_v light_v itself_o to_o he_o therefore_o i_o will_v approach_v that_o in_o his_o light_n i_o may_v see_v light_a i_o will_v beg_v of_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v become_v capable_a of_o glori_v in_o thy_o riches_n and_o then_o nothing_o shall_v be_v want_v to_o i_o see_v my_o lord_n possess_v in_o himself_o all_o good_a thing_n be_v thou_o my_o lord_n what_o â—hou_n be_v and_o i_o a_o miserable_a sinner_n cast_v my_o eye_n upon_o the_o earth_n do_v cry_v to_o thou_o to_o be_v merciful_a to_o my_o sin_n i_o sit_v here_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n morn_n and_o lament_v that_o i_o have_v make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o conclude_v a_o everlasting_a â—eague_n and_o peace_n with_o my_o lord_n god_n to_o who_o now_o my_o soul_n do_v aspire_v day_n and_o night_n without_o cease_v o_o my_o lord_n when_o i_o remember_v what_o â—hou_n have_v do_v for_o i_o i_o faint_v and_o fail_v to_o see_v how_o ungrateful_a for_o it_o i_o have_v be_v and_o be_o to_o thou_o what_o do_v thou_o mean_v to_o help_v i_o and_o â—ecall_v i_o from_o my_o sin_n when_o i_o least_o think_v of_o thou_o and_o not_o content_a with_o that_o baker_n thou_o do_v also_o by_o mean_n of_o a_o faithful_a servant_n of_o thou_o make_v my_o state_n which_o be_v so_o heavy_a â—_o burden_n to_o i_o through_o my_o fault_n and_o ignorance_n to_o become_v so_o delightful_a to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v and_o do_v true_o acknowledge_v that_o thy_o yoke_n of_o religion_n be_v sweet_a above_o all_o the_o delight_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n and_o thy_o burden_n so_o light_a that_o cross_n pain_n affliction_n internal_a and_o exâ—ternal_a bear_v as_o thy_o burden_n be_v most_o light_a and_o easy_a and_o cause_n more_o true_a peace_n to_o my_o hart_n than_o i_o can_v express_v which_o be_v it_o say_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o grant_v i_o to_o humble_v myself_o in_o all_o that_o i_o may_v grow_v still_o more_o and_o more_o please_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o comfort_n of_o my_o soul._n ☞_o let_v his_o instruction_n of_o who_o
thou_o have_v make_v be_v good_a if_o it_o be_v put_v for_o that_o use_n â—or_a which_o thou_o make_v it_o do_v not_o we_o see_v that_o even_a spider_n and_o serpent_n do_v draw_v the_o venom_n from_o the_o earth_n both_o for_o the_o purge_n it_o and_o also_o for_o a_o far_o use_v that_o man_n thereof_o make_v and_o yet_o these_o to_o our_o seem_n be_v of_o the_o least_o worth_a as_o to_o good_a among_o thy_o creature_n but_o it_o be_v our_o miss_v usingâ—_v abuse_n and_o mis-applying_a thy_o creature_n that_o make_v the_o world_n turn_v upside_o down_o the_o hail_n thunder_n storm_n rain_n &_o snow_n do_v the_o three_o child_n in_o the_o furnace_n invite_v to_o praise_v thou_o as_o good_a in_o themselves_o be_v make_v by_o thou_o but_o nothing_o be_v so_o good_a in_o this_o world_n but_o it_o may_v be_v pervert_v and_o abuse_v for_o if_o man_n who_o soul_n be_v make_v by_o thou_o in_o such_o purity_n by_o sin_n become_v so_o foul_a how_o can_v this_o choose_v but_o breed_v disorder_n in_o the_o world_n all_o thing_n therein_o be_v give_v by_o thou_o to_o be_v dispose_v by_o he_o and_o use_v by_o he_o as_o â—â—lpâ—_n to_o â—â—rue_v thou_o while_o we_o live_v here_o but_o o_o my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v to_o thou_o and_o i_o will_v call_v upon_o thou_o who_o be_v wisedam_v it-self_n if_o thou_o smile_v at_o my_o folly_n yet_o behold_v i_o sinner_n and_o instruct_v i_o in_o thy_o law_n which_o be_v sweet_a above_o all_o delight_n of_o the_o world_n and_o to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n be_v that_o which_o i_o only_o desire_v in_o all_o my_o misery_n and_o affliction_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n thou_o despisâ—st_v not_o any_o soul_n fly_v to_o thou_o and_o dilate_v myself_n to_o thou_o i_o do_v comfort_n and_o strengthen_v my_o hart_n which_o aspire_v to_o nothing_o as_o thou_o know_v by_o this_o my_o speak_v to_o tâ—ee_v but_o to_o ease_v my_o soul_n by_o beg_a help_n of_o thou_o and_o declare_v to_o thou_o my_o only_a friend_n my_o sin_n and_o misery_n for_o if_o 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for_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o do_v any_o thing_n good_a of_o myself_o let_v i_o by_o humility_n and_o truâ—_n obedience_n return_v to_o thou_o from_o who_o for_o my_o sin_n i_o deserve_v to_o be_v separate_v with_o the_o devil_n eternal_o but_o thy_o mercy_n which_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n pardon_v i_o and_o give_v i_o grace_n to_o live_v better_a hereafter_o o_o my_o god_n i_o think_v some_o time_n i_o have_v so_o lively_a a_o feel_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o and_o see_v so_o plain_o that_o we_o depend_v whole_o of_o thy_o grace_n and_o mercy_n that_o i_o wonder_v how_o it_o be_v possible_a i_o shall_v anâ—_n more_o be_v able_a to_o presume_v of_o myself_n in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o but_o alas_o this_o pass_v away_o ☞_o and_o like_o dust_n carry_v away_o with_o the_o wind_n so_o be_v my_o soul_n with_o vanity_n in_o which_o my_o sin_n and_o misery_n i_o groan_v to_o thou_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n who_o be_v my_o helper_n and_o my_o deliverer_n from_o all_o my_o enemy_n whereof_o the_o great_a be_v myself_o and_o to_o thou_o i_o declare_v my_o iniquity_n which_o be_v without_o end_n or_o measure_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v glorify_v thou_o the_o more_o who_o show_v mercy_n to_o i_o and_o reiecte_v not_o the_o most_o disloyal_a of_o all_o thy_o majesty_n servant_n for_o which_o let_v heaven_n and_o earth_n praise_v thou_o see_v i_o be_o not_o able_a by_o any_o thing_n to_o show_v gratitude_n to_o thou_o for_o i_o can_v do_v nothing_o but_o declare_v thy_o mercy_n and_o beseech_v thyself_o to_o supply_v my_o defect_n in_o praise_v thou_o for_o thou_o only_o can_v do_v it_o as_o i_o desire_v it_o shall_v be_v do_v the_o very_a seraphin_n be_v too_o short_a of_o be_v able_a according_a to_o thy_o worth_n to_o praise_v thou_o and_o all_o thy_o angel_n and_o â—aints_n account_v themselves_o as_o dumb_a in_o comparison_n of_o thy_o desert_n from_o they_o for_o all_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n be_v thou_o â—_z for_o by_o all_o not_o as_o able_a but_o as_o willing_a to_o praise_n tâ—ee_v magnify_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xlii_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n if_o none_o have_v much_o forgive_v they_o but_o those_o that_o love_n much_o what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o this_o day_n we_o read_v in_o our_o office_n that_o saint_n marie_n magdalen_n come_v to_o thy_o foot_n which_o she_o water_v with_o she_o rear_v hear_v that_o comfortable_a answer_n from_o thou_o to_o wit_n go_v in_o peace_n thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o â—5_n but_o it_o be_v out_o of_o this_o regard_n that_o she_o love_v much_o this_o answer_n thou_o make_v to_o she_o who_o hart_n in_o silence_n speak_v unto_o thou_o do_v much_o comfort_n my_o sinful_a soul._n but_o yet_o when_o i_o remember_v how_o void_a i_o be_o of_o that_o which_o be_v the_o necessary_a disposition_n for_o her_o soul_n to_o hear_v those_o comfortable_a word_n thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o go_v in_o peace_n it_o draw_v tear_n â—rom_o my_o eye_n to_o see_v how_o far_o my_o soul_n be_v destitute_a of_o that_o pure_a love_n which_o prevail_v with_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n what_o shall_v i_o say_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v or_o wherein_o shall_v i_o hope_v i_o be_o not_o fit_a to_o plead_v for_o myself_n my_o sin_n indeed_o be_v so_o many_o and_o so_o great_a and_o as_o for_o the_o love_n which_o only_o thou_o desire_v behold_v my_o soul_n be_v destitute_a of_o it_o for_o if_o i_o have_v any_o towards_o thou_o my_o god_n it_o be_v but_o a_o sensible_a childish_a love_n which_o be_v a_o love_n little_a beseem_v the_o bestow_n upon_o such_o a_o god_n who_o be_v all_o good_a beauty_n wisdom_n yea_o even_a goodness_n and_o love_n it-self_n to_o who_o be_v due_a a_o love_n which_o be_v able_a to_o suffer_v all_o thing_n for_o this_o love_n be_v a_o strong_a love_n more_o strong_a than_o death_n it-self_n the_o which_o kind_n of_o love_n be_v far_o from_o i_o who_o be_o blow_v down_o with_o the_o least_o blast_n of_o temptation_n and_o can_v endure_v any_o disgrace_n desolation_n or_o difficulty_n whatsoever_o as_o it_o beseem_v a_o true_a lover_n of_o he_o but_o notwithstanding_o my_o poverty_n and_o misery_n yet_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o he_o and_o will_v approach_v to_o his_o foot_n who_o be_v mercy_n itself_o there_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n i_o will_v in_o filence_n sigh_n and_o weep_v both_o for_o my_o sin_n and_o for_o my_o defect_n in_o love_v thou_o who_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o praise_n whatsoever_o there_o i_o will_v beg_v this_o love_n so_o much_o to_o be_v desire_v there_o i_o will_v wish_v and_o long_a for_o itâ—_n and_o from_o thy_o foot_n i_o will_v not_o depart_v till_o thou_o denounce_v to_o i_o thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o and_o say_v to_o my_o soul_n go_v in_o peace_n this_o voice_n i_o long_o to_o hear_v in_o my_o hart_n that_o i_o may_v with_o the_o voice_n of_o exaltation_n praise_v thou_o for_o ever_o amen_n the_o liii_o confession_n amen_n amen_n dico_fw-la vobis_fw-la quia_fw-la receperunt_fw-la mercedem_fw-la svam_fw-la math._n 6._o amen_o amen_o i_o say_v â—nto_o you_o they_o have_v receive_v their_o reward_n these_o thy_o word_n my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n come_v into_o my_o mind_n so_o often_o as_o my_o thought_n dare_v to_o think_v of_o have_v deserve_v any_o reward_n at_o tâ—y_a hand_n and_o serve_v as_o a_o motive_n to_o subject_v my_o soul_n total_o to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n before_o who_o now_o i_o do_v profess_v and_o acknowledge_v that_o my_o desire_v and_o endeavour_n be_v so_o defective_a in_o comparison_n of_o what_o be_v to_o thou_o due_a from_o i_o that_o i_o may_v and_o
those_o that_o afflict_v thou_o and_o render_v good_a for_o evil_a to_o those_o that_o molest_v thou_o and_o be_v a_o comfort_n in_o all_o thou_o can_v imagine_v to_o those_o that_o be_v afflict_v either_o in_o body_n or_o in_o mâ—nd_n without_o exception_n of_o person_n be_v include_v in_o the_o gain_n of_o that_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v promise_n ☞_o remember_v with_o joy_n and_o imitate_v the_o best_a thou_o be_v able_a the_o happy_a example_n of_o the_o late_a bless_a bishop_n of_o geneva_n of_o who_o it_o be_v report_v that_o one_o in_o his_o diocese_n exceâ—dinly_o molest_v afflict_a and_o persecute_v this_o holy_a saint_n yét_v he_o use_v he_o with_o all_o love_n gentleness_n and_o respect_n yea_o more_o than_o any_o other_o person_n at_o which_o patient_a proceed_n of_o his_o one_o of_o his_o subject_n wondrâ—ng_v at_o and_o speak_v to_o he_o of_o it_o ask_v he_o how_o he_o can_v use_v that_o man_n so_o mild_o who_o never_o requite_v he_o with_o other_o then_o il_fw-mi turn_v for_o all_o the_o grace_n he_o show_v he_o be_v as_o it_o be_v top_n full_a of_o bitterness_n against_o he_o to_o which_o the_o saint_n humble_o answâ—ered_v o_o â—aâ—th_n he_o if_o he_o shall_v put_v out_o one_o of_o my_o eye_n i_o will_v smile_v upon_o he_o wâ—h_n the_o other_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o god_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n grant_v thy_o unworthy_a servant_n grace_n to_o imitate_v this_o example_n though_o to_o speak_v true_o none_o can_v do_v she_o a_o injury_n who_o deserve_v so_o much_o in_o punishment_n for_o her_o sin_n psal._n 41._o vers_fw-la 6._o and_o 7._o wby_o be_v thou_o sorrowful_a my_o soul_n and_o why_o do_v thou_o trouble_v i_o hope_v in_o god_n because_o yet_o i_o will_v confess_v to_o he_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o countenance_n and_o my_o god_n o_o my_o soul_n hope_v in_o thy_o god_n who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n o_o bless_a hope_n and_o confidence_n which_o be_v able_a to_o obtain_v all_o thing_n and_o overcome_v all_o thing_n v_o 11._o in_o the_o day_n our_o lord_n have_v command_v his_o mercy_fw-mi and_o in_o the_o night_n a_o song_n of_o he_o do_v thou_o not_o hear_v my_o soul_n tâ—y_a lord_n do_v require_v of_o thou_o mercy_n towards_o thy_o even_a christian_a for_o that_o he_o show_v to_o thou_o and_o that_o night_n and_o day_n thou_o wâ—lt_v sing_v his_o praise_n but_o lord_n thou_o know_v that_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n what_o then_o shall_v i_o do_v o_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n certain_a comfortable_a say_n take_v out_o of_o the_o holy_a scripture_n for_o the_o encouradgment_n of_o those_o that_o desire_v with_o all_o their_o heart_n to_o love_n and_o please_v our_o most_o merciful_a god_n and_o first_o out_o of_o the_o prophet_n isaie_v chap._n the_o first_o 16._o wash_v you_o be_v clean_o take_v away_o the_o evil_a of_o your_o cogitation_n from_o my_o eye_n cease_v to_o do_v perverse_o 17._o learn_v to_o do_v good_a seek_v judgement_n succour_v the_o oppress_a judge_v for_o pupil_n defend_v the_o widow_n and_o come_v and_o accuse_v i_o say_v our_o lord_n 18._o if_o your_o sin_n shall_v be_v as_o scarlet_a they_o shall_v be_v make_v as_o whit_n as_o snow_n and_o if_o they_o be_v as_o red_a as_o vermilion_n they_o shall_v be_v whit_n as_o wool_n 19_o if_o you_o be_v willing_a and_o will_v hear_v i_o you_o shall_v eat_v the_o good_a thing_n of_o the_o earth_n 22._o thy_o silver_n be_v turn_v into_o dross_n thy_o wine_n be_v mingle_v with_o water_n but_o hear_v what_o follow_v o_o my_o soul_n and_o therefore_o be_v not_o discomfort_a though_o all_o thou_o do_v and_o suffer_v be_v very_o imperfect_a yet_o behold_v what_o he_o promise_v who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n if_o he_o will_v he_o can_v make_v thou_o clean_o if_o he_o command_v the_o wind_n and_o sea_n will_v be_v still_o and_o there_o will_v eâ—sue_v a_o calm_a commit_v thy_o â—elf_n to_o he_o and_o he_o will_v help_v thou_o when_o he_o think_v fit_a o_o god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v therefore_o in_o i_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n 25._o i_o will_v turn_v my_o hand_n to_o thou_o and_o boil_v out_o thy_o drâ—ssâ—â—il_n it_o be_v pure_a and_o will_v take_v away_o all_o thy_o tinâ—e_n 26._o aâ—ter_v these_o thing_n thou_o shall_v be_v call_v the_o just_a a_o faithful_a city_n shall_v i_o fear_v to_o be_v forsake_v by_o thou_o my_o god_n after_o all_o these_o sweet_a promise_n no_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o mercy_n though_o i_o have_v hitherto_o sinue_v against_o heaven_n and_o before_o thou_o so_o that_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o child_n yet_o let_v i_o eat_v of_o the_o crumb_n which_o fall_n from_o my_o master_n table_n that_o i_o may_v grow_v strong_a hereafter_o in_o resist_v that_o which_o make_v i_o displease_v in_o thy_o pure_a eye_n hear_v my_o lord_n the_o voice_n of_o a_o sinner_n which_o will_v feign_v love_n tâ—ee_v and_o with_o her_o hart_n and_o soul_n as_o great_o please_v the_o as_o ever_o she_o bathe_v offend_v thou_o let_v i_o either_o love_n or_o not_o liâ—e_z i_o know_v thy_o â—_z be_v so_o great_a that_o tâ—ou_fw-mi have_v admit_v those_o to_o eat_v of_o the_o bread_n of_o angel_n which_o heretofore_o feed_v of_o husk_n like_o swine_n yea_o s._n gertrude_n say_v that_o the_o more_o base_a vile_a and_o contemptible_a the_o creature_n be_v to_o who_o thou_o show_v mercy_n the_o more_o extol_v art_n tâ—ou_fw-fr by_o all_o thy_o angel_n and_o saint_n in_o heaven_n i_o will_v therefore_o hope_v in_o thou_o and_o beseech_v all_o tâ—y_a saint_n to_o pray_v for_o i_o and_o praise_n tâ—ee_v for_o take_v pity_n of_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o cast_v up`mine_n eye_n to_o heaven_n much_o les_fw-fr to_o think_v upon_o or_o praise_n tâ—ee_v to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o desire_n be_v give_v perpetual_a praise_n and_o adoration_n for_o all_o eternity_n by_o all_o creature_n amen_n chap._n ii_o 3._o come_v let_v we_o go_v up_o to_o the_o mount_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o to_o the_o house_n of_o the_o gâ—d_n of_o jacob_n and_o he_o will_v teach_v we_o his_o way_n aâ—d_v we_o shall_v walk_v in_o his_o â—athes_n 5._o houâ—e_v of_o jacob_n come_v you_o and_o let_v we_o walk_v in_o the_o light_n of_o our_o lord_n o_o my_o god_n happy_a be_v they_o that_o walk_v in_o this_o light_n in_o this_o light_n none_o walk_v but_o the_o humble_a and_o clean_a of_o hart_n and_o those_o that_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n who_o joy_n thou_o thy-self_n be_v and_o who_o sing_v with_o the_o prophet_n rennit_n consolari_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la my_o soul_n refuse_v to_o be_v comfort_v these_o do_v in_o some_o sort_n more_o or_o less_o as_o thou_o please_v find_v how_o sweet_a and_o happy_a a_o thing_n it_o be_v to_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o alone_o return_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o belove_a return_v seek_v for_o no_o consolation_n but_o put_v thy_o hope_n in_o god_n commit_v thy-self_n unto_o god_n and_o let_v he_o do_v with_o thou_o what_o please_v he_o never_o seek_v thy_o own_o glory_n never_o desire_v thy_o will_n may_v be_v do_v but_o in_o all_o thing_n intend_v love_n and_o prefer_v the_o glory_n and_o will_n of_o god_n if_o any_o come_v unto_o he_o he_o shall_v not_o return_v empty_a because_o he_o willng_o give_v water_n to_o the_o thirsty_a in_o the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o mercy_n my_o god_n remember_v i_o poor_a beggar_n bear_v and_o live_v in_o blindness_n grant_v i_o that_o i_o may_v see_v and_o walk_v in_o â—hy_a light_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v become_v true_o please_v to_o thou_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o only_o i_o desire_v to_o love_v serve_v and_o praise_n make_v i_o in_o all_o thing_n conformable_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n amen_n amenâ—_n scio_fw-la cui_fw-la credidi_fw-la &_o certus_fw-la sumâ—_n i_o know_v who_o i_o haâ—e_v trust_v and_o be_o secure_a say_v s._n paul_n o_o glorious_a s._n augustin_n my_o dear_a patron_n who_o from_o my_o infancy_n in_o my_o poor_a maver_z i_o have_v honour_v in_o a_o particular_a manner_n and_o who_o have_v be_v always_o ready_a to_o assist_v i_o in_o call_v upon_o thou_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o the_o love_n of_o he_o by_o who_o love_n thy_o hart_n be_v so_o inflame_v to_o assist_v i_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o death_n and_o obtain_v for_o i_o of_o our_o lord_n that_o live_v and_o die_v i_o may_v be_v whole_o conformable_a to_o his_o bless_a will_n neither_o desit_v for_o time_n or_o eternity_n any_o other_o thing_n then_o that_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n be_v perfect_o accomplish_v in_o i_o his_o unworthy_a &_o ungrateful_a creature_n and_o in_o that_o dreadful_a hour_n
to_o return_v to_o that_o i_o be_v speak_v of_o i_o mean_v obedience_n i_o say_v in_o the_o word_n of_o a_o most_o learned_a man_n albertus_n magnus_n master_n to_o the_o divine_a saint_n thomas_n of_o aquin_n that_o so_o far_o as_o any_o virtue_n pertak_v of_o discretion_n so_o much_o of_o virtue_n have_v it_o in_o it_o and_o no_o more_o so_o thaâ—_n if_o a_o soul_n practice_v humility_n charityâ—_n obedience_n and_o in_o fine_a aâ—y_n other_o virtue_n without_o discretion_n it_o will_v more_o partake_v of_o folly_n then_o true_a virtue_n as_o the_o effect_n in_o the_o practiser_n will_v show_v this_o discretion_n be_v the_o pure_a gift_n of_o god_n the_o which_o he_o never_o so_o abundant_o bestow_v upon_o any_o but_o that_o they_o be_v all_o their_o life_n to_o have_v relation_n daily_o and_o hourly_a to_o he_o by_o prayer_n ☞_o in_o which_o he_o teach_v they_o as_o far_o as_o it_o be_v necessary_a for_o they_o what_o they_o be_v to_o do_v or_o what_o mean_v they_o must_v take_v to_o know_v what_o be_v best_a to_o be_v do_v in_o all_o that_o they_o doubt_v of_o for_o whether_o he_o resolve_v they_o by_o him-self_n or_o by_o other_o thâ—y_v acknowledge_v it_o to_o come_v frâ—m_a hâ—m_n neither_o do_v they_o desire_v to_o be_v their_o own_o chooser_n in_o this_o or_o any_o thing_n else_o and_o so_o it_o come_v all_o to_o one_o pass_v as_o to_o they_o for_o they_o regard_v he_o a_o like_a in_o all_o thing_n neither_o can_v one_o general_o speak_v apply_v another_o case_n to_o onesself_n without_o danger_n because_o the_o circumstance_n may_v much_o differ_v and_o so_o make_v that_o in_o they_o a_o folly_n which_o be_v in_o another_o perfection_n which_o many_o time_n we_o blind_o do_v ☜_o and_o no_o wonder_n if_o we_o prosper_v accordly_a for_o in_o all_o thing_n we_o be_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o god_n and_o do_v what_o he_o exact_v and_o not_o what_o be_v the_o custom_n or_o what_o this_o or_o that_o body_n have_v do_v in_o the_o like_a case_n and_o if_o we_o do_v otherwise_o we_o shall_v be_v as_o blind_a as_o beetle_n and_o never_o prosper_v in_o a_o true_a internal_a contemplative_a spiritual_a life_n and_o for_o want_v of_o well_o practise_v this_o point_n many_o get_v no_o entrance_n into_o their_o interior_a all_o their_o life_n though_o they_o have_v in_o they_o a_o very_a great_a aptness_n for_o it_o and_o this_o point_n i_o have_v before_o touch_v in_o one_o place_n of_o these_o my_o note_n for_o my_o own_o remembrance_n which_o i_o have_v write_v down_o either_o as_o i_o hear_v they_o from_o fa._n baker_n or_o as_o they_o come_v into_o my_o head_n when_o i_o be_v least_o obscure_v with_o the_o passion_n of_o fear_n to_o be_v a_o help_n to_o meâ—_n or_o at_o least_o some_o little_a light_n when_o i_o be_v not_o so_o well_o able_a to_o help_v myself_o and_o reason_n i_o have_v have_v so_o many_o occasion_n to_o try_v i_o within_o and_o without_o ☜_o and_o to_o put_v i_o into_o perplexity_n and_o fear_n for_o one_o in_o eminent_a place_n do_v labour_n â—y_a his_o objection_n to_o divert_v i_o though_o not_o with_o ill_a intention_n but_o out_o of_o a_o pretence_n of_o put_v i_o into_o a_o course_n more_o proper_a for_o i_o as_o for_o example_n because_o i_o be_v full_a of_o imperfection_n he_o pretend_v that_o contemplative_a instruction_n be_v no_o way_n proper_a for_o i_o and_o that_o i_o take_v too_o much_o liberty_n by_o they_o they_o be_v proper_a for_o those_o of_o more_o tender_a and_o fearful_a conscience_n than_o i_o be_v and_o in_o fine_a give_v it_o i_o under_o his_o hand_n very_o resolut_o as_o a_o determination_n from_o my_o ghostly_a father_n as_o in_o the_o place_n of_o god_n almighty_n that_o those_o that_o give_v i_o contemplative_a instruction_n and_o apply_v the_o liberty_n thaâ—_n be_v necessary_a for_o contemplative_a soul_n oâ—_n which_o he_o say_v there_o be_v not_o two_o in_o all_o the_o house_n to_o i_o may_v give_v i_o peace_n bâ—â—_n never_o true_a peace_n in_o god_n these_o be_v his_o word_n which_o do_v so_o much_o astonish_v i_o that_o it_o make_v i_o puruay_v for_o all_o the_o instruction_n that_o i_o can_v thaâ—_n may_v uphold_v i_o in_o that_o which_o i_o find_v be_v the_o only_a way_n that_o i_o can_v prosper_v in_o or_o be_v able_a to_o find_v our_o saviour_n yoke_n sweet_a and_o his_o bâ—rthâ—â—_n light_n for_o i_o have_v suffer_v so_o much_o before_o god_n do_v bestow_v the_o favour_n upon_o i_o oâ—_n be_v put_v into_o a_o course_n that_o be_v propeâ—_n for_o i_o and_o this_o for_o near_o â—ive_a year_n after_o my_o come_n over_o and_o have_v fall_v into_o so_o many_o great_a inconvenience_n and_o misery_n thaâ—_n nove_n can_v believe_v it_o but_o i_o that_o feel_v itâ—_n and_o though_o i_o make_v a_o shift_n a_o day_n to_o set_v â—_o good_a face_n on_o it_o yet_o in_o the_o night_n i_o bewail_v my_o misery_n with_o more_o than_o ordinary_a tear_n of_o which_o god_n and_o our_o bless_a lady_n be_v witness_n of_o though_o few_o other_o on_o earth_n and_o i_o do_v rouse_v up_o all_o the_o book_n in_o the_o house_n and_o whatsoever_o i_o find_v that_o any_o have_v do_v to_o please_v god_n i_o take_v note_n of_o it_o and_o do_v it_o as_o i_o can_v and_o this_o course_n i_o always_o hold_v since_o i_o come_v into_o religion_n as_o also_o to_o consult_v with_o all_o the_o man_n that_o any_o have_v find_v good_a by_o in_o the_o house_n and_o yet_o all_o this_o will_v do_v i_o no_o good_a and_o i_o think_v i_o be_v as_o great_a a_o stranger_n to_o almighty_a god_n as_o i_o be_v in_o england_n when_o i_o scarce_o think_v as_o to_o any_o good_a i_o do_v whether_o there_o be_v a_o god_n or_o no._n and_o be_v thus_o perplex_v and_o toss_v with_o a_o thousand_o imagination_n and_o overwhelm_v with_o misery_n yea_o almost_o desperate_a through_o the_o fear_n and_o consideration_n of_o my_o sin_n my_o mystris_n advise_v i_o â—o_o go_v to_o father_n baker_n tell_v i_o that_o fowreâ—_n or_o five_o in_o the_o house_n have_v find_v good_a by_o he_o and_o that_o at_o least_o it_o be_v no_o harm_n to_o try_v and_o it_o will_v do_v i_o no_o harm_n though_o it_o do_v i_o no_o good_a for_o he_o be_v a_o very_a grave_a man_n and_o one_o that_o be_v much_o respect_v in_o the_o congregation_n such_o like_a word_n as_o these_o she_o use_v to_o i_o and_o i_o in_o my_o nature_n be_v not_o very_o hard_a to_o be_v rule_v though_o i_o remember_v i_o have_v no_o great_a mind_n to_o it_o of_o myself_n do_v as_o she_o bid_v i_o which_o be_v do_v i_o find_v myself_n in_o fifteen_o day_n so_o quiet_a that_o i_o wonder_v at_o myself_n ☞_o the_o which_o be_v so_o soon_o as_o i_o have_v receive_v from_o he_o some_o general_a instruction_n as_o that_o i_o must_v give_v all_o to_o god_n without_o any_o reservation_n witting_o and_o willing_o of_o any_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o any_o creature_n the_o which_o i_o find_v myself_n willing_a to_o do_v and_o that_o â—_o must_v use_v prayer_n twice_o a_o day_n which_o i_o find_v myself_n capable_a of_o and_o though_o i_o find_v little_a of_o that_o which_o be_v call_v sensible_a devotion_n yet_o i_o find_v that_o with_o a_o little_a industry_n i_o be_v able_a to_o use_v it_o with_o much_o profit_n and_o that_o it_o do_v make_v any_o thing_n very_o tolerable_a which_o happen_v to_o i_o yea_o and_o it_o make_v i_o capable_a of_o understand_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v necessary_a for_o i_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n and_o discover_v daily_o to_o i_o that_o which_o be_v a_o impediment_n between_o god_n and_o my_o soul_n as_o far_o as_o be_v necessary_a and_o make_v i_o abhor_v to_o do_v any_o thing_n in_o the_o woâ—ld_n for_o any_o other_o intention_n then_o out_o of_o the_o regard_n of_o god_n and_o because_o god_n will_v have_v i_o so_o do_v and_o i_o find_v by_o and_o in_o the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n gâ—â—_n do_v find_v such_o mean_n to_o humble_a we_o that_o all_o the_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n can_v never_o have_v find_v they_o out_o for_o i_o and_o also_o send_v i_o such_o internal_a cross_n and_o show_v i_o yet_o so_o plain_o what_o i_o shall_v do_v in_o they_o if_o i_o will_v advance_v my_o soul_n by_o they_o as_o he_o desire_v that_o it_o be_v â—ut_v to_o obscure_v my_o soul_n to_o ask_v question_n â—bout_o they_o and_o will_v or_o will_v i_o i_o must_v bear_v â—hem_n and_o thus_o i_o see_v that_o god_n do_v so_o â—emper_v every_o thing_n he_o lay_v upon_o i_o â—hat_n it_o be_v so_o much_o and_o no_o more_o than_o i_o be_o able_a to_o bear_v &_o be_v convenient_a for_o i_o and_o â—e_n think_v i_o see_v that_o any_o thing_n i_o overcome_v
through_o their_o pride_n and_o forgettfullnes_n of_o their_o own_o nothing_o and_o of_o the_o greatness_n of_o thy_o majesty_n which_o pride_n above_o all_o thing_n deliver_v i_o from_o i_o beseech_v thou_o because_o it_o make_v soul_n so_o odious_a before_o thyself_o and_o all_o that_o love_v thou_o let_v i_o give_v all_o glory_n to_o thou_o who_o without_o any_o desert_n of_o i_o have_v thus_o sweet_o with_o grace_n prevent_v i_o for_o which_o be_v thou_o ever_o by_o all_o praise_v and_o adore_v amen_n the_o xiii_o confession_n o_o lord_n who_o power_n majesty_n and_o wisdom_n have_v no_o end_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o sinner_n and_o give_v i_o leave_v to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o ask_v thou_o whither_o man_n be_v please_v to_o thou_o because_o they_o abound_v with_o human_a knowledge_n and_o behold_v thou_o affirm_v no_o but_o unhappy_a be_v they_o who_o can_v pierce_v into_o all_o thing_n ☜_o if_o they_o be_v ignorant_a of_o thou_o let_v i_o therefore_o love_n and_o then_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v ignorant_a of_o that_o knowledge_n which_o make_v soul_n so_o please_v in_o thy_o eye_n to_o wit_n knowledge_n of_o thou_o and_o myself_o o_o love_n which_o in_o lightn_a soul_n and_o inflame_v heart_n wâ—th_o chaste_a love_n flow_v into_o my_o soul_n this_o love_n be_v honourable_a wisdom_n and_o though_o the_o enjoyer_n thereof_o be_v account_v fool_n by_o the_o wise_a of_o this_o world_n yet_o thou_o have_v another_o opinion_n of_o they_o and_o their_o humble_a soul_n find_v much_o favour_n in_o thy_o pure_a eye_n my_o god_n with_o this_o love_n do_v those_o abound_v of_o who_o s._n paul_n speak_v that_o they_o go_v up_o 11._o and_o down_o in_o goat_n skin_n needy_a despise_a hide_a in_o den_n and_o cave_n of_o who_o the_o world_n be_v not_o worthy_a yet_o some_o of_o thy_o saint_n become_v very_o honourable_a and_o glorious_a even_o in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n the_o which_o be_v force_v to_o acknowledge_v thou_o great_a in_o and_o by_o they_o and_o there_o be_v no_o resist_n of_o thy_o wisdom_n speak_v by_o they_o among_o which_o of_o these_o thy_o servant_n be_v the_o great_a s._n augustin_n doctor_n and_o light_n of_o thy_o church_n a_o most_o ardent_a lover_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n he_o in_o those_o book_n of_o his_o that_o i_o have_v see_v turn_v his_o speech_n so_o to_o thy_o majesty_n that_o his_o word_n thereby_o become_v sweet_a than_o ordinary_a and_o while_o he_o declare_v his_o own_o misery_n he_o give_v to_o understand_v to_o we_o thy_o most_o abundant_a mercy_n that_o all_o that_o desire_v to_o love_v thou_o my_o godâ—_n may_v be_v invite_v by_o he_o praise_v thou_o with_o he_o and_o for_o the_o favour_n show_v by_o thou_o to_o he_o o_o that_o all_o to_o who_o thou_o offre_v the_o favour_n of_o bestow_v on_o they_o thy_o divine_a love_n if_o they_o will_v after_o sin_v by_o true_a humility_n dispose_v themselves_o for_o it_o will_v become_v by_o his_o example_n grateful_a to_o thou_o and_o love_v thou_o as_o thou_o will_v by_o they_o be_v belove_v o_o how_o soon_o do_v thou_o by_o thy_o grace_n wipe_v out_o the_o sinnâ—â—_n of_o such_o who_o now_o detest_a their_o former_a ill_a life_n do_v strive_v by_o humble_a love_n to_o become_v grateful_a to_o thou_o for_o thy_o prevent_a mercy_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n though_o thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o much_o yet_o i_o be_o far_o from_o love_v thou_o much_o those_o who_o now_o enjoy_v thou_o that_o have_v heertofor_o be_v sinner_n as_o i_o be_v they_o intercessor_n to_o thou_o for_o meâ—_n and_o be_v thou_o ever_o praise_v for_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n by_o all_o thy_o majesty_n creature_n for_o ever_o anâ—_n ever_o amen_o the_o fourteen_o confessionâ—_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n who_o sweet_o dispose_v all_o thing_n give_v thy_o poor_a contemptible_a creature_n leave_v to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o my_o hope_n from_o my_o youth_n and_o entire_o belove_v of_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o i_o will_v 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for_o her_o humble_a soul_n think_v it-self_n too_o unworthy_a of_o such_o a_o favour_n when_o thou_o do_v put_v she_o in_o mind_n that_o she_o be_v to_o conver_n with_o thou_o in_o a_o more_o spiritual_a manner_n then_o before_o neither_o do_v she_o reflect_v on_o the_o labour_n pain_n and_o grief_n she_o have_v sustain_v for_o as_o thou_o know_v love_n feel_v no_o labour_n nor_o complain_v of_o any_o burden_n for_o only_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o alive_a again_o be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v she_o forget_v all_o former_a affliction_n for_o her_o sake_n and_o for_o all_o their_o sake_n that_o love_v thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o my_o sin_n and_o bring_v i_o by_o true_a love_n to_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o with_o they_o where_o for_o ever_o without_o cease_v i_o may_v praise_v thou_o my_o only_o belove_a amen_n the_o xlvii_o confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v to_o thou_o again_o and_o again_o i_o will_v call_v upon_o thou_o the_o entire_o belove_a of_o my_o hart_n i_o 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or_o to_o bereave_v thou_o of_o the_o affection_n which_o from_o all_o be_v to_o thou_o only_o due_a all_o that_o we_o be_v and_o have_v be_v too_o little_a for_o thou_o let_v we_o not_o therefore_o of_o that_o little_a we_o have_v take_v from_o thou_o o_o let_v we_o love_v thou_o above_o all_o and_o all_o other_o in_o and_o â—or_a thou_o i_o do_v bemoan_v this_o misery_n above_o all_o misery_n that_o those_o who_o have_v dedicate_v themselves_o to_o thou_o shall_v seek_v the_o love_n and_o favour_n of_o other_o to_o their_o own_o and_o the_o other_o impediment_n in_o thy_o love_n and_o service_n oftentimes_o we_o comply_v and_o correspond_v under_o pretence_n to_o get_v temporal_a mean_n the_o while_n neglect_v thou_o ☜_o who_o feed_v the_o bird_n and_o clothe_v the_o beast_n of_o the_o earth_n who_o neither_o sow_n not_o reap_v neither_o be_v they_o solicitous_a of_o any_o thing_n but_o depend_v of_o thy_o mere_a providence_n and_o yet_o thou_o provide_v for_o they_o can_v we_o 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and_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o not_o stray_v out_o of_o ourselves_o hinder_v both_o ourselves_o and_o other_o from_o adhere_v to_o thou_o to_o who_o we_o owe_v all_o we_o be_v and_o can_v do_v and_o and_o therefore_o be_v great_o to_o blame_v when_o we_o do_v not_o endeavour_v to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o soul_n with_o all_o our_o mind_n and_o all_o our_o strength_n which_o grant_v for_o thy_o own_o sake_n we_o may_v endeavour_v to_o do_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n who_o be_v praise_v love_a and_o adore_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xlviii_o confession_n shall_v not_o my_o soul_n be_v subject_a to_o god_n o_o my_o lord_n far_o be_v it_o from_o i_o to_o will_n or_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n which_o be_v only_o holy_a let_v i_o never_o resist_v thy_o will_n signify_v to_o i_o by_o any_o mean_n whatsoever_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v whole_o turn_v into_o a_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n that_o i_o may_v aspire_v and_o tend_v to_o nothing_o else_o but_o thy-self_n alone_o blot_v out_o my_o sin_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v return_v to_o thou_o by_o love_n from_o who_o by_o sin_n it_o have_v stray_v o_o let_v nothing_o but_o this_o desir_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n possess_v my_o hart_n let_v that_o be_v my_o solace_n in_o labour_n pain_n temptation_n desolation_n and_o all_o affliction_n of_o body_n or_o mind_n let_v not_o my_o hart_n draw_v by_o thou_o to_o seek_v after_o nothing_o but_o love_n be_v so_o base_a as_o to_o covet_v desir_n and_o rest_n in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o thou_o be_v my_o life_n my_o choice_n and_o my_o only_a belove_a when_o i_o hear_v theâ—_n but_o name_v my_o lord_n god_n it_o forcible_a draw_v i_o into_o myself_n that_o i_o may_v attend_v unto_o thou_o forget_v myself_n and_o whatsoever_o else_o beside_o thou_o for_o which_o benefit_n be_v thou_o infinite_o praise_v amen_n the_o xlix_o confession_n 150._o omnis_fw-la â—piritus_fw-la lâ—udet_fw-la dominum_fw-la bonedicite_fw-la omne_fw-la opera_fw-la domini_fw-la domino_fw-la 3.37_o laudate_fw-la &_o super_fw-la exaltate_fw-la eum_fw-la in_o saeoula_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v our_o lordâ—_n bless_v our_o lord_n all_o the_o work_n of_o oâ—â—_n lord_n praise_n and_o exalt_v he_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n that_o i_o be_v able_a with_o a_o pure_a soul_n and_o love_a hart_n to_o extol_v thy_o praise_n but_o alas_o 9_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o shall_v i_o for_o this_o hold_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o do_v yet_o permit_v i_o this_o comfort_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n that_o i_o may_v invite_v other_o more_o worthy_a to_o sing_v and_o set_v forth_o the_o praise_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n with_o who_o yet_o as_o the_o last_o and_o least_o my_o soul_n shall_v join_v in_o the_o praise_n of_o thou_o our_o dear_a creator_n and_o in_o that_o which_o be_v so_o worthy_o possess_v by_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n i_o will_v rejoice_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n o_o my_o holy_a and_o dear_a delight_n what_o a_o most_o harmonious_a melody_n will_v refound_v over_o all_o the_o earth_n if_o thy_o will_n and_o just_a disposition_n take_v place_n in_o all_o thing_n behold_v all_o thy_o work_n praise_v thou_o every_o one_o in_o their_o kind_n only_a man_n for_o who_o help_n and_o comfort_v all_o other_o thing_n on_o â—arth_n be_v create_v â—_o pervert_v the_o order_n of_o thy_o justice_n by_o miâ—uâ—ing_v that_o noble_a free_a will_n which_o thou_o give_v he_o to_o choose_v and_o love_v thou_o with_o o_o what_o can_v thou_o have_v do_v more_o then_o with_o such_o a_o noble_a gift_n to_o have_v endue_v we_o certain_o
just_a that_o all_o thing_n woulâ—_n happen_v to_o our_o great_a good_a iâ—_n we_o with_o humility_n and_o confidence_n in_o thou_o will_v proceed_v in_o all_o thing_n and_o not_o any_o state_n condition_n or_o corporal_a complexion_n be_v there_o wherein_o thou_o have_v not_o be_v serve_v in_o a_o perfect_a manner_n by_o some_o or_o other_o and_o if_o we_o run_v through_o all_o degree_n from_o the_o pope_n to_o the_o simple_a religious_a and_o from_o the_o great_a monarcâ—_n to_o the_o poor_a beggar_n in_o all_o we_o shall_v find_v some_o that_o have_v faitful_o serve_v and_o praise_v thou_o and_o as_o for_o naturâ—l_a complexion_n or_o disposition_n the_o most_o wicked_a have_v bring_v forth_o child_n prove_v saint_n and_o other_o who_o have_v live_v as_o to_o all_o manner_n of_o sinsâ—_n so_o iâ—_n that_o whole_a country_n have_v fare_v the_o worse_a for_o they_o and_o diverse_a soul_n perish_v by_o their_o mean_n yet_o by_o humility_n have_v become_v so_o please_v to_o thou_o o_o 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